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The first thing she knows is the hum. Low and mechanical, a steady vibration that thrums through the metal floor into her spine, her ribs, her teeth. It's almost soothing—until her first shallow breath draws in an assault of sound, and her senses slam awake.
Wrenching machinery, so loud it's almost nothing. Is she...blind? No. Flashes of something break through the suffocating dark, red beams splintered against cool, dark metal. Beneath her palms, the surface is cold, slick with a fine layer of grit. The air smells stale, metallic, tinged with something old.
It's only when the box lurches violently that she even realizes she's moving in any direction at all: up. She braces against the side, knees buckling—standing? Was she standing? The thought barely forms before she's hurled sideways into the wall, collapsing in a heap.
Her mind tries to race ahead, to place herself somewhere, anywhere. But there's no catch. No place. No memory. No name.
Her mouth moves, working around a shape she can't form. No name. No name.
Panic and adrenaline took over.
She pats down her black leggings, searching for pockets, then sweeps the walls, desperate for anything to protect herself with. Hands that don't feel like hers crash into the side of a crate. She pries at the edges. Nailed shut.
Her fingers skim the rough hem of her pants—and something else. Something crumpled against her hip. Instinct snaps her hand around it: paper. Damp from sweat.
She peels it open with trembling fingers, the friction of it whispering against her skin. Ink bleeds into the darkness—she can smell it, sharp and fresh—but the stuttering flashes of light are the only reason she can read it at all, word by fractured word:
This place will lie to you.
Your body won't.
Follow what it remembers.
The words lurch through her. Not thought—sensation. A bright ringing in her ears. The hot, coppery smell of blood. Bright white. A door slamming shut, a scream cut short.
Her body recoils, curling in on itself, breath coming in sharp, ragged bursts. Panic claws up her throat—not the simple panic of being trapped, but something deeper. Older. Buried in bone. She presses her forehead to the cold metal and clenches her fists until her nails bite skin. Focus. Breathe. Survive.
And then it's done
The Box shudders, then slows to a stop. The sudden stillness roars louder than the ascent ever had. Her own breaths rasp harsh in the broken silence. But it doesn't last.
Voices. Shouting. Indistinct at first, then sharper, cutting through the static in her head.
"There's another one!"
Above, a seam cracks open.
Sunlight slams into her, raw and merciless. She flinches, throws an arm across her face and shoves the note down the waistband of her pants without thinking. Hide it. Protect it. Protect yourself.
She blinks hard against the glare, her pupils struggling to clamp down, vision swimming with overlapping silhouettes. Boys. Dozens of them. Ringing the platform in a loose, shifting wall of bodies. A stream of lazy chatter occasionally broken by outburst.
"Pull him out already!"
"What's wrong? Is he dead?"
"Shut your shank mouths!" one of the boys from the front yelled. Then, after a pause, quieter, stunned: "It's….it's a girl."
Noise cracks wide open—jeers, whistles, laughter that doesn't sound friendly. The scrape of boots scuffing dirt. A low chant starts up from somewhere in the back, only half-formed before someone hisses it down.
Hands grab her—rough, fast. She twists instinctively, but there's nowhere to go, no shadows to retreat into. The air is hotter here, sharp with the sour scent of sweat and dust. Her boots scrape against a rough platform—wood, warped and splintered beneath her—as they haul her up and out like a fish onto a riverbank. The ground under her is cracked earth and patchy grass.
The boy who spoke steps forward. Tall, broad-shouldered, skin dark and gleaming with sweat. Authority rolls off him, but even he hesitates, casting a glance to a second figure crouched nearby.
Blond hair. Lean build. A coiled readiness in his frame that doesn't match the casual slouch. His eyes—pale and quick—move over her like a scanner reading for faults. A glance passes between them. Fast. Tense. A nod, and then—
"Get up," the first boy says flatly, leveling his gaze. Around them, the heckling sharpens—low whistles, muttered slurs she can't fully catch. A rough laugh that prickles across her scalp. The mass of boys isn't organized. They're hungry for something—a weakness, a spectacle.
She sets her jaw. Moves gingerly to her feet, swaying as her boots skid against the platform. She throws her arms out for balance — a low whistle, a sharp laugh ring out in response.
"Alby," the blond mutters sideways.
It only takes a beat. "Hey!" the boy—Alby—barks out, snapping towards the surrounding crowd. They drop obediently into a grumbling murmur.
