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I’m Shin Narubet and the generous guy across from me is Thiu, my boyfriend. We’ve been dating for 6 months now. Today was our anniversary so we were especially open with our relationship. It didn’t bother me much.
“Do you want any food love?”
Thiu asked as he looked up from his paper he had been writing on for some time now. Our grades were bad but not terrible.
“No I’m good”
I didn't want to intrude into what Thiu was doing and be a needy boyfriend. I didn’t really like when others did things for me. But Thiu was an exception. For some reason I wasn’t hungry even though I haven’t eaten since breakfast. I exhaled through my mouth and he noticed, finally placing his pencil in his hand down.
“Hey you okay?”
Thiu asked sweetly as he looked Shin up and down as if to check if he’d been hurt. Thiu placed his arm around my shoulder, the heaviness now there, it kinda weighed me down but it was alright. I could manage it.
“I’m fine. Just thinking.”
I smiled through it but honestly, this relationship had been kind of boring. Don’t get me wrong I like all the love and affection but sometimes it was as if I was living too ideal for my own good.
Thiu just sighed and took his arm off of me. Finally I thought. It was making my shoulders tense up and his cologne stinks, I don’t dare tell him that though.
“Well we’re going to your favorite restaurant tonight so cheer up.”
Thiu said this, trying to cheer up the sour mood but honestly it just made me want to groan. That means I have to endure 2 hours of sitting across from him and talking about god knows what. We had our differences. He was too uptight.
Mrs. Jan walked in and stopped by her desk. Mrs. Jan had an insincere smile on her face as she scanned around the classroom. She looked as if she was trying to avoid eye contact with me specifically. That was weird I thought. But my eyes focused again at the doorway when another person came in. I was expecting it to Mr. Sung but no. Much worse.
It was Saint Thamnithit.
My ex best friend and my ex lover.
I swallowed hard and my throat began to dry.
I thought he had left us for good but no, here he was waltzing in the class.
Thiu immediately stopped what he was doing when he noticed Saint as well and looked like he was protecting a small child from a lion. As if Saint was gonna pounce on me at any given moment. My mouth twitched as Saint took to his usual seat; right next to mine. Why would he come back? Did he do all of this just to get on my nerves?
To make it so I’d have to see his pathetic face everyday from now on. Make me think about all those nights. As if what he did wasn’t bad enough.
“Saint will be joining us again.” Mrs. Jan's voice cracked as she probably knew all too well how much me and Saint fought just over a year ago.
“Shia!” Nate’s voice broke my train of thoughts and echoed through the classroom. It was silent for a moment until Peeta spoke. She gets on my nerves, one of the reasons me and Saint broke up in the first place. Saint said it wasn’t a big deal, they knew each other for a while.
“Saint! You’re back!”
She had way too much excitement in her voice and it ticked me off. My brows furrowed, I probably stared holes through her as she stood up from her chair. Peeta made her way to Saints desk and Saint looked unamused, nodding his head up and down in a jagged motion.
“Yeah, I am.”
“What made you come back? Didn’t you say you were gonna stay in Natthaphat and never go back to this damn school?”
“Just felt like it.”
Saint was so chill about it and it made me want to get up in front of everyone and yell at him.
Why did he immediately leave after we broke up? Why did he have to come and mess up everything?
I took a deep exhale and tried to let all my worries out. Thiu saw my reactions and a flicker of sadness crossed his face. He knew all too well the shit Saint put me through. Thiu was there for me when I needed someone the most. Probably the reason we ended up together. At least I know he wouldn’t hurt me. I think.
Saint had an infuriating smile on his face and he looked at me.
“How have you been?” A hint of sincerity in his voice.
I froze.
How have I been?
I’ve been miserable. The agony of having the one person you fought so hard to get back just disappears from your grasp. I’m sure he was perfectly fine without me. So I lied. Like I always did with him when I was feeling upset.
“I’m good.” It was small but enough for Saint to hear.
He just nodded understandingly and didn’t say anything else.
The class dragged on and I saw Saint glances at me while I wasn’t looking. Well that’s what he thought. What was his goal? To make it hurt even more. To pour salt in the wounds I tried so hard to sew back up. Some good memories flashed in my mind though it was short it felt right.
The bell rang and everyone went to get up. But Saint was still in his chair looking at me. I got up from my seat and glared at him. That should tell him something even without words. Thiu went next to me and helped me with my bag. He always did this. It was endearing in a sense. I could feel Saint’s burning gaze.
Not at Thiu.
But at me.
I left with Thiu and something felt off. Usually he would start fights with other people but today he was different… as if the time away from me made him a better person. I shook the thought out of my head. That’s so stupid. Someone like him could never change.