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“When are you going?“ asked Felix, leaning against the doorframe of his sisters room. “Tomorrow afternoon.“ she replied, still busy packing her luggage.
Of course he is happy that his sister Finally gets away from this shitty Home. But he is still Sad that They won’t spend a lot of time together anymore.

“Hey, stop with that fucking Pouty Face!“ she yelled teasing. “I am Not pouting. Can’t I be sad, that we won’t See each other anymore.“ he replied. “Your Acting Like I will move to another Country and besides that, you are moving too.“

Oh how he hates when his sister is right. Out of his whole Family, Felix is the First one to go to a university. Even his parents showed him the rare feeling of being proud.

“Yes I’m moving too, but in 3 weeks, that are 3 weeks we could have used for spending time together.“ He answered. “its time that you get some friends, you can’t hang out with your sister all the time.“ replied Rachel.

Another thing she is right about. He doesn’t have any friends. Even though Felix is really extroverted and open minded, is it hard to make friends in a school or a town that is completely homophobic. Yeah he had friends before, but that went down when he outed himself. Another reason why he is so relieved to move to a different city. Rachel doesn’t know to much about it. At least she doesn’t know that no one talks to him anymore. So he isn’t mad at her for pointing the “no friends“ thing out.

“But we could at least FaceTime Right?”, Felix asked. “of course we can.” She replied. Rachel zipped her last bag shut and threw it to the rest of her belongings. “So. I am done now. If you want to look through my old stuff do it now, because mom will throw everything, I didn’t take with me, away.”, she said and walked towards the door.

“Hey stop looking like a kicked puppy.”, Rachel said when she stoped in front of him. “I promise that we will call every week okay.” “Okay”, Felix replied looking at the floor. “And who knows. Maybe you will meet some cool people in three weeks and forget about me.”, she hinted with a smile. “Okay I’m gonna go eat now, tomorrow will be a stressful day.”, she announced while walking out of the room.

Felix let out a sigh. Yeah maybe he will meet cool new People. People who doesn’t know him. A new start in a new environment. That’s when he started to look through Rachel’s stuff. In between a lot off useless shit like old and really cheap children’s makeup, stuffed animals and CDs of 2010 greatest hits he found it. A small pink book “how to get a boyfriend”. He laught out loud. Why would anyone buy a stupid book like that Felix thought.

But then he got a stupid idea. No I am not using that book to get a boyfriend that is so dump. But that thought didn’t let go of him.

He couldn’t sleep at all. Maybe because its the last day he will see his sister or because he got his head full of that stupid book for 13 year old girls. He knows it is dumb but the fake scenarios in his head of him being desired by guys, being asked out, of having make out sessions at parties or just going on cute dates let him stay up the whole night.

The moment he said goodbye to his sister, he ran into her room to get the stupid book.
He read that book the rest of the day late into the night. When he finished Felix got up to his desk and started writing a shortcut list of the 7 major points of the book.

Look feminine: guys love femininity
Be shy: guys love a shy girl
Go to parties: how could you show yourself to others without going to parties
Wait for him to make the first move: guys love to conquer a girl
Show interest in boy things: guys love girls that are into boy hobbies
Be natural: don’t use to much make up guys like a natural look.
Compliment him: guys love compliments because they don’t get them often

“What in the misogyny did I just write?” He asked himself. What was he expecting, that is a book for 13 year olds made by some adult men to get money. But what if its really working putting that “change everything of yourself” away.

I like dressing feminine and I would love to go to parties. He thought. And if I’m interested in people I ask a lot of questions and everyone deserves a compliment. The only thing not adding up with his personality is the “be shy”. He was shy for the last one and a half year. But that had other reasons that being a natural shy person. But he can try right? With that he went to go to sleep to get much needed rest.

Maybe he took the dumb book more seriously than he would like to admit. Because at that moment Felix is at a checkout of a clothing store buying skirts. I wanted to buy skirts for a long time not just because of this dumb book he keeps telling himself. Because this is a homophobic town and I’m getting a fresh start. The cashier gave him a nasty look but Felix ignored it. This is the last time these stupid people get to have a say in his life.

After that he went to the hairdresser to bleach his hair. It’s something he always wanted to do. He let his hair grow for a while now. So if anyone sees him from behind they will probably think Felix is a girl. A thought that never bothered him the way other boys his age did.

He spend the last three weeks before moving out with putting together cute outfits, sorting out his room and closed, gaming on his laptop and calling Rachel as much as he could.

“So you bought skirts?”, Rachel asked. “Yes and I even put together some outfits how I could wear them.”, he said proudly while laying on his bed. “I am happy for you that you can finally express yourself.”, she answered “but look out for yourself okay? The university might not be as homophobic as our hometown but there could still be a lot of idiots out there.” “Yes I will take care of myself. I promise.” Felix said. “Good. Off topic but have you found a mini job yet, because that would be a good way to meet new people.”, Rachel asked.

“Yes like a month ago. It’s a small coffee shop for students where a lot of university students work too. They were happy to take someone because they are short in staff.”, he replied. “That’s good. Okay I have to hang up now, I have something planed for today.” She explained. “Uhh, like a date?”, Felix teased. “None of your business.” With that she ended the call.

Felix threw his phone next to him, rolled on his back and let out a sigh. In two days my new life will start He thought. With that he fell in a long needed sleep.

The last two days were like a blurr. It was a nice sunny Saturday noon. Felix is sitting in his parents car looking out of the window in the best mood since a long time. They insisted to drive him. Something about bringing the last child out of the nest, he didn’t really listen to what they said. At least he didn’t have to drive by himself.

The car pulled into the big parking lot of the university. There were a lot of people. Some saying goodbye to their parents, others talking in small groups of students and a lot of parents on the verge of tears. If mom and dad are going to cry? Felix asked himself.

His dad stopped the car and got out. He took the sign and got out too. Felix pulled his bags out of the trunk and got startled because his parents stood right in front of him. “So now our baby will start his own life.”, Felix mom said with tears in her eyes. A sight he didn’t expect. “You could have worn something less gay.” His dad spat out. And there the moment is ruined. He was wearing a white tennis skirt with a shirt and a black sweater above it.“I wear what I want dad.” Felix snapped back. He put his bag over his shoulder and started to move. “Okay I am gonna look where my room is.” He told them. “Promise that you will call us?”, his mother asked. “Yeah, I will call.”, he answered. “Goodbye.”, said Felix while waving. Then he turned around and walked of.

He got his room number before arriving, so he didn’t have to ask someone. There were a lot of people in the hallways of the dorm building. Felix tried to walk through them with enough confidence as possible. Finally he arrived at his room. “Room 325” Okay maybe my roommate is here already. So he knocked and opened the door.

There was chaos inside. A lot of bags, Plushies? and some instruments were sprawled all over the small floor. On the opposite of the door was a window and on each side of it a small bed pressed to the wall. On the left side of the door was a table with to chairs and a mini fridge. Then there was a door to his right probably the bathroom. The door opened and a guy came out.

“Oh you must be my roommate. I’m Jisung.”, he said while offering felix his hand. Felix took it and answered:” yes, I’m Felix nice to meet you.” Jisung looks cute. He’s wearing baggy black jeans and a grey tight shirt. His brown hair is falling into his round face while he’s smiling shyly. “Oh sorry for the chaos I wasn’t sure when you would be here, I will clean up.”, he stammered and tried to make room for felix. “Oh no its okay I don’t rush yourself.” Felix told him. But Jisung ignored it and started to make room.

He walked to the right bed and threw his stuff on it. From the window was a good view to the campus. “So you are a musician?”, Felix asked while eying the different instrument cases. “Oh yeah, I’m a music major what about you?”, Jisung said. “IT and computer science”, Felix answered. “Cool. Oh before I forget about it. A friend of mine will show me the campus later do you want to join?” He asked. “Sure, that would be great.”, Felix said. “He is studying here since two years, so he knows all the good spots.”, Jisung said proudly. “Oh that would be very helpful, I don’t know where anything is.”

With that Felix stared to unpack his bags. When he got his list in the hands, he smiled. Maybe he will give the stupid thing a try.

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Jisung and Felix were done unpacking for now. They were sitting on their beds facing each other. Jisung told Felix about his Family and that he has an older brother. He also said that his friend is his neighbour and that they knew each other since brith. Felix told him about Rachel and what games he liked. 

They found out that they liked the same kind of music and that their birthdays are just one day apart. “We should celebrate together.” Jisung said. “Yes, that would be cool.”. They were interrupted by a knock.

“Oh that must be Minho hyung.” Jisung announced while jumping up to get the door. “Hey hyung!”Jisung opened the door and presented a really good looking guy with sharp features and a smug smile on his lips. “Hey Jisungie, ready for the tour.” He said. “Yes I’m ready. Oh can Felix join, I already asked him if he wanted to come along and he said yes, so it would be awkward if not.” Jisung rambled. 

Minho looked behind Jisungs shoulder directly at Felix. He felt really small under Minhos gaze. Minho just shrugged and said:”Yeah sure. And I promised that we will meet up with Chan hyung and Changbin later, he can join there too if he wants.” Jisung looked hopeful at Felix. “Uhm yeah, if it’s really okay.”, he answered. 

“Of course its okay. Aside from that, Changbin is so depressed since his last situationship, a pretty boy like you won’t bother him.” Minho guaranteed him. That sentence made Felix blush. No one has ever called him pretty.

The three of them walked outside of the building. The afternoon sun was shining and the mass of people decreased. Minho and Jisung were talking about their families and what everyone was up to. Felix just walked next to them while taking in the new surroundings. 

Minho showed them the cafeteria, the library and the lecture halls. “So that was all the basic stuff, now I am gonna show you the special places.” Minho announced. “So are we going to see your making out spots or your weed spots?” Jisung teased. “Bold of you to assume I separate those activities.” Minho said with a grin. 

Jisung just gave him a weird look while Felix was laughing. Minho send Felix a smile while pointing his head in a direction in a “now follow” motion. 

Jisung and Felix followed him. He brought them to a small clearing between some bushes. “So that’s like the most known making out spot. Basically everyone knows it. The only people you will find here are first year students.”, Minho explained. “So it’s like more of a “don’t ever use” spot then?”, Jisung asked. “For you every spot is a don’t ever use spot. I had to promise your dad to not let you near any guys.” Minho told him. Jisung just rolled his eyes.

That gave Felix a weird feeling, that’s why he had to ask:”is your dad not supportive?” “What, oh no you don’t understand. My dad is just very protective and after my coming out, he just went in full “all guys are the same no one is hurting my son” mode.”, Jisung explained. “Oh okay that checks”, Felix answered relieved. He would have felt really bad for him.

“Okay now that we cleared that up. I have a question Felix are you gay? Asking for a friend of course.”, Minho asked. That made Felix blush again.”uhm yeah.” He said. “Great”, Minho said and klapped his hands:”next spot this way.” He pointed in a direction and started walking. Felix was still frozen in place. Jisung looked a little annoyed. And started walking to. 

Minho showed them a lot of different spots. Some in like small closets inside the building “gay spots” what Minho called them, some other spots in the park and some in small corners of the different buildings. “So the last is a absolute insider spot, that means no one time flings okay.”, Minho insisted. 

They walked through a large hedge and behind it was a small stream. There was a wooden bridge that looked really old. On the other side of the bridge was another hedge. Why would you build a bridge at such a place? At each end of the stream were a lot of bushes. The small clearing was just completely shut of from humanity. Felix was admiring the place so much that he didn’t even see the two guys sitting at the stream. 

“Finally you found here too.” The smaller guy yelled. “I had to show the newbies the campus.”, Minho yelled back. “This is Jisung I told you about him and this is Felix, he is Jisungs roommate.”, He explained. The two guys started looking at him now. If he didn’t feel small before he definitely did now. 

The smaller one looked at him like he has seen a ghost while the other guy with the cute dimples send him a smile. The taller one broke the silence:”Hi I’m Chan and this is Changbin nice to meet you.” Felix gave him a smile back. 

“Okay now that we know each others names. How about we do something fun.”, Minho said. That’s when Felix remembered his meeting at his mini job. “It was nice meeting all of you but I have to go now.”, he said. “Okay, we will see us later right?”, Jisung asked. “Yeah sure I just have to meet up for my job now. See you later.” Felix waved a last time and went out of the hedge. That wasn’t awkward at all. 

The bell above the glass door made a small sound. At the counter sat a girl, that was busy to do some latte art. She looked up and asked: ”are you one of the new employees?” “Yes, I’m Felix nice to meet you.” “I’m Sana” she said with a smile. 

The door behind him opened again and a guy that with black and blonde hair came in. “Sorry am I late?” He asked fully out of breath. “No not at all. We have to wait for Hyunjin first.”, Sana said calmly. “Oh thank god.”, the boy breathed out.”I’m Jeongin by the way.” He looked directly at Felix now. “I’m Felix”, He said while offering Jeongin his hand. He took it and send Felix a smile. 

“Okay now that we have to wait anyways. How about I show you guys around?”, Sana asked. “Yeah sure.”, Felix said. Sana showed them the staff room, the bathrooms and the kitchen. When they came back to the front of the café, a guy with a black ponytail was standing at the door. 

“Oh good you showed them around already.”, He said. “About time you showed up.”, Sana spat out.”guys this is Hyunjin he is like your boss.” “Disgusting. Don’t call me that I don’t own the place yet.”, Hyunjin whined. “Yeah what you say. So I’m gonna go now, my shift ended half an hour ago. See you around.”, Sana said while taking her bag. When she left there was a small silence between the three. 

“So you are the new ones. I’m Hyunjin, my parents own the café, that’s why Sana called me the Boss.”, Hyunjin explained. “I’m Jeongin”, Jeongin said. Hyunjin nodded and looked at Felix. “Oh, I’m Felix. Nice to meet you.”, He said. “Wow your voice doesn’t match your face at all.”, Hyunjin pointed out. “I thought the same thing.”, Jeongin agreed. That made Felix blush again. Damn that outfit is working wonders.

“So how about we get done with the legal stuff. Sana already showed you around right?”, Hyunjin asked. Both Felix and Jeongin nodded. They then worked on their contracts and talked about the shifts they had to work.

Hyunjin stretched himself and said:”So, we are done for now. How about we get to know each other a bit more.” He looked at them with interest. “I will start.”, Felix said. “I’m here to get my degree in IT and computer science and I’m turning 19 in a few days.”

“I’m 18 and I study special education for children.”, Jeongin said. “Oh, how nice.”, Hyunjin answered.”like I said, my parents own the café and I probably gonna take it over one day. But for now I’m studying media design and I’m 19.” They talked a bit more about their classes and what their hobbies are. Hyunjin told them about his love for art and photography. He insisted on making a photoshoot with Felix one day. What made Felix blush even more.

Jeongin and Felix started to walk back to the dorms after Hyunjin kicked them out so he could close up the café. They started talking about gaming and what games they liked. “Oh we totally should play Mario cart together. Good thing that I brought my switch with me.”, Jeongin told him. “You should not be to happy about it, because I’m really good at Mario cart.”, Felix bragged. “Well you also said that you are still bronze in league of legends after 4 years. That evens it out.”, Jeongin teased. 

They split paths in the dorm building and said goodbye to each other. They found out that their rooms are on the same floor. 

Felix opened the door to find Minho and Jisung on Jisungs bed watching some movie. “Oh you’re back. How was the meet up?”, Jisung asked. “It was good. I got to know some of the other employees and the other guy, that is in his first year, stays on the same floor as us.”, He said while falling on his bed. “What are you watching?”, he asked. 

“Just some romance movie. We wanted a no brainer.”, Jisung answered. “I’m hungry. Should I pick up some ramen from the supermarket down the street?”, Felix asked. “That would be nice”, Jisung answered. 

Felix got up and went to get to the store. The movie Jisung and Minho were watching was finished when he came back from the supermarket. They ate together and talked a bit about their classes. Minho told them about a upcoming dance competition. 

They were done eating when Minho got up to go back to his room. Jisung and Felix also called it a night and went to bed. It didn’t take long for Felix to fall asleep. 

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Felix wanted to spend the Sunday relaxing. That’s why he found himself infront of Jeongins room. He knocked and was welcomed by a tall guy. “Excuse me?”, the tall black haired guy asked. He looked like he just woke up. Considering it is 10 a.m at a Sunday, that might be the case.“Oh hi I’m Felix is Jeongin here?”, He asked. 

The guy just opened the door more what gave Felix a look into their room. It was basically the same as his own. On the left bed was Jeongin sitting with a cup of coffee in his hand. He looked up and asked.”Oh Felix what are you doing here?” “I was thinking that we could maybe play some games together.” “Oh yeah sure. Seungmin do you want to play too?”, Jeongin asked the other guy. 

That’s when Felix noticed that the guy was looking directly at him the whole time. Felix was wearing a purple sweater this time. He didn’t realise that this could be such an eyecatcher. “Yeah I just gonna go wash up then I will join you.” Seungmin said and then he went to the bathroom. Felix closed the door and walked towards Jeongins bed. 

“So what do you wanna play? I have a lot to offer.”, Jeongin said. “Uhm I’m not sure you choose.”, Felix answered. Well he definitely knew what he wanted to play. But he had a list that he had to follow so now he will be acting shy. “How about Mario cart. I want to know if there is any truth about you saying that you are the best.” Jeongin said.

They started the game and Felix stuck to his bragging from the day before, because he won every round they played. “Okay that is no fun”, Jeongin whined. The door to the bathroom opened and Seungmin came back out. “Seungmin are you good at Mario cart?”, Jeongin asked full of hope. “Why? Are you loosing and now you try to get me on your team.” He answered teasingly. 

“Yes”, Jeongin said. “I will play for you but you have to buy me coffee for the next week.”, He said. “Okay I will do that. And now finish him.”, Jeongin said while pressing his controller at Seungmins body. He took it with a scoff and sat himself beside Felix. He was really near and that gave Felix a shiver.

They played 4 rounds and both of them won 2. “Well gg I think? you are pretty good.”, Seungmin said while giving Felix a cute smile. That made his heart jump a little bit. They took turns and played some more rounds. 

“How about we get some food?”, Felix asked around noon. “Yes I’m starving.”, Jeongin said. His head was hanging from the bed. “I’m gonna get Jisung I’m sure he wants to eat something too.”, Felix explained while getting up from the bed. 

He walked back to his room to get Jisung. The other was sitting on his bed, playing some cords on his guitar. Wow why is he so good looking while playing. “We will get some food do you want to join?”, Felix asked. Jisung got startled and looked up. “Oh I didn’t hear you coming in. What were you saying”, That made Felix laugh. “I was asking if you want to go eating with us.”, Felix repeated. 

“Yeah sure I’m hungry.”, Jisung responded. They walked back to Jeongin and Seungmins room to pick them up. They walked down the street until they found a food truck. Nearby was a small park and some benches where they sat down. 

“So Felix what are you and your roommate studying?”, Seungmin asked. “Music”, Jisung said more busy stuffing his cheeks full with noodles. “IT and computer science what about you.?” Felix answered. “Oh same. Good to know that I have someone to sit next to.”, Seungmin said. “What a relief.”, Felix answered. He was a little scared of his classes but that gave him a good feeling. 

They spend some more time eating and talking about their classes. It was about 5 in the afternoon when Jisung and Felix got back home. Jisung picked up his guitar again and asked:”do you mind if I practice a little bit?” “No of course not I would like to listen.” Felix said while making himself comfortable on his bed. 

