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Buck stands behind the bar, in the tightest tank top he owns. On second thought, it may be Eddie’s shirt. Anyway, if you had asked Buck where he thought he’d be at 28, he would not have thought this is where he’d be. Not that there’s anything wrong with bartending, he loves it, but he loves firefighting more. Without his normal salary though, Buck has no other option.

Buck chose a bar outside the confines of where his 118 family would frequent. Not like they’ve been acting like much a family, at least not to him. He still couldn’t believe after everything he’d gone through, how hard he’d worked to get back, that his livelihood is being halted by the person he trusts most.

“I’m the dumbass!” Bobby’s voice rings through his mind as he pours shots for the almost too drunk newly 21 year olds. This will be their last shot from him, he doesn’t want them getting hurt. Surprisingly, they tip pretty well for college aged kids.

Buck turns to the next guest, who’s staring at him quite intensely. He sort of recognizes her, but can’t place from where. Seemingly, she is doing the same thing. The young girl’s eyes bug out when she ultimately figures out who he is. As she runs towards her friends, Buck thinks, this is not what he needed tonight.

The young girl runs over with a couple other women that also look familiar. He recognizes one as Bailey Nune, a fellow firefighter at the 53. Buck sighs, he really did not want to run into anyone he knew, even if they’d only met in passing. News would spread around the fire stations like wildfire and he was just so done with being the center of attention.

“Buck!” Bailey says, breaking him out his thoughts, “What are you doing here?”

“Working,” Buck answers, “What can I get you?”

Bailey rolls her eyes, “I see that, but why?”

“Bailey, if you’re not going to order, I have other people to serve,” Buck goes to turn away, but the young girl grabs his arm.

“Wait! Three vodka lemonades and three white tea shots please!” The young girl says as Buck nods and starts making their drinks.

“Buck-“

“I’m being held back from working at the 118 by Bobby. I can’t afford not to work. Happy?” Buck answers as he starts shaking the shots.

Bailey frowns, “Far from it.”

“You don’t remember us, do you?” The other woman standing with Bailey and her friend asks.

“Sorry, no,” Buck says as he pours the shots.

“You saved us when you didn’t have to. Kept jumping in the water after you saved your son-“

“He’s not my son,” Buck cuts her off, “Sorry, didn’t mean to be rude.”

The woman nods, “It was a bad, traumatic day for all, so I understand. No apologies necessary. I’m Nyla and this is Tamara.”

Tamara waves as Buck hands the ladies their shots. He poured one for himself as well, “Cheers!’

Buck and the ladies take their shots as he starts making their drinks.

“You’re the only reason we’re alive. Did you ever find your boy after we arrived at the VA?” Tamara asks.

“Yes, I found Christopher. I searched high and low for him-“

Nyla nods, a bit concerned, “We know, baby. We were with you the whole time.”

Buck stares dumbfounded at Nyla. How could he forget that he had people with him on his search for Christopher? He guesses it’s pretty easy for him to do, he was on autopilot after all. All he could think about as he wandered the streets was Chris and how he had failed both his Diaz boys.

Bailey puts her hand on Buck’s as he startles back, “Where’d you go, Buck?”

Buck looks to all three women and can see the concern evident on their faces.

“What’s taking you gals so long?” A voice chirps behind the trio.

Another few women stand behind them as Buck finishes making their drinks.

“Tamara, flirting with the bartender huh? I don’t blame you, quite the looker,” Another woman says as she looks him up and down.

“What would Wes say?” The final woman says, laughing.

“Were the drinks free?”

Nyla snorts, “He would not be that chill about it.”

The group of women look to Buck as he hands Bailey, Nyla, and Tamara their drinks. Bailey hands Buck her card.

“Open or closed?”

“Open and add whatever they want to it,” Bailey answers as Buck nods.

“We’ll make it easy. Whatever you just made them looks fantastic. I’m Lucy by the way,” Lucy introduces as she points to the other two, “This is Luna and that’s Ang.”

Buck types in their orders to the computer before turning back to make their drinks.

“You know, Ang’s husband Wes is a lawyer,” Bailey says, “I’m sure he’d help you out.”

Buck snickers, “I’m not suing the department.”

“Wait, what department?” Ang asks.

“LAFD,” Bailey answers.

Luna, shocked, turns to Bailey, “You can’t be serious? That would not end well for this young man. Even if he’s technically in the right. What about the union?”

“First off, I never mentioned suing, he did,” Bailey starts.

“What else would I need a lawyer for?” Buck asks as he pours their drinks.

“Counsel on how to move forward,” Bailey answers.

Ang pulls out her wallet and a card from it to hand to Buck, “Here, this has Wesley’s info and the other card has mine. I don’t know who you are or what’s going on yet, but if Bailey believes something’s going down, I believe her.”

The rest of the women nod agreeing with Ang.

“No hero should be worried about their next paycheck,” Tamara adds, sipping her drink.

Buck rubs the back of his neck, sheepishly, “I’m no hero.”

Another customer yells for him from across the bar.

“I’ve gotta go. Enjoy your night and drinks, ladies,” Buck says as he walks towards the other end of the bar.

“Want to fill us in?” Lucy asks.

“Gladly,” Bailey answers as she walks with them back towards a table at the back of the bar.

Buck gets home at about 4 AM. Before he gets to go inside and pass out on his bed, he notices an eviction notice on his door. Buck sighs. It’s just his luck. He knew he had been a little behind on the rent, but he didn’t think it was to the point of eviction. He rips the notice off the door and enters his apartment.

Buck’s stomach growls, but doesn’t even bother eating as he’s too emotionally and physically exhausted. He’s asleep within minutes.

Buck wakes up the next day or well, later that morning at about 11 AM. Buck’s confused as to why he’s woken up so early when he hears some noise coming from his kitchen. Buck gets up, groggily, and walks towards the commotion. When he reaches the kitchen, he finds his sister, making an omelet.

“It’s nearly noon, you know,” Maddie says instead of a greeting.

Not wanting Maddie to know he had to take a bartending gig just to survive, Buck answers with a shrug, “Got in late last night.”

Maddie sighs and Buck is instantly enraged, but he doesn’t show it.

“Buck, you’re a grown man-“

“Really? Thanks for finally noticing that, Mads,” Buck answers, starting to get annoyed.

“What does that mean?” Maddie asks, crossing her arms.

“You’re right. I’m a grown man who’s been cleared for active duty-“

“You’re not ready! You may never be ready! You need to accept that!” Maddie says hysterically.

Buck scoffs, “You’re not listening and I’m not arguing with you.”

Maddie tries to compose herself, “We’re worried about you. You don’t talk to any of us anymore.”

“Last I checked, everyone has a phone. I reached out plenty, but there has been little to no response in return,” Buck says, way more calmly than he feels.

“We’re all busy, Buck. We have jobs and we can’t always answer or did you forget how it is?” Maddie answers, defensively.

“Choose a side! You’re contradicting yourself and you’re not making much sense. Until you can appreciate and respect that I know what’s best for myself-“

“Oh, I remember what you think is best for yourself. I was there for all those ER visits after you’d harm yourself for a morsel of attention. Firefighting is just another way of that and I will not lose my baby brother,” Maddie says a tone of finality to her voice.

Buck can’t believe his ears. He’s so tired of having to defend himself all the time. He could mention to Maddie that she’s being a hypocrite since her boyfriend, Chimney, does the same job. He could mention that she hasn’t been around for years and he doesn’t understand why now he’s such a huge concern for her. He doesn’t mention that she’s not his mother, he never really had one of those. He doesn’t say why he felt he had to hurt himself just for his parents to pay attention, he honestly still doesn’t understand that one. He bites his tongue because even though he knows in his soul he’s right, he just wants her to leave.

Buck walks over to the door as Maddie plates the omelet. He opens the door and just stands there. Maddie doesn’t move.

“No Buck. We’re doing what we should have done after the ladder truck explosion. We’re finding you another job, a new career,” Maddie says as if she’s talking to a petulant child.

Buck purses his lips, “Maddie, I don’t want to, but if you don’t leave your key on the counter and get out of my apartment, I will call the cops.”

Maddie huffs, “You wouldn’t.”

Buck pulls out his phone and goes to dial 9-1-1.

Maddie in complete shock at what she felt was an empty threat, takes his key off her keychain, slamming it on the counter. She storms right past Buck, but turns back towards him right outside of his door.

“Keep pushing everyone away and you won’t have the 118 off the field either,” Maddie says as she goes towards the elevator.

Buck slams his door, whispering, “That already happened.”

Chapter Text

Mid Wilshire station is buzzing with activity. Detectives Angela Lopez and Nyla Harper hand off two gang members to another officer before returning to their desks.

Angela’s phone rings to an Unknown number. Ang turns it so that Nyla can see. She shakes her head, alerting her partner that she doesn’t recognize the number.

Ang answers it and puts it on speaker, “Detective Lopez speaking. Who’s this?”

“Oh, hi! Sorry are you at work? I can call back later,” Buck sheepishly answers.

Nyla recognizes his voice, “Buck? You okay?”

“Yeah, listen it seems like you’re busy-“

“No!” Ang cuts him off, “Well, yes, but Nyla and I have a few moments. What’s going on?”

“Well, I was wondering if you let your husband know I might call? I don’t want to interrupt or intrude on his work,” Buck answers.

“I let him know, baby. He’s expecting your call,” Ang answers.

“By the way, Bailey filled us in. We’re not happy,” Nyla chimes in, “We’ve got your back, no matter what.”

Buck sniffles on the other end, but out of respect, neither woman mentions it.

“Listen Buck, my husband is going to take names and kick ass for you. Nyla’s right, you don’t mess with a friend of Mid Wilshire and get away with it,” Ang says, hoping to comfort the young man who’d seen way too many traumas for his lifetime.

“I’m a friend now, huh?” Buck asks laughing softly, trying to lighten up the mood.

“Damn straight. You saved two of ours,” Ang answers.

“Tamara and I wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for your selflessness,” Nyla adds, “You know, I think friend isn’t an accurate description. I believe you’re more like family.”

“That means a lot, thank you,” Buck says, “I won’t hold you two up any further. I did want to apologize for my behavior last night. I got nervous and defensive when I saw Bailey-“

“Honestly, Buck I’ve said way worse in the heat of the moment, no apology necessary,” Ang says as she looks towards Nyla, who’s stifling laughter.

“The both of us said worse things to people barely five minutes ago. You’re good, Buck. You’re being way nicer about your situation than we’d be,” Nyla adds as Ang snickers.

“I believe you,” Buck says.

“Harper! Lopez!” Tim Bradford yells as he enters Sergeant Grey’s office.

“We have to go, we’ll talk more later!” Nyla says as her and Ang get up.

“Bye Detectives!”

“Bye Buck!” Ang hangs up her phone as her and Nyla make their way towards Grey’s office.

Buck stares at his phone and Wesley’s business card. He knows in his heart that the 118 is his family, where he belongs. He doesn’t understand why he’s always the one that has to endure the most consequences, when most of the time he’s not at fault. Sure, he started out as a reckless, impulsive, cocky kid, but he feels he’s grown. Knows he has. Can Bobby not see that? Can all he see is the Probie Buck? Firehose stealing the truck to sleep around? He thought they were past this, but everyone else gets to make mistakes or heal in their own time, but not Buck. He just wants to seen, heard, respected…

Loved.

Why couldn’t Buck have the unconditional love that everyone else seems to receive?

Buck’s broken out of his thoughts as his phone screen flashes, Eds is calling. Without hesitation, Buck picks up.

“Eds?”

“Hey man, you okay?”

“Um, yes and no. What’s up? Superman okay?”

“He misses you. We both do. Up for a movie night tonight?”

Buck sighs, knowing he can’t. It’s Friday night and Fridays bring the best tips. He begged for these shifts and now it’s going to bite him in the ass.

“I’m sorry Eds, I can’t. Tomorrow maybe?”

Eddie shocked and disappointed answers, “Oh. Hot date?”

“No, I would never ditch you and my favorite Diaz for some random date. You don’t know how much I wish I could, but…”

“So why can’t you? I hate to do this to you, but we’ve been struggling. I tried my best after the tsunami, but Chris doesn’t need me to help him through it, he needs you. Begs me to call you. I just, my pride got in the way, thought I could handle it on my own. Please Buck, we need you,” Eddie begs.

Buck’s never heard Eddie sound like this, desperate, scared. When he pictures Eddie, he’s the poster boy for calm and confident.

“I’ll be there,” Buck says, “I’ll always come when you and Superman need me.”

Eddie sighs of relief, “Thanks for always having my back. We’ll get Thai, I know it’s your favorite. See you around 6?”

“See you then, can’t wait!” Buck answers as Eddie hangs up.

What about having mine? Buck thinks as he picks up Wesley’s card and calls him.

Wesley picks up on the first ring, “Evers, may I ask who I’m speaking to?”

“Evan Buckley, sir. You can call me Buck though,” Buck answers.

“Buck! I was wondering when I’d hear from you. I hope you don’t mind, but I sort of started moving forward for you,” Wesley says.

Buck curious, “I’m sorry, I don’t know what you mean?”

Wesley answers, “I’ve looked at your file, resume, certifications. I saw that your doctors, therapists, and the brass cleared you as well. Your captain is illogically and illegally keeping you from work.”

Buck rubs his face, “I know. I don’t want to sue, I just want to go back to work. Back to my house.”

Wesley hums, “I wasn’t going to suggest suing. Financial gain is the only thing that would come of that and from your stellar record, I can’t see that being your end goal. You not only wouldn’t be welcomed back to the 118, but your firefighting career would be over.”

“I’d never want that,” Buck answers, “I mean, yeah a steady income, but I don’t want or need to be rich. I just want to go back to helping people.”

“Going to your union would be smartest, but it could end with your captain being suspended or fired-“

“NO!” Buck exclaims, “Sorry, just I don’t want Bobby to lose his job over me.”

Wesley sighs, “Are you free right now?”

“Yes sir,” Buck says.

Wesley laughs, “No need to call me sir. Just Wes is fine. If you’d be comfortable with it, I’d love to meet and chat about this further over lunch. I think it would be the most effective way to get to know you so we can move forward.”

Buck and Wes agree to meet at a luncheonette in about half an hour. Buck hangs up and texts his supervisor that he had a family emergency and wouldn’t be able to make his shift. His supervisor answers back faster than Buck thought he would, stating if he doesn’t show up to his shift, he won’t have another one. Buck replies with a note of understanding and a thank you for the opportunity.

Buck really needs to get back to firefighting.

About 20 minutes later, Buck is sitting at a table outside the restaurant as a blonde man in a suit and a brief case walks over to him.

“I assume you’re Wesley,” Buck says as he shakes Wesley’s hand.

“That obvious?” Wes asks, laughing.

“Suit and brief case gave it away.”

“LAFD shirt gave it away for you. In case you were wondering.”

Buck looks down to see he’s in fact wearing his LAFD shirt. Guess he put it on as muscle memory, he hadn’t even realized.

The waitress comes over and takes their orders. She walks away with the promise of their drinks being over in a few moments.

“Wes, I want to start off by thanking you. Also, how much will this cost? I hate to say it, but that will sort of be the factor of whether or not-“

Wes puts up his hand, cutting Buck off, “Pro-bono. I just wouldn’t want to see the LAFD lose one of their best.”

“I don’t know about that-“

“Buck, you saved dozens of people during a tsunami, one you weren’t even working. You did that as a civilian, out of the kindness of your heart.”

“Anyone would’ve done the same.”

“I’d love some of your optimism for human nature because I hate to break it to you, but no, not everyone would’ve done the same.”

Buck goes to protest, but thinks better of it. He knows he tends to see the best in people or more hopes for it. In his heart, even though it hurts, he knows Wesley’s right.

Buck goes to say something right as the waitress comes with their drinks and the promise their food should be out shortly.

Wesley takes a sip of his drink and then pulls out a stack of papers, handing them to Buck.

Buck, curiously, grabs the stack. Before he can ask, he sees the header; they’re transfer forms.

“Um, Wes, I don’t want to transfer,” Buck looks to him, defeated.

“I know, but you don’t want to go the union and your captain is blocking your return. Myself and Bailey have put out feelers for you, the response has been enormous, if you couldn't tell. You are well-respected in the LAFD. No one can understand why Nash would want to lose a firefighter such as yourself. I agree. This is the solution that will be the most win-win for all parties, but especially you.”

“Doesn’t Bobby need to approve of a transfer?” Buck asks, stunned at how many stations seem to have an interest in him.

Wesley shakes his head no, “The Chief’s an old family friend. I assured him all you wanted was to work and that you felt it may be time to move to a new station. He assured me that he would transfer you to any station you want.”

“Can it be temporary?” Buck asks, scared of the answer.

Wesley shrugs, “If you want. Personally, I wouldn’t be able to trust Bobby to look out for my best interests after this whole fiasco. Plus, I saw that Howard Han works at the 118, with seniority, and I’ve heard through the grapevine that he’s dating your sister. The brass disapproves of people with relationships of that nature working together almost as much as they oppose romantic partners in the same shift/house.”

“Oh,” is all Buck can say. He never considered moving on from the 118, at least not so early in his career. He loved working under Bobby, with Eddie, Hen and Chim by his side. He doesn’t know if he can see himself anywhere else at the moment. However, further hearing he’s not alone in thinking that he’s being singled out by his captain, his pseudo father, both gives him vindication and hurts his soul. It breaks his heart to know that his last shift at the 118 happened and he didn’t know it.

He didn’t even think how Maddie and Chim’s relationship could affect his position at the 118 either. However, after Wes pointed it out, he knows he’s right. Chim pushed Maddie’s agenda to Bobby about how he wasn’t ready to go back to work yet. He could only imagine how much worse it could get if Chim and Maddie got married or had a baby.

While he’s happy that his sister and friend have found each other and happiness, he can’t help but think how it majorly affects his life. Yes, of course Maddie deserves a good, healthy relationship after Doug. Couldn’t it have been anyone other than his coworker though? Buck deserves good things too and he’s grateful to have others that are looking out for him now.

Speaking of.

“Sorry, I think I spaced out,” Buck says sheepishly.

“No worries, it’s a lot to take in. Know that Mid Wilshire supports you in all ways. You thanked me, but all of us will never stop thanking you,” Wes says sincerely.

Their food is brought over to them at that moment.

“I don’t need an answer right now, you can think it over. However, Bailey’s captain did put their name in the hat. They even mentioned needing a new lieutenant,” Wes adds, grabbing the ketchup bottle and putting it over his fries.

“Woah, really?” Buck asks, pulling out the transfer form for the 53.

“We saw you passed the exam, beating the best score by 2 whole points,” Wes says as he grabs a fry, “We were beyond impressed.”

Buck smiles for the first time in what feels like ages. He’s excited.

“The 53 it is then,” Buck says as he grabs a fry of his own and pops it in his mouth.

Wes laughs, “That was fast.”

“It’s nice to be wanted,” Buck answers.

Wes nods, “I understand. I’ll have you fill out those forms and we can get you in Bailey’s next shift rotation. I believe she’s also A-Shift. She’ll be so excited. So will Ang, Nyla, and the rest of Mid Wilshire. They’ll get to see you on calls.”

Buck and Wes talk about other topics as they enjoy their meal. Buck asks for the story of how Wes and Ang met, he tells him giddily. Wes also shows Buck a photo of their kids, Jackson and Emmy. Wes then asks if Buck has anyone and without thinking, he tells him all about Eddie and Christopher.

The waitress comes over with the check. Buck goes to grab it, but Wes gets to it first.

“Wes, no-“

“Yes, please let me get it. You’ve been out of work and I want to do this for you,” Wes says.

Buck sighs, knowing he wouldn’t be able to pick up the tab anyway, “Thank you. I really appreciate you all looking out for me. I may never be able to repay you.”

“No need to,” Wes says, “Plus, Ang would make me sleep on the couch if I let you pay.”

Wes and Buck laugh at that. Buck may not know the Mid Wilshire clan all that well yet, but he knows enough to know Angela Lopez is not someone to mess with.

Just as Buck signs the transfer forms, Wes claps him on the back, “Well brother, welcome to the 53.”

Buck smiles, but his whole world stops as he hears a familiar, hurt voice, “Buckaroo?”

Buck turns to face Athena, who looks heartbroken, standing beside a frowning May.

Well shit.

Chapter Text

Bobby is sitting in the living room reading when Athena and May come back from their nail appointment. He looks up when he hears the door open to see the Grant women very angry and distraught. May glares at Bobby before turning towards her room and slamming the door shut.

“I’d ask if everything is okay, but I can tell the answer is no,” Bobby says as he puts down his book, standing up in front of Athena.

Athena stands there, arms crossed, a look of heartbreak and annoyance as she looks him in the eye, “I hope you’re happy.”

“I know that’s a trap Athena. What’s going on? You and May are scaring me,” Bobby says cautiously.

Athena goes to answer as May flings her door open and storms out of her room into the living room. She stands next to her mother, in the same stance, “What’s wrong? Are you kidding me?”

“May-“

“I’ve always been thankful that you came into our lives. Mom’s never been happier. We got to add you to our family and in turn we were added to yours.”

Bobby’s face shows confusion, but that angers May more.

May shakes her head, “Don’t do that. You know EXACTLY who I’m talking about. Blood doesn’t make a family, love does. You and Buck have had a father-son relationship from the beginning. Don’t even try to protest it. He’s mine and Harry’s big brother, yours and Mom’s oldest. Tell me Bobby, why are you treating Buck like he’s incompetent? Like he can be so easily thrown away? Like he can’t be at the 118? Like he’s not family?”

May ends her rant, shaking, tears streaming down her face. Athena wraps her arms around May as she cries into her mother. Athena gives Bobby a very unimpressed look over May’s shoulder.

All Bobby can do is fall back on the couch, defeated. He has no way of answering May, not one that doesn’t make him sound like more of an ass. He knows, he knows he views Buck as more than just a coworker. He’s tried to deny it, but the brash kid wormed his way into his heart before he completed his first full shift at the 118.

Buck is his son and he has failed his children before. Lost them. He can’t lose another child. Not just Buck, but May and Harry too. He would hope that someone would look out for them as he’s looking out for Buck. That’s what he’s doing, right?

May lets go of Athena and both Grant women turn to Bobby once more.

Athena looks to Bobby, “Well, what do you have to say for yourself Robert Nash?”

“I don’t want to lose him,” Bobby says solemnly.

“That’s not a good reason to have illegally blocked him from returning to the 118,” May says.

“Nothing illegal about it-“

May goes to answer, but Athena stops her and Bobby by putting up her hand.

Mama Bear’s turn.

“If you recall, I studied to be a lawyer before changing career paths to the LAPD,” Athena starts.

Bobby nods, “I remember.”

“Buck was cleared to return to work. What a shocker that was to find out. Doctors, therapists, and the brass, Bobby, THE BRASS, cleared him. So it’s interesting that you’re the only one who seems to have a problem with Buck returning,” Athena states, daring Bobby to answer.

“I’m the Captain, I have final say about my command,” Bobby says boldly.

“Didn’t realize you rank higher than the Chief,” Athena says sarcastically.

“The blood thinners-“

“Extra sealant, surgical glue is all that would be needed!” Athena answers.

“No-“

“Yes! Bobby if you don’t have faith that Hen or Chim or EDDIE, who by the way is going to flip out when he finds out, can use surgical glue if Buck cuts himself, you have a larger problem on your hands!” May exclaims.

“May, I know you’re upset, but Buck is not thinking clearly. He rushed to come back and nearly died in front of all of us. That pulmonary embolism wouldn’t have happened if he’d just taken his time. He would’ve been at a desk job instead of in the tsunami had he just listened and not impulsively quit!” Bobby answers, trying to keep his cool.

Damn, he really wants a drink.

Both Grant women take deep breaths as there’s a knock on the door.

Athena answers the door to Chief Alonzo.

“Chief! What a lovely surprise!” Athena exclaims.

Athena lets the Chief in as Bobby and May compose themselves.

“Am I interrupting?” Chief Alonzo asks.

“No, of course not, sir,” Bobby stands and shakes his hand. Bobby gestures to the couch.

Chief Alonzo joins Bobby as Athena asks May to get the adults some drinks. May, not trusting her voice, just nods and gets some lemonade from the fridge. Athena joins the men on the couch.

“I’ll get right to it. You’re lucky, Nash, that all Buck wanted was to return to work,” Chief says.

Bobby looks to the Chief, “Sir-“

“I’ve had Captains all day, ‘Is Nash really giving up Buckley?’. I must admit, I was quite shocked, I thought you’d be handing him the Captain’s helmet one day for the 118. I digress. Two of Mid Wilshire’s best detectives called me fuming-”

May comes in with four glasses of lemonade and puts them down on the coffee table. She grabs one and takes a seat on the arm chair.

The Chief grabs one, nodding his thanks to May. He takes a sip.

Bobby looks to the Chief, “I don’t understand, sir. I’m not giving Buck up, he just needs more time.”

“He needs more time or you do?” The Chief asks as May and Athena try to hide their smirks in their glasses.

“Sir-“

“This is your last chance, Nash. You’re one of the good ones, but the way you handled Buck, not a good look for you or the department,” The Chief says as he puts his empty glass back down on the table.

“Maybe I could’ve handled this whole situation differently, but if he had taken a desk job-“

“Why would he have done that? Blood clots are at a higher risk where there’s a job with little to no movement. A desk job would’ve likely killed Buckley. Did not one of your paramedics or firefighters catch that?” The Chief looks to Bobby, baffled.

Bobby is stunned. No, surely active duty couldn’t be safer than a desk job?

“Look, Nash, the rumor mill has always been around. I try to stay out of it, but right now, the 118 has the worst of them all. Buck’s not allowed back because he’s your son. You’re listening to Chimney over Buck & his doctors about Buck’s health. Chimney’s dating Buck’s sister, who is pushing for Buck to be in a different career. Diaz worked on his late wife after she got hit by a car, when he shouldn’t have been allowed to and then lost said wife. Diaz was allowed back the day after her funeral. Diaz’s son and Buck were unfortunately caught up in the tsunami, again right back to work for Diaz, no therapy. Chimney didn’t have to go to therapy after suffering a TBI and came back within a month. You've only ever mandated Buck to go to therapy for his therapist to take advantage of him. Hen came back without therapy after cheating on her wife with her ex-girlfriend, their son’s birth mother, seemingly becoming emotionally compromised. You relapsed and let yourself go back to work the next day-“

“Did Buck tell you all of this?”

The Chief sighs, “No, but you just confirmed it.”

Bobby stunned and ashamed, just stares at his hands.

The Chief stands up, “Buck will be with the 53 until further notice. You will not jeopardize that for him in any way. Mandated therapy for the entire 118 going forward. Anyone declines, immediate suspension without pay. Is that understood?”

Bobby shakes his head affirmatively.

The Chief sees himself out as Athena thanks him.

Athena takes another sip of lemonade before putting her glass down, turning to Bobby, “We ran into Buck. He was devastated to transfer, but it was the only way. Maybe, just maybe you will learn from this. Just know, that boy being in your house has nothing to do with his place in our family. Get your head out of your ass, Bobby. Fix it or lose him, there’s no other options.”

May sighs, adding, “A few things to clear up from before the Chief came in. The pulmonary embolism happened because of the screws and rods in his leg, not overexertion. Buck was doing everything right. As for the tsunami, him and Chris wouldn’t have been in it had he been allowed back to active duty. As the Chief mentioned, desk duty would’ve killed him so thankfully he quit.”

“It’s all my fault,” Bobby whispers, “Freddie planted the bomb for revenge on me. Everything else after was a domino effect I let happen. I was just afraid, watched my kid nearly die three times in front of me…”

“Start there,” Athena says as she rubs Bobby’s back.

Bobby nods, tears running down his face.

May twiddles her thumbs.

“Something else to add, May?” Bobby asks.

“Yeah, but I don’t think it’s going to be all that helpful,” May says sighing.

“I can handle it,” Bobby says as Athena kisses his temple.

“Buck may never return to the 118. Not because he doesn’t want to, but because relationships and promotions will stand in his way. Will you be able to handle that?”

Bobby hangs his head in shame. How'd he let it get to this point? He really needs to mend his relationship with his son. He prays that there's one to mend. To do that, he needs to start by going to a meeting.

And calling a therapist.

Bobby's always feared that he would lose Buck like he'd lost Robbie and Brooke. He realizes now, he was the one that wasn't thinking clearly and fears his overprotectiveness and cowardice may have lost him Buck anyway.

Chapter Text

Buck sits in his Jeep outside Eddie’s house, hyping himself up. It’s just Eddie and Chris. Why is he so nervous? Oh right. He transferred to another station and he may never be able to transfer back because of Maddie, Chim, and Bobby.

And his feelings for Eddie.

No, not the time.

Well, actually-

He’s shaken from his thoughts by his phone ringing.

Bailey’s calling.

Buck answers, “Hey Bailey! What’s up?”

“You really joined the 53?”

“Yep!”

“Well, Lieutenant Buckley, I can’t wait to work with you-“

“And celebrate you!” Lucy says.

“Oh yeah, you’re on speaker, by the way,” Bailey laughs, “Join us for drinks?”

“Um, I can’t tonight, but maybe tomorrow?”

“Date with Diaz?” Bailey asks, smirking.

Buck blushes, “No-“

“Who’s Diaz?” Lucy asks.

“Babe, don’t ask him that, you barely know him,” Tim adds.

“You’re extra Sergeant Grumpy tonight, huh Tim?” Tamara snickers.

“He said tomorrow, let him go to his date,” Tim says ignoring Tamara’s comment.

“Not my date!” Buck exclaims.

“Yet!” Bailey adds, “We’ll let you go. See you tomorrow!”

“Oh! Bring Diaz!” Lucy calls.

“Wait-“ Buck starts before realizing they hung up.

Buck sighs and rests his head against the back of his seat. A knock on the window startles him. Eddie stands there, eyeing Buck with concern.

Buck gets out of his car.

“Saw you pull up like twenty minutes ago. Everything ok?” Eddie asks.

“Not really, but I’ll explain later,” Buck answers, smiling softly.

Eddie nods not wanting to push. He knows pushing won’t help Buck with whatever he’s going through. He hates that his best friend is hurting, but he’ll be there when he’s ready to talk about it. It’s only fair since Buck has never forced Eddie to open up before he was ready to. Something feels wrong though, unsettled, and Eddie hates it.

