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If chaos had a name, it was the Karasuno first-year boys’ volleyball team.
And if calm had a face, it was Y/N — steady smile, sharp eyes, and the clipboard that had saved Karasuno from crumbling into pure noise more than once.
She wasn’t just a volleyball player on the girls' team. She was also the unofficial referee of bickering and the only one who could shut Tsukishima up without an argument.
“Hinata, don’t jump until the toss is up. Kageyama, warn him before you spike to the face,” she said calmly during practice, stepping in between them.
“And Tsukishima,” she added, turning to him with a polite smile. “Don’t be a smartass for the sake of it.”
Tsukishima blinked behind his glasses. “I’m not.”
“You’re right,” she said, still smiling. “You’re worse.”
Yamaguchi snorted. Hinata let out a laugh. Kageyama scowled.
Tsukishima just clicked his tongue — but didn’t argue. Because she was… right.
It started with homework. A small question after practice. Then group study sessions in the library. Y/N, seated between Hinata (asking questions every five minutes) and Yachi (furiously taking notes), somehow kept the chaos manageable.
Tsukishima always sat across from her. He told himself it was for spacing. Lighting. The outlet nearby. But really, it was to watch her brow furrow when she solved a math problem. The way her lips twitched upward at every small success. The quiet nods she gave him when he got something right.
Yamaguchi noticed first. “Do you… like her?” he asked one day. Tsukishima nearly dropped his pen. “What the hell are you talking about?”
Yamaguchi just grinned and shrugged. “You only smirk like that when she teases you. Not even I get that version of you.”
Yachi chimed in later. “I think it’s cute. He always listens when she speaks.” “I’m not a dog,” Tsukishima muttered.
“But if you were,” Yamaguchi teased, “you’d only wag your tail for her.”
People started noticing.
“Do they like… have something going on?” Sugawara asked Daichi, watching Tsukishima and Y/N exchange looks during water break.
“Not sure,” Daichi replied. “But I’ve never seen Tsukishima hold a water bottle out for anyone else.”
They never said anything, Y/N and Tsukishima. But the silence between them was comfortable. Charged, sometimes — like they knew there was more, but neither knew how to speak it.
He’d walk her home sometimes — never admitting it was on purpose. She’d bring him lunch when he forgot his — calling it “extra.”
But it was always what he liked.
Still, he never said anything. Not out loud.
The news came quietly.
After practice one evening, Y/N lingered near the gym doors, clipboard clutched tight.
“I’m… moving schools,” she said. Her voice was calm. Like always. But her eyes didn’t meet his. “My dad’s job is transferring to Tokyo. I’ll be at Inarizaki High next semester.”
Time stilled.
Yamaguchi’s eyes widened. Yachi looked close to tears.
Tsukishima stared.
He scoffed. “Figures.”
She blinked. “What?”
“You always seemed too good for here anyway. Tokyo suits you.”
The words left before he could stop them. Sharp. Cold. Like armor.
Y/N’s face froze — the first time her smile didn’t come up as a shield.
“I see,” she said softly. “Good to know what you really think.”
And she left.
Tsukishima didn’t move.
She was gone the next week.
Her desk sat empty. So did her usual spot beside the court. No clipboard. No voice between Hinata and Kageyama. No quiet glance that kept Tsukishima grounded.
He didn’t admit he missed her.
But he studied alone now. And he never let Yamaguchi finish teasing sentences.
“She said she was going to come back for a practice match,” Yachi said one day, trying to cheer them up. “Inarizaki vs. Karasuno.”
Tsukishima only muttered, “Whatever,” but the pen in his hand cracked slightly.
Inarizaki High was cleaner. Louder. Sharper .
The gym wasn’t just a place — it was a machine. Every pass, every shout, every movement snapped into place with precise tempo.
It should’ve made her nervous.
But Y/N walked in with her usual calm, clipboard in hand and a practiced smile. She had been Karasuno’s balance , and she would be the same here.
Still, it felt strange not hearing Hinata’s voice echo, or Kageyama’s irritated barking, or…
Tsukishima’s dry sarcasm.
She blinked, shaking the thought away.
Focus.
Her new team greeted her in pieces; Suna Rintarou , with a bored smile and a " Yo, you're the Karasuno one? You into weird Twitter humor too? "
Osamu Miya, who nodded, said “sup,” and moved on — already halfway to the snack bar.
Kita Shinsuke, the captain bowed formally. " We’re lucky to have you. Please don’t hesitate to share your thoughts on training. "
And Atsumu Miya, unlike his calm twin, he gave her a once-over and muttered, " Guess we’re takin’ in strays now. "
Y/N blinked, tilted her head slightly, and simply said, " Okay. "
No reaction. No anger. No energy wasted.
