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Seokjin didn't notice it at first.
Or maybe he did — maybe he just didn’t want to.
It was easier to blame it on the chaos, the schedules, the way life moved so fast now it barely left space to breathe. Jungkook was 25, not a kid anymore, and Seokjin told himself that meant some distance was normal. Healthy, even.
Right?
Still, it itched at him.
An invisible gap widening between them.
Subtle at first. Little things.
At rehearsal, Seokjin cracked one of his stupid old jokes — the kind Jungkook used to groan at before shoving him off balance, laughter slipping out no matter how hard he fought it.
Now Jungkook just smiled, tight and polite, and went back to tying his shoe.
At dinner, when Seokjin waved him over to sit together like they always used to, Jungkook mumbled something about needing to call his brother and disappeared outside. Seokjin sat with an untouched bowl of rice and the heavy weight of excuses filling the seat next to him.
He laughed it off. Loud. Brash. "Maknae’s too cool for me now, huh?" he joked to Hoseok, elbowing him in the ribs.
Hoseok laughed along — but too quickly, too easy — and Seokjin felt it: the way nobody quite met his eyes.
He told himself it was fine.
Jungkook was grown. He didn’t need Seokjin the way he used to, clinging to him like a lost puppy when they first debuted.
But Seokjin had raised him, dammit.
Fed him, fought for him, sat up nights soothing away homesickness and stage-fright and fear.
He should be proud that Jungkook was independent now.
That’s what he wanted.
So why did it feel like someone had reached into his chest and started pulling strings loose one by one?
---
The days blurred.
Schedules, performances, flights.
Seokjin busying himself with noise.
It was easier that way — to pretend he didn’t notice when Jungkook slipped out early after rehearsals, when he answered texts hours later if at all.
Easier to scroll through memes and film dumb videos with the others, pretend the empty spot next to him wasn’t glaring.
Taehyung noticed. Seokjin caught him glancing between them sometimes, frowning.
Namjoon noticed too, in that way he had of watching everything without saying much.
But nobody said anything.
Maybe they thought it would fix itself.
Maybe they thought it wasn’t their business.
Maybe they were right.
---
It came to a head one night, three weeks after Seokjin started keeping track without meaning to.
They were all hanging out at the dorm — rare, now, to have a night off.
Yoongi and Hoseok playing video games, Jimin and Taehyung wrestling over control of the Bluetooth speaker.
Seokjin lounged on the couch, scrolling mindlessly through his phone, waiting for Jungkook to come out of the kitchen.
He heard the fridge door slam. Footsteps.
Then Jungkook appeared, a water bottle in hand, heading straight for the hallway without a glance.
Seokjin sat up without thinking. "Hey," he called.
Jungkook paused. Glanced back, one brow lifted in silent question.
"Sit down for a minute," Seokjin said, forcing casualness into his voice. "You’re gonna pull a muscle being that antisocial."
It was supposed to be funny. Light.
Like old times.
Jungkook hesitated — and for a second, Seokjin thought he’d smile, toss back a smartass reply, come flopping onto the couch like always.
Instead, he shrugged.
Flat. Expressionless.
"I’m tired."
And he was gone, leaving Seokjin sitting there with his mouth half-open and a choked-off laugh dying in his chest.
He barely heard the others arguing over the music anymore.
Barely felt the phone slip from his hand onto the cushion beside him.
---
Later, long after the others had trickled off to bed and the dorm had fallen into thick, heavy silence, Seokjin sat alone in the dark living room.
The lamp by the window flickered — faulty bulb — but he didn’t move to fix it.
He stared at the wall, empty, heart pounding in a rhythm that felt out of sync with the quiet around him.
It wasn’t fine.
It hadn’t been for a while.
And if he didn’t do something soon — if he kept pretending it was nothing — he was going to lose Jungkook completely.
Maybe he already had.
---
Seokjin didn’t sleep that night.
