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1. Playful (Teasing) kiss :
Jeonghan has been too quiet, observing Mingyu like a hawk. His boyfriend of whole 2 years is currently ignoring him and has given his full attention to the computer screen, playing that stupid game with the members, which Jeonghan doesn't have any idea about. He has called him to bed too many times so that he can cuddle this 6 feet 2 inches tall, bundle of solid warmth. All his calling has fallen on deaf ears though, a repeated series of words " five more minutes han, promise ". It's been twenty minutes and jeonghan's patience is as thin as ice so he decides, one last chance.
Well it doesn't go well, with Mingyu again saying " five more minutes han, really it's gonna end soon "
So Jeonghan finally decides bloodshed, " ohk, five minutes it is " he replies.
He makes his way towards the gaming room, watches Mingyu, focused on the game, discussing strategies with the members. He doesn't even notices Jeonghan's presence. Jeonghan smirks, It's about to get fun.
He moves behind Mingyu's chair, and wraps his hands around him, chin resting on his shoulder.
Mingyu jerks in surprise. " Shit, you scared me han !! " he says, gripping the controller tightly and his focus is again diverted to the screen. Jeonghan takes it as a challenge. He slightly tilts Mingyu's neck and starts kissing his jaw, slow deliberate kisses, that he knows won't be ignored. Mingyu trying to focus on the game shivers, asks " what are you doing " . Jeonghan looks at him, smiles and replies "nothing". And resumes his job, trailing his kisses down the neck, extremely slow, and teasing. Mingyu asks his previous question again, but Jeonghan just replies with a kiss behind his ear, the most sensitive spot he knows. Mingyu doesn't even have the time to react before Jeonghan is catching his earlobe between his lips, nipping at it.
Now this is where Mingyu finally reacts. He grabs both of Jeonghan's hands wrapped around him spins his chair, and drags his boyfriend on the lap with one hand, the controller in another. " What are you trying to do, Huh ? " he asks voice deep, and mind in a haze due to Jeonghan's kisses. Jeonghan who is surprised by the sudden change of positions, tries to relax. He doesn't reply again, instead he leans forward, and just places his lips on the latter, and then kisses him slow, teasing and painful. He moves back the moment Mingyu tries to deepen the kiss, tries to take control. Mingyu whines in frustration as he chases Jeonghan's lips. But the sly gremlin just laughs and moves even further from him." Why aren't you kissing me?? what are you trying to do here ?" He asks.
Boom, the sound echo's in his headphones. Mingyu tilts his head at the screen, the screen flashes a big bold LOST. And well Mingyu realizes what happens, because not even a second passes before there are absolutely beautiful curse words thrown at him.
" Mingyu what are you doing ??"
" YAH !! Kim Mingyu you're dead tomorrow !! Fuckk "
" Ah hyung you are really not it "
" I'm sure Yoon Jeonghan is somewhere near him "
Jeonghan laughs looking at the screen, " That's exactly what I was trying to do here "
" What ?? Why ?? " Mingyu asks confused .
Jeonghan presses closer and stares at the latter intensely before he kisses him. Deep, slow and messy. It feels like an hour before they break away breathing heavily. " because boyfriends who ignore their pretty boyfriends and their need of cuddles for a stupid game, deserve that " he says at last.
Mingyu sighs, " Ohh, but I would have eventually come to you after the game ended you know, now Seungcheol hyung is gonna skin me alive tomorrow first thing in the morning"
" That too, deserved " Jeonghan says narrowing his eyes.
" Ok fine, deserved it." Mingyu looks up at him puppy eyes full on display. " I'm sorry that I ignored you, I really didn't mean to hannie." he wraps his arms tightly around Jeonghan.
Jeonghan is a strong man in general, but who could deny those puppy eyes after all. And if the cute pet name hits a spot, it's only for him to know. " Ok, you're forgiven but your punishment is to cuddle me all night " he says getting up and smiling.
Mingyu smiles back, " like I don't do that always " he says as he gets up too. " but, I've something better than that in my mind " he leans down at Jeonghan. Before the latter could ask what, he pushes him back to the wall, kissing him senseless. And picks him up bridal style immediately after breaking the kiss. " Let me just show you " he says grinning at Jeonghan who's flushed with red cheeks, at a loss of words.
" Whatever, " Jeonghan mumbles shyly.
2. Soft, Domestic kiss/es :
It's a Sunday morning in the boohan household. The sun filters right through the bedroom window, kissing mingyu's face with the glowing sunshine. He scrunches his face, and grabs a nearby pillow to cover his face. " Jeonghan hyung, hyunggg can you please pull the curtains, I want to sleep." he shouts. Boo Seungkwan is at his boyfriend's, so Mingyu has decided to take full advantage of that and own the house.
A minute passes in the sun's suffering before Mingyu hears soft footsteps nearing the bedroom. The curtains are closed just a second later. Mingyu smiles sleepily, "thankyou hyung," he mumbles.
The bed dips at Jeonghan's weight, he presses a soft kiss on mingyu's cheek.
" what was that for ?" Mingyu asks.
"Nothing, just found you cute " Jeonghan says as his fingers start brushing through the latter's hair absentmindedly. " How long did you stay practicing last night ? " he asks later.
" Till 3 am, I was so exhausted you know." Mingyu says resting his head in jeonghan's lap and hugging him close.
" Told you not to stay that late, but you never listen." Jeonghan scolds.
" I needed to, " Mingyu simply says. Jeonghan doesn't argue this time instead he continues to comb his fingers through the latter's hair, until he falls asleep again.
This time when Mingyu wakes up he's blinded by the harsh afternoon sunlight. He squints his eyes trying to come in terms with the real world. He stretches long and loud before leaving the warm comfort of the bed. He walks through the apartment, going wherever his legs take him. And he eventually ends up going to Jeonghan, like always. He finds himself standing outside their kitchen and see's Jeonghan inside, making something. He walks in and wraps his hands around the latter from behind.
