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If you were to ask Pangi what he was feeling at the exact moment, it would be exhaustion.

He was up for a while when Lifesteal started. He simply wanted to go back to base and have a goodnights rest. But he wouldn't let himself, at least not yet.

He had promise Jaron to meet up after the whole staying up fiasco. He did regret it now that he actually has to visit him, but it would be nice to talk to him again. They had a hard time communicating when Pangi was in the Realm, maybe they could have a real conversation.

He had no idea where he was headed, presumably near spawn, or so he hoped.

"Pangi!" The voice had alerted him instantly.

"Jaron!"

He raised his glasses atop his head to get a better look. There he was. He ran over quickly, pulling him into a hug.

Jaron hugged back immediately. He laughed a bit before speaking up.

"I missed you man."

"I missed you too bro!" He pulled Jaron away to look at his face. He was so.. exicted!

"How was it on the Realm man? Did you like it?"

"Oh– it was great! I mean, I do miss my friends. But it's good to be back! And even better to see you." He winked after responding. He cringed after doing that, but no giving back now.

Jaron laughed, looking up at Pangi.

"Great to see you too dude."

They stared at eachother. It felt peaceful. Sure it was "the deadliest server" but they deserved happy moments. Especially with one another.

"Soooo... who are you teaming with? Need another?"

He nudged Pangi lightly, getting him out of his daze.

"Oh! Yeah, Derap, Terrian, Cube."

"Derapchu? I mean, not to be mean. But I thought you'd have a better team."

He shot his hands up in order to defend himself. Pangi simply chuckles in response.

"Yeah, yeah.. I mean, I felt kinda.. press..ured? But honestly it isn't that bad!"

"Well.. As long as you're happy!" He felt very skeptical about the predicament. But what could he do? He wasn't the one teaming with Pangi. Something in him wishes he was.

He placed his hand on his shoulder.

"Pangi. I love you man."

"What?"

Honestly, he didn't know how to respond to that. Hearing it from Jaron felt right. He needed that. But, it was so out of the blue. What was the point in that anyway?

"Oh, well, um. I love you too bro. Hey, it's getting late. Talk to you later? I can invite you on one of the sets this time around!" In all honesty he just wanted to get out of there as soon as possible. He still felt exhausted, and this wasn't helping him one bit.

Regardless, the statement peaked Jarons intrest. He always loved doing that type of fun stuff. Takes the mind off of what really happens. It's also kinda nice to be able to hang out with his friends.

"Of course man! Just give me a call and we can make something work. See ya Pangi. Nice talking to you."

So they went their separate ways. Pangi felt.. odd after that. He hadn't had a clue on why. But he was too tired to try to deal with those emotions anyway.

He should think of a new video idea. And fast.

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Jaron was sitting on the couch, Pangis couch. He was particularly nervous about this interaction.

This was his first time over Pangis house after they started dating. It still feels odd to say that.

Now, if that was all that was facing him he probably wouldn't be thinking about it that much. But he was trying to step out of his comfort zone.

He wanted to see what it was like to be more– feminine. He knew Pangi tended to crossdress and whatnot, and he wanted to try it out!

While he was lost in thought, Pangi had already came back after getting some stuff. Makeup, if he remembered correctly.

"Okay Jaron.." He placed the bag down beside Jaron and sat down upon Jaron's lap.

"Pangi! Do you have to get this close??" Jaron slouched back slowly down the couch. This felt so embarrassing. Thank God no one was watching.

He shouldn't be feeling like that anyway. He was hanging out with his boyfriend, that was enough for him.

"Well how am I going to your eyeliner? Now come closer, okay?"

Pangi talking startled him, but he gave in, leaning in towards Pangi.

"Stay still."

Pangi started doing his eyeliner, it was a little uncomfortable but he adapted to it quickly.

Sure enough, it was done. Pangi leaned backwards– finally giving enough room for Jaron to breathe. He had pulled out a mirror seemingly out of nowhere and pulled it in front of Jaron.

"Sooo... Do you like it?" He said, grinning to the other.

Admittedly it didn't look all that bad on him. He had thought Pangi did a pretty decent job.

"It's.. not bad..!" That came out worst than he anticipated, at least to Jaron. Pangi didn't quite take it to heart. He understood what Jaron had meant by it.

"That's great man! Wanna put some clothes on too?"

"Yeah."

They were just clothes anyway, what harm could it be to wear a dress once in a while? Even if he didn't know what it felt like. Maybe it'd feel great! Pangi looked good in them anyway.

