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The last thing Sieun remembered was the deafening screech of tires, the blinding glare of headlights, and the sight of Na Baekjin frozen in the crosswalk.An impulse, sharp and unexpected, born of reflexes honed in countless desperate fights, or perhaps a flicker of something else entirely had propelled him forward. He hadn't thought he’d lunged . Shoving Baekjin hard, the impact jarring his own shoulder, the world tilting violently as momentum carried him into the path of the oncoming delivery truck.
Then, nothing. Not darkness exactly. A terrifying, silent void. A sensation of falling endlessly.
He gasped, eyes flying open, staring not at asphalt or flashing lights, but at the familiar, faded glow in the dark stars stuck haphazardly on his old bedroom ceiling. Dim evening light filtered through the thin curtains. The air smelled stale, of dust motes dancing in the faint light from outside, not burnt rubber or blood.
Wrong .Panic, cold and sharp, lanced through him. This room... it hadn't been his for months. Not since... He sat up abruptly, the movement sending a wave of dizziness crashing over him. His body felt profoundly wrong , smaller, lighter, softer. No deep seated ache in his ribs, no persistent throb in his knuckles from shattered bone and countless impacts. Just the pale, unmarked skin and the unsettling lack of dense muscle memory. His hands trembled slightly as he looked at them. Untrained. Weak.
He grabbed his old phone, the one he remembered breaking months later. The screen lit up. The date. His breath hitched, lodged painfully in his throat. It was the week before Eunjang. The week before everything shattered.
Suho. The name was a physical blow. Images flooded him Suho’s reckless grin, the terrifying stillness after the fall from the roof, the sterile hospital smell, the agonizing silence of the coma ward. Guilt, corrosive and familiar, ate at him anew. His fight, his burden, Suho had shouldered it without hesitation. And it cost Suho everything.
Time travel. The concept was absurd, illogical. Yet the evidence screamed. He was here.
Before. The truck… shoving Baekjin… had that thrown him back? The how was terrifying. The why felt cruel. The what now crystallized cold and hard. Stop it. Stop it all from happening.
The strategy was simple, brutal. Stay low. Avoid conflict. Focus only on academics. Do not engage. Do not attract attention. Do not become the Sieun who drew Suho into his violent orbit. He would be invisible. A ghost at Eunjang, waiting only to ensure Ahn Suho woke to a different world. A world Sieun hadn’t poisoned.
Exhaustion, deeper than physical, settled into his bones. The impossible weight of it, the crushing guilt, the sheer terror of this second chance, left him numb. He needed… he needed to see Suho. To anchor himself in the reality of his friend’s existence, even trapped in sleep. To calm the storm inside.
He moved silently past his mother’s closed door. No need for words. He slipped out of the apartment, the click of the lock echoing in the quiet hallway.
The walk to the hospital was a gauntlet of ghosts. He kept his head down, hoodie pulled low, a shadow among the evening crowds. He passed alleys where future brawls would erupt, corners where he’d later stand bloodied beside faces he hadn’t met yet, comrades forged in violence yet to come. He ignored it all. He walked faster, eyes fixed on the pavement. Stay low. That was the only path.
The hospital corridor was achingly familiar. Disinfectant, hushed tones, the quiet beeping of machines. It slammed into him, bringing the memories of his vigil crashing back. He kept his head down as he approached the nurses' station. They knew him here. A nurse looked up, met his lowered gaze, gave a small, silent nod of recognition. He signed the visitor log with a quick sharp movements and moved past without a word. He was a familiar, silent shadow in this sterile place.
He paused outside Suho’s room, hand hovering over the handle. Taking a shaky breath, he pushed the door open.
Ahn Suho. Pale against white sheets, surrounded by machines, unnervingly still. The vibrant energy, the loud laughter, the restless motion that defined him gone, replaced by profound quiet. Sieun approached slowly, footsteps silent. He didn’t touch. He just stood, looking down at the face of the boy who had been his unexpected, unwavering pillar. The face that had grinned moments before stepping back into nothingness on that rooftop.
The guilt intensified, a physical pressure crushing his chest. Because of me. It happened because of me.He tried to hold it back, the dam of his control, but a single tear escaped,
tracing a cold path down his cheek. Then another.He stood rigid, letting them fall silently onto the linoleum floor. He couldn’t have his friend, couldn’t have anyone, get hurt because of him again. Never again.
He stayed for long, silent minutes, drawing a fragile, desperate strength from Suho’s presence. It solidified his resolve. Invisible. Silent. Safe.Before turning to leave, he leaned closer, his voice a raw whisper barely disturbing the air. "Just hold on. I’ll wait. I’ll be here when you wake up." It was a promise, a plea, carved into the sterile silence.
Leaving the hospital felt like stepping out of a fragile sanctuary into a warzone. The relative calm shattered.He walked towards home, choosing a longer route near the river, hoping the open space would clear his head. His mind churned the impossible physics, Suho’s sleeping face, the intricate web of violence he needed to avoid.He was still adjusting to this weaker body, the lack of ingrained strength, the unfamiliar lightnes.
Distracted, lost in the labyrinth of his fractured timeline, Sieun turned a corner too sharply. He collided solidly with someone. The impact was jarring. His balance, compromised by shock and untrained muscles betrayed him utterly. He stumbled backward, feet tangling and landed hard on the pavement, the breath knocked out of him in a painful gasp.