He sat there long after the others' bedroom doors had clicked shut, long after the sounds of footsteps and low voices faded into silence. He watched the city lights blur and flicker outside the window. His fingers tapped restlessly against his knee, the phantom weight of unspoken words curling tighter around his throat.
By 2AM, he wasn’t thinking clearly anymore — or maybe he was thinking too clearly, a knife’s edge of clarity that told him if he didn’t confront this now, he never would.
He pushed off the couch.
Padded barefoot down the hallway, cold wood under his soles.
The dorm smelled like detergent and takeout. Familiar. Heavy.
Jungkook’s door was half-closed.
Seokjin didn’t knock.
He pushed it open to find Jungkook sitting cross-legged on his bed, hoodie pulled over his head, headphones jammed in. His laptop glowed against the darkness, throwing sharp light over his hunched shoulders.
Seokjin stood there for a second, jaw clenched, heart hammering.
He could walk away. Pretend he never came.
Instead, he rapped his knuckles against the doorframe. Sharp.
Jungkook jumped, yanking one earbud out.
"Jesus, hyung," he muttered, blinking blearily. "What the hell?"
Seokjin ignored the question. Stepped inside and shut the door behind him with a click.
"We need to talk."
The words dropped between them like a loaded gun.
Jungkook sighed, dragging a hand through his hair. "It’s fucking two in the morning."
"Yeah," Seokjin said, folding his arms across his chest. "And apparently that’s the only time you’re not busy ghosting me."
The bite in his voice surprised even himself.
Jungkook’s face hardened instantly. A door slamming shut.
"I’m not ghosting you," he said flatly.
"Really? Funny, cause it feels a lot like you’re avoiding me like the goddamn plague."
Seokjin’s voice rose, sharp around the edges. Not yelling yet — but close. Dangerous.
Jungkook scoffed, low and humorless. "Don’t make it a bigger deal than it is."
"It is a big deal!" Seokjin snapped, stepping closer. "You barely talk to me anymore unless someone’s watching. You don’t sit with me, you don’t fucking look at me half the time. What the fuck did I do, Jungkook?"
The room seemed to shrink around them.
Jungkook swung his legs off the bed, standing to face him.
"You didn’t do anything," Jungkook said tightly. "Maybe I just grew the fuck up."
The words hit Seokjin like a slap.
He reeled back a step before he could stop himself, heart thudding.
He saw it in Jungkook’s face — the flicker of guilt — but the younger man didn’t apologize.
Didn’t back down.
"Right," Seokjin said, voice scalding now. "Because growing up means acting like a cold fucking asshole to the people who gave a shit about you."
Jungkook’s jaw tightened. His hands curled into fists at his sides.
"You don't get it, hyung," he said, low. "You still treat me like I’m seventeen."
"I’m trying to look out for you—"
"I don’t fucking need you to look out for me!"
The words exploded between them, louder than either meant.
Seokjin’s heart stuttered painfully.
For a second neither of them moved, just breathing hard, staring each other down like strangers.
Jungkook’s voice dropped into something rougher.
More dangerous.
"You don't get to act like you're the fucking hero just because you babied me when I was a kid. You think I asked for that? You think I want you hovering all the time, treating me like I’m fucking helpless?"
Seokjin’s nails dug into his palms.
He forced a laugh. Bitter. Ugly.
"Right. Sorry for giving a fuck. Next time I’ll just let you crash and burn on your own, yeah?"
"Maybe you should!" Jungkook shouted, throwing his arms wide. "Maybe then you’ll get it through your thick skull that I don’t fucking need you anymore!"
The silence after that was deafening.
Seokjin felt the ground rip out from under him.
It was stupid — childish — but it still fucking hurt.
Like someone had ripped open his ribs and poured acid straight onto his heart.
He forced his voice steady. Icy.
"Got it," he said. "Loud and clear."
He turned toward the door.
But Jungkook wasn’t done.
He couldn't leave it alone.
