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Hello everyone! I was thinking about it, and i thought this might be important information you guys should know. Mostly for the people who are reading this as I update this series. I hope you guys see this. I know there's no tags, I wasn't sure how to tag this. So, I hope putting this in this series will make sure everyone sees it.

For one, I have made a rough time line. I'm trying to keep this pretty similar to Canon, time line wise at least.

Part 1 & part 2 - before Canon (obviously)

Part 3 - takes place during Canon/takes place over the same two weeks that Canon does (I got that information from Google so if that isn't quite right that's why)

Part 4 - takes place when Paul is driving Darry home in part 3. I forgot to mention that, but I think it's pretty obvious.

Part 5 - takes place the day/night (roughly 24 hours) after the rumble that takes place in Canon.

Part 6 - takes place 7 months after Canon. So, around March/April

Second thing. I originally only had ideas for these 6 one-shots. I'm sure most, if not all of you, have read part 3 by now, so you know that more can be added to it. And, well, I have some ideas. It wasn’t planned, so I think I'm just going to stick with finishing part 5 & 6 first. I'm already about 450 words into part 5 the day that I'm posting this. However, that might mean spoilers for what I'm going to add to part 3. I'm not sure though, as I'm not very far into part 5 and I don't have a plan besides some ideas. So, this is just a warning that some ideas/plot for part 3 might be mentioned in part 5 & 6. Again, i don't know for sure.

I'm probably only going to add 2 to 3 chapters to part 3. It depends on what I end up doing.

You are free to wait until everything is posted, if you don't like the idea of potential spoilers or you just don't like that I'm not posting it in order, or something else entirely. And that leads to the third thing I want to talk about.

When will I post? I'm going to make no promises, because that's a bad idea. I will say that if everything goes according to my plan, part 5 & 6 should be posted within the month, so by August 25th. Hopefully before that, but again, no promises. I'm giving myself time to get this done. As for the extra chapters, I have no clue when I can get those done and posted.

I'm unfortunately still in school, and will be going back within the month or so. (Being vague for privacy reasons.) So, that means less time to write. If you choose to wait for everything to be posted, for whatever reason, then you're probably going to be waiting a while, sorry.

This has nothing to do with anything, but if geometry is anything like algebra 1 was for me last year, then this is going to suck.

I think that's everything I wanted to say. Sorry if you didn't think any of that was important to know, I just wanted to make this just in case.

With that being said, this will be put at the end of this series. If I have anything I want to add to this later I will make another chapter.

Thanks for reading!

I'm going to yap in the end notes feel free to ignore it.

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My stomach decided it wanted to try and kill me today, so I'm going to tell random people 🙃

My plans for today went out the fucking window.

The only reason I'm writing this is because I wanted to do something that wasn’t just laying in my bed, waiting for the pain meds to kick in. I don't feel like doing anything else.

On a more positive note, I'm 5k words into part 5! I have no idea how much longer it's going to take me, but it's getting there. Most of it was done during the hours of 12 and 3 am.

Alright, I'm going to go finish dying now.

Thanks for reading! Have a good day everyone! ❤️

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Hey guys! I know it's been a while, and by that I mean like 3 weeks. Sorry about that.

I'm back at school now, and I already hate it. So, that means I have less time to write because unfortunately school work comes first. And if I'm being honest, I kind of ran out of motivation. I've been writing almost nonstop for like 2 months and have written about 50k words within that time. 40 of which are apart of this series.

But don't worry, because I've started working on part 6 again!! I wrote about 2.7k within the past 2 days, not sure if that's a lot but it's something. Part 6 is now about 9.3k words long! I'm getting it done, hopefully soon. I'm hoping to get it finished and posted sometime next week, but I'm not about to make promises. I'm working on it.

With that being said, I may or may not have started 2 more fics that may or may not get posted at some point. I was bored, okay? I don't have access to the word document I wrote part 6 in on my phone, so I just decided to write something else. And I'm not allowed to use my phone in school so I started hand writing something else. They’re both sort (at least right now) and have nothing to do with this series, but I wrote more. Yay! (It’s all parry)

Alright, I think that's all I wanted to say. Just wanted to let you guys know I didn't fall of the face of the earth or something.