He was mindlessly scrolling through his phone when Jisung started singing too. Felix long forgot about his phone fully fascinated by Jisungs voice. The latter didn’t even notice Felix staring at him. He was just fully engaged in his song. Jisung finished his song and looked up. They locked eyes and Felix sucked up a breath. “Wow that was really pretty.”, Felix breathed out. That made Jisung blush. “Thanks.” He said modestly.

Jisung played some more while Felix was just listening. They called it a day and went to bed. Tomorrow were their first classes. They had to be fresh for that. 

Felix walked happily into his first class. He was wearing a black and white checkered skirt with a white, loose fitting sweatshirt. A lot of people were staring at him. He spotted Seungmin in the lecture hall already waving at him. He sat down next to Seungmin and said hi. They exchanged a small smile. To Felix relief went the lecture really well.

They walked together to their next lecture and sat down. Another guy came sitting down next to Felix. “Your name was Felix right?”, The guy asked. Now Felix remembered, it was one of the two guys Minho introduced him on Saturday. “Yes, and you were Changbin right?”, Felix said. “Correct and what’s your name?”, He asked looking at Seungmin. “I’m Seungmin” he said while giving him a big side eye. Changbin just gave him a look back. Why is that so fucking weird? The lecture started what stopped the awkward situation.

The whole lecture was weird. Seungmin and Changbin gave each other weird looks every time felix leaned back. He felt their eyes on him the whole time. That made him feel so small the whole two hours. When the lecture finally ended Seungmin asked him:”do you want to eat lunch together?”, “Yeah sure. Do you want to join Changbin?” He regretted that question the moment it came out of his mouth. “Of course.”, Changbin answered with a grin directed at Seungmin. Oh shit what have I gotten myself into? 

They sat down in the cafeteria and started eating. The awkward silence got way to thick now so Felix just had to break it. “So what are you studying Changbin?” He asked. “Mathematics what about you?”, Changbin answered. “IT and Computer science. Same as Seungmin.”, Felix told him. Changbin nodded and looked at Seungmin, who just gave him a disgusted look back. 

Changbin broke the silence again and asked:”Felix is it possible that we went to the same school, because your face looks just so familiar.” “Uhm maybe” Felix said and told him the name of his old school. “Yes I knew it. I went there to I graduated last year”, Changbin said. “Oh how cool.” Felix answered. 

They talked a bit more about their old school. Felix tried hard to involve Seungmin in their conversation. He didn’t look as pissed as before but still not really happy. Just when Changbin got up to get to his next class Seungmin seemed like he calmed down again. 

“What is your favorite movie?”, Seungmin asked out of nowhere. “Uhm I don’t know if I really have a favorite one but I really like the X-men movies. What about you?” Felix answered. “A star is born. I love lady gaga.”, Seungmin said. “Wow didn’t expect that, but yeah lady gaga is great.”They talked some more about movies and music when Jisung came towards their table. 

“Felix, Minho just asked if I want to go to a party on Friday. Do you want to join. I kinda said that you would come to and now I it would be awkward if you didn’t want to and” “yes of course I want to come”, Felix interrupted Jisungs rambling. Jisung looked relieved and smiled. “Who is throwing the Party?”, asked Felix. “I think Chan hyung but I’m not sure. Minho only said something about a friend of him.”, Jisung answered while sitting down. “Oh you can come to if you want.”, He said to Seungmin. 

“Yeah sure, I wont say no to a party.”, Seungmin answered. “Great then its set. Our first college party.”, Jisung beamed. Cute. Felix thought. 

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The next week went by in a rush. Seungmin and Felix spent most of the time together in either class or studying. Jisung wouldn’t stop talking about the party, which was a cute sight because he asked Felix everyday what he should wear. 

Felix had his first shift at the café on Thursday. It was a chill shift, not to many customers, what gave him and Hyunjin enough time to talk. “I really want to do your make up.”, Hyunjin said out of nowhere. “Really why?”, Felix asked. “Because you have such a pretty face and I want to do art with it.”

That made Felix blush again. “Do not wear make up guys like you natural” my ass. “What are you doing on the weekend, I want to do your make up as fast as I can, or I will explode.”, Hyunjin said desperately. “Nothing really planed except Friday. I will go to a party.”, Felix answered. “Uhh how nice. Who is throwing the party?”, Hyunjin asked. “Uhm, Jisung says Chan. I don’t really know him. I only met him once.”, Felix explained. 

“Chan? like in Bang Chan? The hot guy who has like over 500 thousand follower because he is posting his own music? The hot fuck boy guy that everyone has a crush on? This Chan?”, Hyunjin asked in visible shock. “I don’t know I only met him once and we barely talked.”, Felix said quietly. Hyunjin took his phone out and searched something. “Is this him”, He asked while pushing his phone in Felix face.

It was a picture of a guy. Sitting on a small wall. He was wearing a cap and a white tank top with a black and white flannel over his shoulder. Yeah the guy looks familiar. “Yeah that’s him” Felix said. “You are going to a Party from Bang fucking Chan. How?”, Hyunjin asked hysterically. Some of the customers started looking towards them. 

“Jisungs friend said we could go. His name is Minho, he is friends with Chan.”, Felix answered while trying to tone down their conversation. “Oh my god. Can I come too I always wanted to go to his party’s. People say they are legendary.”, “I don’t know Maybe? Jisung said it’s okay for Seungmin to come so I’m sure it wont matter if you come too.”, Felix said.

“Yes thank you. I will definitely do your make up on Friday”, Hyunjin announced. “Okay then you can come to our dorm and we will go together.”, Felix said. 

Friday rolled around and Felix was starting to get nervous. Hyunjin said it will be the biggest party of the year. He definitely could understand Jisungs distress now. They were getting ready at the evening. “Okay after long thinking I think I will wear that”, Jisung said. He was wearing white, ripped, baggy jeans and a tight, light brown crop top. “Yep that looks stunning.”, Felix commented. He was staring just a little bit. 

“You saying that as if you don’t look like every mans wet dream.”, Jisung spat out teasingly. Felix was wearing a black pleated skirt whith a corset like, white shirt and black over knee socks with white stripes. “Every mans? Yours too?”, Felix teased with a lifted eyebrow. 

“Yes definitely but I’m more into maskuline man. I like princess treatment.”, Jisung said. “I mean I could treat you like a princess too.” Felix said flirtatious while walking infront of Jisung in small steps. That made Jisung blush and he took a step back. They were interrupted by a knock on the door. “I think that’s Hyunjin”, Felix said. He felt Jisung breath out when he stepped back. 

“So I brought my big make up bag and I’m ready to create art.”, Hyunjin said when Felix opened the door. He was holding a small suitcase that was drawn onto. “Okay then do your magic.”, Felix said and let Hyunjin enter. “Hi I’m Jisung.”, Jisung said to Hyunjin. “Hi can I do you make up too?”, Hyunjin asked. “Uhm sure why not.”, Jisung answered. 

So Hyunjin begann to work on them. He gave Felix a dark purple eyeshadow with glitter and a lot of mascara. He decorated Felix eyes with a black eyeliner and some white lines. Then he used some blush that highlighted Felix´s freckles. 

He gave Jisung smoky eyes and some dark blue eyeshadow. Hyunjin insisted on doing their hair too. Jisung got some strands of hair hanging in his face, while the rest was a little bit curled. Felix got a half ponytail with strands of hair hanging at his face on both sides, like a open curtain. 

They both admired themself in the mirror. “You did a really great job.”, Felix said to Hyunjin. “Thank you. We could do that more often.”, Hyunjin answered. Felix just smiled at him through the mirror. They were interrupted again with a knock on the door. “Oh that must be Seungmin.”, Felix said and opened the door. 

“Wow you look beautiful.”, Seungmin claimed while staring Felix up and down. “Glad you like my creation.”, Hyunjin bragged. “I do”, Seungmin answered still hypnotised by Felix. The four of them started walking towards the bus station. They talked a bit about how their classes were going so far and then got off at Chans apartment Building. 

They were all really dumbfounded because the apartment building looked really new and luxurious. “And what exactly is he posting on social media that he can own a apartment like this?”, Seungmin asked. “He is making his own music and that really successful. People think that he already got a big contract at some good entertainment and is doing university just for fun now, but there is nothing confirmed.”, Hyunjin answered.

Jisung and Felix just gave each other a impressed look. “I can’t believe Minho hyung never told me that he is friends with some big music creator. Not even after I met him and told him about how I want to be a musician one day. I bet he laughed about my dumb dream because he is living it.”, Jisung whined. “Hey I’m pretty sure that Minho wouldn’t be friends with an arrogant guy like that”, Felix tried to comfort him.

They walked inside the building up to the right apartment at the 5th floor. They heard Music already playing when they came out of the elevator. Minho was standing outside the apartment door waiting for them. “There you are”, He said “I was waiting for eternity” He smiled at Felix. “We just had to take in the sight of this building”, Jisung said. Then he boxed Minho slightly on the chest.”Why didn’t you tell me that Chan is a big musician with thousands of follower. I completely embarrassed myself infront of him”, Jisung whined.

Minho just laughed and said:”you didn’t embarrass yourself. But if you knew him then you definitely would have.” Jisung just gave him a playful annoyed look. Then they went inside. There were a lot of people in the big apartment. Felix got a glimpse of the living room area where some people were sitting in a circle around a guy who was playing with his guitar. Chan?

They followed Minho inside the kitchen where the bar was located. On the kitchen island where some cups and a lot of different liquors. Behind the island was a guy that was dressed really formally. “He has an own Barkeeper?”, Felix asked. “Oh yeah, that’s Taehyung he is here at every party.” Minho said while walking towards the bar to greet Taehyung. 

“I think that this isn’t like a normal College party.”, Seungmin said still taking in his surroundings. “Yep”, Jisung and Felix agreed. They went to the bar as well and ordered their drinks. Every drink they could imagine was there. Hyunjin, Minho and Seungmin ordered some mix drink while Felix and Jisung got some cocktails. 

They wandered of to the living area again. Minho spotted Changbin and he came towards them. “Nice to see you here”, He said while smiling directly at Felix. Changbins gaze wandered away from Felix directly at Seungmin. He gave him a disgusted look and turned towards Minho to talk to him. “What the hell was that?”, asked Jisung while looking at Seungmin. “Not sure, I’m gonna look for the bathroom.”, Seungmin answered and walked away. 

Jisung looked dumbfounded.”I don’t know why they are acting like that. We share our statistics class and they were so cold to each other from the start. Sitting between them is like hell.”, Felix explained. “Sounds like they got a past. Or they just got a hate at first sight moment.”, Hyunjin said. “I don’t want to talk about other people tonight we are at a party lets go do something.”, Felix said. 

They were leaving Minho and Changbin behind and walked more inside the crowd. The music was loud and they started dancing a little bit. Jisung was a little shy but still moved a little bit to the music. Felix was enjoying the moment. Being swallowed by the music and not caring at all about the people around him. Hyunjin was dancing all to himself he was hyping up the people around him. They were dancing for so long until Felix drink was empty. 

“I’m gonna get a new one”, he told the other two. They responded with some nodding and Felix went of. He tried to squeeze himself through the crowd. He didn’t see the guy turning around infront of him at first, but that was to late because the guy splashed his whole drink over Felix. He was standing in shock feeling the liquor dripping down his top. “Oh my god I’m so sorry.”, The guy said with horror. That’s when Felix realised who was standing infront of him. Bang fucking Chan of course. 

“It’s okay that can happen.”, Felix stammered out. He was really holding in his tears at the moment and tried to walk away. “No, I can’t let you walk around with a wet shirt. Come with me.”, Chan said and took Felix wrist. He guided them outside of the crowd to the hallway. They stopped at a door and Chan unlocked it. He pushed them both inside the bedroom. It was a nice room, not really like the other rooms that are completely modern. It’s more cozy with a lot of wood.

“Here is a shirt you can wear and I will definitely wash yours. I don’t want you to clean up my mess and red whine is really hard to clean up.”, Chan said while handing Felix a white sweatshirt. Felix didn’t even notice that it was red whine which got splashed over him, he was too busy trying not to cry in that moment. “Thank you but you really don’t have to wash my shirt that is to much to ask.”, Felix answered while taking the sweatshirt from Chans hand. 

“No it’s really no problem and that was my fault for not looking around more.”, Chan explained calmly.”So I’m gonna wait outside. You can leave your shirt here I will bring it to you then.” “Thank you.”, Felix said shyly. He waited until Chan was out of the room again. He changed into Chans sweatshirt which was way to big for him. Felix tied a knot on the side of the shirt so it wouldn’t be to long. He took a last breath in and walked outside again. 

Chan was leaning on the wall next to the door looking at his phone. When Felix closed the door again, Chan looked back up at him. He smiled and asked teasingly:”I guess it’s a little to big?” Felix smiled back shyly and said:”yeah I guess, but thank you again for lending me yours.”. “Stop saying thank you we talked about that. Now lets get us new drinks.”, Chan said while locking up his room again. Felix gave him a confused look. “I don’t want people in my room that I don’t know.”, Chan explained. 

They walked back into the kitchen bar. Felix got another cocktail and Chan a wine. They sat down at the kitchen table and started talking. “So now I finally get to talk to you, could have been better terms but a win is a win.”, Chan stated. That made Felix blush again. He stammered:”You wanted to talk to me. Why that?” “Because I think you’re cute and maybe we could start something off?”, Chan said. 

Felix almost chocked on his drink and asked:“You mean like in just having sex and nothing more? Or are you just really bad at asking for a date?” “No I meant it in a just having sex way.”, Chan said blatantly. “Uhm no I don’t think I can do that. I’m not really experienced that wouldn’t be something I want.”, Felix said. He felt a little bad now. I’m saying no to the crush of the campus why am I like that? 

“Hey It’s okay I was just asking. The thing is that I’m not really the relationship guy, so I’m just having a little fun. I know that is not for everyone.”, Chan explained. “Okay yeah maybe some day but not now.”, Felix answered. He took some more slurps of his drink to ease the weird tension. “No don’t ever feel pressured by me okay? And what is speaking against that we could be just friends?”, Chan asked. “Yeah that would be nice?”, Felix answered, a little relief was floating over him. 

Minho came up to the table and said accusingly:”There you are. Jisung said you would be getting a new drink and then didn’t come back. They started to think that you are fucking with some guy. And considering that you are wearing Chans shirt and sitting here with him, that might be the case.” Felix had to take some seconds to register what he said. “Minho, I spilled my drink onto him and lent him a shirt. Now we are just talking okay.”, Chan said calmly. 

“Not sure if I believe that.” Minho said with suspicion. “Nothing happened. You now that I wouldn’t chase after the guys my friends want.”, Chan told him. Didn’t he just ask me if we could fuck? “Wait what?”, Felix asked and started to look at Minho. “I’m gonna leave you two alone”, Chan said while patting Minhos back. 

“Uhm yeah I think your cute and I want to go out with you.”, Minho said. It’s like every drop of alcohol left his body at the moment. Minho wants to go out with me? “Uhm yes I would love to go out with you.”, Felix answered. He blushed again and smiled. 

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Felix and Minho joined the others in the crowd. They started dancing again for the rest of the night, that went by in a blurr. Felix didn’t drink to much but Jisung and Hyunjin got completely wasted. Felix said good bye to Minho with the promise to text in the morning. Then they all went off. Seungmin appeared again and then he helped carrying the two drunk idiots with Felix. 

Jisung was getting really touchy and Hyunjin was way to hyped up. “Where were you the whole party? I didn’t see you at all.”, Felix asked Seungmin, while trying to get Jisung to stop hugging him. “I just talked a bit with some people, got some drinks and looked around in this fucking mansion.”, Seungmin answered nonchalant. “I bet he fucked someone.”, Hyunjin yelled. Some guy walking by gave them a pissed look. 

“You had a pretty good night too I guess?”, Seungmin questioned while looking at Felix´s well Chans shirt. “Oh no that’s not what you think, Chan spilled his drink on me and then he gave me a shirt of his.”, Felix explained. “Alright”, Seungmin said dry. Is he mad at me?

They walked in a really awkward silence, that was only filled by Hyunjin pointing out every pretty thing that he saw, back to the dorm building. Felix layed Jisung in his bed and gave him one of his plushies to cuddle. Hyunjins home was to far away so he had to sleep here too. Felix let him lay on his own bed and then he started to get rid of the make up. 

He layed on his bed next to Hyunjin. The latter was staring at the Picture of Felix and Rachel on the bedside table. “Wow you really look alike. Is everyone in your family this pretty?”, Hyunjin asked. “I guess?”, Felix answered. “We should sleep now” He started to yawn and then he cuddled more into his blanked. Hyunjin did the same but he didn’t close his eyes. “How can someone be so pretty?”, He asked. 

Even though the compliments were nice, Felix started to get annoyed. “Hyunjin please go to sleep. I’m tired.”, He said. “Yeah sure I’m sorry.”, Hyunjin answered. There was finally silence what gave Felixs head time to rush through everything that happened that night. He smiled to himself when he thought about Minho and how he so blatantly asked for a date. With that he fell asleep. 

The next morning was really slow. Hyunjin and Jisung were completely hangover. Felix just got up to get them all some coffee. They all drank in silence. Felix took the moment to text Minho. 

Felix: Good morning :) when do you want to go out? 

Minho: On Sunday evening? I have something planed just let yourself be surprised.

Felix: alright :) see you then.

Felix smiled to himself. He send Hyunjin home and made some instant ramen for Jisung and Him. They ate in silence because Jisung was still done from the party. It was a chill day for both of them. At some point they started to watch a movie and in the end they both fell asleep. 

Sunday rolled around and Felix started to get nervous. Jisung and Felix were sitting on Felix bed drinking their morning coffee. “So what should we do today? I’m no longer hangover so we can do something fun again.”, Jisung said. “I can’t today I kinda have a date.”, Felix answered shyly. “A date with who?”, Jisung asked, he was getting excited. “With Minho, he asked me out on Friday.”

“With..Minho?”, Jisung asked. It’s like all the Color has left his face. Something is off. “Uhm yes. Is that a problem?”, Felix said. “No, no problem of course. He is a great guy.” Jisung looked like he was about to to cry. “No tell me what is the problem you are acting weird.”, Felix asked concerned. “But promise that you will still go out with him and not tell anyone.”, Jisung pleaded.

“It’s starting to sound really concerning. But okay I promise.”, Felix said. Jisung just fidgeted with his hands while looking down. “It’s because I really like him”, He whispered out. Oh fuck. “Oh Ji, I don’t have to go out with him if that is hurting y…” “No you have too okay. Now I know that he doesn’t feel the same that doesn’t have to influence anything that you have going on.”, Jisung interrupted him. 

“But now that’s weird if I go out with him.”, Felix said. “No, go on the date please. I don’t want to stand between you and your love life.”, Jisung answered. “Okay I will still go out with him.”, Felix said. The mood was completely down now. Jisung was visibly fighting the urge to cry, what made Felix just feel worse. Felix started do get ready for the date. He was wearing his tennis skirt and a black cut out shirt. 

While he was waiting, Jisung started to play some Melodie’s on his guitar. Felix just relaxed and listened to the music. Jisung was writing in his notebook too. “Do you write your own songs too?”, Felix asked. “Oh yeah. But I haven’t played them to someone yet. I want them to be perfect.”, He answered. “I would love to listen to one of them one day.”, Felix said. 

It knocked on the door. Felix got up to let Minho inside. He was wearing a black suit pants and a white button up shirt. “Wow where are we going?”, Felix asked. “Just some restaurant”, Minho shrugged off. “Hey Jisung”, He said. “Hey”, Jisung said while giving him a tired smile. “Okay had about we get going.” Felix said. Before someone starts crying. 

