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This is probably a bad take but...
I'm glad I'm not on a relationship, romantic or platonic.
When I was a kid, my way of loving was very problematic, being very honest. I was one of those kids that couldn't see one pretty girl that I was already in love with her and planning our lifes together, even though in the end, I never even talked to them.
Growing up, I was always alone. As a kid, I never had any friends that weren't my family, so I copied how my parents, uncles, aunties, etc, showed their affection. And looking back at it... Most of them didn't showed any affection at all, just glimpses of what it could've been.
My parents, for example. My mother met my dad in a show of a band that both them liked, they shared their numbers and months later began dating. Just from that, you can think that's the start of a love story in a movie, but it's not.
Six months after they started dating, my mom got pregnant of me, so they decided to get married because of what was considered normal at the time. She was 22 and he was 37. My mom gave up her studies and got a job, sentencing herself to a life of mediocrity.
I blame my father for that. My mom had her whole life ahead of her and of that fell apart because of him.
They were my example of what a relationship was. And what a bad example that was. Always screaming at each other, complaining about how their lifes turned out to be, blaming each other for whatever reason. If that's what a relationship is supposed to be, then leave me out of this.
But I do not understand how people stay together when they know they're bad for each other.
Is it codependency?
Is it money?
Maybe it's not even worth it to try it.
But the main point I want to hit is that relationships are not for everybody. Maybe you're not the dating type or maybe you're just not interested in going after a partner.
And that's okay.
Don't let other people pressure you into a relationship, because if you do, you will be unhappy and might affect your next relationships.
But hey, what do I know? Never been on a relationship before.
Don't take my opinion as the truth. Seek help if you're a toxic relationship, you are worth more than you think.