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I'm staring at my phone for the hundredth time today, watching the comments flooding in. Each one feels like a tiny needle piercing my skin. My fingers are trembling as I scroll, the words blurring together in a sea of anger.

"Traitor."
"Separatist."
"How dare she?"

The bedroom walls are pressing in around me. I've been here since dawn, curtains drawn, lights off. Outside my door, hushed voices drift through—Jihyo, Nayeon, and Jeongyeon. They've been there for twenty minutes.

"She hasn't eaten anything since yesterday," Jihyo whispers, her voice tight with concern.

"The company is calling again," Nayeon says. "They want her to film some kind of statement."

I fling my phone onto the bed. A statement. An apology. For holding my country's flag on a variety show about foreign cultures. The memory flashes—the bright lights, the laughter, standing proudly with Sana, Momo, and Mina as we represented our homelands. It was supposed to be fun.

"This is insane," Jeongyeon hisses. Something thumps against the wall—her fist, probably. "She's sixteen, for god's sake. She didn't do anything wrong."

"Tell that to the Chinese netizens," Nayeon mutters. "Or the sponsors pulling out."

I press my palms against my eyes until stars burst behind my eyelids. My throat burns with unshed tears. The managers explained it all this morning—the political tensions, the One China policy, how my simple gesture had ignited a firestorm.

A soft knock at the door startles me.

"Tzuyu-ah," Jihyo calls gently. "Please open up. We're worried about you."

I don't move.

"We brought food," Nayeon adds. "Your favorite."

My stomach growls, betraying me. I haven't been hungry until now.

"Go away," I manage, my voice cracking. "I just need to be alone."

"You've been alone all day," Jeongyeon says, her voice closer to the door now. "That's enough alone time."

I hear them whispering again, then Jihyo's voice rises slightly.

"The managers don't understand. They didn't see her face when they told her the news."

"She looked like she'd been slapped," Nayeon agrees.

I push myself off the bed, legs unsteady, and shuffle to the door. My hand hovers over the knob. Part of me wants to stay locked away forever, but another part craves their comfort. I turn the lock with a soft click.

Three faces stare back at me, eyes wide with concern. Jihyo holds a plate of food. Nayeon clutches her phone—probably monitoring the situation online. Jeongyeon's arms are crossed, her jaw set in that way it gets when she's angry on someone else's behalf.

"I didn't mean to cause trouble," I say, the words tumbling out before I can stop them.

Jihyo shoves the plate into my hands. "Eat first, talk later."

"You aren't causing anything," Jeongyeon snaps, pushing past me into the room. She paces like a caged tiger. "This is ridiculous. All you did was hold a flag."

Nayeon follows, perching on the edge of my bed. "The company is in damage control mode. They say you'll be releasing a statement tomorrow."

"What kind of statement?" I ask, though I already know.

"An apology," Jihyo says quietly, shutting the door behind her.

The food in my hands suddenly feels heavy. I set it down untouched.

"For what? Being Taiwanese?" My voice rises despite my efforts to control it.

"For creating controversy," Nayeon clarifies, eyes fixed on her phone. "It's all about the bottom line for them."

Jeongyeon stops pacing. "This is wrong."

"It's business," Jihyo counters, though she doesn't sound convinced. "The Chinese market is huge."

"So she has to deny her identity? For business?" Jeongyeon's voice cracks with indignation.

I sink onto the floor, legs unable to hold me any longer. The reality of my situation crashes down. Sixteen years old, oceans away from home, and caught in a political crossfire I never saw coming.

"What if I refuse?" I whisper.

The silence that follows tells me everything.

Jihyo sighs, then kneels beside me on the floor. Her eyes search mine, gentle but insistent.

"Tzuyu-ah, sometimes in this industry, we need to bend a little," she says, reaching for an apple from my untouched plate. She holds it up between us. "See this apple? It's still an apple even if I call it something else."

"What are you talking about?" Jeongyeon scoffs, arms still crossed tight.

Jihyo ignores her, keeping her eyes locked with mine. "If the company asks you to say certain words, they're just words. What's in here—" she taps my chest lightly, "—that doesn't change."