That — bothered Atsumu more than he'd admit.
The second-years were… chaotic.
In a way, they reminded her of home.
Suna stole her snacks and replaced them with candy he thought was "vibes."
Osamu offered food in exchange for notes.
And Atsumu? Atsumu slowly stopped being mean.
She didn't do anything to encourage him — that’s what made it worse. He'd tease her, and she'd nod. He'd make fun of Karasuno, and she'd say, " You're not wrong. "
Once, when he said, " Bet ya cried leavin' your lil crows, " she just smiled and said, " Only once. "
And he had no idea what to do with that.
Suna caught him one day glaring at Y/N from across the gym.
"You okay there, Romeo?"
"Shut up," Atsumu muttered.
Osamu leaned in. " You ever notice how calm she is? Like, too calm? "
Suna grinned. " He notices everything about her, don’t worry. "
Atsumu threw his towel at them and walked off.
Y/N and Suna became quick friends. They shared the same music tastes and had an endless stream of DMs filled with absurd memes and chaotic videos.
“You ever regret moving?” he asked one day.
She didn’t answer immediately.
“Sometimes,” she admitted. “Not because I dislike it here. But because I left before I figured out something important.”
Suna stared at her, unreadable.
“Was that ‘thing’ a person?” he asked softly.
She didn’t answer.
Y/N never thought she’d come back to Miyagi so soon.
Everything in Tokyo was faster, sharper. Inarizaki had resources. A proper gym. More trainers. Systems. And yet... something always felt slightly off. Too polished. Like she had to be a version of herself she hadn’t grown into yet.
Back at Karasuno, things had been messy .
Loud. Bickering. Late practices. Missing towels. But alive .
And Tsukishima.
God, Tsukishima.
He’d never said anything too sweet. He never needed her. But she saw the way he listened. The way he respected her even when he rolled his eyes. The way he never snapped back when she called him out — not like he did with everyone else.
She thought there was something. A slow unfolding. Like the pages of a book written too carefully to rush.
So when he told her she was better off in Tokyo — his voice ice-cold, his eyes avoiding hers — she believed him.
She packed, left, and cried herself to sleep in a room that didn’t smell like home.
She never got closure. But she learned how to stand without it.
Inarizaki vs. Karasuno — a practice match set up before Nationals.
The gym was loud again. Powerful. Competitive.
The whistle blew sharp and clean.
Set 1: Inarizaki 25 – Karasuno 23
It was just practice — no titles, no crowd, no stakes.
But everything felt high-stakes.
The gym was loud with shuffling feet and bouncing volleyballs. Coaches gathered to give feedback. Towels flung around necks. Players rehydrated, laughed, complained.
And in the middle of it, Y/N moved with grace — clipboard in hand, checking Inarizaki’s rotations, calmly jotting down Atsumu’s tossing inconsistency when flustered.
But her eyes drifted.
To Karasuno.
To them.
To him.
Sweat clung to the back of Y/N’s neck as she scribbled quickly in her notebook, her eyes flicking between the court and the rotation chart on the bench beside her. Her hoodie sleeves were rolled up to her elbows, fingers tapping the pen against her clipboard in quiet rhythm. Her expression was calm—neutral even—but sharp. Focused.
The squeak of shoes, the thud of a spike, the grunt of effort—Inarizaki and Karasuno teams were in the middle of a heated match. She stood off to the side near the benches, analyzing every pass, every receive, every tell.
A loud “Out!” rang from referee as Suna’s line shot clipped the sideline and veered just outside the boundary. Coach Kurosu glanced over. Y/N already had her hand raised.
“Time!” the coach called.
As the players rotated and grabbed towels, Y/N stepped forward at Kurosu’s gesture. Y/N stood near the center line after the first set, twirling her pen once.
“Alright, five minutes. I’ve got a couple points for everyone,” she said evenly. The gym hushed. Even Atsumu, slouched against the pole, raised an eyebrow.
“Aran-senpai—your cross-court hits are powerful, but you’re using too much shoulder and not enough rotation from your hip. It’s slowing your recovery for the next play. Try adjusting your approach angle—just two steps more left before takeoff. It’ll open your whole upper body.”
Aran blinked, then gave a short laugh. “Huh. No wonder my landing’s been off.”
“Suna-san, your timing’s great—but you’re over-relying on your wrist cut. The blockers are starting to read it. Mix in some straight shots. Kinoshita was already halfway to the left side before you even jumped.”
Suna tilted his head. “You calling me predictable?”
“I’m calling you a highlight reel with subtitles,” she said calmly, handing him a sticky note with arrows drawn.