They walked outside the dorm building towards a black car. “You have a car?”, Felix asked. “Oh no its Chans he gave it to me after I found out that he wanted to fuck you.”, Minho said nonchalant. “So he did end up telling you?”, Felix asked. They got inside the car. “Oh, no he didn’t but I know that he will go after every pretty person he can find and he is a pretty bad liar.”, Minho explained. 

Minho drove them inside the city. They parked infront of a luxurious looking restaurant. “You said just some restaurant. What the hell?”, Felix stated. “I want a first date to be unforgettable.”, Minho shrugged off. He held the door open for Felix and they walked in. It was really luxurious. There were privat booths on the side, everything was decorated in diamonds, there was a giant chandelier in the middle and somewhere piano music was playing. 

Felix just gulped and said:”I don’t want to be like that but I’m sure that I can’t afford this restaurant” “Oh don’t worry I will pay for it.”, Minho said. They got their own small booth and sat down. “What are you working that you can afford that. And why would you still live in the dorms?”, Felix asked. “I helped Chan a lot with his music videos and choreos, so I earn my money from that. And I don’t want to pay rent so I just stay in the dorms.”, He answered.

“What are you planing to do after university?”, Felix asked. “Probably work some more with Chan and then maybe open up my own dance studio. What about you?”, Minho answered. “Uhm I think going to a good company and work there. I know its not as creative as your Job.”, Felix said. “I mean not everybody can turn their hobby into a job, I’m just really lucky.”, Minho comforted him. 

They ordered their food and talked some more about what they plan to do in the future. “And then I will get my three cats, so they can live with me.”, Minho explained.”Uhh you have cats?”, Felix asked excitedly. “Yes Soongie, Doongie and Dori, look.”, He said while showing Felix some pictures on his phone. “Cute, I would love to get a cat one day.”, Felix enthused. 

They talked some more about pets, then their food arrived. While eating Minho asked:”is this your first ever date?” “Uhm yes. And like first time someone shows interest.”, Felix answered. “How is that possible you are beautiful and you’re funny to.”, Minho said. That made Felix blush again. “Well I come from a really homophobic town, even if someone was interested that would have been social suicide.”, Felix said. “That sounds terrible. You are saying it like you lived the social suicide.”, Minho stated.

“Uhm yeah.”, Felix said. ”That happened when I came out to my supposed best friend. I had a big crush on him and I thought he felt the same. Well he did not and then told everyone, since then no one talked to me anymore.” “Oh my god I’m so sorry that that happened to you.”, Minho said. He looked really concerned now. “Yeah but now I’m here and everyone is supportive, so everything is fine.”, Felix said and stared to gulp his drink. He really wanted to change topics now. Minho thankfully got the hint. 

The date went by in a rush. Minho payed for the food and then they walked outside. They drove back to the dorm building. Minho stopped the car and asked shyly:”So what do you think?”. Felix has never seen Minho this nervous before. He thought about it the whole ride home. “I don’t know. I felt like something was missing.”, Felix answered quietly. “Oh thank god.”, Minho let out. “I thought I was the weird one now. Asking you out and dipping after the first date.” Felix just laughed out. Thank god the tension is away. 

“I don’t know why but it felt just like a meet up with a friend the whole time.”, Felix said. “Yes exactly.”, Minho agreed. “So no second date”, Felix stated. “Yep”, Minho answered. They got out of the car and walked back inside. They said good bye and walked back to their own dorms. 

Felix got inside his room and found Jisung still playing on his guitar. But now he looked like he was crying. “No please don’t cry, I will start crying too.”, Felix pleaded. Felix sat down next to him. Jisung just wiped of the tears with his hoodie.”I wasn’t crying anymore. How was the date?”, He asked. “It was fine.”, Felix said. “That’s great, I’m happy for you.”, Jisung said. It still looked like he was fighting the tears. They sat in a short silence until Felix spoke up:

“We won’t go on a second date.” “What why that?”, Jisung asked in complete shock. “We both agreed that there isn’t a spark and that we are better off as friends.”, Felix answered. “Oh I’m sorry for that.”, Jisung said. “You can be happy about it okay.”, Felix teased. Jisung just blushed to himself. “No not tonight. Tomorrow I might be cheering.”, He joked. 

Jisung looked at his lap again and said:”but he doesn’t feel the same and I have to accept that.” “For how long did you have a crush on him?”, Felix asked. “I think for like forever. I realised it when I realised that I’m gay. I just put two and two together.” He answered, “I always dreamed that we would come togehter in university.” “Hey stop sulking who knows if he has some feeling deep down that he is suppressing.”, Felix said. “But why would he do that?”, Jisung asked. “Maybe because your dad is in full protection mode like you said.”, Felix answered. “Yeah maybe”

They sat in silence again. “Did you have your first kiss yet?”, Jisung asked out of nowhere. “Yes it was with a girl at a party before I came out. It was nothing special. After that nothing happened.”, Felix answered. “Well I had it at a party to. I had more going on there and I regret it when I look back.”, Jisung said. Felix felt really sad for him now. “I always wanted my firsts to be something special.”, Jisung stated while fidgeting with his fingers. 

They were sitting opposite from each other now and locked eyes. It felt like suddenly the air around them changed. And then they leaned in. It was a gentle kiss. Felix put his hands on Jisungs shoulders while Jisung lightly grabbed Felix legs that were crossed on the bed. They kissed for some seconds and when they broke the kiss, they stared each other in the eyes. Hands still resting on their previous places. 

Then Felix whispered: ”we could say that this was our first kiss. How about that?”. “Yeah that would be nice.”, Jisung smiled. 

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Jisungs and Felix brithday was around the corner. They were sitting in the cafeteria brainstorming on what to do. “Okay how about we just invite some people to our room and we make a small get togehter nothing more.”, Felix suggested. Jisung was stuffing his cheeks full again and nodded. ”Yeah sounds good. Who are we inviting?”, He asked. “Uhm I will probably invite Seungmin, Jeongin and Hyunjin. And you?”, Felix answered. “Minho hyung of course and maybe Changbin he is funny.” Jisung said. “Okay then its set”, Felix said. 

“What is set?”, Seungmin asked while sitting down next to Felix. “Oh our birthday party. You are invited.”, Felix said. “When are you celebrating?” “On Friday because that’s my birthday and then at midnight we celebrate Felix birthday.”, Jisung said happily. “I can’t believe that I’m a week younger than you two.”, Seungmin stated. “Right because you are so mature.”, Felix said ironically. Jisung and Felix started laughing.

It was a Tuesday. Felix had a shift with Jeongin today. “Jisung and I are celebrating our birthday on Friday do you want to come?”, Felix asked. It was a stressful shift, Felix used the opportunity to ask when there wasn’t a lot of customers there. “Yeah of course. What do you want for your birthday?”, Jeongin asked. “Uhm haven’t really thought about that. I think just some alcohol for the party will be fine.”, Felix answered. 

The rest of the shift went by fast. When Hyunjin arrived for the next, Felix invited him too. He was really happy and promised a unforgettable gift. Felix tried to say that this wasn’t necessary, but Hyunjin didn’t listen. 

It was on Thursday when Felix tried to find Chan to give back his lend shirt. He found him at the small stream, Minho showed them on the first day. Chan was sitting with, headphones and his laptop on his lap, cross legged on the grass. When he looked up he immediately took his headphones off. “Hi what are you doing here?”, He asked. “Oh I just wanted to give you your shirt back.”, Felix answered. “Oh thanks, yours is still getting cleaned but I will give it back as soon as possible.”, Chan said while taking the shirt.

“It’s fine don’t rush yourself.”, Felix brushed off. There was the awkward silence again. “Do you want to listen?”, Chan asked. “Uhm sure.”, Felix said and sat down next to Chan. “I’m still working on it, I can’t promise that its good.”, Chan explained. “You are showing me an unfinished song?”, Felix asked shyly. Chan just smiled and nodded. He put the Headphones over Felix head and pressed play.

It was a dark melody. Felix really concentrated too understand everything. Chans voice sounded really good like its some fantasy horror movie. What is the song about? When the song was done, Felix realised that Chan was staring at him. 

“That was nice what is it about?”, Felix asked. “Trains”, Chan said blatantly. “What?” “Of course not.”, Chan laughed. “You know what it’s about.” “Well I hoped that you would write songs about other things that sex.”, Felix said teasingly. “I have listened to some of your songs.” 

“They are not all about sex.”, Chan pointed out. “But around 90% of what I listened to was.”, Felix answered. “Yeah well I like sex so why shouldn’t I write about it.”, He said. They both laughed and their gazes fell to the stream. “Do you want to come to mine and Jisungs birthday party?”, Felix broke the silence. 

“Yeah sure when are you celebrating.”, Chan asked. “Tomorrow, you don’t have to bring anything it’s just a small get together.”, Felix told him. “Alright.”, Chan said. 

Tomorrow rolled around. Felix woke Jisung up with jumping on his bed and screaming: “Happy birthday.” Jisung just whined out: “why would you wake me up like that?” They made breakfast and went to their classes. 

Felix sat down next to Changbin. “So what do you want for your birthday?”, Changbin asked. “Uhm I ..”, “He told everyone he didn’t want something special why didn’t you get the info yet?”, Seungmin interrupted Felix while sitting down. “I think Felix is able to talk for himself.”, Changbin spat out. 

Felix just let out a sigh. Not this again. “You know what I know what I want for my birthday. I want you two to shut the fuck up. I want you to act normal around each other just for one day. Is that to much to ask?”, Felix yelled. Some girls infront of him turned around to look who is yelling. Seungmin and Changbin just stared at Felix. “Understood?”, Felix asked switching his head between both. “Yes.”, They both whispered out. 

The lectures went by really fast. Seungmin and Changbin completely ignored each other now. Still better than the pissed looks they gave each other. The evening came really fast. Felix and Jisung were decorating the whole room. Felix but some bowls with snacks out and made a small bar for the drinks. 

They were now waiting for the others to arrive. The first to be there was Minho. He tackled Jisung to his bed the moment he opened the door. “Here this is for you”, He said while pressing Jisung a small gift in the hand. “You will get yours after midnight.”, Minho said to Felix. “Alright.” 

Jisung opened the gift, it was a bracelet made off some stones. “Thank you its really beautiful.”, Jisung said while hugging Minho. “I got when I was on vacation with my family.”, Minho explained., “Reminded me of you.” He definitely likes him too. No one can tell me otherwise. 

It knocked again and Felix opened the door to find Jeongin, Seungmin and Changbin standing there. “Help me”, Jeongin mouthed. Felix just smiled and let them in. “Why are you coming together?”, Felix asked. “We came here the same time.”, Changbin said. 

They wished Jisung a happy birthday and put down some liquor bottles. It knocked again and Hyunjin was standing outside. He was holding. Two big gift bags. “Happy birthday Jisung.”, He said while pressing Jisung one of the bags in his hand. “You will get yours after midnight.”, He said to Felix. Jisung unpacked the gift bag and pulled out a big plush squirrel. “It reminded me of you, so I had to get it.”, Hyunjin explained. 

“So what do you all want to drink?”, Jisung asked. They all got their drinks and made themself comfortable. It knocked again. “Isn’t everyone already here?”, Jisung asked. “Uhm I invited Chan too when I gave him his shirt back”, Felix explained while walking towards the door. Jisung just gave him a teasing look, while Hyunjin looked in full gossip mode. “Hey this is for you.”, Chan said pressing him a box in the hand. “Thank you.”, Felix said shyly. 

“Happy Birthday Jisung.”, Chan said “and this is for you”, He gave a box to Jisung. “Thank you”, Jisung answered and took the gift while smiling shyly. He unpacked it and let out a gasp.”you got me a mic?”, Jisung said shocked. “Well you told me that you want to be a musician. So you will need the right equipment.”, Chan answered nonchalant. 

They started some conversations. Jisung started some music. The small party was in full motion. Felix was talking with Jeongin and Hyunjin about some customer stories. Seungmin was standing by Minho and Jisung, while Jisung unpacked the mic with the happiest expression on his face. Chan was talking with Changbin at the small bar. 

“Okay how about we play something.”, Jisung screamed in the room. “What do you want to play?”, Felix asked. “I don’t know how about truth or dare?”, Jisung said. “Truth or dare? How old are we?”, Seungmin judged. “Don’t be so pessimistic. I mean we could play never have I ever instead. I want to know the juicy infos about everyone.”, Hyunjin said while boxing Seungmin on the arm. 

They sat on the two beds. Felix sat between Jeongin and Hyunjin. On the other bed sat Jisung next to Minho and Changbin. Chan and Seungmin sat on the two chairs. “Okay who will start?”, Jisung asked. “Okay never have I ever had sex at a party”, Hyunjin said. Chan, Minho, Changbin, Hyunjin and Jisung took a sip. “You what?”, Minho asked while looking at Jisung. “Well you don’t know everything about me.”, Jisung teased. 

“Never have I ever wanted to fuck someone in the room.”, Minho said while looking directly at Chan. Everyone except Felix and Jeongin took a sip. “Juicy”, Hyunjin spat out. “Should we go deeper at that topic or should we move on.”, Jeongin asked. “Move on.”, Jisung and Minho said at the same time. “Juicy”, Hyunjin said again. 

“Never have I ever fucked someone in the room.”, Changbin asked. Minho and Chan took a sip. Everyone looked shocked now. “Juicy”, Hyunjin laughed out. “We were just horny and alone what about it?”, Chan deadpanned. “Well but who topped?”, Hyunjin asked while gripping his drink more. “I think if I answer that I will get punched.”, Chan said. “Okay so Minho was the bottom.”, Hyunjin grinned. Minho just glared at him. 

“Never have I ever wanted to fuck Felix.”, Seungmin said while glaring at Changbin. Chan, Changbin, Minho and Hyunjin took a sip. Felix just blushed even more. “Well you should be honest to right?”, Changbin said while giving Seungmin a pissed look. Seungmin just scoffed and took a sip too. 

“What?”, Felix asked quietly. “Okay how are we defining “wanting to fuck him”?”, Hyunjin asked. “I guess just the thought alone?”, Chan explained. “Well then”, Jeongin said and took a sip too. Felix just looked even more shocked now. “Oh come on don’t act like you don’t think that about the people you find attractive too?”, Minho complained. “Uhm maybe yeah but it’s more surprising that almost everyone of my friends think that.”, Felix answered still blushing. 

They played some more rounds. It weren’t really personal questions this time, just some about some stories or things in bed they tried. “Okay how about we play truth or dare I want action.”, Jisung said. “Only if we don’t throw someone under the bus.”, Felix answered. He was sure that Jisung wants to see everyone do stupid shit. “Yes of course”, Jisung assured. 

“Okay Felix truth or dare?”, Jisung asked. “Uhm truth.”, Felix answered. “Would you fuck someone who is in the room right now.”, Jisung asked teasingly. “How is that not throwing me under the bus? But I guess yes.”, Felix answered. Everyone except Minho and Jisung smiled like they won the lottery. Felix wanted revenge now but he is a good friend so he wont. “Okay Chan. Truth or dare?”

“Truth.”, Chan said. “What is your body count? I want to know if there is something true about the fuck boy rumors Hyunjin told me about”, Felix asked. “Okay who is throwing each other under the bus now.”, Hyunjin gasped playfully offended. “I think 42.”, Chan answered. “Slut”, Minho coughed out. “Oh you think you are better?”, Chan asked teasingly. “Yes definitely”, Minho answered with a grin. 

“Minho truth or dare?”, Chan asked. “Dare.”, Minho said confidently, while leaning himself on the wall. “You won’t get my body count.” “Make out with Jisung.”, Chan spat out. Jisung chocked on his drink and said: ”why are you involving others?” He was blushing now. Minho glared at Chan and said: “alright” “What?”, Jisung asked. Minho just grabbed the back of Jisungs head and kissed him. Jisung looked in shock but that vanished after a second and he leaned more in. 

Felix just watched with a big smile. Chan and Changbin smiled to themself too, while the other just looked more disgusted the longer the kiss went. Minho started to press Jisung on the mattress. “Okay I think that’s enough.”, Changbin said. Minho and Jisung broke apart and just stared in each others eyes. They sat up again and both were completely red. 

“Okay should we go on or should we do something else?”, Chan asked. “Go on of course.”, Hyunjin said. He had his third drink now and was completely invested in everything. Everyone just nodded. Minho just cleared his throat and asked: ”Changbin truth or dare?” “Uhm dare.”, He answered. “Kiss Seungmin.”, Minho told him. “No!”, Changbin and Seungmin screamed at the same time. Felix had to suppress a smile. “I won’t do that.”, Changbin declared. “Okay then pick truth.”, Minho said. “Okay I pick truth then.”, Changbin answered. 

“Tell us why you hate Seungmin”, Minho told Changbin. “Because he was a dick to me the moment we met.”, Changbin answered while glaring at Seungmin. “Juicy”, Hyunjin said with his fourth drink in his hand. “Hyunjin why are you so invested in everything?”, Changbin asked confused. “You have to ask truth or dare before.”, Hyunjin corrected him. Changbin just rolled his eyes and asked: ”Truth or dare?” “Dare”, Hyunjin said playfully. 

Felix just laughed. “Go knock on someone’s door and run away.”, Changbin said. “Boooring. What are we? Twelve?”, Hyunjin whined out. “We are playing truth or dare that game alone is for twelve year olds.”, Minho deadpanned. “Okay then knock on a door and ask if you can make out with the person who opens.”, Changbin told him with a grin. “That’s what I’m talking about.”, Hyunjin said with a smile while getting up from the bed. 

Jisungs jaw was on the floor. “Is he really doing that.?” They followed Hyunjin outside. He walked a few doors further and knocked on one. They were pressed to the door of Felixs and Jisungs room, to stay hidden a little bit. The door, Hyunjin knocked on, opened and presented a big muscular guy with a long beard. “Excuse me?”, He asked. “Do you want to make out?”, Hyunjin asked with a big smile. “The fuck?”, The guy asked in shock. Hyunjin just gave him a sweet smile. “Uhm sure”, The guy said. Hyunjin looked just as surprised as the rest. 

The guy put his hands on Hyunjins face and leaned in. Hyunjin was enjoying every moment of this. The observer at the door were just trying to ceep quiet. Felix looked at Jisung behind him with a hand infront of his mouth. Jisung was in complete shock to, but had a big smile on his face. The kiss started to get heated, then Hyunjin broke it apart. “We should do that more often”, He said completely out of breath. The guy just nodded. Hyunjin took a pen? Out of his pocket and wrote on the guys wrist. “My number.”, he explained and walked away. The guy just stood there and then closed the door confused. 

“I did it.”, Hyunjin said when he came back to the others. Everyone just looked completely shocked at him. “What?”, Hyunjin asked. “Why do you have a pen with you?”, Jeongin asked. Hyunjin just shrugged: “for situations like this or when I find something I want to draw. That’s why I have a small notebook with me too.” He pulled out the small book. “I wish I was as spontaneous and confident as you.”, Jisung stated. 

They went back inside. “Oh its after 12.”, Jeongin said. “What?”, Felix said and looked at his phone. 00:05 “Happy birthday”, Jisung screamed while hugging Felix. He hugged him back. Everyone else wished him happy birthday. “You said you didn’t want anything that’s why I just brought vodka.”, Jeongin explained. ”Yeah me too.”, Seungmin said. “And we didn’t go at each other’s throats like we promised.”, Changbin said proudly. “It’s okay”, Felix just smiled.

“Well I didn’t care so here.”, Hyunjin said and pressed the big bag in Felix had. He opened it and pulled a red, checked skirt, like a school uniform, and a black shirt out. “Uhh thank you.”, Felix said. “I want to make a photoshoot with that too. That is in the gift included.”, Hyunjin explained. Felix smiled and nodded. 