"You know," Jungkook said, voice sharp with anger — or maybe something worse, something rawer — "You act like you raised me, but maybe you just liked having someone who fucking needed you for once."
Seokjin froze mid-step.
Slowly turned back around.
"What did you just say?" His voice was dangerously low now. A thread stretched too thin.
"You heard me," Jungkook said, reckless now, like he wanted to hurt him. Like he needed to. "You didn’t raise me, hyung. You needed me to need you. Because if I didn’t — if I fucking grew up — then what the fuck would you even be good for?"
The words sliced deeper than any shout could have.
For one splintering second, Seokjin thought he might actually throw a punch.
It rose up, raw and hot, the bone-deep betrayal.
Instead, he laughed.
Sharp. Splintered.
It didn’t sound like him at all.
"Fuck you, Jungkook."
He didn’t shout it.
He didn’t need to.
It landed heavier than anything else in the room.
And before Jungkook could say anything — before Seokjin could humiliate himself by letting everything break in front of him — he shoved the door open so hard it slammed against the wall, and disappeared down the hall.
---
The hallway stretched out in front of Seokjin like a fucking tunnel.
Every step felt heavier than the last.
He barely made it to the kitchen before his legs buckled.
Gripping the edge of the counter, knuckles white, he tried to suck in a breath that didn't rattle.
It wasn’t just anger burning under his skin — it was shame. Humiliation.
He could still hear Jungkook’s words echoing, carving themselves into his ribs like graffiti he’d never scrub off.
'What the fuck would you even be good for?'
He pressed the heels of his hands into his eyes until the pressure hurt, until he saw static bursting behind his lids.
Footsteps.
He jerked his head up, heart hammering —
But it wasn’t Jungkook. Just the fridge humming. The clock ticking like a fucking bomb.
He swallowed back the lump in his throat.
No.
Not here. Not now.
He gritted his teeth and pushed off the counter, pacing the kitchen in tight, furious circles. His mind raced, chasing the million things he could’ve said — the million things he didn’t — and hating himself for all of it.
He should have stayed calm.
He should have been bigger than this.
But god, it fucking hurt.
He yanked open a drawer, searching for anything to distract himself, but his hands were shaking too hard.
A fork clattered to the floor.
Seokjin stared at it for a second.
Then kicked it across the room with a savage, helpless grunt.
The sound it made — a small, pitiful clang against the cabinets — only made the burning behind his eyes worse.
He scrubbed his face with both hands, dragging his palms down until his skin stung.
Behind him, the floorboards creaked.
Seokjin stiffened — but he didn’t turn around.
He already knew who it was.
"Hyung," Jungkook's voice was low, uncertain. "Fuck. I didn’t mean—"
"Save it," Seokjin said hoarsely.
His throat felt raw, like he’d swallowed sandpaper.
A long pause.
Then Jungkook shifted closer, his sneakers squeaking softly against the floor. "Hyung, listen to me—"
"Go away, Jungkook," Seokjin said.
Not shouting.
Worse. Quiet. Defeated.
"I fucked up, okay? I know I did," Jungkook said, voice cracking slightly. "But you can’t just— just shut me out—"
"Why not?" Seokjin spun around finally, fists clenching at his sides. "You made it pretty fucking clear you don't need me."
"I was pissed," Jungkook snapped back, stepping into his space. "I didn’t mean half that shit."
"You sure about that?" Seokjin laughed hollowly. "Cause you said it real fucking clearly."
Jungkook looked like he wanted to argue — like he had a thousand excuses lined up, ready to go — but they both knew none of them would matter now.
The air between them felt suffocating.
Hot. Stale.
"I..." Jungkook faltered, staring at him with something close to panic in his eyes. "I just — fuck, hyung, you're the only one who ever—"
"Don't," Seokjin said sharply. "Don’t fucking do that."
"Do what?!"
"Act like you care now!" Seokjin barked. "You don’t get to rip me apart and then decide you're sorry when you see the pieces!"