He turns back to her. "Name?" It's softer, but still a demand.
She opens her mouth. Nothing. No name. No anchor.
Alby's jaw tightens. The blond takes a half step forward.
"No name?" this one repeats, tone lighter but still too watchful. Then, dropping lower so only she can hear: "Happens to all of us. Might come back. Might not. Either way."
She shakes her head mutely. The noise of the crowd swells, muttering, shifting. She hears it in fragments: "ain't right," "broken," first girl..."
Alby jerks his chin. "Move her out."
Another glance flickers between him and the second boy—tight, uneasy. It's in that glance she finally reads it. Not part of the plan. Like something's gone off-script.
The blond boy claps his hands together, and a switch flips.
"Right, you miserable shanks! Show's over, you've all got plenty to do, here—'specially the builders, the thatch-job on the storage she looks horrific so far." A few chuckles and a shove. The pivot lands, energy dissipating from the crowd. "Get after it. Except for…."
He scans the group, right hand counting off among heads of hair.
"Ah, Finn," he called out. "You. C'mere."
From the mass, a wiry boy with a lopsided grin is shoved forward—Finn, someone mutters. He's still raw himself, the awkwardness of youth clinging to him like a second skin, but there's a flash of relief, too, bright and biting: he's not the freshest meat anymore.
"Let's get this one settled 'round homestead, yeah? I'll be—"
"No." Her own voice caught in her sandpaper throat, but her jaw was firm. Finn freezes mid-step. Then, clearer: "No."
The boy stopped, a brow inching upward expectantly. He was halfway between amused and annoyed. Finn's eyes darted between them.
"That's it?" Each word gained more teeth. "No one has told me a damn thing, like how or why I'm in here, or where here even is or what that"—she threw a backwards glance towards the box platform—"goddamn thing is, and I'm not—"
"This is the Glade," the boy stated, low and controlled. "It is day number seven hundred and seventy-two. You are the thirty-third person to come out of that box, the same way we all did, and you'll do well to follow the very few rules we have, the same way we all do."
He pressed his lips together, eyes scanning her once again as if she'll spit back another retort. The girl holds her tongue.
"It's a lot," he concedes. "It's too much, I know. But it's all you get for right now. Right now, your job is to sit." His head tips towards Finn, but not before dropping to her hands, nails pressing a red line into her palm. "And try not to pass out or punch anybody while you're at it."
He turned on his heel, throwing one hand up to rub the nape of his neck. His gait was uneven, favoring one leg over the other. She lets out a shuddering breath. Flexes her fists, unaware until now how tightly she was clenching them.
Finn edges closer, offering a small, sheepish grin.
"C'mon," Finn says, jerking his thumb. "I'll, uh, show you around."
The crowd parts just enough for her to pass, suspicion hissing off them like steam. The girl stumbles after him, boots catching in the uneven dirt, blinking against the relentless brightness.
She could feel dozens of stares burning against her back—some curious, most suspicious—as she stumbled after Finn, putting one foot in front of the other more from reflex than will. This landscape—the Glade, she corrected internally—unfolded ahead of them in uneven lines: buildings lashed together from weathered wood and scrap metal, low fences marking off patches of withered crops, clusters of boys in sun-bleached shirts moving like currents through the open space.
And beyond it all, looming like an impossible horizon, stood walls.
Massive slabs of concrete and stone that stretched up, impossibly high, cutting off the sky at sharp angles. Seamless. Ancient-looking despite their unnatural precision. Too big to be built by human hands. Too deliberate to be natural. A knot formed in her stomach at the sight of them—a sudden, inexplicable tightness that felt like more than just fear. Something about their presence made her breath catch, made her skin feel too tight.
She looked away quickly, focusing instead on the uneven path beneath her feet.
Finn didn't speak at first. He walked with a kind of gangly caution, glancing sideways at her like he wasn't sure if she might bolt or bite. The silence between them stretched out awkward and raw.
Finally, after they had left the worst of the crowd behind, he cleared his throat.
"Sometimes it's... helpful to know where you're sleeping right away," he said, voice rough-edged and quick, like he was embarrassed to be talking at all. "You know. In case you don't wanna... talk to anybody today." He glanced over toward a wooden structure where the blond boy from earlier leaned, studying what looked like papers. "I don't think I said a word for two days until Newt came and sat with me. Just... didn't know what to say, you know?"