Pangi pulled away, allowing Jaron to get up. He passed him a nice green floral dress and pushed him away to the bathroom.

Jaron locked the door and just.. stared at himself in the mirror. It felt odd looking at himself... but he shrugged it off.

He removed his clothes and put on the dress. Honestly it didn't look that bad on him. He left the bathroom and presented himself to Pangi

Pangi admired Jaron. He looked amazing.

"You're beautiful."

It suprised Jaron, but he appreciated the compliment nonetheless.

"Take me on a date first!" He giggled fanning himself.

"If you insist." He winked, pulling his hand out for Jaron to take.

He took his hand, though let go straight after.

"Clean yourself up first."

Pangi listened, heading towards his room and leaving.

Maybe this wouldn't be so bad after all.

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Jaron woke up from his bed, stretching himself before sitting upright. He looked to the side of himself expecting Rekrap to be there. As always he was already gone, likely meditating or whatever stable people do.

He slowly got out of his bed, making his way towards the bathroom and doing all of his requirements in there. Brushing his teeth, combing his hair, all that jazz. He eventually left the room, heading down towards the kitchen to grab a bite to eat.

At his arrival he noticed his Rekrap wasn't there, that was odd. He was always there when he woke up early. Which was nearly everyday. A thought popped in his head.

"Oh right, he was going on vacation for a week.. He could've at least given me a warning!"

He looked through the fridge and saw nothing. Well... that was a lie. There was food in there, but he frankly didn't feel like preparing anything and would much rather quickly pick something up from the market. Maybe some chicken?

He put his hat on quickly. Rushing himself out when he really didn't need to, he placed his shoes on and exited out of his house, locking the door behind him.

He walked to the supermarket, which thankfully wasn't that far from his house. Lifesteal was a pretty small town. Nothing to worry about in that regard, sure there were "wanted" individuals but no one really cared to stop them.

As he kept walking he could hear chatter in front of him. Looking up he saw Derapchu and Pangi! His smile appeared immediately after seeing Pangi, gaining a chuckle from Derap, who nudged Pangi and pointed at him.

"Hm." Was all Jaron could let out before Derap waved him over, he went a bit faster than he should've, but he was desperate.

"Mr.Yeah Jaron!" He pulled out his hand for a shake, Jaron quickly reciprocating it. He then got pulled into a hug— which he was not expecting from Derap.

"Nice to see you too Derap!!" He said, patting his back while smiling. He got pulled away, and glanced over at Pangi.

Pangi was a good guy, he admired him deeply. He was so charming. He waved at him slightly, he was clearly excited about the interaction.

"Jaron! Hey man!" He placed his hand on Jaron's shoulder, pushing his glasses back up with the other. "What's a guy like you doing here all alone?" Jaron knew it was am attempt at flirting, it wasn't good. But god he couldn't say he didn't fall for it immediately. Derap had simply snickered over it.

"I- Rek is on vacation! I'm just getting essentials." He put his hands in his pockets. Looking off to the side.

"Why don't you come over to my house? Since Rek isn't home and all." He felt flustered of the idea of it. Then again, not like they would be alone together! Derap was going to be there too, since he lived there and all.

"Oh! Yeah, I would love to. But I have to go get something to eat." He was planning on explaining more of what he wanted to do that day, but was interrupted by Pangi.

"Don't worry about that Jaron, I'm sure me and Derap can cook something up for you, right Derap?" Derapchu seemed annoyed at the idea. He reluctantly agrees to it regardless. "Yeah, yeah. We can do something for you Jaron."

He appreciates them greatly, smiling at the too and nodding. "Thanks guys!" Pangi grabbed his hand, causing Jaron to flinch. God, he really hoped he makes a good impression. He felt his hand get sweaty, hoping Pangi doesn't mind.

Pangi didn't seem to care though, leading him back to the town while talking to Derapchu. Jaron spaced out, only focusing on their hands interlinked with one anothers.

In no time they were in front of the house, Pangi let go of Jarons hand to open the door, letting Derapchu in then Jaron.

"Ladies first!" He winked at Jaron, though it was hardly noticeable when he wore the glasses. Jaron giggles, entering the home.

It was a decent house, not something extraordinary but he could see why someone would live there.

He plopped himself on the couch, watching as the two others entered the kitchen. He stared at the ground before he felt someone else sitting next to him, that someone being Pangi.

"Hey man, aren't you supposed to be cooking with Derapchu?" He questioned, Pangi just shrugged it off.

