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Silence stretched through the apartment.
The place which felt like home just a month back, feels nothing more than a hollow box of sorrowness. Everything is there, properly at their place, everything but You..
You promised never to leave my side.
You promised..
You promised to hold my hands through the chill of winter.
You promised to guard my eyes from ever knowing tears.
You promised to guide me through every barriers.
You promised to be the light in my darkest nights.
You promised to make me smile when the world made me cry.
You promised to be there in my aching pain.
You promised to hold me through every storm.
You promised, again and again,
Never to leave my side
You promised.
yet you left, you left me alone in darkness, you left knowing I am blind without you, you left knowing I am no one without you..
one month, it's been one month you left, you left without even giving me a chance for a proper goodbye.
why? why did it have to be you? why you?
my eyes bleed. no amount of pain is capable of mending my broken self, nothing is enough for my aching heart to breathe, nothing but You.
Yet you are nowhere to be found.
My hands tremble in the silence,
reaching through emptiness,
searching the shadows,
for once~
to feel your warmth,
to hear your voice
to embrace your heart
for once ~
want to bask in your sunlight
I tried, tried to live, tried to live with your memories, tried to live with your dreams, tried to live with your passion, but I am too tired to try anymore.
I am too tired to live anymore..
Without you seconds feel like hours, days feel like years, and months stretch longer than century. Everywhere I look I see you, I see us.. I reach to hold, I reach to preserve, I reach but then you're not longer there, we are no longer there.. It's just me, broken and alone..
I no longer know how I look. The reflection in the mirror doesn't match the description your words left behind. All I see is a walking corpse, eyes red and swollen, sunk deep into the sockets. Hundreds of careless cuts lay across my arms, angry and red... yet nothing seems to bring me solace anymore. My eyes feel drained, there are no tears left to cry, no blood left to seep, no thoughts left to think....
All I feel is emptiness, no emotions left for me to hold on. There is no energy left in me to hold me in my place, there is nothing left in me to give me hope, there is no light left in me
I can't breathe anymore, I can't see anymore, I can't hope anymore, I can't live anymore. I am sorry, I really am. You always wanted to see me reach my dreams, you always wanted me to keep fighting, you always wanted me live my life, but I can't, I can't anymore, I can't anymore when you're not there to hold me anymore. I am a coward, I am a disappointment, I know I am... but I am also a human from whom their oxygen was taken away.. I am sorry, I am sorry my love, I am sorry my bear, I am sorry my Tae, forgive me for giving up, forgive me for giving up on this fight, for giving up on this, please.
I tried, but I failed. I am tired, am tired of fighting alone. I want to sleep, I want to sleep in your arms. I can't keep up with this long distance... I want to sleep like a winter bear, in your warmth.. and I am coming to you, wait for me a little. I am coming to you , because
Without Taehyung, his Jungkook is nothing....
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I folded the letter carefully while my eyes mourned for my baby brother and his husband. I am Park Jimin, elder brother of Kim taehyung and brother in law of Kim Jungkook.
they both were the perfect couple to have ever existed, no one understood them the way they did. Dated for 7 years, then got married in a grand wedding 6 years ago.
A soft smile crept upon my lips, as their laughing faces flooded in my memories. They were the happy pills in every one of ours lives. And they were the happiest together. Their love bloomed softly, and they chose to cherish it forever. They chose each other every day, they were perfect. But God has to play his wicked games on his most fragile children.
It was a happy day, a day filled with laughter and joy, when suddenly one phone call decided to ruin all of our lives. My baby brother, Kim Taehyung met with a fatal accident. He was hospitalized as soon as possible but the blood loss was too much for him to fight against. He was declared dead within the next hour. All of us cried, expect one, Kim Jungkook. And that day we all knew, we lost both of our happy pills to one fatal accident. We tried our best to bring back Jungkook from the endless darkness, but deep within we all knew, God chose to snatch away his reason to breathe.
I have been quietly dreading this day from the past one month, and today is the day.
'The body of Kim Jeon Jungkook was found hanging from the celling in his apartment which he shared with his deceased husband, Late Kim Taehyung'
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