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he sits in the afternoon sun, drinking his hot tea.
we’ve been meeting up like this for awhile, a few months have passed.
He’s kind of content with his new life (which i believe),
that’s all that matters.
I need to see him happy.
i sip my tea, I enjoy tea now because of him, his warm smile always catches me off guard,
does he feel the same?
,, you know, sunday, i have become quite fond of
tea just because we meet up like this now.
you’re truly a special friend. “
I finally broke the calm silence,
his smile doesn’t disappear,
he just looks at me with soft eyes
,, Ah,
so I have gotten you hooked on tea, have I? Quite the achievement, I must say.
I suppose I shall take the credit, yes? “
I nod, returning his warm smile, I never smile unless it’s a deceiving one, to either get my way or win a bet, that I’m bound to win anyway.
,, without a doubt I wouldn’t hesitate just to buy you an endless supply of your favourite tea “
his favourite was Pu'er tea, which was mine too.
he laughs it off, I was just being sarcastic right? But deep down I would do anything for him.
He catches me staring maybe a bit too hard.
,, is something on your mind, Aven ? “
I brush it off like usual. He kept pushing.
Maybe after all a small love confession was right?
If he’s enjoying my company and hanging out with me so regularly he would feel the same without a doubt.
,, actually there is. I need to tell you something important. “
A lump in my throat appears, am i really going to do this?
,, of course, I’m all ears. Please don’t tell me you’re feeling dark thoughts again, I’m always here for you, Aven. “
the nickname he gave me echoed in my head.
I take a deep breath.
,, well, Sunday. I don’t want our friendship to change in anyway. Because i treasure you so closely to my heart “
god it already sounds terrible escaping my lips.
,, mmm? Yes aventurine, I’ll stick by your side til death do us part “
he convinced me to continue.
,, I may have fallen for you. “
the room went silent, his warm soft smile disappeared.
he looked speechless, maybe i scared him away?
,, what? “
he finally breaks the silence.
,, im sorry. you’ve caught me off guard with the sudden confession.
i…don’t know how to feel “
he didn’t feel the same? my heart drops.
I try to muster up the courage to speak again,
my heart feels like it’s been crushed.
,, don’t worry about it.
we can always just be friends. “
he adds.
oh sunday you don’t understand.
he tries to smile softly again, but i see through his attempt. he is uncomfortable.
,, thank you. shall we just end this meeting early? “
i wanted to run.
,, yes, i have a few plans this evening. “
at least he’s acting normal.
we say our goodbyes. he leaves my apartment.
I sit at the table outside.
i haven’t seen him since that day.
he’s been trying to reach out for a few months.
i can’t make myself face him again.