I shake my head, hair falling across my face. "They want me to say I'm Chinese. I'm not."

"No, they want you to say there's only one China," Nayeon corrects, still scrolling through her phone. Her thumb stops suddenly. "Oh god, the hashtag is trending worldwide now."

Jihyo shoots her a warning glance before turning back to me. She picks up a pear now.

"Look, Taiwan is Taiwan, just like this pear is a pear," she says softly. "But sometimes, for the cameras, for the business, we need to say the pear and apple are from the same tree. You understand?"

"That's bullshit," Jeongyeon snaps, snatching the fruit from Jihyo's hand. "You can't just rename things because it's convenient!"

"It's not about renaming," Jihyo argues, voice straining to stay calm. "It's about survival. Our contracts, our dreams—"

"Her identity!" Jeongyeon throws the pear back onto the plate. It rolls off, thumping against the carpet.

I hug my knees tighter, watching the fruit settle. The symbolism isn't lost on me.

"What happens if I don't do it?" I ask again, voice steadier now.

Nayeon finally looks up from her phone. "Contracts have clauses. The company is losing millions already. Chinese streaming sites are pulling our videos."

"They're saying it's affecting the other girls too," Jihyo adds softly. "Endorsements for everyone."

The weight crushes my chest. Eight other girls. Their dreams. Their futures. All because I held a flag.

"So I have no choice," I state, not asking.

Jeongyeon kicks at the fallen pear. "There's always a choice."

"Easy for you to say," Nayeon mutters. "Your face isn't on every news site in China right now."

"Stop it," Jihyo commands, her leader voice cutting through. She turns to me, taking my hands in hers. "Tzuyu, listen. You're reading an apology. That's all. Words on a page. What you're feeling inside—" she squeezes my fingers, "—that's still yours. No one is taking that away."

I pull my hands free, standing suddenly. The room spins slightly as I walk to the window, pulling back the curtain just enough to see the street below. Fans are gathering already, some with signs, some with cameras.

"Sixteen," I whisper against the glass. "I'm sixteen years old."

"I know," Jihyo says, now standing behind me.

"I just want to sing and dance," I continue, fog forming on the window from my breath. "I don't want to be a... a political statement."

Jeongyeon joins us at the window, her reflection in the glass showing softer eyes now. "You aren't one. They're making you into one."

I turn to face them all. Nayeon has put her phone down finally, concern replacing her digital vigilance.

"If I do this," I say slowly, "I'm doing it for you all. Not for the company. Not for China. For TWICE."

Jihyo's eyes glisten. "We stand with you. Whatever you decide."

"Even if you tell them all to go to hell," Jeongyeon adds, a small smile breaking through.

Nayeon stands too now. "Though maybe don't actually say that on camera."

A laugh escapes me, surprising even myself. It's small and fragile, but it's there.

"When do they want to film this... statement?" I ask.

"Tomorrow morning," Jihyo answers. "Early."

I nod, decision crystallizing. Then suddenly, my mind races backward, tumbling through memories like falling dominoes.

"My father," I whisper, sinking back onto the bed. "He always raises the flag on holidays."

The girls exchange glances, sensing the shift in me.

I see it clearly now—our small balcony in Tainan, the flag fluttering in the morning breeze. My father standing tall, eight-year-old me watching with sleepy eyes as he carefully unfolds the red and blue fabric, handling it with reverence.

"He told me the white sun represents the twelve traditional hours," I continue, my fingers tracing invisible patterns on my bedspread. "He said it shines for all Taiwanese people."

Jeongyeon sits beside me, her weight dipping the mattress. "Your dad sounds proud of his country."

"Our country," I correct automatically. The word sticks in my throat. "What will he think when he sees me apologize? When he watches me deny everything he taught me?"

Nayeon winces. "Have you called your parents yet?"

I shake my head. "The managers said not to. They're handling it."

"Handling your parents?" Jeongyeon scoffs. "That's not right."

My stomach knots tighter. I remember my mother's face when I left home, her eyes shining with pride and worry. "We're representing Taiwan well," she'd said, straightening my collar at the airport. Not Korea. Not China. Taiwan.