Suna stared. Smirked. “Okay, that was kind of sick.”
“Ginjima-san, you’re solid on receive, but your platform collapses on harder floaters. Keep your arms out and don’t drop them too soon. The ball's rebounding off your forearms, not your core. You know this.”
Ginjima nodded seriously, making adjustments on the spot.
“Osamu-san—your feints are good, but you're giving them away with your shoulders. They twitch right before you tip. Try not to telegraph your movements. If you keep your torso steady, you’ll get at least two more clean points a set.”
Osamu gave her a slow clap. “Am I even allowed to be roasted this respectfully?”
“Not a roast. Just a preheat,” she replied, barely hiding a smile.
She turned last to Atsumu, who sat with one knee up, twirling a water bottle. Everyone leaned forward slightly.
“Setter feedback’s tricky,” she began, voice even, “but I think you’re forcing tempo on back-row attacks. The second tempo you’re using for Aran is too rushed, and you’re losing sync with Ginjima.”
Atsumu raised a brow. “You tellin’ me how to set now?”
“I’m telling you how to win cleaner,” she replied.
Then, more softly:
“Your tosses are fast, but they’re not clean when you're irritated. You grit your teeth and rush your hands. And it messes with your hitters’ timing.”
Atsumu blinked. Silence. Even Osamu sat up straighter.
Y/N continued without flinching:
“You’re brilliant, Atsumu. But a brilliant setter is only as good as his trust in the hitters—and their rhythm.”
The gym remained quiet. Then Atsumu let out a slow breath and muttered, “Fine. I’ll… work on that.”
But there was no heat in his voice. Just thoughtfulness.
Y/N tucked her pen behind her ear. Coach Kurosu clapped once. “That’s your five-minute strategy sermon. Take five more, then rotate.”
The players dispersed, murmuring things like “she’s scarier than Kita” and “that’s the best coaching feedback I’ve gotten all year” .
“Y/NNNNNN!” Hinata’s voice rang through the gym like an airhorn.
She turned, already smiling. “Hey, Shouyou.”
Hinata ran up and threw his arm dramatically around her shoulder — then paused. “Wait. Can I still do this? You’re the enemy now.”
She laughed softly. “Temporarily. You’re safe for the next four minutes.”
Kageyama gave her a curt nod. “Still annoying calm, I see.”
“Still dramatically angry, I see,” she shot back with a sweet smile.
Yachi joined, nearly tripping over her own feet, beaming. “I missed you, Y/N! The guys are so loud without you…”
“I bet,” Y/N smiled, eyes flickering between them all. It felt like stepping back into sunlight after a long winter.
Even Yamaguchi came by, holding out a half-open energy drink. “Saw you scribbling. Still judging Kei’s blocks silently?”
Y/N chuckled. “Only out loud now.”
Everyone laughed — except Tsukishima.
He was leaning against the bench behind them, arms crossed, pretending he wasn’t listening. But his eyes never left her.
Y/N glanced at the scoreboard clock.
Break time remaining: 2:00.
“I should head back,” she said softly, voice polite but clipped.
Before she could fully turn away, she heard it.
“Y/N.”
Her name. His voice.
She turned slowly. Tsukishima wasn’t looking at anyone else. Just her. Sharp eyes unreadable.
Everyone quieted, sensing something shift.
Even Hinata, who had no clue what was happening, suddenly felt it.
Y/N stepped closer, eyebrows raised slightly. “Yes?”
But before Tsukishima could speak—
“Oi, don’t tell me yer flirtin’ with the enemy now.”
Atsumu.
He appeared behind Y/N like a storm, towel slung around his shoulders, half-sweaty, smirking — but the smirk didn’t reach his eyes.
“Didn’t know y’liked quiet girls with clipboards, glasses boy.”
Tsukishima turned his head, slowly.
“Didn’t know you were afraid of girls talking to other people,” he replied evenly.
Atsumu’s grin twitched. “Tch. Just makin’ sure ya ain’t distractin’ our strategy manager, that’s all.”
“Don’t worry. She can multitask,” Tsukishima said, gaze cutting. “Unlike you — who needs at least ten seconds to serve properly when nervous.”
Y/N blinked. “Guys—”
But Atsumu stepped forward, and Tsukishima didn’t back down. Now barely a foot apart.
“Ya always been this mouthy or just insecure since we beat ya last year?” Atsumu shot back, jaw clenched.
Tsukishima’s eyes narrowed. “Last I checked, it wasn’t you who got the winning spike in that match. You rode the back of better players.”
That hit.
Atsumu’s fingers curled.
Y/N stepped between them.
“Enough.”
They didn’t move.