“Here this is from me”, Minho said and gave him a small box. Inside was a small cat keychain. “It has an included flashlight.”, Minho explained. “Thank you.”, Felix smiled.

“Okay, I didn’t want to show up with empty hands, so this is from me”, Chan said and pressed Felix a box in the hand. Felix opened it. It was a gaming headset. “Are you crazy these are so expensive.”, Felix said in shock. “It’s nothing okay.”, Chan answered. He gave Felix a smile. “Thank you”, Felix said and hugged Chan. 

The party went on. Felix was inspecting the Headset with Jeongin. Seungmin was talking with Jisung and Hyunjin, while Chan, Changbin and Minho were raiding the small bar. It still went for a while before the guests started to leave one by one. The last person to leave was Minho. “So good night then.”, He said shyly while standing in the door. “Good night.”, Jisung smiled. Minho left and Jisung closed the door. 

“Oh my god this kiss was amazing.”, Jisung yelled while jumping like a child. Felix just laughed. “See. And the way he pushed you on the bed. He definitely likes you or he would have ditched the dare.”, Felix said. “We have to talk then, because we ignored us almost for the rest of the party.”, Jisung stated. “Yep”, Felix answered. The both went to bed now. 

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Felix laid lazy on his bed trying to call Rachel. Jisung was away for the rest of the weekend with his family. “Happy birthday, how are you”, Rachel said. “Really good I think.”, Felix answered. “You think?”, Rachel asked teasingly. “Yeah. A lot happened.”, Felix said. “A lot? You are away for only 2 weeks now. What happened.”, Rachel asked fully invested now. 

“Okay. I met a lot of new people. They are all really nice. And they all kinda want to sleep with me.”, Felix mumbled. “All of them? How many? And why do you know that?”, Rachel asked. She sounded like she got up from bed now. “Okay one of them, Chan asked me directly if we want to hook up and then Minho asked me out on a..”, “He asked you out after 2 weeks. And the other one just casually asked if you want to fuck?”, She yelled. “It was technically after one week.”, Felix corrected. 

“Are they all just really horny or are you the best looking person on the whole campus?”, Rachel asked sarcastically. “The second of course.”, Felix teased. They laughed. “Well and with the others I found out yesterday, because we played never have I ever.”, Felix explained. “You are really playing never have I ever. Wow I didn’t know that the college movies were a good replica of the reality.”, Rachel said. She sounded sadder now.

“Are you sad now because I have a life now and won’t bother you as much anymore?”, Felix teased. “No the opposite actually. I’m glad that you finally have some friends.”, Rachel answered. “Oh and you should call mom. She has been texting me the last two weeks why you won’t call her.”, Rachel explained. “Yeah. I will do that.”, Felix answered tiredly. “But tell me more about your new home is everything okay there?”, Felix asked.

Rachel told him about her neighbours and her new workplace. She told him that she went on a date and there could be more coming from that. They said good bye and hung up. Now I have to call mom. Felix laid on his stomach now. Talking with his mom was at least a little more pleasant than with his dad. The phone rang and his mother picked up. 

“Look who finally called.”, his mother said. Felix just rolled his eyes. “Hi mom, sorry that I didn’t call. I just had a lot going on with the start of the semester and everything.”, Felix explained. “So much that you couldn’t even call your own mother?”, She complained. Felix tried to stay calm. “Yeah sorry. But I’m calling now so what is going on at home?”, he asked. “Well not to much. Now that you both moved out, its really quiet all the time.”, She said.

“Yeah I suppose that’s true.”, Felix answered. She complained to him about their neighbours and that they repainted their house and how is looked to much like pink now. And that in the town opened a vegan shop that “no one will ever use”. His mother whined some more about her new coworker, that mentioned that she has a wife, what was “completely fine I just don’t want her to push it in my face”. Felix just got more angry the more she talked. “I have to go now my shift is starting soon.”, Felix lied. “Okay please call me again soon.”, His mother said. 

The call endet. She didn’t even wish me happy birthday. Felix just sighed and laid down again. He scrolled on his phone a little bit. He liked Jeongins new ootd, Skipped a little bit through Hyunjins stories and watched Chans new song teaser. He fell asleep while watching one of Chans songs that played in the background now. 

It was a clowdy Wednesday. Jeongin and Felix had their shift togehter. There weren’t a lot of customers so they tried to pass the time by playing smash or pass with the people that walked by the café. “Smash”, Felix stated. “Really why that?”, Jeongin asked. It was a woman maybe in her late 40s. “Mature woman are sexy.”, Felix replied. “Okay”, Jeongin laughed. 

A old couple walked by. “You would smash them too?”, Jeongin teased with a lifted brow. “I sad mature not granny.”, Felix replied laughing. A good looking girl walked by now. “Your turn.”, Felix said. “Mhh pass.”, Jeongin told him. “Pass why that she’s so pretty?”, Felix asked. “I don’t know she could be mean you don’t know that.”, Jeongin explained. “Okay I think you don’t understand the rules of smash or pass.”, Felix said. “Yeah maybe”, Jeongin mumbled.

“Hey what’s wrong?”, Felix asked. “Nothing”, Jeongin said. Felix just gave him a look. Jeongin rolled his eyes and said: “Okay, its because you all have these crazy sex stories and I am just struggling imagining having sex with someone.” “There is nothing wrong with that. Not everyone feels the same way about sex.”, Felix said calmly. 

“I know about asexuality and that but I’m still jealous because I want to have crazy one night stands like Hyunjin or just look at someone and be like “I want to fuck you” but I can’t. Every time I think about having sex with someone, I get weirded out because I would have to show everything to this person. How can you prevent from cringing all the time?”, Jeongin said.

Felix felt really bad now. “I don’t really know what to say now. I just can say that I don’t have these crazy sex stories either and that makes me jealous too. And being nervous to open up to someone is just natural”, Felix explained. “You are jealous? I thought that you are like really experienced and that have like 5 guys on each finger that are ready to start something of.”, “no not at all.”, Felix laughed. “I was so overwhelmed when Chan asked for a hook up or Minho asked me out like a minute after. I’m just not used to get so much attention.”, Felix explained. 

“Wow that really surprises me now”, Jeongin said. “You are acting like you aren’t hot as hell too.”, Felix said. Jeongin blushed. “What do you mean hot as hell, I’m just a normal guy while you look like a fucking angel.”, Jeongin said. Now Felix blushed. They were interrupted by a group of students coming in. 

After their shift ended and they were walking back home, Jeongin asked: “Do you want to play games on the weekend again?” “Sure when? Because Hyunjin wanted to do his photoshot on Saturday but I have time on Sunday.”, Felix said. “Okay I will come to your dorm then.”, Jeongin said happily. They splitted paths and went back to their rooms. 

Saturday rolled around and Felix stood infront of a cute house. The whole garden was planted with beautiful flowers and some gardening pots. Yep that suits Hyunjin. The door opened and presented a beautiful woman. “Oh you must be Felix, Hyunjin told us about you.”, She said. “He did?”, Felix asked. “Yes, He is upstairs. The first room on the right.”, Hyunjins Mother told him. Felix took off his shoes and walked upstairs. 

He knocked on the door and walked inside. The room screamed Hyunjin. There were paintings on the wall, colorful curtains, a large rail with clothing and a lot of books on the shelf’s. Hyunjin was laying on his stomach on his bed, drawing in his notebook. “Oh hey.”, He said getting of the bed. “Hey. Your room looks really nice.”, Felix stated. “Thanks, and you look really pretty today.”, Hyunjin answered. Felix was wearing the outfit Hyunjin gifted him. 

They went outside to a small park nearby. Hyunjin took a really big camera with him. They found a cute spot between some trees. “Okay no sit down I will set up the camera.”, Hyunjin explained. Felix did as told and sat down in the grass. “Now look to you left and close your eyes.”, Hyunjin told him. Felix heard some camera noises. “Beautiful.”, Hyunjin said, “now stand next to the tree.” Felix got up and placed himself next to the tree. “Mhh, okay maybe put this leg up on the tree and your arm above your head and then look in my direction.”, Hyunjin explained. 

He took Felixs right arm and put it above his head. Then he stood to Felix left. “Okay now pull out your best model face.”, Hyunjin told him. Felix thought about how he should look, when Hyunjin already took some photos. “That’s great.”, “I didn’t even pull up my model face.”, Felix said. Hyunjin just shrugged: “But you looked great already.” 

They took some more photos on different locations. A lot of them not even from the outfit, just from Felix face. Sometimes with a flower or when the sun shined good on his face. “Okay how about we go back home and you can put on some of my outfits and I do your make up again?”, Hyunjin asked. “Yeah sure.” They walked back to Hyunjins home. 

Back in his room, Hyunjin went to his closet and instantly threw some clothes on his bed. “Okay put this on and wait a moment.”, Hyunjin told Felix and walked out of the room. He gave Felix a long, button up, light pink shirt. It was way too big for Felix and Hyunjin too. Hyunjin came back with a white skirt. “Okay that is from my mom but you will be sitting so it won’t slip down.”, Hyunjin explained. Hyunjin looked with expectation at him. Felix just looked back with a questioning look.

“Put it on”, Hyunjin commanded. “Oh right.”, Felix said. He slowly took his shirt off and felt Hyunjins gaze on him. “Could you look away that makes it really weird.”, Felix begged. “Oh yeah sure. Sorry.”, Hyunjin answered and turned around. Felix put the outfit on and everything was to big. “Okay I’m done”, Felix said. Hyunjin turned around again and said: “alright then go kneel on my bed with your legs on either side of you.” Felix did as told.

“Okay now put your sleeve in your hand and put it like this before your face”, Hyunjin explained while putting his hand before his mouth. “Then grip the shirt with the other hand.” Felix gripped the shirt and pulled a little bit so Hyunjin could see his stomach. “Yes that’s perfect.”, Hyunjin stated and took his camera again. He took some photos while telling Felix some different poses. It felt like every pose got more sexy. 

The shirt Felix was wearing, was almost completely unbuttoned. He was laying on his stomach with his legs in the air. “Is this still okay?”, Hyunjin asked. “Uhm yeah sure. But I wouldn’t mind putting more clothes on.”, Felix answered. “Oh my god I’m sorry I was so in my head. We can make photos in another outfit.”, Hyunjin apologised. “You don’t have to apologise. But yeah lets do something different.”, Felix comforted.

Hyunjin said that he wanted to make some photos of Felix face. That’s why Felix found himself in his own clothes again, sitting in front of Hyunjin. He had his whole make up bag sprawled over his bed. Hyunjin had his hand resting on Felixs cheek, while he drew an eyeliner. Why does this feel so much more intimate than the last time he did my make up? 

Hyunjin closed the eyeliner and looked at Felix. He glanced at Felix with a really intense look on his face, that made Felix blush. Hyunjin snapped out of their staring and said: “I’m gonna take some pictures of you now.” “Yes”, Felix answered. 

Hyunjin put the camera up again and started to take some photos. He slowly pushed a streak of hair from Felixs face. “Could you lay down so I can take a picture from above?”, Hyunjin asked. Felix just nodded and did as told. Hyunjin kneeled next to him now and took some photos. He put the camera away again and just looked at Felix. “You are so pretty.”, He whispered. Felix just blushed more. 

Felix sat up again and said: ”you are gorgeous too.” Hyunjin smiled. The air around them felt really thick now. He gulped. Felix felt his pants tighten, that was the moment he snapped out of his trance again. “Uhm could I use your bathroom?”, He stammered. Hyunjin just looked really surprised. “Uh yeah sure its the next door.”, He explained. “Thanks”, Felix answered now completely out of it. There is no way Hyunjin didn’t see my boner. 

Jerking of in your friends bathroom is something Felix never wants to do again. He came back to Hyunjins room and they looked at the pictures on Hyunjins laptop. They came out really good. Hyunjins artistic talent was something undenieable. “They’re so pretty.”, Felix said. “I’m gonna post some of them on my instagram if that’s okay?”, Hyunjin asked. Felix just nodded. The atmosphere wasn’t so tense anymore. Hyunjin just looked really amused. 

Felix went back home after they looked through the pictures. He fell on his bed trying not to cry from embarrassment. On Sunday, Felix and Jeongin played some games together. They ordered themselves a pizza and had a chill day. That was a good way to distract Felix from the embarrassing situation yesterday. 

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Ever since the complicating situation with Hyunjin on Saturday, Felix was really worked up and horny. It didn’t help at all that Changbin came directly from gym to the lecture. He was wearing a muscle shirt, that showed his gigantic biceps and had still wet hair, what made him look even more hot. Felix was trying hard to concentrate on the lecture but that was not possible. 

When the lecture ended, Felix stared to pack up his things as fast as possible to get away. Changbin looked confused. “Oh I promised Seungmin that we have lunch together.”, Felix explained. Well that isn’t a complete lie. Changbin just nodded. 

Felix went to the bathroom first, to splash some water in his face. Damn it. Get it togehter you are not 14 anymore. After that he went to the cafeteria to meet up with Seungmin. “What took you so long?”, Seungmin asked. “Sorry I went to the bathroom on the way.”, Felix apologised and sat down. They started eating. “So have you planed anything for your birthday party?”, Felix asked. He started eating his salad. 

Seungmin shrugged and answered: “not really, I celebrated with my family on my birthday. Why celebrating again?” “Because its your birthday that is something to celebrate.”, Felix stated. “I turned 19 that is not a crazy age to celebrate big.”, Seungmin said. “Oh come on. What if Jisung and I plan something for you. Or we just go out on Friday and do something.”, Felix asked enthusiastically. 

“You just want a reason to drink.”, Seungmin teased, “but, okay we can go out on Friday. But I don’t want anything crazy. We can go to a club or bar but nothing where I’m in the Center of everything.” “Great we will do something cool I promise.”, Felix yelled happily. Seungmin just smiled at him. “Cute”, he whispered. Felix smiled back. 

They ate in silence again. Felix broke the silence: ”have you seen the pictures Hyunjin posted on Instagram of me?” “Uhm no.”, Seungmin answered. Felix took out his phone and turned it to Seungmin. “They are really good right.”, Felix said excitedly. Seungmin just took the phone in trance and looked through the pictures. “Wow. This is really sexy.”, He said while pointing at the picture where Felix laid on his stomach with the half open shirt. 

“Right? Hyunjin is so talented. It turned out so good.”, Felix enthused. Seungmin was still staring at the picture captivated. The way he stared made Felix blush. Seungmin snapped out of it and said: “you could do that more often. This looks really good.” “Yeah, Hyunjin would be thrilled.”, Felix answered. They just started at each other now. The thought of doing more sexy photos made Felix feel hot. 

That let him snap out of it again. Damn it not again. He tried to distract himself with something. “So what did you get for your birthday?”, Felix asked. Seungmin started telling him about some gifts he got and what he and his family did. He really tried to listen, but it was really hard when he almost had a boner and Seungmin looked so good explaining enthusiastically what great gifts he got. 

Felix was relieved when he could go back to his room to calm down. Jisung was there playing on his guitar when Felix came back. Felix just let himself fall on his bed with a groan. “What’s wrong?”, Jisung asked. “I don’t fucking know. It’s like I’m 13 again.”, Felix whined with his face buried in his mattress. Jisung laughed and asked: “13 again like in getting a boner because you saw a biceps flex or 13 again “I hate everything” kind of thing.” “The first one”, Felix answered still in the mattress. 

Jisung laughed again. “Stop laughing at me.”, Felix whined. “That is a real problem.” “I’m sorry but you just need to get laid.”, Jisung answered. “As if that’s so easy.”, Felix complained. “Come on. I know alone two people that would fuck you on the spot if you asked.”, Jisung said. “Two?”, Felix asked. “Well Chan of course. That isn’t a secret. Then Hyunjin.”, Jisung explained. 

“Hyunjin?”, Felix asked while sitting up on the bed. “These pictures Hyunjin posted of you? If he doesn’t want to fuck you then who would.”, Jisung said. “Huh? Hyunjin just wanted to make a photoshoot that has nothing to do with that.”, Felix said. But the memory of Hyunjin completely invested in creating even more sexy photos came up.

“Hyunjin admitted that he thought about it on our birthday. How do you still think he isn’t interested?”, Jisung asked. “I thought they all ment it like Jeongin, more like a intrusive thought kind of way and not actively thinking about it.”, Felix explained. “Really? Wow and I thought that I’m oblivious.”, Jisung mocked. 

“And what should I do now?”, Felix asked. “I don’t know. Make use of it? experiment a little? Just live your university life on the fullest.”, Jisung said. “You think?”, Felix asked unsure. “I mean only if you want to.”, Jisung stated. “Mhh, I will think about it.”, Felix said. 

It was Friday, Jisung and Felix planed a karaoke night. It was a small round of just Seungmin, Jeongin, Hyunjin, Jisung and Felix. They rented a booth for privacy and started singing. They noticed really fast that all of them could sing really well. Jisung and Seungmin sang some duets, that left everyone breathless, because their voices matched extremely well. 

Seungmin sat down next to Felix. “Is the night we planed good?”, Felix asked. “Yeah, you did a good job.”, Seungmin answered smiling at Felix. Felix smiled back shyly. “Felix you sing again.”, Jeongin demanded. “Nahh, but Seungmin. Would you sing some ballad again? Your voice is so fucking pretty.”, Felix begged. Seungmin just smiled more at him. “Okay.”, Seungmin said while rolling his eyes. 

Seungmin picked shallow by lady gaga. “Uhm its a duet, Felix would you sing with me?”, He pleaded while looking at Felix. Felix blushed and said: ”Uhm okay.” 

The song started and Felix begann singing. Seungmin started at him with a smile. When Seungmins part started, he closed his eyes. He looked really pretty, completely concentrating on the song. It was easy to see that Seungmin has sang the song a lot because he knew the whole lyrics without looking. He opened his eyes again when they had to sing together. Felix looked at the lyrics, but he felt Seungmin staring at him. They locked eyes and it felt like the time stoped for a moment. 

They both snapped out of it when the song endet. The others started klapping, what made Felix blush. Seungmin gave him the brightest smile, what made Felix heart warm up. They sat down again and took some sips from their drinks. 

They all sang some more songs and then chose to go to a club. Felix was completely worked up now. The moment with Seungmin confused him really. But it was good that he could distract himself with the club now. The club was really loud and there were a lot of people there. “I’m gonna go look for Minho, they are here too.”, Jisung explained and walked away. The rest walked towards the bar.

They all got drinks. Hyunjin and Jeongin left to go to the dance floor. Jeongin less ore more forced because Hyunjin wanted to dance. Felix and Seungmin went to a more quiet area, where they could sit down.

“Have you ever thought about doing singing professionally?”, Felix asked. “Yeah I did but I want to work something safe so I can sing as a hobby.”, Seungmin explained. “I guess that makes my mom happy too.” Felix just nodded. “I mean you could be modelling professional too.”, Seungmin said. Felix just smiled modest while looking at his lap. “I will probably stick to the safe option too. So I can be Hyunjins muse as a hobby.”, He answered. 

“I’m not questioning his choice at all. You are so pretty.”, Seungmin said longingly. Felix blushed again and looked up in Seungmins eyes. They stared some more moments at each other. Seungmins gaze fell to Felixs lips. Felixs breath hitched. Seungmin asked with a whisper: “can I kiss you?” Felix nodded enthusiastically what made Seungmin lean in. Seungmins lips felt really soft on his. He put his hands on Felixs cheeks. Felix gripped Seungmins shirt on the side. The kiss was slow at first. Their lips moved slowly on each other. Felix was still a little clumsy but he let Seungmin take the lead. 