Jeonghan yelps in surprise at the sudden touch. The spoon drops from his hand and some of the pancake dough ends up on his hands. " Kim Mingyu, you idiot I got scared " he shouts elbowing him, trapped in the latter's arms.
Mingyu doesn't even budge, instead he holds him tighter, and nuzzles into his neck, " Sorry hyung " he says unapologetic " why do you smell so nice though " he mumbles in Jeonghan's neck.
Jeonghan wants to melt in Mingyu's embrace, but he also wants to have pancakes at lunch because he can't cook for god's sake so there was no breakfast, basically he's starving. So he exerts all his force to turn into Mingyu's hold to push him. " Get away I'm starving and I want to eat, so no touching, let me focus on the pancakes." He warns.
Mingyu wants to coo at how adorable his boyfriend looks, but Jeonghan would kill him if he did so. So instead he leans down and pecks his lips, once, twice, thrice . Jeonghan giggles and Mingyu continues the same, but moves to his eyes, nose, cheeks. Jeonghan now full on laughs, trying to shove Mingyu away but to no avail. He tries to hit Mingyu but the latter just holds his hands and pins them up. Jeonghan flushes but won't admit, " Kim Mingyu, enough," he scolds " I'm really starving, stop messing if you want to feed your stomach something too. "
" Ok ok fine, I'll help too " Mingyu says stepping aside. Jeonghan who just wants to eat trusts him and gets back to work immediately.
The peace lasts exactly five minutes before Mingyu proves no help and is again invading Jeonghan's space, flushed behind him, kissing his neck and blowing in his ear. He takes full advantage of Jeonghan's patience. Like accidentally smudging the pancake dough on his cheeks and then kissing them, like backhugging him so tight that he can't cut those bananas at all. Jeonghan thinks he might have to cut something else now ( author is extremely sorry for this baseless humor). He tries to be patient, Really. But then gives up as Mingyu tries to kiss him for the nth time. Turns around and kisses him full on the lips. Mingyu returns the kiss, soft, fond and sweet. He cups Jeonghan's cheeks gently tracing his thumb over them.
" Kim Mingyu, you haven't even brushed yet, I want to kill you, " Jeonghan says as soon as they break apart.
" It's all your fault though, " Mingyu shrugs pulling him closer " who told you to look this pretty, cute, and adorable. How am I supposed to stop myself ?" he whines kissing the latter again.
" Shut up" Jeonghan says pecking his lips.
" I love you like this, and just love you too," Mingyu confesses suddenly.
" Two years but you're still this sappy huh !!" Jeonghan scoffs (sweetly) trying to hide his red cheeks.
" Two years but you still get shy like the first time," Mingyu attacks.
" Whatever, " Jeonghan replies kissing him again and again. " love you too" he adds a bit later and quiet and Mingyu just laughs tightening his hold on him.
3. Vulnerable kiss :
Ringgggg....
The phone rings for the nth time. Jeonghan sits on the couch, glares down at the phone, telling it to shut up with his eyes. The ring dies down but not a second later Mingyu's name lights up on the phone again. Jeonghan sighs heavily and shuts off his phone, tosses it on the side table beside and walks off. He knows he's wrong but he has no other choice, he wants quiet, no he needs quiet. He tells himself, convinces himself.
He gets off the couch, his body feels tired. He barely gets a step away before the doorbell rings loudly. Getting him out of whatever trance he is. His brows furrow in confusion, Seungkwan was not suppose to come back home today. The doorbell rings again and Jeonghan feels irritated, just like the past whole week. He's not ready to face anyone, probably is gonna tell whoever is on the other side of the door to fuck off. But all of this dies down as soon as he opens the door. Because..
" Hyung " Mingyu says voice calm but eyes full of worry, he seems like he ran all the way here to him. And Jeonghan hates that, hates making people worry about him.
" Why are you here? " Jeonghan asks instead.
" How are you ? " Mingyu asks back, he makes his way inside despite Jeonghan trying to obstruct him.
" Mingyu, " Jeonghan says following him " Go away, I don't want to talk to anyone."
" Not even to your boyfriend ? " Mingyu asks.
Jeonghan looks at him, he seems hurt, and Jeonghan is the reason. He feels sick . " No " he says trying his best to control anything that threatens to spill out.
" I know you don't mean that " Mingyu gets up and reaches for the latter " I know something's been bothering you, everyone knows, we just want to hear you, please."
Jeonghan scoffs " so everyone else knows too ? I thought I was discreet enough, how pathetic." He says tears on the brim.
" Hyung " Mingyu calls out pulling him more closer, he holds his hand very carefully, fears if he holds too tight Jeonghan might break " you're not pathetic, how would you even be? I don't know what's bothering you but I'm sure it's just human, you're just a human hyung, you feel and you're allowed to feel anything and everything. I also, don't know what you're feeling but don't blame yourself for being a normal human, please. " He squeezes Jeonghan's hand tightly this time.
A moment passes before Jeonghan's body shakes a little, drops of fresh tears falls down his cheeks. Mingyu wastes no time in pulling Jeonghan in his arms then. Jeonghan hugs him back, his fingers gripping onto Mingyu's hoodie tightly, holding onto him like if he doesn't, he might crumble away. He cries, finally, not loudly but still it's enough to make him feel an inch better.
Mingyu holds him throughout it. Pats his head, rubs his back and caresses his cheeks. When the latter finally stops, he pulls back and looks down at the man in his arms, so soft, so fragile and so hard on himself, he hates whatever that is making him cry, he wants to fight everything that'll ever bother him.
" Don't look at me like that " Jeonghan says. " like you pity me, I hate it. " he continues, looking down.
