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I lost count of the number of ‘sorry’s we’ve traded
while trying to mend the growing rifts between us.
Maybe we didn't try hard enough.
I promised to love your flaws as much as the rest of you,
but I failed once you laid them bare.
Maybe my love wasn’t strong enough.
But your eyes were no longer kind when they sought me out
after a long day.
The soft rosy scent on your shirts
gave way to the stench of heavy smoke.
And the sweet smile which once lingered on your features
disappeared into the cunning shell
that your father left behind.
I must admit now,
that I couldn’t love your pain through my own.
Our love wilted away too easily,
leaving nothing
but the drooping white petals
of the lilies that once proved our affections.
When did staying together start eating away at us?
Were we merely two lonely souls
who brought out the worst in each other?
If it’s true that “absence makes the heart grow fonder”,
maybe you will relearn what love means
when I’m no longer by your side.
But that’s ok,
you said life would be that much easier
without me anyway.
Still, I hope you will be kinder to yourself.
But just this once,
let me be the selfish one.
I can take the blame and hatred
if it brings you peace.
Because I cannot stand
to see my mother continue to pick up the
broken pieces of her precious son.
So, this is my last ‘sorry’ to you:
I’m sorry that I couldn’t keep my promise.
I love you.