Thanks for reading!! (And your patience) ❤️

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I let one of my friends read something I wrote, and thinking about it a while later, I feel judged.

I don't like it when people who I know in real life read what I write, for the most part. I don't think and can look at someone or be around them as they read something I wrote. I feel like they're going to judge me, and I don't want to hear that. I sometimes send some of my writing to another friend of mine, and he doesn't judge me. Also, it's over text, so I can't see his reaction or hear any judgy thoughts.

She, my friend who I let read part of something I'm working on, wanted to read it. I bring the notebook that I'm writing it in to lunch, because if there isn't anything entertaining me, I need something to entertain me when I finish eating. This isn't the first time she asked, or just wanted to read it in general. (I think she and another friend of mine actually tried to grab it? And I know she tried to read it when I was trying to close the notebook and hide what I wrote.) The only reason I let her read it this time was because it was vague enough that it didn't give away the fandom I was writing it about, because it was fanfiction.

They know I write fanfiction. I am not afraid to say it. I just don't want them reading the stuff I write, especially in front of me. 😭 I don't want them to know the fandom I'm writing it for because I feel like I'm going to be judged. That's the only reason why, and so far, I don't feel like I've been proven wrong.

Also, what I let her read was part of an AU, so I've fucked with Canon, meaning it was less likely for her to recognize it. And for a bit of context, I basically just gave a character shity parents when they didn’t originally.

When she finished reading, the first thing she did was ask a question. I think it was mostly to clarify since I did kind of gave her a part that was in the middle of it with no context, so I'm not mad about that. She basically asked if it was an abusive household, which I said yes to because it is. (I don't remember everything, so this isn't word for word. Just the gist of the conversation, I think?) It's her reaction after that that really bothers me for some reason.

She asked something along the lines of, "How are you writing about an abusive household?" In the moment, I don't think I understood what she was saying. I think I was just confused by the question because what do you mean? I take my pen and make words appear on the paper, that's how I write. Thinking about it now, though, I have some different thoughts. I'm not sure what she really meant by that question, but I have my own interpretation.

My parents are great, I'm happy, I'm safe. I think she was asking how could I write about an abusive household when I know nothing about it. And, yeah, that's true, I guess.

But I'm not writing from experience, it's not going to be 100% accurate. I'm sorry if you’re offended by however I write it, but yeah, it's not going to be accurate. It's not going to be amazing either. I'm not an amazing writer.

It's fanfiction.

I'm having fun with it. I'm torturing my favorite characters. It's for fun. And being questioned like that makes me feel judged and offended, like I shouldn't be writing about it if I haven't experienced it.

But whatever, I'm not exactly happy by her comments, but I'm not completely upset by it either. I'm not going to stop, I'm just never letting her read what I write again.

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My parents don't understand gender, or the fact that there's more than 2 genders. My dad might as well be throwing up his hands at even the mention of anything gender neutral. My mom is not much better.

Enter me, their pangender child.

Yeah, how is one supposed to explain to them, when they don't understand that there's more than 2 genders and let's not get started on that you can be both, that their daughter is also their son and so much more at the same time! How am I supposed to explain that their daughter, who loved the color pink and wearing dresses and all things girly, really, wants to look like a guy, be acknowledged as a guy. How do I explain that I want to look like neither of those things too.

I'm so open with my parents, I tell them everything! I have nothing to hide, or i didn't. but I can't tell them this. They're not going to understand and that will just hurt worse, probably, than not telling them at all.

I think it might be worse knowing they love me. I grew up loved, and I knew it. I knew they would support me, I never would've expected not to be. But I know my mother won't ever call me by anything other than the name she gave me. I don't think my dad will either. My brother already tried exploring the idea of being a girl with them, a conversation i have only ever heard once. Based off that I know trying to explain being more probably wouldn’t go well. At best it would be ignored that it had ever happened.

It's better to not tell them and save myself the heartache, but it also hurts to know that I won't be accepted, not the way I want to be. They support me in every other way, just not this one.