Jungkook flinched like he’d been physically hit.
Seokjin’s chest heaved.
He hated the way his voice broke.
Hated how fucking small he felt.
"I trusted you," Seokjin said, quieter now. "More than anyone."
Jungkook opened his mouth.
Closed it again.
Like he didn’t even know where to start.
Good.
Because there was nothing left to say.
Seokjin turned on his heel — heart thundering painfully against his ribs — and shouldered past him, heading for the front door.
"Hyung, wait—"
But Seokjin didn’t stop.
He didn’t even fucking hesitate.
He needed air.
He needed to be anywhere that wasn’t here, with Jungkook’s guilt weighing down every breath.
His hand fumbled on the lock before wrenching the door open.
Cool night air hit him like a slap, and he staggered out into the dark without looking back.
The door slammed shut behind him with a final, brutal thud.
---
Seokjin walked without knowing where the hell he was going.
The city blurred around him — neon signs bleeding into the wet asphalt, cars hissing past, faceless crowds pressing in at every side.
He couldn’t even feel the cold anymore.
Couldn’t feel anything.
Just that tight, crushing ache in his chest, growing heavier with every step.
His phone buzzed again in his pocket — the fifteenth time.
He ignored it.
He couldn’t face Jungkook’s name lighting up the screen. Not now. Not fucking ever.
Somewhere along the way, the sidewalks emptied.
The shops closed.
The world got quieter, lonelier.
Seokjin ended up slumped against a shitty metal bench outside a convenience store, breath fogging in the air.
He dug his hands into his jacket pockets and stared blankly at the ground.
His whole body trembled — not from the cold, not really — from the sheer effort of holding himself together.
One wrong move, one wrong thought, and he knew he'd break wide open.
He bit down hard on the inside of his cheek, tasting blood.
Hold it together. Hold it together.
He squeezed his eyes shut.
Jungkook’s face burned behind his lids — furious, wild, spitting out every cruel thing Seokjin had secretly always feared about himself.
'What the fuck would you even be good for?'
He didn’t even know if Jungkook meant it.
Didn’t matter.
The words were out there now, lodged in him like splinters he’d never dig out.
A shudder ripped through him.
He hunched lower, folding in on himself like a crumpled piece of paper.
God, he was so fucking tired.
Tired of being the one who kept it together.
Tired of smiling when he wanted to scream.
Tired of giving everything he had and still never being enough.
The first sob hit him without warning — sharp, violent, ripped straight from his chest.
He clapped a hand over his mouth like he could shove it back in, but it was too late.
The dam broke.
Silent, gut-wrenching sobs wracked his body.
He curled over his knees, gasping for breath, tears hot against his frozen skin.
No one looked twice at him.
Another broken man on the side of the road.
Another drunk, another loser.
Seokjin almost laughed — a hoarse, bitter sound swallowed up by the night.
How fucking fitting.
He stayed like that for who knows how long — just shaking, choking on all the shit he'd never let himself feel.
When the worst of it finally passed, he sat back, scrubbing his face roughly with the sleeves of his jacket.
His hands came away wet and filthy.
He didn’t even care.
A gust of wind stirred trash at his feet.
Something inside him felt hollowed out — scraped clean.
He fumbled for his phone with numb fingers.
Unlocked it.
Thirty missed calls.
Twelve texts.
All from Jungkook.
Seokjin stared at the screen until the names and numbers blurred.
He should go home.
Should block Jungkook's number.
Should pretend tonight never fucking happened.
Instead, he clicked on the most recent message.
[JK]: hyung please just tell me ur ok
[JK]: im sorry im sorry im sorry
[JK]: fuck hyung please say something
Seokjin's thumb hovered over the keyboard.
He wanted to scream at him.
Wanted to tell him exactly how deep the knife had gone.
But the words wouldn't come.
He locked the screen again and stuffed the phone back into his pocket like it burned.
A shadow moved across the street.
Seokjin tensed instinctively, wiping his face quickly.
