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Fuyami sighs softly as she gets home from yet another set up date that her brother had set her up on it was a sweet gesture but she knew she wouldn’t have a choice enji was in the mists of setting up a weddgie g for her even thought he said her genes sucked but it didn’t matter he would find someone with strong genders and a flashy quirk fuyami sighs softly as she sits on the bed pulling her glasses off stressed overworked and tired she rubbed her temples as tears started to stream down her cheeks she tried to get ahold of herself but something essentially letting her she just continued to cry she cried and cried like a danm had been smashed and the water was rushing through she threw her pillow across the room and crumbled into herself her cheeks flushed and her makeup running down her cheeks onto her white sweater she had spent so long making look nice her emotions in fire she felt like everything in her body ached and hearted for this. For this unruly breakdown she was having she tried to make it stop she tried water but nothing would stop her crying after she had calmed down something else would make her start to sob she didn’t want a husband she didn’t want to carry a baby what if she turned out just like her mom what if this was it and she was just meant to be a breeder she didn’t want kids in the first place but what if she grew attached to them what if she wasn’t even emotionally available for her kids what if she went crazy like her mom and hurt them hurt them worse then a burn on the face what if she killed them the thought of kids made her insides curl and anger and sadness spurt up inside her otherwise sweet self she could see herself covered in blood dripping in it or talking up alcohol and drinking until she was black out drunk. Everything was so stressful and she hated it all of it she wanted so bad to be good to do everything right to bring the family together but after touya died things only got worse because hawks was in the mix but he didn’t help he never helped and it wasn’t his fault but she couldn’t even go outside without being called Davis sister the doughtet if an abuser people would ask if she was ever hurt he he had hurt her or did things but they never helped they never tried to do anything about it they would just ask questions and be over with it she became numb to it the daily chores she was kicked out of her job so she just did chores around the house and odd jobs she had thought about selling her body but she was to scared her father had said he had eyes everywhere and he could see everything that he was her god and that if she even thought about it he would know so she had kept to herself she tired to get out as often as she could but nothing ever helped she felt trapped in a cage created by her own kindness she could have left long ago natsuo offered many times to help her out but she had declined his help to nervous of what other would think.
The stress got to her as she sat in her bed she screamed and slammed her chair into the wall the smell of smoke came from the wood she held in her hands as a small bit of fire touched it she stared down her pupils twitching as she smirked she touched the wall and watched as the smoke started to plume from her palm and held it there cackling she took her hand away and saw the burnt paint she grabbed paper and held it watching it burst into flames she threw it on the desk and stared as the desk of papers cought on fire a wild crazy look in her eyes she set her floated on fire and anything she could fine what was flammable it hurt it browned she wonder if touya burned like this too. She started setting more things in fire throughout the house a sadistic look in her eyes as she watched smoke seep from the window she ran off into the woods seeing the sad weeping trees and burnt forest floor that was still recovering from touya mental break she sat on the forest floor and screamed