The kiss got a little bit more heated, Seungmin licked with his tongue over Felix lips. He let out a gasp and opened his lips a little to let Seungmins tongue excess to his mouth. Felix put his hands on Seungmins shoulders, while one of Seungmins hands moved down to Felix thigh. That made Felix gasp again. Seungmin deepened the kiss more. Felix head was completely empty now. All he could think about was the kiss. 

They slowly broke apart and looked each other in the eyes again. “Wow that was hot”, Felix whispered. “Yeah”, Seungmin agreed. Then they leaned in again. The kiss started heated this time. Seungmin pressed Felix against the wall of the small booth they were sitting in. That made Felix leave a loud noise. They broke apart and Felix pressed a hand on his mouth. “Maybe we should go somewhere where we won’t have and audience?”, Seungmin asked out of breath. Felix just nodded.

They walked to the club bathroom. Felix really tried to hide his boner. It took a second after Seungmin closed the door of the stall to press Felix against the wall. They started to make out again. Felix put his arms around Seungmins shoulders to deepen the kiss. Seungmin put one hand on Felix waist while the other wandered to his thigh again. “Is this okay?”, Seungmin asked while looking at Felix. “Yeah please do more.”, Felix whispered. 

Seungmins hand went upwards until it slipped under Felixs black skirt, he never stopped looking at Felixs face. Felixs breath hitched but he nodded. Seungmins put his hand directly on Felixs clothed dick now. Felix felt his heart hammer in is chest. He never felt something like this before. Seungmin looked at him with worry. “Can I?”, He asked while gripping the waistband of Felixs underwear. “Yes please.”, Felix begged. 

Seungmin pulled down Felixs underwear. He gripped Felixs dick, what made Felix breathe out a moan. Seungmins hand started moving, but he never stopped looking at felix face, making sure he felt comfortable. Felix tightened his arms around Seungmins shoulders and leaned in again. They kissed some more while Seungmin moved his hand up and down Felixs dick. Felix let out some breathy moans between the kiss. All that could be heart in the bathroom were Felix quiet moans and the sound of kissing. 

It went on for a while when Felix started to breath more heavily. “Seu.. Seungmin I think I’m gon..”, Felix whined. “Just relax.”, Seungmin interrupted. He then started to kiss Felixs neck and sped up his moving. Felix mind went blank. His arms left Seungmin and pressed against the wall.  It brought Felix over the edge and he came in Seungmins hand with a quiet moan. They stayed like that for a second. 

Felix tried to calm down his breathing while Seungmin wiped up the cum from his hand. Felix pulled his underwear up again. When he calmed down again he asked: “what about you?”, Oh I’m fine.”, Seungmin answered with a smile. “Really?”, Felix asked unsure. Seungmin just pressed a kiss on him and said: “yeah, I am.” 

They walked out again to meet up with the others. Felix was relieved that no one suspected anything. That would have been embarrassing to explain. They stayed some more in the club, but Felix was really tired now, because he came just minutes ago. After some dancing and trying to find Jisung to let him know, that they would be going home, they went home. Felix fell on his bed and sleep took over really fast. 

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Felix woke up with Jisung scrolling through TikTok. “Finally awake?”, He asked. “Yeah”, Felix answered with a lazy smile. The last night came back to his head, what made him blush. “So”, Jisung started, “you seem really relaxed. Finally got to blow of some steam?”, Jisung lifted an eyebrow in question. “Maybe”, Felix mumbled with a smile. 

“With who? I want to know everything.”, Jisung yelled while kicking his feet in the air. “Do I have to?”, Felix asked quietly. “Of course.”, Jisung whined. Then he let out a gasp “is it someone we’re friends with?” Felix just nodded while looking on the floor. “Oh my god. Now you really have to tell me.”, Jisung yelled. 

Felix tried to calm down a little. Why am I so embarrassed? “Uhm Seungmin.”, Felix mumbled out. “Seungmin?”, Jisung asked in shock. “Okay that makes sense. He was seconds away from ripping your clothes off after your duet.”, He said. “You think?”, Felix asked. “Wow how can someone be this oblivious.”, Jisung laughed. 

“What exactly did you do?”, Jisung asked fully invested again. “Do you really want to know that?”, Felix asked unsure why Jisung wanted to know so much about his sexlife. “Yes of course.”, Jisung said. “Alright but you have to tell me what you did with Minho last night because its clear that you didn’t talk about your “thing”.”, Felix stated. Jisung just nodded a little embarrassed. “Okay we talked a little about our hobbies and he called me pretty, then there was this moment and he asked me if we could kiss.” Jisung let out a squeak, that Felix just ignored. 

“We were making out then and it was really hot. It got a little heated so we went to the bathroom, where he gave me a handjob.”, Felix explained. “In the club bathroom. How dirty.”, Jisung gasped. Felix just smiled and said: ”now you tell me.”

“Okay I met up with him in the club and we started dancing. It started to get heated really quick and then we went outside so he could smoke. That was what he told me at least, because the moment we were outside he stuck his tongue down my throat.”, Jisung explained. “And nothing more happened? Not even talking.”, Felix asked. “Would I have slept here if something happened?”, Jisung asked sarcastically. “And no we didn’t talk” Jisung looked a little sad now. “You will find the time to talk. I’m sure”, Felix tried to comfort. “Yeah I hope so.”, Jisung said tired. 

Felix was sitting in the cafeteria with Changbin, they were talking about their old school. “Yeah and then mr.park.” “This son of a bitch.”, Felix stated. That made Changbin laugh. “Why are you so shocked. Everyone hated him.”, Felix asked. “Not surprised. It’s just funny that no one likes him.”, Changbin explained. “He got me detention for trying to stop a fight, because I was pulling the guy away.”, He said. 

“You think that is shitty. He said in my face, infront of the whole class, that he can understand why no one wants to make group projects with me.”, Felix stated. “Oh damn what a disgusting piece of shit.”, Changbin said. “Well, I didn’t really let it get to me because I heard that shit every day, but it hurt that a teacher said it.”, Felix explained. “Why was everyone at school so disgusting towards you?”, Changbin asked concerned. 

“Because I got a crush on my then best friend, who then proceeded to tell everyone that I’m gay. And I guess you know that our school isn’t open minded at all.”, Felix shrugged. It was a topic he always tried to shrug off, just to prevent him from crying. “I guess I was lucky then that I could tell at least one friend and no one else found out.”, Changbin answered. Now everything is sad. 

“There you are”, Chan interrupted them. Thank god. “Felix I finally got your shirt.” He pressed Felix the white shirt in the hand. “Oh thanks. Took you only like a month.”, Felix teased. “Haha, at least be happy that it got cleaned professionally”, Chan answered playfully offended while sitting down next to Changbin. “Should we hit the gym later?”, he asked Changbin. “Sure.”, Changbin answered. A sight that Felix really would love to see. Just watching them would be creepy right? 

“Do you want to join?”, Changbin asked Felix. “Oh no I don’t really work out.”, He answered. “I mean you don’t have to do weight lifting. You could do something easy too, just to exercise sometime.”, Chan suggested. “Maybe sometime but not today”, Felix said while biting in his chocolate croissant. The other two just laughed at that. 

It was a Thursday. Felix was at Hyunjins again, but this time just to watch some movie. They made themself comfortable on Hyunjins bed and watched to all the boys I loved before. Hyunjin convinced Felix to watch it. The movie came to an end and Hyunjin got up. “I’m gonna go to the bathroom real quick. We could watch the second movie after.”, Hyunjin explained happily and walked out. 

Felix gazed a little trough Hyunjins room until it fell to the notebook on the nightstand. He took it and looked at the different drawings. It were some flowers, some animals and couples holding hands. But the last ones were forgotten when Felix came to the newes pages. It were drawings of him. Just his face but also his full body. He recognised one as the photoshoot with the half open shirt. Felix felt the heat on his whole body. He is fucking drawing me and drawing me sexy at that. 

Hyunjin came back into the room and they just stared at each other. “You have been drawing me?”, Felix asked in a whisper. He really had to tone down his excitement. Hyunjin just gulped and answered: “well yes. I always draw things I think are pretty.” Felix started to blush. He really thought about if he should say the next thing but it was to late when it slipped out of him.

“You could draw me again.” Hyunjin just stared and said: “now?” Felix just nodded shyly. He couldn’t even register how fast Hyunjin sprinted up and got a big canvas and a set with pencils. “So how would you like to be drawn.”, He muttered out. It was easy to see how excited Hyunjin was. Felix took all of his courage together and said: “like this but more sexy maybe?” He showed Hyunjin the drawing of the sexy photoshoot. Hyunjin just stared for a moment and then snapped out of it. “Yeah sure. Do a pose you are comfortable with and help yourself with clothes from my wardrobe.”, He said and got up to lock the door. “I don’t want my parents interrupting. 

Felix got up to look through the closet. He took out a almost see through, long, laced jacket. Hyunjin just looked more shocked now. “Do what you are comfortable with, because I’m okay with everything you will offer.”, He stated. Felix nodded again and took of his shirt and his sweatpants. He knew Hyunjin was staring at his back, but that thought only made him feel hotter. He kept his underwear on for now and sat on Hyunjins bed. Felix leaned on the headboard and bend his legs to one side. 

Hyunjin put on some music and sat infront of his canvas. He gave Felix a assuring smile and started to draw. Felix almost felt like Rose in titanic. That gave felix another thought. “Wait.”, Felix said. Hyunjin looked up concerned. “Uhm can I take of my underwear too?”, Felix asked quietly. Hyunjin just blinked and nodded: “only if your comfortable” “I am”, Felix assured. He slowly took of his underwear, not leaving the eye contact with Hyunjin. The latter just looked really shocked now but still really excited. 

Felix leaned back again and tried to ignore is boner. His gaze fell down to Hyunjins lap and saw, to his relief, that Hyunjin was hard too. Felix relaxed more, he closed he eyes and listened to the quiet music and the pencil scratching over the canvas. He opened his eyes from time to time, just to see Hyunjin extremely concentrated. His gaze studied Felix and went back to the canvas to draw. How can someone look this fucking hot. 

After a while, Hyunjin spoke up: “Do you want to look at it?” Felix nodded in excitement. Hyunjin turned the canvas around to show his drawing. It was beautiful and really detailed. He got every freckle and hairstreak right. Felix never felt this desired before. He stared at the picture so long that he didn’t notice Hyunjin looking expectant at him. 

“It looks beautiful.”, Felix whispered. “You think?”, Hyunjin asked modestly. Felix nodded while giving Hyunjin a smile. They stared at each other longer now. The air around them shifted completely now. Hyunjins gaze wandered up and down Felix body. Normally that would make him fell self conscious, but he felt more like a artwork that Hyunjin was enchanted by. “Can I kiss you?”, Hyunjin whispered. “Yes”, Felix mumbled while nodding.

Hyunjin sat on the bed next to him really fast and then cupped Felix cheeks. He leaned in. It wasn’t heated, considering the tension in the room. They kissed slow with Hyunjin taking the lead. Felix didn’t know how much time flew by with them just kissing. He didn’t care, all he could think of right now was the hot artist that was kissing him. 

Hyunjin started to press Felix onto the bed and deepen the kiss. He was now full on top of felix, one hand still cupping his face while the other arm held him up. Felix put one hand on Hyunjins neck while the other rested on his waist. Hyunjin slipped his tongue inside Felixs mouth, what made the kiss more heated. The hand on his cheek slowly wandered down Felixs body. 

Felix let out a gasp when Hyunjin touched his hip. Hyunjin wandered with his mouth down to felix neck to suck there. Felix leaned into that feeling while squeezing his arms on Hyunjins back. 

Hyunjin started to kiss down Felixs body. He stopped at Felixs belly button and looked up. “Should I go on?”, He whispered. “Yes, please touch me”, Felix whined out. He didn’t know where the confidence came from. Maybe from being drawn naked an hour long. Hyunjin just started to kiss Felixs stomach more. He went down until he was face to face with Felixs dick. He send one last questioning look to Felix, that Felix just answered with an enthusiastic nod. 

He then grabbed Felix dick. Felix let out a quiet whine. Hyunjin just smiled and licked away the drops of precum. That made Felix squirm and he let out a breathy moan. Hyunjin took that as a sign and took Felixs tip in his mouth. He sunk down completely and came up slowly again. Felix desperately tried to hold in his moans. 

His whole mind went blank, the only thing that mattered now was Hyunjins mouth working magic on his body. It was a indescribable feeling, Felix just drowned in. Hyunjin started to lick on one vein on his dick, which made Felix see stars. “Hyun.. Hyunjin. I’m gonna cu..”, He stuttered. Hyunjin just sped up the pace. It didn’t take long until Felix came with a moan, that he tried to quiet down with his hand over his mouth. He didn’t realise at first that Hyunjin swallowed everything until he came up again to kiss Felix. 

“How was that?”, Hyunjin whispered while kissing Felixs neck. “In- incredible”, Felix breathed out. Felix pulled on the waistband off Hyunjins sweatpants. “Can I?”, He asked. “Do what you are comfortable with I’m okay with everything”, Hyunjin whispered while kissing Felixs neck. Felix pulled down Hyunjins pants and underwear in one go. 

Felix pushed Hyunjin up into a sitting position. He kissed him again and let his hand wander down Hyunjins body. Felix came to a stop right before Hyunjins cock. He looked up again just to find Hyunjin giving him a reassuring nod. Felix put his hand on Hyunjins dick and slowly started stroking it. 

Hyunjin let out a breathy moan, but he just started to kiss Felix neck again. Felix set a steady pace, he brushed with his thumb over Hyunjins tip and watched precum spill from it. The sight almost made Felix hard again. He massaged the tip even more, what made Hyunjin let out a quiet moan next to his ear. Now Felix took the lead to start kissing Hyunjins neck. He moved his hand on Hyunjins cock up and down again. 

Hyunjin let out a lot of breathy moans. His breath quickened, what made Felix move his hand faster. “Felix I’m gonna”, Hyunjin tried to say, but was interrupted by Felix kissing him again. He moved his hand until Hyunjin broke the kiss again to let out a whiny moan. He then came all over Felixs hand. Felix wiped up his hand on some tissues on the nightstand, while Hyunjin tried to get his breath back. “That was amazing.”, Hyunjin whispered. 

Felix cupped Hyunjins face again to kiss him. They kissed some more, but then got dressed again. Hyunjin convinced Felix to stay the night, because it was already late. They made themself comfortable on Hyunjins bed and started to cuddle until they fell asleep. 

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The morning after went by really fast. Hyunjin and Felix had breakfast and went to their lectures after. They didn’t talk about what they did the night before. But there wasn’t a weird tension either. It was like it never happened. 

Felix sat down next to Seungmin and gave him a smile. They haven’t talked about their make out  either. They just gave each other some glances, but nothing more. Felix didn’t mind. It was better when they didn’t talk about what happened, because Felix didn’t have to question anything then. 

They had lunch in a comfortable silence, when Changbin and Jeongin came to their table. “We are going to the gym do you want to join?”, Changbin asked. “Since when do you guys hang out?”, Seungmin asked Jeongin. “Since we met in gym last week.”, Jeongin answered. Seungmin just nodded with a pissed look. “So do you want to join this time?”, Changbin asked again with a lifted brow. 

It won’t hurt working out, and I can watch Changbin and Jeongin train their muscles. “Fine I will join.”, Felix said. Changbin and Jeongin gave each other a high five. “Did you just invite me, so you can watch me getting sweaty?”, Felix asked offended. “Well, isn’t that the only reason you said yes? So you could watch us?”, Changbin teased. “I deny these accusations.”, Felix gasped. 

After lunch, Felix went to his room to get some work out clothes. Jeongin joined him. The moment the door closed he asked: “can I tell you something?” “Uhm sure”, Felix answered surprised. “I did something on Seungmins birthday party, something I can’t forget.”, He mumbled. “Something bad?”, Felix asked worried. “No nothing bad. It’s just.”, He paused and let out a breath. “Hyunjin and I kissed. And we haven’t talked about what it meant and that is confusing me.”

Oh “I don’t know what to say.”, Felix stuttered. “You don’t have to, I just wanted to tell someone, because I wanted to get it out of my head.”, Jeongin assured while sitting down on Felixs bed. Felix really debated if he should tell Jeongin about Hyunjin and him. If I tell him the truth, he might get his answers. “Hyunjin and I had something going on too yesterday.”, Felix admitted quietly. Jeongin looked really hurt now. 

“I didn’t know about you two. And Hyunjin didn’t tell me either. I’m sorry.”, Felix apologised. “It’s not your fault. I just thought that I finally get to find out how falling in love feels like. But I don’t think Hyunjin is the right person for that.”, Jeongin mumbled. Felix sat down next to him. “You know that you can’t choose, which person you fall in love with right?.”, Felix asked calmly while stroking Jeongins back. “I know. I just thought that if I find some person I like, that it will happen automatically.”, Jeongin explained. 

“It sadly doesn’t work like that. I would be dating Minho now, if it did.”, Felix comforted. Jeongin fell back with a groan: “why do I have to be so complicated. Why can’t I fall in love with someone like everybody else.” Felix laid down next to him and said: “I don’t think that I have a good advice for that. I can just say that maybe you will fall in love with the right person one day or never. Both is fine as long as you are happy.” 

“But I want to date and all that. Who would want to date me when they aren’t even sure if I love them.”, Jeongin stated. That broke Felixs heart. Jeongin looked like he was on the verge of tears. “The right person will accept that and love you regardless.”, Felix tried to comfort. Jeongin just looked at Felix and smiled: “I hope you’re right.” Felix send him a smile back. 

“Would you judge me if I did the same shit Hyunjin did?”, Felix broke the silence. “What do you mean?”, Jeongin questioned. “I made out with Seungmin on his birthday and we didn’t talk about that either.”, Felix admitted. “I don’t judge Hyunjin and I won’t judge you.”, Jeongin answered. “You just want to experiment a little and Hyunjin doesn’t want something serious too. I should have seen that the moment he kissed me.”

“You don’t have to judge yourself for thinking that there could be more than just a kiss.”, Felix comforted him. “I’m not judging myself. I was trying to comfort you.”, Jeongin explained. “Thank you.”, Felix answered. They stared at each other for some moments until they were interrupted by Changbin knocking on the door. 

They were in the Gym now. Felix was walking on a treadmill, also the perfect spot to watch Changbin do deadlifts. He was so fixated on him that he didn’t see Chan standing next to him. “Hey”, Chan said what took Felix so off guard that he let out a scream. Some guys looked at him and Jeongin who was spotting Changbin looked up confused. “Was I interrupting you with something?”, Chan teased. “No”, Felix stuttered, what made Chan laugh. 

“Bang Chan there you are”, Changbin interrupted them. Chan looked like he was caught smoking by his mother. “What happened?”, Felix asked. “This motherfucker went out of our way the whole week, just so he didn’t have to celebrate his birthday.”, Changbin explained. “Your birthday? When?”, Felix asked Chan in shock. “On Wednesday.”, Chan admitted. “Why didn’t you tell anyone?”, Felix asked. Chan just shrugged and said: “my birthday is just like every other day. There is no need to celebrate.” 

“What a stupid way of thinking. Come on let us do something today.”, Felix said. “I don’t really want to.”, Chan answered. “Oh please, we will make something fun.”, Felix begged, pulling the cutest face he could. “Okay”, Chan answered defeated. “But nothing crazy” “damn he could go together with Seungmin, with this much motivation.”, Jeongin said sarcastically.