"My mother saves every interview," I say, voice cracking. "She shows her friends at the salon. 'My daughter, the Taiwanese star.'"

Jihyo squeezes my shoulder. "Parents understand complicated situations."

"Do they?" I ask, looking up at her. "Or do they expect their children to stand for something?"

Nayeon paces now, her phone forgotten on the bed. "The company will coach you through every word. It'll be over in minutes."

"But online forever," I counter. My hands tremble again as I picture my father watching the video. His face falling. His proud stance wilting.

"What would your father want you to do?" Jihyo asks gently.

I close my eyes, the answer immediate and painful. "He'd tell me to be honest."

"And your mother?" Jeongyeon prompts.

A small smile tugs at my lips despite everything. "She'd tell me to be smart."

"So be smart-honest," Nayeon suggests with a shrug. "Read their script but mean your own words."

I stand abruptly, moving to my dresser. My fingers fumble with the small wooden box tucked behind my makeup. Inside rests a tiny pin—the Taiwanese flag, no bigger than my thumbnail. A gift from my father when I left.

"When I bow my head tomorrow," I say, clutching the pin, "I'm betraying this."

"You're protecting your career," Jihyo corrects firmly. "Your members. Your future."

"My father always says our flag survived because people fought for it," I continue, as if not hearing her. "Through occupation, through war. They never surrendered."

Jeongyeon runs her hand through her hair in frustration. "This isn't war, Tzuyu. It's entertainment."

"Then why does it feel like I'm surrendering?" I ask, voice barely audible.

The room falls silent. Outside, dusk paints the sky in muted purples. In Taiwan, my parents are probably waking up, checking their phones, discovering their daughter has become a political battlefield overnight.

"Call them," Jihyo suddenly says, decisive. "Before the managers can. They should hear it from you first."

Nayeon looks alarmed. "The company specifically said—"

"I don't care," Jihyo cuts her off. "Family comes before company. Always."

My heart leaps, then plummets just as quickly. "What do I tell them? That I'm about to publicly deny being Taiwanese?"

"Tell them the truth," Jeongyeon suggests, standing to face me. "That you're caught in something bigger than yourself. That you're sixteen and scared and doing what you must to survive."

"Tell them you're still their daughter," Jihyo adds softly. "Flag or no flag."

I clutch the pin tighter, its edges digging into my palm. The pain is grounding, real.

"What if they tell me not to do it?" I ask, the fear evident in my voice.

Nayeon sighs, finally relenting. "Then you'll have a much harder choice to make."

I reach for my phone, fingers hovering over my father's contact. The international code for Taiwan stares back at me—a digital reminder of the distance between us. Of the identity I'm being asked to blur.

"I need to do this alone," I say, looking up at my members.

They nod in understanding. Jihyo squeezes my arm once more before heading to the door, the others following.

"Whatever you decide," she says at the threshold, "we stand with you. Nine or none, remember?"

As the door closes behind them, I press dial, raising the phone to my ear. With each ring, my heartbeat accelerates. The pin is still clutched in my other hand, a small piece of home pressing into my skin.

"Bàba?" I say when he answers, my voice small again. Childlike. "I need to tell you something."

His sleep-heavy voice is immediately alert, concerned. "Tzuyu? What's wrong?"

The tears I've been holding back all day finally break free, streaming down my face as I struggle to find words that won't break his heart.

"I have to make a choice," I begin, "about who I am."

"What are you talking about?" my father asks, confusion clear in his voice. The connection crackles slightly, stretching across oceans between us.

I pace the small space between bed and wall, the phone pressed tight against my ear. "There's a video going around," I explain, trying to keep my voice steady. "From that variety show I was filming last week."

"The cultural one? With Sana and the others?"

"Yes," I confirm, surprised he remembers the details. "They asked us to represent our countries and I... I held up our flag."

A pause hangs between us. I hear him shift, probably sitting up in bed now.

"Our flag," he repeats slowly. "And this is causing problems?"

My free hand clenches tighter around the pin. "The Chinese fans are furious. They're calling me a separatist, saying I'm supporting Taiwanese independence."

