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Why do I always remember the bad parts.. The good parts always slip past my fingers, like water. No matter how many times I wish to remember the good it always fades away. But I always remember the bad times.. They stick like glue. And I can't get fucking rid of them.
Its been 5 years... So, why does it still haunt me..?
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I was sitting in empty whiteness, no.. No! Please! Anything but that, I pleaded to the white void surrounding me as I fell to my knees. Sobbing as I hugged my legs and hid my face into my knees. I started to hear whispers.
"Why did you go snooping?"
I continued to sob more as it reflected everyone's voices.. My friends.. My only reason of living.... Mocking me.
"Its your fault. None of this would have happened if it wasn't for you!"
Dream, I'm sorry... Nightmare forgive me!
"I should have killed you when I had the chance!"
Gin I didn't mean to hurt you that way!
"You were always in the way!"
No, Killer! Please don't leave me! Ill change if yall want me to!!
"Your the biggest mistake in my life, a burden!"
I'm sorry dad... I should have succeeded then... Maybe if it did, none of this would have happened!
I heard footsteps in front of me as I continued to sob.
"Ink."
I heard a familiar voice, a calming voice. I choked on another sob.
"I wish you were-"
I looked up to see, Error.. Or I thought it was, next thing I knew my father was pinning me down.
"FUCKING DEAD!"
I woke up in a cold sweat, I was crying and struggling to even out my breaths. I put a shaking hand to my mouth as I tried to attempt to quiet down, not wanting to wake up the person beside me. I let out a choked whine as I squeezed my eyes shut. Next thing I knew I felt arms around me. Causing a sheer panic I pushed the person away.
Next thing I know I felt my side of the bed dip down, now he was in front of me.
"No! I'm sorry, please!" I begged at anything as the person, fully sat up, putting his hands on my shoulders. Everything was muffled, I couldn't hear anything but a muffled voice, and I still couldn't see from the tears in my eyes.
"Ink.." I still wanted him off me... He said it just like before! Its not him!! Its not him!!
"No! No! Get off of me!" I screwed my eyes shut as I sobbed harder.
"Ink! Calm down! Its me. It was another nightmare!" I heard Error say... Then everything clicked.. All kicking and hitting... I was hurting him... The one I swore to love.. I finally opened my eyes, seeing him..
"I'm... So... Sorry..." I said in between breaths and sob as Error just shook his head and pulled me into a hug.. A big bear hug. Any tighter and I would probably pop...
I hugged back equally, the nightmares a getting more persisted ever since Killers birthday. Not anything Killer did.. But I wished I had left my phone at home that day. Or broke it. Or something.. Because the news that I had gotten was shocking... It was a notification on my phone.
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Mr. Comyet Released From Prison.
Still doing probation!
He was released for good behavior.
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I nearly dropped my phone, or threw it if it wasn't for Error, grabbing my phone from me so he could read it more better.
"Ink, are you sure you don't want to talk about anything..." Error rubbed my back soothingly as I exhaled. I nodded. I was being childish. Still letting what happened to me affect me so badly. It's been 5 years. Get. Over. It.
I sat up at the edge of the bed. Might as well be up. Since I was to scared and shaking to go back to sleep. I don't want the taunting nightmares to come back again.. Not tonight. I felt a gentle hand on my upper arm, squeezing for a few seconds before letting go.
"Not coming back to bed, again..?" Error asked saddened. I know Error was getting tired of me leaving during the night.. This is becoming an issue... Fuck.. I sighed again and looked over at the time. Seeing it was almost 3 in the morning.
"Yeah... Might make myself some tea and try and... Draw or something..." I muttered as I started to fidget with my sleeves.. And bouncing my leg slightly as I felt nervous.. I heard Error sigh and mutter an 'Alright.' before turning over and went back to sleep.
I know he's growing tired of me doing this... I just know it... I felt tears roll down my face as I sniffled, trying not to wake him up again because of my useless insecurities.. I pulled myself up, my body feeling so heavy as I made my way into the kitchen, grabbing some tea packets.
Fixing myself some tea... Maybe I should call the jail.. Make sure... I mean.. If I know for sure maybe the nightmare's will subside. Finally knowing the truth will calm me! I grabbed my phone and dialed the jail, letting it ring before hearing a males voice, his voice deep and rough like he was tired.
"Hello, County jail.. Do you need anything..?" He sounded tired to.
"Umm, Yes, I was wondering if Mr. Comyet was released from prison." I stated as he sighed heavily.
"Are you family..?" He muttered as I responded in French on accident.. Fuck.. Thank Void he knew what I meant.
"Umm, yes. He did, anything else...?" It seemed like he was tired and wanted to end the call, So, I shook my head, cussing at myself cause I was on the fucking phone. He can't see me, I'm such a dumbass...
"No, sir. All good. Good night." I said ending the call, as I put my phone down on the counter...
