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Painful...
My heart... Feels empty...
I feel lonely... even though my lover hugs me, but I can't feel the warmth from him...
The workshop that is the place where I work and experiment, is now filled with dust because I no longer touch it...
I'm afraid.. If I look outside I will see her figure running carrying a jug of liquor happily then inviting me to drink together...
The figure who once saved me when my world was destroyed...
My savior...I miss her...
My best friend...
Baiheng...
Falling into loss made me lose my mind to agree with the crazy idea of my partner and made me hear the screams of a terrifying creature that came from my best friend's corpse.
I'm stupid... What have I done?
I who could not accept death...
And now I can not let her rest in peace.
What we have created has created chaos that has been cut off *Ten sins without mercy. Even this is actually all a trick by Dan Feng to start a rebellion in the Xianzhou Alliance.
I can not say more when my own condition is not so good from my previous battle. Added to the wounds I got when fighting the Disciples of Sanctus Medicus made my wounds wider and lost a lot of blood.
My breathing is heavy, at my age which is almost at the limit of ordinary humans... Will soon die from blood loss... I will soon follow her...
I'm sorry Jing Yuan... Because you love someone who can not accompany you for hundreds of years...
Also I apologize for not having the chance to tell you...
At the age of 80, I...am pregnant with your child...
Sorry, but I will take this baby with me to the other world...
Goodbye...
When I was about to close my eyes, someone grabbed my jaw tightly until I regained consciousness and force-fed me something disgusting and nauseating. It felt disgusting, my throat burned because the wrong feeling entered my body.
I stared at his eyes in disbelief. "Dan Feng... You...force-fed me the leftover flesh of the Emanator of Abudance..." I looked in disbelief.
I wanted to scream, I wanted to curse him, I didn't care if I became a monster someday, but..
But...I don't want my child to become a monster like you did to Baiheng...
No,...stop...
Kill me...
Kill me before I become a monster...
Kill me...
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"Jingliu... Why am I not dead?" I asked desperately to the woman who had just executed me.
My voice echoed in the cold prison. The only other sound besides the conversation was the jingle of the chains that bound my hands.
"It seems that the flesh of the Emanator of Abundance makes you immortal. Isn't that good? Perfect karma for those who do taboos out of selfishness." She said pulling his sword out of my body.
I groaned in pain as the sword was forcibly pulled from my heart. "Dan Feng..... What... about that person?"
"He was also arrested considering he committed rebellion and violated almost all ten sins without mercy, the Law is no joke." Jingliu raised his sword and began to tear my body apart.
It hurts..
It hurts...
She stabbed my heart repeatedly with her sharp and cold blade...
Even so, everything will recover and only leave a scar.
But the most painful thing is when the bone perforates my stomach.
It feels sore and painful when I see the cold sword hitting my child over and over again.
I want to scream I would rather have the sword stab my eyes and heart than have to see the sword work I made stab my child.
How ironic...
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In the end, I was thrown away after being turned into flesh by Jingliu many times.
Because I am not a native of Xianzhou, they still pity me by throwing me away. I looked at my belly and touched it. My baby was still growing in my womb. I don't know how this child can still live after my body has been torn apart so many times, but what is clear is that this child has the will to live.
For me who is immortal, I hope this child can be my reason to live.
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"I want to die"
That word has been coming out of my mouth lately. My body is young again, my hair that turned back to night blue. My wrinkled skin is gone. It's like turning back time. Every time I try to destroy myself, it will recover in a while and only leave a little scar.
However...
It's not just my physical condition that makes me want to die, but also because the child I fought for for 9 months in my womb had to die at birth. It hurts. This is much more painful than when I lost Baiheng.
Moreover, I myself have to bury this child. Not anyone, but my child...
It hurts more than when Jingliu stabbed my heart with a sword.
My hands tremble as I dig a hole to make a resting place for my child. I can't bear to burn his body, so I choose to bury his body intact.
There was silence for a moment before I held my child for the last time.
Is this my karma?
I lost everything.
My partner.
My lover.
My reputation.
My death.
Now...
The universe took my child...
"... Give it back. "
"Come back... "
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"GIVE ME BACK MY LIFE!!!!!"
"GIVE ME BACK MY ONES!!!!"
"MY FRIEND, MY CHILD, MY DEATH!!!!!"
I screamed, cried, blaming the universe for everything that happened to me.
From the beginning if she didn't follow Dan Feng's advice maybe now she could die and meet her child and Baiheng.
"Vidyadhara usually has a punishment that radiates..."
"Dan Feng... I will repay this pain on your twist."
The violet eyes turned dusk to be full of revenge and anger.
I kissed my child's small forehead. I looked at her for a moment.
"Her hair is similar to him, good she didn't inherit anything from me..."
"There's nothing good about inheriting something from a criminal."
I carefully placed my child into the hole I dug. Covering her with a cloth so that the dirt wouldn't hit her face. I took off the hair ornament that I always wore then placed it on top of his child.
"It's time to let go." I used my sword to bury my child and the things related to my best friend.
It's all over.
My past self is dead.
"Wait for me there."
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Jing Yuan's POV:
Everything is over?
I've lived for hundreds years and this is the first time I've felt the pain of life.
I lost my comrades. Betrayed by my comrades.
The teacher who taught me fell into Mara-Struck.
And....
I lost the person I love...
It would be a lie to say that I don't care about everything that happens to the people around me. But I'm just a weak person who can't do anything.
It's useless to have intelligence and wisdom, if I can't act when my comrades destroy themselves.
