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It was a day off for the two of them, and they had gone as far as the train station to watch a movie that Ruka wanted to see. It was a new movie that had just been released, but perhaps because it was an odd time on a weekday, the theater looked rather empty.
With popcorn and drinks in one hand, they sat down side by side on the seats they had reserved in the center of the back.
“Movie theaters sure are nice, huh.”
“Yeah. Something about the atmosphere gets you all excited,” Ruka said as she munched on the popcorn.
The way she was eating made Yuki worry that she might empty the box before the movie even started, but after coming to the conclusion that she should let her do as she pleased, Yuki shut her mouth instead of saying anything.
But when she was watching the commercials playing on the screen, she felt a stare—a hot, intense gaze—pierce her from the side.
“...What is it?”
“Well, I was just thinking that you looked pretty amazing today with that outfit.”
Yuki was wearing a sleeveless knitted top with a keyhole neckline, a cardigan draped over her upper arms, and a long pale purple skirt with a floral print. The sleeveless knitted top was a little too bold for Yuki, but it was comfortable to wear, and Ruka seemed to love it, so Yuki was quite fond of it herself. And since Ruka had asked her to dress like that for their date today, Yuki had worn it as she wished.
But still…
“How many times are you gonna say that?”
“But I simply can't praise it enough. It's that good.”
“Well, that's great to hear.”
Ever since the first time Yuki had bought the clothes and showed it to Ruka, she had been singing praises of it to such an extent that Yuki wanted to tell her to stop already. Not to mention that the reasons were all awful like how the armpits peeking out were great, how the fluffy upper arms were enticing, how the hole near the cleavage made her want to stick a finger in it, that it was sexy because it accentuated the fullness of her chest—Yuki felt complicated about the compliments that made no effort to hide her worldly desires. But since she always ended up thinking that it was fine as long as Ruka was happy, she was forced to admit that she was madly in love with Ruka to an embarrassing degree.
“Ah, but of course, I love your usual clothes too. It's just that I particularly love this one.”
“I wasn't worried about that.”
Ruka made it a point to reassure Yuki that it wasn't that she disliked her other clothes. It wasn't that Yuki hated this part of Ruka—In fact, she liked it. But it made her feel like she was being spoiled and that felt awkward. She felt a little bad that she was unable to give a cute response in such situations, but it didn't seem like Ruka minded that.
While they were talking, the theater became darker, and both turned to face the screen.
“...Ah.”
All of a sudden, Yuki's hand, which had been resting on the armrest, was in a tight grasp. When she took a quick glance at Ruka, she saw her looking at her with an amused grin. Had she noticed that Yuki was a little startled? Filled with some frustration, she fixed her gaze on Ruka.
She didn’t want to be beaten one-sidedly like that.
So when Ruka happily turned back to look at the screen—
“...Wha—!”
Yuki had tightly intertwined her fingers with Ruka's. She gave a smug smile to the wide-eyed girl.
The movie was way more fun than Yuki had expected. The worldbuilding and the story were both great, not to mention the action scenes which were flashy and worth watching. Two and a half hours had passed in a flash.
Yuki’s first impression of the movie was that Ruka might have loved it. And as expected, Ruka was incredibly excited. In the cafe they had entered after leaving the theater, she kept talking without pausing to breathe—The coffee she had ordered left untouched.
‘That scene was intense,’ ‘The action scene in the end was awesome,’ ‘That actress was great’—They talked about their thoughts like that. When the discussion was getting pretty serious, they even chuckled about how the love scene was a little extreme.
Yuki's heart soared at the luxurious happiness of being able to enjoy a fancy lunch with her lover on a holiday while they shared their thoughts on a movie.
—But she soon realized that Ruka was steadily becoming quieter.
“And y’know…um, Ruka?” Yuki stopped mid-sentence, sensing something strange, and looked into Ruka's face. “What happened?”
“...No, it's…” Ruka wordlessly shook her head.
What was it? Did she have a fever?
Yuki stood up and placed the back of her hand on Ruka’s forehead, but she didn't seem to have a fever.
“Yukki… Can we leave?”
“Huh? Y-Yeah.”
Ruka's tone felt a little gloomy. But they had finished eating, so there was no problem in leaving. Yuki drank the last bit of water that was left and followed Ruka who was heading to the cashier.
Yuki looked at Ruka's strange expression as the two left the shop.
“Ruka, are you alright?”
She didn't have a fever but was she feeling unwell? Like nausea or a stomach ache?
But Ruka remained silent and took Yuki's hand in hers. Yuki looked at her, confused, but Ruka started walking briskly while pulling her along.
“Ruka? What happened?”
But Ruka would neither turn nor answer her. Yuki couldn't understand what was happening.
“Hey, Ruka!”
