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What am I even doing here? This isn't what I wanted, it wasn't supposed to turn out like this. It's all my fault... What should I do?
“Hey, stop it. I can tell you're thinking of a bunch of bullshit right now.” He tells me with a stern yet caring voice.
I sniffle, trying to get my words out. “I'm sorry Katsuki…I-I don't know what to do. I'm scared right now.” I admitted with much disdain. After all this time, this is the worst time to be scared, in front of him nonetheless. I wish I could hold back my feelings like I usually do. What's so different about today?
“Don't know?” He scoffs.”Isn't it obvious, or did you just suddenly turn stupid? Get up and fight, is what you should do.” He says, holding out his hand to me.
Somehow, his words made me cry even more, yet despite that, I feel like, in this moment, as long as I'm with him, I'll be ok.
I look up and grab his hand, stumbling to my feet. ”Yeah, I guess you're right.” I take a deep breath and try to calm myself. “I'm always right! NOW LET'S GO BEAT UP SOME VILLAIN SCUM.”
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There's a bit more than a year left until the UA entrance exams. I should really make a plan on how I am to go about doing this. A list always helps, let me write one and I'll go from there.
First things first, I need to somehow pass the entrance exam. But how to do that? My quirk is definitely not compatible with destroying robots or rescuing people, for that matter. Should I just knock everyone out so that no one else passes either? Maybe I could get some rescue points by saving people who passed out? But what about the recommendation applicants?
“UGHhhhh…This is so frustrating!” I exclaim
“What's wrong sweetie?”
“I don't know mom. It's just-” I pause for a second. Should I tell her? Maybe not the whole truth, but a little..
“It's just that I've changed my mind. I'm not going to apply for the med school that I had originally planned to attend.”
“Oh? But I thought you wanted to go to P.K. High since they specialise in psychology and psychiatry? Don't you want to be a pediatric psychiatrist anymore?”
What am I supposed to answer to that? ‘Well, yes, in fact, I do, Mother. But if I don't do something, a bunch of kids will end up having severe PTSD from fighting in a stupid war, only because adult heroes let them participate since they were too weak without having All Might saving them.’ No, I obviously won't say that..
“Well, of course, I do, mom. But I thought about it and I…I'm going to apply to UA High instead!” I see Mom gasp. I knew she would be shocked, but her eyes were practically popping out of her skull at this point. I've wanted to go to P.K. practically my whole life; of course, she would be shocked with no prior warning.
“Because, well.” I try to explain. “All the heroes that protect us every day work really hard defeating villains! But who made the villains turn to criminality, and who helps heroes when they feel helpless? I believe that no one’s born a villain; all children are innocent, so if I become a hero and advocate for helping villains overcome what made them become like that, then maybe kids will feel loved enough to not grow up to become villains. I have decided to become a hero and start a non-profit agency that will help villains and criminals, as well as heroes, get any kind of help they would need to return to society again!”
My mom, clearly speechless, tries to say something, but her dropped jaw prevents her from doing so.
“Mom, don't worry! I just got a new perspective on things recently. And I'm adamant about enrolling; nothing you say will change my mind; I'm as stubborn as a mule on this.” I say with a serious face.
“Okay honey, I won't stop you from doing what you believe is right. Just don't sacrifice your own happiness on account of others, okay? Do what makes you happy and fulfilled in life so that you can live without regrets. I know you will prevail and endure no matter what you choose.” She says and gives me a hug. Somehow mom always manages to lift my worries with just a simple hug. No wonder I love cuddles, it's her fault.
Yeah, ok. I shouldn't worry too much. Now back to the list. I have to enrol in UA, but what else can I do to prevent the war? Maybe I should help All Might find Midoriya earlier so that he'll master his quirk(s) earlier and won't be a complete loser in the beginning. Yeah, that's quite smart; who else should I help? Toga Himiko, Tenko Shimura, Touya Todoroki or Yuga Aoyama maybe? I'm not sure, all of them maybe? Or Stain? The doctor? Right, the doctor. If the doctor never existed, then there would be no Nomus or Nine or op shigaraki..Should I just kill the doctor? NO- okay Y/n L/n stop spiraling. You will NOT murder anybody!
Focus, this is the list so far:
1. Enroll in UA next year
-Train combat at the temple
-Study
-Work on a strategy for the practical entrance exam
-Take the exam
-Ace the exam
2. Help Izuku Midoriya receive OFA sooner
-Find All Might
-Tell him about Midoriya
-Convince him about Midoriya
3. Attempt to prevent LOV members from joining
-Try to befriend some of them…? Idk, I'll come back to this later.
4. Do something about the doctor.
5. Find a way for Aoyama not to be the traitor.
Alright. Pretty solid list. Although I'm not so sure about how to do the last two yet, well, we'll see.
I think the two most important ones right now are to train and find All Might, somehow. Well, it shouldn't be too hard. He's all over the news all the time, and I know about his other form as well.
To start, I should pass by the temple tomorrow and see if I can start training with them again. I really need to be a master combatant since I shouldn't really reveal my quirk all too much. Aoyama is just gonna tell all my secrets and weaknesses to the LOV if I can only rely on my quirk. Training and meditating with the monks is going to do me good, I think. One year until the exams. I could probably make it right?