A second later, footsteps crossed toward him.
Jungkook.
Of fucking course.
He was breathing hard like he'd been running, hair a mess, face flushed and frantic.
Seokjin sat up straighter, trying to look halfway normal, trying to act like he wasn’t falling apart.
Jungkook slowed when he saw him — really saw him — and his expression crumpled.
"Hyung," he panted.
"You’re fucking killing me."
Seokjin barked a short, bitter laugh.
"Yeah, well," he said hoarsely, "you beat me to it."
Jungkook flinched like he’d been slapped.
For a long second, neither of them spoke.
Then Jungkook dropped to his knees right in front of him, not giving a shit about the filthy pavement, hands hovering like he wanted to touch but didn’t dare.
"I didn't mean it," Jungkook said, voice wrecked. "Any of it. I swear to god, hyung. I was fucking scared. I said shit to push you away 'cause I thought you—" He broke off, shaking his head violently. "Doesn’t fucking matter. I’m sorry. I'm so fucking sorry."
Seokjin watched him through burning eyes.
It would be so easy to forgive him.
To lean into the comfort, the apology.
But some things didn’t just heal because someone said sorry.
He wiped his nose roughly on his sleeve and looked away.
"You're late," Seokjin said thickly, half a joke, half a fucking plea.
Jungkook laughed — a cracked, wet sound — and sat back on his heels.
"I’ll stay all night if you want," he said.
Soft. Small. Like he didn't expect to be allowed.
Seokjin didn’t answer.
He didn’t move.
But he didn’t tell him to leave either.
And somehow, that was enough.
The two of them sat there — broken and bleeding — while the night swallowed the city whole.
---
The cold seeped into Jungkook’s bones as he stayed crouched on the dirty sidewalk, watching Seokjin wipe the last of the tears from his face with the inside of his jacket sleeve.
Neither of them spoke.
The noise of the city — cars honking, distant shouting — filled the void between them.
Jungkook shifted closer on his knees.
His jeans soaked through immediately from the wet pavement, but he didn't care.
"Hyung," he said again, softer this time.
Seokjin didn't look at him.
He stared straight ahead, jaw locked so tight the muscles jumped.
Jungkook swallowed hard.
The words he'd practiced in his head sounded stupid now, too small to fix any of this.
Still, he pushed them out.
"I'm sorry," he said.
"For real. I... I was a fucking coward. I said shit just to hurt you because I didn’t know what else to do. I felt so fucking useless—" He broke off, dragging a shaky breath.
"I didn’t mean it, hyung. Not a fucking word."
Silence.
The wind picked up, rattling the plastic sign above the convenience store.
Jungkook twisted his fingers together, nails biting into the backs of his hands.
He hated himself in this moment — hated the wreckage he’d caused, hated how small and stupid he felt kneeling in front of the one person he never wanted to hurt.
Seokjin finally moved.
He turned his head slightly, looking down at Jungkook — and the look on his face was like nothing Jungkook had ever seen.
So tired. So raw.
"You think sorry makes it better?" Seokjin rasped. His voice was wrecked, not angry — just empty.
"You think you can just say sorry and all of it... it disappears?"
Jungkook flinched.
"No," he whispered.
"I know it doesn’t."
Seokjin’s lips twisted — not quite a sneer, more like he was swallowing a thousand things he wanted to say but couldn't.
"I believed you, you know," Seokjin said. His voice cracked halfway through.
"I believed you loved me."
Jungkook felt his heart stutter.
Felt it break wide open.
"I do," he said immediately.
"I fucking do, hyung."
Seokjin barked out a broken laugh.
"Yeah? Funny way of showing it."
Jungkook squeezed his eyes shut.
God, he deserved this.
Every word. Every goddamn second of it.
Still, he had to try.
He leaned forward until he was sitting cross-legged in front of Seokjin, their knees almost touching.
He lowered his head, shame burning through him.
"I got scared," he said.