Eddie and Buck walk into the Diaz home. Immediately, Buck’s face to face with his favorite Diaz.

“BUCKY!” Christopher yells as he hugs Buck.

“SUPERMAN!” Buck yells excitedly, hugging Chris back.

Eddie leaves his boys to reunite as he walks towards the kitchen. He can’t believe he ever thought it was a good idea to keep them apart. He was just afraid after the tsunami. He meant what he said; there's no one he trusts more with his son than Buck. He just, he knows he can’t live without Chris and he almost had to. He almost had to live without Buck too. Seeing Buck collapse onto their team is just another nightmare that replays for him nightly. It was a lot to process, too much to process. He already has to live without Shannon and is barely surviving that. Losing Buck…

Eddie finally gets to the kitchen where Carla is plating their Thai food.

“He ok?”

Eddie sighs, “He said no, but I guess that tracks.”

“I’m sure his spirits are being lifted as we speak. Chris and Buck have such a sweet bond, he’ll be able to help Buck out of his funk. So will you,” Carla says fondly.

Eddie laughs, “You give me too much credit, Carla.”

Carla hums, “I don’t think you give yourself enough.”

Buck and Chris join Eddie and Carla in the kitchen. Carla gives Buck a hug that he melts into. Buck is excited to hear that she’ll be joining them for dinner, he’s missed her almost as much as his missed his Diaz boys.

The dinner goes by with laughter and stories. Chris catches him up on everything that Buck has missed since the tsunami. Buck’s grateful to have a distraction from his everyday problems as he listens intently to Chris detail his most recent Science Club meeting. He asks Buck for help with a project to enter into the Science Fair and Buck agrees happily.

When dinner is done, Carla wishes her boys goodbye and a fun evening. She gives each one a hug and a kiss before making her way out the door. She winks at Eddie before making her way to her car. Eddie thinks to himself that he can’t be that obvious, but he shakes the thought when Chris calls for him to join them on the couch. Chris plays a Marvel movie, his latest obsession, as the three cozy up, with popcorn and chocolate to share.

By the end of the movie, Chris is nodding off. Buck gives him a hug before Eddie carries him off to bed. Buck goes to the fridge to grab him and Eddie a beer. Buck knows he’ll need the liquid courage for the conversation they’re about to have. Buck sighs taking the cap off his beer before taking a long sip.

“That bad a day, huh?” Eddie says, smiling weakly as he leans against the door frame.

Buck opens the other bottle and hands it to Eddie instead of answering. He moves back towards the living room, Eddie following closely behind. If Eddie was worried before, he’s terrified now.

Buck and Eddie sit on the couch. Buck continues to drink his beer while Eddie takes his first sip. Buck has his eyebrows scrunched, seemingly trying to figure out however he wants to word his inner turmoil. Eddie waits, channeling patience he didn't realize he had, knowing Buck needs the space to figure this out.

Buck finishes his beer, putting it on the table before turning to face Eddie. Eddie puts down his own beer and sits facing Buck.

“You have to know that this the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do-“

“You’re scaring me, Buck.”

“I’m sorry it’s not my intention, just know if there was another option I’d do it.”

Eddie grabs Buck’s hands, “Evan, what is going on?”

Buck takes a deep breath, “What is Bobby saying about me?”

Confused, Eddie lets go of Buck’s hands. What does Bobby have to do with this?

Eddie clears his throat, “Um, that the doctors and the brass can’t clear you to come back because of the blood thinners-“

Buck huffs, “And you believe that? You, the former army medic?”

Eddie’s confused. Why wouldn’t he believe what Bobby is saying? It makes total-

“Wait, what does my experience as an army medic have to do with anything?” Eddie asks.

Buck sighs, “Eds, I’m going to blame this on the fact that you’ve had a lot going on. I’m on blood thinners and Bobby wants me to take a desk job…”

Buck looks to Eddie expectantly. Suddenly, the light bulb clicks.

“After a pulmonary embolism, a desk job would only increase the chance of clots,” Eddie answers horrified.

Buck shakes his head.

“Okay so we’ll talk to Bobby. We’ll get Hen and Chim to back us up-“

Buck laughs humorlessly.

Eddie is confused once more, “What’s so funny?”

“Eddie, the only one that we have a chance to see reason is Hen. Chim’s turned into my sister’s lackey. He’s been spewing how unready I am for weeks to Bobby and anyone else who will listen on my sister’s behalf. Bobby just sees my as the same unreliable, desperate kid I was when I joined. You’re the only one who wants me back-“

“That’s not true!” Eddie exclaims angrily.

Eddie stands up, pacing in front of Buck. He can’t believe this, refuses to accept that Buck doesn’t know how much worse off the 118 is without him.

“Eddie-“

“No! Listen, the 118 has been suffering without you! I’ve been suffering without you! Everyday I have to put my faith into people that don’t even measure up to you! Don’t have the same dedication as you to get me back to my son! We will get Bobby and Chim and Hen, if need be, to get their heads out of their asses because there is NO WAY I’m losing you-“ Eddie suddenly can’t see as his breaths become labored.

Buck is in front of him, hands on his shoulders, saying something. Eddie can’t concentrate, can’t hear what Buck is trying to say. It’s just getting harder and harder for him to breathe.

Buck sits Eddie down, grabbing his phone. Eddie grabs it from him and throws it. It takes everything in Buck not to shake Eddie.

“DADDY!”

Both men turn to see a scared Christopher, standing in the hall with the support of the wall, staring right at them.

Eddie catches his breath, but is unable to form any coherent words, let alone a sentence to comfort his son. How does he keep failing as a father? Were his parents right?

“Chris, hey Superman, what happened? Bad dream?” Buck says as he kneels in front of Chris.

Chris sniffles, “I was hearing people scream and picturing us in the water. Then, I realized the screaming voice was primarily Dad and he wasn’t there with us. Then, I got out of bed and saw-“

Chris starts crying. Buck picks him up and soothes him, whispering assurances that everything’s going to be okay. Chris hiccups and squirms. Buck kisses his head and lets him down.

Eddie, watching the scene before him, has gotten himself back to a relatively calm place. Chris walks over to Eddie and sits on his lap, giving him a big hug. Eddie wraps Chris in his arms as his son buries his head in his father’s shoulder.

Buck walks into the kitchen to give them a moment of privacy.

Chris sniffles as Eddie tries and fails to keep the tears at bay.

Chris pats Eddie’s back and whispers, “You’re going to be okay kid.”

Eddie laughs wetly, “How’d I get so lucky with a son like you, huh?”

“Fate.”

“Fate, for sure, mijo,” Eddie says as he rubs Chris’ back.

Eddie kisses Chris curls as he squirms out of his hold, yawning.

Buck comes back into the living room, handing Eddie a bottle of water. Eddie just nods his head in thanks.

Buck picks Chris back up again and walks him back into his room.

Eddie downs the entire water bottle and continues to try and get himself back under control. Eddie wonders what Buck was going to say before he started on his panicked rant. Was he going to say he was quitting officially? Going to the union? A lawyer?

No, Buck wouldn’t jeopardize his reputation by going to a lawyer and suing. Right? He has to know that won’t end well for him, even if Bobby’s wrongfully keeping him from returning. That begs the question of why Bobby would do such a thing? He’s been just as eager to have Buck back as the rest of them. Or so he thought.

Eddie’s thoughts are interrupted by a notification on his phone. He takes his phone out of his pocket to see a new notification from Hen. Her ears must’ve been ringing.

HEN & EDDIE PRIVATE CHAT

Mother Hen: Call me. NOW.

Eddie dials Hen’s number and walks into his bedroom, shutting the door behind him. Hen picks up on the second ring. There’s music in the background that’s fading as he assumes she steps out from whatever bar she’s in.

“Have you seen or spoken to Buck recently?” Hen asks, sort of panicked.

Eddie confused at her tone answers, “Yes, he’s here with me now actually. Why?”

Hen continues, “Is he in the same room as you?”

“No, he’s putting Chris back to bed. Again, why?”

Hen sighs, but continues, “Karen and I are out with some of her coworkers at this semi new bar.”

“Okay, Hen-“

Hen interrupts Eddie, “Bailey Nune and her friends are here too.”

Eddie, puzzled and trying to place who Bailey is, sighs saying, “Not to repeat myself, but okay…”

Hen doesn’t answer.

“Hen, are you still there?”

“Do you not know who Bailey is?”

“Not off the top of my head-“

“She’s a firefighter paramedic over at the 53.”

“So-“

“I overheard her and her friends talking about how excited she is that Buck’s joining the 53 as their newest lieutenant.”

Eddie’s whole world stops as his phone falls to the floor. He vaguely hears Hen calling for him through the phone before the whole room tilts and all he sees is black.

Chapter Text

Eddie comes to to a pretty upset Buck on the phone.

“Really Hen? I was just about to tell him!”

When he hears Hen’s voice, Eddie realizes Buck’s put the phone on speaker.

“I’m sorry, Buck. I panicked. I don’t understand why you’re leaving if you’re cleared for active duty. Why not come back to the 118?”

“Ask Bobby,” Buck says defeated.

“I’d rather hear it from you. Clearly, I don’t have the whole story. I’ve not been the best friend I could be to you and I’d like to make it up to you. I understand if you’re too upset with me at the moment, and I really do apologize for sharing your news. I just, it was surreal. Something I never thought I’d hear. You leaving the 118 to be clear. You becoming lieutenant is not shocking, you’re one of the best firefighters I know, Buck.“

“Thank you Hen. I appreciate it. I swear I was going to tell everyone,” Buck says, smiling softly, “I miss you, you know.”

“Miss you too, Buckaroo,” Hen says laughing.

Buck finally looks over as Eddie groans.

“I gotta go Hen, Eddie just woke up.”

“Take care of him. Talk soon.”

Hen hangs up as Buck sits in front of Eddie.

“What do you need?” Buck asks.

“A time machine,” Eddie answers.

“I’m sorry, Eds. I-“

“Why Buck?”

“Bobby left me no choice, Eds!”

“You could’ve talked it out-“

“I thought we had each other’s backs, Eddie!”

“I do have your back, but I can’t have it on the field if you transfer!”

“THAT’S on Bobby and Chim and Maddie!”

“We coulda-“

“Eds, my disability pay stopped the day I re-certified. I’ve had no income from the LAFD FOR MONTHS. I’m broke, Eds,” Buck sighs, “I can’t just wait around for Bobby to be ready for me to go back to work. Other Captains expressed interest and I had to jump on it. I am so thankful working at the 118 brought me to you and the others, but I need to do this for myself. The issue doesn’t lie with me, it lies with Bobby. Whether or not him and I hash it out, I think I need the time away. You have to know that this is not my first choice. I love working with all of you at the 118, you especially. I am so grateful that Bobby made us partners. But Eds, Bobby’s messing with my livelihood.”

Eddie stares at his hands, trying to keep the tears at bay, “I’m so angry. Not at you, I just can’t believe how selfish Bobby’s being. Maddie and Chim too. I’m so angry that they’re taking away the best partner I will ever have.”

“I want us to hopefully be able to work together again one day. I so don’t want this to be a permanent transfer. Right now, Eds, I don’t trust Bobby. You have to know, that breaks my heart,” Buck’s voice cracks as tears run down his face.

Eddie, not being able to speak again without a guttural sob making its way out, pulls Buck into the tightest hug he can imagine. Both men continue to break down. They don’t break out of the hug for what feels like hours. Both wipe at their face.

“Shit, it’s like 11,” Buck says as he looks at his watch.

Buck goes to get up, but Eddie stops him, “Stay.”

“Don’t you have a shift?” Buck asks.

“Starts at 6. I’m sure Chris would be thrilled if his Bucky was making him pancakes for when he woke up,” Eddie says, knowing exactly how to pull at Buck’s heartstrings.

Buck sighs, “You know I can’t say no to Superman.”

Eddie nods as the pair gets off of the floor. Buck goes to grab the sheets and pillows from the closet, but Eddie stops him.

Eddie quirks an eyebrow to Buck.

“You want me to stay so I’m grabbing the stuff for the couch-“

“That can’t be comfortable. Stay in here.”

“And you stay on the couch? This is your house, Eds.”

Eddie rolls his eyes, “My bed’s a king, we could share.”

Buck rubs the back of his head, trying to stop the blush on his cheeks.

“It’s not that big of a deal, Buck. If you’re uncomfortable though-“

“I’m not, we’ve just never done that before.”

Eddie shrugs, “I’m cool with it if you are.”

Buck nods as Eddie lets him use the bathroom first. Buck just brushes his teeth since he knows Eddie has an early morning and long day ahead.

When Buck exits the bathroom, Eddie had laid out some clothes for Buck. Eddie heads in with his own clothes as Buck hears the shower start to run. Buck changes quickly and tucks into the side of bed he knows isn’t Eddie’s.

Buck’s world has been shifted multiple times over the last several months. Telling Eddie that he’s leaving the 118 has to have been one of the worst things he’s ever had to do. Realistically, he knows that’s super dramatic.

He had a firetruck crush his leg and had to go through months of PT to be able to walk properly again. He had a pulmonary embolism and then survived a tsunami with Chris within the same week. He still doesn’t really know how he’s still standing after that one, adrenaline probably. He’ll have to ask Tamara and Nyla about the gaps in his memory from that day. Not when they’re out later, but maybe he could see if they wanted to get coffee and talk about it. Trauma dump or bond or whatever the younger generation calls it.

The shower turns off as Buck remembers that Lucy told him to bring Eddie. He’d have to make sure everyone knew that him and Eddie were simply just best friends, no romance between them at all. He just wouldn’t want Eddie to be uncomfortable and stop speaking to him. It’s already bad enough Buck has to leave the 118, he does not want to give Eddie another reason to put more distance between them.

Buck knows his feelings for Eddie are one sided. He’s never been explicitly told by Eddie, but from his dating history and what Eddie’s divulged, he knows Eddie’s straight. What a cliche Buck is, falling for his straight best friend.

Eddie exits the bathroom, toweling his hair.

“I hope you don’t mind, but I told Carla she could have the morning off. Figured since you’d be here with Chris it’d be overkill to have the both of you. I can tell her to come like after lunch because I don’t want to assume you’re around all day.”

“I was going to ask if you wanted to join me tomorrow night for drinks? If so, then you'd only need Carla, Abuela or Pepa for after your shift since I could hang with Chris until then. One of my new coworkers and her friends are going to this first responder bar in the Mid Wilshire section of the city. They’re cool people, I’ve met a couple of them already. No pressure, but I think it’d be fun.”

If Buck didn’t know Eddie so well, he wouldn’t have thought much of it and honestly probably would’ve missed it, but Eddie’s eyebrows scrunched. Buck knew it was in annoyance, but he wasn’t sure if it was at him or the situation in general.

“It’s only a 12 hour so I’ll join. I have to make sure this Bailey person will keep you safe. The Diaz boys need their Buck,” Eddie says, winking.

Buck is frozen.

Eddie shuts off the lamp and gets into bed, “Night Buck.”

Buck recovers, “Night.”

Even though Buck’s head is spinning, he falls asleep rather quickly.

Buck wakes up the next morning to Eddie’s alarm. Buck lets Eddie get in the bathroom first, so he can get ready for work. Buck heads to the kitchen and starts getting the coffee ready. Knowing Bobby will probably make Eddie’s breakfast, he just makes Eddie a couple of eggs. If he doesn’t want them, Buck will eat them to hold him over before he starts making Chris’ pancakes.

Eddie finishes getting ready rather quickly and enters the kitchen, grabbing two mugs. He fills both, one to his own liking and one to Buck’s. Eddie places them on the table as Buck puts the eggs down with some toast. Eddie takes two of the four eggs on the plate along with a piece of toast and pushes the other plate to Buck.

Buck smiles as the two dig in. Not much is said, but there doesn’t have to be. Eddie’s heart aches as he wishes that Carla were here too because that would mean him and Buck would be heading to work instead of just him. Alas, his son will get to spend the day with his Buck so as much as his heart is breaking for himself, his heart is happy and full for his son.

Eddie checks his watch as he finishes his coffee and eggs and sees that he has to be out the door in five minutes or he’ll be late. He so wants to be late. Hell, he doesn’t want to go at all. He wants to spend the day with Buck and Chris. He wants to spend every day, moment, second with Buck.

Eddie sighs and puts the dishes in the sink, “I really wish I didn’t have to go.”

“I know, Eds. I wish you didn’t either, but hey! Tonight we’ll get to let loose and have fun!”

“I just don’t know how I’m going to be able to look at Bobby the same. Hell, I don’t know how I’m even supposed to listen to him,” Eddie looks to Buck, clearly heartbroken.

Buck sighs, “Bobby wins if he sees it affects you. Plus, I don’t want you getting shit for sticking up for me…”

“I hate this Buck. I cannot believe Bobby. This is,” Eddie sigh, keeping the tears at bay. He’s definitely going to be late and he doesn’t care.

Buck nods and stands in front of Eddie, lifting his head so that he’ll look him in the eyes.

“Eds, I know this changes things with work, but it changes NOTHING anywhere else,” Buck says, determined for Eddie to understand, “We are still Buck and Eddie. I hate how things are going with the 118, but I’m pretty excited for the 53. A fresh start, professionally. I’m a dumb kid at the 118, but at the 53 I’ll get to be a lieutenant, someone who’s respected.”

“I’ve never viewed you as a dumb kid, Evan. I’ve only ever viewed you as my partner,” Eddie whispers.

Both men have tears going down their faces again, Eddie starts moving towards Buck…

Buck’s phone rings.

Buck clears his throat and takes out his phone as Eddie moves back and leans against the counter. He wipes his eyes.

Buck looks down to see Bailey’s calling.

“I gotta take this.“

“Yeah, of course Buck. See you later,” Eddie says kissing Buck on the cheek before heading out of the kitchen and the front door.

Buck, stunned, just touches his hand to his cheek.

Buck’s phone starts ringing again and it snaps Buck out of his stupor.

“Bailey, sorry, I was just cleaning up breakfast,” Buck says, still trying to wrap his head around what just happened.

Bailey snickers, “Sounds like you had a good night then.”

“Um, yes and no. Eddie’s coming later, but we’re just friends. I think,” Buck adds, cursing himself for doing so.

“You think?”

“I don’t know it was a lot,” Buck sighs, “Just can we not infer later that we’re dating please?”

“Oh Buck, I’m so sorry. I’ve heard the rumors and I was curious, but it was not my business. I promise there will be no teasing later, I’ll make sure everyone knows you’re both single,” Bailey says sincerely.

“Thank you. I’m guessing that’s not why you called?” Buck questions.

“Oh no! Can you come by the station today? Cap thinks it may be a good idea since you’re starting on Thursday.”

“Bailey, I’d love to, but I have Chris all day. Would it be ok if I brought him?”

“I don’t see why Captain Thomas would have a problem with that. I’ll ask him and let you know!”

“Amazing!” Buck exclaims, “Also, I’m so pumped for tonight. I think it’ll be nice to branch out and meet more people.”

“It’s going to be so fun! All of our Mid Wilshire crew and their partners will be there. So many people want to thank you-“

“That’s really not necessary-“

“NUNE!”

“Sorry Buck, I’ve gotta go. See you later!”

Bailey hangs up. This leaves Buck to process everything that happened within the last 12 hours before Chris wakes up. Mainly, what just happened not even 10 minutes ago. That must’ve been a mistake, Eddie didn’t mean to kiss him on the cheek. Maybe he did? He was leaning forward before Bailey called. Was the kiss on the cheek meant for the lips? Oh Buck was definitely going to spiral. Not now, he has Chris to worry about.

Speaking of, Buck hears Chris’ crutches on the hardwood floor heading for the kitchen. Chris enters, yawning.

“No pancakes Buck?” Chris asks, frowning at Buck.

Buck laughs, “Of course there’ll be pancakes! Figured you’d want to help since it’s been a while since we cooked together.”

Chris expresses his excitement at that as Buck prepares all they will need for the pancakes.

After Chris and Buck make and eat their pancakes, the duo gets ready for the day. It turns out that Captain Thomas was thrilled to hear that Buck would be bringing his son, something that Buck would have to correct when he got to the station. Chris was excited to see where Buck would be working from now on. Although, Chris seemed a bit upset when Buck said they wouldn’t be stopping at the 118 as well. It broke Buck’s heart, but he just couldn’t face his old team right now. Buck, never wanting to lie to Chris, told him that. Chris nodded in understanding. Buck has never been more grateful for the youngest Diaz.

Buck found out that since he’d be staying on the A Shift, him and Eddie would still have near identical schedules, regardless of being at different stations. This just added to Buck’s giddiness to get started once again. Bailey texted saying they were called to a three alarm fire, stating they’d probably get back to the station by noon. Chris and Buck hang around the Diaz house until then, starting on Chris’ science fair project. When it reached just about 11 AM, Buck and Chris headed towards the 53. His new station is kinda far from the Diaz house, which is sorta upsetting. It doesn’t even matter how far it was from the loft, he won’t have it for much longer anyway. He definitely has to look for a new apartment, he’ll have to do that on Monday.

Buck pulls into the parking lot just as the trucks pull back into the bay about 45 minutes later. Buck helps Chris out of the car as Bailey makes her way over.

“Buck!” Bailey exclaims as she pulls him into a hug, “Is this our newest recruit?”

Chris giggles, “Not today, but one day!”

Buck admires Chris’ optimism and determination more than anything.

“We’ll just have to keep on eye out for you when you join academy,” Bailey says with a smile and crouches down to Christopher’s level, “I’m Bailey. I’m going to be working with Buck from now on.”

Christopher looks Bailey up and down protectively, “I’m Chris. Please look out for my Buck while my dad can’t. Or until Bobby gets him head out of his butt-“

“CHRIS!” Buck exclaims, exasperated.

Bailey laughs, “I promise to have his back.”

Chris nods, “I believe you.”

“Shall we meet the rest of the team?” Bailey asks, “They’re probably up in the loft waiting to meet their newest Lieutenant.”

Buck smiles, “I’m ready. Hopefully, I’m not a disappointment.”

“Please, Buck, your record precedes you. Captain Thomas is just happy you’re giving us a chance.”

“I feel like that should be reversed. I’m thankful for the chance to work here from Cap,” Buck says as the three of them start walking towards the station.

Buck and Chris are met with about a dozen firefighters welcoming them with Captain Thomas leading the pack. Cap and Bailey show him and Chris around before forcing them to sit down for lunch. It’s not as good as Bobby’s, but he supposes nothing is. It makes his heart ache a little, but he doesn’t dwell for long as he gets to know his new teammates. Everyone had been super kind and accepting, not only to him, but to Chris as well. Many of them are already connecting with Chris which Buck loves. If they hadn’t been accepting of Chris he would not have been able to work for the station. He realizes it was a silly thought to have, but he can’t help but be protective of Chris. If anyone were to ever be mean to him or exclude him, Buck would have no problem cutting them out. Thankfully, that’s not the case with the 53.

Buck's smile doesn't dim as him and Chris continue to get to know the 53. He's starting to view them less as just Bailey's coworkers the more time he spends with them. He can see himself thriving here. Since he's trained and certified in heavy rescue and rope rescues, the 53 will now start getting more of the calls he's used to from the 118. Buck is even finding it easy to find the line between him and his teammates, since he'll have to help lead them. He saw what happens when the line gets blurred. Plus, he's not really looking for another family.

Captain Thomas and Buck exchange numbers so that they can meet before his first shift to discuss the house and work personalities in more detail.

The bell rings about an hour and a half into their visit while Chris is playing video games with Bailey.

Everyone runs towards the trucks and Buck’s mind can’t help, but wander to his old team…

Chapter Text

Eddie realizes what he’s done about halfway to the firehouse. Eddie panics the rest of the way to work.

Eddie tries to calm himself down as he parks. He rests his forehead against his steering wheel as he takes a few deep breaths. Eddie’s just been overwhelmed and the kiss on the cheek was just instinctual. He wasn’t ready to admit to Buck his feelings yet. Too much has been happening and changing lately. Plus, he knows Buck doesn’t feel the same way if his reaction to them sharing a bed last night was anything to go by. Eddie just wouldn’t be able to handle Buck’s rejection. Other than Chris, Buck is the most important person in his life. He’s already lost Buck at work so he can’t lose him at home too. That would break Eddie in a way only Shannon’s death has…maybe more.

With one final deep breath, Eddie exits his truck, heading into the station. Immediately, Eddie is met with an eerie silence. Eddie makes his way up to the loft and sees a sight he never thought he’d see. Bobby is nowhere to be seen as Hen and Chim are sitting on opposite sides of the loft. The rest of A-Shift is dispersed as Eddie makes his way towards Hen at the island.

Rosen grabs Eddie’s arm as he passes, “Be careful, Diaz. Chim tried to greet her this morning and she all, but growled at him.”

Eddie nods his head in understanding and starts making his second cup of coffee for the day. He looks to Hen, “No Bobby?”

“He’s in his office. He told everyone to fend for themselves for breakfast. I know he’s not kidding, but it seems no one else is convinced he won’t start cooking,” Hen replies as she takes a sip of her coffee. Next to her mug is a plate with a bagel and some fruit.

Eddie sits next to her at the island.

Hen looks to Eddie, “You’re not convinced either then?”

“I already ate,” Eddie says as he sips his coffee.

Hen and Eddie sit in a comfortable silence as the tension in the loft grows thicker. The rest of the crew realize Bobby wasn’t kidding and start grabbing quick breakfasts. While Eddie does not believe in signs, he does currently believe the universe is taunting them. It’s nearly an hour into their shift and the bell still hasn’t rung. Bobby has yet to come out of his office as well.

Hen’s phone dings as she gets up to refill her coffee. Chimney looks over to the duo with a hopeful glint in his eyes. Hen checks it and rolls her eyes, pocketing her phone, not even bothering to answer it. Hen puts down her mug and grabs Eddie’s to refill his.

Chimney, seemingly seeing that Hen can’t be bothered with him, joins the rest of the crew that started on their chores. Hen rejoins Eddie, handing him his mug. Eddie and Hen are now the only two in the loft.

Hen squeezes Eddie’s hand as he tries hard not to crack.

“I’m sorry about last night Eddie. I just, there are no words to describe how it felt hearing that,” Hen says, clearly trying to keep herself from breaking down as well.

“Trust me, Hen, I understand. Buck and I spent a good portion of the night just devastated and angry. Well, I think he has come to terms with it, I was angry,” Eddie says, rubbing his face, “I just don’t get it.”

“If Buck explained it to you and you still don’t understand, there’s no hope for the rest of us to,” Hen says, trying to offer a comforting smile to Eddie.

Eddie sighs, “To be clear, I understand why Buck’s doing what he is. I don’t understand Bobby.”

Hen sighs, “Me neither. I still don’t even know most of the story, only Bobby’s side. When Buck is ready, I want to hear his.”

“Hen, I don’t know how I’m going to survive without Buck,” Eddie says staring into his mug.

“You still have him,” Hen says as she rubs his back, “I’d be more offended if I didn’t know your heart, Edmundo Diaz. He may not be here right now, but you still have me.”

Hen sips her coffee as Eddie hums, “Guess I can’t be too sad about that.”

Hen winks as they laugh and then continue drinking their coffee in silence.

The bell finally rings as they finish their coffee. As they run towards the trucks, Eddie gets his first glimpse of Bobby since arriving. Bobby looks wrecked. He sees his face up close before jumping into the truck, his eyes are bloodshot and he looks like he barely slept. Everyone jumps into the respective seats except for Hen who sits in Buck’s seat next to Eddie. He would normally be upset, but today Hen is giving him some much needed comfort. He also sees it as a dig to Chim. While he’s not entirely sure what’s going on between the two, he can only guess it has to do with Buck.

Bobby puts on his headphones and turns around, letting them know what they’ll be up against, “Three alarm fire. This is normally out of our range, but other stations are preoccupied with a possible sink hole on the highway. We’re assisting the 53.”

Eddie’s breath hitches as Hen squeezes his hand. Bobby turns around, seeing the action, but not acknowledging either. Chim, clearly not already enough in the doghouse with Hen, chimes in.

“You Buck now, Hen?” Chimney asks, laughing, as Eddie clenches his fists and Hen glares at him.

“I could only hope to be half the firefighter Buck is,” Hen remarks as Eddie bites his tongue to stop himself from laughing, “I’ll take that compliment any day.”

“Can I know what I did?” Chim asks, looking directly at Hen.

“No,” Hen answers as she looks away from Chim, not letting go of Eddie’s hands.

“Cap-“

“She said no Chim, leave it be,” Bobby says without looking back. If Eddie didn’t know any better, he’d say Bobby’s trying not to cry. Good, Eddie thinks, you should be suffering without Buck since you’re making us all suffer without him for some reason.

Chim huffs and looks out the window.

The 53 is getting the scene under control by the time they pull up. Bobby goes up to their Captain, whose name Eddie should probably learn, and gets instructions from where he wants the 118. As if the universe is continually punishing him, Eddie gets paired with Bailey as Hen and Chim are told to triage.

Eddie and Bailey go back into the apartment building, looking for stragglers.

Eddie calls out, “LAFD, call out!”

“I'm glad we're getting this chance to work together, Eddie. LAFD,” Bailey says as she knocks on a door.

There’s no response so they move on. Eddie essentially ignores Bailey's statement, “I guess you’ll be partnering with Buck for now. LAFD, anyone here?”

“Yeah, I hope there’s no hard feelings. I couldn’t let him keep going on without work, well work he’s made for.”

Bailey and Eddie hear a muffled scream before Eddie can comment and asks what she means. They spring into action, finding an older gentleman and teenage girl. They bring the injured residents to Hen and Chim before seeing if they’re needed back in the building or anywhere else. Bailey’s Captain, Captain Thomas as Eddie finds out, says he’s found the landlord and found out that all residents are now accounted for. Eddie and Bailey nod their understanding and start to assist by grabbing some waters and snacks to hand out to the crowd and residents.

“What did you mean?” Eddie asks.

“By what?” Bailey responds, handing a water to a coughing resident.

“Well work he was made for,” Eddie parrots her words back to her.

“Oh, I guess I really have started following in my husband’s footsteps. Foot in mouth disease,” Bailey says as she laughs, “It’s not really my place.”

“But you felt it was your place to help Buck without knowing him?” Eddie says defensively. Damn, this is coming out all wrong, he's not mad at Bailey, he's mad at Bobby. And maybe himself.