"Yeah, but he said he wanted to do it by himself." He shuffled himself closer to Jaron, placing his head on his chest. Jaron wrapped his arm around him.

"Pangi, you're actually really pretty. Thought I'd get that off my chest." He looked up at him, cupping his cheek. Jaron felt himself heat up at the touch.

"Thanks Jaron, you're not so bad yourself." Jaron leaned his head more into Pangis hand, gaining the chuckle from the latter. He places his hand back down on his chest and closes his eyes for a minute.

They laid there for a while, Jaron was simply thinking about nothing. Eventually he heard their names being called. Pangi got off of him and walked over to the kitchen, Jaron quickly followed.

Derapchu left the plates on the counter, though there were only two. "Where's the third one?" Jaron questioned.

"Oh, I'm going out with Zam today. Pangi should've told you, no?" Jaron shook his head.

Derapchu glanced at Pangi before departing without another word, leaving the two alone.

"Should we get to eating?" Pangi asked, which receives a nod from Jaron. "Sure man."

Pang led Jaron to the dining table, sitting across from him. It was silent for the most part, before Jaron started talking. "So why'd you invite me over anyway?" Pangi took a second to respond to the question, playing with his food before answering.

"I just like hanging out with you Jaron." He stated, before continuing on. "I think you're a nice guy." Jaron hummed in response.

"Thanks dude. I like you too, a lot Pangi." He looked away, covering part of his face in embarrassment. It felt weird admitting it— even if he wasn't doing it directly.

"Oh?" Jaron felt nervous, right until Pangi grabbed his hand in looked him straight in the eyes. "How about we hang out with eachother? Would that nice?"

A part of him wanted to reject the offer, he probably would've messed up one way or another— but it was Pangi. He couldn't resist him. They were friends after all.

"I'd love to man, but aren't we doing that now though?"

"Yeah but, a real hangout! How about later today?" He shrugged, nodding along with the idea. Not like he had anything better to do, and it would be nice to hang out with Pangi.

He saw Pangis eyes glow through the glasses he wore. He always questioned why he wore them but never brought it up.

Once they finished the food Pangi offered to walk Jaron home so they could get ready for their date. Well— he supposed it wasn't entirely a date, but who cares what he called it?

He put his shoes back on as Pangi was finishing up washing the dishes. He opened the door and waited for Pangi to leave.

He looked up at the sky, making sure to cover the sun with his hands. It was a great day out, he was happy to be able to spend some time with Pangi, and would be able to spend more later that day.

He heard Pangi leave the house and turned around, grabbing his hand and leading him towards his house.

It was silent the whole walk there, occasionally Pangi or Jaron would point something out and that would be it. It made him feel a bit nervous, but he never let it worry him.

As they arrived back at his house Jaron let go of Pangis hand.

"Thanks for walking with me Pangi."

"Ay no worries man!" He grinned at him, Jaron smiled back, before turning around to get back in his house.

He opened the door, ready to go back in and probably get another hour of sleep. Not until Pangi spoke up.

"Wait! One more thing!" Pangi ran up to Jaron, which he found odd. It wasn't like he was that far away from him anyway. He turned around to face Pangi, looking up at him.

Before he could let a word out Pangi grabbed his shoulders and kissed him. It was an odd feeling to say the least.

It felt good though. As soon as Pangi pulled away he could feel himself heat up. Smiling widely and looking up at him. Pangi looked away and laughed nervously.

"Still on for tonight?" He questioned. Jaron wanted to say yes, but he couldn't let anything get out. He quickly nodded in response.

"Great! See you Jaron!" He ran off, leaving Jaron alone at the doorstep

This was going to be a fun date.

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Pangi was getting ready for his recording with Jaron, he wasn't expecting anything extraordinary to happen. It was just going to be a nice talk, that would be all.

He wanted to meet up with a couple of the lifestealers, just something chill for once on an intense server. It was nice to have something not serious. He was always doing stuff like that.

After getting ready, which really only consisted of combing his hair– he aimlessly walked around his base, nothing better to do anyway.

As he was taking his stroll, he lacked to notice a pressure plate on the floor. As he stepped on it, he fell down a bit, before landing safely.

In hindsight— he probably should've been more cautious about it. Though it wasn't all the bad, or he told himself that. He was currently dressed in a maid outfit, sighing disappointedly.

He was annoyed about his predicament, why would someone do something this stupid? Maybe it was another one of Jarons pranks, but that video was posted months ago.

