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"Zayn is leaving."
Liam's world stood still. He hadn't expected this. When Simon had called the meeting, he thought it might be something trivial—perhaps some band-related business or news. But this? No. This was nothing like he could have imagined.
They rarely got days off, and when they did, it was always as a group. No one took separate time. So the news of an impromptu meeting felt... wrong. But hearing Simon's words—Zayn is leaving—sounded like a punch to the gut.
"What do you mean?" Liam's voice was shaky, though he tried to mask it. "Like, he's leaving for a few days?"
"No," Simon shook his head solemnly. "He's leaving the band."
Liam's head spun. "No way," he muttered, unable to comprehend it. Zayn wouldn't do this—not just like that, out of nowhere. Not after everything they'd been through.
"When did he tell you this?" Louis' voice broke through the thick silence. Liam could see the shock on his face, his eyes trying to hide the pain. Louis had always been the one to joke about everything, but even he couldn't joke his way out of this one.
"About two weeks ago," Simon answered, looking uncomfortable. "He told me he wanted to leave, that he didn't want to do this anymore."
Liam's heart dropped. He didn't know how to process it. His voice was barely a whisper, but the anger and hurt in it were unmistakable. "You knew this whole time, and you didn't tell us?"
I'm telling you now," Simon said with a heavy sigh, avoiding their eyes. "I was hoping he'd change his mind—but he didn't. He's signing the contract, and he's leaving tonight."
Liam felt like the air had been knocked out of his lungs. He wasn't sure when the room had gotten so suffocating. He glanced at the others—Niall, who looked furious, and Harry, who was eerily silent, lost in his thoughts. Louis kept his composure, but Liam could see the cracks forming beneath his calm exterior. They were all in disbelief.
"I can't believe he decided this before talking to us," Niall muttered, quieter now, his voice thick with a mixture of sadness and anger.
Louis' jaw clenched, but he kept his voice level. "It's not like we could've changed his mind. But it would've been nice to hear it from him. We deserve that much."
Liam's denial refused to break. He couldn't just accept it. He couldn't believe Zayn was capable of leaving them all, without even a real conversation. After everything they'd been through together? No.
"Come on, guys, he wouldn't do this. Not after everything we've been through," Liam said, the words rushed, desperate. He was pleading now. "He wouldn't just leave without an explanation. I know him. I know he wouldn't."
But as he looked around at the faces of his bandmates, all of them, for the first time, didn't seem so sure.
"Liam, stop," Harry's voice cut through the tension. His tone was flat, and there was something almost cold in it. "You think you know him. But if you really did, you'd know what he wanted. You'd know he needed out."
Liam snapped his head to Harry. "What the hell, Harry?" His voice cracked, frustration building. "You think I don't know Zayn? I'm just trying to believe that he wouldn't do this to us, to me, without giving us a chance to understand. A chance to say goodbye."
Harry didn't back down. "Maybe that's the problem, Liam. You don't know him as well as you think you do."
Liam's heart hammered in his chest. The room felt like it was closing in on him. "Shut up, Harry."
Simon intervened, "He's still here, in the hotel room, packing. He leaves in two hours."
Liam's chest tightened. He was already standing, rushing toward the door, ignoring the voices calling after him. He didn't want to hear more. He needed to see Zayn. He needed to hear it from him, to look him in the eyes and tell him this wasn't true. Zayn wouldn't leave. Not like this.
His hands shook as he knocked urgently on Zayn's hotel room door. He knocked again, louder this time, until it swung open.
Zayn stood there, looking disheveled, his eyes dull. "What are you doing here?" His voice was low, almost tired.
Without waiting for a response, Liam pushed past him into the room. Zayn sighed and shut the door behind him, turning to face him with an unreadable expression.
"Please," Liam's voice cracked, pleading. "Tell me it's not true."
He looked around the room—Zayn's bags were scattered around, half-packed. Liam's heart sank further. "Tell me this isn't happening, Zayn."
Zayn glanced at the floor, avoiding his gaze. "It's true..." His voice faltered, and Liam's chest felt like it had just collapsed. "I didn't know how to tell you."
Liam couldn't stop the bitter laugh that escaped him. It wasn't funny. It was nothing but frustration, pain, and betrayal. "Wow." He raked a hand through his hair. "I never thought you'd leave us like this, Zayn. After everything, after us, this is how it ends? No goodbye?"