Bailey sighs turning to look Eddie in the eye, “Look, I can tell you’re hurting. I can’t help that your Captain really failed Buck. It wouldn't be fair to him to be punished for your Captain’s cowardice.”

Eddie opens one of the water bottles and takes a sip. He clears his throat, “I know Buck’s not in the wrong. I’m sorry, I’m just upset and I guess it’s coming out as towards you. What I’m trying to say is thank you and please look out for him. He means the world to us Diaz boys and well, my son’s lost too much already. He can’t lose Buck too."

Bailey nods, “Just Chris?”

Eddie shocked, says, “How do you-“

“Oh! I asked Buck if he could stop by the station and he mentioned that Chris would have to tag along. They’re stopping by after we’re done here. Sorry if that was weird,” Bailey says.

Eddie nods, “No, sorry, just getting used to this new normal. Also, if you couldn't tell emotions are not my strong suit.”

Bailey laughs, “No worries, it’s an adjustment for all. I heard you’re joining us later. I think it’ll be a good way for you to see that Buck will be in good hands, even if they’re not yours.”

“Bailey!” A police sergeant, Eddie knows by the fact he has the same stripes as Athena, calls as he walks towards them. The young woman who exited the shop with him also makes her way towards them.

“Hey Tim! What’s up?”

“Many of the tenants have complained about the conditions of the apartments in recent months,” Tim answers, pointing to Eddie, “Who are you?”

“Eddie Diaz, sir. Firefighter with the 118,” Eddie says as he shakes Tim’s hand.

“Diaz, huh?” Tim says as Bailey elbows him, “What’s that for?” Bailey gives Tim a look that Eddie can’t decipher.

“I’m Celina,” Celina adds as she shakes Eddie’s hand, “Has anyone ever told you that your aura is pained. Are you alright?”

“Ignore her, Eddie," Tim says, looking to Celina sternly, "We’re here for a reason, Juarez."

“Right, sorry Sergeant Bradford,” Celina looks sheepishly to Bailey, “Is there any way to tell if it could’ve been arson?”

“We can check with the Captains. Thomas and Nash have gone in to see where the fire started, they’d be able to give you more insight.”

The four of them make their way towards the Captains as two women, detectives Eddie assumes as they flash their badges to one of the firefighters, walk over to the Captains as well.

“Caps, Sergeant Bradford and Officer Juarez need to know if you believe this could be arson,” Bailey says, as the four approach Captain Thomas and Bobby.

“Nash and I suspect it could be arson, yes,” Captain Thomas says as the detectives join the conversation.

“Nash?” The detectives ask, seemingly annoyed, as they look Bobby up and down.

“That’s me. You two are?” Bobby asks, tentatively as he reaches out his hand for the ladies to ignore him.

Ouch, Eddie thinks, they must know Buck.

“Detective Angela Lopez, this is Detective Nyla Harper,” Angela says as she looks to Eddie, “And you are?”

“Eddie Diaz.”

“Chris’s dad,” Nyla realizes.

“Yes, how do you know Chris?” Eddie asks. How long has Buck known these people?

“Oh, myself and another friend were stuck in the tsunami. We met him after Buck pulled us up to safety,” Nyla recounts, starting to get a haunted glint in her eyes.

Eddie nods in understanding as Bobby looks sullen.

Angela is still glaring at Bobby. After taking a peak at Nyla, she changes the subject, “So Nash, anything else to add?”

Bobby gulps, “Tenants never stood a chance, building is nowhere near up to code.”

Eddie spares a sympathetic look to Bobby and puts his hand on his shoulder. Bobby wasn’t expecting sympathy, especially not from Eddie, but he appreciates it. Eddie may be mad at Bobby, but he’s not heartless.

Angela and Nyla nod. Nyla asks, “Where’s the slumlord now?”

Chimney and Hen take that moment to join the group. Chimney, having heard Nyla’s question, answers, “He left about five minutes ago after receiving treatment.”

Sergeant Bradford huffs, “And you let him go?”

Celina grabs her radio to call it in, grabbing the description and his name from Captain Thomas.

Hen sighs, “Chim-“

Chimney shrugs, “I wasn’t told he was a suspect. Didn’t think much of it.”

“His apartment building just went up in flames,” Ang answers angrily, “And you didn’t think anything of it?”

“Alright,” Bobby says, interrupting Chimney from making it worse for himself, “It was an honest mistake.”

“That’s more than just a mistake,” Nyla adds, looking Chimney up and down.

Captain Thomas finishes up helping Celina and turns towards Bobby, “I think the 53 can take it from here, Nash.”

Bobby nods, calling for his team to head back to their trucks.

“See you tonight, Bailey,” Eddie says as he waves to Bailey, starting to walk towards their engine.

“See you Diaz. Bye Hen,” Bailey says as she waves the two off. Hen gives a smile and a wave to Bailey and the rest of the Mid Wilshire crew.

Angela, Nyla, Celina, and Tim turn towards Bailey once more.

“That was Buck’s team?” Ang remarks, giving them another look as they get in their engine.

“Yep.”

Celina asks, “Who’s Buck again?”

“The firefighter that was crushed by the firetruck that exploded. It was meant as revenge on Bobby, but he had been suspended at the time,” Bailey explains.

“Also, Buck's the only reason Tamara and I are still standing. He tied a firehose to a tree, braving the tsunami waters again after he had already been safe, to act as a net to catch people to get them to safety as well. We’re forever grateful,” Nyla says, clearing her throat in an effort not to get upset at the memory, “We should start looking for this slumlord. Thanks to that other firefighter, he could be anywhere.”

No one comments on the abrupt topic change.

“Or hopefully he’s a bigger moron than we think and he’s just hiding at the coffee shop a few blocks away,” Tim adds as all four women look at him in disbelief, “What? We’ve seen dumber things happen. Like a firefighter letting a potential suspect get away. He looked familiar by the way.”

“Oh, he had rebar go through his skull a couple of years back,” Bailey answers.

“I thought Mid Wilshire had insane stories, but apparently the 118 are danger magnets,” Celina remarks.

“We still have more insane stories,” Ang declares as her phone rings, “This is Grey. Let us know if you find this guy. Nearly a hundred people just lost their homes, he can’t get away with this.”

Ang and Nyla walk back to their car as Tim and Celina walk back towards their shop.

Bailey goes to help her team finish before heading back to show Buck and Chris his new station.

She won’t mention she ran into the 118. She’ll save that for drinks later. Boy, does she need one (or five) after this shit show.

Chapter Text

Buck and Eddie reach the bar just before 8. Bailey let them know that everyone would likely be grabbing some food as well as drinks so to come hungry. When they enter, it is not hard to find the Mid Wilshire crew; they are easily the largest and loudest group there.

Ang and Wes spot Buck and Eddie and make their way over.

“Buck!” Ang engulfs Buck in a hug and then moves to Eddie, giving him one as well, “It’s nice to see you as well Eddie!”

Wes gives Buck a bro-hug, “Glad you could make it!”

“Me too Wes! Please let me buy you a drink for all of your help!”

Wesley rolls his eyes, “If it’ll make you feel better.”

Wesley holds out his hand, “You must be Eddie. It’s nice to meet you."

Wes shakes Eddie’s hand, “Yes, nice to meet you too Wesley and it’s nice to see you again Detective Lopez.”

“You can just call me Ang,” Angela responds, “You’re not in the doghouse like the rest of your team.”

Buck looks confused between the two of them, “How do you two know each other?”

“We met earlier at an apartment fire,” Ang says, “The one who had rebar go through his head let our perp go.”

“Woah, no way. Chim’s been on the job longer than all of us except Bobby,” Buck says in wonder, “Such a rookie mistake.”

“Chim?” Wes questions.

“Short for Chimney,” Eddie shrugs, “And it’s too long and complicated a story to get into why he goes by that.”

“BUCK!”

Lucy and Tamara run over and engulf Buck in a hug.

“Hey! Good to see you gals!” Buck smiles widely and Eddie looks on with the world’s softest smile as the women pull Buck to the rest of the group.

“So you and Buck? How long have you been together?” Wes asks as the men get to the bar, waving for the bartender’s attention.

Eddie clears his throat, trying not to choke on air, “We’re not.”

Wes looks to where Buck is, in the tightest hug he can imagine James giving, and then back to Eddie, “What do you mean? The other day he asked me how Ang and I got together and then I asked him about his family. He spent half our meal talking about his Diaz boys.”

Before Eddie can answer, Tim claps him on the back, “So, Buck just told me you served as an Army Medic. I did a few tours myself, not as a medic though.”

Eddie, thankful for the interference, whether Tim knew that’s what he was doing or not, answers, “Ever feel like it was all a fever dream?”

Tim laughs, “All the time.”

The bartender finally reaches the three men, as Wes asks, “What are you and Buck having?”

“Just beer.”

“An extra for me too,” Tim adds.

“Four beers and a vodka lemonade,” Wes says as the bartender nods.

“Wait, make that three vodka lemonades. Tamara and Lucy were low when I walked over here,’ Tim says as the bartender nods once more.

Before Tim can continue his conversation with Eddie about his service, Wes goes back to their original conversation, “Eddie, are you two not together?”

Eddie blushes, “No.”

“Oh don’t worry, we all made the same mistake. Blame Bailey,” Tim rolls his eyes.

“What? I just met all of you,” Eddie looks back and forth between the two men before Bailey comes over.

“What are you men talking about?” Bailey asks.

Wes, confused, doubles down, “I didn’t get it from Bailey. I guess I shouldn’t have assumed, but he talked about you both how I’d talk about-“

Bailey stomps on Wesley’s foot and he shrieks.

The rest of the Mid Wilshire group looks over and Buck gives Eddie a concerning look. Eddie tries to reassure Buck that everything is fine.

The bartender comes back with their beers and drinks. Bailey takes one of the drinks and chugs as the men look on in horror, including the bartender.

Bailey puts the empty glass down on the bar, “Keep them coming and add like four more. We’re running low.”

Wesley looks at her and then to Tim, who just shrugs.

Eddie grabs a beer for him and Buck and walks over to him, trying not to let his panic show. Wesley may not have finished his sentence, but he knew where it was going. There was nowhere else for it to go. Buck talked about him and Chris how Wes talks about his wife and their child (children?), Eddie’s not sure he just met the man. Eddie hands Buck his beer and then takes a long sip of his.

“Thanks man! I know you met some people already, but I’d like to introduce you to everyone else!”

Eddie was introduced to John, Wade, Luna, Tamara, Lucy, Aaron, and James. Celina and Nyla gave him a wave, but he didn’t need to be reintroduced, he’d already met them earlier in the aftermath of that chaotic apartment fire.

Ang had joined the crew at the bar and the four of them came back with arms filled with drinks. The bartender followed with a tray full of shots. Before Eddie could protest, he was handed a shot. Everyone cheered to new beginnings and friendship (FAMILY, Lucy screamed), before downing their shots.

Food was ordered along with more shots, they were responsible pillars of the community after all. When the music started, everyone hit the dance floor. It took a little convincing to get Tim and Eddie to join, but before long, they were in the groove. Once the food arrived, everyone pushed multiple tables together, sharing “war” stories from their daily lives. It was really nice to sit around with others who understood the chaos, but weren’t directly involved with the drama that seemed to surround the 118. Plus, every time that Eddie looked over at Buck, he looked in his element. No one put him down, no one gave him a look to be quiet, Mid Wilshire just let him exist. Damn, people Buck knew all of like 3 days treat him better than his own family.

Tamara taps Eddie’s hand, grabbing his attention, “You know, you have a pretty incredible son.”

“Thank you,” Eddie nods before remembering he’s never met this girl before, “How do you know Chris?”

“Oh, I was in the tsunami. I was stood up by my date on the pier. I ran into Nyla and she offered me a ride back to the station so I could see Lucy. The wave hit and it was horrifying, but then I was caught on a hose and hoisted on top of a firetruck. Every time Nyla and I looked over at Chris, he just had the biggest smile on his face, like it was a normal day just hanging with Buck,” Tamara shrugs, “A light in the darkness.”

Eddie nods and takes a sip of his drink, too choked up to speak. Tamara must gather that so she offers him a mozzarella stick.

Eddie laughs as he grabs one.

“Cheese makes everything better,” Tamara says, grabbing one of her own and taking a bite.

“That it does,” Eddie takes a bite of his own, “So, are you a Rookie or a Probie?”

Wade laughs as many of the others start to laugh as well. Eddie looks to Buck, but he just shrugs, equally as confused.

“It’s not that funny, Grey. I could be either if I wanted,” Tamara defends herself.

“Yeah, she would make a great cop. Firefighter, I’m not sure, but maybe a paramedic!” Lucy, ever the optimist and peacemaker, adds.

Tim looks to Lucy baffled, “A great cop? She stole your car!”

“Hey! I gave it back!” Tamara says.

“After, we caught you!” Tim argues.

“Well, yeah, but then I didn’t steal another one, so…”

John steps in, “That’s not much of a defense.”

Bailey hits John, playfully, “Stay out of it.”

Wesley takes a sip of his beer, “Yeah, if Lucy had booked you, that wouldn’t have held up in court.”

“Whatever, she wound up giving me the car anyway,” Tamara says as she rolls her eyes, “And maybe not from a legal standpoint, but a life one, it was the best decision I ever made stealing Lucy’s car.”

The entire table awwwed as Nyla pinched Tamara’s cheeks, who had started blushing.

“Someone change the subject please,” Tamara pleads as she sips her drink.

“Your aura’s not as pained as it was before,” Celina says as she looks to Eddie and then her eyes flick to Buck, “Wonder why that is.”

“Cleo, we’ve been over this, most don’t want to hear about their aura,” Nyla says.

John adds, “Or about the possible spirits lingering around them.”

“It was meant to be positive! You’re not in as much pain as before!” Celina defends.

“I appreciate that, thank you. How can I be? You’re all great company,” Eddie says as he finishes his beer.

“Eds is right. Thanks for letting us crash!” Buck says, grinning.

“You’re not crashing! You both are invited to everything from now on,” Lucy takes a fry before adding, “I cannot believe we’ve all worked in similar jobs in the same town as you both and have never met/hung out before now.”

“It’s not like we necessarily get called to the same scenes. Now, Buck will be at ours because he’ll be at a firehouse in the Mid Wilshire section,” Nyla says as she swirls her drink, “He wasn’t before. Today was a fluke, we’ll probably only see Eddie outside of work.”

“Eddie I don’t mind seeing, but the rest of them? I could do without.”

“Ang!”

“Oh come on, you know I’m right,” Ang says as she looks to Wes, “Pretty much everyone who was there today at the scene would agree.”

Celina, Nyla, Bailey and Tim all nod sheepishly, trying not to upset Buck, who already looks like a kicked puppy at their admission.

Eddie notices his best friend’s about to deflate and bravely goes toe to toe with Ang, something he doesn’t realize is not dared to be done.

“You going to say that to Athena Grant’s face?” Eddie challenges, smirking at Ang.

“Hey, I could just as easily switch to not liking you too there Diaz,” Ang says as she points a jalapeño popper at Eddie before eating it.

Eddie sticks his tongue out at Ang as she gasps in mock surprise.

“Now kids, play nice,” John tries, sipping his beer.

“What John said, but in a way that doesn’t so old,” Wade says as he laughs.

The entire table erupts in laughter.

"I didn't realize Athena Grant was apart of your 118 crew," Aaron adds as he plates some more appetizers on his plate.

"She's married to our, my captain, Bobby," Eddie answers as the bartender brings over some more beers.

"There was a woman who was going to chastise Rebarhead, who was she?" Ang asks.

"You're just going all in on the bashing, huh Ang?" Luna asks, stifling a laugh.

"I have actually called Chim Rebarhead in the past," Buck deadpans.

John looks to Buck, "Are you being serious?"

Eddie thinks back to his first day when he asked Chim that and Chim responded along the lines of he never takes Buck seriously. Man, has he really been failing Buck that long.

"Yep," Buck says popping the 'p' and a fry into his mouth.

"Go Buck," Nyla says.

"So, seriously, if you're comfortable talking about it. What went so wrong with your old house that Eddie's the only one you want to associate with?" James asks, "If you don't want to answer, you don't have to, but just curious."

Buck sighs, "We can trust Hen and Athena too to be clear, but I was collateral damage. The hit wasn't meant for me, it was meant for Bobby. Everyone just thinks I'm an impulsive, reckless kid. So I guess guilt and fear led him to holding me back from returning."

"Illegally, I may add," Wes says pointedly.

"Shit, that's not professional at all," Tim says, "Why did he think he could get away with that?"

Buck shrugs as Eddie and Bailey roll their eyes.

"Wow, the both of you have an opinion," Wade says, pointing to Eddie and Bailey.

"Go on then, Bailey, Eddie, share with the class," Tamara says, looking to the duo expectantly.

"There's sort of a rumor," Bailey starts.

"It's not really a rumor-"

Buck interrupts Eddie, "What rumor?"

"Buck, Bobby's already lost two kids-"

"That's horrible," John interrupts solemnly, "I don't think I'd be able to get up if I lost Henry."

"Was it due to negligence?" Ang asks, "Landlord negligence?"

"Why do you say that?" Buck asks, trying not to get defensive. Bobby may have hurt him, but he still loves the man.

"Today, Bobby sort of got a lost look in his eye when he was speaking about the slumlord and the lack of up-to-code conditions were in the building," Ang supplies, "Your boy here put a comforting hand on his shoulder."

Buck nods, "Yes, Marcy, his wife, and two children, Robbie and Brooke, perished along with 145 others."

The table grows quiet, something the 118 boys assume doesn't happen often.

After a moment, Bailey breaks the silence, "So, Nash didn't want to lose another kid."

"Yes, I look up to Bobby as a father figure, but we're not father-son. He made that very clear my probie year," Buck says, grabbing one of the new beers and drinking it.

"What does that mean?" Eddie asks, looking at Buck with confusion and something close to anger. Not anger yet, that will be determined by Buck's answer.

"Yeah Buck," Tim starts, "What does that mean?"

Buck, seemingly uncomfortable just rubs the back of his head, "Look it was my fault. He used to have this book and I was a real dumb kid back then. When he found out I had looked into it, he sort of-"

"Sort of what?" Lucy asks, scared of the answer.

"Pushed me against the wall," Buck whispers.

The table falls silent once again.

“I’m sorry, but did you just say that the person with the highest rank shoved you against a wall for looking through a notebook?” Nyla dumbfounded asks.

Eddie is just staring into his beer bottle. What the fuck is wrong with Bobby?

“I have been in a superior position at Mid Wilshire for many years. I would NEVER hit or shove or put my hands on another officer under my command,” Grey says, hands flailing, “And I have Smitty!”

“Buck, baby, you have to know that what your captain did, wasn’t right,” Luna grabs Buck’s hand, “You know that right?”

Buck shrugs, “It was my own fault-“

“Smitty literally got his shop stolen while he grabbed breakfast one morning,” John says, “No one hit him.”

“And trust me, we’ve all wanted to,” Tim exclaims after finishing his beer.

Wesley scoffs, “I don’t see how you’ve ever trusted Bobby, let alone why you would want to go back.”

“Well, I say we veer towards a more positive note,” Lucy says, lifting her glass, “To Buck joining the 53 and being a better leader than those he has had before.”

Shockingly, Buck and Eddie both willingly cheers to that with everyone else.

“So, what’s a Smitty?”

Chapter Text

Chimney had never felt so out of it after a shift. Hen had ignored him all day. That only increased tenfold after he had let the slumlord go, which he knows was not his finest moment. Hen icing him out really threw him off his game.

To add to it, before shift ended, Bobby announced that therapy going forward would be mandatory. A few people resisted and were immediately suspended without pay.

Others, after specifying they weren’t fighting the therapy, asked what brought this on now. According to them, therapy had always been desperately needed for the A-shift. Bobby sighed and said it was not for him to tell and the Chief would be here on Wednesday with an announcement.

Chimney walked into his apartment to see Maddie pacing back and forth. Oh, this is so pushing back the nap he so desperately wanted, no needed.

“Everything okay?”

“No! My brother is refusing to respond to my texts and I have no way of checking on him since he took away my key from his loft!” Maddie answers, hysterically.

“Maybe this is a good thing, Maddie,” Chimney says, leading her to the couch.

“A good thing?” Maddie asks annoyed.

“You’re obsessed with his safety-“

“Because he’s not!”

“That’s not true, Maddie, and you know it. The truck, not his fault. The embolism, maybe his fault, but I don’t know, I haven’t really spoken to him about it. The tsunami, unless he’s suddenly Poseidon, not his fault. Wrong place, wrong time for most of it. I know you love your brother, we all do, but the more you push, the more he will pull away,” Chimney tries to get through to Maddie.

“I had to raise him you know,” Maddie says, “That’s why this is hitting me harder than it would if he was just my brother.”

“I can see that. Still, I should’ve never gotten involved either. I heard whispers today at a scene, I’m being called a lackey and a hypocrite.”

Maddie confused, “Why?”

“You’ve been pushing for Buck to get a less dangerous job since the accident. He’s been ready and cleared, Maddie, and it’s unfair that you, Bobby, and I are holding him back,” Chim says as he tries to get her to understand how they’re failing their brother. Because even though Buck gets on his nerves, that kid wormed his way into the little brother role by the end of his first month at the station.

“No Chim, he’s not ready-“

“Why is it a dangerous job for him and not me?”

“What?”

“Look, you keep saying how this job is too dangerous for Buck, but we do the same job. I’m not the only one being a hypocrite here,” Chim says as he sees Maddie try to collect her thoughts.

“You have been doing it for a longer time and mainly you’re a paramedic, so you don’t pull as many impulsive stunts,” Maddie argues, looking at Chim like he’s lost his mind.

“That doesn’t make it any less dangerous and that’s not always true,” Chim sighs, "You’re coming from a good place, but it’s ruining not only your relationship with Buck, but others as well. So I think tonight we need to spend time at our own apartments.”

“Are you breaking up with me over my concern for my brother?” Maddie asks, tears in her eyes, “Howie…”

“I’m not breaking up with you, but I need some space. Today was isolating for me and I can only imagine this is how your brother’s been feeling. We all sort of left him after each freak accident, not immediately, but after a while we went back to everyday life, forgetting him. Your brother never did that to me after my accident. Even if you don’t want to fix your relationship with Buck, I want to fix mine.”

Maddie sighs, “I hear you and I respect your need for space. I will work on coming more to terms if my brother eventually goes back to firefighting.”

Maddie kisses Chimney on the cheek and heads out, hopefully to her own apartment and not to harass Buck at his.

Chimney sighs and instead of his nap, he grabs a bottle of tequila and heads out.

Chimney stands in front of his best friend’s house, more uncertain than he’s ever been. He knocks on the door.

When the door opens, it’s not Hen, but Karen.

“This isn’t a good idea, Chim,” Karen warns.

“I don’t care,” Chim says as Karen opens the door wider, letting him in.

Hen is sitting on her couch, arms crossed and an unimpressed look to Chimney, “Today wasn’t rough enough for you? Came looking for more?”

Chim sighs, “I’m sorry Hen-“

“I’m not who you need to be apologizing to,” Hen says, louder than Chim has ever heard her.

“I know that I have not been the friend to Buck that I should’ve been or that he’s needed,” Chim starts as Hen and Karen scoff.

“What do you know Hen? Clearly, I don’t have the whole story!” Chim exclaims.

Karen shrugs, “Ask Maddie, she seems to know all when it comes to her brother.”

Chim rolls his eyes, “She can’t see past the little kid she practically raised. She does not have a clear head when it comes to Buck. I let my love for her blind my logic and knowledge when it comes to this situation and Buck.”

“That’s a start,” Hen says, “But Chim, we all failed Buck. You were a big part of that. Who were you to tell Bobby that he couldn’t come back when he has only ever championed you?”

“I had no right. If Buck will see me, I will never stop apologizing,” Chim pleads.

Karen goes into the kitchen to give them a moment.

“The 118 is not the same without Buck,” Hen says, biting her lip. Chim knows she’s trying not to cry.

“No. Plus, it seems other stations aren’t thrilled with us. I could only assume that has to do with our treatment of Buck,” Chim states, rubbing his face.

“I don’t blame them. This is a mess,” Hen says.

“A mess that could’ve easily been avoided,” Karen says as she walks back into the living room with glasses and goes to open the bottle of tequila Chim brought.

Chim and Hen sit down as Karen starts pouring the tequila. The three of them clink glasses.

“We’re a family. A family who has not been kind to one of their own. So how are we going to fix that?” Karen asks, looking to Hen and Chim.

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When Maddie enters her apartment, she’s not expecting to break down after she drops her bag on the table.

Maddie composes herself pretty quickly and reaches for her phone. She’s just looking out for her brother, but does Howie have a point? Is she doing more harm than good?

She sighs as there’s a knock on her door. The last people she is expecting to see are Bobby and Athena. Nonetheless, she lets them in.

“So, I’m guessing this isn’t going to be a pleasant drop in for me,” Maddie says as she gestures to the couch, “Coffee or tea?”

“We’re good, Maddie,” Athena says, forcing a smile.

Maddie joins them.

“Your brother was cleared for duty,” Bobby starts.

“Yes, he re-certified and was cleared, but then he threw the blood clot,” Maddie says calmly, “So, he wasn’t cleared anymore.”



Bobby sighs, “No, he was still cleared. But, at that point, we had watched your brother nearly die in front of us twice and I was not coping well with that. You weren’t either. We still aren’t.”

“Bobby, Buck is not ready-“



“Maddie! Are you listening? Do you hear yourself?” Athena questions in awe at the sheer ignorance radiating off the young woman.

“Buck just needed to bide his time at a desk job or find a new career,” Maddie says.

“You were an ER nurse, correct?” Athena asks.

“Yes, but what does that have to do with anything?”

“I was informed that blood clots are increased with lack of movement and that active duty would have been and still is the safest place for him,” Bobby says.

“So, you’re letting him back on your team? You’ll keep an eye on him, make sure he stays safe?” Maddie asks.

“Maddie, wanting him to be safe is always my top priority. That’s what I wish for my whole team, but I was blinded by my past and my love for your brother. We may not be blood related, but he is my son. He made us a family and in our efforts to shield him from what he was born to do, we pushed him away. We only have ourselves to blame,” Bobby clears his throat as a few tears escape.

“I don’t understand,” Maddie whispers.

“Your brother’s transferring,” Athena bluntly says, “And we’re all to blame. Some more so than others.”

“You mean me?” Maddie asks offended.

“Yes, primarily. Chimney through you and then of course my husband too,” Athena says, “Your brother’s not a little kid anymore, Maddie. My guess is he never really was one. No one holds on to family as hard as your brother does if you had a good upbringing. Like he’s scared we’re all just going to disappear or stop caring about him if he’s not useful. You know, no one knew you existed until you broke into Abby’s apartment. I can only assume your parents are dead since they haven’t shown up once for the numerous times you each have almost died.”

“They’re not dead, we talk all the time,” Maddie says shrugging, ignoring everything else Athena said.

Athena laughs dryly, “That’s your response? No accountability.”

“My brother has always needed attention, so this ‘transfer’ isn’t going to last long. He wants your attention more than anything Bobby,” Maddie answers, once again not really acknowledging what Athena has said. This is pissing Athena off, but not only her.

“Your brother saved me. Hell, he saved you. You don’t get to brush him off now that you’re not getting your way,” Bobby says in disbelief.

“Not getting my way? I don’t want another dead brother!” Maddie screams as she gasps.

Athena and Bobby are taken back, confusion evident.

“You had another brother?” Bobby asks.

Athena recovers quickly, no sympathy to her voice, “And let me guess, Buck doesn’t know.”

“It’s not like I had a choice. My parents made me swear not to tell him. They were just so lost in their grief,” Maddie tries to explain, but Bobby cuts her off.

“They still had two other kids. They just, what? Stopped caring for you because their son died?”

“You of all people should understand,” Maddie says, only looking at Bobby.

Bobby nods, mainly in disbelief at Maddie, “Your parents still had two healthy, wonderful children. It sounds like they threw that away. You can talk to them all you want, but Buck, he’s mine and Athena’s. Your parents lost the right to him long ago. You’re about to lose him, but unlike your brother and my kids and Marcy, they won’t be haunting you from afar, he’ll be here, but out of your reach anyway.”

That seems to break Maddie from the daze she’s been in. She sobs and sobs.

Maddie really needs to apologize to Buck.

Chapter Text

The rest of the week before Buck’s first shift at the 53 is a blur, but it’s also the slowest week of his life.

As Buck and Eddie were leaving the bar, he let it slip that he was losing the loft. Eddie didn’t hesitate and basically demanded (drunkenly) that Buck stay with him and Chris. Buck wasn’t given a choice since he was woken up the next morning by Chris’s excited squeals and cheers.

The loft is packed up fully by early Sunday night.

When they get back to the Diaz home, Pepa and Abuela are already cooking up a storm to celebrate Buck’s first official night in the house. Buck didn’t see what the big deal was, but when Eddie went bright red, he couldn’t help but chuckle.

There was still radio silence from Maddie, Chim, and Bobby, but Buck had been steadily texting the Grant and Wilson women. Buck and Eddie agree to lunch with Karen and Hen the next day.

Buck was a bundle of nerves, but the moment he saw Hen, he relaxed. When they hugged, both were choked up and whispering apologies. Karen and Eddie took that time to order some (nonalcoholic) drinks for them. When they broke apart, Karen took her opportunity and hugged Buck tightly, making sure he knew that with his new position, weekly dinner at the Wilson residence was a must. He may not be at the 118, but that didn’t mean he wasn’t a part of their family. Buck failed to keep the tears at bay once again.

After ordering their food, Buck got into the elephant in the room. Hen apologized again for not pressing Bobby into a better explanation. If she had known that he had been pushing for desk duty, she would’ve shut that down real quick. She knows the effects of blood clots and thinners quite well, thank you, and would have expressed (loudly) how bad a desk job would be. Apparently, all Bobby would tell Hen is that Buck wasn’t cleared yet and was unsure of when his return would be, if ever.

With the hard part over with, the four of them move to lighter topics. Hen and Karen talk about Karen’s work outing before finding out about Buck. They mention that once everything’s more settled that they should go for drinks. Buck and Eddie easily agree and then tell stories from their own bar adventure. They leave out Mid Wilshire’s reactions to the rest of the 118, no reason to upset anybody.

Buck left the lunch feeling way lighter.