"It’s not an excuse. I just... I've never felt like this before. And you’re—you’re fucking you. You could have anyone. You could do better than—than someone who’s a fucking mess like me."
He forced himself to look up.
Seokjin’s face was crumpled — caught somewhere between rage and devastation.
"I never wanted better," Seokjin whispered.
"I just wanted you."
The words sliced Jungkook open cleanly, no resistance.
He scrambled forward on his knees, hands reaching out blindly — pausing just inches away from touching Seokjin, giving him the chance to pull away.
Seokjin didn't.
Tentatively, Jungkook set his hands on Seokjin’s knees.
He could feel the older man trembling under his palms.
"Let me fix this," Jungkook said, voice cracking.
"Please. I’ll do whatever it takes."
Seokjin stared at him, eyes wet and hollow.
"You can’t fix it," he said.
"You can’t just glue me back together like nothing happened."
Jungkook tightened his grip, desperate.
"Then let me stay," he begged.
"Let me sit with you while you break. I’ll stay until you don’t hate me anymore."
Seokjin closed his eyes, a tear slipping down his cheek.
"I could never hate you," he whispered.
Jungkook pressed his forehead against Seokjin’s knees, squeezing his eyes shut so hard it hurt.
Tears slid hot and fast down his face.
"I'm so sorry," he choked out again.
"I didn’t know how to love you right. But I’ll fucking learn. I swear, hyung, I’ll learn."
For a long, aching minute, Seokjin didn’t move.
Didn’t speak.
Then, slowly, painfully, he lifted a shaking hand and threaded it through Jungkook’s hair.
Not pulling away.
Not forgiving yet.
But staying.
And that — for now — was enough.
---
The hours after the conversation on the sidewalk felt like a blur, a long stretch of time that Jungkook couldn't quite grasp.
Seokjin had agreed — quietly, shakily — to come back to the dorm with him, but it was clear the older man wasn’t fine.
Not by a long shot.
And Jungkook couldn’t pretend to be fine either.
He felt like he was walking on eggshells, every word heavy, every movement calculated to avoid making the situation worse.
Seokjin had insisted on going to his room alone when they finally got back, muttering something about needing space, needing to be alone for a little while.
Jungkook didn't argue. He didn't think he had a leg to stand on, not after everything.
It was nearing dawn when Jungkook found himself back in the hallway, staring at Seokjin's door.
The sound of muffled voices from behind it made him hesitate. Jungkook knew Seokjin was probably just going through his phone, or maybe he had the TV on — pretending, distracting himself from the mess they'd just created.
But something gnawed at Jungkook’s gut.
Something told him that Seokjin was still unraveling, still in pieces.
Jungkook didn't knock.
He just opened the door.
Inside, Seokjin was sitting on the edge of the bed, his back stiff, his shoulders hunched forward.
His face was turned toward the small window, his profile lit up by the dim light coming from the hallway, but there was no smile there. No comfort. No warmth. Just silence.
Jungkook’s stomach twisted.
"Hyung?"
His voice was barely a whisper.
Seokjin didn’t turn around.
"I’m fine," Seokjin muttered, his tone clipped, rehearsed. He didn’t sound convincing, not even to himself. But it didn’t matter. He wasn’t ready to face Jungkook, not like this.
Jungkook stepped inside the room anyway, the door clicking softly behind him. He wanted to respect Seokjin’s space, but the distance between them felt like it was stretching farther and farther the longer they stayed apart.
"Stop," Jungkook said, voice stronger this time, more insistent.
"Stop pretending."
Seokjin’s lips pressed together tightly. He was looking out the window, refusing to face Jungkook. "I’m not pretending."
Jungkook’s jaw clenched, then relaxed, taking a slow, measured breath. He walked over to the bed, sitting beside Seokjin but not too close — just close enough to show he wasn’t backing away.
“Then what are you doing?” Jungkook asked, his words coming out a little too sharp. He didn’t mean for them to sting, but they did. "You’re lying to yourself. You’re not okay, hyung. And I’m fucking scared I’m losing you."