"You were holding our national flag," he states flatly. "The flag of where you were born."

"Bàba, it's complicated," I sigh, leaning my forehead against the cool window glass. "The entertainment industry here... China is a huge market for K-pop. The company is losing sponsorships, our videos are being taken down—"

"Because my daughter identified as Taiwanese?" His voice rises now, fully awake. I hear my mother's concerned murmur in the background.

I swallow hard. "The company wants me to film an apology tomorrow. They're saying I need to state that there's only one China."

The silence that follows is deafening. I hold my breath, waiting.

"And you're calling to ask permission?" he finally asks, his tone unreadable.

"I'm calling because I'm scared," I admit, voice breaking. "I don't know what to do. If I don't apologize, it affects everyone in TWICE. Our contracts, our future. But if I do..."

"If you do, you betray yourself," he finishes for me.

I nod even though he can't see me. "And you. And Mama."

He sighs heavily, and I hear the creak of their bedroom door. He must be walking to the living room to avoid waking my mother further.

"Tzuyu," he says, his voice gentler now. "Do you remember when you were ten, and that boy at school said Taiwan wasn't a real country?"

I smile despite myself. "I pushed him into the fountain."

"And I told you?"

"That actions speak louder than words, but sometimes words are the only weapons we have," I recite from memory.

"Your situation now is... different," he continues carefully. "You're not that little girl anymore. You're living in another country, pursuing your dream."

My heart sinks. "So you're saying I should just read their script? Deny who I am?"

"I'm saying," he emphasizes, "that your mother and I sent you to Korea to dance and sing, not to become a political symbol. You're sixteen, Tzuyu. This burden shouldn't be yours."

Tears well again. "But it is mine now."

"Listen to me," he says firmly. "Words under coercion are just sounds. What matters is what you believe in your heart."

I clutch the phone tighter. "The whole world will see it, Bàba. Everyone back home."

"Let me tell you what they'll see," he counters. "They'll see a young girl caught in adult games. No one who matters will blame you."

"Will you?" I ask, the question barely audible.

"Never," he answers without hesitation. "Your mother and I are proud of you no matter what piece of cloth you hold or what words they make you say."

Relief washes through me, even as guilt lingers. "I feel like I'm letting Taiwan down."

He chuckles softly, surprising me. "Taiwan has survived much worse than a pop star's forced apology, Tzuyu. We will continue to exist regardless."

A knock sounds at my door. Probably a manager coming to prep me for tomorrow.

"I need to go," I say quickly. "They're coming."

"Tzuyu," my father says, urgency in his voice now. "Remember this: they can make you say anything, but they cannot tell you what to believe. Keep Taiwan in your heart, where no camera can see."

"I love you, Bàba," I whisper, throat tight.

"We love you more," he responds. "Be smart. Be safe. The rest is just politics."

I end the call just as the knocking grows more insistent. Quickly, I tuck the flag pin into my pillowcase, a secret piece of identity hidden away.

"Coming," I call out, wiping tears from my cheeks.

As I cross to the door, my father's words echo in my mind. They can control my words, my actions, my public image. But my heart—that remains Taiwanese. No apology can change that.

I open the door to face whatever comes next, standing a little straighter than before.

Manager Kim stands in the doorway, her usual crisp appearance slightly rumpled. Dark circles shadow her eyes as she steps into my room, a tablet clutched in one hand.

"Tzuyu-ah," she says, her voice gentler than I've ever heard it. "How are you feeling?"

I shrug, retreating to perch on the edge of my bed. "How should I be feeling?"

She winces at my tone, closing the door behind her with a soft click. "That's fair."

The room shrinks with her presence—all business despite her attempt at compassion. She glances around, noting the untouched food, my reddened eyes.

"Have you been crying?" she asks, moving closer.

"No," I lie, straightening my shoulders. "Just tired."

Manager Kim nods, not believing me but not pushing either. She taps her tablet screen, bringing it to life.

"We need to discuss tomorrow," she states, switching to professional mode. "The company has prepared a statement for you to read. Simple, straightforward."

She extends the tablet toward me. I take it reluctantly, scanning the Korean text with its Chinese translation below.

