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To my Darling, Darling Lois,
I thought that this letter was a much better idea than writing my own vows & saying them aloud in public because of our unique situation. I hope you like the idea. As I write this, (at Super-speed on my laptop), I know it will be the single most important thing I will ever write.
I can't help but wonder what you're doing right now. It seems so strange not to have seen you today, not to have been able to hold you in my arms, kiss you & tell you how much I love you & not to feel the thrill every time I look up & you’re there. Someone very wise once told me that love was the sweetest, most addictive drug ever & only now do I really understand what she (Mom, in case you hadn’t all ready guessed), meant by that.
Every second of today has been an eternity. Even when things were at their very worst between us, I always knew that, like it or not, I’d see you at ‘The Daily Planet’, get to hear your voice; but not today. Today there were no coffees at our desks, no stories to chase up & most ‘alien’ of all, no stolen kisses. You may be surprised to hear this Sweetheart, but you’ve turned me into an irredeemable thief! You’re all I think about.
(I promise I’m not trying to score points here, but that’s been the way with me every day since I met you; even when the city & the world needs Superman, I need your image in my mind’s eye to keep me centred).
I knew it was tradition that we couldn't see each other for 24 hours before the wedding, but no one warned me it would also be sheer torture as well! Since we said goodbye at the Rehearsal Dinner it seems like forever. I was so bad that in the end Dad offered to cover for me so that I could go fly off some nervous energy! Just my luck for it to be a slow ‘Super’ night as well!
It's about 9:30 p.m., so you're probably thinking about getting ready for bed to sleep alone 1 last time, but if I know the woman I love, you'll probably be up half the night chatting to your Mom, Lucy, my Mom, Louanne, Isabelle & Star.
Actually My Love, I meant to talk to you about that, did you know that Louanne has never been to a wedding before? Not even when her mother remarried! She told me when I went to see her the other night. Apparently, Carl convinced her mother that the strain would be too much for her! I take you’re in full agreement that that’s a load of utter garbage? Unfortunately, I can’t say I’m surprised, but it seems so unfair. I know tomorrow will be perfect for us, I just wish there was some way to make it special for her to.
She really loves you, you know? When Jimmy said that 1st day that Lou had great taste in friends, he can have had no idea how right he would turn out to be. Whenever I talk to her, tell that she looks nice, or tell her she’s done well at something, her eyes light up, her smile gives Metropolis city Christmas tree a run for its money, & she always, without fail, replies something to the effect of;
‘Really, do you think Lois will be pleased with me?’
I don’t want to scare you, but you’re her heroine Honey.
As for Starr, she will probably insist on predicting our future somehow, so knowing her track record, I think I’d better go 1st.
I, Clark Jerome Kent, hereby predict that I will always be head over heels in love with you, Lois Marie Lane, & that no power on this or any other planet (including you in fully fledged ‘Tornado’ mode), could ever change that.
I wonder whom you'll get to brush your hair; I can't exactly do it as usual tonight can I? Whoever it is I’m incredibly jealous of them! After tonight nobody else (except maybe, in time, our children), will ever take that pleasure from me. I did think about coming over as Superman, just to do that & 'wish you luck', but Dad promised me he'd deliver this if I didn't do that.
Things over here are pretty quiet, except that I think Jimmy's missing Louanne almost as much as I'm missing you! God, if we were like that before we came to our senses I really don't know how everyone else put up with us for so long! (Now that I come to think about it, that’s probably the only reason why things are this quiet; I must admit, I was dreading whatever my best man had planned for tonight, but it seems as though dating Miss Mathison has made him grow up, just a bit!)
Anyway, as I write my Dad is teaching yours how to play draughts (yes, my love, I can imagine what you’re thinking & you’d be quite right, it’s nuts, why do you think I’ve retreated to the fire escape?!), & I’ve got a nasty feeling Perry, Jimmy, Thomas & the others are planning something silly with the car! Don’t panic Darling, for all his ‘King’ stories & bad jokes, Perry at least will know where to draw the line; I know that. Speaking of stories, I’m certain they will come later & I’ll have the camera at the ready to capture the look on Jimmy’s face when Dad tells the one about ‘the cross-dressing chef’; it should be priceless!
Sitting here, I can clearly see the remaining light from Krypton, & I can’t help but wonder what Lara & Jor El would think of me now. (Maybe I should have checked on the globe; this would be the kind of time it would have a message for me; in fact, if I can, I’ll nip home.) Mom & Dad will understand, they always have.)