While Eddie was at work the following day, Buck got everything in order for his lunch with his new Captain. The lunch was insightful to what his life would be like at the 53. Buck shared a few concerns he had with Captain Thomas and felt reassured when he was actually heard instead of just brushed to the side. Damn, he was really starting to hate how eye opening this experience was to his mistreatment at the 118.

That night, before Eddie got home from his shift, Buck started on dinner. Chris was going to be out that night, spending some quality time with Abuela and Pepa. So he was confused when the doorbell rang, not expecting anyone but Eddie that night.

When Buck opened the door, it was to Bobby, standing quite unsure of himself.

Buck just stares at Bobby, unsure of what to say.

Bobby clears his throat, “Eddie told me you’d be here. He’s heading to Isabel’s to give us some space. If you’ll have me, of course.”

Buck, not trusting his voice, just nods and lets him in. The timer beeps in the kitchen, as Buck runs to get his pasta bake out of the oven. Bobby follows behind. Buck gestures for Bobby to sit down as he puts the pasta bake on the table. Buck hands Bobby the serving spoon first.

“Are you sure?” Bobby asks, looking the most nervous Buck has ever seen him.

Buck shrugs, “Bobby, it’s just going to go to waste if we don’t eat it now.”

Bobby nods as he serves himself and then Buck as he grabs some soda from the fridge, pouring each of them a glass.

For the first few moments, there is uncomfortable silence as the men eat. Buck’s not really sure if he should say anything, especially without knowing what Bobby wants to say first. It’s not like Buck needs to apologize, that’s for his pseudo father to do.

Bobby wipes his face and grabs his glass, taking some sips. The older man then clears his throat and looks Buck directly in the eye.

“I was wrong to keep you from returning to the 118. I’m sorry, there’s no excuse I have that will make this right. I was scared and let my fear and love blind me. Again, no excuse, just the truth,” Bobby says as he grabs another spoonful of pasta.

Buck nods, “Thanks Bobby.”

Buck eats some more pasta. He honestly doesn’t know what else to say, especially since Bobby didn’t acknowledge his transfer. Does he not know?

“I’ve been to quite a few meetings over the last few days and have started seeing a therapist. I’d like to start making amends with you, but I want to do it on your terms. I don’t want to force or rush you into something you’re not ready for. I will apologize until I’m blue in the face. I broke your trust and I regret that so deeply. I’m sorry it took losing you to a different house to see that. I’m proud of you though, kid, you deserve it. I cannot wait to see how far you can go, Lieutenant,” Bobby says, choked up, tears in his eyes, threatening to fall.

Buck nods, acknowledging that he heard Bobby, and takes a deep breath, “I don’t have a great relationship with my folks, never have and never will. I know Maddie is mending her relationship with them, but I don’t want that. As a kid, I’d wonder what made them hate me so much, but then, and I bet this won’t surprise you at all, I went snooping while they were out of the house one day. I found a box of photos and there was Maddie with a boy not much younger than her. Clearly, not me. I called my grandparents and they fessed up. I made them swear not to tell my parents that I knew. They never agreed with their decision to keep me in the dark and Maddie silent, so it was easy for them to keep quiet for me. I left home for a reason and I don’t plan on looking back,” Buck says, sipping his soda.

“Buck-“

“Wait, please let me finish,” Buck pleads.

Bobby nods as Buck continues, “I don’t think it’s ever been a secret that I look up to you in a paternal way. I think at times that’s made you uncomfortable and I’m sorry for that. You taught me how to tie a tie and how to cook, simple things that nobody ever bothered to show me before. When you said I was a liability, it hit me so hard because you are one of the most important people in my life. You have always been there for me and it felt like when I needed you most, you just left.”

Bobby goes to speak, but Buck, with tears in his eyes, isn’t done yet, “And that’s not fair, I know that. You and Athena were there throughout all of my PT. I can never repay you for that. I just, I won’t survive losing the only parental figures I’ve ever had. The only ones that have cared. So when you and Athena had me over for dinner and you revealed you were the reason…I know you’re not my parents, but I, it hurt more than anything Philip and Margaret ever did.”

Buck has tears running down his face. He takes another deep breath and finally takes a good look at Bobby. Bobby doesn’t look much better. Tears are silently streaming down his face as he looks close to just fully losing it. Not unlike when Hen and Buck found him passed out and hungover from his relapse after the plane crash.

Bobby wiping his face and then taking a deep breath of his own explains, “Buck, my family perishing at my own hands destroyed me. I never thought I’d find that love again. Not just romantically, but paternally. Then, you came along. You were so determined and cocky, but I could tell you had walls up. I had walls up too. You tore them down. Current situation aside, there is only one other time I have fully regretted my actions towards you. Even though I was in a bad place, I should have NEVER put my hands on you. I was ashamed and appalled telling my therapist that. So was he. You have to know, this relationship is not one sided. That’s why, kid, I didn’t cope well with you nearly dying three times in front of me, all my fault. I can’t lose you. I can’t lose another kid. I hope we can mend this because I am so so sorry, Buck.”

Bobby breaks and starts to openly cry. So does Buck. This was everything Buck had ever hoped for in an apology from Bobby. The admission that he sees Buck as his kid is all he’s ever wanted.

Buck stands up and so does Bobby. The two men just hold each other until they’re both calm enough to continue.

Both seemingly know they need a bit more time before speaking again, so they clean up the kitchen. It’s silent, but not uncomfortable like before. They’ve always been in sync so the clean up is rather fast.

Buck moves Bobby to the couch.

“I really appreciate you coming over and taking accountability, Bobby. I won’t lie, there’s still hurt, but I now feel lighter heading into my new position. Your support means a lot. I don’t think our relationship will ever be the same, but I don’t think that’s a bad thing. This version I think will be stronger. The only way for that to happen is with forgiveness, so I forgive you. No looking back, only moving forward.”

Bobby breathes a sigh of relief.

“Buck, that means the world to me. I don’t take that for granted and I won’t ever take you for granted again,” Bobby hesitates, “Son.”

Buck smiles, “Thanks pops.”

Both men laugh, a little wetly, before hugging again.

“I know there’s some more things we need to discuss, but if you’re not up for it tonight, we can continue another time. Completely up to you. However, you should know, for complete transparency, Maddie told Athena and I about your older brother. She still believes you don’t know,” Bobby says, looking at Buck with uncertainty.

Buck just nods. He’s not surprised that Maddie would reveal something so personal about him to other people. Boundaries have never been her strong suit.

“Did you know I moved in?”

Buck’s grateful when Bobby doesn’t hesitate to lean into the new topic, “Does that mean you and Eddie finally confessed your feelings?”

Buck wasn’t expecting that.

“Bobby, I don’t have feelings for Eddie.”

Bobby gives Buck an unimpressed look.

“I lost the loft so…”

Bobby is in shock, “You got evicted?”

Buck sighs, “Yes. I was bartending for a bit, but it wasn’t enough. I hated the loft anyway, have for a while.”

“Kid, I’m sorry. Just add it to the list of things that are my fault. If you’d be comfortable, I’d love to have a therapy session with you.”

“I’d like that,” Buck says smiling.

“Now back to the ‘I don’t have feelings for Eddie’-“

“Bobby!”

“Kid, I’m not blind. I see the way you look at him. It’s the same way I looked at Marcy and it’s the same way I look at Athena. You’re not fooling anyone,” Bobby explains.

Buck bites his lip as Bobby puts a comforting hand on his shoulder.

“The other day after Athena and May ran into you, both women put me in my place. So did the Chief. That aside, May said something that at the time I don’t think I fully understood. I do now. Kid, now’s the time. Tell him. You don’t want to keep wondering or regretting keeping this to yourself. I don’t think you’ll be disappointed with the outcome,” Bobby says, giving Buck’s shoulder a squeeze.

“If I tell Eddie and he doesn’t feel the same, I lose him. I can’t live without him and Chris…”

Bobby knows Buck well enough to know there’s something else on his mind. He gives him a minute.

Seeing Buck is getting lost in his own head, Bobby asks, “But what if he does?”

Buck cries, “If Eddie feels the same, I don’t think I’ll ever be allowed to return to the 118.”

Bobby hugs Buck as he cries into his shoulder, rubbing circles around his back to try to soothe his kid.

“That doesn’t mean you’re not a part of us. You’ll always be a part of the 118, kid. You still have us, you’re still family. MY family,” Bobby assures.

“I know it’s best I experience the 53. I wasn’t thrilled with the idea of transferring, but now I’m excited. I still want to come back one day. I can’t do that if we start dating and I rank above Eddie. I can’t do that if you’re my father. I can’t do that if Chim and Maddie continue being a couple,” Buck exclaims hysterically.

Bobby holds onto Buck a little more tightly.

“Don’t lose out on love for a job, Buck. This job can already take too much from you if you let it. You’ll still be at every Grant-Nash BBQ, you’ll still be invited to any gatherings at the firehouse, nothing changes. You’ll still have this family you and Eddie have built, whether you tell him or not. Why wouldn’t you want to?”

“I told you already-“

Bobby pulls Buck out of his embrace, but doesn’t let go of his shoulders, “No, that cannot be the only reason why. You have all of us always. Why Buck?”

“Eddie doesn’t feel the same way. He never will. Why put myself through that kind of heartbreak? Hear him laugh or scream or simply just reject me. I survived a ladder truck crushing my leg, a pulmonary embolism, and a tsunami, but I will never survive Eddie and my relationship being ruined. So if friendship is all I ever get from Eddie, I’ll take it.”

“You’re not giving Eddie a chance-“

“I know his answer!”

“BUCK!” A muffled scream can be heard.

Bobby and Buck look around before Buck pulls his phone from his pocket. Shit, he accidentally dialed Lucy.

Buck puts Lucy on speaker, “I’m sorry Lucy. This is embarrassing to admit, but I butt dialed you.”

“I know and I’m sorry I stayed on the line-“

“Eavesdropping,” Tim says.

“Not helpful, Tim,” Lucy chastises.

“I’m guessing you both have an opinion,” Buck says, nervously.

“Tim and I took a chance,” Lucy starts, “There has not been a single day I’ve regretted entering this relationship with him.”

“I’ve never been happier and that wouldn’t have happened if I didn’t take the leap,” Tim adds, “Whoever you’re with is right. Don’t lose out on love for a job.”

“Positions and houses can be changed, but the feeling of losing out on love will leave you empty,” Lucy says, “Plus, we were with you both the other night. Eddie was looking at you with a sense of longing. Normal besties don’t do that.”

“Besties? Lucy, they’re not teenage girls,” Tim says baffled.

“Well, they’re acting like it,” Lucy responds.

“Eddie and Buck have been looking at each other since a grenade nearly exploded in a guy’s leg,” Bobby pipes up.

“Captain Nash?” Tim asks.

“Yes,” Bobby responds cautiously.

“We met the other day, Tim Bradford. Lucy Chen is also on the line,” Tim says.

“Did you apologize?” Lucy asks as Buck’s cheeks start to become red.

“I did. It seems while I’ve been failing him, he’s found another great support system. Thank you for looking out for him,” Bobby says sincerely.

There’s silence for a moment. Please don’t bring up what I mentioned the other night, Buck thinks to himself.

“Well, we won’t shove him against a wall, so,” Lucy pettily adds.

Damn it.

Bobby jerks back, shame evident on his face.

Buck panicking starts rambling, “Bobby, I didn’t mean to tell them. Guys, he apologized for that too. Literally like 20 minutes ago. I’m sorry, Bobby, I never should have said anything to them.”

“It wasn’t okay that I did that, Buck. I’m not upset that you told others, I have no right to be. For proof, I will apologize again. I’m sorry, no excuses, physical violence is never the answer,” Bobby apologizes again genuinely.

“Obviously, that’s not just to save face. We can hear how choked up you are, Nash. We’ll make sure that’s known,” Tim assures.

“But-“

“Lucy, Buck has forgiven him. So we have to as well.”

Buck is very thankful in that moment for Sergeant Tim Bradford.

“You’re right and I’m sorry we stayed on the line, but listen to us and Nash. I think you’ll find the outcome to be most rewarding. With that, we’ll let you go. See you soon!” Lucy says as she hangs up the phone.

“Bobby-“

Bobby puts up his hand, stopping Buck from apologizing, “It’s okay, Buck.”

“No, it’s not. We were drinking and they asked what was happening at the 118 and I said how you made it clear we weren’t a family during my probationary year and then they were like ‘what does that mean’ and Bobby I’m so sorry. I shouldn’t have said it, it was own my fault,” Buck rambles again hysterically this time.

“No, son. It was my fault. I’m Captain and you did not deserve to be shoved for being a dumbass kid,” Bobby tries to be light as a small snicker comes from Buck, “I like that others are helping you realize that even though we’re a family at the 118, we are not always going to be in the right. Maybe you were brought to the 118 so we could all meet, but maybe it’s not where you’re meant to be professionally. Everyone will say it to you until it’s gotten through to you. We don't exclude Karen or Athena or Maddie because they're not at the firehouse, so you won't be excluded either. We're a family and family doesn't quit on each other. Our family’s not perfect, but no family is. I love you, kid.”

“I love you too, pops,” Buck hugs Bobby again, even more tightly than before.

For the first time ever, Buck can finally believe he has found his place, his family. His inner child is healed.

And it's all thanks to Bobby Nash.

Chapter Text

Buck feels ten times more nervous the morning of his first shift at the 53. Bailey had offered to pick him up, but he had respectfully declined. He felt he had to take the leap on his own. He really wishes he had just let her give him a ride.

Texts of encouragement came from everyone except Maddie. Chim and him had spoke on the phone for a few minutes the previous night. He congratulated Buck, first and foremost, and then apologized. He understood if Buck didn’t want to talk with him about it for the time being. Buck thanked him with a response of when he’s more settled at his new house, the pair could grab coffee.

Buck shakes the last bit of nerves out as he sees Bailey pull into the parking lot. He gets out of his car and joins her at hers.

“Morning Buck,” Bailey chirps.

“Morning,” Buck replies.

“Excited?” Bailey asks.

“Definitely,” Buck nods his head as the pair walk in, side by side.

Like the other day, many of the crew greets him as he enters, reintroducing themselves. Buck quickly gets dressed and joins the crew in the loft. Captain Thomas shakes Buck’s hand and when he sees everyone is accounted for, starts with the morning’s announcements.

“Good morning. As you can see, we finally have our new lieutenant,” Captain Thomas gestures to Buck as the crew cheers, Bailey clapping the loudest. Buck gives a small wave as his ears turn red.

“Welcome aboard, Buck, officially,” the Captain continues, “As Buck settles in, he will start taking over chore charts and any concerns that you have in general will go through him before reaching me. If you cannot respect Buck, speak now or forever hold your peace. Disrespect in my firehouse is never tolerated.”

No one objects or cracks a stupid joke. Buck feels better already.

Captain Thomas dismisses the morning briefing. Buck notices that everyone is fending for themselves for breakfast. Not wanting to shake things up right away in his new house, Buck goes with it.

The first hour or two of his shift are spent learning more about his new teammates. He’s grateful to have Bailey by his side because he would hate to start over knowing basically no one. The first true test of his skills comes as the alarm rings as the ambulance is being restocked.

Buck feels his adrenaline pump as he races to the truck for the first time in months. Bailey gives him a huge smile as she sits right next to him.

Captain Thomas alerts the team that they’re heading to a five car pile up. No fatalities at this time, but many are in critical condition on first glance. He looks to Buck to give some orders as they step out of the truck at the scene.

Buck was informed by Bailey that Thomas, while a good captain, liked to test his team. Buck could understand to a point, but it's not like he's a probie. First day as a lieutenant, sure, test him, but it can't be the whole time. Right? He feels as though there's a pit in his stomach.

He pushes through his nerves. Knowing that the 53 is not the first on scene, he walks over to Incident Commander, Captain Mehta from the 133, and sees where the 53’s people are needed. Once Buck’s filled in, he turns to Captain Thomas, who gives him a look that says go ahead.

Buck commands his team easily. There are only two cars that have yet be worked on. At first glance by the 133, neither car seemed to be in major distress. Everything goes smoothly until police sirens are heard.

As Bailey and Buck get the last passenger out on a backboard, the young man hears the sirens and gets up to run. The young man instantly falls back and starts seizing.

Having not much past basic medical knowledge, Buck looks to Bailey as she moves the patient in the correct position. Once the man is done seizing, she starts her medical assessment.

John Nolan and Lucy Chen exit a shop as they march towards Bailey and Buck.

“Morning,” Nolan greets, “You seem to be working on our suspect.”

“Suspect?” Buck asks, “There was no information from IC about detaining anyone.”

“New development,” Lucy answers as she looks in the back seat of the man’s car.

Lucy pulls out her radio, “Grey, we’re here at the scene of the multi car accident on the highway. Manny Huts is being looked over by Bailey now. There’s multiple bags filled with cash in his backseat.”

Bailey looks to John, “We need to get him to a hospital. You can follow behind.”

John nods.

Grey answers, “See if you can prop open the trunk. That much cash is probable cause, after all.”

Bailey starts loading the unconscious Manny Huts into the back of the 53’s ambulance as Buck goes to see if anything else is needed.

“Lucy, please find out if Detectives Harper and Lopez could meet the suspect at the hospital,” John asks as Lucy nods her head, speaking into her radio once more. John follows Buck.

John and Buck are informed that the scene seems under control and is cleared. John radios to alert Grey.

Buck goes to relay that to Captain Thomas, but is stopped by Captain Mehta.

"Got a second, Buckley?" Mehta asks.

Buck looks back to his preoccupied Captain before shaking his head affirmatively.

Mehta sighs, "I understand Nash broke your trust, but Thomas? Just, he runs a tight ship. Bobby's firm, but caring. Thomas is..."

Buck doesn't really know how to answer. It almost sounds like Captain Mehta is warning him.

Before he can think too much on it though, Captain Thomas calls for Buck.

"Thanks for looking out Captain Mehta," Buck says as Mehta takes out his card and hands it to Buck.

"I know you want to return to the 118 one day and I support that. Know that if you don't feel comfortable at the 53, the 133 will welcome you with open arms, even as a Lieutenant. Nune too," Mehta adds as he turns back to his own team.

Captain Thomas gives Buck a look as they reenter the trucks and head back to the station. Buck just doesn't know what to think. Mehta clearly was trying to give Buck some insight to Thomas. He knows Bobby cares and that's why he's always felt such a pull to the 118. It's familial. So far, it seems the 53 is a very far cry from his old house.

Bailey gives Buck a look, but he shakes his head no. Now's not the time. Bailey understands.

When the trucks pull back into the bay, Buck finds that it’s the same situation with lunch. Everyone seems to fend for themselves. What happened to the big family meal that happened the other day when he visited?

“What’s the deal with meals?” Buck whispers to Bailey.

Bailey sighs, “Cap has us fend for ourselves.”

“Why? The other day, was that all for show?” Buck asks, starting to feel like maybe he made a mistake.

Bailey purses her lips, “No, not show just a special occasion. I wish it was more familial, but Captain Thomas doesn’t want one person cooking. With dietary restrictions and such, he finds it easier if everyone’s accountable for themselves.”

“Oh,” is all Buck can say.

Bailey gives his arm a squeeze, “I don’t like it either. My old house and captain were similar to your experience. Around the table, cooking competitions, but Thomas just isn’t like that.”

“So, I can’t cook for you and I?” Buck asks as Bailey thinks.

“Maybe if we work together?” Bailey suggests.

Buck and Bailey start making lunch for themselves. This seemingly does not make Captain Thomas happy as others look on to see what the pair are making, asking for a piece of their meal.

Captain Thomas walks over to the island after Buck and Bailey finish their meal, “You’re new so I’ll let today pass. Bailey, you know why I don’t have a singular chef.”

“We didn’t, sir. Buck and I cooked for ourselves. After finding out what ingredients we were using, others asked to have some. We are all adults here,” Bailey explains.

“My house, my rules,” Captain Thomas answers sternly.

Buck flinches, but recovers quickly, “Bailey told me your rule. I suggested we work together and when others asked, well, I couldn’t say no. This is on me, sir."

“Buck-“

“No Bailey, it’s on me,” Buck looks to his new Captain, determined to show he wasn’t backing down.

“This is not the 118,” Captain Thomas starts, “If you want to go back to that mess of a firehouse, be my guest. It’s day one for you here, don’t go rocking the boat. Make your own meal tomorrow.”

The alarm rings before Bailey and Buck can add anything further.

When the shift is over, Buck changes quickly and so does Bailey. After the call that interrupted their conversation with the Captain was completed, Thomas called Buck and Bailey into his office. The conversation continued and both were reprimanded. Buck could not believe his ears. How could a Captain do such a 180? He misses Bobby.

“What’re your plans for tonight?” Buck asks as him and Bailey walk out.

Others on their team, give them sympathetic looks as they exit the building. Others glare at them. Thomas called the 118 a mess? It’s clear he was talking about his own house. No one in the 118 would be this cold about food. Excitement would be their reaction and Buck must admit, that’s the only reaction he could ever fathom.

“John’s working late, so I don’t know, cooking seems a bit traumatizing at the moment,” Bailey answers.

Buck nods, “I have an idea. Follow me.”

Bailey follows Buck to Abuela’s house. Buck knocks on Abuela’s door and is immediately engulfed when she opens the door.

“Evanito! Oh, sweet boy! Who is this?” Abuela asks as she smiles at Bailey.

“My new teammate, Bailey. Bailey meet Eddie’s Abuela Isabel,” Buck answers as Abuela turns to Bailey and gives her a hug as well.

“Keep him safe while my Eddito can’t, please,” Abuela pleads as she lets go of Bailey.

Bailey laughs and smiles, “Like Abuela, like grandson. Chris said the same thing.”

Isabel gets excited hearing that and lets them both in. Chris runs over and gives Buck a big hug. He then turns to Bailey and does the same. She recovers from her shock rather quickly, hugging the boy back. All enter the kitchen and man, does it smell incredible. Buck looks over at Bailey who looks close to drooling. Buck has to stifle his laughter, but he fails as Isabel pulls dishes from the oven. Bailey’s eyes all but bug out of her head. Buck full on laughs.

Bailey goes to glare at Buck, but finds the two Diazes confused with the same look on their face. Bailey starts to laugh as well. After a few minutes, both calm down.

“You two are weird together,” Chris comments.

Abuela scolds him, “Chris you cannot say that.”

“It’s okay, Abuela. We’ve just had a day and needed a laugh,” Buck explains.

Abuela doesn’t like the sound of that and pushes them down into the chairs. Buck whispers to Isabel that he doesn’t want to say anything in front of Chris. She nods, so all three adults listen to Chris detail his day. Chris asks to watch TV after dinner is done. Abuela and Buck let him.

“What happened?” Abuela asks.

“Please don’t tell Eddie,” Buck says. Abuela looks hesitant, but upon seeing Buck and Bailey’s expressions she agrees.

“While I like my new position, it seems my new Captain isn’t who he portrayed himself to be. Another Captain sorta warned me today at our scene too,” Buck starts.

Bailey cannot help being shocked.

"What did Mehta say exactly?" Bailey wonders aloud. She is starting to go over interactions she's had with her current captain since joining the 53. After she lost Fred, she hadn't had a permanent house. She yearned for the way her old house was, but after everything that went down with her husband's station and her late captain, she felt it was best to leave. Her teammates didn't blame her, they couldn't. A crazy serial arsonist and killer had murdered their captain, but she felt she had betrayed them by even considering he could be the mass murderer.

"Just that Bobby was firm, but caring and he didn't outright say it, but that Thomas isn't. He then sort of offered us a place at the 133," Buck answers breaking Bailey out of her thoughts.

Bailey takes that in. She's starting to feel a little nauseous thinking about their current captain. She feels bad to have dragged Buck to her station. She didn't mean to bring him into another mess. Now that she thinks about it, she hadn't exactly asked Thomas about Buck. He approached her when he heard that others were vying for him. She tucks that away for later, going back to the conversation.

“Guess it's good to know we have an out, but Thomas doesn't approve transfers easily. He just technically got both of us; he won't want to give us up easily. Today, it was like he was Jekyll and Hyde though. He’s never fully acted like that,” Bailey whispers as Chris comes back into the kitchen.

“Can I have dessert in the living room please?” Chris asks, displaying his best puppy dog eyes.

Abuela agrees and gives him some ice cream to bring into the living room.

“I don’t understand,” Abuela states as Chris goes back into the living room, “Why would he pretend?”

“I don’t know. I’ve only been at this station a few months. I’ve sort of been floating around. He’s always been a bit quirky; no team meals except for special occasions and team gatherings outside of work were discouraged. He tests everyone every so often, which we’re not at the academy anymore so, not the best vibe. It’s weird, but all that mattered was work was good, he’s a good leader out on the field and that’s where I felt it counted. I just don't understand,” Bailey explains.

“He just overreacted when we made lunch together and then when others wanted it, he wasn’t happy we said yes,” Buck explains as Abuela looks baffled.

“That’s silly,” Abuela says.

“He reprimanded us for it. A warning, technically, nothing to be put in our file, but it wasn’t a great look for us,” Bailey adds.

“For the most part, he does seem like a solid Captain. Just, such a different vibe from the 118,” Buck says.

“Different doesn’t always mean bad. I’d give it more than a day to decide, but be careful because it seems he has an issue with the both of you at the moment,” Abuela advises.

Bailey and Buck nod.

Eddie walks in the door a few moments later.

Eddie kisses Chris on the head and then enters the kitchen, a little confused.

“Hey Bailey, what’s up?” Eddie asks.

“Hey Eddie,” Bailey answers, “How was your day?”

“I was just going to ask you both that. First day, Lieutenant, how was it?” Eddie asks, smiling slightly.

“Great! Bailey and I just didn’t want the party to stop!” Buck exclaims, a little too overeager. Buck bites his lip and looks down at the floor.

Eddie’s face falls, but Buck doesn’t notice. Bailey does.

“Well, you have an amazing Abuela, Eddie. I miss my grandmother everyday, she raised me,” Bailey says, changing the subject.

Abuela gives Bailey another big hug which Bailey gladly accepts.

“She is pretty great,” Eddie says, smiling.

Abuela lets go of Bailey and pinches Eddie’s cheeks. Buck looks on to the scene in front of him fondly. Bailey also notices that look.

Bailey spends some more time at Isabel’s house as she serves dessert and tea. Eddie shares how his day went and Buck tries to keep the look of pain off his face. God, Bailey thinks, she hates the looks on their faces.

Bailey bids the Diazes goodbye and enters her car. She pulls out her phone and dials Wesley.

“Bailey? Everything okay?” Wesley asks.

“Something’s up with Captain Thomas,” Bailey starts, “Ang isn’t home yet is she?”

“No, this Huts case is consuming the entirety of Mid Wilshire for a good portion of the evening,” Wes responds, “Why do you feel something’s up with Thomas?”

“During our shift, it was as if Thomas was a whole other person. He’s always been a bit of a hardass, but today it was another level,” Bailey continues.

“Okay, but maybe he just had a bad night?” Wes infers, unsure of where Bailey could be going with this.

“I don’t know,” Bailey says as she bites her lip.

“Look, why don’t you come over so I can understand what you’re trying to say,” Wes suggests, “Being face to face will be best because I feel I’m losing context over the phone.”

Bailey agrees and heads over to the Lopez-Evers home.

Wesley lets Bailey in and hands her a cup of whiskey.

Bailey quirks her eyebrow as Wesley sighs, “I have a feeling we’re going to need it. Knowing our stations’ and partners’ luck, this could very well be something.”

Bailey nods as she fills Wesley in on her and Buck’s day. She informs him how Mehta warned Buck and offered them a place if they needed. Wesley agrees that that’s all suspicious, but without more than a day’s worth of context, nothing can be determined. Same as Abuela, Wesley advises her and Buck to be careful.

Bailey leaves and barely twenty minutes later, Ang gets home. She collapses on the couch next to Wesley, but sits up quickly, glaring at him.

“What’d I do?” Wes asks.

“Why is there another glass out?” Ang asks, upset, but trying to keep her voice down. The kids are asleep after all.

Wes breathed a sigh of relief, “Oh, Bailey was here. She had some concerns over her and Buck’s captain.”

“Why?”

“He flipped out on them for cooking together in the firehouse kitchen,” Wes tells Ang.

“That seems a bit ridiculous,” Ang adds, “Why?”

“Apparently because of everyone’s dietary needs he wants everyone to make their own food,” Wes shrugs.

“Seems a little crazy, but it could be nothing. The man is always seemed solid in the field,” Ang says confused.

“Bailey said the same thing, but she has a gut feeling. Bailey doesn’t get those over nothing. Another Captain seems to be wary of him as well. Look, he could be a good Captain, but not a good person,” Wes says shrugging.

“So Buck gets exiled from his original team, one who cares for him with good intentions, but executed them poorly to join a team where the Captain might not have the best of intentions?” Ang questions, starting to feel for the young man. Buck really didn’t need this.

“Sounds like we need to get Buck and Bailey off this team,” Wes adds.

“We need to find out all we can about Captain Thomas first. Buck and Bailey won’t be seen in a good light to just jump ship, Buck especially. Their reputations are on the line,” Ang says, “This will have to be on the DL.”

Wes hums.

“We can trust everyone in our inner circle at our station, but we may need outside help,” Ang says as she looks at her contacts list.

“Who?”

Ang dials someone and puts up a finger, signaling Wes to wait.

“Athena, it’s Angela Lopez. Look, I know it’s late, but I’m going to need your help."

Chapter Text

Athena’s fury on behalf of Buck is enormous. After Angela’s phone call the previous night, Athena stewed over everything the young man had been through.

After her first (unfortunate) encounter with Buck, she has watched him grow into a respectable young man. Buck leads with his whole heart, something she commends him for. No matter how many times he’s knocked down, he gets back up. If you are lucky enough to be someone Buck loves and cares for, it doesn’t matter how many chances you’ve had, you’ll get another one. Athena will have to discuss that with him at some point, however, because the man does deserve boundaries and respect.

Even though she was heartbroken, mainly for Bobby, to hear that Buck was transferring, she did see it as a good thing. Mid Wilshire had shown him support when their own family had failed him. From what she’s heard so far, she just wishes that Buck was at any other station. The 53 does not sound inviting at all.

Say what you want about her husband, but Bobby is one of the best captains the LAFD has ever seen. He’s caring, firm, fair, but most importantly accepting. He won’t tolerate any bullshit when it comes to mistreatment of others. One could point out Buck’s situation, but there was no malice there. Bobby was coming from a place of love and she knows, KNOWS, that Bobby feels Buck’s absence at their firehouse daily. They all do.