"'I have always considered myself Chinese'?" I read aloud, my voice hollow. "This first line is already a lie."

Manager Kim sighs, settling beside me on the bed. "It's diplomatic language, Tzuyu. Necessary in this situation."

"Necessary for who?" I ask, continuing to read. "'There is only one China'... 'I feel proud to be Chinese'... This isn't diplomatic. This is fiction."

She takes the tablet back, her movements precise but not unkind. "The CEO personally approved this statement. It addresses the concerns while allowing us to move forward."

"Move forward," I echo. "Like nothing happened."

"Exactly," she nods, mistaking my tone for agreement. "You'll read this statement tomorrow morning. We're filming at 7 AM, before your regular schedule. Black outfit, hair pulled back, minimal makeup."

I picture it—me, somber and penitent, reciting words that erase my identity. My father's advice rings in my ears.

"Will I be alone?" I ask.

Manager Kim shakes her head. "Just the camera crew and me. The company feels it should appear personal, sincere."

"Sincere," I repeat, the word tasting bitter.

She ignores my tone, scrolling through her tablet again. "After the filming, we'll release it immediately across all platforms. Chinese translation will be prominently featured. You'll need to stay off social media for at least a week afterward."

"And then what?" I ask. "Everything goes back to normal?"

Her eyes meet mine, a flash of genuine sympathy crossing her face. "Eventually, yes. These controversies have a lifecycle. This will pass."

I stand suddenly, needing to move. "Will it pass for me? Will I forget saying these things about myself?"

Manager Kim stands too, her posture stiffening. "Tzuyu, I understand this is difficult, but you need to see the bigger picture."

"The bigger picture," I repeat. "TWICE's contracts. The company's profits."

"Your career," she corrects sharply. "Your members' careers. Everything you've all worked for."

Her words land like stones. She's right, and I hate that she's right.

"The statement," I say, gesturing to the tablet. "Can I make any changes?"

She hesitates, thumb hovering over the screen. "What kind of changes?"

"Small ones," I suggest, trying to sound reasonable. "Maybe not saying I've 'always considered myself Chinese'? Since that's simply not true?"

Manager Kim purses her lips. "The wording was specifically chosen to appease the Chinese audience."

"I understand that," I persist. "But maybe something like 'I respect the one China policy' instead? Still political, still apologetic, just not... a complete lie about who I am."

She studies me, calculation visible in her eyes. "I can ask. But don't get your hopes up."

Relief washes through me at this small concession. "Thank you."

"Don't thank me yet," she warns, tucking the tablet under her arm. "And Tzuyu? The company knows you called your parents."

My breath catches. "How?"

"It doesn't matter how," she replies, her voice hardening slightly. "What matters is that you were instructed not to involve family until after the statement was released."

I lift my chin, a flash of defiance warming my chest. "They deserved to hear it from me."

Manager Kim watches me for a long moment, then her expression softens unexpectedly. "Yes, they did. But next time, follow instructions. This situation is precarious enough."

She moves toward the door, then pauses with her hand on the knob. "7 AM, Tzuyu. Wear the black sweater, the one with the high neck. And get some sleep. You need to look contrite, not exhausted."

As the door closes behind her, I sink back onto my bed, the weight of tomorrow pressing down. Contrite. Apologetic. For being who I am.

My hand slips beneath my pillowcase, fingers finding the small flag pin hidden there. I grip it tight, letting its edges remind me of what remains true, regardless of what words I'll speak tomorrow.

"Keep Taiwan in your heart," my father had said. Tomorrow, that's exactly what I'll do—even as my lips betray it.

—

I stand perfectly still as the stylist yanks my hair into a severe ponytail. The fluorescent lights are buzzing overhead, harsh against my skin. In the mirror, a stranger stares back—pale, solemn, dressed in black. I barely recognize myself.

"Five minutes," Manager Kim announces, checking her watch. She's hovering nearby, scrolling through her tablet. "Remember, slow and clear. Make sure to bow deeply."

I nod mechanically.