Would Lara & Jor El think I was ‘flashy’, using the powers this unfamiliar yellow sun gave me as I do? Did they have any idea of the gifts (as well as saving my life), sending me to a far away planet they knew they could never see, would grant me? Would they think I was wrong to wear a costume to let me keep the world at bay? Was their ultimate sacrifice worth it; do I live up to what they wanted me to be? Would they have gotten along with Mom & Dad? Did they ever except me to fall helplessly in love & marry the exquisite woman of my dreams?
I know I can never have answers to my questions in words, & that makes me very sad, but I like to think I have my answers in another way. They set me on a path to my destiny. They knew that in some ways I would pay a high price for surviving, but their compassion & courage let me reach for the reward they had set in motion for me; 2 incredible, wise, loving Earth parents, a great life & most of all my Darling, you. You, my always & forever.
I suspect they would think me over-emotional, but just at this moment I would be proud to tell them they were right.
Are you nervous about tomorrow? I discovered today that I am capable of having excited butterflies. I’d always wondered about that & now I know, thank you Honey. I know you will look absolutely stunning. I’m glad about that because I know that’s what you want, but you always look stunning to me. I can’t wait for the 1st time someone refers to you as my wife. Who do you think it will be? Knowing Jimmy, he’s probably got a book running on it! (Hee Hee!)
I'm certain nothing bad will happen this time. The Powers That Be would never be that cruel, I’m sure. (Don’t worry Honey, I’m frantically leaning on the wooden windowsill as I type!) Everything is going to be just perfect! I want to really enjoy the day & night & remember it for all eternity. This time tomorrow we'll be that 'Old Married Couple' you talked about!
This time tomorrow, I can barely wait! I will finally be able to relax properly by your side, knowing that it’s truly where I belong. I wish that there were the words to try & express how incredibly, completely happy that makes me, but there aren’t, so I’ll just have to spend forever showing you instead, won’t I?
I have a secret to tell you my Love. Oh, I know what you’re thinking; nothing new there then!
No nothing new, but something very special. You know that amongst other things, my powers mean I can hear anything, right? Well, that 1st night we were ‘together’ I realised that I can hear your heartbeat. Yes, I can hear anyone’s if I try, but yours is always there now, a steady, ever present reassuring drum beat, reminding me how incredibly lucky I am & how much I love you. It took me a while to tune into it, but now I can’t imagine hearing anything Sweeter.
This letter is my chance to say so many things, but mostly it’s my chance to say I love you so much & thank you; thank you for all the things you’ve done & will do to make my life worth living. Thank-you for all the covering, all the loving, all the laughter, even all the tears that have been & which are to come. Thank-you for all the times that you’ll be there after a bad ‘call’ to ease my pain in the safe haven of your arms; all the times when your love, & only your love will give me the strength to go on & all the times when you will be the only 1 I can share my relief & joy with.
Thank-you for all the times when the sweet music of your laugh with make my heart flip helplessly in my chest, or your eyes will flare up with passion or the anger that can clear the newsroom in 5 seconds flat! Most of all, Lois, my Love, I need to thank-you for the honor of loving you & being loved by you.
Reading back over this now I realise that some of this letter sounds very possessive & I don’t mean it to do so (not in a negative way at least). I do want you to know Honey, I’ll never try to take anything from ‘us’ that you’re not willing to give. I’ll never knowing or willingly do anything to hurt or upset you & I’d break my own heart rather than see you shed a single unhappy tear.
The other thing I realise is that I’m babbling. (Perry warned me after he teamed us up that it was infectious, & I should have listened to him!) The reason I’m babbling like a brook (as you would no doubt eloquently inform me), is that I know it’s time to finish this letter.
It’s not that I’m lost for the words but that there are so many that I could choose from. How to sign off? Which of the million endearments which spring to mind every time I think of you, should I use? How to make you smile, pick up Clarkie & give him the hug I wish with all my heart you could give me right now; Lois? Honey? Sweetheart? Darling? The most beautiful person I have ever known? My Soul Mate? My Lover? My Life? Baby? (Opps, why do I get the feeling you’re going to kill me for that 1?) My partner? ‘My Little Tornado’? My best friend? You’re going to have to choose which one you like best & I promise I’ll use it the most (if there’s something else you like the sound of you’ll have to let me know), okay?
Maybe I should call my fiancée 1 last time? So many ways to say how I feel & yet I know that none of them will ever be enough.
I’ll love you with everything I am forever,
Clark xxx
P.S. I hope you like your wedding gift.