Mingyu tilts his face back up with a finger, " I don't, I never do " He pauses for a moment, his eyes go soft before he says " I just simply love you." He dips down, catches Jeonghan's face in his hands and kisses him soft but firm. Holds him close as he tries to pour out every word, every concern and care in the kiss. And he can feel it reaching to the latter in the way he melts in his arms.
The kiss lasts a bit longer, but it seems short to both of them. They catch their breaths as they break apart. " Mingyu " Jeonghan says still holding onto him. " stay with me " he mumbles the next words.
" I'm not going anywhere, trust me " Mingyu says before kissing him again. This time the kiss is still soft but more urgent, more fast. A reassurance.
" You don't have to talk about anything you don't want to. Let's just stay together " Mingyu says breaking the kiss.
" Mmh, I'm tired cuddle me to sleep, would you please? " Jeonghan asks voice barely audible.
Mingyu carries him to their room and lays them both on the bed, hugging his angel close and Jeonghan wants nothing else than to stay there forever, in Mingyu's arms, in his safe place, always.
4. Jealous Kiss :
Jeonghan has been a charmer, always. But Mingyu is reminded of it more in situations like this, in a private party full of high end people. His eyes follow Jeonghan as he goes around from people to people, giving polite smiles and holding effortless conversations. People just tend to like him naturally. And Mingyu admires that about him. Today it feels a bit different though, Jeonghan radiates elegance in his shimmery white top that's just slightly see through and sleek black pants. Those black ysl boots with heels are a total show stopper. And makes him feel things.
While he himself doesn't look any less in his red Dior deep V-neck suit, he still can't take his eyes off Jeonghan. He hates that his boyfriend is with everyone else instead of being with him. And especially hates that he is currently laughing with someone who seemingly has a crush on him. Choi Sanghyuk a young producer and somewhat close friend of Woozi, he's been in the Seventeen dorms too many times and while the latter thinks he's being discreet about his liking for Jeonghan, Mingyu knows, he just does. Both of them unaware of Mingyu's gaze keep talking like they've known each other since forever. The producer leans close and whispers something into Jeonghan's ears and the latter instead of brushing him off, punches his shoulder and laughs with him. The same way he laughs when Mingyu tells him a stupid joke and he laughs ridiculously. The wine glass in Mingyu's hand might cry from suffocation by being held so tight.
There's a hand on his shoulder, squeezing it. He looks up as Joshua slides besides him, twirling a glass of champagne in his own hand. He takes Mingyu's wine glass from his hands and keeps it on the table. " The poor glass was praying for it's life, I had to save it." Joshua says smiling. " And stop shooting daggers at them, you look like you're about to kill someone," he continues.
Mingyu scoffs " I am, " he says.
" Jeonghan doesn't know that Sanghyuk likes him, " Joshua says looking at those two.
" You know??," Mingyu asks a bit surprised.
" Everyone knows, apart from Jeonghan, " Joshua deadpans.
Mingyu scoffs again, " of course he doesn't, when does he even know. "
" I know right, " Joshua sighs " so you're gonna do something or sit here and kill sanghyuk with your eyes the whole night."
" No I'm gonna claim my boyfriend, right now, " he says getting up.
" Ew, fine, " Joshua says leaving him alone.
Mingyu takes long impatient strides towards his boyfriend. He reaches Jeonghan and immediately wraps his arms around his waist pulling him closer. Jeonghan is surprised but relaxes seeing it's Mingyu. " Hi babe, thought I could steal you for some time. " Mingyu says kissing his temple, voice tight and tense. And fully ignoring the producer's presence.
Jeonghan is a bit flushed due to the sudden kiss, he awkwardly glances at Sanghyuk and then Mingyu, " Hi, I was actually talking to Sanghyuk. " he says confused.
" Oh, hello hyung, it's been a while, hope you're doing fine and you wouldn't mind if I steal my boyfriend right." Mingyu says too sweet. Jeonghan knows this tone, the latter uses it only when he very much dislikes the person in front which is rare, because Mingyu always see's the best of people. So Jeonghan is now utterly confused.
Jeonghan is about to protest but Mingyu just grabs his wrist and yanks him towards the hallway, after throwing a " Excuse us " to Sanghyuk.
When they're far from the crowd, Jeonghan tries to question him, " what was that Mingyu ? why would say that to him? " and many more which fall on deaf ears. Because Mingyu pulls him into the elevator, hand not leaving Jeonghan's for a second. Jeonghan stops at a point and just follows him. " why're we going to your room ? " he tries again when Mingyu drags him to his room.
Mingyu opens his hotel room dragging Jeonghan inside and slams the door shut. He pins Jeonghan to the door, hands on both sides, leaving no room for escape. Jeonghan looks at him still fucking confused and asks, " what are you doing and why do you look so pissed ? will you at least tell me ? "
Mingyu tells him, answers him with a hot passionate kiss. The kiss is purely rough, and Jeonghan gasps loudly, surprised at the intensity. Teeths clash and tounges tangle as Mingyu takes on full lead, pinning the latter's hands above his head and the other hand grips his waist tightly, pulling him closer. He slurps hungrily like a starved man, drinking him down till the end, he swallows all of Jeonghan's moans like no one else has the right to here them, only him. It feels like minutes passing before he breaks off the kiss, hands still roaming jeonghan's body. They breathe heavy trying to catch their breaths. Jeonghan looks absolutely fucked, his shirt untucked, perfectly styled hair now soft and dropping on his face and his face red with flushed cheeks, and Mingyu likes it, likes that he's the reason behind this.
" So are you ever gonna tell me the reason behind this ? " Jeonghan says still trying to even his breathe.
" Just to remind you that you're mine." Mingyu says pressing close.
" What ? why?," Jeonghan asks.
" If you'd pay attention to your boyfriend instead of laughing with some producer the whole time, you would've known." Mingyu says barely containing his frustration.