Athena doesn’t even hesitate agreeing to help Ang and the rest of Mid Wilshire in investigating Captain Thomas. She agrees to keep it quiet, especially from Bobby and his team, as she does not want any alarms sounding to Thomas or Bobby feeling guilty for putting Buck in a possible bad situation.

Athena enters the Mid Wilshire station to be shooed into Grey’s office. She stands there with Angela, Nolan, and Wesley. Grey sits behind his desk and sighs, “Please explain why we’re about to dig into a life of yet another one of Bailey’s fire captains.”

“Another one?” Athena questions.

Grey sighs, “Yes, Captain Fred Mitchell, Bailey’s late captain. He was believed to be the serial arsonist/killer we had a while back. He was not, by the way. He was framed and then murdered by the actual killer.”

Athena nods, “I remember that case. I hadn’t realize your station or Bailey was involved.”

“She was devastated,” Nolan explains, “It’s why she hasn’t had a permanent house since. She missed the stability though and when the 53 was offered she jumped on it. I think she regrets staying, but he won’t let her transfer."

“So why bring Buck into it?” Athena asks, trying not to sound annoyed.

“I don’t think she meant to,” Ang offers, “Bailey spoke again to Wes and I this morning. She remembered that Thomas sort of fished for him after hearing from other captains that Buck was looking to transfer.”

“I know Buck chose the 53 because of Bailey and the promotion. This isn’t Bailey’s fault, it’s no one’s fault,” Wes hesitates before answering, “I think he just felt like that was the house that wanted him most. After everything, Bailey wanting to help him and then someone seeing his potential, I think Buck just-“

“Felt accepted and seen,” Athena says, cutting Wesley off.

“Look, this can still be nothing. Not every boss is a good one. We can’t go off of one bad day. Don’t loop anyone else into this yet,” Grey orders, “But I won’t stop you from looking into him. Buck and Bailey deserve some peace of mind."

All agree.

So for the next few weeks, Buck and Bailey continue to be berated at the firehouse. People still respect Buck’s position out on calls, but when they get back to the house, it is colder than the Antarctic.

Buck doesn’t tell the 118 a thing. Only Athena is in the know and he will forever be grateful to have Sergeant Athena Grant on his side.

It’s the most difficult to keep from Eddie as the two are living together and have been continually sharing a bed. Each day he comes home, he has to plaster a fake smile when he tells his Diaz boys about his day. Carla immediately sees right through him, but he begs her to keep it quiet from Eddie. Carla only agrees after Buck tells her they’re trying to get him and Bailey (who Carla instantly loved) away from their current station.

Bailey soon finds out, from one of like three people on their side, that Thomas is spreading that both believe they are above listening to the Captain. It all goes back to that incident with the both of them cooking lunch. Both are floored as are the entirety of Mid Wilshire and Athena.

Everyone sits in John and Bailey’s living room, trying to comprehend what they’re hearing.

“Who cares? You made lunch!” Athena yells completely just flabbergasted and disgusted by the Captain’s behavior.

“I don’t even understand why he took me on? It doesn’t seem like he wants me there,” Buck adds.

“He clearly doesn’t want me either,” Bailey comments, “It’s like he saw our friendship and felt we’d be problematic.”

“So then, and I hate to point out the obvious,” Lucy starts, “But why don’t you transfer?”

Bailey sighs, “He won’t even considering approving a transfer for six months.”

“But he doesn’t like you,” Nyla continues, “Why keep two members that himself and the majority of the shift have a problem with?”

“It’s fishy, but we can’t find anything on the guy,” Ang says frustrated, “He’s just a major ass.”

“What about that other Captain? Mehta right?” Tim asks, trying to spin it in a positive light.

Bailey sighs again, “Thomas found out about that and has been making sure him and his team get a cold shoulder on joint calls. Mehta let Buck and I know that he’s aware it’s not us. His team knows too.”

No one else really knows what to say. Everyone agrees to keep searching for anything suspicious about Captain Thomas, but all are feeling it is a lost cause. Buck has never been happier that he let Athena drive. He doesn’t feel it’d be safe for him to be behind the wheel.

“I should’ve just talked to Bobby,” Buck says as Athena drives him back to their house.

Athena looks to Buck, sympathetic smile on her face, “Maybe, but Bobby wasn’t thinking clearly enough or seeing reason. Talking to Bobby before he got a grip could’ve made things worse for your relationship.”

Buck nods, “Why’d a firetruck have to crush my leg?”

Athena bites her lip, trying not to cry. This boy, her boy, has been through too much. He deserves everything good life could offer him. Before she can answer, Buck keeps going.

“That night changed everything. You know, Maddie still hasn’t spoken to me since I kicked her out of the loft!” Buck exclaims, trying to keep his anger at bay.

She’s happy Buck has that skill because she certainly does not, “Excuse me?”

“I’ve made up with you, Bobby, Eddie, Hen, hell even Chim! My sister just, I don’t even know why I’m surprised,” Buck says as he starts twiddling his thumbs.

Athena gives Buck’s arm an affectionate squeeze, “What do you mean?”

“I know you’re aware that the first time anyone knew Maddie existed was when she broke into Abby’s apartment,” Buck starts as he sees Athena nod. He continues, “That was the first time I’d seen her since I was 19 and the first time I had spoken to her for four years. Cutting contact for her seems to be just as easy as buying groceries.”

Athena grips the steering wheel tightly, “Bobby and I thought we got through to her, but hearing this, clearly we missed the mark. She broke down in front of us about a month ago.”

“That’s not on you, Thena. She’s a grown woman, has been for a long time,” Buck says, trying to be a comfort to Athena as she is one to him.

Athena sighs, “I know, baby, but her misguided feelings should not be your burden to bear.”

Athena pulls into the driveway to see Eddie’s truck there as well. Buck notices too. There’s a silent agreement that for the time being all conversations from today are dropped. Athena lets Buck into the house and instantly, she regrets not taking him out for a meal.

Eddie stands furiously by the couch, arms crossed as Maddie sits there next to two people Athena can only assume are the Buckley parents. Chim, at the very least, looks sheepish and uncomfortable.

Bobby comes out of the kitchen with a tray of snacks.

“Evan,” Maddie says, finally looking up to see him and Athena, “I’ve been looking for you.”

“Clearly not hard enough,” Buck retorts.

“Don’t talk to your sister that way, Evan,” Philip dares to say.

Athena, Bobby, and Eddie all go to defend Buck, but he puts up his hand, halting their responses.

“Why are you all here?” Buck asks, starting to become quite agitated at this situation. How come he couldn’t have a safe space?

“That is not a polite way to greet your parents, Evan,” Margaret chastises. Buck rolls his eyes. Margaret is not amused by that and continues to berate Buck, “That is so rude, Evan. We did not raise you to be rude.”

That breaks Bobby as he shouts, “You didn’t raise him at all!”

“Excuse me, Captain Nash, but this is not your concern,” Philip interjects.

“Like hell, of course this is! Maddie, we told you weeks ago that you could have a relationship with these people if you wished, but not to force Buck to,” Bobby answers, looking right at Maddie.

“I didn’t know they’d be in California, they just showed up! We were talking and they want to make amends with Evan. You got to, so why can’t they?” Maddie asks.

Buck laughs, “We haven’t even talked yet, Maddie-“

“And I’m sorry for that. I’ve been trying to come up with the right words to say. It wasn’t my place to voice my opinions and spread false information in regards to your return to active duty,” Maddie says, “You don’t understand my whole feelings behind the situation."

“What does that have to do with anything? Buck needed us, but we failed him and you were a huge part of that,” Eddie scolds Maddie.

“Evan,” Margaret says, defiantly, looking straight at Eddie.

“Is that supposed to scare me? Using a name that Buck can’t stand from people that don’t deserve him?” Eddie answers defensively.

“Buck, please, I just didn’t want to lose my little brother. I was scared,” Maddie admits, tears streaming down her face.

“Another,” Buck says. The Buckleys pale.

“What?” Maddie asks, looking accusatorially between Bobby and Athena. Neither looks amused.

“You heard me. I said another, you didn’t want to lose another little brother,” Buck says, not taking his eyes off of a shocked Maddie. The Buckleys seem to get over their shock pretty quickly. Too quickly.

His parents turn to Maddie.

“Why did you tell him?” Margaret yells.

“That was not your place,” Philip berates Maddie.

Maddie starts to cry, answering, “I didn’t-“

“That’s enough! Grandma and Grandpa told me after I found the photo albums,” Buck explains, “I’ve known since I was fourteen.”

Both parents look to him, waiting for a further explanation as if he’s done anything wrong.

“Even if she did tell me, she would have the right. Daniel wasn’t only your son, but her brother. Our brother. You had no right to keep him out of our lives,” Buck says defending Maddie. They may not be on the best of terms at the moment, but that doesn’t mean he doesn’t care. She is his big sister, only one he’s got.

Margaret and Philip go to answer, but see the looks on everyone’s faces.

Athena breaks the silence, “You know, OUR son, mine and Bobby’s, has such a kind heart. He’s easy to love and there for any person he loves, no hesitation, no questions asked. I will NEVER understand how such a man came from the two of you, but my life is better having him in it.”

Margaret and Philip gasp.

“I’ve lost two children. You don’t ever get over that kind of loss,” Bobby says, starting to get choked up. Bobby regains his composure once more, continuing, “But you had two other children to live for. You chose not to. Buck saved my life. He’s my son and am thankful that his adventures brought him to us. You may not have wanted him, but we do.”

Philip huffs.

Margaret, apparently feeling bold, but not wanting to show satisfaction that what they’ve all said has gotten to her looks right at Chimney.

Chimney gulps.

“Anything to add, Howard?” Margaret asks, frustration and embarrassment flooding through.

“We’re pregnant,” Chimney says softly as bewildered looks fill the room.

Great, now he’ll never be able to return to the 118.

The Buckley parents cheer and engulf Maddie in a large hug.

The audacity of these people. Athena is livid, but that is nothing compared to her husband, who is seething. Eddie does not seem to be fairing much better, but goes over to Buck, whispering something in his ear. She has never seen Buck look so defeated.

Bobby recovers quite quickly, "Get out."

"Cap-"

"I've had it, get out. Clearly, we need to have a discussion on what's appropriate and what's not," Bobby starts to go off.

Philip humphs, "You can't tell your subordinates who they can and can't date."

"Yes, Evan can get over himself," Margaret glares at Buck, "Your sister is carrying our grandchild and deserves everything good coming to her."

"While I can't tell my team who to date, I can point out that was probably not the best time to make that announcement," Bobby explains turning to an embarrassed Chimney, "And I can tell them when to leave my house."

"We haven't had a proper conversation with Evan. You all keep butting in," Margaret huffs.

"Whose fault is that?" Eddie snarls at Margaret. Buck puts a hand on Eddie's shoulder, silently pleading with Eddie to drop it.

Margaret goes to answer Eddie and probably comment on Buck's gesture, but Maddie beats her, pleading, "Mom, if he's not ready to talk to you, just leave it be."

"Well, we weren't ready for him to know about Daniel, but here we are," Philip says, only glaring at Buck.

Every single adult in the room has reached their wit's end.

Buck takes a deep breath, but before he can answer, Athena whips out her phone. She dials 9-1-1 and as the icon she is, she puts it on speaker.

"9-1-1, what's your emergency?" Josh asks.

"Josh, it's Sergeant Grant," Athena starts.

"Are you alright Sergeant?" Josh asks, concern flooding through the phone.

"I have two intruders in my home who refuse to leave," Athena explains.

"Intruders? You let us in! Your husband works with our Maddie's Howard!" Margaret yells, clearly not understanding the depth of the situation her and her husband have caused.

"I've dispatched a patrol unit," Josh says as he types, "To be clear, Maddie and Howard aren't two of the intruders, correct?"

"No, just Maddie's parents," Athena responds.

Josh sighs in relief.

"A patrol unit's unnecessary, Josh. We're heading out," Maddie stands as her parents go to protest, but Maddie glares at them.

"Sorry Maddie, they were only a couple of minutes away," Josh replies as there's a knock on the door.

Athena opens the door to find Officer Williams and another officer Buck has never met. Athena points to the couch as she explains her and Bobby asked them to leave, but they refused. She also tells them they nearly protested Maddie right before they arrived. Seeing that they would be in cuffs if they don't comply, Philip and Margaret Buckley get up and storm out of the house. Both ignore Buck and honestly, Buck couldn't think of a better way to end their little horror show of a visit. He never wants to be in the Philip and Margaret Buckley's presence ever again.

Chimney gives everyone a weak smile and wave before heading out the door.

Maddie stands in front of Buck, tears streaming down her face, "I really am sorry."

"I appreciate it, Mads, but I need time," Buck replies.

Maddie nods and leaves the Grant-Nash house. Athena thanks the officers and sends them on their way.

Everyone turns towards Buck, "I want to stay, but I don't want to talk about it."

The three adults nod as Bobby suggests that Buck and him make a new chicken pasta recipe he had been dying to try. Buck happily obliges as Athena and Eddie head out to grab some dessert for after dinner.

Bobby stays true to his word and doesn't mention the Buckley's visit. Instead, Bobby asks Buck about his new position. Buck doesn't really feel like discussing that either, but he doesn't want Bobby to get suspicious.

"I'm enjoying it," Buck answers. It's the truth. He's enjoying the position, he's just not enjoying the 53. Bailey being the exception, of course.

Bobby hums as a reply, "You know, I've always wondered what you want your end goal in the LAFD to be."

Buck looks quizzically over at Bobby while he's cutting the vegetables that will accompany the main dish, "Captain, I guess."

"Of?" Bobby asks, unsure of the answer. Buck starts to wonder if there's more behind this questioning.

"The 118. I felt like that was fairly obvious," Buck says as he quirks an eyebrow. Where is Bobby going with this?

Bobby bites his lip and stops seasoning the chicken, "I hate that you're not at the 118, kid. I'm trying to put on this brave face, but every shift I walk in and you're not there I get furious all over again. It's not at you, it's at myself."

"I'd love nothing more than to be back at the 118," Buck says as Bobby's head whips so fast to look at Buck, to see if he's being serious. Buck sighs, "I just, I'm not ready yet and now with Chimney and Maddie's pregnancy, the Chief may not let me return."

Bobby nods, heartbroken. He unfortunately knows that the kid is right.

After a few moments of both men finishing up their tasks for dinner, Buck looks up at Bobby, "Thanks for sticking up for me."

"Always. No one speaks to my kid that way and gets away with it," Bobby says so fiercely that Buck has no choice but to believe it.

Chapter Text

Buck goes home that night feeling so utterly drained. He’s glad him and his sister have somewhat made up, but her bringing their (HER) parents to Bobby and Athena’s is a betrayal that will take some time to get over. He can’t even properly be happy that he has a little niece or nephew on the way.

Buck plops down on his and Eddie’s shared bed with a groan as Eddie carefully sits next to him.

“I hate your parents,” Eddie quietly admits.

Buck laughs and parrots back what Eddie told Ang a few weeks ago at the bar, “You going to say that to Athena Grant’s face?”

Eddie shoves Buck lightly as they laugh, “Your biological parents, you idiot.”

“Maddie’s parents. I don’t want any association,” Buck says as Eddie nods in understanding.

Eddie lays down next to Buck and the pair sit in silence for a while. Chris is at Pepa’s for the night and while Buck will always miss Chris when he’s away, he is thankful he’s not at the house for the moment. Buck feels the most unstable he has in a while.

“I can hear your brain buzzing,” Eddie says after what feels like hours, “Didn’t even know that was possible.”

Buck hums, “I hate working at the 53.”

Eddie whips his neck so hard and fast facing Buck that he feels he should get a neck brace.

Buck faces Eddie as he whispers, “Kiss me.”

Eddie obliges, carefully reaching towards Buck as if he’s going to crack. He probably will, but all his thoughts and worries fly out of his head the second Eddie’s lips meet his.

It is the softest kiss that Buck has ever experienced. Eddie is careful and all Buck can feel is secure. Eddie breaks the kiss too soon for Buck’s liking, but he is forgiven as Buck looks into his eyes. Eddie’s eyes are full of love, but they also scream uncertainty. Buck can’t have that. He grabs Eddie and they kiss again, this time with more urgency.

Buck and Eddie passionately make out for a while, coming up for air as a ringing breaks them out of their trance.

Eddie scrambles for his phone, noticing that Pepa is trying to FaceTime him. It’s her second attempt.

“Shit,” Eddie whispers as he tries to fix his tousled hair and wrinkled shirt.

Eddie answers, “Hey Tia!”

Pepa gives Eddie an inquisitive look before smirking, “Hi Eddie. Buck there too?”

Eddie blushes as he turns the phone to Buck, who up until then had been trying to fix his hair and shirt too. Buck clears his throat, “Pepa. Good to see you.”

Pepa tries to hold back her laughter, but fails.

Eddie embarrassed hisses, “Tia!”

“Nice hickey you left on Buck there, Eddito,” Pepa comments, smirking once more.

Eddie and Buck’s faces turn as red as the trucks they ride in daily.

“Tia, is that dad?” Chris can be heard off screen asking.

Pepa hands Chris the phone, “Hey Dad! I just wanted to say good night to you and Bucky.”

Feeling more composed, Buck joins Eddie in the frame, “Night Superman.”

“Sweet dreams, Chris,” Eddie says, “Can’t wait to hear all about your night tomorrow when we pick you up.”

“Yeah, how does the zoo sound?” Buck asks.

Chris gasps, “For the new exhibit?”

Buck smiles, “For the new exhibit.”

Chris squeals and Buck’s smiler grows wider. Eddie looks at his two favorite people in the whole world interacting and can’t help it as his smile grows wider too.

“Love you,” Chris says, yawning.

“Love you too,” Eddie answers.

“Love you Superman.”

Chris waves as he hangs up the phone.

Eddie and Buck lay back on the bed in silence once more. Instead this time, Buck has his head on Eddie’s chest as Eddie wraps his arms around Buck.

Both are asleep within minutes.

Eddie wakes up before Buck. His mind floods with the memories from the night before. He can’t believe it happened. They didn’t explicitly share their feelings, but he feels it in his heart that the kisses (PLURAL!!) were not just heat of the moment. All he’s ever wanted and it’s finally within his reach.

Eddie thinks back to what started it though. I hate working at the 53 rings in his ears. Does this mean that Buck’s ready to come back to the 118?

He can’t think on that long since Buck starts to stir. Buck blinks up at Eddie and smiles, “Hi.”

Eddie smiles right back, “Hi.”

Buck sits up and gives Eddie a light peck on the lips, “I could get used to this.”

That’s the best thing Eddie’s ever heard, until Buck says, “I’m in love with you.”

Eddie kisses Buck again and just revels in the fact that all of his deepest desires are coming true.

When Eddie pulls away, he confesses, “I’m in love with you too.”

Both laugh.

Eddie and Buck lay in bed for a few more moments until their alarms go off. Eddie gets up and starts to head towards the door to make them some coffee. Buck has other plans as he pulls Eddie into the bathroom with him.

One could say they’re not taking things slow, but others (mainly their 118 firefam) would argue that it’s about time.

After their collective shower, the two move in sync making coffee and breakfast. As Buck plates Eddie’s waffles, he looks nervously to Eddie.

“What should we tell Chris?” Buck asks, unsure if it’s an appropriate question after literally less than 24 hours as a couple.

Eddie lifts Buck’s chin to meet his gaze, “I feel like we need to tell him his Bucky is here for good. That you’re officially ours.”

Buck smiles and leans in, giving Eddie a quick, soft kiss.

“What if he’s not happy we’re together?” Buck whispers. It’s a fear that Buck’s had for way longer than he’d like to admit. While he had always felt Eddie was far out of his reach, he sometimes let his mind wander into a happy ending fantasy. The only piece in that fantasy that he wasn’t sure of was if Chris would be happy with the new development and change. He knows Chris loves him, but that’s as Bucky, his dad’s friend. Who knows how he’ll react to Buck, his dad’s new boyfriend?

Eddie gives Buck a bewildered look, “Buck, cariño, this will literally make Christopher’s year.”

“I don’t know about that,” Buck says shaking his head, “I’m his Bucky. Now, I’ll be his dad’s boyfriend. I don’t want him to believe anything will change.”

“It will change, it has changed,” Eddie starts as he sees Buck sink in on himself, “But change isn’t always a bad thing. You show up for Chris all the time and that was without us as a couple. I’ll repeat it over and over again, there is NO ONE I trust more with my son than you.”

Eddie gives a comforting squeeze, but then shakes his head, “Wait, no that’s not true…”


Buck’s head snaps up, tears threatening to fall, “I knew it-“

“Our son,” Eddie announces as if it’s the most beautiful thing he can think of.

“Eddie-“

“You saved him. Not just him, but me too. You have always gone above and beyond for us. He’s not just my son, he’s yours too,” Eddie speaks with such finality that Buck might just believe him.

“Thank you,” Buck says, tears glistening in his eyes. These tears are not sad tears, but ones of joy and relief.

“For what?” Eddie asks.

“Being my family,” Buck answers, “You’ve always been there, even after I nearly bit your head off your first shift.”

Eddie chuckles, “Yeah, you really hated me for all of 24 hours I was shaking in my boots.”

Buck playfully smacks Eddie.

After their heart to heart in the kitchen, the new couple moves to eat their (now cold) waffles. Neither minds.

Buck admits when they get into the truck that he had mentioned the new exhibit to Nyla. He looks unsure as he tells Eddie he had invited her and her daughters to join them. Eddie assures Buck that he doesn't mind as they pull up to Pepa's house.

When the new couple enters the house, it's to a guilty Pepa and a bouncing Chris.

"After our call, Chris asked Abuela what a hickey was," Pepa explains, "She didn't think much of the question and answered. Now he's excited."

Buck and Eddie look a little mortified before turning to Chris.

"Are you guys together?" Chris asks squealing and not even attempting to hide the giddiness and hopefulness he feels.

Eddie kneels in front of his son, "Yes, mijo. Buck's here to stay."

Chris jumps up and down, giving his dad a big hug. Buck watches on to the scene, love bursting from his chest. Buck knows the true meaning behind Eddie's explanation. Both Diaz boys have always feared that another loved one would leave them behind like Shannon did. Buck is never leaving them behind, not as long as he has a say.

Pepa pushes Buck towards her nephews and Eddie opens his arms for Buck to join. Buck doesn't hesitate. Pepa can't contain the joy she feels for the family her nephew has made for himself. While she never hated Shannon like her brother and sister-in-law had, she was always a little wary of her. Those feelings have never applied to Buck.

She thinks back to her brother's treatment of Eddie's late wife. She never truly understood their hate for the woman. While Shannon and Eddie may not have worked out, their (love?) bond gave them Christopher. She can't even begin to fathom all of their lives without that little boy. He truly is a light that keeps them all going.

After a few more moments of the boys hugging, Pepa shoos them out to enjoy their day at the zoo. When they reach the car, Buck informs Chris that Nyla will be there with her daughters. Chris can't contain his joy as he admits he likes Nyla, has since the tsunami. He can't wait to make some new friends too. Both men breathe a sigh of relief at Chris being okay with this day not just being a family outing.

Buck, Eddie and Chris meet Nyla and her daughter, Lila, at the front entrance. Chris gives Nyla a big hug that she sinks into. Eddie spots the tears in both Nyla and Buck's eyes, but doesn't say anything. Nyla introduces Lila and mentions that her husband has their youngest, Leah. He was taking her and his sons to get a birthday gift for Lila.

Chris and Lila are fast friends, exchanging facts about various different animals. The adults are engaged as they listen attentively to each new fact that each kid comes up. A few of Chris's sound familiar, but Eddie and Buck don't say a word. They act as if they don't know.

Lunch rolls around and as Eddie grabs a table with the two kids, Nyla and Buck go up to order their food.

"I'm glad you both could join us," Buck remarks with a bright smile, "I think I've been replaced as Chris's best friend."

Nyla rolls her eyes and laughs, "I don't know about that. Thank you for the invite. I've been meaning to reach out to you for a one-on-one hang anyway so maybe one day this week we could grab dinner?"

"That sounds nice. Maybe Tamara could join us too?" Buck asks as Nyla nods.

Buck places the order and pulls out his card to pay. Nyla tries to protest, but he simply won't have it. Buck invited them, end of story. Nyla shares her thanks.

Nyla checks her phone, "Tamara says she's free on Wednesday, does that work?"

"Sure does!" Buck exclaims, "We Trauma bond on Wednesday night."

Nyla gives Buck a look to display her confusion and aversion to the term.

Buck shrugs, "I've been informed that's what the kids call it. By May, not Christopher."

Their order is called and the adults bring the trays to the table Eddie found. Both are pleased to find it's towards the back in the shade. It's not the hottest day LA could have, but it's not exactly cool outside.

Lunch passes by with stories from all sides. The kids argue which job is cooler, Chris says firefighter and Lila says cop. Nyla gets them to compromise that both are clearly equally cool since both help people in need. Both kids are satisfied with that answer.

The day is ended with a souvenir and ice cream cone for each kid.

The drive home to the Diaz house is relatively quiet as exhaustion washes over the entire car. Chris is out like a light before they leave the zoo parking lot. When they arrive back home, Buck carries Christopher out of the car. Eddie opens the front door as Buck goes to put Chris down in his room.

Eddie wants to take the time while Chris is asleep to address what could seemingly be an elephant in the room. He doesn't know how to broach the topic though without becoming upset or upsetting Buck. He doesn't want to start off their relationship with an argument over work.

Buck returns with two beers in hand as the men find themselves snuggling on the couch. Eddie cards his hands through Buck's hair as Buck flips through channels trying to find something for them to watch.

Eventually, Buck stops the Hallmark channel. Neither really have much interest, but Eddie figures it's now or never. It's not like they'll be watching the TV.

"So if you hate the 53, does that mean you're coming back?" Eddie asks hesitantly.

Buck freezes, but answers, "I forgot I said that."

"Cariño, why are you torturing yourself?" Eddie continues, "I know it's not perfect at the 118, but you'd be welcomed back with open arms."

"It's not that simple, Eds," Buck starts to explain, "Thomas won't let us transfer for at least six months. Him and the rest of the team are treating Bailey and I like dirt-"

"We'll go to the Chief," Eddie starts as Buck shakes his head no. Eddie is becoming quite annoyed with Buck's attitude towards the situation.

"I can't just run to the Chief every time I don't get my way," Buck says and well, Eddie thinks he has a point with that.

Buck sighs, "Bailey and I are figuring it out. Even if we could transfer, Mehta's offered us spots. I hate the 53, but I'm not ready to go back to the 118. Can you respect that?"

Eddie nods, trying to suppress the lump in throat. Buck gives Eddie a warm smile. The subject is dropped as they both focus on the movie. Neither are really paying attention, but neither knows what to say.

Chris comes out and asks what they're having for dinner. Not wanting to cook, Buck orders some pizza. Not long after the pizza arrives and is eaten, Chris starts to fall asleep again. Eddie carries Chris to bed this time.

Buck's phone starts to ring. Buck looks to see it's Captain Thomas calling. Buck takes a deep breath and answers.

"Buckley, I need your help," Thomas says, sounding desperate.

Buck is alert, "What happened sir?"

"I'm sorry for icing you and Nune out at the firehouse. It's just," Thomas takes a deep breath, "Respect is huge for me and it seemed as though you were both disregarding that."

"Okay, but you started a whole smear campaign over lunch," Buck bites, "Why call me when you need help? There's at least a dozen other firefighters currently following your lead that would gladly assist you."

Thomas sighs and then answers with a tone that Buck can't place, "You're not wrong, but it has nothing to do with me. I called because I figured you'd want the chance to help Nash."

Buck is instantly on the defense, "What do you mean? What'd you do to Bobby?"

"Come to 1515 Shaunsey Terrace and find out for yourself," Thomas says, but then warns, "But none of your and Bailey's cop friends. I will know, I have a dispatch guy on my side. Bring Nune."

"I won't put her in danger," Buck says defiantly.

Thomas laughs, "Bring Nune or Nash gets it."

Thomas hangs up before Buck can say anything else. Buck leaves the Diaz home as quietly as he can, jumping into his Jeep. As he drives away, against his better judgement, Buck contacts Bailey.

Despite Buck's best efforts, Eddie hears when the Jeep leaves the driveway. So does Chris.

Chris sniffles, "I thought Buck was staying."

"He is, mijo. Maybe he forgot something from Bobby and Athena's. We were there yesterday while you were at Tia's," Eddie assures his son as his son nods. Problem is, Buck hadn't brought anything to Grant-Nash home, so where was Buck going?

Eddie stays in his son's bedroom long after Chris falls asleep. He feels too numb to move. He'd texted Buck right after Chris fell asleep. Buck responded quickly saying there was a work emergency that him and Bailey had to check out. Odd, Eddie thinks, but maybe it's just a cover for him to talk with her about their new relationship.

Still, there's unease as Eddie closes the door to his son's room.

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Athena and Bobby sit cuddling on their couch as May occupies the arm chair. There's some nature documentary playing on their TV that Buck would love. The evening had been quiet so far, but that was about to change.

Athena's phone rings and as she leaves the comfort of her husband's arms, she can't help but feel unnerved.

"Grant speaking, who-"

Athena is cut off by a frantic Lucy Chen, "Are you with Buck and Bobby?"

"I'm with Bobby, yes, but Buck I believe is at the Diazes," Athena answers, putting her husband and daughter on high alert.

"Okay well Buck's not answering his phone and now neither is Bailey?" Lucy continues, "I know Eddie has Chris and I don't want to worry him unnecessarily, but..."

"But what?" Athena asks starting to frustrated and anxious.

Bobby's phone rings and he gets off the couch to answer it. He enters their bedroom.

There's a rustling on the other end as Tim Bradford's voice comes through, "We found out something about Thomas and his past."

"Okay," Athena says, "And?"

"Athena, his brother was Bobby's landlord back in Minnesota," Tim starts to explain as Athena pales. Bobby takes that moment to come back to the living room. May has been frantically texting their group, asking if they've seen or heard from Buck.

"Hold on, Tim. Bobby, who was that?"

"Eddie, he said Buck left some time ago and hasn't heard from him since then either. He wanted to know if he was here," Bobby says, concern seeping through.

