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LYRICS:
You only touch me when we’re fighting
You only miss me when I’m gone
I know you’ll never rest beside me
I settle for your open palm
You only touch me when I’m bleeding
The only time you get in close
I like to let your hands deceive me
Pretend I've earned what I want most
There’s something caught between us
That I’m too afraid to name
And it’s tearing me to pieces
Asking if you feel the same
I won’t beg for your attention
I’m far too proud to ask
But if you’re not gonna fuck me
Could you at least hit me back?
You treat me like a ticking time bomb
Counting backwards, start with five
You can hold to your indifference
Till you beg me to stay alive
You treat me like a perfect stranger
Someone you have never known
You can hold onto your logic
And pretend you don’t feel so alone
There’s something caught between us
That I’m too afraid to name
And it’s tearing me to pieces
Asking if you feel the same
I won’t beg for your attention
I’m far too proud to ask
But if you’re not gonna kiss me
Could you at least hit me back?
You set this in motion
When you laid your hands on me
So all that followed after
Is your responsibility
I know you’ll never say it
But I mean something to you
And you think if you ignore it
It becomes somehow untrue
But I think you’re a coward
And you still won’t look at me
But I’m a coward too
So this is all we’ll ever be
There’s something caught between us
That I’m too afraid to name
And it’s tearing me to pieces
Knowing you might feel the same
I won’t beg for your attention
I’m far too proud to ask
But if you're too scared to love me
Could you at least hit me back?