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As you fell asleep you woke up in a and unfamiliar place the place is quite it's strange from what you can see the place is a living room everything in the living room is normal with what seemed like a family two girls one boy a father a grandmother and a mother standing in the hallway but none of them noticed you
Were you dreaming or is this a sleep paralysis it didn't seem like it you can move is it a dream?but there is someone else there she is crying? Her eyes are watering and drops of tears fall into her lap she's making a salad on the ground sitting she's cutting you got closer to her and she's kind of squinting probably because of the tears blurring her vision she's almost finished making it but the strange thing is...She was distant too distant
why was she crying why wasn't anybody comforting her or telling her that it is okay to cry or ask her about why she's crying what upset her? but it seemed like everybody is ignoring her while she was holding back tears with all her might it looked like she was biting her lip to stop her tears while she was cutting isn't it strange?
people around her were talking but there was some tension in that room it was uncomfortable what was this feeling?you thought It was this feeling to rip you skin off or disappear it was a feeling of hurt sadness and depression but at the same time you felt numb it was weird but then something fell from you eyes it was a teardrop
You quickly touched your face you felt tears streaming down your face why am I crying? why am I here? You had a million questions but all of them went unanswered you thought
what a strange dream?
but then the feeling stopped the tears the sadness it all stopped I
You felt relieved the girl stopped cutting she stood up and went past the mother in the hallway nobody looked at her no one why!! aren't this people her family?
You quickly followed her she put the salad in the kitchen and went to the bathroom you followed her to the bathroom sink she started washing her hand but she was scratching her hand why was she doing that?! She was scratching her hand really hard and then the feeling returned but this time it was anger but then you understood
that was what the girl was feeling
You focused more on the feeling while the girl was peeling at her skin the feeling of hate but it was at herself why does she hate herself so much?
"I want to die why was I ever born I can't do it anymore" what?
What were these thoughts were these her thought why would she think that!! She should hate the family that don't care about her why does she hate herself!!
She was still peeling at her skin
too hard!
that must hurt really bad
she needs to stop!
But you could do nothing
but watch her
her skin was turning red and abused she was still crying but trying her hardest to hold back the tears and failing miserably you wanted to comfort her to wipe her tears to hug her and tell her that she is loved but
you couldn't
You could just watch tears streaming down her face
this was horrible this is not a dream this is a nightmare!
And then she stopped assaulting her skin she then washed her face and turned the water off she looked at her self in the mirror and she touched the bags under her eyes and walked out of the bathroom but then she stopped for a few seconds in front of the living room door
she took a deep breath and with a calm face she went to the living room you saw the family at the dining table eating and chatting happily she sat down and took her spoon and started eating you just looked at her eating
You noticed that her hand was trembling but she was hiding the tremble while you watched her a new feeling emerged it she was feeling pathetic and worthless a nothing. You had given up on trying to help her
You could do nothing.
You can't reassure her nor can you comfort her it's sickening how could they do this to her no attention no affection nothing!!
After they all finished eating she cleaned up the table picked up all the plates and then put them all in the dishwasher the spoons the plates the bowls she cleaned up after all of those
immature adults! WHY!!
You were enraged by this
And then she was going upstairs you followed after her too a new room the room had a big window with balcony she walked to the window slowly with her red and scratched hand opened the window and walked to the balcony
and there saw a beautiful view it was breathtaking but then all of the feelings of anger sadness depression pain all of those feeling replaced by a feeling of
Peace?
everything was quite now only the sound of the wind could be heard it was peaceful but then she climbed the balcony railing you got scared what is she doing?!
NO no she can't do this!!that's dangerous she might fall! but then she finally said something while the wind was gently blowing her hair her voice was soft and low.
"I'm sorry I tried my best"
it was barely a whisper but you can still hear it no no no why why are you apologizing!! You tried to grab her hand but
You couldn't...
You woke up with tear stained face cold sweat and breathing heavily what was this nightmare!?
Who was she do I know her ??
You were was spiraling so you looked at the clock it was 6:12 In the morning you got up to get a glass of water the water was cold it was soothing you felt relieved
but you still couldn't stop thinking about her as you got into bed and pulled the blanket over yourself and slowly drifted into a deep sleep my last thoughts were.
"Who was she? ".
"Do you know who she was?"
Yes you are right
That was me.