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" Guys, I'm seriously not playing anymore where is my phone?" We all heard Taesan's voice ring throughout the green room. We were just thirty minutes away from performing on stage. Earlier we had decided to play a prank on Jaehyun and hide his passport. The stress was so severe that he almost started crying. Taesan felt bad and told him about the prank and we all had a good laugh about it. That fell short when Taesan realised he couldn't find his phone...
"Leehan are you sure you don't have my phone? I've been looking for it for the past fifteen minutes and I'm getting pissed. I'm not joking anymore."
"How did all the attention get shifted to me? I literally did nothing. I didn't take your phone." I replied annoyed. Taesan turned his body towards me "because you are the only one who hasn't opened your bag for me to check an- " I quickly cut him off because he was getting repetitive. "Because I've told you countless times that it's not in my bag. I didn't hide it Dongmin- " I replied to him.
On the other side of the room I could see the members visibly still at the use of his government name which I only used when I was serious. I could care less at this point. I was being serious I didn't take his phone and I was being unfairly accused. It also didn't help that we were getting on stage in 10 minutes.
"-but since you refuse to believe it you can search the bag yourself and see if you find anything. " I threw the bag in his direction. He stumbled forward a little to catch it then glared at me but I just looked away and crossed my legs waiting for him to start his investigation. He propped the bag on the table and began digging. It went on for a minute till his face changed from disappointment, to confusion, to an accusatory glare aimed at me. It was seconds later when he pulled out his phone from my bag that the other members and I would gasp because I truly don't know how it got there.
"What were you saying about not hiding it? I told you that I was not playing anymore and that I needed my phone. God Donghyun it's like you never know when to be serious, we're on stage in like 5 minutes and you couldn't just save me all this trouble?. You're selfish." He said all this to me whilst Riwoo was trying to stop him but he didn't stop.
By the time he was finished I had tears shining in my eyes. "I really didn't put it there and the fact that you think that little of me is just hurtful." I said as I got up to leave. "Guys please not right now. We are performing in five minutes. Can we sort this out after. I promise to help mediate." The leader's concerned voice rang out of the corner he was standing in.
"Yeah no it's fine I'm going to the standby point, we're done arguing. I'll meet you guys there." I said as I pulled the door open. "I can come with you if you want?" My baby Woonhak offered hesitantly like I was about to break. -To which, fair point, I am quite sensitive but I'm holding it together right now- I just nodded my head and opened the door for him to leave with me. From the corner of my eye I could see Taesan being approached by the oldest members to be scolded or comforted I didn't stay long enough to know.
"Hung are you okay? I- I wanted to step in and stop Taesan hyung but the rule says we have to let you guys talk first." Ahh Woonhak, always trying to make me feel better. "Yeah I'm okay. I'm just focussed on the stage right now I want to do well." I replied with a little smile. What I said was mostly true. I was too focused on the upcoming performance to react to his words but at the back of my mind I could hear them repeating ~ selfish selfish selfish you're selfish leehan~ I quickly shook those thoughts out of my head. Not right now
I saw Woonhak slowly nod his head and gesture to the members behind us. They had also arrived at the standby point. It was time to get on the stage. Let's do this.
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(Whooooooooooooooo, BOYNEXTDOOR!!)
The crowd went crazy as we finished the performance. I was still reeling in the adrenaline from the performance when Jaehyun signaled us to do our greeting. " HELLO, THIS WAS BOYNEXTDOOR! "
Shortly after, we got off stage and were being led back to the green room. That was when the memories came flooding back in and I suddenly stopped in the hallway. "Uhm guys I uh need the bathroom I'll see you guys in the car." I said as I started walking backwards. "Hyung should I- " "No it's okay not this time.' I quickly cut off Woonhak. He deserves a break from dealing with me, especially after the tiring performance we just had.
I swiftly turned and walked towards the bathroom. When I got to the last stall and locked it my armour cracked and the first tear came out followed by another and then a stream of tears leaked from my eyes. I sat on the toilet seat with my hands over my eyes. I hate that I'm so sensitive and it's worse that I recently discovered I had feelings for Taesan. I know that liking a band mate is not ideal but I can't help it and I thought he liked me too but I guess I was mistaken.
"Leehan-ah? Are you here? " This voice belonged to none other than Taesan. What was he doing in here. I quickly wiped my eyes and tried to look collected then sat completely still, bringing my legs up to rest on the seat.
