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Quarter Life crisis— or something they call like that
It is hard. Having this set goals and ideals you have for yourself when you were younger, just to realized everything has changed. The once carefully curated timeline you have for yourself just suddenly got lost into the doors of adulting.
The program you are taking, do you genuinely like it when you choose it, or you where just influenced, event forced, by your parents.
Just few months left before you graduate, and you cannot see yourself pursuing this career long term.
You once pride yourself for being made for this path, but then you slowly realized the oh so ‘dead’ goals you once had has never really died. Just hidden deep inside, because they are not welcomed by your parents.
Asian Household, of course you are deemed for greater careers- nothing Like creative and arts major. Those are just plain old hobbies, or qualities a child needs to posses, like magic tricks, just to show off to your relatives. They were never meant for a job.
There is this heavy pressure you can’t help but have. Your friends looks like they know what they are doing, or what their plans are. But you, you are just going with this flow that you kept following for 4 years. Soon it will end, and you don’t even know what is the next step and path that you are going to take, you are way too lost.
In reality you are not actually lost, you just cannot admit to yourself the real thing you want for yourself. You are just ashamed that after all those efforts of your parents to let you study in one of the leading universities, you have no plan of using that degree. You have different plan in your mind- something much humbler than what is expected of
you.
You can’t help but compare yourself to others. How they figure it out earlier. You can’t helped but ask yourself, if you have figured it out much earlier, would there be a change? Would you be able to follow your original dreams? It is not that you hate your program right now, it is just something you can never see yourself pursuing long term.