Zayn's eyes were glassy now, the guilt clear. He didn't answer.
Liam crossed his arms, fighting the tears that were threatening to spill. "You couldn't even say goodbye? You just... disappear?" He was shaking his head, too lost in disbelief to make sense of anything anymore.
"No," Zayn said quietly, almost as if the word was the weight of a thousand apologies.
Liam's heart shattered. "I thought we were close. I thought we told each other everything." His voice wavered with hurt. "You could've told me, Zayn. I wouldn't have changed your mind, but I would've at least known. I would've supported you, whatever you decided. But you didn't trust me."
"That's not true," Zayn said, his voice thick with emotion now. He stepped toward Liam, but Liam held up a hand to stop him. "I trust you with everything, Liam. You're one of the most important people in my life. I—" He broke off, unable to finish the sentence.
"Then why didn't you trust me enough to tell me the truth?" Liam asked, his voice barely above a whisper.
Zayn's eyes filled with regret, but he didn't know what to say. He couldn't explain why it had to be this way. "Because seeing the hurt in your eyes... It would've been too much for me to handle. I couldn't do that to you."
Liam's chest tightened. He wanted to argue, to scream, but he couldn't. He just wanted Zayn to stay, to change his mind, to take back the decision. But it was already too late.
He turned on his heel, ready to leave, when Zayn spoke again, his voice trembling. "Liam... I—"
"Have a fun flight home," Liam said, cutting him off, his voice harsh and cold. "Or wherever you're going." He opened the door and stepped out, not sparing a glance back.
Zayn stood still, staring at the space Liam had just vacated, feeling the weight of his decision crash down on him. His heart twisted painfully in his chest. "I'll try... but I'll miss you too much, Leeyum," he whispered softly, the words tasting like salt on an open wound.
Zayn had made the decision to leave the band a month ago, but it wasn't until two weeks ago that he told Simon. He had wanted to tell the boys, especially Liam, but fear held him back. He was terrified of their reactions, especially Liam's. He knew deep down that they would've supported him, but the pain of seeing it in their eyes—the heartbreak—was something Zayn didn't think he could bear. So he let Simon break the news for him. It hurt, but there was no other way. He had to do this for himself.
He couldn't stay in the band any longer. Not because of the guys—he loved them, he always would—but because he needed to reclaim his own life. The exhaustion, the endless tours, the constant pressure—it was too much. This wasn't the life he had imagined when they first formed the band. It had been incredible, unforgettable, but it was time to step away.
Zayn grabbed his bags, checked the time, and knew it was time to go. He made his way to the door, pausing before stepping outside. A sigh escaped his lips as he opened the door, stepping into the night air.
It didn't take long before he saw them—his former bandmates standing there. Just his luck.
"So this is it, then?" Louis said, his voice a mix of sadness and acceptance. Zayn nodded silently, unable to find the right words. Louis forced a smile, but it was weak, as if his heart wasn't in it. Zayn, not knowing whether he should offer a hug or say something, simply began walking.
But before he could reach the exit, Niall's voice stopped him.
"Take care of yourself, alright?" Niall said, stepping forward to pull Zayn into a hug. Zayn stiffened for a moment, surprised by the gesture, but then he relaxed, hugging Niall back tightly. "And don't be a stranger, yeah?"
"I won't," Zayn replied, his voice hoarse as they pulled apart. He turned to the others. "Take care of yourselves." he paused, drawing in a steadying breath. "And please look after Liam for me."
They all nodded, their eyes somber. And just like that, Zayn was walking out the door. He paused for a moment, feeling the cool night air ruffle his hair. It wasn't cold, but it wasn't warm either—a strange in-between, much like his emotions.
He glanced back one last time at the hotel, his eyes drifting to Liam's room. He hoped, just for a second, that Liam might appear at the window, but there was no sign of him. Zayn sighed and got into the car.
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Liam sat motionless in the hotel room, the silence pressing against his chest like a weight. He stood by the window, arms crossed tightly over his chest, trying to make sense of how everything had unraveled so quickly. Below, the street buzzed with life, completely unaware of the mess in his heart.
That's when he saw him.
Zayn.
Sliding into the back seat of a black car.