He saw that it was curse of binding, though only 26 hours. That was odd, there was never a time limit for this type of stuff. Though he felt relief, he wouldn't be stuck like this.

He dug himself up from the hole, patching it up. He dusted himself off and went back into his base. He looked in a mirror, and it was surprisingly fine. He though he was still embarrassed about. Jaron would have to see him like this!

He thought for a moment, he himself did also see Jaron in a maid outfit. He looked nice in it... Could Jaron see him in the same light?

No— that was ridiculous. Jaron was nothing like that. Not at all! He walked around in circles for a bit, thinking about the recording. Should he cancel it? It would be a dumb reason to do so.

Even so, this would make it more interesting! He started to walk into the direction of the recording, early bird catches the worm, right?

He landed on the spot, there being little decor. Just two stairs and a table in the middle. He could make it more presentable while he was awaiting his friend.

He grabbed a couple cherry blossoms from his inventory, before scattering them around. He sat back down and awaited his friend.

He saw Jaron running up on the distance, eventually getting to the table. He glanced over at Pangi and tried not to mention the outfit, but he couldn't help it!

"What are you wearing?" He chuckled, receiving a nervous laugh from Pangi.

"I don't wanna talk about it man." He mutters under his breath.

It felt so much more humiliating when Jaron was there. He didn't understand why, he probably would wear it with confidence if it was anyone else.

Jaron placed a bundle on the table, before taking a seat across from Pangi. He smiled brightly.

"You know, you don't look too bad." He admired the other. He wish he could be like him. It was admirable.

Pangi smiled at the compliment, "Thanks." He responded, fidgeting with his hands. Gee, how was he going to start this?

Pangi glanced at the bundle, before looking back at Jaron, who seemed to be lost in thought.

"So, what's with the bag?" He pointed at it, causing Jaron to gaze upon it.

"Right! Here, my gift to you." He pushed it over towards Pangi, who grabbed it gently and opened it.

Inside were a couple of cookies, seemingly rushed to be put in there. Pangi didn't mind, it was a sweet jesture from Jaron. Who cares how it was presented?

"Aww! Thank you Jaron!" He shoved the bundle in his inventory, looking back at him with gratitude, he didn't expect something from him out of all people.

"Sooo.." Jaron started, looking around the the environment. "Why'd you bring me here anyway?"

"Right!" He adjusted his seating position to sit more comfortably, before continuing the sentence. "Just an interview, for next season!" He replied, holding his hands together on top of the table.

"Okay." He tensed up, he wasn't expecting an interview. He thought it was going to be one of those fun videos Pangi always did. He sighed, he was going to have to make it intresting then.

"What are you plans for the next season?" He asked, turning his head and awaiting his response.

"Next season? Man, I don't have anything." He complained, resting his head in his hands. "How about you?"

"Oh, right. I mean, I got a team. Nothing else." He shrugged. "I heard Zam was changing her outfit." Jaron hummed in response.

"Are you gonna change you outfit too?" He glanced up and down Pangi, and Pangi could feel his face get warmer.

"Jaron!" He retorted, facing his head away from him. "It's not my fault anyways!" Jaron looked at him questionably.

"You sure man? I thought you liked this type of stuff."

"Doesn't mean I chose this outfit Jaron!" He sighed, Jaron looked curiously.

"Really?" He asked, Pangi had nodded in response. "Some dumb trap near my base." He complained, earning a nod from Jaron.

"It's not bad. I think you look kinda cute." He stated in a strikingly calm manner, Pangi could hear his heartbeat. It was so intense. He calmed himself down quickly, he didn't need this going wrong.

The two continued talking for the interview. Primarily focusing on the next season. Jaron wasn't quite prepared for it, and had mostly responded vaugley.

As the two had finished the interview, Pangi neatly put the cards back in order and put them into his pocket.

He began to get up, before Jaron had grabbed his arm. Pangi turned around to face him.

"Um- before you go!" He placed a hand on his face, gently caressing it before placing a kiss on his cheek.

Pangi froze up, stiffening as he watched Jaron pull away. Smiling sheepishly, he looked so silly.

"Sorry! For content, yeah?" He winked at him, Pangi nodded slowly in response. He supposed it would add stuff to the video. He could just say this a bit.

"Mhm." Was all he was able to muster up. He saw as Jaron pulled away and walked off slowly.

"Nice talking to you man! See you!" He grinned, putting his elytra on and flying off. Hm why didn't he fly in earlier?