She didn't answer. She couldn't. She was still wrestling with the way her breath kept catching in her throat, the way the earth under her felt wrong—too solid, too real—compared to the metal womb she'd woken up in.
Finn rubbed the back of his neck, a sheepish flush creeping up under the grime.
"I know I didn't," he added after a second, voice dropping lower. "I was the new one before you. S'posed to be, anyway." He kicked a rock half-heartedly down the dirt path. It skittered off into a shallow gutter where the cracked ground broke into ragged tufts of grass.
"They call us Greenies. Fresh meat." He gave her a half-grin that didn't quite reach his eyes. "'S'not a bad thing. Just... means you're new. Means you don't know yet."
Means you don't know what yet, she wanted to ask. But her mouth still felt too dry, her mind too scattered.
They reached a clearing where a rough ring of canvas tents sagged under the weight of heat and wear. The "homestead," Finn had called it—though the word felt generous. It was more of a makeshift corral, a place to tuck away the newest bodies until they learned the rhythms of this strange place.
A patch of sun-bleached tarps and crooked poles made up the sleeping area. Cots lined the inside edges haphazardly, some stacked with threadbare blankets, others abandoned to the dust.
Finn gestured vaguely. "Pick any cot that's open. They don't really care long as you stay outta the big dorms till you're assigned."
The girl hovered at the edge, squinting at the spread of structures. Her body itched to keep moving, to scan the perimeter again, but she forced herself still.
"Place looks better at night," Finn said after a moment, as if sensing her hesitation. "Lights strung up. Kinda almost feels... not awful."
Something in her chest tightened at that—lights. Not for survival. For comfort. For beauty, even. The unexpected humanity of it caught her off guard.
He shoved his hands deep into his pockets, rocked back on his heels. He wasn't making her promises. Just small, awkward offerings. The best he could give.
"You hungry?" he asked, shifting his weight. She shook her head. The thought of eating twisted her stomach.
Finn nodded, like he understood more than she was willing to say. He pointed down the stretch of clearing.
"Bathrooms are that way. Med-jack tent—that's for patch-ups—is past the pens. Kitchens are over near the fire pit. Don't drink the water if it ain't from the barrels. It'll make you puke up your own insides, and that's if you're lucky."
Another awkward shuffle of his feet. "Most everyone's got jobs. You'll get one soon. Builder, slicer, runner, cook, slopper, med-jack..." He rattled them off like a list he didn't even hear anymore. "If you're lucky, you'll get a decent one."
She took it all in with a blank expression. Buildings. Jobs. Roles. She filed them away without understanding the shape they made yet.
Even tucked near the tents, the Maze walls carved up the horizon. Their sheer enormity made her gut twist.
"What's beyond them?" she asked, her voice rough from disuse. She didn't have to point.
Finn's steps faltered. His gaze darted to the walls and then quickly away, as if even looking at them for too long was dangerous. His shoulders hunched slightly.
"I—uh—" he stammered, swallowing hard. "Just—don't ask about that. Not yet." His fingers fidgeted with the hem of his shirt, twisting the frayed edge. "Ask Newt. Later. Not now." He shook his head, eyes wide. "Just—not now, okay?"
She glanced back toward the direction they'd come from. The platform had already been swallowed by the bustle of the day: boys hauling crates, fixing a lean-to, shouting back and forth across the clearing. Life moving around her like she was invisible again. Or maybe just irrelevant.
She drew in a slow, careful breath, the dusty air scratching her throat. Her body remembered fear. It remembered running. It remembered losing.
But it didn't remember why.
Finn followed her gaze, mistaking her silence for nerves.
"Hey," he said, kicking at the dirt. "You'll figure it out. We all do. I mean, not like, easy or anything, but... you will."
He smiled again—a crooked, tired thing—and scratched the back of his neck like he wasn't sure if he believed it himself.
She didn't answer. She didn't have the words for the heavy knot in her chest. Instead, she nodded once. Small. Sharp.
Finn took it as permission to leave. He gave a little salute—awkward, but not mocking—and turned back toward the noise and movement of the Glade.
The girl stayed where she was, alone in the thin, patchy shadow of the homestead tents.
Above her, the Maze walls stretched up and up, swallowing the sky. But it was the inside of her own head that felt bigger. Louder.
Blank.