They were far from the cafe now, and were entering a path in front of the station where there were less people. Realizing that she should rein in the girl who seemed to be running away from something, Yuki stopped walking.
“What are you doing?! Say something!”
“Yukki…”
Not separating their joined hands, Ruka turned back to look at Yuki, and leaned on Yuki's shoulder with a thump. Then Yuki heard the sound of her hot breath in her ears.
“Ru…ka…?”
Was she feeling unwell after all? If so, they should go home soon… Or maybe they should visit a hospital on the way.
Yuki made Ruka get up by gripping both of her shoulders, and then looked into her face. When Yuki finally met her burning red eyes, Ruka opened her mouth.
“...I was feeling horny.”
“...Hah?” A silly sound escaped Yuki's mouth.
Well, she couldn't help it. How could anyone have predicted this turn of events?
“...What?”
“I was feeling horny.”
“No, I heard you fine the first time.”
“Hm? Yeah, that's not right. To put it more accurately, it would be: I am feeling horny.”
“That's not the point!”
Ruka had spoken with such a deeply serious look on her face that it made Yuki sigh.
“And here I was so worried about you. Give back my concern!”
“But you didn't have to worry. I’d have told you immediately if I was feeling unwell.”
“No, no, no! Please tell me immediately no matter what it is?!!”
“Whaaat? How could I have said that I was feeling horny in front of so many people?”
“Ugh, that's true but this behavior is confusing! And what do you mean by feeling horny?! Was it because of that movie?! Was it because of that love scene?!”
“Yeah.”
“Don't just say ‘Yeah’! How could that make you horny and go quiet?! Are you a virgin?! No, isn't this worse than being a virgin?!!”
“Hm… In my case, it's tricky since I'm a girl… I don't have the thing downstairs but since I'm sleeping with you, I’d like to think that I'm not a virgin…?”
“THAT IS NOT THE POINT!!!”
What is wrong with her? And please stop saying something so graphic like ‘sleeping with.’
They had spent countless years together, yet Ruka kept going above and beyond Yuki's predictions. Just keeping up with her took everything she had. Well, the extent to which she’d get caught up in her pace had decreased… It had to have decreased. No, she wished it had decreased. She begged for it.
“And so, let's go to a hotel, Yukki!!”
“I'm not going!”
Ruka had spoken with a determined look on her face, so Yuki who shot her down immediately was met with reproachful cries.
“Why not?!”
“I should be the one asking you why we're going! It's way too sudden, and if you wanna do it, we can do it at home!”
“I can't wait that long!”
“Learn to wait!”
“No way! It's impossible! I’ll die if we don't do it right now!”
“Don’t die that easily!!!”
Yuki put a hand to her forehead and let out another big sigh.
They were supposed to go on a fun date today, so what was this unexpected development? Ruka should have also been looking forward to it…
That was when Yuki was pulled towards Ruka by the waist, and her mouth was brought close to her ear.
“Hey, please… Yuki .”
The moment she whispered that while stroking her lower abdomen, Yuki felt a tingle run through her womb.
“...Hng.”
When she thought that Ruka was touching her hair, her fingers moved to trace her ears. Soft brushes that barely felt like she was being touched, dazzling red eyes that pierced her with intensity—As much as she hated to admit it, Yuki was forced to admit that her underwear was starting to feel damp.
Ah, I can't win. I accept defeat.
“...Got it.”
“Yaaay!”
Ruka cheered with joy, and promptly pulled Yuki by the hand to a hotel. Or rather, it seemed like she had intended to go to a hotel in the first place, and Yuki had already been brought close to one.
Shit…I'm so easy to fool…
Yuki had never been able to win whenever Ruka begged her like this. Every time, she'd tell herself that she'd stand strong next time, but her resolve would crumble away in an instant in front of Ruka. Was this what they called the weakness that came with love…?
But, she never says anything I’d actually dislike…
The fact that she was considerate when it mattered made it all the more unfair.
Yuki, whose switch had completely been turned on, obediently followed Ruka as she was led by the hand, her mind and body both in agony.
Ruka entered the first hotel that had appeared in front of them and operated the panel to get a key from the front desk. Then they took the elevator to the floor where the room was.
The way Ruka remained silent the whole time despite not letting go of her hand made Yuki feel that something was wrong...
Something’s not right…
When they were talking earlier, Ruka was the same as always. But now, she gave off stiff vibes and seemed different from usual.
Is she…angry…?
It was impossible for her to be nervous at this point, and if she wasn't feeling well, Yuki could only assume that she was in a bad mood. Maybe she had made her angry without realizing it? But thinking back, she had no idea what the cause could be. And if she had done something to upset her, Ruka would have complained about it immediately. Moreover, if she was angry, why would she have bothered to come to a hotel? Then it must be a serious matter… But then, that would be something to carefully discuss at home.