They all started to work out again. Felix was on the bicycle this time, it gave him a good view of Chan and Jeongin doing some shoulder workouts. 

He was done with his exercise for now. Not that he even knew what he was doing. He walked inside the locker room and picked up his bag. Felix opened one shower stall and jumped, because infront of him was Changbin, comletely naked. “Oh shit, I’m sorry.”, He stuttered out, while trying not to look down. “It’s okay”, Changbin laughed. They just stared into each others eyes for a moment. “Oh right. I will take a different one.”, Felix mumbled out. 

“I mean you could join if you want to?”, Changbin said. Felix felt his head getting red. “Uhm, maybe not in a public bathroom.”, Felix answered. He turned around and went inside a different stall. That was fucking embarrassing. 

In the evening, Felix and Jisung got ready for Chans birthday party. “Are you and Minho finally gonna talk?”, Felix asked. “I will try, but I think he doesn’t want to.”, Jisung explained. “Why do you think that?”, Felix asked confused. “Because we were sitting by the cute stream just chilling. I thought this was the moment we could talk and asked him what the kiss ment.”, Jisung said. “He then kissed me again and I’m a weak man, so I just forgot what I was asking.” 

“So you just made out again?”, Felix stated. Jisung looked at his feet embarrassed. “Don’t tell me there was more.”, Felix begged. Jisung just looked up with a sorry expression. “What did you do?”, Felix whined. “He sucked me off and we acted like nothing happened afterwards.”, Jisung mumbled. “Okay you really need to talk today and if he wants to avoid the question. You have to resist his temptation.”, Felix commanded. “I will try”, Jisung mumbled. 

It knocked on the door. Felix opened it for Changbin. “Are you ready?”, He asked. “Jep”, Felix and Jisung answered. They went outside to meet up with Jeongin and Minho. “So where are we going today?”, Felix asked. “We pick up Chan first and then we go to this cool club, that’s near Chans apartment.”, Minho explained. They got inside the bus and drove to Chans place. 

They rang at his door. Chan came down looking like the wet dream of every person in the world. He was wearing some ripped, baggy jeans and a button up shirt, that was almost cropped and half unbuttoned. “You got more plans for today?”, Minho asked sarcastically. “Well if you all drag me out to a club, I’m gonna make it worth it.”, He answered. They walked the down the street until the got to a expensive looking club. 

“You know that we are all just university students with little to no money right?”, Felix whispered to Changbin. “I don’t think that’s gonna be a problem for you. There are so many rich old men in there that will buy you a drink, if you just look at them.”, Changbin explained. Disgusting “Yeah no. I’m gonna stick to water.”, Felix answered. “Same”, Jeongin said, looking at the people in the line. “All these people look like they came straight up from the met gala.” 

They came forward to the entrance. The security guard looked at them disgusted. “What do you want in here?”, He asked. “Hi uhm we are celebrating my birthday, it would be great if we could get in fast?”, Chan said while coming forward. The security guard immediately fumbled and let them in. “How the fuck did that work?”, Felix asked. “I know the owner of the club and I go here really often, so the security knows me.”, Chan explained. Felix and Jisung just gave each other a impressed look. 

It was really loud inside and it looked just as expensive as seemed from the outside. “So the first round is on me.”, Chan said. They walked towards the bar and ordered their drinks. “You wanna go dance?”, Minho asked Jisung. “Sure”, he answered and walked away. Felix just gave him a last look. “I will try”, Jisung mouthed. 

“So I’m gonna look for someone, have fun.”, Chan explained and walked away. “Wait.”, Changbin said while running after him. “Now we’re alone, that was fast.”, Jeongin stated. “Should we sit down there?”, Felix said while pointing at a booth in the corner. Jeongin nodded and they went to the booth. 

“It was a mistake wearing these shoes.”, Felix whined. Jeongin looked under the table to get a look. “A heel is always a dumb idea for a club. Why did you even choose them?”, He asked. “Because they’re cute and match the outfit so well.”, Felix explained. He was wearing a black skirt, a purple cardigan and some white over knee socks. The black shoes had a little heel. Jeongin just laughed: “As long as I don’t have to carry you home.” Felix just smiled back. “Well then I’m asking Changbin.”, He teased. 

They were talking some more until their drinks were empty. “Should I get us some water now?”, Jeongin asked. Felix just nodded. Jeongin got up and walked towards the bar. Felix watched after him, but then a guy stood in front of him. Felix looked up with a questioning look. The guy was about 50 maybe 60 and he smiled a little creepy. “Can I help you?”, Felix asked. “Oh I saw you from over there and I just had to talk to you. You are so gorgeous.”, The guy said. “Uhm thank you?”, Felix answered. Its a nice compliment but he could be my grandpa. 

“May I sit down.”, The guy asked while sitting down. Felix tensed up. “So are you often here?”, He asked. “No the first time”, Felix answered. “Freshly 18? Or why is that your first time?”, help. “Uhm no I’m 19. And I just went to other clubs before”, Felix answered while looking around him for Jeongin. 

“and why are you sitting here all by yourself?”, He asked while checking out Felix. “Uhm, because my boyfriend is getting us new drinks.”, Felix answered. It was the best to just say he’s taken. Maybe the guy will leave then. “Your boyfriend?”, The guy asked. “I could invite both of you to my apartment.”, I need to throw up. “Uhh no. We are in a monogamous relationship.”, Felix tried to explain. “But its always good to experiment new things in a relationship.”, The guy interrupted him. 

To Felixs relief, Jeongin came back with a confused expression. “Babe you’re back.”, Felix said while jumping up. He hugged Jeongin and mumbled in his ear: “play along” “yeah the line was hell, sorry that it took so long. And who are you?”, Jeongin overplayed while looking at the guy. “My name is Arthur and I offered you pretty boyfriend a night of passion for us three.”, He said while offering Jeongin his hand. The poor boy looked completely traumatised. “Uhm definitely not.”, He answered. “Let us go somewhere else.” He gave Felix his drink and put an arm around him. They turned around and walked inside the crowd. 

“I feel like I have to shower now”, Felix spat out. “Why are old men so disgusting?”, Jeongin asked while checking if the guy followed them. “I think I need some fresh air now.”, Felix stated. Jeongin just nodded and they walked outside to the smoking area. 

There was Changbin standing with Chan. “Do you want to smoke too?”, Changbin asked. “No we were fleeing some old creep.”, Jeongin explained. Changbin lifted a brow. “He hit on me, so I lied about Jeongin being my boyfriend and he just suggested a threesome.”, Felix elaborated. “Or in his words a night of passion for us three.”, Jeongin quoted. Both Chan and Changbin made a disgusted face. “We just hope that he didn’t follow us.”, Jeongin said. 

They stood some more time outside. Chan walked away at some point, with the words “I want sex now”. So there were just Changbin, Jeongin and Felix left. I hope Minho and Jisung talked. They decided to go to the bar again and order one last expensive drink. 

Felix was sitting in between Changbin and Jeongin on some bar chairs. “There is a guy weirdly staring at us?”, Changbin said out of nowhere. Felix just glanced in the direction and made eye contact with Arthur, who stepped towards them. Shit. “It’s him.”, Felix mumbled. Jeongin just looked shocked and Felix just said: ”Kiss me maybe he will leave then.” “What how would that scare him away?”, Jeongin asked. “He may leave us if we already have a third.”, He suggested. 

Then Changbin just grabbed Felix face and kissed him. Felix broke the kiss again and turned towards Jeongin, who just put an arm around Felix and pressed a kiss on his cheek. “He walked away again.”, Changbin said. Jeongin and Felix let out a relieved breath. “Holy shit that worked.”, Felix said. “Wouldn’t have been surprised if he wanted to start an Orgie.”, Jeongin deadpanned. 

Felix tried to calm down his breath again. The way he grabbed me holy shit. They emptied their drinks and went home again. Minho texted Changbin that they shouldn’t worry about Jisung and him. When they came back to the dorms and walked inside the building. Felix and Changbin said good night to Jeongin. “Why exactly are you walking me to my dorm?”, Felix broke the silence. “My dorm is in the same direction.”, Changbin defended himself. 

He hesitated a moment and suggested: “And we could finish that, what you didn’t want to do in a public bathroom.”, Felix just gulped and looked at Changbin, who had a smug expression on his face. “Yeah lets do that.”, Felix answered. 

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The door wasn’t even fully closed yet, but Changbin already pressed Felix on the wall. The kiss was really hungry. Felix broke the kiss and asked out of breath: “what about your roommate?” “He is with his girlfriend all the time.”, Changbin whispered over Felixs neck. That send a shiver over Felixs body. They both stumbled while trying to pull of their shoes. He pushed them on Changbins bed and sat on his lap. They started to make out again, while Changbin tried to lift Felixs cardigan. 

Felix took the hint and pulled of his cardigan and tank top underneath. Changbins hands gently wandered over Felix body. Felix leaned in on the touch and tried to lift Changbins shirt too. He pulled the shirt off, which revealed Changbins muscular body. If Felix wasn’t hard before, he definitely was now. He hovered with his hands over Changbins abs.

They started to kiss again. After a while, Felix wandered onto the floor, while kissing all over Changbins body. He tried unbuttoning Changbins pants. His dick sprung free and Felix just gulped. It was average size, but Felix was still nervous about to give his first blowjob. He looked up again, to find Changbin giving him an enthusiastic nod. 

Felix took Changbins cock in his hand and started to stroke it a little. Changbin let out a breath and leaned back. Felix let out a last confident breath and started to lick over the tip. He had one hand resting on the shaft while the other rested on Changbins thigh. Felix took the whole tip inside his mouth and started sucking. He heard Changbin letting out some breathy moans. 

That gave him enough confidence to sink down on the dick in his hand. He took it all the way in until he felt the cock at the back on his throat, what made him choke. Felix pulled off again and let out some coughs. “Shit is everything okay?”, Changbin asked concerned. “Yeah I just got a little to excited there.”, Felix explained while trying to get his breath back. “You don’t have to do this.”, Changbin replied. “No. I want to it’s just my first time sucking someone off.”, Felix said. “Your first time? Are you really sure that you want to do this.”, Changbin asked again. 

“Yes I am sure.”, Felix answered. “Okay just go easy on yourself. You can stop anytime if you don’t want to anymore.”, Changbin explained. “Okay” Felix took Changbins dick in his hand again and licked over the shaft. Changbin let out a moan again and leaned back. Felix took the dick in his mouth again, he didn’t push it to far this time. He held a steady pace of just moving up and down, while looking up to Changbin from time to time. 

Changbin was enjoying every moment of it. He gently grabbed Felix hair, but didn’t push him down, he just let his hand rest there. The feeling of being grabbed, made Felix even harder. He fastened his pace and took Changbins dick even deeper with every thrust. Changbin just moaned even more: “Felix I’m close.” Changbin tried to pull Felix off, but he stayed there, trying to bring him over the edge. Changbin came inside Felix mouth and he tried to swallow it, but ultimately choked on it. 

Felix spit the whole load over himself while coughing. Changbin, who tried to get his breath back, took Felixs face between his hands and said: “I tried to pull you off. You shouldn’t have tried to swallow it.” Felix stopped coughing at some point and answered: “it looks so easy in porn, that’s why I tried it.” “You shouldn’t take porn as a reference for the reality.”, Changbin replied calmly. “Yeah I should have realised that sooner.”, Felix answered. Changbin just pulled Felix on his lab again to kiss him. 

They kissed some more. Felix tried to get a little relief by grinding on Changbins lap. To Felix surprise, felt it really good. He deepened the kiss and grinded some more on Changbins lab. “God. You are turning me crazy.”, Changbin said while flipping them and pushing Felix on the mattress. Felix let out a yelp, but that was replaced by a moan when Changbin started to thrust forward to grind on Felixs clothed ass. “Every part of your body is perfect.”, Changbin whispered inside Felixs ear. 

Changbins hands wandered over Felixs body to his thighs. He pushed Felixs skirt up and pulled at the waistband of his underwear. “And you are always wearing these sexy skirts”, He moaned put while kissing down Felixs upper body. Felix just let out some breathy moans. “Can I?”, Changbin asked still pulling at Felixs underwear. “Yes please.”, Felix moaned out. Changbin pulled the underwear off, but let the skirt on. 

Changbin took Felixs leg in his hand and started to kiss down on it. He was face to face with Felix cock now, but he just ignored it, what made Felix breath out a whine. Changbin just went lower with his kisses until he reached Felixs hole. He licked over it, what made Felix let out a surprised moan. He started to lick over it with a set pace. Felix had never felt something like that before. Changbins tongue was skilled and that made Felix a moaning mess. At some point grabbed Changbin Felix dick too. He was licking Felix into oblivion and stroking him at the same time. Felix felt like he could see stars. 

“Changbin I’m gonna cum.”, Felix stuttered out. Changbin just stroked his cock faster, what brought Felix over the edge. He let out a last whiny moan before he came all over himself and Changbins head. He tried to get his breath back while Changbin came up again to kiss all over his face. They stayed like that for some minutes until Changbin broke the silence: “That was so hot, but I think that we should clean up now. How about we go shower.” “Yeah that sounds good.”, Felix whispered tiredly. 

They took a long warm shower together. There wasn’t anything sexual with it. Just them cleaning each other in a pleasant silence. They went to bed after they finished showering. Just lazily  cuddling until they fell asleep. 

The next morning came fast. Felix said goodbye to Changbin, after getting some fresh sweatpants from him, because he ruined his skirt with cum the night before. Felix just walked tiredly back to his room. He was about to open the door, when he saw Jisung sneak towards their room. 

They just stared at each other for a moment. “You didn’t sleep here tonight?”, Felix asked with a lifted brow. “Those pants aren’t yours.”, Jisung defended himself. Both looked embarrassed on the floor. “I think it’s for the best if we make us some coffee and then talk about it.”, Felix stated. “Jep”, Jisung agreed. They went inside and made some coffee. After that, they sat on their beds opposite of each other. 

“So. Who wants to start?”, Jisung asked. “I already know where you spent the night. I just want to know why?”, Felix teased. Jisung let out a embarrassed breath and cleaned his throat. “Uhm yeah. I told him that we should talk. So he suggested that we should go to a more quiet place aka his room. We were kissing again, but I was stronger this time and stopped it. I told him that we should talk and we talked.”, Jisung explained. “You talked? really? how did it go?”, Felix asked surprised. 

Jisung looked down embarrassed again. “We agreed to friends with benefits”, He mumbled. “You Idiot.”, Felix yelled and threw a pillow at Jisung. “What was I supposed to do. Minho doesn’t want a relationship and the sex was so fucking good.”, Jisung yelled back. “You had sex with him?!”, Felix screamed. “I told you, that I’m a weak man.”, Jisung yelled back. 

They started to laugh at the whole situation. When they calmed down again Felix asked: “but seriously. That isn’t what you wanted, so why the fuck did you agree?” “Because I want to be with him and this is the closest I can get. And because I’m so delusional, that I think that I can change his mind.”, Jisung admitted. “You know that that isn’t the solution.”, Felix asked. “Yeah. But I’m just gonna leave it like that for some time and if nothing changes, I will stop it.”, Jisung said. Felix just nodded.

“So different topic now. Where were you coming from?”, Jisung asked. Felix turned red again while thinking about the last night. “I went home with Changbin.”, He mumbled. “Changbin?”, Jisung asked excitedly. “What happened?” “Well we were at the gym yesterday and I mistakenly stepped inside his shower stall. He asked me if I wanted to join but I declined. But after the club, we walked in the same direction and he asked me if we want to finish what we could have started at the gym.”, He explained. 

“What did you do then. Did he fuck you?”, Jisung teased. “Why do you always want to know that?”, Felix laughed. “But no. I sucked him of and then he ate me out.” “Why no fucking?”, Jisung asked. “Neither of us initiated it and if I’m honest. I’m still kinda scared of that.”, Felix answered. “Yeah I get that. Don’t make the same mistake I did and do it without good preparation or really spontaneous. That wasn’t a really pleasant experience.”, Jisung explained. This poor boy. 

“How was it with Minho then?”, Felix asked. “It was so fucking good. He was really sweet the whole time and he also took his time with everything. He asked me how I felt during it and was really gentle all the time.”, Jisung enthused. That made Felix smile. He was glad that Minho wasn’t some fuck boy, that didn’t care about the other part. “So have your first time with someone you feel safe with.”, Jisung stated. “Yeah, I will do that.”, Felix answered. 

Later that day, Felix had another shift with Jeongin at the café. There were some customers in the café but they were all served. Felix and Jeongin were busy cleaning the counter. Jeongin let out a sigh. “What’s wrong?”, Felix asked. “Seungmin is nagging me because I hang out with Changbin. That’s just fucking kindergarden behaviour.”, Jeongin answered. “Why is he so obsessed with him? Changbin already told us that the only reason, why he doesn’t like him. Is because Seungmin has one sided beef.”, Felix replied. 

“Right. And now he’s mad at me because I hang out with Changbin. How old are we 5?”, Jeongin whined. “Maybe I could talk to him sometime”, Felix offered. “Yeah maybe he will listen to you.”, Jeongin answered. The doorbell rang and Chan came in. “Hey, what are you doing here?”, Felix asked. “Just left the sweet girl from yesterday and wanted something good to eat after.”, Chan explained. 

“You stayed with your hook up until 5pm?”, Jeongin asked. “Well we had a good night yesterday and we had a good morning too. After that I offered to cook for us, which she was really happy about. Yeah and then we just had a relaxing afternoon together.”, He explained. “Wow I think you are the only person in the world, that acts like that after a hook up.”, Felix said. “I mean I like sex, but I also like spending quality time with someone. And she was happy about that too. So win win I guess.”, Chan replied. 

“If more people were like you, I would have hook ups too. That sounds so relaxing.”, Jeongin answered. “But why don’t you want a relationship, if you have hook ups like that?”, Felix asked curious. Chans expression changed to something unreadable now. “Oh my god sorry. That was really invasive. I’m sorry.”, Felix apologised. “It’s okay.”, Chan comforted. “It’s just some negative experiences in the past.” “Oh I’m sorry.”, Felix said. “Well but I’m happy with how it is now. Can you give me a hot chocolate and a croissant now?”, Chan changed the topic. 

“Will do that.”, Jeongin answered starting the machine. Felix just gave Chan a sorry smile again as a apology. Chan just gave him a smile back and sat down on the next table. Jisung words came back in Felixs mind. “So have your first time with someone you feel safe with.”, Felix looked up at Chan, who was scrolling through his phone, again. He is supposedly really sweet during it and I know that he interested in me too. That made Felix determined. He wants his first time with Chan. 

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Felix didn’t really listen to what his professor was saying. All he could think about was how do I ask someone to me my first? All the experiences he collected so far, happened in the heat of the moment. But how can he initiate sex. 

Seungmin and Changbin next to him were busy giving each other pissed looks, that they didn’t even noticed Felix completely zoning off. Felix didn’t even realise when the lecture endet. “Felix?”, Seungmin said a little louder now. “Oh yeah what’s up?”, Felix answered startled. “You didn’t answer me for like half a minute. What were you thinking about?”, Seungmin asked concerned. “Oh nothing serious. I didn’t get a good sleep tonight.”, Felix answered. Well it wasn’t a complete lie. 

The moment he got the idea of sleeping with Chan, he couldn’t think of something else. Completely normal behaviour. Seungmin just gave him a suspicious look, but didn’t say more. “But I have something to ask you.”, Felix stated. They were walking down the hall together now. “What do you want to ask me?”, Seungmin asked excitedly. 

