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Most people dream about happy things. To me, that’s a nightmare
I dream about my death like falling off a building or suffocating to death and end up waking up in a panic and then falling back to sleep
Dreaming of something happy gets me anxious because I know it will end up in pain at some point
I like the rain because all the pain should show and not hide and I wish it never stops
I am not like most people I guess I like seeing the pain, not the fake happiness that dreams show I love the pain in nightmares showing the realness in the world
Pain is a dream that’s true and happiness is a fake nightmare
Happiness will always be a nightmare if you are in pain and pain will always be a dream showing you the truth instead of trying to mask it up
I’m tired of trying to explain to people why happiness is fake and how it shows you what you want not what is happening
I want people to see the pain and not mask it showing that the world sucks and is not happy go lucky
People need to quit lying to themselves that dreams are happy I need to just pass the torch to someone who has the same situation as me to understand me and dream the pain I do
The only time that we will agree is at death or if you have a nightmare and you feel free knowing that you can cry because you have the truth
For me dreams are pain and my nightmares are happiness and for me, that’s all I need to feel close to the freedom that I can’t get.