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'It wasn't supposed to be like this.'
The thought was flashing in her mind the second she got up and after realizing the situation she had been at the moment, that was the thing that appeared in her mind. Looking at the man beside her that slept tightly, not to mention of herself that currently didn't presentable because of her naked body, which just covered by a thin sheet that she didn't know and remember from where she had gotten... Well, the man himself was pretty much naked as her.
She bit her lips. 'I bet he would not even remember that he met with me yesterday. He was slightly drunk when we saw each other.' A sigh escaped from her lips. 'And the talked that we shared last night... The things that he will never tell me when he is sober and awake.' Last night was more than just a night that full of passion. She turned her head to the sleeping man. Her gazed landed on his face. 'Such a handsome face.' She stretched her hand to touch his hair, but pulled back again a second later.
The man shifted from his laying position and now was facing her. She looked to the body that had held, hug, embraced her with such passion last night. How lean and sturdy. How safe she felt to be closed to him. Then she moved her eyes to his hands. The long fingers and the callouses on it; it's big, yet that hands had given a wave to her body that she never knew. And she would not allow any other man to give her that kind of feeling again. Not that she had any plans to have another in the near future.
Her gazed back to the face again, but this time she settled on his lips. The mouth that had kissed her with such hunger and passion. He was called an Oni, a demon by everyone. But last night, the demon was not the cold and stoic demon that he was known of. In their heated moment, he said that the demon was a demon that was unleashed because of her. The hungry kisses, the passionate gazed, the heated touches. He had told her that he couldn't hold the demon any longer. And in the end, he devoured her.
The sun hadn't come up yet. The sky outside was still dark. She guessed that she had just asleep for two or three hours before she woke up. She moved her body and her muscles were screaming because of the soreness of her night activity.
'We did it twice... I guess.' Her cheeks blushed furiously. When she was touched by him, all of rational thoughts were flying out of the windows. Her most treasured assets... she had given it to him. She knew that there's nothing to blame for her action except for her feelings. Without realizing it, she had fallen very deeply that she was certain she couldn't ever ran from it. From the moment she joined the force, many things had happened that in the end made her heart, gradually, belonged to him without she realized about it. And now, he also had her body.
She shook her head lightly to ease her mind from her thoughts of last night. Then, with much difficulty, like she had been running on marathon for hours, she moved and gathered her clothes. She tried to get dress without much noises, while hoped beyond anything that the man would not open his eyes yet.
She had come here with a very different intention. The other knew that she was meeting with her fellow and only female friend of her ilk, she had asked a permission to meet with this said friend. But, what they didn't knew was what had transpired in the meeting place after that. Not that she was prepared of this encounter. Then again... It already happened.
Even though the others would wonder and ask her of why she didn't return to the compound last night, at least she could give a believable reason to be told. This said friend of her was known to be spontaneous with something unexpected, like to ask her to stay over the night with her. All the captains knew it. So, none would suspect anything if she didn't come back. No one would ever suspect that last night, after meeting with her friend, that surprisingly asked her to meet her in Shimabara... Well, her connection with one of the maiko sure come in handy. But yeah, no one would ever thought that after meeting with her, she would stumble to a lone figure that she wouldn't ever think in thousand years would drink sake alone, in Sumi, one of the inn at Shimabara. To come to Shimabara instead of other places just to drink sake was a bit... unusual. It's a red light district the he had come to after all.
She had a suspicion that he came to Shimabara to do that 'kind-of-things' that man usually came to this kind-of-place. She had heard enough from one of the captains to know about what kind of place the red light district was. But she didn't find any kind of traces of him being with another woman before she stumbled into his room. Then again, she wanted to know who was dared enough to approach the infamous oni-fukuchou of the Shinsengumi....
It just a coincidence that she found him was drinking alone in one room. That night, she was pushed by some other drunk man. She was still dressing as a man, that's why the other man just brushed her off and walked to one of the room in his drunken state. Meanwhile, she fell to a room which happened to be next to the room she was in before. And there..... she found him.
An unexpected encounter that at the end would escalate to such things that she would just dare to dream it before.
'He would not remember of meeting with me last night.' She assured her thought once again. She had dressed and walked slowly to the door. Before she walked out completely from the room, she turned and glanced to the sleeping man. 'Knowing him, he will try to take responsibility if he knows what have happened.' She closed her eyes and felt bitter. 'I won't take any pity from him. He didn't force me last night. I did it on my account. It was my decision.' She opened her eyes again and determination could be seen in her brown eyes. 'That's why it's better if he doesn't know. I will keep your passion and care for me last night. I'm sure I won't meet the you from last night ever again.'
She looked to the sleeping man with a wistful smile before she said her parting word.
"Sayonara," she said softly. Then she walked outside the room, leaving the red light district and went straight to the Headquarters. She didn't turn to look back, afraid that her resolved would crumble if she saw his face again.
And that's why she didn't knew that before she completely exited the room they were sharing last night, the said man had opened his eyes. As somber and awake as he could be.
When he heard her parting word, his eyes fluttered open and he saw her retreating figure exiting the room. Then he felt something was pricking in his chest. What was this weird sensation that he felt pricking at his chest? Was it from hearing her parting word? Or was it because he saw her exiting the room? Or what?
"Tch."
He shifted and laid on his back. It didn't take a smart man to asses his situation. After all, even if he was drunk, his mind would always know of whatever happened when he was in his drunken state. And last night was not an exception. He clenched his hand in a tight fist, closing his eyes. He punched the floor, feeling so helpless for the first time since he became the vice commander of Shinsengumi.
His mind was blank. He uttered what he felt that moment with a defeated tone.
"Damn it."