Bobby goes and dials Buck's number as Athena takes that in, "Tim, he's not at Eddie's."

"Bailey left the bar to take a call from Buck. She never came back in," Tim says.

"Buck would never put her in danger," Athena says defensively.

"We know," Tim answers, "But-"

Athena shushes him as Bobby lights up, "Buck, kid, where are you?"

Bobby's face falls as he drops his phone. May picks it up and puts it on speaker, Athena puts hers on speaker too.

"An eye for an eye Nash. This one's for my brother," Thomas taunts and the call drops.

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Bailey looks down at her phone, trying not to freak out at the text she received from Buck.

When her and Buck realized that Thomas might not be who they thought he was, the pair came up with a code that would alert each other, but not Thomas if he was ever to somehow get a hold of their phones. It had to alert the other of needing to rope in Athena and Mid Wilshire as well without spelling out to call 9-1-1.

"I think we'll need a turkey for the joint BBQ this upcoming weekend," Buck wrote.

Bailey nudges her husband, who she had filled in, and shows him Buck's text. Nolan starts alerting his team something may be going down as Bailey exits the bar to call Buck.

She never gets to as there's tape across her mouth and a bag put over her head before she could scream ‘boo!’.

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After Tim gets off the phone with Athena, she alerts their whole family of the situation at hand. Michael and David offer to watch the 118’s kids without hesitation. Athena makes sure that it’s only her and Bobby that head to the Mid Wilshire station. There is no reason to overwhelm the Mid Wilshire clan with their team when they wouldn’t really be able to help. Plus, with everything going on she knows she’ll have to pull Bobby out of blaming himself and won’t be able to look out for the other members of the 118 from doing the same. Once Hen assures her that the kids and adults are all safe at David’s house, she and Bobby walk into the Mid Wilshire station.

They find the Mid Wilshire crew waiting for them in the roll call room. Once everyone’s settled, Bobby tells the Mid Wilshire clan the story of how he lost his first family.

“I’m confused,” Aaron comments once Bobby’s done, “You’ve worked with Thomas, but didn’t recognize him?”

“Honestly, our landlord had always been aloof. Marcy mentioned when she wasn’t able to get through to him, she’d be able to get through to the brother, but he wasn’t much help either. Even if I had been in my right mind and confronted him about the conditions of our building, he probably wouldn’t have been receptive,” Bobby answers, full of shame.

“You never really knew your landlord, so it’s not like you would have ever run into Thomas before to recognize him right?” Ang asks.

Bobby shakes his head.

“I don’t get it though,” Celina starts, but Nolan cuts her off.

“It’s not something we need to understand right now. The priority is to find Buck and Bailey and get them back safely,” Nolan says, trying to remain calm, but the frustration and nerves are easily seeping through. No one points it out.

“Look, I’ve messed up plenty in my life and this is just another thing that is my fault, I’m aware of that-“

“Woah, look, from my understanding, one little spark, from anyone ANYTHING, was going to put that building in jeopardy of burning down,” Wes says, “A space heater being left on accidentally wouldn’t have caused such mass devastation if the landlord was operating that building legally and safely.”

Bobby is speechless, he doesn’t deserve such kindness.

“Wes is right you know,” Nyla starts, “What if Marcy had been cooking and a grease fire had started. Would you have blamed her?”

And doesn’t that just knock Bobby’s whole world off its axis. Of course not, he’d still blame himself for not noticing the building wasn’t up to code. However, he does see the detective’s logic and now is not the time for Bobby to spiral. He can do that once Buck and Bailey are safe and sound.

“Now that the blame game is out of the way, let’s find this bastard and bring him down,” Tim exclaims.

On that note, they comb through Thomas’s whole life. Members of the 53’s team are called in and questioned. All but two show up. Those two are further investigated and it’s found out one of them owns three homes in the area that he rents out. Mid Wilshire, Bobby, and Athena split up, going in the direction of each home, praying their instincts will lead them to Buck and Bailey.

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Thomas lifts the bag off of Bailey’s head for her to find a bound and tied Buck next to her, screaming through his tape. Thomas laughs maniacally.

“I’m going to tell you both a little story and it does have a happy ending. Not for you, but for me,” Thomas starts, “My brother and I had the misfortune of having Bobby Nash and his family as tenants in our apartment building. Somehow Nash kills 148 people starting that fateful fire and my brother is blamed.”

Buck starts fidgeting as Bailey remains calm, she cannot alert Thomas to the fact that she found a nail and is chipping away at her restraints.

“My brother gets sentenced to twenty five years, while Nash just walks away. He murdered 148 people and he gets to start a new life? Find a wife and kids to replace his old ones. Well, that never sat right with me and it certainly never sat right with my brother, who had to spend his days in a cell like some caged animal. Where’s his fresh start, huh? He died a horrific death, some equipment wasn’t installed correctly and it ended his misery. He shouldn’t have had misery, Nash should have! It should have been Nash!” Thomas screams as Buck and Bailey turn to him in complete and utter disbelief. Does Thomas hear himself? It seems like a pretty fitting death to the two of them. While Bobby might have left the space heater on accidentally, the fact that Thomas and his brother were so neglectful in their upkeep of the building is what led to too many people’s early demise.

Thomas takes a deep breath and looks Buck right in the eye, “So when I overheard other captains expressing their shock that Nash was giving you up, I stopped myself in my tracks. No, certainly it couldn’t be the same Nash. Oh, but I found out they were talking about Bobby and in that moment, I decided to avenge my brother’s death. I knew you would have plenty of offers because despite this, I do believe you are one hell of a firefighter Buckley. So when I found out it was Bailey going around asking others well, I thought perfect, Buckley will have a friend at the house if he chooses the 53. I knew that wouldn’t be enough so I added lieutenant to the mix. I saw that Han holds lieutenant and seniority at the 118 so unless he’s promoted or switches stations, you’d never get a chance to serve as lieutenant in your house. I knew that would close the deal and I was right.”

Buck cannot believe he found himself manipulated by such a vile man. The worst part is if anything truly happens to him and Bailey, Bobby will blame himself. Bobby doesn’t deserve to feel that guilt again. He has finally reached such a good place in his life, sobriety, and mental health journey. Who is Thomas to blame Bobby for the sins of his and his brother’s past? He hates that Bailey will blame herself for not seeing through Thomas earlier as well and when, not if, but WHEN they get out of here, he will make sure she knows that she's not even remotely at fault.

A knock is heard coming from upstairs. This happens at the same time that Bailey’s restraints snap so Thomas doesn’t hear that she’s free. Buck does though. She starts to work on Buck’s restraints. This is also the first time they realize it is not just them in the house as footsteps are heard going towards the front door.

“I really hope that’s Nash. I’d love for him to see the damage he continues to cause his loved ones,” Buck starts screaming again through his duck tape as two gun shots are heard upstairs. Thomas turns his back on the pair as Buck breaks through his restraints and Bailey attacks Thomas.

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Eddie is in complete denial that Buck is in danger again. Eddie was right there in the house with him, why didn't Buck say anything? If anything happens to Buck, he just simply won't be able to go on. Eddie knows he is not the only one that feels that way. If anything happens to Buck by Thomas's hand, Bobby will only blame himself. No one else would, the blame would fully fall on Thomas and his demented actions, but they all know Bobby wouldn't be able to cope. Eddie does not want to see that version of events play out.

Hen finds Eddie sitting outside on a bench in David's backyard, staring into space. She takes a seat next to him. Eddie doesn't move and gives no indication that he's even aware that he has company.

"The kids are all back asleep. Maddie and Chim just got here. Maddie wanted to be the one to come out and comfort you, but after what went down yesterday, I told her it was best for me to do it," Hen explains, getting a small nod from Eddie.

"It's Buck, he's going to be okay," Hen assures as she rubs Eddie's back. That breaks Eddie as the man just sobs and sobs in Hen's arms.

After what seems like an eternity, but is probably only a few moments, Eddie composes himself.

"We kissed last night," Eddie whispers as Hen gasps, "I cannot believe we finally get together and some psycho comes our way to ruin it."

"No one is ruining anything for you two. Buck is one of the strongest people I have the privilege of knowing and now I find out that he has everything he's ever hoped for?" Eddie looks to Hen confused and all she can do is roll her eyes, "Seriously Eddie? Buck has always wanted a family he can call his own. He had that with you without a love confession, but now that there is one, I could only imagine how much more content he feels in knowing he has you both for real."

"He's such an idiot," Eddie sighs.

Hen snorts, "You both are."

Eddie and Hen sit in silence for a while, content with each other's company and the cool night breeze. Eventually, Maddie and Chim join the duo outside, stating Karen, Michael and David were starting to prepare tea and cookies to get their minds off of the situation at hand.

"Eddie, Hen, I want you to know I realize my shortcomings in everything that has gone down with Buck. I plan on giving Buck a more in depth apology after Bobby and Athena find him," Maddie starts as tears start to form. Chim gives her a reassuring squeeze.

"I need to apologize to you both as well. I cost you guys Buck being at your station and if I had just respected my brother, he would've never felt the need to transfer," Maddie continues, looking Eddie and Hen directly in the eyes, "I'm deeply sorry."

Eddie and Hen don't say anything or make any moves to calm Maddie down. Chim is right next to her and has that part under control. Neither expected Maddie to apologize so it's just as shocking when Chim delivers the same sentiment, "I shouldn't have gotten involved either. This was not my business and just because my girlfriend was worried, didn't mean I had the right to help stop Buck from returning. I'm sorry and we both feel responsible."

"Did we get a more sincere apology than Buck?" Hen questions, eyeing her best friend and his girlfriend up and down.

"Unfortunately, but the second he's found, he's going to get the most genuine apology there's ever been," Chim says, determination Hen has never seen before in him displayed heavily on his face.

Maddie sighs, "I don't want to keep fighting with my brother. I want our kid to know their uncle."

Hen quirks an eyebrow, "You two are pregnant?"

Chim rubs his neck sheepishly as Eddie rolls his eyes, "Surprise?"

"Definitely was not expecting that news, but congratulations," Hen says sincerely.

"Thanks. You're actually the first one to congratulate us, other than my parents," Maddie comments and Eddie can't help, but feel pissed off.

"That's unnecessary. You know exactly why you weren't congratulated," Eddie takes a deep breath as Hen grabs his hands, being an immense comfort, "Congratulations though. I hope he or she gets the chance to know Uncle Buck and not through your parents' messed up version of him."

Chimney goes to defend Maddie, but she stops him, "I regret bringing my parents over to Bobby and Athena's. It wasn't right to ambush my brother. One day I would like for them to make up, but I know that will have to be on his terms."

"Maybe worry about making up with him before relaying that idea," Eddie tells the couple. Both just nod, not wanting to argue with Eddie. Plus, both know that Eddie isn't entirely wrong. Their own relationships with Buck are strained at the moment and it will be no good to push their wants onto him before they can get back to a good place.

All four adults eventually go back inside. After announcing their pregnancy to Michael, David, Karen and May, the couple is offered the master bed. Both happily take the offer. With Chim and Maddie in the other room, all five adults remaining and May, sip their tea and try to keep their minds off of their resident golden retriever.

Hen's phone rings not long after their tea is finished. All look expectantly to Hen as she answers Bobby's call, putting it on speaker.

"We found them. Thomas is dead. Buck and Bailey are alive and headed to St. Stephen's," Bobby cries to Hen.

Soon all parties present break down. Their Buckaroo is okay, he's alive. They can worry about the rest tomorrow.

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"Did you know that Thomas' brother died due to equipment being incorrectly installed?" Buck asks as Bobby hands him a cup of crappy hospital coffee.

"I did not," Bobby answers, sipping his own cup of coffee.

Athena looks between the two men as she rolls her eyes, "That's your opening line, Buckaroo?"

Buck shrugs, "It was either that or ding dong the wicked captain is dead."

"EVAN!" Bobby screams as Athena spits out her coffee.

"What? It's true!" Buck yells back sheepishly.

"Even so, that is no way to speak of the dead," Bobby says.

"Even if they deserved it?" Buck questions.

"Yes, even if they deserved it," Bobby scolds, "We think that, we don't say it."

Buck mumbles under his breath as him and Bobby drink some more of their respective coffees.

"I feel like I'm dealing with teenagers," Athena mutters as she wipes the coffee off of her shirt.

"You're not alone in that, Athena," Grey says as he enters the room, snacks in hand, "Bailey just said that she wished the roof had fallen on Thomas so he could know what it feels like."

Buck snorts.

"Guess it would've been fitting," Athena remarks, "But at least we don't have to worry about him anymore."

All adults present agree.

"I'm just glad you're both alright," Grey says as he hands a bag of chips to Buck, "The Chief agrees. He cannot believe yours and Bailey's luck, by the way."

"What luck?" Buck asks, but there's no malice in his tone. It's resigned, he doesn't really have any.

"Exactly," Grey says as he checks his phone and sighs, "I'm sorry I need to take this."

Grey leaves the room. Bobby suddenly finds great interest in the hem of his shirt before saying, "I keep on almost losing you, kid. What makes it worse is that each time recently it has been my fault: directly or indirectly."

Buck sighs, "Bobby you can't control other people's reactions and emotions. None of this is on you. This is on Freddie and Poseidon and Thomas."

"Maybe listen to your son for once," Athena says as she squeezes her husband's knee. Buck just stares at Athena in shock.

"He is pretty wise. If I had just listened to him from the start-" Bobby starts as Buck finally finds his voice again.

"I'm glad you didn't," Buck interrupts. Athena and Bobby both give Buck a confused look.

"I'm not saying that I loved being ignored or tossed to the side by the 118. I know that wasn't anyone's intention, but," Buck takes a sip of his coffee before continuing, "I like that I met Mid Wilshire. I enjoy working alongside Bailey. I can confidently say I know what I'm doing as lieutenant. I actually admitted my feelings to Eddie and he reciprocates them."

Athena gasps as Bobby wears the biggest shit eating grin he could muster, "I told you so."

Buck rolls his eyes, "Whatever pops. Look, I think I'm growing and I now know that no matter where I am, I still have my family."

"Always," Bobby says as hugs Buck. Buck melts into the hug as Athena looks on to her boys. Huh, guess Buck's not only Bobby's son after all.

Mid Wilshire flits in and out after giving their well wishes to Bailey. Buck makes sure that Nyla knows they're still on for Wednesday. Bobby and Athena let their 118 family know that Buck is being discharged in the morning so no need to bombard the hospital. The firefam begrudgingly agrees to stay put for the time being.

The next morning, Buck and Bailey give each other a hug before heading into their separate cars. Bailey even gives Bobby a hug and whispers a reassurance that there is no blame coming his way. Bobby tries not to tear up as Bailey hops in Nolan's truck.

Bobby and Athena bring Buck back to their house after that. Buck is immediately tackled by May as he enters the Grant-Nash house. Chris, Harry and Denny are not far behind. Buck soaks up the love from the 118 kids before turning to the adults.

Michael and David are first, giving a hug each to Buck. They quickly move into the kitchen to start preparing breakfast.

Maddie and Chim hug him next.

"Buckaroo, you've got to stop scaring the shit out of us," Chim says.

"Howie!" Maddie exclaims as Buck laughs.

"It's not on purpose, I swear," Buck answers.

Maddie smiles softly at Buck, "We know. Buck, I am so sorry-"

"I'm tired of holding grudges or ill will so just let's just move on," Buck says. He's not lying, Buck is so tired of the apologies and the hurt feelings. It happened and he wants to move on. Moving on is the only way their family is going to grow stronger.

"Alright, but only if you let me apologize one last time," Chim says almost too seriously, "I'm sorry too."

"Okay, he gets it. Now move out of the way so we can get some Buckaroo," Karen demands basically jumping out of her skin. Hen is no better and Eddie is nowhere to be seen.

Chim and Maddie move out of Hen and Karen's way. Both women engulf Buck in a hug.

"You need like a four leaf clover or something," Karen says through tears.

Buck belly laughs at that, "You find me one Karen and I will keep it on my person at all times."

"It's that bad Buck luck," Hen comments and Buck snickers, "But please while we're not able to look after you at the firehouse, try to be more careful and stay away from nefarious individuals."

"Hey! Bailey's not that bad!" Buck jokes as Hen smacks him playfully.

"Bad Buck and Bailey luck apparently," Athena informs the 118.

"Makes me feel so much better that you two are partners," Eddie comments from the doorway of their guest room. When Buck looks to Eddie, he looks wrecked.

"We'll give you two a minute," Bobby says, "Come to the kitchen when you're done, we'll have breakfast and coffee waiting for you."

The rest of the 118 goes towards the kitchen as Buck makes his way past Eddie into the guest room. Eddie shuts the door behind him.

"Eddie-"

"I cannot lose another love. Chris cannot lose another parent. I thought you understood that-"

"Of course I understand that! Eddie, I had to go, he was going to hurt Bobby-"

"He wanted to hurt you!" Eddie screams, trying to catch his breath as somehow in all the screaming, Eddie started getting hysterical.

Buck grabs Eddie by the shoulders and looks him in the eye, "Take a deep breath. I'm here, I'm safe."

Buck goes through the motions with Eddie as the two take deep, calming breaths. After a few moments, Eddie is calmer. The both sit on the guest bed.

"I'm sorry. I just heard that Thomas wanted to hurt Bobby and I couldn't let that happen," Buck says, "But I never wanted to leave you and Chris and worry you. You can't lose people, Eddie, well I can't either."

"Next time, you fill me in and we go together," Eddie says as Buck looks him up and down, "What?"

"Next time? Normal people don't want there to be a next time," Buck tells Eddie and he shoves him.

"You know what I meant, idiota," Eddie remarks as he looks back at Buck, "I'm sorry you had to go through that."

"Thanks, me too," Buck whispers.

"I have your back," Eddie says as he grabs Buck's shoulder.

"And I have yours," Buck whispers as he leans in to capture Eddie's lips with his own.

Buck and Eddie pull apart too fast for both of their likings, but they know their family is waiting for them.

Even coming off of a hellish night, it's the best day that the 118 family has had in a while, maybe ever. Stories are told from everyone's latest work adventures. Buck tells the 118 of the endeavors he's had with the Mid Wilshire clan. Breakfast turns to lunch which quickly turns to right before dinner.

One by one, people start heading out. Maddie's exhausted so her and Chim are the first to go. Hen and Karen agreed to dinner with Toni so they're the next out of the door. Denny isn't thrilled as he wanted to stay with Harry and Christopher. Hen and Karen relent to letting Denny stay as all three boys cheer. Michael and David leave soon after with all three boys as well. Both men want Eddie and Buck to have some alone time after the scare the night before. Eddie and Buck agree and thank the both of them.

"I heard you and Bailey will be joining the 133," Athena mentions as she places a can of soda in front of Buck. Bobby and Eddie headed to pick out some take out from Buck's favorite Italian restaurant. Since it's not exactly close to Bobby and Athena's house, it'll be a while until they return. Athena had overheard Bailey telling Celina her plan and wants to get some insight to her pseudo son's future plans.

"And who's your source?" Buck asks bemused.

"I'm not at liberty to say," Athena says smirking into her own glass.

"Yes, the 133's official," Buck says trying to gage Athena's reaction, "I think it'll help with mine and Eddie's new relationship and rebuilding the trust with everyone. Plus, it's more likely we'll all see each other at scenes again going forward."

"You've come so far, baby," Athena says as she squeezes Buck's arm, "I'm proud of you."

Buck gets teary eyed, "Thanks Thena."

"What's it going to take for you to call me Mom?" Athena asks as Buck laughs.

"You'd be okay with that?" Buck asks, once again trying to see if he could read Athena. He'd love it if she was being serious, but he doesn't want to hope too hard.

"Boy, you call Bobby 'pops' and I know you mean it. Just like he means it when he calls you 'kid' and 'son'," Athena responds, "I'd be honored if you'd do the same."

"Okay pops, you got it," Buck says through stifled laughter.

Athena glares at Buck, "Boy, I can and will ground you."

Buck smiles, "No need for that, mama."

Buck and Athena hug as Bobby and Eddie return with the food. The four of them have a lovely meal.

Buck and Eddie enjoy their evening after they leave the Grant-Nash home as well. The two of them start beginning to learn how to live as a couple. Both find it pretty easy as not much really changes between them, except for the added physical intimacy.

Buck and Bailey jump right back into work. The 133 welcomes them with open arms. Mehta doesn't care who makes meals, hell, he encourages it. Team bonding is very important to Mehta and he wants to make sure all of his crew feels comfortable with one another. To say that Buck and Bailey are relieved is the understatement of the year.

Their first joint scene with the 118 goes better than Buck was expecting it to. Buck was a little nervous that his old team might not fully respect his new position. He was proven wrong quite fast, as every order he gave was only responded with enthusiasm and urgency. Pride is the only emotion that's seen on Bobby's face.

Bailey thrives with the 133 too. She finally feels that same sense of belonging as she did with her old team. She hopes that she can continue to honor Fred's legacy with her new team.

When Wednesday rolls around, Buck is a bundle of nerves. He knows that it's a necessary evil to go over the events of the tsunami with Tamara and Nyla, but he would honestly rather discuss anything else.

Buck picks a cafe that's not too far from the Diaz home. Tamara and Nyla arrive together not long after Buck's directed to a table towards the back of the restaurant. Buck had requested to be in a more secluded section since he wasn't sure how this conversation was going to go. He assumes it'll be really emotional so better safe than sorry.

All three make quick business of ordering drinks and their dinners. Tamara breaks the silence, "So, what do you want to know?"

"Start from after Chris fell in. I remember most from before that, but after..." Buck drifts off.

"Chris fell in and the entire truck was in shock," Tamara starts, "You and Nyla had been helping bring more people up and when you turned back around, we could see the total devastation on your face that Chris wasn't still on board."

"Once we got off of the firetruck, we knew you were not in the right headspace to walk around looking for Chris on your own," Nyla explains as she takes a deep breath, "You saved us and we weren't going to stop helping you until we found Chris."

"We don't think you really registered us being there, which was fine," Tamara laughs nervously, "We just kept saving people alongside you. Making sure if water or food was offered to us, you took it as well."

"You wouldn't even consider taking a break. We forced you to sit down for a second so that someone could bandage your arm," Nyla recounts, "We got separated at the VA. Our Mid Wilshire family had swarmed us the minute Lucy and Bailey recognized us. We turned around to beg you to get checked out too, but you were gone."

"Thankfully, you and Chris are okay. We always felt guilty being pushed towards our family when you were still struggling," Tamara says as a nervous smile graces her lips, "I guess all I could really say is thank you again."

"I think I should be thanking the both of you. You kept me going while I was losing my mind looking for Chris. Thank you, I'm pretty grateful," Buck answers, choked up.

Nyla laughs, "Well, you only had us because you were brave enough to jump back into a literal tsunami. So thank you."

The waiter brings over their drinks. All three pick up their glass as Tamara looks to the two of them, "Now, I believe trauma bonding is complete. To getting drunk and forgetting our troubles."

Buck and Nyla cheers to that. The three of them have a really enjoyable evening as they move to lighter topics. Both women bug Buck for details on his new relationship, he happily shares them. In turn, Tamara tells them both some stories of Tim and Lucy she was able to witness after having lived with them. Nyla offers up the story of how her and James met and subsequently fell in love.

Buck returns home that night to Eddie reading in their bedroom. Buck dramatically plops down on the bed next to him.

"Have fun?" Eddie asks.

"Yeah," Buck answers, "I think we needed the closure."

"I'm glad you were able to get some, mi amor," Eddie says as he puts down his book and opens his arms for Buck. Content, Buck falls into Eddie, putting his head on his chest. Eddie strokes Buck's curls as Buck's eyes start to droop.

Buck's asleep instantaneously.

Eddie kisses Buck on the forehead as he turns off his light.

"Everything's finally coming together the way it's supposed to, mi vida," Eddie whispers, "Almost anyway."

Eddie closes his eyes as he dreams of the 118 loft: Hen and Chim playing a video game and Eddie on the armchair, smiling fondly at Buck assisting Bobby in the kitchen. Eddie hopes his dream becomes reality again real soon.

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“I don’t think I’ve been more intrigued in my life,” Ang says as she takes a swig of her beer, surrounded by her Mid Wilshire family.

“Care to elaborate?” Bailey asks.

“I mean, this will be the first time that our groups are fully coming together. Not just to save you or Buck, but like actually hang out,” Ang explains, “Eddie and Buck have told us all about Grant-Nash barbecues, but now that we’ll actually attend one? Intrigued.”

Nyla laughs, “And of course you make this observation while Buck and Eddie aren’t here.”

Ang shrugs, “Felt wrong to talk about the 118 with them present, especially since Buck is on much better terms with them.”

“I’m happy their relationships are pretty much mended. I know it takes a weight off of his shoulders,” Bailey says.



“Anyone you still feel like he’s not all there yet with?” Lucy questions as she grabs a handful of fries from the center of the table.

“Probably his sister,” Bailey shrugs, “I think she’s still being kind of persistent that Buck make up with their parents so that her and Chim’s child can have a proper family.”

“How is that his problem?” Nolan speaks up, clearly annoyed, “As someone who had quite the rocky relationship with his own mother, I don’t feel it’s right to force a mended relationship. Not all that is broken is meant to be fixed.”

“Nolan’s got a point,” Tim says, “You couldn’t pay me to make up with my father.”

“Amen to that!” Tamara exclaims as her and Tim clink glasses.

“I feel like at some point Maddie is just going to have to agree to disagree,” Wes determines as he takes a sip of his beer, “From my understanding, no one is thrilled with the Buckley parents. It seems Chim is getting pushed into the middle of it again too. It’s like she feels that Buck owes her something for taking care of him as a child.”

Ang rolls her eyes, “Well, if she starts something tomorrow, she won’t get very far.”

The entire Mid Wilshire clan cheers to that and move onto other topics. Tim and Lucy announce that they will be moving in together. Everyone applauds the blushing couple and all eyes turn to Celina to hear how she will move forward in the apartment. Celina tells everyone that Miles will be moving in to Lucy’s empty room since the rookie shouldn’t be forced to continue living out of his car. All are happy with that development.

The next day, Buck, Eddie, and Christopher get to Bobby and Athena’s house hours before anyone else. He’s nervous and wants to put that energy into helping his parents prepare for the large amount of people that will be in attendance.

Bobby wastes no time putting Buck to work as the two of them prep all the burgers and hot dogs that Bobby will grill once everyone arrives. Christopher joins Harry in his room and the pair play video games. Eddie busies himself outside, setting up the tables and chairs. Athena starts on some dessert and side dishes, bringing May in to help as well.

Nyla, James and the girls are the first of their clan to arrive at the Grant-Nash household. Lila immediately runs to Harry’s room to hang out with the boys. May gets handed Leah and grabs a book to read to her.

Bailey and Nolan are next with Henry in tow. He made an unexpected visit to his dad in between trips abroad and Nolan didn’t want to leave him behind. Bobby and Athena assure them there’s enough food to go around and the more the merrier.

The rest of the Mid Wilshire clan arrives at the same time as the Wilsons and soon-to-be Buckley-Hans.

The barbecue is going smoothly as the conversation and food flows. Out of respect to Bobby, Mid Wilshire and the 118 decided to give a sober barbecue a try. Bailey mentioned to Buck that her old house used to do them all of the time and everyone was more than willing to not drink for the day.

Grey, Tim and Nolan joined Bobby at the grill as Athena, Karen and Maddie were in some lawn chairs with Luna, Nyla, Lucy, and Ang. Tamara had come too and was hanging out with Henry, May and the rest of the kids.

Eddie, Buck, Chim, and Aaron are off in the corner playing corn hole. Celina and James cheer them on as Wes plays referee.

Bailey and Hen have gotten into a lively conversation of firehouse dynamics.

“So it actually got better after giving a speech on respect?” Bailey asks as she sips her iced tea.

“I was so shocked that it actually worked. Back then it was really only Chim on my side. Athena had reached out and given me a network too, it’s really how our friendship blossomed,” Hen explains.

Bailey sighs, “Wouldn’t it be something to just be respected? Okay, we’re women in a man’s field, but it’s nothing new. I’m glad the 118 is less toxic now for you.”

“Preach it sister,” Hen says, “I’ve heard the stories from even before you started working with Buckaroo, you are a badass. I would not want to be on your bad side.”

Bailey laughs out loud, “I appreciate that. Don’t sell yourself short either, Hen, I’ve heard all about you too. How you stay totally levelheaded all the time, I will never understand. I think I’d lose my mind.”

Hen rolls her eyes, “I believe working with all of my boys at the 118 has given me more patience than I ever imagined I’d need to have.”

Buck walks over to Bailey and Hen after a hard loss at corn hole. Welp, that’s what he gets for teaming up with his probable future borther-in-law.

“Talking about me?” Buck asks as he picks up a water bottle.

“Just the patience I have learned from working beside you,” Hen teases.

Buck rolls his eyes, “I have only ever been a joy to work with. Ya know, post firetruck sex scandal.”

Bailey quirks an eyebrow as Hen belly laughs. Everyone turns towards the trio.

“Do I want to know?” Athena asks.

“We’re talking about the day Bobby fired Buck,” Hen explains.

“When was that?” Lucy asks curious.

“He took the firetruck to sleep with some crazy snake lady,” Bobby answers as he plates more hot dogs and burgers from the grill, “Don’t even know why she wanted to sleep with him. He killed her snake.”

Hen cracks up again as Buck just gasps in mock offense, “I also saved her life. If I hadn’t chopped the snake’s head off, she would’ve choked to death.”

Eddie adds confused, “I thought Chim was just pulling my leg.”

“Nope,” Chim says as he grabs a hot dog from the tray Tim is holding for Bobby.

“How’d you get your job back?” Wes questions after alerting the kids there was some food ready.

“I saved Athena and a little girl from a home invasion,” Buck starts.

“Funnily enough, after taking the firetruck without permission,” Athena supplies.

“Hey! I got permission from Hen,” Buck says as Hen gives his arm a loving squeeze, “It would be wrong to go against Hen. Like it’d be wrong for any of you to go against Ang.”

“Damn straight,” Ang says, daring anyone to contradict her or add anything snarky. Everyone's smart enough not to argue.

After the kids get some food in them, they retreat back inside. Apparently today is all about video games. The parents all leave them be and tell them dessert should be served soon.

"So, any timeline for returning to the 118?" Maddie asks, "Like maybe before the baby's born?"

Ang and Nyla share a look as Buck sighs, "I don't know. Aren't you due next month?"

