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How do I tell him that I love him?
Miyano knew they were dating for a pretty long time, but he was still too shy to even tell Sasaki that he loves him. Not that he never says it. Whenever Sasaki says that he loves Miyano, he always make sure to say it back to him, but he's never the one to say it first.
I guess we can say he's just shy because all of this romantic stuff are still new to him.. but they've been dating for a while now. Miyano knew it wasn't that big of a deal, but you know how he is..
His head was on his school desk for a while now. He normally doesn't even think that much about these stuff. Guess he's a bit out of it today. He couldnt concentrate to the class all day, thinking about this. He had to look up after someone pat his head. It was Kuresawa, one of his bff's since first year of hs.
"Hey, you alright? You've been out of it all day."
Of course, he was aware that Miyano's in a gloomy mood today. How could he not notice? He just thought maybe Miyano didn't wanna talk abt it. But Miyano didn't get any better in the rest of the day, so he had to ask, otherwise he was gonna be worried.
"I'm fine.. Just kinda tired."
"Missing your bf?"
"H-hey!! Don't say these type of stuff out loud in public!!"
"I'm right tho. Jokes aside, what's wrong?"
"It's just.. I want to tell Sasaki that I love him..."
Kuresawa just stared at Miyano for a while. He was kinda dumbfounded.
"He's your boyfriend, didn't you already say him that you love him?"
"I mean.. When he says he loves me, I always tell him back, but I'm never the one to say it first and it kinda started to bother me.."
"Then say it to him??"
"I'm too shy!!"
Kuresawa took some time to think before talking. Then an idea came to his mind.
"What about writing your thoughts? If you're shy about telling him that you love him, or just anything else, you can write it and just give it to him, I'm sure he'll understand."
"You sure that'll work?"
"Yea, pretty much."
Sasaki came to Miyano's house to study after his classes. They were in Miyano's room. They had some snacks like Sasaki's favorite candies, Miyano's wasabi candies and also some chips and drinks. They've been studying for like a hour now.
"Wanna take a break, Myaa-chan?"
"Yeah, absolutely."
Sasaki put his head on Miyano's lap and started caressing his face. Miyano was really happy. It felt nice, having the person he loved next to him, all comfy and safe. He wanted the time to stop at that moment, but still, he had something to give to Sasaki, so this had to end for now..
"S-Shuu.. can you get up? I have something to give to you.."
Sasaki slowly sit up, leaving Miyano's lap.
"Sure, what is it?"
Miyano got up and went to his nightstand, opened the drawer and took a paper from there.
"Promise not to make fun of me, 'kay?"
"I'll never make fun of you, love. What is it?"
Miyano sit back next to Sasaki, holding the paper close to his chest. He felt his face starting to burn up.
"S-so, um.. ya know, I'm not really good with words n stuff.. But I really wanted to tell you how I feel.. about you. So, I wrote it down for you to read it. But it's probably super cliche and it's embarrasing. U-um.."
"Can I read it now?"
Sasaki held and caressed the hand of Miyano that's been holding on to the paper for dear life.
"Y-yeah"
Miyano handed the paper to Sasaki. And the second he give the paper to Sasaki, he buried his head into his hands. Sasaki grinned and started reading what he wrote.
"Dear Shuumei,
I want you to know that I love you with all my heart.
My heart starts beating so loudly whenever I see you.
My cheeks flush whenever you get close to me.
My whole body yearns for your touch.
I miss you even when you're with me.
I want you to kiss me everywhere.
I'm all yours, and I want you to be all mine.
I get jealous whenever I see you with someone else.
I want you to hold me so tight that i cannot breathe.
I want you to love me so much that you can't live without me. Because I can't too.
I know I was really distant at first, but I want you to know that I fell so hard for you, I cant even describe it.
I want you to be possesive.
I want you to be yourself when you're with me.
I want you to feel safe when you're with me the way I feel safe when I'm with you.
I want you to suffocate me with love.
And I want to suffocate you with love, too.
I want to kiss you all over.
Our bodies and hearts complete eachother the best way possible.
People say that love fades away after you get older, but I'm %100 sure that thats not gonna be like that with us.
Because my love for you grows more and more every second of every day.
Today, I love you more than yesterday, and tomorrow, I will love you more than today.
You know I'm not really great with words, so I may not say that I love you so frequently. Still, even tho I'm not good at saying it, I want you to know that I feel it. My heart is full of love for you.
After I met you, my life's been so much better.
I can't imagine a world without you.
You're my everything.
And I want to be your everything too.
I hope I can be like that to you one day
—lots of love, Yoshikazu♡"
The paper looked like Miyano wrote and erased many things over and over again, thinking about how he should write his feelings. Sasaki started tearing up before he knew it. He pulled Miyano into an embrace.
"You're already my everything, Yoshikazu. I love you so much."
"I love you too."
Then their lips met..♡