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I have a classmate, his name is Ace. He always sit beside me in class. Kinda annoying but he’s kinda funny. It seems that he loves to mess with me and by that i mean that he annoys me every second, minute and hour and I need to be 6 freaking hours with him every. fucking. day. At some point my head explodes. Literally.
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Another day goes on, it’s kinda monotone but I don’t really care. I wake, I have breakfast with my brother mark, i change and than I start walking to school. There’s Naomi and Haruno at the gates talking.
“Hey Lucy~san !!” Naomi says
“Oh hey guys, how are y’all? Have you slept Hirano~san? You have hella big eyebags, you kinda look like a zombie..”
“Uhh seriously?.. i have slept like 4 or 5 hours..? Today I’ve got a math exam”
“Well.. good luck with Kunikida~kun then”
The bell rings “oh.. it seems that we need to go now. Naomi~san which class do you have now?”
“English with Ranpo~kun and you?”
“Litterature with Poe~kun, see you after class m’kay?”
“Of course, at the cafeteria as alwayyys” she giggles.
I start to walk to the classroom when..
“Lucyyyy!”
“Good morning to you too Ace~kun.” Annoying as everyday. I go to sit and he goes after me, like a little child and he sometimes even acts like one, not in a cute way, oh hell no.
And now he goes with the rambling. after he start to talk no one can stop him, not even the teacher.
“Ace, can you please shut your mouth?im asking politely. Im trying to listen to Edgar~kun.”
“Mmh but annoying you it’s better!” He laughs. in my face.
“You know what? I don’t care, do whatever you want”
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Hours pass and now it’s lunch time so I head out of the classroom and I start to walk to the cafeteria, at least now there are only 2 hours to go. I walk through the stairs and I see Atsushi
“Hii Atsushi! How are you— wait.. is your nose bleeding?”
”Good morning Lucy-san— wait what do you mean by tha— AHH!”
“Oh cmon don’t panic, calm down” I say calmly and I pass him a tissue.
“Thanks.. do you wanna walk with me to lunch?”
“Sure”
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We walk into the giant cafeteria and there are already Haruno and Naomi waiting for me
“You finally came and.. with another one to~” she wiggles her eyebrows with a smirk.
“Oh shut up.” “And after all Atsushi is in love with mister emo” I whisper the last part.
“Oh? We totally need to get them together” Naomi says with another smirk. We three giggle with malicious smirk.
“Hey, what are you girls talking about..?”
“Oh nothing..nothing” Haruno says while she pats his shoulder.
Like this he kinda looks like a cat, I’m pretty sure one time that Dazai~senpai patted his head he even purred! I wouldn’t be surprised if he could magically transform into some feline like a cat, wait no a BIG furred tiger, yes a big furred cuddly tiger.
“I’m kinda hungry, let’s go eat”. It’s been some years that I’ve been here in Japan but I’m still not used to this kind of cafeteria, no lunch lady and definitely different habits. I still remember how it was in middle school, when we sitted down with our lunch trays. Good old memories ..
I open my bento and there are a sandwich cut in half, an apple juice and some cutted strawberries
“Really America of you ~” Naomi says
“Ha. Ha , really funny”
“Wait.. what do you mean Naomi~San?” Atsushi says with confusion in his voice
“WAIT.. you didn’t know that our Lucy is American?”
“Actually I’m half Romanian and half American-“. “More like 90% American 10% Romanian” Naomi says on top of me while uffing.
“WHAT” Atsushi exclaims flabbergasted.
“Wait. You seriously didn’t know? Do I look Asian to you?”
“Kinda.. I though you were like Filipino??”
“Seriously. Do I look Filipino?”
“Definitely” says Naomi with a joking tone. I facepalm and then I continue to eat while I chit chat here and there.
From nowhere here comes Ace, the most disturbing person in the all school, why disturbing? If we needed to write about every time he did something childish or disgusting, we could write a book. Eating paper, playing with insects or crushing them, saying the most random facts about everything, almost, almost trowing a chair at the all class. Yes, very normal behavior for him.
“What are you guys doing??” He say in the most childish voice ever.
“Hello Ace~kun! Where eating lunch, would you want to eat with us?” Atsushi says in a polite tone. Sometimes I’m jealous of him, for how calm he is and how everyone likes him, even akutagawa! (They are gonna get definitely together)
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After we finished eating the bell rings, and we all go back to our classes. I enter into religious class and after me comes my childish classmate, i go and I seat on a random desk and he comes after me like a pup. If I could get away easily from him I would, i fucking would. Nathaniel~kun has started taking but I can’t focus, because someone on my left is poking my arm.
“What.”
“You known that-“
“Stop, don’t talk, im trying to LISTEN” He gets on top of me, like a corpse.
“Eww.. get off me and don’t touch me” I say while I get him off
“Mmh, no!” He says while he giggles and puts his hand on my thigh.
I go stil. still. still. still as ice.
I can’t move. breath. talk.
His hand does an ‘up and down’ motion.
“Do I annoy you?” He says while giggling.
I can’t say stop. I-i can’t.. My voice box decides to not function.
My head is swirling. I fell like im high but not the ‘good type’ of high, much more like the ‘bad type’. The one where you can’t see straight and all you wanna do is puke. Get that disgusting feeling out of your body. Get that disgusting hands to stop touching you. Stop please
stop,stop,stop,stop,stop
Please
PLEASE
“STOP TOUCHING ME!” I can finally talk,move and breath.
He laughs in front of my face, like what he just did didn’t made me panic.
Everything is light in my mind, I feel my cheek wet. He is still laughing so he doesn’t see my conditions.
“Mr. Nathaniel, may I go to the bathroom?”
“You may”
I practically run to the bathroom. I get in a cubicle and I flop to the ground. I start to sob, the tears continue to come. I can’t stop.
I start to scratch and pinch my arms to get it to stop.
It seems to work.
I start to calm down.
I get out of the bathroom when Yosano~sensei passed in front of me.
“Hey darling, is everything alright?” She ask me calmly. i bow my head slightly. I probably look like shit
“Yes, Yosano~sensei! Have a great day.” I say while i smile faintly. I return to class and I sit down.
Ace that bastard is playing with my stuff.
“Still annoyed uh?” He says jokingly.
“Just stop..“ I don’t think he got the signals. My bouncing leg, my red eyes and the mark on my wrist from scratching anxiously. I’m scared genuinely scared that he would do something to me again. I still feel his hands on me. His nasty disgusting hands. If I continue like this I’m gonna puke.
The day finishes with a panicked Lucy who just wants to go home. I don’t even look around for Kirano and Naomi. All I want to do is run home. And that is what I do.
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After I return home I get a message on my phone.
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Hirano🐱: hey, I haven’t seen at the gates when school finished. You okay?
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I thinked about telling Hirano, she’s my best friend after all but I really can’t. I-I can’t I can’t I can’t I can’t I can’t
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You: nah im k, just a bit peachy
Hirano🐱: you know how can talk to me ,right?
You: yeah ik
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I stare at the screen. Just stare at it. I don’t know what to do.
Mark hansn’t already returned home so I go to my room and in a second everything that happened today flashes after my eyes.
I start to shake,cry,sob.
I look disgusting.
I want to kill my self.
I can’t do this shit anymore.
I’m just disgusting.
..