No matter, Jaron just kissed him! He didn't mind it really, it felt nice. Was he possible he could do it again? Maybe on the lips. No— that was too much. He sighed and made his own way back home.

He'd had more time to think about it then.

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Jaron looked around the park, it was his first time being here in a while. He gazed his view towards Pangi, he blossomed into a smile as he met his eyes with the other. It felt nice spending time with him again.

The sun radiated it's shine across the park, causing him to squint a little when staring at him. He tilted his hat forward a little to block it out, which for the most part seemed to work out.

"Since we're here now.." Pangi led on, grinning excitedly and grabbed something from his bag, handing over a keychain of a giraffe. Jaron takes it into his hand and looks back at him.

"Thanks man." He felt unsure of the gift— he's taken so much from Pangi, and has nothing to give back for it. He frees the thought from his mind and places it on one of his belt loops.

As he finished, Pangi pulled him into an embrace, "Anything for you babe!" He stiffened at the name, he still wasn't used to all this— even if they've been together for months.

They broke away, Jaron latching on to Pangis hand as he quickly reciprocates. The two walk around the park, he noticed that today wasn't the busiest of days. It was quite empty actually.

Jaron got bored quite quickly, he remembered the picnic they were planning to have here, they could do that now.

"Pangi." He squeezed his hand, causing him to look over curiously. "Do you want to set up now?"

"Sure dude!" He grinned, the two had found a nice piece of land to set up on.

Pangi took off his bag, opening it up and laying the picnic blanket on the ground. Jaron peeked in the bag, pulling out some tupperware and placed it on the blanket.

He felt himself get giddy spending time with his boyfriend. He passed him a container and Pangi gladly takes it. He watches Pangi open it, revealing some hard boiled eggs he made.

Jaron opened his up, getting a fork from his pocket and blowing it off. He started eating his pasta as the two sat in silence.

Pangi looks at Jarons meal, he probably should've packed more for himself, but Jaron wouldn't mind sharing. Right?

"Jaron?" He started, "Can I have a bite?" Jaron nodded in response, "Of couse!" He grinned, putting the fork full of pasta towards his mouth.

Pangi took a bite, it did taste pretty good. He grabbed a napkin and wiped his mouth, adjusting himself to feel more comfortable.

As Jaron finished, Pangi looked around. He spotted a person from afar, but assumed it was simply another stranger from the couple that were at the park that day.

He tried to get a closer look, they seemed oddly familar to him. As they got closer he came to the conclusion of who it was, Derapchu.

On other occasions he wouldn't mind this predicament, it would've been nice to see his best friend! But this wasn't one of those scenarios. He rushed Jaron, who was only confused on the situation.

He stuffed the containers in the bag, shoving the blanket in it as well. "You good man?" Asked Jaron. "Yup!" He put his bag back on, leading him to a tree. He pointed up at it, causing Jaron to make a confused face.

"What about it man?" He questioned, as Pangi held his hand gently. "We have to climb up there!" He let go of him and motioned Jaron up.

Jaron started climbing, struggling a bit. He was wondering what is was about. Though he'd never question Pangis idea.

Pangi soon followed him up the tree, sitting with him on a pretty big branch. "This thing is gonna break." He stated, looking over at Jaron, who seemed startled by the comment.

"Why are we up here anyway?" He muttered, scooting himself closer to Pangi.

"I- I saw Derap." He looked away, yeah, it probably was a stupid reason to climb up a tree but he was looking out for Jaron!

"Oh." He looked on the ground, though it was heavily blocked by leaves. He could see a blob of blue, assuming that was Derapchu.

Jaron rested his head against Pangis shoulder, allowing the two to sit in silence.

"Since we're up here..." He started, putting his head up and leaning more towards Pangi. He knew where he was going with this, leaning into him and giggling.

He pulled him in, kissing him urgently on the lips. Pangi reciprocated quickly, wrapping his arms around him as he pulled him closer.

Pangi was the first to pull away, Jaron tried to chase his lips. Though unfortunately he didn't make it far before grabbing him, reminding himself that they were still on a tree, a non sturdy one at that.

He made a sort of squeaking noise, causing Pangi to let out a scoff. "Shut up." He replied, which only caused Pangi to smile.

As the two looked down, they noticed Derapchu happened to be down there. He giggled as he took a photo of the two in the tree together.

"God damn it Pangi." Jaron said, he was a bit upset. Though, it was kinda fun being up there.

The two made their way down, inviting Derapchu along on their little date, hangout, whatever they had named it.

Maybe it would stop him from showing everyone too.