“It’s nothing crazy. It’s just that Jeongin told me how you are mad at him for hanging out with Changbin and it would be helpful if you just told us what your problem with him is?”, Felix explained. Seungmins face fell into a frown. “I don’t owe anyone of you an explanation.”, He stated. “Well you can’t be mad then, if we hang out with him.”, Felix answered. 

Seungmin just let out a huff and went away. Felix stood there completely dumbfounded. 

The small argument destroyed Felix mood completely. He came to the café with a pissed look on his face. “Who insulted you today?”, Hyunjin teased. “Your fucking roommate is so complicated.”, Felix groaned while pointing at Jeongin. “Tell me something I don’t know?”, He answered. “I asked him if he could tell me why he has one sided beef with Changbin. And he just said its none of our business.”, Felix complained. 

“Well he doesn’t have a right to be mad at me then.”, Jeongin answered. “Exactly”, Felix said. He went to the back of the café to get dressed. He was waiting for Sana to arrive now. When she came, Jeongin and Hyunjin said goodbye. 

They shift went by in a flow. Not to many customers, but enough to be busy all the time. They were chilling at the counter during a quiet moment. That left Felix alone with his thoughts again. “Why are you so deep in thought?”, Sana broke the silence. “Huh”, Felix answered. “Oh it’s nothing.” “Well doesn’t seem like nothing, what’s up”, she teased. Felix considered lying, but what was the point. “Uhm I’m thinking how to ask a guy to be my first?”, Felix admitted. 

“Oh fist time. Yeah that’s something hard to ask. Is it his first time too?”, Sana replied. “Uhh no definitely not.”, Felix answered. “Well can’t really help you there then. My first time was his first time too.”, she said. “Okay but what about your first time with a woman?”, Felix asked. “Okay, it wasn’t her fist time with a girl. But I already knew the feeling of being intimate with someone.”, Sana admitted.

“But how do I ask him. I know that he is interested, he asked me to fuck like half an hour after we met.”, he said. “Then where is the problem. You know that he wants you. Why make it complicated.” Sana interrupted him. “Because he asked me with the expectation that I am experienced, which I told him I’m not.”, Felix whined. 

“Okay if he doesn’t want to sleep with you because you are a virgin, then you shouldn’t sleep with him at all. He should be honoured that you want his first time with him.”, Sana stated. That made Felix think again. Chan is a really sweet guy, he wouldn’t say no to something like this. “Yeah I think your right.”, Felix answered. 

The shift came to an end and Felixs mood was good again. He walked back to the dorms beaming with a warm bag of chicken in his hand, that he picked up in a store on his way home. He walked inside his room, but got surprised by Jisung and Minho having an intense make out session, what made him walk quietly outside his room again. He was wondering were he could go and found himself in front of Jeongin and Seungmins room. 

“Hey what are you doing here?”, Jeongin asked while opening the door. “Trying to find a place to stay while Jisung is having sex.”, Felix stated. That made Jeongin laugh and he opened the door some more to let Felix inside. 

“You want to play again?”, Jeongin asked while pointing at his switch. “If you want to. I am fine with just eating.”, Felix said pointing at his take out bag. “Oh you brought food. Nice.”, Jeongin replied. “Yeah I planed for me and Jisung, but he is busy eating something else. I hope you are okay with Jisungs order.”, Felix answered. 

“Could you stop talking about Jisung having sex. I don’t wanna know what he is doing right now.”, Jeongin whined. That made Felix laugh: “I’m sorry I will stop.”

They ate with a small conversation about their shifts today. “I like Sana. She is always giving me advices like a old wise woman.”, Jeongin said. “Yeah she reminds me a little of my sister, which I should call sometime again.”, Felix answered. “Yeah we talked a little about relationships and falling in love last time. She really made me get my hopes up about finding the right person one day. And then she said if I can’t find them, I should fuck like there is no tomorrow because I’m not young forever.”, Jeongin enthused.

“Yeah she gave me really good advice too today.”, Felix replied. “About what?”, Jeongin asked. “About having my first time. That if the other person has a problem with me being inexperienced, that I shouldn’t sleep with them in the first place.”, Felix answered. 

“Do you have someone in mind?”, Jeongin asked. “Yeah I think so.”, Felix answered. “That’s nice. Can I know who?”, He questioned. “Chan.”, Felix said. “Really why that.”, Jeongin stated. “Because he gives off the vibes that he will take good care of me. And I know he is interested.”, Felix explained. “And I’m sure that I would feel safe with him.”

“Yeah that are some good reasons. Hope you have fun.”, Jeongin replied sadly. “Oh come on don’t be sad. You can experience that too someday.”, Felix said while jumping on Jeongin. The ladder just let out a yelp, but didn’t defend himself more from Felix cuddles. “Yeah someday.”, Jeongin said. “I mean the question is. Do you want to have your first time with a person you are dating, or doesn’t it madder?”, Felix asked. 

“I’m not sure about that. I think I can imagine both?”, Jeongin answered. “Well, if it hasn’t to be in a relationship. That makes it easier. You just have to find a person you feel safe with.”, Felix explained. They were staring at each other now, only centimetres apart. Felix could feel Jeongins breath on his lips. But then the door opened. 

“Am I interrupting something?”, Seungmin asked. “Nope.”, both said while jumping up. Seungmin just gave them a suspicious look. “Okay” “have you maybe seen Jisung or Minho in the last 10 minutes?”, Felix asked Seungmin. “Uhh yeah, I walked across Minho when I walked down the hall.”, He replied. “Great, that means I can go back to my room.”, Felix answered. 

“Wait Jisung is sleeping with Minho?”, Jeongin asked. Oh shit. “You didn’t know that. That was only a matter of time until they would fuck.”, Seungmin answered. “Just don’t tell anyone. I don’t know I Jisung is okay with me telling others.”, Felix said to Jeongin, who just nodded. “Oh believe me everybody knows.”, Seungmin stated while staring in his book. 

Felix came back into his room with Jisung being ready to sleep. “You can be happy that I walked in on you, when you were still wearing clothes.”, Felix teased. “You walked in on us?”, Jisung asked now fully awake again. “Jep.”, Felix answered. “Jeongin got your food now.” “Oh that’s okay. Minho brought food before.”, Jisung replied. “Alright.”, Felix said. He made himself ready for bed now too. 

The next day rolled around. Felix tried to find Chan during lunchtime. He spotted him again, by the small stream. “Hey”, Felix said while sitting down next to Chan, who was working on songs again. “Hey”, Chan answered. “What are you doing here?” 

“Uhm”, breath Felix. You know that he wants the same. Felix tried to drown every negative thought. “I wanted to ask you something.”, He said. “Oh what is it?”, Chan said while pulling down his headphones. Now or never. “It’s about the thing you asked me when we first met.”, Felix mumbled. 

“You mean me asking for a hook up?” “Yeah”, Felix replied. “Okay and?”, Chan teased. Felix sighed: “I wanted to ask you if you want to be my first.”, Chan blinked a little taken back. “Uhm I would love to sleep with you, but are you sure to have your first time with me?”, Chan answered. “Yes I am. I thought about it. I feel safe with you. And Jisung said that’s the most important thing.”, Felix answered. 

Chan just smiled. “Okay, should I pick you up later then?”, Chan asked. Oh god its really happening. “Yeah that would be great.”, Felix answered. He blushed again. They stayed some more time at the stream. Chan showed Felix some more songs. Felixs nerves calmed down a bit again. He was a little scared for the evening but also really excited. 

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Felix was really nervous. Jisung helped him calm down and also how to clean himself up. It was a weird situation with Jisung screaming through the closed bathroom door, while Felix tried to follow the instructions. 

He went outside after Chan texted him, that he was waiting outside. Chan was leaning on his car. “Hey there.”, He said. “Hey”, Felix answered shyly. Chan opened the door for him and let Felix go inside. 

They drove in a calm silence. Occasionally they talked about how their day went. They walked inside Chans apartment. Felix took out his shoes and put them next to Chans. “So how are we gonna do this now?”, Chan asked. “Uhm I’m not sure. It would be easier, if you took the lead.”, Felix replied. 

“Okay how about we make ourself comfortable first. We could drink something first and talk about what we want to do.”, He suggested. “Yeah.”, Felix answered. Felix sat down on the couch. Chan pressed a cola in Felixs hand and sat down next to him. 

“So what role do you prefer?”, Chan asked. “I would like to be topped.”, Felix stated. “Alright.”, Chan said with a smile. “I guess that we shouldn’t do anything other than vanilla?”, he asked. “Yeah I think so, but maybe we can do something in the heat of the moment?”, Felix suggested. 

“I won’t do that. I always talk about our preferences with my partner. And I won’t do anything without asking before.”, Chan stated. “Okay”, Felix answered. They glanced at each other with a smile. 

“Can I kiss you now?”, Chan asked. “Yeah”, Felix whispered with a nod. Chan put his hand on Felixs cheek and leaned in. His lips felt soft on Felixs and he let Chan take full control of the kiss. He deepened the kiss and licked over Felixs upper lip. Felix slightly opened his mouth, letting Chans tongue inside. Chan pulled on Felixs thigh, signaling Felix to sit on his lap. 

Felix followed his lead and sat down. Chans hands slowly wandered from Felixs back to his ass. That gave Felix a shiver and he put his hands on Chans cheeks. They deepened the kiss more. Felix started to grind on Chans lap. Chan let out a breathy moan and grabbed Felix waist. “Bedroom?”, He asked. Felix just nodded. 

They tried to walk to the bedroom, but they were all over each other, what made the walk there a little more complicated. In Chans room, Felix got pressed to Chans bed immediately. He crossed his arms over Chans shoulder, while Chans hands roamed all over Felixs body. Felix had his feet pressed to the mattress with Chan laying between them. He grinded his hips down on Felix body. 

Felix tried to lift Chans shirt, who got the message and pulled it off. Chan revealed a perfectly trained body with hard abs. Felix felt his mouth watering at the sight. Chans hands moved down Felix body and stopped at the hem of his shirt. Felix took the shirt off to. Chan leaned in again to kiss Felix. 

They were in a sitting position now. Chans hand moved to the waistband of Felix skirt, he broke the kiss to look at Felix with a questioning look. Felix just nodded eagerly. Chans slowly pulled of the skirt and Felixs underwear. Felix felt a shiver over his naked body. He laid on his back again. Chan hovered over him and stared like Felix was his prey. 

“I’m gonna prep you now. Everything alright?”, Chan asked. “Everything good. You can start.”, Felix replied. His heart was pounding like crazy. Chan leaned towards his drawer and pulled out a bottle of lube and a condom. He put some lube on his fingers and said: “It may hurt at the start but you just have to relax. We can stop anytime.” Felix just nodded eagerly. 

He felt Chans wet fingers roaming over his rim. He then pushed one finger inside. Felix tried to breath in. It was a weird new feeling. Chan slowly moved his finger out and inside again. Felix tried to relax more. He closed his eyes and just concentrated on the finger opening him up. Chan pressed a point inside him, that mad Felix moan out loud. He saw stars. Chan just had a victorious smirk on his lips. He touched the point some more. Felix felt the precum dripping from his cock.

“You- you can add another.”, Felix whispered. Chan did as told and added a second finger. Felix felt himself getting stretched. Chan made a scissoring motion with his fingers. The stretch burned a little but it wasn’t too bad. Chan added a third finger, that made Felix breath in sharp. His heart was pounding in his ears. 

Chan moved deeper with his fingers and pressed on Felix prostate over and over again. Felix was gripping the sheets next to him, and moaned with every press. “Chan I think I’m...”, Felix whined. Chan pulled out his fingers immediately, what made Felix whine out. Chan cleaned his fingers on a tissue and started to open up his jeans. His cock sprung free. He pulled the condom over it and spread lube on it. 

“Still everything okay?”, Chan asked hovering over Felix, while stoking his cheek. “Yes, please fuck me already.”, Felix was getting desperate, what explained his sudden confidence. Chan just smiled and kissed Felix. He positioned himself at his entrance and slowly pushed the tip inside. 

That was more than just three fingers. Felix breathed in sharp. “Relax.”, Chan whispered, while kissing over Felixs neck. He slowly pushed in more. Felix gripped Chans shoulders, brathing heavy. Chan was fully inside now. Felix tried to get used to the feeling. Chan gripped his face and kissed Felix again. 

They stayed like this for a minute. Just Chan inside Felix, kissing him and stroking over Felixs body. The stretch still burned a little, but it slowly started to fell good. “You can move now.”, Felix whispered. Chan kissed Felix neck, while slowly moving outside of him until just the tip was inside. He then moved inside again a little faster. 

Felixs head fell back, he gripped Chans shoulders more and crossed his legs over Chans hips. Chan moved in and out again in a steady pace. Felix let out some breathy moans. He heard Chan breathing heavy in his ear too. 

Chans cock slit over Felixs prostate again, what made Felix moan out loud. He hit the spot again with a more heavy thrust, making Felix squirm under him. Felix felt the knot form in his abdomen signaling his release. “Chan I’m close.”, Felix moaned out. “Just relax you can come.”, Chan breathed inside Felixs ear. He hit Felixs prostate again and again. 

Felix clenched around Chans cock. He was a moaning mess. With a last deep thrust Felix felt his orgasm hit him. He felt his cum all over his body. Chan stopped immediately, looking up at Felix. “You- you can finish off too, I can take it.”, Felix whispered. “You sure?”, Chan asked out of breath. “Yeah.”, Felix replied. 

Chan started moving again then. The overstimulation made Felixs legs shake. Chan tried not to hurt Felix, his thrusts were slow and soft. Felix looked up at him, just watching Chans face. His eyes were closed and his whole face was tensed, just trying to get to his orgasm. Chans thrusts got sloppier until he reached his orgasm too. He let out a moan and almost collapsed on Felix. 

Both tried to regain their breaths. After a while, Chan pulled out slowly. He took of the condom, tied it and threw it away. He came back with a washcloth and started to clean off the cum and lube from Felix body. 

“I think we should go to sleep now. You are already dozing off.”, Chan teased. “Yeah.”, Felix whispered with closed eyes. Chan lifted his blanket and let them both cuddle underneath. Felix cuddled himself deeper on Chans body, consuming his warmth.

Felix woke up the next morning with Chan scrolling through his phone. “For how long are you awake?”, Felix asked with a raspy voice. “Twenty minutes or something. Didn’t want to wake you up. You look cute while sleeping.”, Chan answered. “How about we make breakfast?”, “sounds good.”, Felix replied. 

They got up and put on some clothes again. They walked inside the enormous kitchen. Felix sat down on a bar chair at the counter, while Chan started the coffee machine. “So how was your first time? Was it up to you expectations?”, Chan asked teasingly. “It was great, I really enjoyed it and you were really considerate.”, Felix answered. 

“Glad to hear that. We could do that more often, if you want to.”, Chan stated. “Yeah. I’m gonna think about that.”, Felix replied. They had breakfast and talked a bit about what they had planed at the weekend. “Oh I’m going to a party of a friend you can join if you want.”, Chan explained. “Just me or can I bring Jisung too.”, Felix asked.

“Minho is going to the party too, he probably invited Jisung already, but you can bring some friends.”, Chan answered. “Nice okay. Who is throwing the party?”, Felix asked. “Jackson. He is a good friend of mine.”, Chan answered. 

They finished breakfast and Chan drove Felix back to the dorms again. Felix said goodbye and walked back to his room. Jisung was sitting on his bed with a mug of coffee in his hand. Next to him was his laptop playing some anime. “So how does it feel to not be a virgin anymore?”, Jisung teased. Felix just smiled and sat down on his bed.

“Good I think. Chan was definitely the right choice.”, Felix answered. “That’s good. And how was the sex?”, He asked. “It was soo fucking good.”, Felix replied. “Great. How big is he?”, Jisung teased. “I’m not telling you that.”, Felix stated. “I’m just gonna ask Minho.”, Jisung mumbled. That made Felix laugh. 

“Oh and Chan invited me to a party on sturday. Did Minho already invite you or should I do that.”, Felix asked. “Minho already did. You aren’t the only one that got laid yesterday.”, Jisung answered. “Hope you used protection, I don’t want to deal with a baby.”, Felix teased while walking inside the bathroom. He felt a pillow almost hitting him. 

Felix changed his clothes and then they both walked to their classes. 

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It was a quiet Thursday. Felix had another shift at the café with Sana. The shift almost came to an end. The doorbell rang and Hyunjin came in. “Hello, everything alright?”, He asked happily. “Yep. A really quiet shift so far.”, Felix answered. 

“Glad that you are here. I need to go now.”, Sana stated. “In a rush? Why that?”, Felix asked. Sana just smirked but said nothing more. “Uhh is it a date?”, Hyunjin teased. “Is it with the girl that was staring you down, while you were cleaning the floor, last week?” 

“Maybe.”, She answered and walked into the staff room at the back of the café. “Do you have anything planed this weekend?”, Hyunjin shifted his attention back to Felix. “Yeah Chan invited me to a party. Do you want to join?”, Felix replied. “Ohh sure. What party?” They got interrupted by Sana saying bye and leaving the café. 

“Chan said a friend of his. Jackson I think?”, Felix answered. “Jackson Wang? Of course I want to join. I always wanted to go to one of his parties. I’m happy that I got to know you.”, Hyunjin stated. “So you are just friends with me because I invite you to cool parties?”, Felix asked offended. “No of course not. The other reason is that I can draw you like one of my french girls.”, He deadpanned. 

“Ew. I didn’t want to know that.”, Jeongin yelled, suddenly standing behind Hyunjin. “The drawing is really good. I could show you.”, Hyunjin teased. Jeongin looked like a mixture of disgust and interest. “Hey if you want to show my nudes to people, ask before.”, Felix laughed. He went to the back to change his clothes. 

Felix invited Jeongin to the party as well. Jeongin begged him to invite Seungmin as well, to “get him out of the room, so maybe someone can pull the stick out of his ass”. That made Felix chuckle. He said bye and walked back home. 

Saturday rolled around. Jisung and Felix got ready for the party as usual. Jisung was wearing some ripped baggy jeans and a grey crop top. Felix wore a black tennis skirt with a denim jacket over his top. 

“Oh we are getting laid today.”, Jisung stated while putting on mascara. “You are getting laid every day. What is your point.”, Felix laughed. “Well but since you are not a virgin anymore. You could do some one night stands as well.”, Jisung replied. “Yeah not sure about that.”, Felix answered. Of course he liked the night with Chan. But having sex with a stranger was something completely different. 

It knocked on the door. Felix opened it for Seungmin and Jeongin. “Hey. Are you ready?”, Jeongin asked. “Yep. Finished right now.”, Jisung yelled and walked towards the door. They made their way toward the bus station. Jisung said Minho and Changbin were already there, so they didn’t have to wait for them. The drive to the party was long. Felix used the time to do Jeongins make up, who was a little embarrassed, that Felix was sitting on his lap during it. The bus was crowded and that was the only stable position for him to do it right. 

They came to the party. It was a house with a lot of people already in the front yard. Hyunjin was waiting for them at the front door. “There you are I was waiting for eternity.”, Hyunjin complained. They made their way inside. The music was blasting and there were a lot of people. “Damn, it’s like cliche highschool party.”, Seungmin stated. “Yeah isn’t that great.”, Felix answered excitedly. He was happy that he somehow could get his teen years back. 

They found the bar and got drinks. “Minho is in the living room. Should we join them?”, Jisung asked. All agreed and followed Jisung through the crowd. It was a gigantic house. Felix thought Chans apartment was big. But that was another level. They fought their way through the different rooms, until they reached a small living room. It wasn’t as crowded as the other rooms. 

