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After the revolution project Viktor had tried to impact on everybodies' life, after Jayce put the rune symbol on the Viktor's hand and hugged each other while trying to fix everything how it was before them, they managed to survive in the hextech core.
There were endless space and some hard to detect visual presences. Everything was blurry at the same time but also very clear, you could sense but feeling of touch was absent.
Sense of seeing also unreliable. It could always deceive you since there was nothing real.
Jayce was able to understand that there was a big blast which swept everything on sight, it was a very strange feeling for him.
Even though his mind was also blank, he could sense his own body which in fact was only a shadow of his proportion. There was nothing beside him except darkness.
'Where was Viktor? What happened to him?' Those were first questions he could manage to put into words, at least in his mind.
"I'm here Jayce."
Those were the words that put Jayce at ease, for now. The emotions bloomed in his heart was also made it ache. He was hearing them like for the first time, when they met. They were pure, not robotic and... genuine, heart-warming.
He quickly tried to look where was the words coming from, though Jayce did not hear them. It was only because it was a reflex.
"I'm here, I can sense your words Viktor but... Where are you?" Jayce thought thinking would be enough, it really did. It made Jayce happy, atleast they could talk like they used to, no other weird devices.
"You probably can't see me now. Our bodies' fell apart. I don't know how we are able to talk. Yet, it's a good thing for now."
"Doesn't mean that we are not dead?"
"It does, but our physical bodies' are no longer. It's very familiar."
Your lovely body... Thin and white. It's a shame to lose that, but he hadn't see his real face for ages anyway...
"Okay..." Jayce tried to look or sense for something else. Still, there was just emptiness.
"How do we get out of here?" Jayce said, without a hope.
"I don't know Jayce."
"How you don't know? You said you are familiar with this."
A little, soft sigh came out from Viktor. "It...is not really easy to tell."
"Are we going to be like this forever?"
"I-I don't know Jayce." He strangely sluttered. His voice was clear of any hesitate yet he could always feel it. He was numb because of the hextech for a while. It happened so much time ago that Viktor forgot how he was feeling that time when talking with Jayce. He, in fact did miss this little tickle. It was this feeling that Viktor kept being with him despite every shadowing Jayce did to him when they announced hextech to public.
"At least... Everything is now... going to be okay to them."
"Yes... Everything is going to be okay for them."
Jayce and Viktor decided in silent to do nothing for literal minutes. Meanwhile their consciousness was coming to their sense again.
It was Jayce again that interrupted the silence. "Then what? What is it from now on?"
"I don't know Jayce..." Viktor repeated himself. "What do you think we should do?"
"..."
"I wish to see your face now."
"Did you miss me...?"
Jayce's sense got blurred. If he could, he would have short breath and a heavy heart ache.
"I did.... I do. Yes."
"That's a pity that we messed up."
"We did..." Jayce's feelings were so hurting him that he just wanted to hug him and shut up forever.
So also Viktor too. He regret everything.
Everything. Except him. Meeting with him was never something he would regret, he thought.
"I... I also missed you Jayce." It was so suprizing to Jayce that he literally forgot what they have been through, he literally was volunteer to forgive him despite everything, in that moment.
"Really?"
"Yeah, I suppose..." Viktor gulped. "I wish I never left you in the lab. Hextech changed every cell of mine."
"It's okay Viktor. Once I see you again... I will forgive you."
"Wh-Wha? Will you be able to forgive me? Why? I made you suffer and your people, and everybody and I destroyed everything and It was not beca-"
"Viktor... I love you. You can never make me hate you."
Viktor's breaths were short and heavy like he was sick again. Sick from destroying him, sick from destroying their relationship, sick from destroying everything that had till now, sick from HIMSELF. With every inch of himself, shadow, cell, mind piece, emptiness whatever it was, it made Viktor sick. Again.
"I- Jayce....How can you say that? I- I don't deserve something like that."