" what ? what producer ? " Jeonghan asks trying to recall anything, and then suddenly it strikes. " Sanghyuk ? you're talking about him ??" Mingyu looks away at that. " But why? wait, you're jealous of him ? But again why ? he's just a friend, and not even a close one ? " Jeonghan says grabbing Mingyu's face.
" Hyung, I didn't know someone as smart as you would be this dense, " Mingyu says eyes narrowing at the latter. " he likes you " he adds a bit later.
Jeonghan gasps, " Sanghyuk likes me? what are you even talking about, he just see's me as a friend." he protests.
" Trust me hyung, I'm your boyfriend, I know when a man looks at you like he wants you, so I can assure you he does." Mingyu says sulking.
Jeonghan is silent for a while, just processing the information thrown at him. " so he likes me ? ok and my puppy is jealous about it ? that's so cute " he teases once he realizes the later part. Mingyu gives him a warning look, hands tightening around his petite waist. " I mean I get it, he's tall and handsome and a successful producer, a bit charming too so- " Jeonghan continues voice even more teasing, a very Jeonghan move of him but Mingyu cuts him off, suddenly pulling him closer, not a inch left between them and Jeonghan struggles to stand straight due to the 3 inch boots.
" Don't tease me, I'm serious, I don't like him near you at all, and trust me if you say another word about him I'll not going to hold back. " he whispers in Jeonghan's ears before kissing down his jaw.
Jeonghan struggles as he tries to not moan loudly, " Then don't hold back show me exactly who I belong to, " he says breath shaky.
Mingyu smiles in his neck before kissing him again. Rougher, bolder and more bruising than the previous one. He taps Jeonghan's legs indicating to jump. Jeonghan does pushing his fingers in Mingyu's brown locks and Mingyu holds him, hands on his waist as he moves them to the bedroom, still kissing him hot and hungry. The whole night he shows Jeonghan exactly who he belongs to, in a way he will never be able to forget.
Update: The next morning Jeonghan wakes up with a sore lower body and complains about Mingyu being too rough with him, Mingyu simply shrugs saying " you asked for it ". They also meet Sanghyuk in the hallway and Mingyu smirks when he the latter see's Jeonghan all marked up, limping and clinging to Mingyu for his dear life.
5. A kiss in the rain :
Mingyu and Jeonghan knew sneaking out of the practice room and having a big bowl of ramen all by themselves without the members knowing wasn't right. More so telling them they were just going out for a walk. But they were hungry and tired, they needed an escape and what's a better escape then food. They're currently at a street shop and they clear the ramen bowl, without leaving any trace of soup or noodles inside. They both sigh in content as they finish the dessert too, an absolute spontaneous decision that none regret. But karma is a thing and it's gonna hit them bad, because the clear night sky half an hour ago is now full of dark black clouds and they know what lies ahead.
" I told you this was a bad idea," Mingyu says looking at the sky with a frown.
" Hah, you didn't say that when you were gobbling up the ramen or the dessert " Jeonghan scoffs.
" That's because food is my weakness, and you're too good at convincing" Mingyu says voice accusing.
" Wow so it's all my fault now ? really that's how you're going to play Kim Mingyu ?" Jeonghan stops walking and crosses his arms.
" I am not even playing, we should've just eaten somewhere near. The dorm is half an hour away and if the rain starts pouring then we are doom-" Mingyu's voice is cutt off by his phone ringing loudly.
Hoshi hyunggg, the screen reads and both of them gulp.
" Let's just book a taxi " Mingyu suggests.
" I don't have cash on me " Jeonghan says.
" And I, " Mingyu searches through his track pant's pockets " have neither, " he continues " I probably used it all in the restaurant, what's left won't take us there ughh. "
" I have a plan, " Jeonghan says seriously. Mingyu looks at him with hopeful eyes.
" Run " Jeonghan screams and dashes out. Mingyu surprised, follows him a second later.
They don't make it too far before there are big fat drops on water falling on them.
" Shit, " Mingyu says stopping in between. " What's this ??!!"
" Snow, " Jeonghan deadpans " of course it's rain you idiot !! " he continues.
" Now what ? " Mingyu asks .
" Nothing we go there and wait, " Jeonghan says pointing at the small abandoned children play area at the left corner.
They both run towards it, but Mingyu goes under a tree, and Jeonghan runs towards the swing. He sits there getting all wet in the rain. Mingyu shouts at him to get beside him but the latter just gets up and drags him in the rain too.
" Hyung, we can't get sick now !! the members will kill us " Mingyu says trying to get out of Jeonghan's grip who keeps on spinning him round.
" Kim Mingyu you're literally the last person to not enjoy this, and the members they're gonna kill us anyways, I'll handle them " Jeonghan shouts happily.
" But, but we'll get sick hyung, " Mingyu whines as Jeonghan starts dancing and making Mingyu do the same. Suddenly it thunders loudly and Jeonghan smiles more.
" It's you me and the rain Kim Mingyu, do you really care about anything else now ??!! " Jeonghan half asks, half shouts.
Mingyu stops his thoughts for a moment and just looks at Jeonghan, who's all smiley, happy, adorable and dancing all weird like his life depends on it. So he smiles and obliges, because truly when was the last time they sneaked out and ate something delicious ? the last time they actually enjoyed rain, Jeonghan enjoyed the rain and not cared about getting sick or anything else. The last time when they were just genuinely happy and enjoyed the moment. It was a golden opportunity, once in a while, so Mingyu decides to grab it. He pulls Jeonghan closer and twirls him around, dancing silly with all his energy. He smiles as he lifts the latter up in the air spinning him round.
" Mingyu, hey I'm feeling dizzy," Jeonghan shouts grinning wide as hits Mingyu's shoulder to make him stop. Like those little punches would do anything.
Mingyu stops, and slowly lets Jeonghan a little down, but not completely letting his feet touch the ground. They both stare at each other, long and hard.