Seokjin’s shoulders tightened again, his fists curling into the bedspread. He bit down on whatever was coming out of his mouth, shaking his head as if trying to stop the words from spilling out.
"I’m fine," Seokjin said again, but this time, there was a tremor in his voice. It was weaker. "I just need some space, Jungkook. Can you give me that? Please."
Jungkook’s eyes softened, but his heart was pounding. This was different. This wasn’t anger or frustration anymore.
This was something worse.
"I’m not going anywhere," Jungkook said softly. His fingers twitched at his sides, wanting to reach out, wanting to pull Seokjin into him, but he knew better than to push right now. "But you’re not fine. You’re hurting. And I can see it."
Seokjin was silent for a moment, then finally turned his head to look at Jungkook, his eyes hollow. But there was something raw in them, something unguarded that Seokjin clearly hadn’t wanted him to see.
"Do you want to know why I’m scared?" Seokjin asked, voice barely audible, barely a whisper. "I’m scared because I believed you. All this time, I thought we’d be okay. I thought that no matter what happened, you and me would always have each other." His voice cracked, and he immediately forced it back under control, but the damage was done.
Jungkook’s breath hitched. He couldn’t say anything. He just watched, helpless, as Seokjin let the words hang there, heavy between them.
"You know how much that scares me, Kook?" Seokjin continued, his tone bitter but raw. "To let someone in that deep, to trust someone that much, and then have it all blow up in my face? I don’t know how to fix this. I don’t even know where to start."
Jungkook wanted to apologize again, wanted to say something that would make it all better, but he couldn’t find the words. He didn’t have the answers. Not now. Maybe not ever.
“I’m sorry,” Jungkook said instead, his voice strained with the weight of everything they weren’t saying.
“I never wanted to hurt you. I never wanted to make you feel like I don’t care. But I was too fucking scared to tell you what was happening inside my head, and I lashed out because of it.”
Seokjin’s face tightened, the ghost of a smile flickering across his features for the briefest second. It wasn’t a happy smile. It was a smile of someone who had been broken and was still trying to hold on.
“You’re still scared, aren’t you?” Seokjin said, his voice thick with unspoken truths.
Jungkook nodded slowly, his throat tight.
“Yeah,” he said. “I am.”
The room went still again, quiet and fragile, like both of them were balancing on the edge of something they couldn’t undo.
Jungkook finally reached out, just barely grazing Seokjin’s arm, a soft, almost unnoticeable touch.
"I’m here," he said, his voice a little more grounded. "I’m not going anywhere, hyung. You don’t have to do this alone."
Seokjin’s eyes softened. For a second, Jungkook thought he saw a flicker of something — maybe hope, maybe relief — but it was fleeting.
It wasn’t enough yet. They weren’t there yet.
“Thank you,” Seokjin said quietly, his voice barely more than a breath. “For not giving up on me.”
Jungkook nodded, his hand still resting gently on Seokjin’s arm.
It wasn’t fixed. Not yet.
But for the first time in a while, there was a little room for something better. Something they could build.
And that — that was enough for tonight.
---
The morning after their conversation was quieter than usual. The air between Seokjin and Jungkook felt a little less heavy, but there was still an unspoken tension hanging in the room. Neither of them could fully shake off the weight of the previous night, but it was different now. There was no longer an undercurrent of anger, no sharp barbs between them. It was raw, yes, but there was also a kind of honesty that felt like a fresh start.
Jungkook didn’t know how to act. He had wanted to give Seokjin space but also desperately wanted to make sure the older man was okay. So he settled for keeping close, without suffocating, without pushing too hard. It was a delicate balance.
Seokjin, on the other hand, was doing his best to act like everything was fine. He was sitting at the small table in their dining room, sipping on coffee, his back straight, as if he were trying to hold onto some semblance of normalcy. The silence between them was comfortable, but not in the usual way.