He couldn't see me like this. "Leehanie, please I know you're here. The car's outside we have to go." He called out to me again sounding slightly concerned
I sighed softly then quietly unlocked the door to my stall and exited while staring at the ground. I didn't want him to see my red eyes I'd be too embarrassed. I felt his eyes on me when I started to walk to the exit only for him to grab my hand. "Have you been crying?" He asked in a small whisper sounding shocked. I looked up at him in shock then quickly shook my head no. "Don't lie to me when I can see it on your face. Come on Let's go."
Suddenly I was pulled out of the bathroom and he started leading me down the corridor towards the backroom lounges away from the parking lot? "Hey didn't you say the car was waiting outside?" I asked while locking back and forth between him and the glowing exit sign we were getting further and further from.
"It was, the members went home. I told them I'd fetch you and if I wasn't back in 10 minutes they could leave and we'll find our own way back home." He responded as we got into the B lounge. It was empty and I finally let go of his hand which I was well aware I was holding.
"Well ten minutes haven't passed yet so we can still go back. Why did you bring me here?" I asked, crossing my hands over my chest.
"So we can fix this, I don't want you to be mad at me and vice versa and I don't want to see you cry." He said this whilst patting the seat next to him. I approached him but stubbornly stood a few steps in front of him against the wall instead. "Talk."
"Okay first of all I'm sorry for calling you selfish that was uncalled for and I'm sure it hurt you and that was never my intention, that's all I'm going to apologise for." My eyes actually bulged from my scalp but before I could say anything he continued. "Leehan-ah I asked to check your bag but you refused to help me and after some thought I understood that a staff member could have put it in there but we would have found it sooner if you checked your bag. Still that wasn't an excuse to insult you so I'm sorry. "
By the time he was finished I understood exactly what he was talking about and even felt a little bad for making the search for his phone harder. " Okay I accept your apology, and I'm sorry for not helping you earlier. " I said while looking at the ground feeling kinda stupid.
" It's okay I'm glad we're on the same page now. Come here why are you so far?" Oh- that was kinda shocking I didn't know how to respond so I just walked closer to him till I was in front of him. When I looked up from the floor he was already looking up at me. Wow this was one of the rare occasions when I was taller than this man. I like it.
I felt his hand take mine and pull me down on top of him with a fast jerk of his arm. I felt myself falling and panicking for a few seconds before I landed on his chest. Heat rose to my cheeks at the fact that I was so close to him. "Ya! Why did you do that??" I asked nervously.
I felt him wrap his arms around waist and pull me closer. I flushed harder. "Cause I wanted to hug you and you were too far away. Now you're closer. Just enjoy the moment." And I had to admit this was nice, but it was hard to get comfortable because of my awkward position of half on him and the ground. I groaned a little as I tried to slightly adjust myself.
"Are you okay? Do you want me to stop?" He asked loosening his hold on me.
"No! I mean no ... It's just that I'm not sitting comfortably. " I informed shyly.
"Oh that's an easy fix just sit on me. " I stopped moving for a second and leaned back to look at him. Was he serious?
"Are- are you being serious right now? How can you say that with a straight face? " I asked in shock. He just smiled and said. "Cause you won't initiate it. Are you getting on or not? Come on I don't bite." Omg I wish I could smack that smug look off his face.
Okay.. I can do this. I got up from my previous position and climbed onto his lap while he had his hands resting on the back of the couch behind him. When I was finally seated I put my hands on his shoulders to adjust myself which resulted in him immediately grabbing my waist. "Stop moving. " He gritted out and laid his head on my shoulders. I was confused on why I should stop then it clicked and my face got redder than it had that whole night.
"Omg I'm so sorry!! Should I get off you?" I asked slightly panicked. "No, I like you here princess. In my arms." I heard him slightly chuckle and felt his arms go around my waist.
"Shut up and stop teasing me, you're the one who wanted me here." I said stubbornly as I returned his hug and eased into it.
I felt a kiss to my neck that made me shiver. "I am. I want you to be next to me all the time Donghyun. I think I like you a little. I hope you feel the same way." I was kind of startled but the atmosphere made it easy for me to answer. " Yeah I do."
"Thank goodness. I want to be with you if you want. I promise to treat you right. What do you think?" He said a little hesitantly waiting for my response. Taesan as my boyfriend? I couldn't ask for anything better.
"Yeah let's do it I'll be yours, and you better not make me cry again."
"Hey I'm yours too. And yeah I'll treat you like the princess you are. My boyfriend." He laughed a little.
"Shut up." I said snuggling into him.