Not empty—she thought she might know the difference—but blank. Not something lost, but fractured. In the unsettling way of a room that had been hastily cleared out.
She curled her arms tighter around her middle, feeling the scrape of dirt against her skin, the rough fabric of her sleeves, the pressure of her own breath clawing in and out. The sensations are real. The fear is real. The unease, the wariness, the raw feeling of exposure—all real.
But none of it had a place to land.
Is this how you begin? Without even yourself?
Strange, how her body seemed to know things her mind didn't. The way her eyes automatically mapped exit points. How her fingers checked her pockets at intervals, searching for something. The precise angle at which she positioned herself—back to wall, clear sightlines.
This place will lie to you.
Your body won't.
Follow what it remembers.
But what does her body remember?
It remembered to straighten her spine when someone raised their voice. It remembered how to assess structural integrity at a glance. It remembered to sleep lightly.
A flash hit her—sharp chemical smell, fluorescent lights, cold metal—then disappears, leaving only the ache behind.
"This place will lie to you." Which meant she had known about this place before arriving. Had she chosen to come here? Or been sent? Whoever had written that note had known this would happen to her. Had known she would lose herself, and left breadcrumbs.
But...breadcrumbs to what? To reclaiming who she had been? Or to becoming someone new? Whatever had happened to her was deliberate. Memory wasn't simply missing—it had been taken.
And that, perhaps, was the most unsettling realization of all.
The thought slid through her mind quietly, not panicked, not desperate—just there. Sad, maybe, if she had enough left to feel sad properly.
She pressed her hand against the note tucked at her waistband, feeling the stiff rasp of paper through fabric. It was the only thing in the world she could be sure had come with her—the only thing her body had claimed on instinct.
But her body only remembered fear. Fear and the frantic need to keep moving. She didn't know if that was enough.
A shout snapped her back to the present.
Two boys crashed past the homestead, one chasing the other, laughing and cursing. Neither spared her a glance. Just part of the landscape now.
The girl pushed herself up from where she'd been sitting, legs stiff from staying still too long. The sun had shifted, stretching shadows across the clearing. How long had she been lost in her own fractured thoughts?
She stepped out from the shelter of the tarp, squinting against the harsh light. Her throat felt like sandpaper, her lips cracked. Thirst, at least, was undeniable. Real. Something to act on.
Water barrels. Finn had mentioned them.
She followed the trampled dirt path toward where more activity clustered. Boys hauling wood, sharpening tools, mending clothes. Some cast sideways glances as she passed, but most simply continued their work, the novelty of her arrival already fading beneath the weight of daily routine.
The barrels stood in a row near what must have been the kitchen area—a crude shelter with smoke rising from one end. Metal cups hung from hooks on a nearby post. She hesitated, then reached for one, half-expecting to be stopped.
When no one intervened, she dipped the cup into the closest barrel. The water was lukewarm and tasted faintly of wood, but it was clean enough. She drank deeply, feeling it slide down her parched throat.
"Might want to pace yourself there."
Water sloshing over the rim as she peered over top of the cup. A boy stood nearby—older, maybe twenty, arms crossed, his hands still dusted with something like sawdust or ash. Not hostile, not curious—just watching.
"First day's always rough," he said when she didn't answer. His voice was even, unbothered. "Body doesn't know what it needs yet. Easy to overcorrect."
She lowered the cup, wiping her mouth with the back of her hand. "Thanks," she managed, the word feeling strange in her mouth. Free advice was her first real kindness in this place.
He nodded, like he'd already filed her away as stable enough for now, then tipped his chin toward the far edge of the Glade.
"Sun'll be down soon. They'll ring the dinner bell. Best to be there—Alby doesn't like repeating himself."
Before she could ask anything else, he was already turning, moving with the purposeful gait of someone who always had half a dozen repairs waiting.
She stood alone again, the empty cup dangling from her fingers. She looked down at it—solid, metal, scratched from years of use. Something about its weight in her palm felt grounding. Real in a way her thoughts weren't.
She returned the cup to its hook and turned toward the gathering crowd by the fire pit. One foot in front of the other. One moment at a time.
The note pressed against her hip as she walked, its edges worn soft already from her constant checking. Whatever answers it held would have to wait. Right now, there was only the fading daylight, the growing hunger in her belly, and the strange rhythm of a place she didn't understand but somehow had to navigate.
For now, that would have to be enough.