My fingers fidget with the edge of my sweater, the high neck suddenly feeling too tight. Under the fabric, against my skin, the tiny Taiwanese flag pin presses into my collarbone—hidden from view but present. My secret rebellion.

"How are you feeling?" Manager Kim asks, finally looking up.

"Fine," I lie, my voice barely audible.

The stylist steps back, examining her work. "Perfect. Very contrite."

I catch the woman's eye in the mirror, wondering if I detect a hint of sympathy there. She quickly looks away.

"Stand up. Let me see the full look," Manager Kim instructs.

I rise, my legs unsteady. The black outfit makes me look older, more serious—and somehow smaller.

"Good." Manager Kim nods approvingly. "Remember, you're apologizing not just for yourself, but for TWICE. For your members."

The words hit their mark. I straighten my shoulders slightly, resolve hardening.

A production assistant pokes his head through the door. "We're ready."

The walk to the filming area feels like a march to execution. Each step brings me closer to the moment I'll publicly deny myself. The pin against my skin grows heavier with each step.

The room is stark—just a camera, lights, and a plain white backdrop. No decorations, nothing to distract from my apology. The message should be clear: this is serious.

"Stand here," the cameraman directs, pointing to a mark on the floor.

I take my position, hands clasped tightly in front of me. My nails dig into my palms.

"Script?" Manager Kim asks.

I tap my temple. "Memorized."

Manager Kim raises an eyebrow, impressed despite herself. "Good girl."

The praise stings worse than criticism.

"Quiet on set," the director calls. "Rolling in three, two..."

He points silently at me. The red light on the camera blinks on.

I swallow hard. My father's words echo in my mind: *They can make you say anything, but they cannot tell you what to believe.*

I look directly into the camera lens, seeing beyond it to the millions who will watch this moment.

"Hello. I have some words I want to tell everyone."

My voice wavers slightly. I bow deeply, holding the position longer than necessary, using the moment to compose myself.

"Hello. I am Chou Tzuyu."

As I straighten, my eyes flicker briefly to Manager Kim, who nods encouragingly.

"I'm sorry. I should have stepped out earlier to apologize." My voice catches. "But because I didn't know how to face this situation, I did not dare to face anybody, hence why I am speaking out only now."

The pin against my collarbone seems to burn now. My fingers twitch, wanting to reach for it.

"There is only one China. And the PRC Association is a whole."

My eyes glisten. The cameraman zooms in slightly.

"I am proud to be Chinese no matter what."

The lie tastes like ash in my mouth. I swallow hard, fighting to maintain composure.

"As a Chinese, while participating in activities overseas, due to the negligence in my actions, I have caused hurt to the company and the feelings of the people from both sides."

A tear threatens at the corner of my eye. Manager Kim tenses visibly but doesn't stop the recording.

"For this, I am very apologetic and guilty."

My voice cracks on "guilty." I pause, drawing a shaky breath.

"I have decided to halt all current activities I have in China, and I will reflect on myself."

The words come faster now, as if I'm rushing to finish before I break completely.

"Once again, my apologies. I am sorry."

I bow again, deeper this time, using the position to hide my face as a tear finally escapes, sliding down my cheek and dropping silently to the floor.

"Cut," the director calls softly.

I remain bowed, unable to straighten, unable to face them. My shoulders begin to shake.

Manager Kim approaches rapidly. "Perfect," she whispers, placing a hand on my back. "It's done now."

I finally rise, another tear tracking down my cheek.

"Was I convincing?" I ask, my voice barely audible.

Manager Kim's expression softens momentarily. "Yes. Very."

What neither of us says is whether that's a victory or a defeat.

Manager Kim's hand remains on my back, guiding me away from the camera. I move mechanically, my body following commands while my mind drifts elsewhere.

"The company will be pleased," she says, scrolling through her phone. "I'm sending the footage now."

I nod, not trusting my voice. The tears have stopped, leaving salty tracks on my cheeks. I don't bother wiping them away.

"You did well," Manager Kim continues. "Very sincere."

*Sincere*. The word echoes hollowly. I touch my collarbone, feeling the outline of the pin beneath my sweater.

"When will it be released?" I ask.

"Within the hour. The PR team is standing by."