Liam's breath caught in his throat, a single tear slipping down his cheek before he quickly wiped it away. He told himself he had to be strong. There was no reason to cry over this. Not when Zayn clearly wasn't.
"Take care of yourself, Zayn," Liam whispered, too soft for anyone to hear. The words left his lips on instinct, aching and helpless, as the car pulled away from the curb.
A tiny, foolish part of him hoped the car would stop. That the door would swing open, and Zayn would come running back, laughing nervously and saying it had all been a joke. A cruel one, but a joke nonetheless. They'd all be mad—Liam most of all—but it would fade into laughter.
But the car didn't stop. It didn't turn around.
And eventually, it disappeared.
Liam took a shaky breath and turned away from the window. He moved slowly to the couch and sank into it, his body heavy with exhaustion. His eyes lifted to the ceiling, as if staring long enough might somehow undo everything—as if this could still turn out to be just a bad dream. He closed his eyes, hoping sleep might dull the ache, even if just for a little while.
A knock broke the silence.
He sighed, dragging himself upright. Whoever it was, he wasn't in the mood. Still, he crossed the room and opened the door.
Harry stood on the other side.
"Hey," he said softly.
"Hi." Liam stepped aside, letting him in before quietly shutting the door behind them.
Harry didn't move at first. He just stood in the middle of the room, turning to face Liam with something uncertain in his eyes.
"I wanted to apologize," he said.
Liam raised an eyebrow and sank back onto the couch, nodding for Harry to join him. "For what?"
"For what I said. After we found out Zayn was leaving."
"Oh," Liam murmured. "It's fine. You were right anyway."
Harry frowned. "I was? Liam, you two were inseparable."
Liam let out a hollow laugh, eyes drifting back to the ceiling. "We were. Years ago."
Harry remembered. The way Zayn and Liam used to be—attached at the hip. They did everything together: games, walks, long talks in the middle of the night. They even shared a room, until management split them up. Both of them had fought against it, but it didn't matter.
"How are you holding up?" Harry asked gently.
"I'm good. Really good," Liam replied, voice thin and unconvincing.
Harry gave him a long look. "The truth, Liam."
"It is the truth," Liam said softly.
But it wasn't. And they both knew it.
Still, Harry let it go—for now. "Wanna have a movie night? I can call the guys. We'll hang out, watch something, try to laugh."
"I don't know," Liam started, his shoulders slumping. "I'm kind of tired."
Harry's expression fell, just a little, but Liam added quickly, "But maybe that'd be nice. Yeah. Let's do it."
Harry smiled and pulled out his phone, dialing Louis. "Get Niall and come to your room. Movie night."
"On our way," came Louis' reply before the line cut.
"They're coming," Harry said, heading toward the small kitchenette. "I'll make popcorn."
"You want help?" Liam asked, finally looking up.
Harry glanced over his shoulder with a grin. "I think I can manage. I'm not gonna burn the place down making popcorn."
Liam chuckled. A real laugh, the first since Zayn left. It caught him off guard.
"You never know," he teased.
Harry stuck his tongue out playfully before disappearing into the kitchenette.
Liam leaned back into the couch, flipping the TV on just as the door opened again and Louis and Niall stepped inside.
"What's up, mate?" Niall greeted warmly, flopping onto the couch and slinging an arm around Liam's shoulders.
Liam smiled, small but sincere. He was still hurting, but at least he wasn't alone.
"So," Harry returned, carrying two bowls of popcorn. He handed one to Liam and the other to Louis, then disappeared briefly before coming back with four sodas. "Let's do this right."
He handed out the cans and settled in beside Liam.
"What are we watching?" Liam asked, scrolling through Netflix.
"Titanic?" Niall offered.
The collective groan was immediate.
"What? It's a classic!"
"We've watched it a million times," Liam said. "Let's pick something new."
"Fine," Niall grumbled, crossing his arms but smiling as he relaxed into the couch.
"Wait, stop there," Harry said suddenly. "That one—I've been wanting to watch it."
"Fine by me," Liam replied, glancing at Niall and Louis. They nodded their agreement.
He hit play.
The movie started, but for a moment, Liam didn't focus on the screen. He looked around at his friends, at the way they were all here, doing their best to hold each other up.
It still hurt, but he knew that as long as he has his three boys beside him, he is going to get through this.