"Yes. I just think it'd be nice for everyone to be together again," Maddie says as she takes a bite of another hot dog she grabbed.

Buck shrugs, "We're all here together and now we have a larger circle. It's just not time yet."

"Bailey, Wes, Luna, Tamara, James, Eddie and Buck are not any less involved with all of us just because they work elsewhere," Lucy supplies as she grabs some pasta salad.

"Same with Karen, Athena and you, Maddie," Hen says, starting to put her defenses up, "Michael and David too."

Maddie rolls her eyes and Mid Wilshire's defenses are up now too, "I know that. Just, Buck always said the 118 was home and I get it, the whole embolism confusion-"

"No confusion," Buck argues. Damn, why the hell did Maddie have to start something?

"You know about Daniel," Maddie says, tears starting to form.

"Do I even want to know?" Bailey whisper asks Hen.

"I wish I could give you an answer, but I don't know who Daniel is," Hen whispers back.

"Is this going to be our whole life here? You apologized and I forgave you. How can we ever move past this if you keep pushing and comparing me to someone I never really met?!" Buck half screams. He has a headache.

"I think this is a conversation that you should've started with your brother in private," Luna interjects.

"This is actually none of your business," Maddie snaps at Luna.

"Hey!" Grey yells defending his wife as Maddie flinches, "You started this."

"How did I call this?" Ang questions.

"What would you have called?" Maddie asks.

Chim intervenes before more words can be exchanged, "Honey, calm down. You're heavily pregnant. The question was innocent, but it's turned into something else now. Just apologize-"

"I'm tired of apologizing! I don't know why it's so unreasonable to want my brother to be somewhere people have his back!" Maddie yells.

"I have his back," Bailey says as she crosses her arms, "So does the 133. Maybe we need to think about why the 118 doesn't have his back at the moment."

"Are you implying-"

"There's no implying," Wes starts, "You didn't want your brother in a dangerous job so you made sure everyone who would listen got your opinion before your brother's facts. You care, we get it."

Maddie sits back, "Mom and dad-"

Buck gets up abruptly and storms into the house, Eddie and Ang hot on his heels.

Nolan speaks up, "Your brother owes your parents nothing. They made their bed, don't let them determine how yours is made too."

"Wise words from a wise southern gentleman," Karen says, trying to bring some lightheartedness back to the barbecue.

"One would think, but he's actually from Pennsylvania," Bailey says, clearly grateful to help sway into a different topic.

Maddie huffs and goes into the house, presumably to find her brother. Chim sighs and follows behind her.

"Pained auras all around," Celina mumbles as she sips her lemonade.

Buck is pacing in the guest room as Eddie stands by the door. Ang and May, who had seen how upset Buck was and joined them, are sitting on the bed.

Ang starts, "Maybe take a seat, Buckaroo."

"I feel like we're going in circles," Buck says, still pacing.

"I heard some of it," May explains, "Maddie's always been protective, but it's like she can't see past her own views and opinions."

"I hate to be the devil's advocate here, but I think she started out with good intentions, but then didn't like your answer," Ang says as she tries to think of a way to finish her sentence.

Eddie quirks his eyebrow, "Shocked you're kinda defending her Ang."

"Guess I am and I'm not. It was like she flipped a switch!" Ang exclaims, "Plus, I clearly don't know the whole story."

"She raised me after losing our brother," Buck explains as Ang reaches out and offering a gentle, consoling hand on his arm. This stops Buck's pacing and Ang takes the opportunity to bring him onto the bed.

"I'm sorry about your brother," Ang offers.

"Me too," May says as she gives Buck a side hug.

"Maddie's inability to see past her fear of losing another brother is not your burden, amor," Eddie tries to get through to Buck, "Maybe it's pregnancy hormones amplifying her emotions, but I think it's something she's definitely constantly feeling. You two always seemed so close, but I hate to say it, the truck explosion changed your relationship."

Buck sighs. He really wishes Maddie would see how much she's draining him and putting a strain on their relationship. He loves his sister and he knows she loves him, but love is blinding. Their parents made Maddie suppress her grief over Daniel and make it seem like he didn't exist. The effects of that can be endless and it's currently something that is hindering their relationship. He wants to move forward and know his niece, but right now he can't see a future where that's possible. It's no longer on Buck, it's on Maddie.

Buck really wishes she had chosen another day to bring up a transfer back to the 118 as well. The two groups were having such a lovely time. Everyone was getting along and he felt like the joint barbecue could become a regular occurrence. Before Maddie's question, Nolan had even told him about how he could host the next joint gathering. It was on the right track and Maddie just had to bulldoze it.

There's a knock on the door as Maddie opens it slightly, "I need to talk to my brother. Alone."

"Maddie, that's not a good idea," Eddie almost growls.

"Down boy," Buck says as Eddie turns to Buck with a look of confusion and protectiveness, "I think, as Luna pointed out, this is a conversation we need to continue alone."

Ang and May get up and take Eddie, who's about to protest again, by the arms and drag him outside, closing the door behind them. The two siblings are left alone. Buck will not be the first one to speak, he currently owes Maddie nothing.

"Buck, I'm-"

"Sorry? Save it," Buck starts, "I'm happy, happier than I thought I could be after everything that has gone down in my life. Either accept things the way they are or lose me. We've unfortunately been no contact before Maddie. That wasn't because of me."

Maddie cries, "I don't want that. I know you want to be back at the 118, that was my whole point of asking-"

"By insulting Bailey and everyone else out there who have been looking out for me?" Buck asks, trying to get through to his sister so that she can see that her words have consequences, "You cannot just speak with finality and think everyone will just bow down to your beliefs and ideals."

"For many years I didn't have a voice, Buck. I won't become silent again," Maddie whispers.

"I don't want you silent, Maddie. I want you to think before you say certain things," Buck pleads, "I'm your brother, not your son."

Maddie looks down at her hands. How can she let Buck know that she understands him, but it doesn't change the fact that she basically raised him? Biologically Buck's her brother, but in reality? Son is too strong, but she's trying really hard to think before she speaks. She's pregnant, however, and her emotions are all over the place.

"I'm tired of arguing," Maddie decides on saying.

"Me too," Buck responds, "I feel the only way forward is therapy."

"I'll need some time to think about that," Maddie answers.

"Wrong answer," Buck says as he walks past Maddie and exits the guest room.

Chim walks in after Buck leaves to check on Maddie. Great, they couldn't even have a fully private conversation. Buck finds himself in the kitchen, where Bobby has started washing the tools from the grill. Bailey's next to him, helping him dry. Both are whispering something that Buck can't quite figure out.

"Want help?" Buck asks, alerting the pair that he's in the vicinity. The pair jump up, not expecting anyone else.

"Scared us, kid," Bobby says as he shuts off the sink. Bobby makes his way towards Buck and puts his hands on his shoulders, grounding him, "Want to-"

"No."

Bobby just nods his head in understanding. Bailey pipes up, "Nolan and I picked up donuts from that new shop near the firehouse. We just put them out, but you should grab one before there's none left. I saw Tim take two."

Buck snickers, "Cool I will. Thanks."

Buck leaves the pair in the kitchen and heads out to get a donut. Thankfully, there are some left and no one asks him about the showdown between him and his sister. He's going to have to expand his vocabulary to find a word to describe his found family other than grateful. Sue him, it's the one that describes his feelings best. Eddie is off in conversation with Karen, Nolan and Tim. Buck looks around and spots Athena and Hen in the corner. Athena gets up and walks towards Nyla before Buck reaches them. Buck doesn't mind though, as he will always appreciate some one on one time with Hen.

"Buckaroo, what flavor did you grab?" Hen asks as he sits in the chair next to her.

Buck shrugs and bites into the donut. Jelly oozes out of it and right on to his shorts, "Aw man."

Hen laughs, "You're a mess."

Hen hands Buck some napkins as he gets the jelly off his pants. He'll have to soak them later so they don't stain.

"Hen," Buck starts as Hen acknowledges she's listening, "Do you think I'm being stubborn?"

Hen gives Buck a look, "More context is needed for an informed answer."

Buck nods, "About not returning to the 118."

"Oh."

Buck laughs softly, "Oh?"

Hen sighs, "I wish I could say yes."

Buck turns to look at Hen fully. This, this is why he loves Hen. No bullshit, just the truth, whether he wants to hear it or not. Again, he'll buy a thesaurus later, but he's GRATEFUL for Hen.

"More context is needed Hen," Buck says through stifled laughter as Hen shoves him playfully.

"You're an idiot, but an idiot I love like a little brother," Hen starts as her laughter subsides, "But that's the difference right? Maddie's your sister through blood and you love each other, but it's a sort of you have to sometimes, ya know. We love each other as siblings because that's how I see our relationship, but we formed that. We chose that. You love Maddie, I know you do and I know she loves you, but she's making it hard for you two to progress your relationship."

"I asked her to go to therapy with me and she said she'd think about it," Buck starts explaining, trying not to get frustrated, "What's there to think about?"

Hen nods, "You don't understand her answer and she doesn't understand yours."

"What-"

"Your answer for not returning to the 118. Which leads me back to your original question," Hen says as she sees Buck start to come to an understanding, "I think you're figuring yourself out in the professional world. It's almost like when you left home the first time and were finding where you belonged. You know you can do well under Bobby's leadership, but you were questioning whether you could excel elsewhere too. Am I a good firefighter or is it just because of the 118? I think going to different houses was the best move for you. Now, you know you can be a sound leader and you're thriving. You're not being stubborn, you're just ensuring that when, not if because I believe it's when, you return to the 118, that you will not only be the best version for us, but most importantly for yourself."

Buck nods as he hugs Hen. Hen, as always, gave him the perspective he needed. Buck suddenly realizes that he doesn't know if he has much left to think over. Right after Hen and Buck break apart, Nyla makes her way over with the girls and James in tow, "Well, this was a mostly lovely barbecue, but Leah's getting antsy so we're going to head out."

Nyla gives Buck a hug, followed by the rest of her family. They move on to Hen next before making their way to the rest of their clan and the 118. The rest of the Mid Wilshire clan starts heading out as well, saying their goodbyes. As Nolan and Bailey head out, the offer for them to host the next one still stands. Athena and Bobby gracefully accept on behalf of the 118. After everyone files out, the 118 are the only ones left minus May. Tamara and Henry had asked if May wanted to join them for a movie and she happily accepted. The rest of the kids retreat to Harry's room as Maddie and Chim, finally, leave the guest room and join them back outside.

Maddie clears her throat, "I know that this has not only been difficult for me, but for you as well. I'm scared every day that one of you won't come home. I'm allowed to feel that way. I believe I have to start making peace with you and Chim being in danger constantly. With that being said, I am going to call a therapist and make an appointment. However, I have to go therapy for myself first before going for and with you."

Buck nods and gets up to give Maddie a hug, whispering, "I'm proud of you."

Maddie laughs as she pulls away and wipes her tears, "I think I'm supposed to be telling you that."

Chim grabs Buck's shoulder, "I'll say it for the both of us, I'm proud of you and love you so much, Buckaroo."

Chim dramatically falls into Buck. That does it as the tension is broken and the whole 118 breaks into laughter.

Maddie and Chim head out after that. Hen, Karen, Buck, Eddie and the kids only really stay long enough after to help clean up. Christopher and Denny have to be dragged out of Harry's room at the end of the night. Thank yous and goodbye hugs are exchanged as the two little families head out for the night. As Eddie puts Chris in the car and Karen makes sure Denny is buckled in, Buck approaches Hen.

Buck gives Hen another hug, that she doesn't hesitate to take. Buck, having made up his mind and wanting Hen to be the first to know, whispers, "Maybe I won't be stubborn for too much longer."

Hen gasps, "Don't play with me, Buckaroo."

Buck pulls away and winks at her, "It'll be our secret for now."

Hen nods as Karen and Eddie make their way over, giving final hugs all around. Each family jump into their respective cars and drive off. Hen grabs Karen's hand as she drives towards home.

"What's got you smiling?" Karen asks, starting to form a smile as well.

"Just, it was a good day overall," Hen says as she plays with Karen's fingers.

"I think so too," Karen agrees as she gives Hen a once over, "That all?"

Hen shrugs and smiles wider, which Karen didn't know was possible, "I just can't be sad after a day well spent with our family."

Karen, satisfied with her wife's answer, lets go of Hen's hand and turns on her phone. Hen doesn't mind and continues towards their home. All Hen has on her mind is that she can't wait until her little brother returns to where he belongs.

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Weeks go by after that first fateful barbecue. There’s a couple more barbecues where both Mid Wilshire and the 118 are together fully, both going way better than the original. Then there are get togethers where there are some, but not all in presence. Girls nights and guys nights and then a few bar nights with Mid Wilshire, Buck, Eddie, and once even Hen and Karen.

True to her word, Hen hasn’t said a thing to anyone, except Karen since she doesn’t like keeping things from her wife, but Buck doesn’t mind.

Maddie gives birth to Jee-Yun Buckley Han while they’re all on shift about a month after the barbecue. Multiple stations, including the 133 and the 118 were called to a devastating multi-car pileup caused by a drunk driver with her son in the car. Maddie had called Chim and Bobby sent him in one of the ambulances with one of the victims of the wreck. Thankfully, both got there just in time, the victim to get the surgery he needed and Chim to witness the birth of his daughter.

After the pile up was cleared up, Mehta let Buck and Bailey join the 118 to meet the newest member of their family. Buck is in awe, Jee is such a perfect mix of his sister and Chim that it brought tears to his eyes.

Buck and Bailey are at their weekly coffee debrief when transferring comes up.

“Think you’ll want to be at the 133 more long term?” Bailey asks as she dumps creamer into her coffee.

Buck takes a sip of his own coffee, that he filled with lots of sugar just moments ago, “Probably not. You?”

“I’m not sure,” Bailey says as she takes a sip of coffee, “Why wouldn’t you stay?”

“I like it there, don’t get me wrong. Just doesn’t feel like home,” Buck shrugs.

“You wanna go back,” Bailey comments.

“I’ve always wanted to go back, I just think I’m now finally ready to,” Buck responds.

Bailey hums and drinks some more of her coffee. The two sit in silence for a few minutes, just letting Buck’s admission sit with them for a minute.

“How are you going to do that?” Bailey asks softly.

Buck laughs, “I have no idea. Chim’s not currently there because of paternity leave, but he has seniority so I would probably wind up on a different shift since he’s still Lieutenant. That’s a possibility anyway because of mine and Eddie’s relationship. I don’t know. I don’t want to ask the Chief for special permission, but maybe I’ll meet with him and feel him out?”

“I see you and Eddie working together being a little more problematic than you and Chim-“

“He’s family-"

“Well, yeah in the sense of like you both feel that way, but not officially,” Bailey says, “When they get married and if he still outranks you, then I’d see it maybe being an issue, but until then I don’t see why not.”

“I’m still dating Eddie,” Buck reminds Bailey.

Bailey rolls her eyes, “I know that, Buckaroo. It’s just, maybe I’m wrong, but the bigger issue in that is your rank. If you’re on the same level and on the same team…It’s just if you hold power over Eddie that it’d be a problem because it could be perceived a certain way. Tim got out of Lucy’s chain of command, they’re still at the same station.”

Buck lets everything Bailey has said sink in.

“So…”

“Talk with the Chief, Bobby and maybe the rest of the team, see how all parties involved feel,” Bailey suggests as she shrugs.

“There’s one more problem with returning to the 118,” Buck says as he picks up the pastry up off his plate and takes a bite.

“What’s that?” Bailey laughs.

“I’d have to leave you and I don’t know if I could do that,” Buck answers as Bailey whips her head up, looking Buck directly in the eye.

“Buck, that is,” Bailey starts trying to convey her feelings since she’s finding herself getting choked up, “So sweet, but I know you want to go back. We would never not be friends.”

Buck rolls his eyes, “I know that. Just you all gave me a chance and were in my corner without really knowing me. It’d be pretty wrong of me to just go back as if nothing’s changed. Everything’s changed. It’d be weird not working with you.”

Bailey gets up, tears in her eyes, and goes to give Buck a hug. The two stay like that for a few minutes before Bailey returns to her seat. Bailey had always hoped that she’d find people to click with like her old team. She’s found that now. She doesn’t want to hold Buck back from returning to his team if he can, but she selfishly wants to hold onto him for as long as she can.

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Bobby paces in his living room, nerves and anger radiating off of him.

Hen sits on the couch, sipping on tea that she made for herself. She doesn’t seem much happier, but she’s definitely calmer than Bobby. Athena walks in, still in uniform, confused at the sight in front of her.

“What’s going on?” Athena asks.

Hen starts to answer Athena,“Well-“

Bobby cuts Hen off, “Chim just up and left!”

Bobby stops pacing and looks at an even further confused Athena.

“Okay…”

“He tells Hen and not me!” Bobby exclaims, “No need to tell your Captain that you need an indefinite amount of time off, no just tell your bestie.”

Athena nods her head, trying to understand, “Didn’t he have his first shift back yesterday?”

“Yes, he did. Maddie dropped off Jee while we were all on a call, saying she didn’t know if she could be a good mother to her anymore,” Bobby explains, more calmly than before.

“Chim told me she may be suffering from PPD, but they were handling it,” Hen says as she looks between Athena and Bobby, “I told him that they would both benefit from a therapist to help them through the new parenting phase of their lives and relationship. He didn’t want to listen, but he wants to follow her-“

“What about Jee?” Athena looks between her husband and her best friend. Surely, Chim is not going to search for Maddie with an infant in the car. That wouldn’t be good for either of them, but especially that little girl.

“He’s taking her with him. I told him that maybe she should stay here with one of us while he looks for Maddie, but he did not like that suggestion,” Hen sips her tea sighing, “I don’t think Maddie’s the only one suffering from PPD, I think he may be a little too. He’s not thinking clearly, but there was no stopping him.”

Hen has tears streaming down her face as Bobby hands her the tissue box. Hen nods her head in thanks as Athena sits down next to Hen, engulfing her in a hug.

“So now we’re two people down,” Bobby says frustratedly as Athena lets go of Hen, giving her husband a questioning look. Seeing his wife’s look, he continues without needing to be asked, “Chim’s off on his search for Maddie, which if that's where he feels need to be, I want to support him, but he's gone about it the wrong way. Rosen just transferred to the newly renovated 147 to be their Lieutenant. If I had known Chim was going need more time, I would have just promoted her.”

Athena sighs, “Maybe it’s time-“

“I’m not going to ask Buck,” Bobby cuts Athena off, “I don’t know if he even wants to come back and I don’t know if it’d even be possible with him dating Eddie.”

“Well, there’s only one way to know for sure,” Athena responds.

“You may be pleasantly surprised with the answer,” Hen offers as both Athena and Bobby perk up, “I don’t know anything before you to start asking me a million questions, but I do know Buck. He loves the 118 and I’m sure he misses it.”

“But him and Eddie-“

Hen cuts Bobby off, “I mean you are Captain so you have final say on your command.”

“Buck’s a lieutenant, he can’t be in Eddie’s chain of command,” Bobby says, defeated.

Hen and Athena just nod in understanding. Both suggest going out for a bite, but Bobby declines stating he needs some time to wrap his head around the situation at the 118. He doesn't stop the ladies from having a girl's night and he tells them to enjoy themselves. Both head out not long after that.

Bobby's left alone for a while before he decides to order in some food. Normally, cooking calms him down, but he's just so exhausted by everything going on that it wouldn't be enjoyable for him. The doorbell rings. Bobby answers the door, expecting it to be his food, but is surprised as it’s the last person he expects to see.

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Buck sits in full dress blues in the Chief’s waiting room. While he had intended on reaching out to the man, he had never gotten the chance to since the Chief reached out first. This made Buck more anxious as he recounts recent scenes and situations himself and his team have found themselves in. He knows it’s an irrational thought, but he really hopes he’s not fired. Sue him, he’s nervous.

Buck’s too caught up in his own head to notice when someone sits down next to him. He doesn’t look up until there’s a firm, calming hand resting on his bouncing knee. Buck stops and looks up to see Bobby smiling at him.

“Hey Cap, what are you doing here?” Buck asks as Bobby sighs. Buck notices that he's not the only nervous party present.

“I asked the Chief if we could have this meeting,” Bobby responds, “I wanted to talk to you about your future in the LAFD and found it best to have a mediator.”

Buck nods nervously, “Okay.”

“I’m the dumbass!” rings through Buck’s thoughts once more as he swallows the lump in his throat. The Chief calls both Bobby and Buck into his office.

"Take a seat," the Chief says as he gestures to the chairs in front of his desk, "I understand that this meeting has the potential to be a little uncomfortable so I am going to start by saying that I'm on the LAFD's side. I want what's best for the department in this case."

"What is going on?" Buck asks.

Bobby sighs, "Have you heard from your sister or Chimney?"

"Not recently. Both asked me for some space and I am granting their wish," Buck answers, "I miss them and my little niece, but I want to respect them."

"Maddie is believed to have PPD, so she went to get help," Bobby explains, "And Chimney followed her with Jee."

Buck squirms uncomfortably, "Did my sister want Chim to follow her?"

"I don't think so," Bobby responds, rubbing his neck, "But Hen said there was no stopping him."

"They were made for each other, neither knows boundaries," Buck mumbles. Buck's concern and curiosity brings him to his next question, "Did he find her?"

"No, he's been keeping Hen updated, but not yet," Bobby answers.

"So my sister runs off and tells no one, but Chim. She doesn't bother telling me," Buck tries not to get upset. There's really no shock within him that his sister would up and leave without letting him know. His whole life, he has watched her choose men over him. The difference this time is she is seemingly trying to choose herself, which he commends, but it still stings that she'd leave him behind. At least he has the largest support system he's ever had at his back this time. Dr. Copeland is going to have a field day with this in his next therapy session. Buck's never been more thankful to have set up an appointment for after this meeting.

"Thank you for telling me," Buck starts, "But is there a reason the Chief had to be here for this?"

The Chief laughs, but composes himself quickly after receiving a confused look from Buck, "I have always rooted for my firefighters and despite the 118's rough year, I've always wanted what's best for all of you. I've watched as you've grown outside their realm Buckley, but I think it's always been clear your first choice is the 118."

"Have I done something in my performance to suggest that I'm not all in for my new house? I-" Buck is terrified now. And confused. And wishing that he had an outline for where this meeting is going.

"Calm down, kid," Bobby grabs Buck's shoulder, "Deep breath."

Buck composes himself and then a light bulb goes off, "Did you talk to Hen before this?"

"I work with her, kid, so of course I did," Bobby responds as Buck sighs, "Not about you though. Does she know something I don't?"

Buck looks between Bobby and the Chief before answering, "Yes."

"You want to go back, don't you?" The Chief asks, a look in his eye that Buck can't really place.

"Doesn't matter, it's not possible is it?" Buck asks.

The Chief sighs, "Why do you say that?"

"Well, I would've said because Chim has seniority and would be my Lieutenant, if I were to go back to the 118 A-Shift. I'd fill in for him when he wasn't there, but I don't even know if I could be demoted technically. I want to move up in the LAFD ranks, but I don't know, I just want to be back. I like the 133 and I like being Lieutenant, but sometimes I feel I have so much more to learn and maybe I'm hindering myself being in that position right now, but even if I went back, there's my relationship with Eddie-" Buck's spiraling and he hates that he's doing this in front of the Chief. He's rambled and spiraled in front of Bobby before so he's not as conscious in front of him.

Bobby mimics deep breaths so that Buck can follow him. Once calm again, he looks over at the Chief, embarrassed.

"That was a lot," the Chief says as Buck nods, "Captain Nash?"

"I've seen what you can do as Lieutenant," Bobby starts, "And I'm proud of you. I would love to offer the open Lieutenant spot to you, but it would mean that Eddie would have to switch shifts and I know that is not something you'd want to happen. I'm not dumb, kid, I know part of the reason you want to be back is so that you could work alongside Eddie again."

Buck nods, but doesn't say anything. Bobby continues, "In Thomas' want for revenge against me, he offered you Lieutenant. It was well deserved, but it also skipped over a few people that maybe should have gotten the promotion first."

The Chief adds, "Yes, unfortunately, you skipped the line-"

"I didn't mean-"

The Chief puts up his hand, cutting Buck off, "That's not on you. That's on him and me, to be honest. So, we won't demote you, can't necessarily legally without cause. However, if it was something you asked for to gain more experience to excel when the time comes along again, well, I don't know how I'd say no to that."

Buck lets that new information sink in, "So I could go back to being just a firefighter, but what about me and Eddie?"

"There's not necessarily a set in stone rule that would prevent you from working alongside with Firefighter Diaz. It may make things a bit more complicated, but you are both professionals so I would hope you'd respect your job and team enough to leave your relationship outside of the bounds of the firehouse. There may be a trial run to ensure that the safety of those we're sworn to protect and save come first, but if you pass and Captain Nash approves, not much I could do," The Chief responds as Buck finds himself deep in thought over what is being told to him.

"Also, Chim is essentially giving up his seniority at the 118," The Chief continues, surprising not only Buck with that information, but Bobby.

"Can you elaborate on that sir?" Bobby asks.

"Sure thing Nash," Chief Alonzo sighs, "When Chimney left to follow his girlfriend, he didn't file the proper leave. First off, you filed it for him, which is unusual. I know we've spoken about how he left you no real choice as he didn't even really tell you, just Paramedic Wilson. That being said, we cannot hold someone's spot in the fire department/their house for leave without an estimated return. Also, I don't exactly want to honor that level of disrespect. When I called to talk to him about the whole situation, he basically told me he couldn't talk, his goal was finding Maddie. Plus, if he's gone longer than a year, he will have to redo his probationary year. I will not break protocol for him."

I think shock is the understatement of the century.

"Huh," is all Bobby says, "Not that it would matter, but I don't disagree with you Chief."

That breaks the tension as all three laugh.

"So, I guess there's only one real thing left to say," Buck says as he looks between Chief Alonzo and Bobby.

"What's that?" Bobby asks, the most uncertain he's been the entire meeting. Chief quirks an eyebrow waiting for Buck to elaborate.

"I don't think right now is my time to be a lieutenant. If you'll have me, I'd like to return to the 118," Buck says smiling.

Bobby smiles brightly back at Buck, "I'd love nothing more. Welcome back, kid."

All three men talk over some logistics of Buck's timeline to return to the 118. Captain Mehta is called and informed that he will have to look for a new lieutenant. Apparently, one of their teammates had taken the exam and was itching to be promoted. He'd been with Mehta for many years and had opted to take the paramedics exam before the lieutenant one which is why Buck had been promoted over him. Buck felt a bit sheepish for having taken the position, but Mehta assured him that he was grateful to him for stepping in when no one else wanted to at the time. It was an easy decision and an amicable parting of ways on both their parts. Captain Mehta says the 133 will surely miss him.

Right as their meeting is about to end, Buck remembers that, technically, the A-Shift at the 118 lacks a Lieutenant. Not wanting to seem pushy or ungrateful, Buck opts to ask Bobby as they leave the building, instead of in front of Chief Alonzo. Bobby and Buck bid the Chief goodbye and head out of the building.

"Hungry, kid? Lunch is my treat," Bobby offers.

Buck looks at his watch, it's just about noon. He doesn't need to be anywhere til about 3 for his appointment with Dr. Copeland so he has time. Plus, he's starving.

He tells Bobby just that, "As long as I'm done by 2 so I can make it to my therapy session."

Bobby nods his head in understanding, "Good because I'd like you to become acquainted with our new Lieutenant."

Buck's about to respond, but Bobby jumps in his truck. Buck jumps in his Jeep, which is parked right next to Bobby's car (Buck is sure that is not a coincidence on Bobby's part) and he follows his Captain (YAY he can call Bobby that again!).

Buck pulls up to a diner and instantly recognizes it as the one that most of the Mid Wilshire station likes to go to after hard shifts. Huh, someone must've mentioned it was good to Bobby and he wanted to try it.

Buck follows Bobby into the diner. Bobby starts taking him to a booth towards the back, but just as they're about to sit down, Buck stops in his tracks, frozen to the floor.

"I believe you've broken Buck," Bobby laughs, "I just hope this is a good surprise and not a bad one."

Buck shakes himself from his stupor, "Good of course! How?"

Buck goes to give their newest lieutenant a hug. After a few minutes, Buck pulls apart from the hug, but still has his hands on their shoulders. Their newest lieutenant laughs, "Well, I wasn't ready to stop working with you either."

Buck smiles, "That means a lot, Bails."

Bailey gives Bobby a hug before the three of them sit down. The waitress comes over to take their orders and promises the food will be out shortly.

"My question still hasn't been answered," Buck says teasingly as the waitress puts in their orders.

"Well, after our coffee date, I got to thinking," Bailey starts, "I've really enjoyed working with you and I've heard all of your stories from the 118. I hear the way that Chim, Hen and Eddie talk about it too and well, it was almost as if I was there because it's how my old team used to be. I wasn't sure if it would work, but I had to go and ask Bobby if you transferred, if there would be a spot for me."

Buck nods his head in understanding, urging either Bailey or Bobby to continue.

Bailey decides to continue since it is mostly her story to tell, "Plus, I had taken the Lieutenant's exam before the whole ordeal with Fred went down, but had doubted myself. I wanted the promotion, but felt that I shouldn't move up because I felt I had betrayed my brothers and sisters. Watching you excel though, I knew I wanted the chance to show off my leadership skills too. So when Bobby had mentioned two spots being open, one being Lieutenant, well..."

"Both our problems were solved," Buck finishes, a smile so big on his face that it probably hurt.

"I've seen how well you two work together and it's not a completely new immersion into the group. We've all gotten to know Bailey off of the field and I could not think of a more perfect match for the A-Shift's new Lieutenant," Bobby responds, "I'm happy you're both giving us a second chance."

Bailey looks to Bobby confused as he laughs, "Buck is giving us a second chance, but so are you, Bailey. You met Buck through a time where he couldn't trust us and in turn, neither did you. I am honored that you felt comfortable to come to me and ask about the 118. I know actions speak louder than words and I cannot wait to prove just how happy we all are that you'll both be there."

Bailey squeezes Bobby's hand, "Thank you for the opportunity."

"Yeah Cap, don't sell yourself short," Buck says as he sips on the soda that the waitress brought him, "We wouldn't want to be at the 118 if it wasn't for you. Your leadership and acceptance is what gives the house a familial vibe. Nowhere we'd rather be."