No... He can't be out... Not him.. Please... Why... I felt tears roll down my face.. The one person I'm terrified of was finally let out.. I know his been in jail for 5 years... But it doesn't feel that long. Before I knew what was happening I felt someone hug me from behind, making me jump.
"C'est quoi ce bordel!?" (What the fuck!?) I shouted as I realized who it was.. " Error, you almost got punched.." I whispered as he chuckled softly, I could feel his breath on my neck as he nuzzled his face into my neck.
"Your crying.." I heard Error state as I sighed deeply.. I want to tell him so badly... But I feel like I should already be over it... I was stabbed once.. That should be so bad...
"I know.. I'm sorry If I bothered-" Before I could even finish my sentence I was turned around and lifted up onto the counter. Now Error's was in front of me, and his arms on either side of me, on the counter. Like when we went ice skating...
"Stop.... Please.. I know you can't help it... But you have no reason to say sorry.." Error mumbled as I looked away, only a few seconds later to feel a hand on my check, gently making me look at him. "Look at me... If something's bothering you, you can tell me."
"I... I should be over it..." I started to cry harder as Error, let out a breath and hugged me, as I buried my face into his neck. "Its been 5 years... Why..?"
"Some people take more time than others... You lost your parents, everything fell apart in a few days..." Error whispered, rubbing my back soothingly.
"But you lost your mom..." I countered as he shook his head.
"But, shes alive." Error countered back.
"Your dad..?" I whispered as Error chuckled softly.
"His stupid ass is still alive... Somewhere..." Error barely said the last part as he nuzzled his check against mine. I blushed at the gesture.. Still after 5 years, the simplest things will still fluster each other.
"Can you please... Try and get some sleep..."
"But the nightmares..." I mumbled. I didn't want the nightmares again! Anything but those...
"I will protect you. You show any sign of a nightmare I'll wake you up or try to sooth you.." Error mumbled as I nodded gently, still hiding in his neck. Sleep sounds good.. Tea can wait...
~ Time Skip! ~
I actually slept to morning, though it was only 6 o-clock. But it was better than nothing! Dream and Nightmare were also coming over. Since they said they had news for me and wanted to talk to me about it, though they didn't seem to happy. And Dream usually brung Nightmare to meetings if there was bad news.. So, he was usually the barer of bad news and it was actually a joke among our little group.
After a while cleaned up the living room, the kitchen not having anything to do and I did NOT want to sit down.. I had to much energy and I felt like I was going to burst if I sat down at the moment. I was currently fixing the couches because the pillows didn't look right.. The colors where not in the right place and they were not in the right.
"Well... I see you cleaned the whole apartment.." Error looked around as I put the duster up.
"Yeah! Needed do something."
I heard a knock on the door, who would be here..? I looked at Error confused and went over to the door opening it, seeing Dream and Nightmare, there was also Cross. Who seemed like he was about to fall from exhaustion. Oh yeah they were coming here! I moved aside and let them in, we all sat on the couch, thought Cross leaned on the arm, quickly falling asleep. Which I didn't mind.
"So, there's some news.." Dream said as he held Cross's hand even though he was asleep.. Cross shifting a bit and holding his to. Dream turned to Nightmare and Nightmare groaned and turned to Ink.
"Gin's gone." Nightmare said bluntly as Dream winced at his bluntness, Error who was sitting next to me, sat up, resting his elbows on his knees.
"What do you mean.. Gone?" Error asked Nightmare who shrugged,
"Just, gone, like disappeared off the face of earth. No one has seen him in a long time." Dream added. No one has seen him.. Oh Gin, please be okay! I stood up and got my coat on. "Where are you going?" Dream sat up, waking Cross up on accident. Mumbling a 'sorry' and 'go back to sleep'
"To Gins." I stated as I was about to go out the door and Error caught my arm.
"We need to make a plan, not make rash choices on something we know barely anything about." Error mumbled as I thought it over.. I mean it could be a trap.. But I want to know if Gin's okay!
"Fine.." I mumbled as we sat down and Dream poke up again.
"Okay, so, seems like hell's going to open again.. Ink's dad got let out and someone we are close to just disappeared..." Nightmare looked at Dream and Dream sighed before looking at us.
"Lets go find out whats happening." Nightmare smiled.
"Like old times." Error said as Dream gave a light smile.
"Yeah lets go woop some ass again.." Cross mumbled earning a few laughs from the group.
"Yeah.. Lets do it." I agreed. That sounded like a nice idea.
We are going to find out who did this. Like we did 5 years ago! And we won't stop till me do. Not until Gin is home and safe. Not until I now hes not hurt. I looked at Dream who was messing this his long hoodie sleeves as Nightmare glared at Cross arm that was wrapped around Dreams waist. Error draped his arm over my shoulders pulling me closer. I liked that idea a lot. I didn't know how much I missed that, working together with my friends. We're going to find out what happened.
Just like old times.