" I love when you're happy " Mingyu says before softly connecting his lips to Jeonghan's. They both kiss slow, soft and deep. Like savoring each passing moment, scared that they'll miss something.
Jeonghan breaks the kiss and cups Mingyu's face , " And I also love it when you're happy, especially when you're with me. " He boops their noses together, and Mingyu doesn't waste any more time in kissing him again, this time a bit more soulful and passionate, just like their love.
" I'm always happy with you, even when I'm sad or angry or anything else a small part of me is always happy, because it's you." Jeonghan flushes hard at that, trying to hide into Mingyu's neck, still up where Mingyu holds him midair. " You're such a sap, Kim Mingyu" He says shy. " Now put me down, I'm heavy."
Mingyu puts him down " I'm your sap afterall, and hah, you're as light as feather, all these muscles are only to hold you as long as I want and how I want." he continues as he hugs the latter tightly.
Their moment is interrupted by a call.
Coups hyung, Mingyu's phone screen reads .
" We're dead meat " they both say in unison and laugh loudly at that.
" Let's go " Mingyu says pulling Jeonghan together and well,....
Mingyu trips off the fresh mud bringing Jeonghan down with him. They look at their clothes and themselves covered in mud and Jeonghan is about to go " KIM MINGYU !!!" before Mingyu kisses him and his scolding. They laugh again whole heartedly as they break off. "Ahh Kim Mingyu I hate you," Jeonghan whines looking at all the sticky mud on his already wet clothes.
" You don't," Mingyu simply smiles.
Aftermath : They get scolded by everyone as soon as they enter the studio, drenched from head to toe. And Jeonghan starts sneezing not long after, he just blames it on his poor immune system. The next day Jeonghan lies on the bed, a cold inside him and a warm Mingyu taking his care besides him. Mingyu gives him the ' I told you ' look but he regrets none, he knows Mingyu doesn't too.
6. Angry kiss :
Jeonghan slams the door shut. His breath heavy as he tries to control his anger. He hates feeling this, loosing his calm and composed demeanor, absolutely. He stands there in his room, trying to cool down, trying to relax. But it's of no use.
The door slams open with the same intensity as it was closed. Mingyu doesn't wait a second before invading Jeonghan's space. With a hand he grabs both of Jeonghan's arms and locks them in place, behind his back. " stop running away from me, " He grumbles voice heavy.
"I'm not running away," Jeonghan scoffs. " I'm just trying to maintain peace, which apparently doesn't seems the case with you."
" Trying to maintain peace or just running away from problems in the name of it, " Mingyu bites back. " tell me what would be the use of such kind of peace hyung, why this act of so called maintaining peace, when all you have inside is a storm, an absolute chaos. And why do you never want to face it for god's sake, what do you get by torturing yourself like that, by suffocating yourself with all of it, we all see you suffer and want to help you, what's the big ordeal of accepting help, fuck ? " Mingyu says, voice raising a bit higher with each sentence. It's hard for Mingyu to get this hyper and Jeonghan has a mix feeling about him getting this side out of Mingyu. It being directed towards him.
Jeonghan looks at him hard and long, " You won't understand Mingyu, no one else would too. People like you who are always used to seeing the bright side of everything, wouldn't understand people like me, never. So I want you to shut the fuck up and leave me alone, " He shouts trying to get out of Mingyu's grip.
Mingyu just holds him tighter. " That's not fair you know, you can't say that when you don't even give others a chance, I'm your boyfriend and I deserve to see you, if at your best then at your worst too. But you never do that, you just push me away, like you don't care."
" Like I don't care, " Jeonghan says after a while looking down, then looks up at Mingyu with red and distant, cold eyes as he yells the next words . " it's because I care about you too much, that I don't want you to drag down with me in this rag hole, I don't want you to suffer because of me, I don't want to lock you up in my negativity, you don't deserve that !! "
Mingyu tightens his hold even more than before, their bodies pressed close, noses touching and breaths heaving. " And that's the thing, you don't get to decide or choose what I deserve, it's only me who does that Jeonghan. And I will always choose you " he says voice low and firm, and then dips down to capture Jeonghan's lips in a bruising kiss. He kisses him raw, rough and demanding. Trying to convey each and every emotion he feels right now, the anger, the frustration, the desperation to reach out and the disappointment of not being allowed to. The kiss continues for so long, with Mingyu not stopping at all, that Jeonghan has to push him away with all his strength to find his breath. He breaths heavy, body shaking with the impact of the kiss. He looks at Mingyu wearily and Mingyu can see the fight dying out of him, even if a little.
" Mingyu, I want to be alone, please. " Jeonghan says tired, but his eyes say otherwise.
" I'm not letting you run away and hurt yourself again, and if that means not to listening you, then be it. " Mingyu says capturing Jeonghan in a heated kiss again. This time making sure it's more intense then the previous one, he bites the latter's lip, holding him tight and close. Jeonghan groans, tries to fight back, but Mingyu doesn't gives him any chance to. To Jeonghan, It feels like Mingyu's enveloping him with his warmth and love in all ways, his mind, his body, everything.
This time Mingyu is the one to break off the kiss. He looses his grip on Jeonghan's arms and brings them to the front, kissing both his hands softly. He looks at him and says, " Just trust me hyung, just trust me " eyes full of honesty and determination.
Jeonghan wants to run away, but fights everything in him and hugs Mingyu instead. " yeah, " he says in his chest. And that's all Mingyu needs to hear. He hugs him back pressing a soft kiss on top of his head. " Thankyou " he says smiling.
7. A goodbye kiss :
Jeonghan is currently at the minwon dorm, he's gotten inside long back but still lingers at the doorway, eyes following Mingyu's every movement, the way he paces back and forth to the way his eyes furrow in concentration when he folds his clothes and packs them neatly. Mingyu is going to Paris, for a solo schedule tomorrow morning and it's not like Jeonghan is told on a short notice, he has known a month prior. But still there's this weird feeling in his chest.