"I should have said this sooner. Maybe this would stop you."
"Jayce I... I'm sorry"
"It's the real pity that you are not here with me again. I can talk with you yet I can't touch you. It would be so much better if I could just touch your cheek, hug you, hold you with both my arms. I-I should have done that instead of begging desperatly. This would have shown how much I desperatly beg for you." Jayce was saying all of it with his whole heart, words were coming directly from his bottom of heart. Spitting everything he has pushed to shadows, scared of telling. He was also sick from hiding those truths.
"Jayce stop-"
"-And I will never stop loving you, again, despite all I still love you. I loved you from the beginning. I just decieved myself, I though it is not the answer or you don't love me. It doesn't matter if you love me."
"Jayce!" It was matter of time for Viktor to cry. Maybe if he has a existing body, he would already. Those sentences are so heavy to Viktor because he also thought about everything he said. They were the things they shared for each other yet... so hard to tell, supposing they wouldn't share the same.
"-And since everything ended and I'm telling this now, even considering we trapped in this realm of endless forever, I will never stop declaring my love for you. Until this realm make us forget what we are, I will never shut up. Don't make me. I don't want to make same mistakes. We were in our best times when we were experimenting on the hextech... Before you made yourself an experiment subject... We. WERE. BETTER....I CAN'T" Jayce's mental state couldn't do better than this for now. Without a tear, he started to cry inside.
"Jayce..." His voice also trembling with harsh emotions that he couldn't take it and hide in the deepest ocean in his heart. It was... very easy when it put into words.
"ANSWER ME VIKTOR! WE COULD HAVE OWN THE WORLD OF OURS!"
"I'm sorry...Jayce, I'm deeply sorry."
But, there was no point of screaming into emptiness. You could also imagine this in your head. The Viktor, Jayce imagined listening him would also be a part of emptiness since there is no real evident.
"Even if.. I don't believe this is real. I still forgive you."
Viktor was, meanwhile audibly crying. It was his end-of-the-world. The little hiccups and everything, it was Viktor's painful cry. The line, 'Despite everything.' was everything for him. When Jayce first hit him, first let him down, he thought nothing was ever going to be okay anymore. He thought, the Jayce who supports me no matter what is gone now, I am all alone. All I have now is hextech yet there is no point of my destination if there is no visible development in it, for us.
With those words, he regained his hope for everything, on himself, on their relationship and on his life. It was really only two words built worlds for him again.
"I-I'm Jayce..." Crying in agony while trying to talk to him. "I'm real... Thanks for everything you had done."
"I thought you give up on me..."
"Like I said Viktor, I never give up on you." Jayce was deeply hurt by those again. He never stopped following him. Even though shimmer and hextech hurting Viktor, he tried to show him better when there was no one to show him a better way, he made his way to stop him. Even though it meant killing him...
"I tried to be your lost world Viktor. I never give up on you."
"Jayce... I can't..." Viktor was drowning in emotions, too tired to talk.
In that moment. Jayce closed his eyes, by mean his sense. Somehow it was possible. He tried to reach Viktor supposing he was there, without seeing him.
Little sense in his fingerprints tickled him. It was warm.
With second blink, Viktor was inside of Jayce's arms.
"I... I will always find a way to reach to you."
Viktor was still crying, clinged to his arms. Everything was becoming a matter, visibly leaving traces of little clouds of thier shadowy siluette.
Tightly squeezing his naked arms, his tears also became real. Watering his chest while slowly going down.
Jayce hugged him tightly with everything he had. His body was back to his old self. White and thin, and human... He would never guessed how much he wanted to hug this man in this body again.
Viktor's cry didn't stop for a while, he was pouring everything into his chest also. It was a symbol for him that he was being listening, being cared of and also hugged. This affection made him cry for more for he had never got the chance to show his sincire emotions for him.
"Are...are you going to forgive me?"
"Yes... My dear Viktor. I will." He gently stroked his long, neglected hair.