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-Hello?
He sounds sleepy on the other side of the phone, possibly because I'm calling very late but I couldn't wait any longer, not even a second, each one was valuable to stay alive, so even if my throat hurt from the way he choked me or simple fears and anxiety, I forced myself to speak or at least whisper so he wouldn't hear me.
"Sirius?" I said it so quietly that at first I thought he didn’t hear me but as soon as I was going to repeat it I heard his voice.
-Reggie is that you? My God tell me it's you
A wave of relief washed over me, he seemed happy to listen to me
-it's me Siri- saying that nickname felt so strange for so many years without saying it but hopping to say it again, I brought the phone closer to my ear and put my knees closer to my chest while I continued hiding in the cleaning closet
"Shit, Reggie, it's you. I'm so happy to be able to talk to you I missed you every day ." he speak quickly as if time were short, as if I was afraid that I disappear
something that right now I also feared, turning into nothing, that’s something o wanted for so many years, but now I have a reason to want to be something and not give up.
A sound was heard on the other end of the phone like another person speaking at that time Sirius was silent for a time that seemed like years.
"It's Reggie, love,he called me." He remained silent again, surely listening to what the other person was saying and it seems that that person made him realize something.
-Hey Reg, is everything okay? I love that you called but it's too late and it's not normal for you to do it, so is everything okay? - It was my time to ask for help but I felt like the words weren't coming out of my throat.
-Reg, whatever happens I want you to know that I'm going to help you okay I'm going to be with you I just need you to tell me yes little star
I felt like a knot was forming in my stomach but I forced myself to speak.
-Siri I need help I know it's late but I didn't know who to call and he forced me to delete my friends number and yours is the only one I know by memory because you gave it to me and said I could call you when I needed you so I memorized it and now I need you - I felt my voice break in the process
-Okay Reggi I need you to tell me where you are okay are you home? I'm going there - you could hear a lot of noises from the other side, I assumed that Sirius was getting up.
-I'm not at home, the address is --- ---- it's a white house with a black roof, I'm going to wait outside so I'm sure you'll see me.
-It's very cold, it's better to stay inside and as soon as I arrive, I'll ring the horn and come out.
-NO- I almost screamed but I covered my mouth and remained silent for a few seconds to try to listen but I couldn't hear any footsteps so I calmed down and spoke again- don't make a noise, he can'tknow, I'm going to go out and wait for you outside.
-Who is he?- You can hear the noise of a car so I tried to get up from my pose as carefully as I could.
"I'll tell you when we meet, but I have to leave before he realizes it." I opened the closet door as carefully as I could and walked slowly across the cold floor trying not to step on a piece of glass left over from the fight.
-Okay, I'm going as fast as I can, stay on the phone with me if you don't have to talk but I need to be able to hear your breathing to know that you're okay. I don't know what's happening but I know it's not good.
I made a small sound trying to show that I'm okay as I tried to get to the back of the house and open the window slowly. It was small but big enough for me to get through. It didn't make any noise or was closed. I made sure of that, a plan that cost me a couple of screams.
-I'm almost there, I'm a few blocks away, it's funny, we are really close and we never saw each other.
-I can't go out- The last time I was allowed to go out was a year ago when we moved in together,that privilege was taken away from me.
I went out through the window and let out a moan when I jumped out of the window. The distance was short but my legs hurt.
-All good? I'm already arriving
don't worry, I'm outside." I walked as fast as I could, I was so close to being free. I looked at the street, waiting to see the car while I tried to hear some other sound from the house, but nothing that brought me relief. That idiot was so drunk that he didn't even notice that I left the bed.
Finally I see a car approaching and a sigh comes out of my mouth. It parks a few centimeters from me and I walk slowly to it. I can see the door open and I finally see my brother's face. He looked much bigger than the 16-year-old boy who once left the house. I almost fell to the floor and started crying but I forced myself to stay strong and get in the car.
"Reggie," he says with so much affection and my eyes fill with tears. I close the door and we both look into each other's eyes. The worry was evident in them. He also seemed tired but I didn't blame him for that. I'm sure I woke him up. That made me feel guilty but he was the only possible moment for me to escape – What happened little star?
-I can tell you what happened but can we please leave - Sirius nods and starts the car, I sigh and throw my head back while I close my eyes trying to never be able to go to that damn house again, I just wanted to get out of here as fast as I could, a few minutes passed
And? - I opened my eyes, the house could no longer be seen, I leaned my head on the window to look it while I began to speak.
-Mom forced me to get married two years ago when I turned 18 with the only person she thought could tolerate my “condition”- both I and Sirius let out an ironic laugh at Mom's choice of word to call me trans
-As you can imagine, this man is not that good but I thought I could put up with him, I put up with mom and dad for years, right? So it wouldn't be different but he forced me to do things that mom and dad didn't and everything hurts now. He didn't let me talk to my friends or leave the house saying that I was a damn bitch and as soon as I got out I would surely sleep with the first one I saw.
words come out firm and full of hatred, when I turn around I am surprised to see tears falling from the eyes of the one driving
-And why now you wants to leave, what changed?
A smile comes out and I touch my belly
-I found a reason not in the best circumstances but I want everything to be better for him.
Sirius moves his head a little to see both me and the street, his eyes widening, unable to believe what I just said.
-Are you...?
-Pregnant? Yes I am
-Shit Reggie this is-it takes a while and his eyes return to the street and out of nowhere I feel him start to park- We have a lot to talk but let's go first you have to meet some people
I look out the window and I can see a large building next to it there was a garage which Sirius got out to open the door so he could start the car and get into it.
I guess this will be a long and exciting adventure yaay….