The lunch is one of the most enjoyable that Buck has had in a while. Even though his heart is heavy that his sister has left once again, he can't think on it too long. He hopes she's receiving the treatments and help she needs. He hopes that Chimney gets the help he needs on his journey to find Maddie and Buck prays (he's not a religious man, but Bobby said it *might* help in this case) that he's looking over Jee in the way she deserves.

Before parting ways, all three agree that this should be kept on the down low. Hen knows Buck wants to return, but doesn't know if or when he's coming back. Of course, Eddie is none the wiser. Bobby thought it would be a nice reunion if it could be a surprise for all. He didn't even tell Athena. Buck suspects that could end interestingly, but he has too much joy right now to be concerned about that.

Wednesday, he returns to the 118 with Bailey by his side. It won't be the same, but he's excited for the journey to come.

As Buck sits down for his session with Dr. Copeland, he doesn't even let her ask how he is. He simply states, "I'm finally returning to the 118."

Dr. Copeland smiles, "How does that make you feel?"

"At peace. I'm going home."

Chapter Text

"I wonder why Nolan's throwing this party," Ang wonders out loud as she walks up to Nolan's front door along with Wes, Tim, and Lucy.

"Me too. I tried seeing if I could get him to crack, but he wouldn't budge. Kept lying saying he didn't know," Lucy explains.

Tim shrugs, "Does it matter? We're about to find out. We are legitimately standing right outside his front door."

Wes laughs as Ang elbows him playfully. Tim rolls his eyes and knocks on the door.

Bailey opens the door, ushering them in. Everyone else is already there. All are a little surprised that Buck's the only 118 member in sight. Eddie's not even with him. Even though Mid Wilshire had started out quite frosty with Buck's old teammates, all had come to like them as they recognized their faults and mended their relationships with Buck. Once Buck forgave them, Mid Wilshire realized there was no reason not to do the same. All members are praying there's not an announcement of the 118's progress going backwards. That would be heartbreaking, not only for Buck, but them as well.

As food and drinks are served, it doesn't take long for someone to address the nervousness and tension permeating through the room. Of course Ang is the one bold enough to ask, "Did you and Eddie break up or are you on the outs again with the 118?"

Buck chokes on the water he had been drinking when the questions were posed. Everyone else expresses their wonder and agreement to Ang's questions.

Bailey snickers as she downs her beer, "Well, guess it's now or never, Buckaroo."

"Guess so," Buck starts, "No, there was no breakup and we are actually on the best terms we've been with the 118 since this all started."

Celina, curious as ever, asks, "So, why is no one else here?"

"And why does Nolan look just as confused as the rest of us?" Nyla questions as she quirks an eyebrow to Buck and Bailey.

"There's a simple answer to that question and that's because I am just as confused as all of you," Nolan answers.

"So you weren't being facetious before when you said you had no idea why you were throwing this party?" Lucy asks, in complete disbelief.

"Why would I lie?" Nolan asks, hand to his heart.

Tim rolls his eyes once more, "Moving on. Why are we here?"

Bailey smiles brightly, "We're transferring!"

"Again?" Grey snickers.

All laugh and this time Bailey and Buck roll their eyes at their family.

"This time will be the last time. If it's not the last time, well it'll be the last time for a long time, hopefully," Buck starts to explain.

"Are you saying what I think you're saying?" Wes asks cautiously.

Buck nods, "Bailey and I are off to the 118!"

Bailey had grabbed a bottle of champagne while Buck had made the announcement. She was going to pop the bottle, however, both were thrown off by the complete silence from everyone.

Nolan shakes off his shock first, "Congrats! Buck, you must be so happy to go back! Bailey, I wasn't expecting you to follow, but I'm very happy for you." Nolan gives Bailey a kiss and then shakes Buck's hand.

That breaks everyone as congratulations and well wishes are given to the firefighting duo.

"Wait, how is that going to be possible?" Ang genuinely wonders.

"Well, I'll be returning as just a firefighter so that Eddie and I would still be able to work on the same shift," Buck explains as Lucy and Tim share a smile and a knowing look.

"Did he ask you to do that? Doesn't it affect your future in the LAFD?" Tamara asks, concern for her friend as she, as they all do, knows how hard Buck has worked to get this far.

Buck chuckles, "No, the only one who knows our transfer is happening is Bobby. That's why no one else is here. We wanted it to be a surprise for them when we show up tomorrow. Surprisingly, since Thomas seemed to have prematurely promoted me above others, me asking for a little more time to fully excel in the position was seen as a positive thing, not a negative one in the eyes of the Chief."

All are a bit taken aback by the statement, but nod in understanding.

"There are two open spots in the 118 at the moment?" Nyla digs for more details.

Bailey smiles softly and puts a comforting hand on Buck's arm as she continues explaining the current situation at the 118, "Well, it seems that like your station, there is never a dull moment at the 118."

Buck scratches the back of his neck before continuing, "Maddie has PPD and ran off to get help. Chimney's gone looking for her with Jee."

"I'm sorry to hear that, Buck," Luna offers with a sad smile, "I hope she gets the help she needs."

"Me too," Buck says as he looks to Bailey.

"So, with the 118 A-Shift lacking a Lieutenant, I expressed interest in it to Bobby and was ultimately offered the position," Bailey tells her family, a huge grin on her face.

Cheers can probably be heard for miles as the Mid Wilshire clan celebrates Bailey's new position and Buck's return to the 118. Bailey pops the champagne open and pours a glass for everyone.

Wes raises his glass, signaling a toast. Everyone follows suit as Wes says, "To Bailey and Buck kicking ass and taking names at the 118!"

All laugh and clink glasses before taking a sip.

Buck clears his throat and adds, "I couldn't have done any of this without all of you. Thank you for being there for me while my team and family were failing me. You didn't need to since I barely knew any of you. I will be forever thankful that I was working as a bartender at my lowest point and ran into some familiar faces."

"AW!" The women all say at once as they engulf Buck in a hug.

The men laugh as the party continues, everyone enjoying each other's company. Eventually, people start filing out of the Nolan residence. The last to leave are surprisingly Ang and Wes, at Buck's insistence.

"I just wanted you to know, that I have not once taken your generosity, friendship, or guidance for granted. I meant every word, if it wasn't for all of you, I don't know where I'd stand with the LAFD or anyone from the 118. I probably would've eventually done something that would be hard to come back from," Buck says as he tries not to get choked up, "You didn't need to offer your husband's card and you didn't need to answer or help when I called. I'm eternally grateful."

Ang gives Buck a huge hug and when they pull apart, both wipe the tears off their faces. Wes and Buck bro hug.

"You're wrong, you know," Wes says as he breaks the silence that's fallen between the two couples and Buck.

"Why's that?" Nolan asks as Bailey gives him a look before he says, "Why can't I ask? They're still in my house."

Bailey rolls her eyes.

"We will get out of your hair, John," Wes laughs before adding, "You're wrong because of course I had to help. Ang would've permanently moved me to the couch if I didn't."

"Damn right I would've," Ang comments.

All five laugh so loud that John and Bailey's neighbors must think they're all insane.

Wes and Ang head out. Buck turns to John and Bailey on his way out the door, "Thank you for hosting and I'll see you tomorrow Lieutenant."

Bailey and John each give Buck a hug and lock the door behind him.

"So Lieutenant?" Nolan teases.

"Yes, Training Officer?" Bailey teases back with a smile.

"How about we have a mini celebration of our own?" Nolan quirks an eyebrow.

"I'd say you're disobeying a direct order if you don't follow through on that promise," Bailey says and winks at her husband.

At that, Nolan picks a laughing Bailey up and brings her to their bedroom.

Buck returns home later than he had expected to. He finds Eddie in their bedroom, waiting for him.

"You didn't have to wait up for me, Eds," Buck tells Eddie as he gives him a kiss.

"I wanted to," Eddie says, hesitantly adding, "I feel like I haven't really seen you these last few days."

Buck yawns, "I'm sorry, mi amor. I've just been busy. We'll talk more tomorrow, we both have early shifts."

"Buck, you just got home!" Eddie exclaims.

"Tomorrow, after our shifts we'll catch up. I promise," Buck responds and gives Eddie another kiss before he can protest further.

Buck goes to sleep with a smile on his face and his heart happier than ever. Eddie, on the other hand, goes to sleep with a frown on his face and worry radiating through him.

The next morning, Eddie drives off towards the 118, feeling lonelier than ever. Buck's distance is terrifying him.

Buck has always been the one to wear his heart and his emotions on his sleeve. Eddie has always been the opposite. Even so, since Eddie and Buck had admitted their love for one another, Eddie's been trying to be more open. The mandated therapy really helps. Seriously, Eddie's not thinking that sarcastically at all.

Anyway, as Eddie pulls up to the 118, he finds Hen outside pacing. Now, Eddie doesn't like to panic, or at least outwardly show his panic, but this has him real close to losing it. Eddie jumps out of the car and runs over to Hen.

Hen stops abruptly in front of Eddie when he jumps in front of her.

Hen smacks Eddie on the arm, "You startled me!"

"Well, you're SCARING me!" Eddie exclaims.

Hen sighs as she tries to think of a way to say what she needs to without upsetting Eddie further. Eddie, impatiently, waits for Hen to fill him in on what's going on.

Hen looks Eddie right in the eye as she shatters his whole world, "We're getting a new probationary firefighter and I found out our new lieutenant is a woman. Which yay to that, but..."

Eddie nods, trying to keep the tears at bay. Buck is far from a probie and he's not a woman. Damn, Eddie was really holding onto the sentiment Buck told him ages ago that he didn't want his transfer to be permanent. Eddie guesses he's been liking the 133 way more than he's been letting on as to not hurt Eddie's feelings. Eddie will eventually need to talk to Buck about that as even if Buck's never able to return to the 118, he will always want his partner to be happy.

Eddie doesn't respond further than the nod, but he assumes Hen doesn't need him to as she wraps him in one of her warm hugs. He tries to keep from crying and (mostly succeeds) as only a few tears come out. As Hen pulls away, he sees she has a few tears as well. They both wipe their respective tears and stand there for a moment, collecting themselves further. Eventually, Hen offers Eddie her arm, which he takes as the pair walk into the station.

Hen and Eddie easily spot their new probie, seeing as neither have ever seen him before. Hen plasters a smile on her face as she walks up to him and offers him her hand, "Hi! I'm Hen."

The young man clears his throat as he stumbles out of his seat, "I'm Ravi." Ravi shakes Hen hand as he turns towards Eddie. Eddie and Ravi also shake hands as Eddie introduces himself, "I'm Eddie. Welcome to the 118, probie."

Ravi nervously laughs, "Thanks. It's nice to meet you both."

Eddie and Hen nod their heads in agreement as Bobby makes his way from the kitchen with a plate of pancakes.

Bobby comments, "Good, I'm glad you've both met Ravi. We're just waiting on a couple of others and then I have a few announcements. Please, start digging in."

Bobby goes to grab more plates from the kitchen as other members of A-Shift join the three of them already at the table.

Eddie notices two chairs are left unoccupied as Bobby sits at the head of the table. Bobby clears his throat, stopping all from continuing chowing down for the moment.

"As most of you know, the 118 was in a pretty bad way for a little while. That was my fault, for the most part, and while I'm sorry to have put us all through that, I do want to honor the growth that came out of it," Bobby starts.

Smiles grace the members of A-Shift's faces as they let their Captain continue, "I know that most of us had high hopes that Buck would return to the 118 one day and that hope seemed to turn to reality as Chim left to follow Maddie. I'm sorry to say that Buck is not our newest Lieutenant-"

Groans, gasps, and sounds of hurt and protest start.

"What?"

"Why not?"

"We don't care that him and Diaz are dating, they can be professional!"

"I thought the 133 wasn't meant to be permanent!"

"Can we fight this?"

Bobby sighs as Ravi looks to everyone around the table with a look of bewilderment, "Enough!"

Everyone stops as they turn towards Bobby once more, sheepish looks of embarrassment across their faces.

"I know that is an upsetting announcement to hear, BUT we do have a new probie in our midst," Bobby points to Ravi before continuing, "A-Shift meet Ravi. Ravi, would you like to share anything about yourself before I continue on with my announcements?"

Ravi clears his throat nervously, "Sure Cap. Um, I'm Ravi. I'm excited to be here and something about me is I also dabble in real estate. I feel like I'm back in school sharing a fun fact about myself."

A few snickers and laughs come from the table. Eddie gives Ravi a smile as Hen gives him two thumbs up.

Bobby chuckles as he nods his head towards their new probie, "Thank you Ravi. Now, I want to introduce our newest lieutenant. I'm excited to work with her as her record out in the field precedes her. She's bringing along someone to join us as well that she's been working with for the better part of the last year."

Hen's eyes go wide at Bobby's statement as Eddie just looks between the pair confused. Bobby's biting his lip, trying not to smile too widely, as everyone's still looking his way. Only then does everyone recognize the tell tale sign of boots as multiple people make their way up the stairs.

Bobby motions towards the top of the stairs as he announces, "Please welcome to the 118, Lieutenant Nune and welcome back Firefighter Buckley!"

Cheers erupt from the table as everyone gets up to greet Bailey and Buck. Ravi stays in his seat confused as Eddie sits there in shock. Hen glares at Bobby, who has a shit eating grin gracing his face.

Bailey and Buck walk towards Hen, Eddie, Bobby and Ravi.

"We selfishly thought you would be a little bit more excited to see us," Bailey teases.

Hen moves from glaring at Bobby and laughs as she gets up to give Bailey a hug, "Welcome, Lieutenant. I am so happy I'll have another female to help me keep all these boys in line."

Bailey responds, "I'm delighted to assist you in that. Sisters before misters."

The two females hi five before Bailey gives Bobby a hug, "Good to see you, Cap."

Bobby smiles, "Welcome aboard, Lieutenant."

Hen then turns to Buck, pointing her finger at him, "You took your sweet time coming back. I've been dying for months knowing you wanted to return!"

That snaps Eddie out of it as he looks directly at Buck and Hen, "You knew?!"

Hen rolls her eyes, "I knew he wanted to come back, but I didn't know if it could happen! Clearly, I didn't know when or else I wouldn't have been flipping out this morning!"

Eddie huffs before turning to Bobby, "And you knew?"

"Obviously, I had to accept their transfer," Bobby says with a chuckle.

"I'm so lost," Ravi whispers.

Bailey chuckles, "Buck's coming back to the 118 and Eddie's butt hurt that he didn't know about it."

Eddie gasps in mock offense as the table erupts into the laughter, "Wow, Lieutenant, I am hurt."

Bailey rolls her eyes and offers her hand to Ravi, "I'm Bailey, by the way."

Buck raises his hand, "Buck!"

Ravi shakes Bailey's hand and then moves to do the same with Buck. Ravi is still sort of confused, but he just tries to go with it. The confusion only gets worse as Athena and May come up the stairs.

Both Grant women gasp.

"Are you back?" May asks, excited.

"I'm back," Buck replies as May tackles him to the ground.

Athena glares at Bobby, "How long have you known, Robert Nash?"

Bobby puts his hands up in defense, "Only a few days. We wanted it to be a surprise. Plus, Hen lied the other week when she said she didn't know anything."

Hen's mouth opens in shock as Athena turns on her, "Henrietta Wilson."

"It's a full name type of day, I see," Bailey says as she picks up a piece of bacon and eats it.

Athena smiles at Bailey, "This is such a nice surprise. You're joining my husband's crazy crew too?"

Bailey laughs as she salutes Athena, "Lieutenant Nune reporting for duty, Sergeant Grant."

Athena laughs joyously as she gives Bailey a hug as Buck gets up off the floor from where May tackled him.

May gives Bailey a softer hug as Athena turns to Buck, hands on her hip, "What do you have to say for yourself?"

The alarm goes off.

Buck smirks as he gives Athena a quick hug, "Saved by the bell."

Everyone runs down to the trucks.

Athena calls after Buck, "So happy you're back, baby!"

Buck cannot keep the smile off his face.

Buck reclaims his seat next to Eddie, both grinning widely. Eddie bumps his knee into Buck's as Buck returns the gesture with Eddie.

"Are they always like this?" Ravi questions as he points to Buck and Eddie.

"Yes, but you'll get used to them," Bailey answers.

"They were like this before they started dating, so I'm sure it'll be even worse now," Hen adds.

Buck sticks his tongue out at Hen before turning to Ravi, "We're professionals."

"Yeah because sticking your tongue out at me just now was real professional," Hen teases.

"Hen, we promise we are going to be on our best behavior," Eddie says as he holds up his hand in the Boy Scout's salute, "Scout's honor."

Before Hen can retort, Bobby interrupts, "I would sure hope you two can be professional. Now, if you would all cut it out, we have a job to do."

All know there's no malice behind Bobby's words since he couldn't really keep the smile off of his face. Could you blame him? Buck's back where he belongs.

Everyone still sheepishly apologizes.

Bobby then explains they'll be dealing with a car accident that's left one car hanging off the side of the road.

When they arrive on scene, Bobby and Bailey start finding their rhythm as Bailey becomes his right hand. Eddie and Buck work perfectly in sync, shocking no one. It's as if Buck never left the 118.

Hen starts advising Ravi on how he can help and she finds him quite resourceful. She's not shocked that Bobby snagged him for their little rag tag team. She's sure in no time Ravi will be a part of their little family.

With a successful rescue on their belts for their first call of the day, Bobby goes towards the kitchen to make some lunch. Buck goes to join Bobby, but before he can, Eddie grabs him by the arm.

Eddie brings Buck to a quiet corner.

"I'm so happy," Eddie says with a smile.

Buck returns Eddie with a smile of his own, "Me too."

"I'll have your back," Eddie says with a smirk.

"And I'll have yours," Buck responds, smile so wide it's starting to hurt.

Buck and Eddie share a quick peck on the lips before Buck joins Bobby in the kitchen.

Eddie's not far behind as he joins Bailey, Hen, and Ravi at the kitchen island.

"So, do you think you'll be happy here at the 118, probie?" Buck asks Ravi, "Cause you know, we're not just a team, we're a family."

Ravi thinks he's made the right choice in stations. The 118 may be a little chaotic, but the love they have for each other is clear. Ravi's hoping that he can be just as close to them. Maybe just not as close as Buck and Eddie are.

"I think so," Ravi answers, "I'm starting to see why the 118 is so coveted at the academy. Are you happy to be back, Buck?"

Bobby hands Buck some vegetables to chop as he responds, "There's nowhere else I'd rather be, probie."

Chapter Text

Buck runs around the Diaz kitchen, frantically, as Eddie stands in the doorway, looking lovingly at the man in front of him. As Buck turns around, he finds Eddie staring at him. Buck crosses his arms.

"We have people coming over here, mister. You need to get moving and help me out!" Buck cries.

"You want my help in the kitchen?" Eddie asks with a sly grin on his face.

Buck picks up the wooden spoon from the counter, taking a deep breath, and points it at Eddie, "Don't put words in my mouth, Edmundo Diaz."

Eddie shrugs, "Well, I could think of something else that could be more fun in your mouth."

Buck squawks as Eddie smirks, "Like the cookies that are about to come out of the oven."

Buck throws the wooden spoon at Eddie as he laughs.

With that, Eddie starts fixing the backyard so that there's enough chairs and room for everyone. This will be the first party that Buck and Eddie will be throwing since becoming official. It's a big deal. As Eddie's cleaning off the tables, he thinks back on the last couple of years. He could've never imagined his life being so full. When he came back from overseas, he was a shell of a man his father wanted him to be. He had to learn to be a single dad and deal with his PTSD, all on his own. If it weren't for Chris, he has no idea where he'd be right now.

Now this is going to sound bizarre, but Eddie is also grateful for the fact that Shannon left for LA. He's not grateful or happy that she did it because she abandoned Chris in the process. BUT if she hadn't been in LA, then Eddie and Chris wouldn't have followed her here. He wouldn't have joined the 118 and he wouldn't have met Buck. Him and Chris wouldn't be flourishing here with his Tia and Abuela by his side. He's proving his parents wrong, he's not bringing his son down with him. None of this could've happened had him, Shannon, and Chris stayed in El Paso. Eddie wipes the tears he didn't realize he'd shed as he smiles up at the sky and whispers to Shannon, "Thank you."

The giggling coming from inside his house snaps him out of his thoughts. Eddie goes back in to find Chris and Buck in the kitchen. Chris is assembling the salad as Buck assembles the charcuterie board. Buck freezes as the bell rings.

"Whoever that is is an HOUR early!" Buck nearly screams, stressed and nearly flinging the sauced spoon in his hand.

Eddie chuckles and gives Buck a kiss on the cheek, "I'll get it, cariño."

When Eddie opens the front door, it's Bobby and Athena on the other side.

"So, he's panicking," Athena says as she walks in chuckling and gives Eddie a kiss on the cheek.

Eddie nods as Bobby comes in and gives him a hug.

Buck runs out and sees it's Bobby and Athena. He visibly relaxes.

"Oh good. I need help," Buck says as he runs back into the kitchen.

Athena rolls her eyes lovingly as Bobby shakes his head in amusement, "Only our son."

Bobby and Athena join Buck and Chris in the kitchen. Everything is set. Buck and Chris just run to change quickly as they wound up covered in flour and sauce.

Bailey and Nolan are the first to arrive, officially. Everyone else files in not long after them. Tia Pepa and Abuela even make an appearance, tamales and pastellitos in hand.

The party is in full swing:

Tim, Nolan, Grey, and Eddie are off to the side discussing the latest football game.

Ravi, Celina, Aaron, May, and Tamara are discussing a time when they can go and see a new exhibit at the art museum.

Bailey, Luna, Hen, Lucy, and James are discussing the community center and trying to find new ways to be a help to the community rather than a hinderance.

Karen, Athena, Angela, Nyla, and Wes brought out a pack of cards and have been playing poker. Wes is losing, big time.

Tia Pepa and Abuela look on as the kids are running around, playing a game of zombie freeze tag. They incorporated an element to slow it down so Chris wouldn't feel left out or have to forgo his crutches just to join. It makes everyone's heart so happy to see. Especially Eddie and Buck's.

Buck and Bobby are grabbing extra trays of food that need to be refilled. When Bobby heads out towards the door, Buck just stands there.

Noticing that Buck hasn't moved, Bobby, alarmed, turns towards him asking, "Kid?"

Buck gives a slight smile, "I'm good, don't worry."

Bobby looks Buck up and down, "No, I'm not convinced."

Buck chuckles as he looks into his backyard, "A year ago, I thought I had lost everything and everyone good in my life. Now, I have more than I could've imagined. The 118, Mid Wilshire, Eddie and Chris..."

Bobby puts his hand on Buck's shoulder and gives it a squeeze, "Kid, this is all because of you. We'd be nowhere as a family if you hadn't come through the 118's bay doors. Now, I can see some members of said family scrounging for more food. Shall we?"

Buck laughs at that as the two of them bring out the trays of food.

Immediately, the trays are attacked as everyone grabs more food. Buck goes over and joins Nyla and Tamara.

"You know, this all started because you recognized me at the bar," Buck says.

Tamara laughs, "Well, I think this all started because you jumped back into treacherous waters."

"So if your next words were 'Thank you', I think you're saying them to the wrong people," Nyla says as Tamara and Buck look to her, confusion written all over their faces.

Nyla continues, "You should be thanking Poseidon."

Buck and Tamara break out in laughter as Nyla tries to keep a straight face. She fails and joins in on the laughter. Everyone looks over, concerned, but amused.

"Care to share?" Grey asks.

All three look at each other and nod simultaneously shouting, "THANK YOU POSEIDON!"

The three continue to laugh as the first responders in the family joins them and the other half, the kids and everyone else, looks on in horror.

"Um, we're concerned right?" a horrified Karen whispers to an equally horrified Wes.

Wes nods slowly, "Yep, but I think all of their traumas have finally caught up to them."

"What should we do?" James questions as he looks to the other adults. The kids have gotten bored of their parents' antics and have gone back to playing.

Luna shrugs, "Join them?"

That sounds like a plan as each non first responder looks to their loved ones and joins in the laughter. Eventually, the laughter dies down and smiles are found on everyone's faces.

Ang clears her throat, "Well, now that we've officially lost our minds together, what's our next adventure?"

Nolan shakes his head in amusement, "I think the adventures find us, whether we like it or not. I don't think we need to seek them out, Ang."

Celina takes out some crystals from her bag, "Ang has a point, Nolan. Maybe we should seek them out, know what we're in for. Now, these crystals-"

"Absolutely not," Tim interjects, "We're just asking for trouble at this point."

Celina holds up one of the crystals, "Not necessarily."

Tim rolls his eyes, but Lucy steps in before he says anything else, "Maybe we just don't tempt fate right now."

All nod in agreement, as Hen pipes up, "I feel like tempting fate is sort of all of our thing though."

Thunder erupts as rain starts pouring down on them. All of the kids scream as the adults start gathering them into the Diaz house.

Just as the last person makes their way into the house, lightning flashes and hits the tree in Eddie's neighbor's yard. Thankfully, it doesn't fall on anything significant, just the fence.

The adults all turn to Celina as the kids go dry off and head to Christopher's room to play video games.

"What? We didn't tempt anything," Celina starts.

"Hm, well next time let's not even think of tempting anything," Nolan suggests.

Celina shrugs, "I mean, if we had looked into the crystals earlier we maybe could've been warned about the rain and the near death lightning tree incident."

Nyla, Tim, Nolan, Grey, and Eddie all rub their temples.

"Maybe we had tempted fate the second this gathering was held anywhere other than Bobby and Athena's, mine and Nolan's, or a bar," Bailey laughs as Buck squawks in mock offense, "Not that this gathering isn't lovely. Just saying."

Celina looks deep in thought, "Bailey might be on to something..."

Athena shakes her head in amusement, "Well, the Grant-Nash household is always open to everyone here. Just maybe leave the crystals and such at home."

"If the gathering's at your house, we won't need them," Lucy says teasingly as Buck throws a clean towel at her. Lucy shrieks as Tim sips on his soda, trying not to laugh.

Wanting to change the subject, Ravi curiously chimes in, "So are near death experiences like normal for this group?"

The group takes this as an invitation to tell the young probie of their 'greatest' hits/near misses on the job.

"Psycho drug lord kidnapped me on my wedding day."

"Fellow detective tried taking me down."

"Escaped convicts tried killing my wife and I, multiple times."

"Serial arsonist tried framing my old captain and blew up his house as Nolan, Ang, and I were outside of it."

"A cartel leader tried killing my family after he had realized he wouldn't be able to bend me at his will as his lawyer. Plus, my ex-fiance wound up being a psycho who went after the LAPD."

"Serial killer locked me in a barrel to die to be Rosalind Dyer's prodigy."

"My time overseas wasn't exactly a field day. But in terms of firefighting, my first shift Buck and I had to pull a live grenade from someone's leg. My second shift happened to be a 7.1 earthquake where we had to navigate a lopsided building."

"I got stuck under tons of rubble in said lopsided building after an aftershock. Thankfully, I wasn't pinned, but it still felt hopeless at the time."

Buck ends it saying, "Emergency tracheostomy, firetruck crushing my leg, embolism, tsunami, psycho revenge landlord turned captain..."

Nolan looks to Ravi, "Should we go on?"

Ravi looks at all of them in complete disbelief, shock, and horror, "There's more?!"

All just smile, bemused at Ravi's reaction. Bobby then pipes up, "Even with all that being said, would any of us change the paths we've chosen? Would you Ravi?"

Ravi shakes his head no as everyone else in attendance does the same.

May giggles as she looks around the room, "You know, I wish there was some like earth shattering announcement being made today. I feel like that'd be the perfect way to get us out of this doom talk."

All turn towards Buck and Eddie. The duo looks to each other confused as they look to everyone else.

"I just really wanted to host!" Buck exclaims.

"What announcement did you think we'd be making?" Eddie asks, quirking an eyebrow.

Ang voices the opinion of the group, "An engagement announcement would've been nice."

Eddie smirks, "One day soon."

Buck's mouth gapes open as Eddie winks at him and everyone cheers.

"Well, that announcement party will have to happen at one of the aforementioned places. I'm not dying due to some freak accident because we chose to tempt fate being altogether somewhere else," Tamara explains.

Everyone either snickers or rolls their eyes.

After everyone sees the rain is not subsiding, they start filing out. Everyone assures their hosts that regardless of the weather it was a great gathering. Buck can't keep the smile off of his face as him and Eddie sit down to snuggle for a movie. Hen and Karen had offered to take Harry and Christopher for the night. Both couples were quite appreciative to get some alone time.

As the credits start rolling, Buck looks up at Eddie and says, "Soon, huh?"

Eddie chuckles, "Well, we did everything backwards anyway."

Buck looks at him inquisitively as Eddie rolls his eyes, "We shared a son before we ever shared a kiss."

Buck laughs, "You're not wrong about that. Speaking of, it has been a while since I've been kissed."

Eddie smiles as he kisses Buck. It's a short kiss, but it's sweet.

"Better?" Eddie asks.

"Everything's better when I'm with you," Buck whispers.

Eddie gives Buck a kiss on the forehead before grabbing the remote once more.

Buck snuggles back into Eddie as he flips through the channels to find another movie. Buck thinks of everyone being gathered in his and Eddie's home earlier that day. The only three missing were Chim, Maddie, and Jee. It hearts his heart that they're not back, but he wants what's best for them. That's his sister, brother-in-law, and niece after all! Hopefully, they'll be back one day soon. If not, Chim will have to repeat his probie year. Buck feels a little horrible because he kind of wants to see that. He won't tell anyone that though. Maybe Eddie. He doesn't think Eddie will judge him for it, he thinks Eddie probably wants to see Chimney go through his probie year too. Anyway, what matters is that they're safe. He knows from Hen that Chimney chose to settle with Jee in Boston for now, hoping Maddie will show up there since it's significant to her. He hopes he's right and he hopes Maddie's been receiving the care she needs. Buck continues to miss and love them dearly.

Eddie finds some sappy romcom to put on as he grabs the blanket from behind the couch, throwing it over them. Buck yawns, reveling in the warmth from the blanket and Eddie.

As his eyes start getting heavy, he thinks back to that first night at the bar when he ran into Bailey, Tamara, Nyla, and the rest of the Mid Wilshire women. Thanks to that night, Buck gets to be with the people he loves while doing what he was born to do. He knows he's exactly where he's meant to be.

Who knew that bartending would wind up saving his life?