"Watch it!" a sharp, instantly recognizable voice snapped above him.
Sieun didn't need to see them. The voices alone sent a jolt of ice through his veins. Baekjin. Seongje.
Recognition was instantaneous, a cold dread flooding his system. Memories future memories flashed Baekjin’s calculating gaze, Seongje’s brutal fists. Disengage. Disappear . He kept his head down, his hood still partially obscuring his face as he pushed himself up onto his elbows, deliberately avoiding direct eye contact, especially with Seongje. He focused on the cracked pavement beneath his hands, forcing his breathing to steady, his expression into a practiced blankness. Void. Show nothing. Be nothing.
"Look what we have here," Seongje said, his voice a low growl. He took a step closer, his shadow falling over Sieun. "Walking with your eyes shut?" He radiated irritation, a coiled tension ready to spring.
Sieun shifted, getting his feet under him. "My mistake," he murmured, voice flat and low, devoid of inflection or apology. He rose slowly, movements economical, radiating only a desire to vanish. He kept his gaze lowered initially, then raised his head just enough as he stood fully, his hood falling back slightly. He met Baekjin’s gaze for a fleeting second, then Seongje’s.
Both saw it. The eyes. Large, dark lashed, undeniably beautiful in their structure, yet utterly empty. Like polished obsidian reflecting no light, no spark, no flicker of life or fear. A chilling vacancy within a striking frame. It was impossible not to notice, impossible to reconcile with the delicate features or the clumsy fall. Baekjin’s gaze lingered a fraction longer, the faintest flicker of something unreadable passing through his own stoic expression before vanishing. Seongje’s scowl deepened, a flicker of confusion momentarily replacing pure anger at the disconnect between the fall and the unsettling void in Sieun’s gaze. Neither reacted outwardly. Sieun didn't bother brushing the dust from his jeans. It didn't matter.
Seongje took another halfstep forward, his presence crowding Sieun. "Need to learn some awareness," he stated, the threat implicit in his tone.
Sieun remained utterly still, radiating absolute neutrality. Not a threat. Not a victim. Just air. He said nothing.
Baekjin’s gaze remained fixed on Sieun’s face for another beat, that unnerving stillness holding.Then he turned slightly. "Move on," he stated, his voice smooth but carrying an undeniable weight of command. A dismissal aimed at Seongje as much as at Sieun. "Pay attention next time," he added flatly to Sieun, already turning away.
Seongje held Sieun’s gaze for a long, tense moment, his expression a hard mask of annoyance mixed with a flicker of something else, puzzlement? He didn't speak again. He simply glared, as if committing Sieun’s face, and particularly those unsettlingly beautiful, dead eyes, to memory. Then, without another word, he turned sharply and followed Baekjin, who was already walking away without a backward glance.
Sieun gave no response, not even a nod. He simply turned and walked away, forcing his steps even and unhurried despite the frantic drumming of his heart and the lingering sting of humiliation from the fall until he rounded the next corner.
Only then, shielded by brick, did he lean against the wall, closing his eyes. Short, sharp gasps escaped him. The encounter, brief and seemingly minor, felt like a seismic shift. He’d drawn the worst kind of attention. His weak body had betrayed him.Baekjin’s scrutiny and Seongje’s silent, intense glare were danger signals. He’d literally fallen into their path.
Stupid. The self recrimination burned. His plan to be invisible, shattered within hours. He’d attracted predators through accident and physical frailty. Baekjin didn’t forget anomalies, especially ones with dead eyes and a surprising lack of fear after humiliation. And Seongje’s silent, lingering stare felt like a promise of future trouble.
The walk home was a tense vigil. Shadows held threats. City sounds grated. He kept his head down, hood low, a shadow trying to dissolve.
Back in his quiet room Sieun sank onto the bed. The calculus textbook lay open, a symbol of a normal life impossibly distant. The phantom scent of hospital antiseptic mixed with imagined truck exhaust and pavement dust.
He craved a clean slate. A silent path to save Suho. But time wasn’t blank. It was treacherous. His presence was already rippling. The encounter was a brutal reminder Yeongdeungpo’s violence was a living thing, drawn to weakness. Avoiding it felt impossible. His physical state was a liability.
Study. Rebuild strength in secret. Become Eunjang’s most unremarkable ghost. That was the only path left.
Staring at the childish glow stars, cold certainty settled. Staying low wouldn’t just mean keeping his head down. It meant navigating a minefield blindfolded, in a body that wasn’t yet a weapon. The past wasn’t static. Baekjin’s glance, Seongje’s contempt and that final, wordless glare weren’t the end. They were the first tremors.
The sight of Eunjang ahead evoked memories of a battlefield he’d once faced head on. As he ventured forward now into the foreboding terrain once more it seemed as though he was willingly entering a trap of his own making, armed only with determination so delicate it could shatter at any moment.
Adding to his unease was the realization that two formidable foes had taken notice of him. The quiet before the storm was fractured,marking the beginning of a daunting journey ahead. Sieun's heart raced, he felt terrifyingly alone, unprepared the frantic ticking of a clock echoing in the borrowed silence of his impossible, desperate second chance.