The production crew bustles around us, breaking down equipment, averting their eyes. Do they pity me? Or are they just relieved the uncomfortable moment has passed?

"Can I go now?" I ask.

Manager Kim checks her watch. "Practice starts at ten. You have an hour."

I turn to leave, but she catches my arm. "Tzuyu."

I pause, not looking back.

"This will blow over," she says, her voice softening. "In a few months, no one will remember."

I finally meet her eyes. "I'll remember."

She releases my arm, something like regret flickering across her face.

I walk quickly through the hallways, head down, avoiding eye contact with the staff I pass. My phone buzzes in my pocket—probably the members checking in. I ignore it.

The practice room is empty when I arrive. I flick on only half the lights, leaving the space in partial shadow. The mirrored walls reflect a diminished version of myself.

I stand in the center, staring at my reflection. Who is this girl? This quiet, apologetic, obedient girl?

My hand moves to my collarbone, feeling for the pin again. In one swift motion, I remove it from beneath my sweater. The tiny flag catches what little light there is, gleaming briefly before I close my fist around it.

"Never again," I whisper to my reflection.

The door opens behind me. Jihyo enters, followed by Nayeon and Jeongyeon. Their faces are solemn, cautious.

"We saw," Jihyo says simply.

I nod, still clutching the pin.

"You did what you had to do," Nayeon offers, approaching slowly. "No one blames you."

"I blame me," I reply, my voice steadier than I expected.

Jeongyeon crosses her arms. "It was bullshit, what they made you say."

"Jeongyeon—" Jihyo warns.

"No, she's right," I interrupt. "It was bullshit. And I said it anyway."

The three exchange glances. I've never spoken so bluntly before.

"What's that?" Jihyo asks, nodding toward my clenched fist.

I open my palm, revealing the pin. "Taiwan," I say simply.

Jeongyeon steps closer, examining it. "It's nice."

"My father gave it to me." I stare at it for a moment longer before slipping it into my pocket. "I won't be wearing it anymore."

"Tzuyu—" Nayeon starts.

"From now on," I continue, cutting her off, "I'll be careful. I'll speak less. Stand out less."

"That's not—" Jihyo begins.

"It's better this way," I insist. "For the group. For all of us."

Jeongyeon shakes her head. "You can't just disappear."

"Not disappear," I clarify. "Just... dim. Become what they want me to be. The quiet one. The pretty one who doesn't cause trouble."

The door opens again as the rest of the members file in. Their chatter dies immediately when they see us. Momo steps forward, eyes wide with concern.

"Did you...?" she asks.

I nod. "It's done."

Sana rushes forward, wrapping me in a tight hug. I stiffen, then slowly return it.

"We watched it together," she whispers. "You were so brave."

I pull away. "Not brave. Just doing what was necessary."

Mina hangs back, her eyes understanding in a way the others' aren't. As a Japanese member, perhaps she comprehends the complexity of East Asian politics better than the Korean members.

"It changes you," she says quietly. "Having to apologize for who you are."

The room falls silent. I meet her gaze and nod once.

"Yes," I agree. "It does."

Dahyun claps her hands suddenly, breaking the tension. "Well, I think we should practice extra hard today! Show everyone what TWICE is really about!"

Her forced cheerfulness hangs awkwardly in the air.

"Actually," I say, "I'd like to run through my parts alone first. If that's okay."

Jihyo studies me for a moment before nodding. "Take the time you need. We'll start group practice at ten-thirty."

The members file back out, Chaeyoung squeezing my hand as she passes. Only Jihyo remains, hovering by the door.

"Tzuyu," she says hesitantly. "Don't lose yourself in this. We need your voice too."

I manage a small smile that doesn't reach my eyes. "My voice got us into trouble."

"Your honesty got us into trouble," she corrects. "And that's not your fault."

After she leaves, I turn back to the mirror. I straighten my posture, smooth my expression, and practice my camera smile—pleasant, pretty, and utterly uncontroversial.

"Chou Tzuyu," I whisper to my reflection. "The quiet one."

I bow slightly to myself, the motion reminiscent of my apology. But this time, it feels like I'm saying goodbye.