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Hello love,
I hope you were expecting this. I have been, for a long time now. When you see this, well, know my brain finally decided to give out on me, for good this time. If this is a shock to you, then I am sorry for dying sooner then I planned. Death is hard to gauge for.
Alright, I'm dead, no need to flower everything up, no more games.
Thank you. Thank you for the happy years you gave me. Thank you for truly letting me experience love before I died. You gave me something I thought I would never find before I died. And I'm sorry. I'm sorry I had to deceive you to get it.
I have not always been honest with you, but it is not something I regret. I did not want to bring you the heartbreak I knew would come from loving me. I knew you wanted a future, a future I couldn't give, with a long life and a family. All those years I distanced myself from you wasn't because I didn't love you. It was because I wanted you to move on, and to be honest, I thought you did. And I was happy for you. And I still loved you. I never stopped loving you.
I wish we could have had more time together, I wish that somehow life could have worked out for us. I wish I could have been the love you deserve and we're looking for. I'm sorry that it couldn't have been me.