“Seriously. You’re both acting like overcharged children—”
“I am a child,” Atsumu grinned tightly. “Golden child, remember?”
“Then act like a setter and not a jealous middle schooler,” she snapped back — a rare flash of frustration in her usually cool voice.
Tsukishima’s brows lifted in surprise.
Atsumu, caught off guard, stepped back half a step.
But that only made the tension spike more.
“Tsukishima. Atsumu.”
Two voices. Deep. Commanding. Different accents.
Daichi and Kita, both standing at the sidelines now, arms crossed, disappointed captain mode activated.
Daichi’s glare was sharp. “This is a practice match. Not a street fight.”
Kita’s tone was calm but piercing. “We expect discipline. Not drama.”
Atsumu scoffed. “Wasn’t me who started it—”
“Doesn’t matter,” Kita cut in. “You both lost focus.”
Tsukishima adjusted his glasses but said nothing.
Y/N stepped back, exhaling. “Apologies, Captain,” she said, bowing slightly to Kita, then Daichi. “It won’t happen again.”
Daichi gave her a nod. Kita simply returned, “Thank you for trying.”
The two boys stood like statues. Neither apologizing.
Neither stepping down fully.
And everyone knew exactly what was coming next.
The second set begins. It started tight.
Atsumu’s serves were faster.
Tsukishima’s blocks were sharper.
Both were unusually keyed in — not saying a word to each other, but making statements with every play.
When Atsumu faked a set and scored, he didn’t grin. He glanced once at Y/N on the sideline.
When Tsukishima roofed Aran’s cross spike with a one-man block, he turned — just slightly — to see her reaction.
She didn’t move.
She stayed still, clipboard in hand, gaze locked on the court. Calm, but her heartbeat was not.
Everyone on both teams felt it — the unspoken challenge.
This wasn’t just Karasuno vs. Inarizaki anymore.
It was Tsukishima vs. Atsumu.
History vs. possibility.
The boy who never said it vs. the boy trying to prove it.
The match ended in a draw — a rare thing for two prideful teams.
They bowed. They thanked each other. They packed up.
But Y/N didn’t walk with either of them.
She stayed behind in the gym, staring at her clipboard, pretending to review stats.
Yachi walked up quietly.
“You okay?” she asked softly.
Y/N smiled, weakly. “Yeah. Just watching two idiots punch each other through volleyball.”
Yachi giggled. “So… which one are you cheering for?”
Y/N looked at her, eyes soft but conflicted.
“...The one who learns how to speak,” she whispered. “Before it’s too late.”
Tsukishima had imagined seeing her again so many times.
Sometimes, in those half-asleep hours between volleyball and schoolwork, he imagined she’d wave like nothing had changed. That she’d smile and say his name, offer him a quiet “well played” after the match and maybe… maybe stay behind after everyone else left.
But the reality wasn’t so kind.
Y/N stood by the Inarizaki bench in a neat gray-and-black tracksuit, hair tied back, clipboard in hand — looking exactly the same, yet utterly unreachable. Her voice was calm, issuing instructions, advising a team that wasn't his . She looked like she belonged there.
Tsukishima didn’t.
The match was brutal. Inarizaki played like a machine with emotion. Kita led with quiet precision. Aran’s power. Atsumu’s genius. Yet somehow, Tsukishima’s head wasn’t in the blocks or the rotations.
It was locked on the girl who used to tell him where to stand, who used to say things like “You’re better than you pretend to be.”
He had been cruel to her when she told him she was leaving.
Because if he hadn’t — if he’d said he wanted her to stay — it would’ve made it real. And he didn’t know how to face goodbye.
But now… she was here. And he still didn’t know how to talk to her.
After the match, he approached her like someone walking toward a cliff.
“I was wrong. About what I said. You didn’t deserve that.”
Her voice didn’t shake.
“No. I didn’t.”
And that should’ve been the end of it.
But when she looked at him again — with a sadness that felt too calm — he realized that hurt people don’t always cry. Sometimes, they just let go quietly.
“But I’m glad you said something now.”
Then she turned to leave.
And this time — he followed.
Rain was starting to fall, soft and thin, more mist than downpour.
“Y/N—”
She turned. Not angry. Not cold. Just... tired.
“You don’t have to say anything else, Kei,” she said, using his name for the first time in what felt like forever. “You said what you meant before I left.”
“But I didn’t,” he blurted, uncharacteristically fast. “That wasn’t what I meant. I just didn’t know how to—”
“To say goodbye?” she said. “To care?”
His silence was louder than the rain.
“I did care,” he finally said, voice lower. “Too much, probably.”
She laughed, but it wasn’t happy. “Then why did you push me away?”
