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I can't get rid of this feeling, even how many times I tried to hide or dismiss it.
It's just sitting there impatiently.
Like trapped flutterfocuses wanting to be free from their cages.
I have heard every bad news about you, and I can't help but doubt if we could both make this work. We were so used to butting our heads ever since our first year in the academy that we didn't expect that we're going to be in a relationship.
When I first saw you, I thought you were just strange and as mean as Vivica, until I saw you sitting alone during free period and didn't let anyone sit with you. You didn't admit that I was the first starling you ever talked to, and what I did was only turn a blind eye and thought that you were just sad and needed someone to talk to.
No, you prefered to be alone!
You prefered not letting anyone talk to you, not listening to anyone, not holding your hand-!
And worse, not letting someone be your lover!
Ironically, I still chose to be in love with you.
Curse the stars for making you my lover!
After you were reinstated in the Star Darlings, you suddenly became not-so grumpy and sometimes actually return a smile at any starling.
It's like you were fresh out of rehab? I suppose that's what wishlings say when someone just recovered from what they were struggling with.
You almost pulled everyone's shooting star with that cute, genuine smile of yours and also shocked Lady Solara to the point that she had to cancel the 'cheer you up' mission.
I do like your smile though. It matches your sparkle, and your green eyes when you're in Wishworld.
I know I have good judgement, but everyone thought that I was fresh out of it when I confessed to them that I had a crush on you.
And they were so dissapointed at me for that.
Sure they can think that I'm unintentionally careless, but I'm fully aware that I'll be dating the weird, loner starling of Starling Academy!
I just want someone to love me, who doesn't want that?
I may have heard all the bad news and bad reviews about you, every whisper and rumors about us being lovers, or close friends.
But now, that's just plain silly.
My friends tried to save me for trying to severe me from you but I cut them loose. I refuse to let them lecture me over and over again that I'm always wrong for loving someone who is the polar opposite of me.
Besides, I can't lose a girl like her who isn't even "officially" my girlfriend in this lifetime!
And maybe it's time for me to open that cage, and set my heart free. If this heart of mine wants to be with you, then I will suffer the consequences of being your lover.
Because even after all I've been through, I will always still choose to be in love with you.
~~~~~ END ~~~~~