Just what is up with her…?
While Yuki was worrying, they arrived in front of the room. Ruka opened the door with the key, and Yuki entered the room first. She had been very nervous the first time they visited. But thanks to Ruka, she was used to it by now.
She was about to go further in, thinking that the room felt like what you’d expect from a typical love hotel, when—
“Huh?!”
All of a sudden, Ruka had hugged her from behind, and Yuki was stopped in her tracks.
“...R-Ruka?”
Ruka wouldn't say anything.
Yuki tried to turn around and see her face, but she was being squeezed so tightly that she couldn't move.
“Really, what's wrong…?”
Yuki touched the arm that was wrapped around her neck.
Like she had suspected, the reason Ruka was acting strange wasn't because she was horny. There had to be some other concrete reason.
“Ruka, what happened to you? Please tell me.”
“...”
“Ruuuka.” Yuki turned around, hugged her from the front, and patted her head. She called out to her as gently as she could, as if she was talking to a child.
Ruka then buried her face in Yuki’s neck, and spoke in a small voice.
“...Eighteen.”
“...What?”
“There were eighteen of them.”
Eighteen. Eighteen…?
“E-Eighteen of what…?”
“...People who looked at Yukki in a weird way today,” Ruka said with a bitter look on her face. “But that's just the number I could confirm with my own eyes, so I think there were actually more.”
Ruka's eyebrows twitched a surprising amount as she tried to remember. And Yuki just stared at her with a dazed expression.
“...Uh? What?”
No, this wasn't the time to be dazed. Wasn't Ruka saying something completely out of the blue a daily occurrence? So Yuki tried hard her best to understand her even though she was struggling to do so.
“So um… Let's see… So you didn't like it? That there were eighteen people? Who were looking at me?”
“They weren't just looking! They were looking at you with lustful eyes! And some were even trying to talk to you. They went somewhere else only because I glared at them like crazy!” Ruka groaned as she moved her hands from Yuki’s neck and placed them on her shoulders. “Yukki, why are you dressed so sexy?!”
“Excuse me?! Aren't you the one who made me wear this?!”
“Wait, you're right! I'm such an idiot! No, it's your fault for being so sexy! What's with those boobs?! And those upper arms! And that face!!!”
“Hey! Don’t go around slut-shaming people like that!”
“Buuut I like that about you tooo. I’m totally addicted to Yukki's sexiness!”
“Aren't you emotionally unstable?!”
Yuki couldn't tell if she was being complimented or insulted. And either way, she didn't have the capacity to feel happy about what she was being told. But despite her complicated feelings, she patted Ruka’s head while the girl refused to let go of the embrace and kept rubbing her face against Yuki’s shoulder.
Going by what Ruka just said, she was in a bad mood not because she was sick, but because she didn't like people staring at Yuki in a weird way…
“...No, why would something like that make you this upset? They were only looking…”
“And that’s a problem! They were looking at you while thinking about things that get bleeped out and pixelated?! There's no way I can forgive that!”
“Y-You can’t say that everyone’s like that.”
“No, I know ! They were all looking at you with dirty eyes! Even if they weren't, they were still checking you out and thinking about wanting to go out with you, right?! I can't forgive that! Yukki is mine! Don't fantasize about my Yukkiii!!!”
“C-Calm down…”
It wasn't impossible for that to be the case, but wasn't Ruka overthinking things? Ruka was getting so heated that Yuki ended up feeling calm instead.
Well, it was true that people looking at her and imagining such things about her was unpleasant, and of course she wanted to avoid it if possible…but it was something that couldn't be helped. It would have been troublesome if someone had actually made a move, and she would have firmly turned them down in that instance, but if it was a mere fantasy in someone's head, she thought that they could do as they wished.
However, it seemed like Ruka couldn't forgive even that.
“So, you don't think so, Yukki?! Will you be fine if someone looks at me like that?!”
Yuki gave an exasperated look to Ruka who had said that with utmost seriousness.
“What's with that face?!”
“...No… I mean… You're a celebrity, so…”
Wasn't it too late to ask a question like that?
There must have been countless people who looked at the legendary singer Kayamori Ruka with such eyes when her charisma and popularity transcended the field of music, thanks in part to her looks. Yuki wouldn't last if she got angry or jealous about that. It was pointless to even think about it.
Ruka opened her eyes wide as if she had realized something.
Then she lowered her eyebrows and said, “I'm sorry…” with an apologetic look on her face.
“I didn't know I was making you feel this way… Sorry…”
“Huh…?”
“But don't worry. Even if people look at me and fantasize about me, they're just fantasies. I only belong to you, Yukki.”
“...Wait, hold on.”
