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“So….basically I‘d be a baby again and you two would be my Mothers if I agree? Is that even safe?“,you timidly sceptically asked whilst twirling a strand of hair around your pointer finger in thought,not really sure what to make of what you‘d just heard.
It was already the late afternoon and you were tired,Olivia and Alex‘s kitchen was warm and smelled like freshly baked bread whilst their ongoing dishwasher hummed in the background,efficiently cleaning the dishes that they’d used for Lunch today,whilst the three of you were currently sitting at their dining table across from the kitchen Counters.
Olivia nodded softly.
“Yes….Alex and I have consulted a bunch of the best Doctors in America and every single one of them has assured us that this is very safe,the miscarriage rates of the people that have already done this before have been very slim so far,I think there have been four miscarriages in total out of the thousands of people that have already done this.
And yes,once you‘d be born again you would then legally be our daughter,Y/n Benson-Cabot,we thought that we‘d let you keep your first name unless you want to have a different one?“,the brunette said while holding hands with Alex under the table in anticipation of what you would say.
You swallowed nervously.
“The miscarriages….those people died? Like,actual death? Like,gone forever?
There was no way to turn them back in time to save them?“,you then shakily asked,your tone of voice unsure as you looked at them with trusting eyes.
Alex‘s lips immediately tightened into a thin line as she quickly looked to the side whilst Olivia took in a deep breath.
“No….I‘m afraid there was no way to save them in time sweetheart“,the brunette then softly said in response to what you’d just asked them whilst giving you a compassionate look,almost as if she was apologizing for something that had had nothing to do with her.
You swallowed again.
That doesn’t sound very safe if people literally died….
“Do you….do you think that they were afraid,the people?
You know,right before they died?“,you then timidly asked,you tone of voice quiet and concerned as you nervously fiddled with the hem of your sleeves,your eyes fixed on Olivia who you‘d felt a special connection with from the very moment that you‘d met her.
You weren’t exactly sure of why you were feeling so drawn to the brunette,maybe it was because she was a well known SVU Captain who possessed the ability to make people feel safe by just existing,or maybe it was your Mommy issues taking over in her presence,you didn’t know but what you were sure of was that if you were to potentially become her and Alex‘s daughter you‘d then have a very protected and safe childhood with two loving and attentative Mothers who‘d do anything to keep you safe and sound.
A soft sigh from Olivia quickly brought you back from your thoughts and into reality again though.
“I don’t know honey,I don’t think that they really even noticed what was going on and were conscious when it happened since,well at least from what we‘ve been told,all of the miscarriages happened very early on in the Pregnacies and every Doctor that we‘ve gone to has told us that the babies that have been born again safely all haven’t shown any signs of consciousness until about the 20th week of Pregnancy“,she said as she reached over and gently took one of your hands into one of her own in an attempt to convey calm and soothing vibes to you so that you wouldn’t feel afraid.
You swallowed.
“….So they died and they‘ll never even know that they’re dead?“,you then whispered,feeling terrible for the people that this had happened to.
The brunette immediately gave your hand a comforting squeeze.
“Y/n we wouldn’t be asking you if we‘d deem it unsafe,you do know that,right?
We care about you and we just want the best for you,wether you‘ll agree to become our daughter or not“,she said,her voice so maternal that you immediately just wanted to say yes but the rational part of your brain was holding you back,yelling at you to pause and think about it thoroughly.
“I….yes,I know,it’s just….would I be able to keep my memories?
I didn’t even know that something like this was even possible and I don’t know if being a baby really sounds that fun to be honest,I mean what do they really do all day except for sleeping,wouldn’t that be so boring and also which one of you would carry me?
Oh my god I would literally be inside of one of you,that’s crazy!“,you choked out,getting more and more worked up by the second,your breath hitching and your hold on Olivia‘s hand tightening.
That’s insane,why am I even considering this?
I mean a second chance at having a childhood does sound nice but it sounds really dangerous aswell,I don’t wanna end up dead incase they have a miscarriage!
Sensing that you were getting overwhelmed Alex then softly spoke up and calmly chimed in with:
“We know that this is a lot,y/n,it‘s a brand new technology,not even a year old and I can’t even imagine how overwhelming even just the thought of becoming a baby again must be for you right now,y/n. We didn’t mean to overwhelm you,we’re sorry,it’s all a bit much all at once right now,isn’t it?“
You immediately nodded.
“Y-Yes….I don’t know what to say to be honest,I didn’t even know that something like that was possible and I mean you two are amazing and so nice and I‘m sure that you‘d be great Mothers and since I‘ve never really had a childhood a second chance doesn’t sound too bad at all but I just….I think that I need to think about it for a little bit if that’s okay?“,you then mumbled and immediately felt a wave of relief wash over you upon seeing both Olivia and Alex nod immediately.
“Yes,of course,that’s perfectly understandable y/n,this definetly isn’t an easy decision to make,it would be life changing for all of us,but especially for you,so take all the time to think about it that you need.
No rush,and to go back to your earlier questions,Alex would be the one to carry you just because she’s younger than me and because of that is less likely to have any complications during the Pregnancy than me,and we don’t actually know for sure if you‘d be able to keep your memories from your life right now,we did ask the Doctors about that too but they’ve all just said that it’s still too early to know for sure since with the 9 months of Pregnancy that come with it and the technology only being a year old the oldest babies that have been born through it are only a few months old right now,so it’s hard to tell,some apparently seem to be pretty aware of their surroundings and of what their new Parents are saying and are already able to do more than regular babies of their new age while others are apparently seeming just like babies that have been born through the regular way of conception but if you‘d like then you could come to another appointment with us and ask the Doctor everything that you‘d like to know to help you decide?“,Olivia then spoke up again,her tone of voice calm and soft aswell but also having a bit more of a protective touch underneath it than Alex‘s had had.
You nodded again.
“Yes,I think that would actually make me feel better,when‘s the next Appointment?“,you then quickly asked,still feeling pretty unsure of what you were wanting to do and hoping that getting some answers from an actual Doctor that had worked with people that have gone through this before would ease your mind a bit and make making a decision easier for you.
You didn’t stay much longer after that,after Alex and Olivia had then informed you that their next Apoointment would be next Thursday at 9am and had offered to let you drive with them you‘d accepted and afterwards had gone home again to dort out your thoughts-not without a few slices of the bread that Olivia had made earlier today though because Olivia was always concerned about wether or not you were eating enough and the right foods.