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This Fanfic is written in vamp time, Rose has 2 trainings before Dimitri leaves.
Song is Mirage by Elina
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RPOV:
5:10pm He’s leaving me.
"Rose," he said softly, his voice laced with hesitation. "This morning’s training session will be our last. I've... I've accepted an assignment elsewhere. I’m sorry."
Those words echo relentlessly in my mind as I run, my feet carrying me forward with no clear destination in sight. Eventually I end up at the same place I always do. The music room. I trace my hand gently over the smooth surface of the grand piano, its familiar feel bringing a quiet solace I can’t find anywhere else. The piano, in its silent way, has been one of the few constants in my life—one of the rare, good things my mother ever gave me. Forcing me into lessons seemed like yet another of her cold, distant demands at the time, but now, I realize how much it’s shaped me. Back then, I couldn’t have known how deeply music would resonate within me. Left alone at the academy when I was just four, raised by the Guardians, the piano became my anchor. It was the one thing I could always rely on, besides Lissa. I still hope to be her Guardian when we graduate, though I’m not sure she’d let me. It’s been a month since she last spoke to me. The Darkness has claimed her, and no matter how hard I try, I can't find a way in. I’m lost without her. Dimitri stepped in, and all I seemed to do was train—oh, and flirt a lot. And Kiss, and okay we hadn’t made it to the sex part yet, but not without my trying.
I left the music room and made my way to my dorm, determined not to set foot in the gym again—no chance. I guess I should start getting ready for classes, even though I really don’t want to go. When I finally stepped into my room, I sat down and began to write in my diary, the words spilling out like they always do when everything feels too heavy.
* I feel so alone, and I thought I had Dimitri, but now—what do I have left? Eddie has barely spoken to me since Mason. He’s too consumed with grief to even notice that I’m still here. It’s like I’m standing on the outside, watching everyone move on while I’m stuck in place. Trapped with nowhere to go. I thought Dimitri would be here forever. I thought we were meant to be partners, guarding Lissa together. And, of course, I hoped for more—so much more. But now… what do I have left? Everything I imagined is slipping through my fingers, leaving me wondering what comes next, if anything at all. *
I didn’t make it to class. Instead, I ended up crying myself to sleep. The next thing I knew, it was 4:30 in the morning. Oops, I guess I slept through the night. I got up and made my way back to the music room, letting my fingers find the keys as they pleased. I played freely, letting whatever came to me flow without thinking too much, just losing myself in the music. And so, I started to sing. The words felt perfect for this moment, as if they were made just for it.
DPOV:
I couldn’t find her anywhere. It was now 5:26 in the morning, and training had started almost half an hour ago. I should’ve known to check the music room first. I stood just outside the door which was ajar, I heard her playing the piano. She’s so talented, but when she started to sing, it broke me.
“Light hits your eyes
My favorite eyes
It's my favorite part of the night
Cus you don't change And I'm the same
Same old hopeless case and well You should know you still turn me on
With freckle covered shoulders I used to wake up on oh
I would shed my blood to unfuck this up
To move out of the shadows
But I just stay put
You see, I'm a bit unstable
Twenty drinks a night
To hide that I can't stand not having you
I come across as heartless
Even though my heart race
Every time you're close
Don't you think that (oh)
It's so obvious that I want you I go crash into the same old scenic views
And just as I'm about to say the truth I lose you to somebody else
Hey, it's such a waste
A pointless game
Shots and fire
Damaged and pain
I should steer clear
But I can't leave
If you don't leave with me
I'll be in this booth getting drunk and broke
Pretending I don't notice you through the faded smoke
I can't keep from watching your fingers move
Like ripples on the inside of her clothes
This night's so long You see, I'm a bit unstable
Twenty drinks a night
To hide that I can't stand not having you
I come across as heartless
Even though my heart race
Every time you're close
Don't you think that (oh)
It's so obvious that I want you
Well fuck it I've got nothing left to lose
But just as I'm about to say the truth
I lose you to somebody else again”