“I’m going to make breakfast,” Jungkook said suddenly, breaking the silence with a grin. “What do you want? Something normal or something crazy?”
Seokjin looked over at him, still trying to maintain his composure, but his eyes were tired. He couldn’t hide that part of himself anymore, and Jungkook was glad for it. He was tired of pretending everything was just fine too.
“Why do you always have to be so extra?” Seokjin asked, but the slight curve of his lips betrayed the tone. He was trying to be snappy, but it wasn’t landing the way it used to.
Jungkook raised an eyebrow, a smirk spreading across his face. “What? You think I’m being dramatic? You were the one who cried last night, not me.”
Seokjin’s face flushed a little, but he quickly recovered. “Shut up, I wasn’t crying. It was—allergies, okay? Allergies. The dorm's probably full of dust. Don’t be so dramatic.”
Jungkook’s grin only widened. “Oh, right. Allergies. I get it. Just like when you spilled your drink on stage last year and blamed it on ‘stage lighting’ when we all saw you spill it on your lap, huh?”
Seokjin groaned, tossing his head back dramatically. “Why do you have to remind me of that? You’re such a brat. I had one embarrassing moment, and now it’s all you can talk about.”
Jungkook chuckled, leaning against the doorframe. “Maybe you should cry more often. You get way more entertaining when you’re emotional.”
Seokjin shot him a glare, but his voice was soft, playful. “You wish I’d cry more. I don’t need that kind of attention.”
“Yeah, you’re right,” Jungkook said, rolling his eyes dramatically. “You already get plenty of attention from all the fans, right? Or, you think you do, at least.”
“Oh, please,” Seokjin scoffed, his eyes twinkling with a hint of mischief. “Let’s not pretend you aren’t the one who gets the most love from the fans. You practically bathe in it.”
“Yeah, well,” Jungkook shrugged, “someone has to do it. Might as well be me.”
Seokjin chuckled softly, but the sound was brief, as if he didn’t want to let it linger too long. There was still something raw beneath the surface, but it wasn’t the same weight it had been last night. It was… lighter. Different.
Jungkook could see it. He could see that Seokjin was still hurting, but he wasn’t hiding it as much. He was letting his guard down, bit by bit. And that made Jungkook feel something warm settle in his chest.
“I’m still sorry,” Jungkook said, his voice quieter now. “For last night. For everything. I didn’t mean to push you to the point where—where you couldn’t take it anymore.”
Seokjin was quiet for a long moment. He didn’t need to say anything at first. Jungkook had already said what needed to be said, but the quietness felt like it carried more meaning now. It wasn’t uncomfortable. It wasn’t awkward. It was just… understanding. A kind of acknowledgment that they both had a lot to work through.
“You don’t need to apologize,” Seokjin finally replied, his tone low. “We’re good. We’ve always been good. Even when we fight. Even when we hurt each other.”
“Yeah, but…” Jungkook hesitated, looking down. “I don’t want to hurt you anymore, hyung. I swear I didn’t mean to.”
“I know you didn’t,” Seokjin said softly, finally meeting Jungkook’s gaze. “But we’re okay now. Really.”
Jungkook smiled at that, and for a moment, it felt like they were back to their old selves again. Back to bickering, back to being together in a way that wasn’t forced, but real.
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And as they sat there, the familiar back-and-forth resumed. The banter, the sarcastic digs, the little jabs — it was all so normal. It felt like they were finally getting back to where they had always been, despite everything that had happened.
It wasn’t perfect. Nothing ever would be. But it was enough for now.
And as Jungkook served breakfast, they argued over what actually counted as “adventurous” in Seokjin’s eyes, they both knew that whatever happened next, they were going to be okay. They’d always been okay, even when things got messy.
Jungkook took one last look at Seokjin, catching him laughing at some ridiculous joke he had just made. The smile on Seokjin’s face felt like it meant more than any words could say.
Yeah, they’d be okay.