“Because if I said I didn’t want you to go, and you still went…” His jaw clenched. “It would’ve made me feel like I didn’t matter.”
Y/N inhaled slowly. That… made sense. Painfully so.
“And what now?” she asked, voice quiet. “I’ve already gone.”
“I know,” he said. “But you’re still here. For now.”
She looked at him, trying to read the boy who never showed his heart.
And for the first time… he wasn’t hiding it.
“Walk with me?” she asked.
He nodded.
They didn’t talk much after that. But their steps fell in rhythm — like before.
It was quiet.
The gym lights were long off. Most teammates were asleep. The only light in the study lounge was from two desk lamps—and Y/N’s laptop.
She sat cross-legged on the floor, hair tied up, hoodie half-falling off her shoulder as she tapped notes into a shared doc.
“Still not done?” came a familiar voice.
Atsumu stepped into the room in black sweats, hair still damp from a late shower, and a textbook under one arm.
“I thought you hated homework,” she teased, without looking up.
“I do,” he replied, flopping on the couch beside her and glancing at her screen. “But I hate falling behind when the smartest girl in school sets the curve.”
Y/N rolled her eyes and passed him a practice sheet. “Try this. If you get past Question 5 without crying, I’ll buy you milk tea.”
He squinted at it. “You tryna kill me , Y/N?”
She smiled, soft and patient. “No. I’m trying to push you past your own comfort zone. Same way I do in volleyball.”
“…Didn’t think someone’d ever talk to me like that about my setting.”
She looked up from her clipboard. “You didn’t like it?”
“I hated how accurate it was,” he muttered, avoiding her eyes.
Then, after a pause:
“…I think you make this team better.”
“I think this team wants to be better,” she replied.
He gave her a crooked grin. “That include me?”
“I guess we’ll find out,” she said, and walked past him to the bench.
Atsumu stared after her—confused, challenged… and maybe a little smitten.
He studied her. Her face was backlit by the laptop glow—calm, with that same quiet energy she always held. But there was tiredness under her eyes too.
“…You work too hard,” he murmured.
“I like working hard.”
“Yea, but you never let yourself breathe.”
She paused typing. “Why does that bother you?”
He looked away. Shrugged. “’Cause when you smile, even after all that effort—it makes everyone feel like we can do it too. But I’m not sure who makes you feel that way.”
Silence.
She blinked.
Then softly:
“...You just did.”
Their eyes locked. For once, Atsumu didn’t look smug or playful. He looked… genuine.
He leaned back, thumbing the edge of her notes.
“…When I first met you, I thought you were too good for this team. Too smart. Too untouchable.”
She tilted her head, slightly amused. “And now?”
He let out a quiet breath.
“Now I’m just hoping I get to stand next to you a little longer… before someone smarter grabs you first.”
She blinked, caught off guard by the honesty.
“You know I never wanted to date a volleyball player,” she said, trying to mask the sudden heat in her face.
“Guess I’ll just have to be your honorary math tutor until you change your mind,” he said, smirking now—but softer than usual.
The clock struck midnight.
She didn’t pull away when his shoulder brushed hers.
She didn’t correct him when he called her the best thing that happened to Inarizaki.
And neither of them looked away when silence filled the room.
The study group was louder than usual. Hinata was shouting about science. Kageyama was threatening violence. Yachi was drowning in notes.
And Tsukishima just sat there, staring at his phone like it would teach him trigonometry.
[No New Messages]
Tsukishima wasn’t the type to chase.
But he was watching now.
Watching Atsumu Miya look at Y/N like he was trying to figure her out.
And for the first time in a long time…
Kei was afraid of losing.
“You really messed up,” Yamaguchi said quietly.
Tsukishima didn’t respond.
“She didn’t want to leave. She wanted someone to tell her to stay.”
“I know,” he finally whispered. “I know.”
Yamaguchi leaned over. “You gonna text her or keep watching your blank screen like it’s a horror movie?”
“I don’t know what to say,” Tsukishima muttered.
“You like her.”
“I liked her,” he corrected, but his voice was weak.
Yamaguchi tilted his head. “Kei. You’re still wearing her favorite band’s pin on your backpack.”
Tsukishima scowled.
But the truth was… he couldn’t stop thinking about her.
About her voice.
The way she stood between him and Atsumu like she could fix it .
The look on her face when she said, “The one who learns how to speak — before it’s too late.”
He’d never been the first to speak.
He was too afraid that the words would come out wrong. That he’d say too much — or worse, not enough .
But he had to try.
He pulled out his phone. Typed. Deleted. Typed again.
“Can we talk?”
No send.
“I owe you more than a half-argument and a jealous stare.”
Still no send.
“I miss you.”
His finger hovered.