“Hey”, Minho waved. Minho, Chan and Changbin were sitting on the sofa. Some other guys and girls were sprayed around the room. They sat down next to the trio and started talking. The last time they were all together was on Felixs and Jisungs birthday. Felix liked the small group of people he gathered so far. They started chatting.

After a while Jisung asked: “How about we play truth or dare?”, He had his second drink now, but he was already drunk. “Haven’t we talked about this.”, Seungmin said. “I’m gonna start with you then. Seungmin truth or dare?”, Jisung teased. Seungmin just stared back at him. He was trying not to show a smile. “Dare”, He answered.

Jisung let out a happy squeak and let himself fall onto Minho, who just smiled at him. “I dare you to make out with Jeongin.”, He said. “No”, Jeongin answered with a disgusted look. “I volunteer”, Hyunjin said, lifting his hand. Jisung looked dumbfounded but just shrugged. Seungmin on the other hand looked a little overwhelmed, when Hyunjin suddenly sat down on his lap. “That okay?”, He asked already gripping Seungmins cheeks. 

The ladder just nodded. And then they started to make out. Hyunjin taking full control of the kiss. They broke apart some seconds after. Hyunjin went back to his seat and pulled out his phone. “What are you doing?”, Felix questioned. “Adding Seungmin to my make out list.”, He explained like it was the most normal thing in the world. Everyone looked a little weirded out. “How many people are on this list?”, Minho asked. 

“Uhm, 134.”, Hyunjin said. “Wow and you call me a slut.”. Chan said to Minho, who just laughed. “I like kissing. What is the problem?”, Hyunjin asked playfully offended. They played some more rounds, just talking about some sex stories. But then shit hit the fan. 

“So Seungmin, what is your problem with Changbin?”, Minho asked. “This shit again?”, Seungmin rolled his eyes. “Yes because we all want to know.”, Minho replied. Everyone nodded agreeing. 

“Fine. It’s because guys like him are the worst and I wont trust them.”, He explained. “Okay that leaves us with nothing. Care to elaborate.”, Chan said. “Yeah, what are guys like me?”, Changbin spat out. Seungmin groaned: “these fucking gym bros, who act like they are some sweet and nice guy, but will only use you for your body. I have seen through you the moment we met.” “Okay so now your just projecting your experience on me. How mature.”, Changbin yelled. “You are just jealous because Felix and I hit it of from the start. And you have a unrequited crush on him.”

“You have a crush on me?”, Felix asked surprised. “Would I have made out with you if not?”, He stated in disbelief. “You made out with him? I thought I was the only one you had something going on with.”, Changbin interrupted them. “You had something going on with him?”, Seungmin yelled. 

Felix felt like his world was crumbling apart. “I thought that was just some casual thing without strings, I didn’t know how you felt.”, He tried to explain. “I didn’t talk about it because I thought you weren’t ready to face your feelings. But it looks like we had different intentions.”. Seungmin spat out. 

“Anyone else got some things going on with Felix.”, Seungmin asked. Felix gulped and looked at Chan and Hyunjin. They didn’t look mad but a little disappointed. “I’m not mad that you had something with other people. I just don’t like that you didn’t tell me. I always tell the people I sleep with that they aren’t the only one.”, Chan said, he took his drink and walked away. 

Felix felt shitty now. Why am I like this. “I have to say I’m pissed to. You could have told me.”, Hyunjin said. That made Felix angry and he spat back: “Oh you think you are any better. You have a fucking making out list on your phone. And you didn’t tell me, that you kissed Jeongin, too.” Hyunjin looked surprised now. 

“I told you in private. I trusted you”, Jeongin said and walked away. “Jeongin I’m sorry.”, Felix tried to say, but he was already out of the room. Hyunjin, Changbin and Seungmin got up as well.  

“That wasn’t cool.”, Minho stated. Jisung just looked concerned at Felix. He got really mad now. What can he loose now. “What a funny thing to hear from you. Mr. I ask out a guy I know for a week, but If the boy who loves me shows interest I ditch out.”, Felix spat out. 

“A boy who what?”, Minho asked looking at Jisung. “Felix are you fucking serious right now.”, Jisung screamed and stormed off. Minho followed fast after him. 

That was it. Felix destroyed his nice friend group, because he is too fucking horny. He tried to hold in his tears until he reached the bathroom. The door got slammed shut and Felix slit down the wall. His head on his knees just crying. 

After a while he tried to look for a tissure in his pockets, but only fished out of his jacked. The fucking list he wrote. 

“How to get a boyfriend.”

Well definitely not like this. Felix read with tears in his eyes through the list. 

1. Look feminine: guys love femininity - true
2. Be shy: guys love a shy girl - false
3. Go to parties: how could you show yourself to others without going to parties maybe - true
4. Wait for him to make the first move: guys love to conquer a girl - false
5. Show interest in boy things: guys love girls that are into boy hobbies - don’t know
6. Be natural: don’t use to much make up guys like a natural look. - Definitely false 
7. Compliment him: guys love compliments because they don’t get them often - I could have done that more often. 

He read through the list feeling like a complete idiot. A point with “don’t fuck with every guy” would have been useful. 

A knock interrupted Felixs self pity. The door opened and showed Changbin. “Hey, I thought that I would find you here.”, He said with a smile. “You want to see me?”, Felix stuttered. “Yeah, I wanted to apologise.”, He answered sitting down next to Felix. “Apologise for what? I fucked up.”, Felix replied. 

“No you didn’t. We over reacted, because we were already tensed. You just had a little fun like I did too. I didn’t talk about it either and I didn’t tell you about my ex partners too.”, Changbin explained. 

“So, you are not mad at me?”, Felix sobbed. Changbin just shook his head with a smile. A small silence broke between them. The only thing that could be heart, was the mumbled bass of the party outside. Changbin broke the silence again: “you know, when I asked you if I maybe met you before, that was a little lie.”, Felix just looked at him with question. 

“I knew that we went to the same school. I have seen you a lot when I was still at school. And I have to admit, that I had a crush on you.” 

“You had a crush on me?”, Felix asked. “Still have I think?”. Changbin answered. Felix looked shocked at him. “You don’t have to answer. It’s just my feelings. They don’t have to bother you.”, He answered. 

“How can you say that. I dont want to hurt you.”, Felix said. “That doesn’t madder. What do you want?”, Changbin replied. What do I want? Felix pulled out his list again. 

“What’s that?”, Changbin asked. Felix chuckled: “I wrote that during summer break of a book I found in my sisters stuff.”, He explained. “I thought I will get a boyfriend, if I follow a misogynistic book for teen girls.” He crumbled the paper and threw it towards the trash bin. 

“Mhh. You tried to get a boyfriend, but you endet up playing around. Maybe you just lost your original goal.”. Changbin said. “I lost my goal?”, Felix asked. Changbin nodded. He was right. Felix tried to find love, but endet up with a messed up friend group. 

“You don’t have to fell a decision now, but maybe you can think about what you want now.”, Changbin explained. Felix was thinking now. He was experimenting so much, that he forgot about falling in love. He knew that he didn’t have to make a decision now. But thinking about love reminded him of one person. 

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“You look like you’ve got a person in mind.”, Changbin said. “I uhm. I think so. But I don’t want to hurt you.”, Felix admitted. Changbin moved in front of Felix and replied: “Felix its okay. You don’t owe me any feelings. I want you to be happy.” Felix felt like he could cry again. He jumped forward and hugged Changbin. “Thank you. You are a great friend.”, Felix sobbed. 

Changbin let out a chuckle and patted Felixs back. “You are cute. And now go and find your lover boy.” Felix wiped off his tears and jumped up. He had one person he had to find now. 

He ran out of the bathroom. Felix spotted Chan and Hyunjin standing beside each other talking. Hyunjin and Felix made eye contact. “Where is..”, “I’m Sorry.”, both said. Hyunjin chuckled. “I wanted to say I’m sorry. I had no right to be mad. Can you forgive me?”, “of course I forgive you. What I said wasn’t nice either, so I’m sorry too.”, Felix answered. Hyunjin opened his arms and hugged Felix. 

Felix looked up at Chan who had a unreadable expression. “I can’t be mad either. I mean you weren’t really experienced, so I won’t blame you for not talking with your partner. But maybe start with it now, so things like that won’t happen again.”, Chan said with a scolding voice. “Thank you. And I will try to. But you need to help me first. Have you seen Jeongin?”, Felix replied. 

“I think I saw him drag Seungmin somewhere. Why?”, Hyunjin answered. Felix just smiled a little embarrassed. Hyunjins face lit up instantly. “Ohh is it because this whole conflict made you realise that you love him?”, He asked. “Kinda. The realisation came because Changbin helped me. But I have to find him now.”, Felix said. Hyunjin let out a squeak. 

He grabbed Felix by the shoulder and turned them away from Chan. “I would love to help you find him, but I’m this close to fuck with Chan. So you are on your own. Good luck.”, Hyunjin explained and pushed Felix forward. 

Felix just looked back with a smile. Hyunjin stood next to Chan again to talk. Felix tried to get through the crowd. That’s when he spotted him. 

“Jeongin”, He yelled. Jeongin looked up. He was busy with pressing a door shut. “What are you doing?”, Felix asked. “Well, truth or dare didn’t help our two problems, so I took the matter into my own hand.”, He explained. “Jeongin let us fucking out of here.”, Seungmin screamed through the door. 

“You locked them in a closet together?”, Felix laughed. Jeongin just nodded while pushing a chair under the doorknob. “Well that will leave them in there for a while. What do you want?”, He asked. “First of all, I wanted to say sorry. I shouldn’t have used your trust like that. I’m sorry.”, Felix answered. 

“It’s okay. You were frustrated and you wanted to defend yourself.”, Jeongin replied. “That doesn’t excuse it. I was a shitty friend.”, Felix answered. “Yeah a little shitty but I forgive you.”, Jeongin said. “So are we are good now?”, Felix asked. Jeongin smiled and nodded. “Thank god, that is a relief. I couldn’t live with you being mad.”, Felix said while hugging Jeongin. He just let it happen. 

“And what was the second thing you wanted?”, Jeongin broke the moment. Oh shit there was something I wanted to tell him. Felix heart started beating fast. “Uhm can I tell you that somewhere more quiet?”, Felix asked. “Uhm okay.”, Jeongin asked suspiciously. 

They walked a little through the mansion until they got to the backyard. Next to a small patch they sat down. Jeongin looked at him expecting. “I uhm. God why is this so hard.”, Felix complained. “I ..”, “I like you… a lot.”, Jeongin interrupted him. “You do?”, Felix replied. It’s like a stone fell from his heart. Jeongin nodded looking at the gras between his fingers. 

“Do you?”, He whispered. Felix moved forward a little and cupped Jeongins cheeks. He looked up. “I do yeah.”, Felix said. Jeongin looked really overwhelmed now. He looked down to Felix lips. Felix took the hint and leaned in. 

The kiss was really soft. Both being really shy. They moved their lips in sink. After some seconds, they broke the kiss again. They held eye contact. Jeongin smiled a lot. “You really like me?”, He asked. 

“Of course I do. I haven’t realised it but I really do.”, Felix answered. “What made you realise?”, Jeongin questioned. “I guess Changbin helped me realise. He asked me what I wanted and the only person I could think of was you.”, Felix answered. Jeongin looked like he was about to cry. He moved forward again and hugged Felix. 

“I was scared, because I realised that I was falling for you, after you encouraged me, that people who really love me will accept me. I was scared that the only person I had feelings for, wouldn’t feel the same.”, He whined. Felix hugged him thighter now. He didn’t want to have him ever worry about that again. 

“I have feelings for you and I won’t ever let you feel otherwise.”, Felix whispered. Jeongin looked up again. He put his hand on Felix cheeks and kissed him again. This time it was more desperate. It was like Jeongin wanted to show him how much he liked him. 

Jeongin pushed Felix towards the ground. They gras was ticketing his neck, but he didn’t mind. All Felix could think of right now was the boy of his dreams kissing him. They were kissing some more time. At some point they were just laying in the grass staring in each others eyes. 

Neither of them knew how much time passed. They talked about everything and nothing. And about what they were now. “I want to take you out first.”, Jeongin said. “A real romantic date.” Felix just smiled at him. “Yeah and then I will take you out and after that we are boyfriends.”, Felix answered. Jeongins face lit up at the title. He moved forward again and pressed his lips on Felixs. 

A feeling Felix couldn’t get enough of. He really liked Jeongin and he didn’t know why it took him so long to realise. After some time, Jeongin looked at his phone to check the time. 03:45 a.m. “I think we should go home now.”, He said. Felix nodded and they got up. 

They walked trough the house again. There weren’t as many people there as before, what made the walk outside more easy. Felix spotted Jisung and Minho sitting by the street. Jisungs head was resting on Minhos shoulder, it looked like he was sleeping. Minho looked up at Felix. 

“Hey”, Felix whispered. “I wanted to thank you.”, Minho said. Felix looked confused at him. “You made me realise with who I was playing with. I liked Jisung for a while now, but I suppressed the feelings because I was scared. Well he was completely wasted when I found him again and he confessed that he always loved me.”, Minho explained.

“It’s my fault that he drank so much. I was so heated that spat out everything.”, Felix apologised. “It’s okay. He is a lightweight, that would have happened either way. Him screaming at me that he loves me, made me realise that I fucked up a lot. I ordered us an uber and we will talk tomorrow again.”, Minho said looking lovingly at the sleeping Jisung. 

“I’m relieved that you talked it out. Do you think he will be mad at me tomorrow.”, Felix asked. “Definitely, but probably not for long.”, Minho answered. They gave each other a last smile. Jeongin and Felix and Felix started walking back to the dorm building. 

On the way there, Felix explained Jeongin the whole situation with Minho and Jisung. The walk back was really long. The moment they opened the door to Jeongins and Seungmins room they got surprised. 

With Seungmin being pressed to the wall with Changbins hand on his neck. “Oh my god, I wanted you to start tolerating each other, not you trying to kill him.”, Jeongin yelled. Seungmin looked at Jeongin. “What do you think we are doing then. Go away.”, Seungmin said waving his hand towards the door. 

Felix and Jeongin stepped back and the last thing Felix saw, before the door closed was Changbin leaning in for a kiss. Jeongin looked traumatised. “I mean, they aren’t bickering anymore.”, Felix said. He just had to laugh at the situation. Jeongins expression slowly fell too, he looked at Felix and laughed with him. 

“I don’t think Seungmin is still mad at you.”, He said and grabbed Felix hand. They walked towards Felixs and Jisungs room beaming. Hands still interlocked, they fell in Felixs bed. Some stolen kisses in between, until they fell asleep. Felix was happy. Happy that the stupid book somehow still worked. Happy that all his friends didn’t hate him. And the most happy that he got the dream life he wanted. A big friend group, a good education and a boy he can call his boyfriend soon. 

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It was a Saturday before the winter break. The group had a small get together to celebrate Christmas together. They were sitting in Chans apartment. The Christmas tree already decorated. They had their mulled whine cups. And the couples were cuddled together. 

Minho and Jisung started to be official the day after Jacksons party. Jisung couldn’t be mad at Felix for spitting Jisungs feelings out, because he was was to happy to be Minhos official boyfriend. Most of the others were more surprised, that they weren’t official before.

Seungmin and Changbin started of as fuckbuddies. But it didn’t take long for Seungmin to catch feelings. Something Changbin teased him a lot about. Felix later found out that Seungmins last break up was not long before he met him. Seungmin explained that he only obsessed over Felix to get over his toxic ex. Changbin reminded him to much of him, that’s why he hated him at the start. Changbin showed him really fast, that he wasn’t like Seungmin imagined him at first. 

Hyunjin and Chan were complicated. They told everyone that they just had friends with benefits, but everyone could see that there were feelings between them. It wasn’t a secret either, that both never had a arrangement with someone that went on this long.

And then there were Felix and Jeongin of course. On their first date, Jeongin took them out in a fine restaurant. They spent to much money for their liking, but it was a special occasion, what made it okay. 

Their second date was at an arcade. Felix knew that it was something they both loved. And they almost spent the same amount of money as in the restaurant. After the arcade they walked near the river in the cold November air. They called each other boyfriends after that. 

Rachel visited them on a weekend. She introduced her boyfriend to them. Felix introduced all of his friends to her and of course Jeongin. She was really happy, that he finally found someone. 

Jeongin asked if Felix wanted to join him for Christmas, so he could introduce him to his family. Felix took the invitation. He was relieved that he didn’t have to be with his family during Christmas. 

They would be driving there on Sunday. And that’s how they endet up at Chans place, celebrating with their friends. Jisung was initiating truth or dare again. They were sick of it at this point. Everyone new everything, so it wasn’t anything special anymore.

But Felix was happy. He liked the crazy questions, Jisung pulled out of his ass. He liked the group evenings like that. He liked his new friend group. And he loved the boy in his arms. They haven’t told each other that yet, but Felix was sure that Jeongin felt the same. 

They came back to Jeongins room kissing like crazy. They haven’t had sex yet. Some touching and some blow jobs. But they haven’t crossed the line until now. 

Jeongin was hovering over Felix. His hand wandering over his body. Their clothes were already sprawled over the floor. Felix felt more nervous than with his first time. Jeongin kissed over his neck down his body. He was kissing over Felix thighs until he reached his entrance. He looked up again and asked: “should we go on?” “Yes please.”, Felix whispered. 

Jeongin grabbed inside the nightstand and pulled out lube and a condom. He put some lube on his fingers and lowered his hand to Felix hole. One last assuring look, and he pressed one finger inside. Felix let out a breathy moan. Jeongins finger slowly moved in and out. “Is that okay?”, He asked. “Yes, please don’t stop.”, Felix begged. 

Jeongin leaned down to kiss Felix again, when he pushed in the second finger. His fingers made a scissoring motion. Felix let out a moan. It burned but it was okay. Jeongins fingers moved in and out. He added a third after some time, to open Felix more up. He was a little clumsy, until he pressed on Felixs prostate. Felix let out a loud moan and arched his back. Jeongin was in trance. He pressed the spot over and over again, just to make Felix produce more sounds. 

“Jeo- Jeongin I.. ah..stop.”, Felix stuttered out. Jeongin pulled his fingers out immediately. He asked concerned: “Is everything okay? Did I hurt you?”, Felix let out a breathy laugh. “No you didn’t hurt me, but if you would have kept going I would have come.”, Felix explained. Jeongin let out a relieved sigh. “Okay that is good.” “You can fuck me now I think I’m stretched enough.”, Felix said. 

Jeongin nodded and pulled the condom over his cock. He coated his dick in lube and lined himself up on Felixs hole. They kissed again, when he pushed inside. Jeongins dick sunk in slowly. Both moaned between kisses. Felix gripped around Jeongins shoulders. They were getting more muscular lately. Something Felix was really happy about. 

After some time, Felix gave Jeongin the okay to move. He slowly went out and pressed inside again. Felixs head fell back. Both were a moaning mess. It was a slow pace at the start, but he got faster over time. He slit over Felixs prostate, what made Felix clench more around Jeongins cock. It didn’t take long for until Jeongin said that he was near the edge. Felix said the same. Jeongin started to stroke Felixs cock while he was trusting inside Felix with a faster pace now. 

Felixs grip around Jeongin tightened. Felix came and he clenched around Jeongins cock, what brought him over the edge too. They were breathing heavy, just laying on top of each other. After some time, Jeongin got a cloth to clean them up. 

They cuddled themself into the bed. Jeongin kissed Felix head and said: “I love you.” Felix smiled and looked up. He kissed Jeongin on the lips and whispered: “I love you to.” He cuddled himself deeper on Jeongins chest. And then they both drifted off to sleep.