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2025-07-24
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circles

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kristin's thoughts of their story, through the dazzling start to the painful in-betweens and quiet ends.

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Her eyes, the moment they first meet. Dark, hypnotizing circles, light brown with hints of green and if the light flashes just right, little flecks of gold that look just like stars, glittering under a vast, impossibly beautiful sky and Kristin cannot look away. 

 

After long, exhausting rehearsal days or fights with her husband (or both) and Idina collapses into Kristin's arms, quiet sobs shaking her body, circles are the patterns Kristin gently rubs into her back, hoping the immense, immense amount of love she feels for this woman is somehow made known, even if she doesn’t say it out loud.

 

Years later, Kristin will wonder if Idina ever knew. 

 

She’ll pace in circles, around and around and around and wonder whether if she’d ever dared to say them, the three little words she felt, so, so much- well, who is she kidding, still feels, whether they’d be what they are today. If perhaps it could’ve been her, in his place, by her side. If perhaps they could’ve had more than eight shows a week for nine months, followed by dead silence broken up by rare meetings in nameless hotels and shady alleyways and exchanges on social media to prove to everyone they don’t hate each other. If perhaps they weren’t whatever heartbroken, barely-healed trainwreck they are. 

 

She’ll stare at the delicate silver circle with the three glittering stones on her hand that’s ridiculously heavy and imagine Idina’s fingers sliding it on, asking to be hers, forever, and cry because if she had the courage, that could’ve been them. Because they could’ve had a life together waking up in each other’s arms, and cooking breakfast together, and taking walks, and doing all the silly, stupid things couples do.

 

But some things don’t end up how you want them to, no matter how hard you try, and if you fuck them up once, you usually don’t get another chance to fix them. No matter how many times Kristin dreams she does it right, it only makes the bitter disappointment of waking up in the middle of the night with tears streaming down her face more painful, and the only thing she has to show for it are the dark circles under her eyes that she sees when she gets up the next morning. 



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