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I watch you with her and know
your happiness means more than
my own ever did even before
my life flashed across my mind
and you were there in the flames
cast by your blood, and yet
I forgave you in my last moments
of thought before I drowned in
pain and misery and melting
of my walls as pack bonds tore
ripped out of my chest like
my heart only worse because
at least my heart is just one
part of me, not a whole system
of ruination and loss and please
tell me that you’re happy with
your wife and the baby who came
created from the union that I
will never be part of, forever
alone and apart and denied
my rightful place in anyone’s life
not even my own.