All I do is watch the end of them all. My mind is in chaos, but why didn't I fall into Mara-Struck?
Why should I be the most useless one right now...
At this slump, the 6 Alliance Captains held a meeting to appoint a new General for the Loufu ship because the current General, Jingliu had fallen into Mara-Struck and could no longer survive. As the lieutenant and disciple of the previous General, Jing Yuan was then appointed as the General of Loufu.
Actually he was reluctant to the position, but considering the current condition of Loufu was very chaotic.If the current ship leader was not there or was led by a new person who could not be trusted, then that would be the end of the Loufu ship. Jing Yuan didn't want that to happen in his hometown.
Although he had argued with several Generals, Jing Yuan finally decided to take the position and accept as the new General of Loufu.
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"I'm tired..."
In my study I read the scroll documents I received shortly after becoming a General. By the light of an oil lantern, I read all the scroll documents that surrounded me in no small number.
The trouble that happened in Loufu when the blow was really big.
Dan Feng's betrayal caused a lot of losses to Loufu's resources. Many Cloud Knights died in the fight and the destruction of citizens' property was not allowed, then the protest was made by High Elder Vidyandhara to transfer the command from Yinyue-Jun, Dan Feng with the transmission of permission. However, for the 6 Captains, Dan Feng's actions deserved eternal torture.
The act of the ten sins without mercy was a serious offense for the people of Xianzhou. With the many violations that Dan Feng had committed, it seemed impossible to give a light punishment.
Being a leader was not easy and Jing Yuan understood it since he became a member of the Cloud Knights. He not only had to attack on the front lines, but also had to deal with internal problems that occurred within.
At times like this, the image of a woman appeared in his mind. An annoying and stubborn old woman, but somehow managed to charm him. A woman who understands him.
"Ah... If only Yingxing was still here... I want to hug her.. Be spoiled by her..."
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"Stop Jing Yuan, she's gone..."
"I should rest now." Jing Yuan tidied up the documents scattered on his desk and stood up to leave. Tired That word really fit to describe his current state.
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Was he really that exhausted that he hallucinated that there was a baby on his bed?
Jing Yuan rubbed his eyes and blinked a few times before confirming it again.
IT'S REALLY A BABY?!
What should I do? Is this a joke? Where are the parents? No, what's even stranger is how could this baby be in my room?
I was lost in my thoughts until a soft groan sounded in my ears which made me look towards the baby.
My eyes widened when I saw something familiar to my eyes.
There was no mistake, it was Yingxing's hairpin!
The thing that Yingxing cherished the most besides her weapons was this hairpin. Once, Jing Yuan almost accidentally broke this hairpin and made Yingxing very angry and their relationship almost ended.
Baiheng made a special order for the hairpin as a gift for Yingxing so it was impossible for anyone else to have it.
However, if I look more closely.. This child has the same hair as me and what makes me more surprised is his violet eyes that really resemble someone.
There's no way that my child...The only woman I've ever had sleep with is Yingxing and no one else.
No, wait...
Jing Yuan went to get a small basin of water, bandages, and a knife and then returned to the room.
Although the chances were small, there was no harm in trying.
Jing Yuan took a knife and cut his hand until it bled. He then let more blood come out and then let it fall into the water. After he felt it was enough, he took alcohol to stop the bleeding on his hand and bandaged it.
Then Jing Yuan carefully lifted the baby. "Sorry, kids."
Jing Yuan cut the baby's finger until it made she scream in pain and then did the same by putting the baby's blood into the basin. Jing Yuan immediately treated the baby's finger. But before he could do that, his eyes widened when he saw the golden light on the baby's wound and healed it.
"What happened? The wound healed? How is that possible?"
Many questions arose in his head. Who is this child really?
Doubts arose making he nervous to see the basin filled with their blood. Although not very accurate, some say that the same blood type will not clot if they meet.
If that was true then he had to accept the reality now.
The baby...
His child...
Hi Hi how is it? I tried to make the story serious, but it's hard to really express what I really want to write.
Then I'll convey some sentences that are not understood if you don't read the original game.
*Ten unforgiving sins*
These are crimes that the Xianzhou people have and have the most cruel punishments. Here is an explanation of the ten unforgiving sins of Xianzhou.
1. Sin "For the sake of immortality":
A sin that includes all acts of tampering with the genes of short-lived species to change them into long-lived species and drop them into Abomination.
2. Sin "Greed for immortality":
A sin that includes all acts of foreigners who sneak into Xianzhou to steal the secret of longevity.
3. Sin "Disturbing other people's minds":
A sin that includes all acts of controlling other people's consciousness or using special means to make other people lose their free will in order to
4. Sin "Mara's Trap":
A sin that includes all acts that cause other people to be attacked by Mara.
5. Sin "Kind-killing relatives":
A sin that includes all acts of taking the lives of others through violent means.
6. Sin of "Illegal Reconnaissance":
A sin that includes all acts of spying to steal the secrets of the Xianzhou government agency.
7. Sin of "Prison Break":
A sin that includes all acts of attempting to break into the Ten-Lords Commission prison and breaking into the Shackling Prison to free prisoners.
8. Sin of "Subversive Conspiracy":
A sin that includes all acts of inciting, setting people against each other, and destroying the various nations in Xianzhou.
9. Sin of "Inciting Recurrence":
A sin that includes all acts of war or rebellion by mobilizing military forces to attack Xianzhou.
10. Sin of "Destroying Xianzhou":
A sin that includes all acts of attempting to expose the hull of the giant ship Xianzhou to destroy it and cause it to sink.
Now guess how many offenses did Dan Feng commit?