Yuki tried to bring Ruka to a halt. But Ruka looked confused, as if she didn’t understand why Yuki wanted her to stop.
“I don't really…mind that.”
“Eh?”
“I don't care if your fans think of wanting to go out with you or fantasize dirty things about you.”
“...”
So Ruka didn't have to worry about Yuki's feelings—She had to make that clear. And her words should have gotten her point across.
They should have… Yet, for some reason, Ruka's face was twisted in shock.
“So that's how little you love me…!”
“What?!”
"I'm so shocked that I can't even say ‘Ruka-chan shock!’ I can't take this… Let me go kill myself…”
“No, no, no.”
How had things turned out this way? Yuki sighed, holding her head.
“Ruka, try to count the number of people who look at you and imagine various things? It's a frighteningly huge number, y’know? I won’t survive if I get jealous every time.”
“That's true… I see… So you’re numb to the pain since the number's so big… I'm sorry for having done this to you…”
“No, that's not… Wait! Didn't you say it yourself just a while ago?! That fantasies are just fantasies, and that you belong only to me? Isn't that all that matters?”
“Wait… You're right…”
“I feel the same. No matter what others think, I belong to you. Are you saying that you don't trust me?”
“...I do trust you.”
“Then it's all good, right? You don't have to worry about others, ‘kay?” Yuki placed her hand on Ruka's head and ruffled her hair.
“If anything, you should be glad that someone who makes passers-by think that way is all yours to keep.”
“...You're right… Thinking like that makes me feel proud.”
"Right? What you should do is smugly show off as much as you want," Yuki said with a smile.
Letting out a small cry, Ruka clung to Yuki.
“You're so cool, Yukki…”
“Did you fall in love with me again?”
“I did… I love you…”
Ruka buried her face in Yuki's neck and squeezed her tightly, and Yuki hugged her back.
Including this incident, Yuki was always at the mercy of Ruka's actions. Yet the way she couldn't help but find everything cute made it a serious illness.
Thinking that she'd spoil Ruka to the fullest today, she patted her on the back.
“But…” Ruka lifted her face and stared intently into Yuki's eyes with a sharp look.
“I fall in love with you everyday even if nothing happens.”
Fingers touched Yuki's cheeks and caressed them lovingly.
“Not just everyday—every hour, every minute, every second—my love for you keeps getting renewed,” Ruka said and dropped a kiss on Yuki's forehead. “See, I just fell for you even more now.”
Being told that at such a close distance…there was no way Yuki could stay sane. Her cheeks started heating up at an alarming speed. Her whole body was hot. And she couldn't breathe. All Yuki could do was stare at Ruka with a trembling mouth.
Her heart was pounding, her head was spinning from the sudden rush of blood, and she felt like she might collapse any moment now.
“D-Don't say something so embarrassing out of nowhere…!”
“Why nooot? I felt like saying it.”
“That’s not an excuse! Think about my heart?!”
“So you want me to inform you in advance before I seduce you? You’d like that?”
“Ugh…! Whatever!”
It was no good. Her heart was beating so fast that it might explode.
Thinking that she'd distance herself from Ruka and calm down first, she tried to get away from her. But Ruka's arms were tightly wrapped around her waist, preventing her from moving.
“...H-Hey, Ruka!”
“Where are you trying to go, Yukki?”
“L-Let go off me for now!”
“I don't think I can listen to that request.”
“...Mmph!”
Ruka put her hands around Yuki's neck and kissed her.
“Mhm… Hah…”
The tongue that parted her lips and entered tangled with Yuki's own. The underside of her tongue was caressed and sucked, and the pleasure made all her strength leave her body.
And before she knew it, she was pinned to the bed.
“...Ah… Ruka…” When she looked up at Ruka with dazed eyes, an irresistible gaze stared back at her.
“Yukki, you were so cool until just a while ago… But now you're so cute.”
“...Wha—!”
“I love both sides of you, Yukki. You're really cute.”
“S-Sto—”
“The way you get embarrassed and protest when called cute is also cute.”
“But I'm asking you to… Mgh!”
Ruka had licked Yuki's neck, causing her to let out a moan.
“Ngh… No…!”
The ticklish sensation and the pleasure mixed with it caused Yuki's body to jump by itself. But even when she was about to get swept away, Yuki tried to get Ruka to stop.
“Ah… W-Wait… Ruka…”
“Hm?”
“I-I’m all…sweaty…! L-Let’s shower—”
“Do you think I can wait that long?”
She didn't even have to think to know the answer. Yuki gave in and relaxed her body, and Ruka showed her a happy yet seductive smile. It was an expression that made the pit of Yuki's stomach ache again.
I’m the one who can't wait.
Yuki pulled Ruka's lips towards her own, urging her on.