It takes a moment for Mingyu to spot Jeonghan, he smiles at him and motions him to come inside. Jeonghan goes.
" Why were you standing there? Were you secretly staring at me ? " Mingyu asks smiling.
" You wish " Jeonghan says, tossing himself on the bed, near mingyu's bag.
" Hyung, you're ruining my luggage, I worked hard to arrange that you know." Mingyu grumbles shoving Jeonghan aside with a hand.
" What I'm not !! " Jeonghan whines, then sits upright. He picks one t-shirt from the top of the bag and unfolds it. " This one is too nice, we don't want people staring at you. " He picks another one and tosses it aside too " I need this one for myself so I'm keeping it." He pulls out the leather pants right from the bottom, " This one, how dare you ?? Are you going to seduce hot French boys over there ? "
Before he can grab something else from the bag and ruin it even more, Mingyu grabs his hands and pulls him in his lap. He understands something and wraps his arms tight around the latter. " So you're gonna miss me right ? " Mingyu asks.
" Mhmm, a little, " Jeonghan mumbles.
" Just a little ? " Mingyu asks nuzzling in his neck.
" Yeah, it's the not the first time that we'll be apart." Jeonghan says, voice still low.
" yea, but it's been a while since we've been apart you know and especially for a month." there's a pause " I'm gonna miss you...a lot." He says pressing a soft kiss to Jeonghan's cheek from behind.
There's no response at first but then Jeonghan turns in his hold, and hugs him, making himself comfortable in his boyfriend's lap. " I'm gonna miss you, a lot too. And I don't know what to do with myself. I don't even know how I'm gonna be without you, you've been around me too much ," his voice wavers a bit as he says the next " and I don't want to be a bad boyfriend but I don't want you to go. I'm sorry that I'm being clingy." He hugs Mingyu a bit tighter.
" Oh, Jeonghanie hyung, " Mingyu says pressing a kiss to his temple, tilts his face up and breaks a little when he sees the sadness written all over his face. It's rare for Jeonghan to be this open with his feelings, so Mingyu tries to be as gentle as possible. " I'm sorry that I'll be gone for a while, and I'm sorry that I cannot do anything about it. But I want you to know that I also feel the same way, and even if I'm laughing or smiling right now, I keep thinking about how I'm gonna be without you, How can I stay there without possibly seeing you every minute. And to tell you that I'd be missing you would be an understatement, but that's what I can say in words. I wish I could just pack you inside the luggage too, but I can't do that. So all I can say is please wait for me, I'll be back before you know. And you're not being clingy, even if you are it's your right to do so. Trust me I'll call and irritate you everyday. " He adds the last words grinning and pecking Jeonghan's lips.
Jeonghan finally smiles a bit, " Okay, but you don't have to call everyday though. Just don't forget about me."
Mingyu fake gasps, " Oh my god, forget ? who ? the great Yoon Jeonghan, I wouldn't dare to !! "
That earns him a soft punch on his chest. " Shut up, don't tease me, I'm trying to tell you everything that's on my mind." Jeonghan says softly.
" I see the effort, and I appreciate it very much, thanks for letting me in," Mingyu says pressing a long kiss on Jeonghan's lips.
Mingyu breaks the kiss and takes one good look at his boyfriend " you seem tired, we should go to sleep." he says.
" But I messed up your luggage, let me help you with that first, then we can sleep," Jeonghan says ready to get off the bed.
Mingyu doesn't say anything, tosses the bag away and just manhandles Jeonghan onto the bed. He lays behind him and traps him by the waist, spooning him from behind.
" Mingyu, I'm really not sleepy, plus you have to go early in the morning let me help please, " Jeonghan says trying to get out of his grip, but to no avail.
Mingyu only tightens his hold on him " No, I've already packed everything, the things you threw out were just some of the extras, rest I can do it before I leave. So you just sleep."
Jeonghan tries to protest but a firm " Yoon Jeonghan " from Mingyu shuts him up. And he gives up because Mingyu is so warm, that he just doesn't want to leave his embrace and it'll be a month until he can be in his arms again, so he wants to savor every moment right now. He pulls mingyu's hands that are wrapped around him a bit closer and sighs in content before dozing off.
...
The next morning Jeonghan wakes up due to the rustling that happens around him.
Mingyu smiles sheepishly at him, " sorry I didn't mean to wake you up, I was just tiding up since I have to leave in half and hour."
Mingyu has a quick breakfast on the dining table, where Wonwoo joins them too. Jeonghan just sits there watching Mingyu and listening to his and Wonwoo's conversations.
Mingyu's manager arrives five minutes before they have to leave. Jeonghan and Wonwoo both accompany them. None of the other members able to make it due to their individual schedules. Mingyu, Jeonghan both sit at the back, hands intertwined and Jeonghan's head resting on Mingyu's shoulder. The whole ride is calm as the sun rises outside, until all of them find something to talk about.
They get off at the airport, but away from the terminal and public eyes. Mingyu holds Jeonghan's hands tightly, " hyung, it's not going to be that long trust me, I'll be back in no time, so don't be too sad and take care of yourself and keep me updated, I'll do the same, ok ." he says.
" Yea, " Jeonghan says but it's a bit off. Mingyu doesn't questions him though, he just brings him in a hug that's very warm and long. He kisses him soft on the lips, then eyes, nose and lastly on forehead. " I love you " he says smiling.
" I love you too, " Jeonghan smiles back, trying his best.
Wonwoo and Mingyu share a long hug too. Telling each other to take care and keep the other updated like the best friends they are.
Mingyu waves off as he walks towards the car. He doesn't get too far before he hears his name being called. He turns and see's Jeonghan running towards him. He catches him in his arms immediately. Jeonghan hugs him for real this time, tight and full of emotions.