Finally, Tsukishima hit send.
And for the first time in a long time, he felt like he’d finally jumped.
Y/N’s phone buzzed.
From: Kei
“I miss you.”
She stopped walking.
The Tokyo streetlights flickered above her, casting shadows on the pavement — but her world had already gone still.
She hadn’t spoken to him since the match.
Because she didn’t know what to say.
She admired Kita.
She laughed with Suna.
Atsumu confused her — irritated her — intrigued her.
But none of them had her history.
None of them had seen her at her quietest, her tiredest.
None of them knew how she used to sit on the gym floor at Karasuno, legs crossed, scribbling notes while Tsukishima silently passed her water and said nothing — but stayed.
She thought she was over it. She thought she was building something new here.
But her heart always circled back.
Always to him.
And now he was reaching out. Finally. But it was late. Maybe too late.
She texted back:
“I don’t know if I can do this again.”
He responded almost instantly.
“Just meet me. One time. No expectations. Just… me and you.”
She closed her eyes.
Memory or momentum.
Love or logic.
Heart or head.
She took a breath — and typed.
“Tomorrow. The old gym. After practice.”
Y/N stood near the old bench, clipboard clutched out of habit.
Tsukishima walked in — taller, quieter, more hesitant than she'd ever seen him.
He didn’t speak first.
She did.
“Why now?”
He took a breath. “Because I didn’t know how to miss you until you were gone.”
“And what if I’m not who I was?” she asked. “I’ve changed.”
“So have I,” he said. “But I still want the same thing.”
“What’s that?”
“You.”
She closed her eyes.
And opened them.
He was still there.
And this time,
she didn’t walk away.
The gym was empty. Just echoes, and the dull thud of a ball being tossed against the wall.
Atsumu Miya stood alone, tossing, setting, tossing again.
The match replayed in his head. Not the scores. Not the plays. Just the glares . Tsukishima’s eyes.
Atsumu didn’t care. That’s what he told himself.
But when Karasuno came to Tokyo for the Spring Qualifier matches, and he saw Y/N walking beside Tsukishima Kei , talking with that calm voice she used on everyone — something snapped .
She smiled differently around him.
Not forced. Not polite. Not that usual surface-level kindness she gave everyone else.
Tsukishima had barely said anything. Just walked quietly beside her.
And she looked at him like he mattered .
While to him, Y/N’s voice saying, "You're both acting like overcharged children."
God, he hated how calm she was.
But he also—
“Oi.”
Osamu leaned in the doorway with a rice ball in his mouth. “You’re practicing at this hour? You hate early mornings.”
Atsumu scoffed. “I ain't losin’ to him. ”
Suna wandered in behind him, phone in hand. “Tsukishima? Or your pride?”
“Shut up,” Atsumu muttered.
Suna grinned. “She’s got both of you acting dumb. Tsukki with his tragic crush act, and you with your ‘I’m not interested but I’m practicing at 6AM’ phase.”
“...It’s not like that,” Atsumu grumbled.
“Oh?” Osamu raised a brow. “So you don’t care that she looked at him like he hung the damn moon?”
Atsumu bit the inside of his cheek.
He hated that he noticed her smile was different around Tsukishima. Not because it was bigger. But because it was real .
And yet...
She still laughed at his jokes.
Still shared memes in the team group chat.
Still brought him an extra water bottle once when he forgot.
She didn’t treat him like he was invisible.
But she didn’t treat him like he was important, either.
Which, for Atsumu Miya, was brand new.
“I dunno what I’m doin’,” he admitted, voice low.
Osamu blinked. “You just said feelings out loud. I’m proud of you.”
Suna patted his shoulder. “Your emo era starts now.”
“Go to hell,” Atsumu muttered.
But when he looked down at his phone, saw her last text — “Try not to overwork your wrist again. Take breaks.” —
he smiled.
He didn’t know what this was.
But he knew he wanted more.
“Y/N.”
She turned at the sound of his voice. He was leaning against the back stairwell of Inarizaki’s gym, arms folded, hair still damp from training.
“You free right now?”
She blinked. “Uh… a little. Why?”
He looked… serious.
“Walk with me.”
They ended up on a quiet rooftop above the school, where no one but Suna (who definitely wouldn’t say anything) would find them.
Atsumu sat on the edge of the railing, legs dangling, eyes locked on the Tokyo skyline.
Then, with a slow breath, he said it.
“Y’know I ain’t good at this stuff. I talk too much or not enough. Usually both.”
Y/N tilted her head slightly. “What are you trying to say?”
He looked over. Real. Vulnerable.
“I like ya, Y/N.”
The words landed like a soft punch.
She didn’t move. Didn’t react right away.