" Mingyu " Jeonghan calls him out before kissing him full on the lips, long, sweet and full of longing. Trying to get all the words in the kiss itself. When they break apart they're smiling. " Get back soon " Jeonghan says before kissing him again.
They wouldn't have stopped if Mingyu's manager hadn't interrupted, " Okay lovebirds, time to separate or else Mingyu will miss his flight."
They hug one last time before Mingyu finally leaves.
Wonwoo wraps his arm around Jeonghan's shoulder, " Don't be too sad hannie," he teases. Jeonghan only hits his shoulder lightly in response. " No but really, he hates seeing you sad, and us too. Everyone is gonna miss him, but it'll be fine, really. " Wonwoo smiles. And Jeonghan leans into him, happy to know he's not the only one.
Update : When Mingyu returns a month later, he's tackled into a big hug and is welcomed with a long kiss that makes him lose his breath. He's also threatened for non-stop cuddles for the whole next month by Jeonghan.
BONUS
The First kiss :
Mingyu was determined, today or never. He's been like this for too many months, awkward, fearful and beating around the bush. He has to do it, that's the only way. It's been six months since he realized something that tilted his world upside down, made him have sleepless nights, and only one person running constantly in his mind. He realized he likes Jeonghan...very much. To the point he can't hide it anymore or else he'll burst. He has carried this feeling for six months now, and Mingyu the ever ' always knowing what he wants and taking immediate action for it' person has been too patient for it.
Mingyu sighs as he paces back and forth in his room, body screaming to just do it. But Mingyu just isn't able to. And he has his reasons. Firstly because it's Jeonghan and lastly, also because it's Jeonghan. He's scared that he'll mess up, scared that he'll scare Jeonghan away, scared that he won't be able to convey his feelings, and scared that he's feelings won't be reciprocated, that Jeonghan wouldn't like him in that way. The roses that he picked and tied carefully by himself, lie on the table. He stares at them fists clenching and unclenching, anxiety rising.
Luckily his train of thoughts is broken as Wonwoo enters his room, " hey Mingyu, you're still here? " he asks confused.
Mingyu plops down on his bed, a frown on his face as he speaks. " Hyung I'm scared, what if he doesn't feel the same way ? what if he hates me after that ? what if I mess up and ruin our friendship in the process forever? what about our team ? I don't want to lose him..as a friend or anything else." he covers his face with his hands.
Wonwoo frowns, he isn't used to seeing Mingyu, who always wears his heart on sleeves like this, so scared and timid, afraid of his own feelings. But everyone has that one person who makes them like this, he guesses. " hey ," he say sitting down besides Mingyu. " Trust me that's not going to happen, we all know how much you two are around each other, we can tell that those feelings are mutual, you already know Jeonghan hyung isn't really good at expressing his feelings but we can see it in his actions, how he treats you, a little special, even if you guys are at each other's neck forever. And even if he wouldn't have liked you, " when mingyu's face saddens more, he quickly continues " which is not the case by the way, but he would never hurt someone, wouldn't trade the friendship for anything. Everyone knows that. And nothing will happen to the team, our bond is not that weak. So really just go for it ." Wonwoo smiles softly.
Mingyu immediately feels the words, and he wants to trust his hyung, and himself. So he smiles back and gets up. " ok then I'll only meet you when Jeonghan hyung finally agrees to be my boyfriend." he grins.
Wonwoo laughs, " Soon then, now go. "
Mingyu grabs the roses and runs, runs towards the person he would want to kinda spend forever with.
When he reaches the boohan dorm, he is out of breath. he waits for some minutes, but it feels like hours when he rings the bell finally.
Seungkwan opens the door, ready to leave. " I thought you were never going to show up, " he glares at him. " Now go he's inside, " and wait he calls out " I'm not going to come back, so enjoy. " he winks before disappearing.
Mingyu walks inside, hands clenched tightly. He hears Jeonghan who's humming in the kitchen, probably unaware of his presence yet. He hides the roses behind his back, taking a long deep breath before walking towards the kitchen. Jeonghan is currently back facing him, stirring something in the pot. He hums a soft melody as he sways a little, barely noticeable. His long hair fall on his face. He looks so pretty and calm and peaceful and Mingyu might just want to keep staring at him, forever.
Jeonghan suddenly turns and yelps as he see's Mingyu behind. " Mingyu !!?? What are you doing here ?? and where's Seungkwan, he went to take the delivery." Jeonghan says hand on his chest, spoon fallen down on the floor.
The courage that Mingyu had mustered up gets buried ten feet under the ground as soon as he makes eye contact with Jeonghan. He stands there, staring at the latter.
" Hey, hello there I asked you something, !! " Jeonghan says crossing his arms.
Mingyu opens his mouth and closes it again not being able to form any sentences. " I actua- I came beca- to tell " he fumbles his words. Jeonghan looks at him like he's grown ten heads. " Are you fine ? what's wrong with you ? Did you murder someone, don't worry I can help you in hiding the body, " he says later.
" Mingyu looks down, of course it's Yoon Jeonghan he thinks. " Hyung, I-" he tries again getting closer to the latter but stops.
Jeonghan frowns, " you're acting all weird, wait I'm gonna ask Seungkwan what's with you," Jeonghan says already on his way to the living room. But he doesn't get too far.
Mingyu catches his wrist and drags him back with one hand, trapping him against the counter and his own body. They are too close now noses inches apart, and breaths too clear. " No one can tell you that " Mingyu speaks, finally a coherent sentence.
" What?? " Jeonghan asks surprised at the sudden act.
" No one can tell you, what's with me, only I can so please listen to me carefully," Mingyu says eyes earnest. He takes a long pause and then, " I like you " boom the bomb drops.
Jeonghan stares at him with wide eyes, " whatt ? wait- what are you saying ?? Ming-" he's cut off by Mingyu pressing a finger on his lips.