But her eyes — God, her eyes — widened just enough for him to notice.
“I ain’t sayin’ it to make you feel guilty,” he added quickly. “I just… I needed you to know. Because I see the way ya look at him.”
Her lips parted slightly.
Atsumu gave a weak laugh. “He got there first, huh?”
Silence.
“Atsumu…”
“You don’t have to say anything. I swear.” His voice cracked just a little. “I just wanted to be honest, for once.”
He stood. Took a step toward her.
And gently, with more maturity than anyone ever gave him credit for, he said:
“You’re worth the risk.”
He walked away.
That night, she sat on the bus alone.
She should be focusing on Nationals prep. On Inarizaki. On now.
But when Tsukishima had handed her a bottle of water again… just like old times… her heart had made the mistake of remembering.
He looked taller. Sharper. But his eyes were still the same when he looked at her.
Like he was trying to say everything he never had the courage to.
And yet, Atsumu — messy, brash, irritating Atsumu — was also looking at her differently now. Not with longing, but with interest. Unfiltered, clumsy, real.
Her brain said: Stay grounded. Move forward. Focus.
Her heart whispered: You’re not done with Tsukishima. Not yet.
But she knew one thing clearly:
No matter what happened next,
she wasn’t going to run from it.
It had been 48 hours since she stood in the Karasuno gym and listened to Tsukishima Kei tell her he wanted her.
No theatrics. No apologies. Just:
“I still want the same thing. You.”
And she’d let herself hope.
That maybe love didn’t have to be loud to be real.
But life didn’t wait for her to process it.
That night, she found a folded page in her old notebook — one she hadn’t touched since Karasuno.
It was a note Tsukishima had once passed her during a study session, grumpily written in pencil.
"You make this chaos tolerable. Don’t let it get to your head."
She smiled. Because she remembered replying under the same note:
"I won’t — as long as you don’t start pretending you don’t care when you do."
She never gave him that reply.
Maybe… now was the time.
He waited outside the train station.
Her message said she’d be late.
So he waited.
5 minutes.
10.
20.
Still no Y/N.
And then — his phone buzzed.
But it wasn’t her name on the screen.
It was Yamaguchi.
“Kei. Turn on the news. Something happened.”
Heart in his throat, Tsukishima opened the link.
Inarizaki Volleyball Team Bus Delayed by Highway Pile-Up — No Severe Injuries, But Player Support Staff Taken to Hospital for Observation
Y/N’s name was in the list.
He didn’t finish reading.
He just ran.
He got there just as they were wheeling her out of a hallway.
She wasn’t unconscious — thank God — but she looked dazed. A bruise on her temple. A sprain in her wrist. Minor injuries.
But Tsukishima didn’t breathe until she looked up and whispered:
“Kei.”
He walked straight to her. No hesitation.
“I’m fine,” she said, voice small.
“I don’t care,” he snapped. “You’re here. That’s what matters.”
Atsumu stood across the waiting room, arms crossed, face pale, guilt all over him.
He hadn’t stopped calling.
He’d tried to pull her out of the wreck first.
He cared.
But she’d called one name.
Not his.
Y/N was kept overnight.
Kita stayed with her for the first few hours. Quietly organizing updates to the team and medical records.
Atsumu paced. Suna brought her charger. Osamu brought her soup.
And then, late into the night, when the others finally stepped out...
Tsukishima sat beside her bed—hands resting on his knees, the edge of his glasses catching sterile light. Jihyun’s arm was bandaged. Her face was calm, soft, not bitter. But tired. Quietly tired.
The fluorescent hum of the hospital lights filled the silence between them.
He didn’t speak at first. Neither did she.
Finally, she turned her face toward him and broke the silence.
“Thank you for staying.”
He nodded. “You scared everyone.”
She smiled faintly. “I scared myself.”
Another pause.
“Do you remember,” she said, “when we first studied together? You corrected my physics notes but refused to admit you were wrong.”
Tsukishima scoffed under his breath. “Because I wasn’t wrong.”
Jihyun chuckled. “Exactly. I think... that moment? That was when I thought we’d become something.”
He lowered his head, his expression unreadable.
“We did become something.”
“Yeah,” she whispered, a breath caught on the edge of a memory. “But not everything’s meant to last.”
Tsukishima sat still, not tense—just… present.
“Kei,” she said quietly. “We weren’t bad. But we didn’t grow in the same direction.”
He looked at her now, eyes narrowed slightly. “Is this about—?”
“It’s not about Atsumu,” she interrupted gently. “This decision… is about me.”
She leaned back, tired, gaze floating up at the ceiling.
“I wanted it to work. Maybe too much. But we started holding on to history instead of building anything new. You felt that too. Didn’t you?”