" Please hyung let me just finish first, you can reject me or whatever later, I've waited too long for this so please just listen. " He sighs and continues " I like you hyung, I like you very much, and I don't know when and where this happened but it's been six months since I've realized it, since I had to face these feelings. I tried to deny it a lot of times you know, that what I feel for you is just me being a younger brother that cares for you, but trust me the things I feel when I see you are not brotherly at all, I've been making extra efforts to sit besides you during our schedules, I just want to follow you without any reasons, I hate that you fight with me all the time but I also look for ways to do that just so you could pay attention to me, I want to hold your hand, I want to sleep and wake up with you, I just want to be with you, but absolutely in more than a friend's way. I'm so screwed up you know, I've started seeing you in my dreams too," he drops his head down on Jeonghan's shoulder. " It's ridiculous that I want you all to myself, and it means only one thing hyung, " he looks up again " that I freaking like you, and I'm scared if it's even just liking at this point. " He breaths heavy, finally letting it all off his chest.
Jeonghan stares at him for a long time, Mingyu looks sideways not being able to keep up with the intensity of Jeonghan's eye's, " you can reject me now hyung." he says, voice small and sad.
" Mingyu " Jeonghan calls out, Mingyu looks at him slowly ready to be hurt, instead Jeonghan pulls him down by the collar and kisses him. Mingyu too stunned doesn't response.
Jeonghan pulls back frowning, " why aren't you kissing me,? " he asks sulking.
"Kiss ?? what ?? " Mingyu stutters.
" I like you too, you idiot !! " Jeonghan says shy after a moment.
This time Mingyu grins and waste's no time in pulling Jeonghan for a kiss. He kisses him soft and sweet, their lips trying to find a rhythm, to this new song of love. Mingyu breaks off the kiss, " I'm sorry, but can you say it again that you like me, ? It's just I can't believe it, you're not rejecting me fuck," he says happily.
Jeonghan smiles at him, " you really thought I'd reject you, when I have been liking you since a year ? "
Mingyu head snaps up at that, he tries to process what the latter just said, " what ? you liking me is already a shocker, but you've liked me since a year !?? that's too good to be true."
Jeonghan laughs, " then let me tell you it's the truth, I can even say that it might be even before, I just realized it later. "
" Then why didn't you tell me !!?? " Mingyu exclaims.
" I could ask you the same," Jeonghan says raising an eyebrow.
" Let me guess, because you were afraid of ruining our friendship, you were afraid about what'll happen to the group, you were afraid if it will work out or not, if we don't end on good terms." Mingyu says softly.
Jeonghan hums, " So guess I wasn't the only one who felt that, good to know ." A beat of silence passes before he continues " I really like you Mingyu, I never expected you returning my feelings, I was so scared of all the things you mentioned that I thought it'd be fine just loving you from far, it'd be fine if you're just besides me, if I could see you everyday only as friends. But I was wrong, I realized it each and everyday that I like you so much that being just friends would only be a torture on myself and yet I never had the courage to confess, I was also scared that you would never see me in that way and the thought hurt me a lot, even to think," a long pause " I'm sorry, but your hyung is a coward, Mingyu. I just couldn't do it, I let my fears overpower my feelings for you. " He ends, dropping his head on Mingyu's shoulder. A sigh of relief, as he lays himself bare, open to Mingyu.
Mingyu hugs him tight, " Hyung I'm just glad to know that you feel the same, I don't care about anything else, trust me. I'm sorry that you had to go through all of this alone. And no hyung, you're not a coward, never. You are the older of the team, and you care about everyone and everything. When have you even chosen yourself over the team or the members huh ?? But I want to ask you to do exactly that, to trust me and trust our team. I'll make sure nothing bad happens to any of us," He breaks the hug grabbing Jeonghan's face in his hands. " will you be my boyfriend, Jeonghan.?" He asks finally.
Jeonghan softens at that, honestly he's very scared of the aftermath, the future. But still he wants to trust Mingyu, he knows he can. He knows the man in front is one of the most genuine person, the one he likes or maybe just more than likes. So he decides to go past every fear and grab Mingyu's hand, for a very long time. And he does. " Yes, I will and will you be hyung's boyfriend too ?? "
Mingyu grins wide at him pulling him in his arms, tightly. " yes, a hundred times yes !!" he shouts.
Jeonghan smiles at Mingyu's excitement, he pulls apart just to see Mingyu's smile and mirrors it immediately. They stare at each while smiling like idiots. " I'm so so happy hyung, " Mingyu says after a moment and dips down capturing Jeonghan in a proper kiss this time. There's no firework or any dramatic music playing. It's a pure, soft tender kiss with their fluttering heartbeats which goes on long, one where each of them realizes that it is finally happening, where they both meet each other at the same level. A kiss that's worth their patience.
When they finally break off this time, they're smiling so wide their jaws hurt. " I'm seriously on cloud nine, " Mingyu says to which Jeonghan responses with a soft, " me too."
Aftermath: They both realize it very late when the burning smell makes them cough, the soup Jeonghan was preparing all burnt in the pot. They just shrug tossing the pot in the sink. The spend the whole night together, in each other's embrace, a bit awkward but they manage. It's when they're about to sleep, Jeonghan literally almost asleep that Mingyu rushes out of bed confusing the latter who lays in his arms. Mingyu comes back with a bunch of roses in his hands, they look a bit dull and destroyed. But still Mingyu offers those to Jeonghan, who's eyes are sticking due to sleep, hair in all directions as he tries to understand anything that's going on. I forgot about them completely, I handpicked them myself for you. " Jeonghan smiles at that accepting the flowers, " Thankyou, love you but come sleep now." he says pulling Mingyu down and cuddling into him. Mingyu spends the whole night awake thinking about the love you that slips off Jeonghan.