He didn’t speak immediately. But his shoulders dropped a little.
“Yeah,” he said finally. “I did.”
She turned her head, eyes locking with his.
“You deserve someone who pushes you and walks with you at the same pace.”
“So do you,” he murmured.
There was no dramatics. No crying. Just two people holding hands across a hospital blanket, letting go of something quietly.
“We’ll still know each other,” Jihyun said.
“And respect each other,” Tsukishima added.
“Always,” she whispered.
She had two choices.
One was fire and charm and a fast-beating heart.
The other was steadiness, slow warmth, and the boy who never let her go — even when he didn’t know how to hold on.
And with that, a chapter gently closed—with a grace they hadn’t known they were capable of back then.
The night was quiet in Hyogo. The rooftop of the training dorms was empty except for the sound of wind brushing against the fencing.
Y/N stood at the railing, her phone in her hand. She had been watching an old video—of her first serve at Karasuno.
She heard the door creak.
Atsumu stepped out. No teasing tonight. No dramatic greetings.
“You good?”
She nodded, then looked at him—really looked. The wild-haired setter who had once annoyed her with his noise. The boy who'd stayed up reviewing recovery plans with her. Who once made ramen at 3 AM because her meds made her nauseous. Who had waited.
“Hey,” she said gently.
He looked at her.
“I’m not running anymore,” she said. “Not from the past. Not from us.”
His eyes widened slightly.
“I chose to stay at Inarizaki not because I had to. But because this—you—feels like something I can keep building.”
Atsumu was silent. His walls—the confident smirk, the cocky jokes—crumbled.
“You sure?”
Y/N stepped closer. “Yes.”
He exhaled. Deep and shaky.
“I thought maybe I wasn’t enough. Not... polished. Not poetic.”
She smiled. “You’re honest. Loyal. Obnoxiously passionate. And better than I ever expected.”
“Is that a yes to dating me or an insult?”
“Both,” she laughed.
He leaned down and wrapped her around his arms—gentle, careful. She leaned into it.
Not tangled in what-ifs. Just the present, open and real.
On Y/N’s phone:
📩 Draft – Unsent Message to Tsukishima Kei
“Thank you for teaching me how to love in silence.
Thank you for the kindness you never knew how to say out loud.
I’m letting go without regret, because we did our best.
I hope you find someone who sees all the parts of you you hide.
— Y/N. ”
She never hits send. Just saves it.
Then deletes it.
📩 Sent – Message to Atsumu Miya
“Training tomorrow. You bring the snacks.
I’ll bring the strategy.
And maybe a kiss.
— Your girlfriend. ”
Practice had ended.
The players were scattered across the gym floor, some stretching, some half-dead on the ground. Aran was refilling water bottles, Osamu was stuffing his face with rice balls, and Atsumu…
…was sitting way too close to Y/N on the bleachers.
She had her laptop open, showing him a replay of one of his jump serves. He leaned in, a little too much, watching the screen, his arm draped casually behind her shoulders—not touching, but close enough to make anyone with eyes do a double take.
Suna spotted it first.
He didn't say anything. He just raised one eyebrow and texted the group chat.
Suna:
this man is 0.5 cm from getting soft-blocked by destiny
check bleachers lol
Across the gym, Ginjima looked over—squinted—then nearly choked on his water.
Ginjima:
ayoooo
is this an unofficial date?
Osamu, chewing mid-bite, smirked. “So that’s what all the extra setting drills were for, huh, ‘Tsumu?”
Atsumu didn’t even glance up. “What?”
“Gotta impress your personal analyst , don’t ya?” Aran chimed in, grinning as he tossed a towel at him.
“Y’all are annoying,” Atsumu muttered, still staring at the screen like his life depended on it.
Suna walked by slowly, just to twist the knife a little more. “If you get any closer, we’re gonna have to list Y/N as your emergency contact.”
“She already is,” Atsumu shot back, grinning.
The team exploded .
“BRO.”
“HE SAID THAT WITH HIS WHOLE CHEST.”
“YOU HAVE NO SHAME.”
Even Coach Kurosu from across the gym looked over with that knowing look of teens-being-teens before turning away with a smirk.
Meanwhile, Y/N was just… sitting there. Calm as ever. Slightly red in the ears, but eyes still on the screen.
“Aren’t you going to deny it?” Suna asked, eyebrow up.
She looked at him, serene. “Deny what?”
More howling.
“THAT’S A POWER MOVE.”
“HE’S IN DANGER.”
Atsumu, still grinning, leaned a little closer and whispered, “You like messin’ with me, don’t you?”
She didn’t answer.
But the flicker of a smile on her lips said more than words.