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fade into gray .....
welcome to the messy jewel.....
Sitting on a far step of a balcony,
she stared at her wrist, the throbbing veins and the humid air....
The notification appeared!!!
after the long sigh,
she acknowledged the elephant in the room.
007??
she gazed around her oblivious surroundings and said
"wht you want ???
from me??
today??"
007 replied : "whats there to say,
aren't we born to decay,
ah well so how i can be better than yesterday...
how can i satisfy other people's thoughts,
the things i'm going through.. is it worth it?
how long does it take to free myself...
how to get spoiled casually...
i guess the questions are being played a little too wrong"
she took a long breath.
"if i was you
i would just give up"
007 blinked and blinked
well you know i can't just do that
..
...
oh
..
so
why don't you just run away
...
i can't do that too
..
oh
....
before my eyes i saw a glimer of light; the moon which seemed so far away, the stars around it were shinning so bright but i stood like a star that looked very closer to the moon but still it was so hard to reach that divine being.
From where did it go wrong... honestly
why can't i just chase the moon or
i can just make the moon comes towards me .. this seems right though.
i can be the first star who can steal all the attention from the moon but this star was drifting far away ..
dreaming of something that was lost along ago
"well it's still not too late", 007 replied.
why the hell you still here
can't you just disturb someone else?
well i can't.... i was asssigned to you. 007 showed those sparkling eyes which was honestly so disgusting to see but i had to give this thing some face and gave a smile which was definitely not reaching my eyes.
after having my attention,007 asked about the questions again which still remained unanswered
after which seemed like a few minutes,
i replied:
we cant be better than yesterday
we can just be a small star
that can glow on its own pace
we all have our very own moon,
we can shine and eventually? shine brightly
alongside the moon
and eventually illuminate the universe
007 with the blank expression ?????
what are you even talking about
and who the hell is the moon
well i want you to find your own moon,
do things for that moon,
be a better person,
we all have that person
all these abrupt thoughts came to an end
when i saw her standing outside the window with the smirk
i said
HERE COMES MY MOON
the longing in her eyes which i cant describe doesn't seem foreign to me...
well i honestly enjoy her when she looks at me
like this
she looked at me with the gentle smile
i tried to concele my darkened expression
all the past memories ,those broken promises were flashing before my eyes
such a loveable person
sharing this thing called love like a charity...
007 reminded me to speak;
something so tragic about this situation was that i had already given up on myself and my glorious moon standing infront of me
that being which was adored and loved by many beckoned me to open the door and perhaps have a talk
i liked my moon alot but as time goes the love seem so forced
it was like a rope against my neck which was getting tighter day by day
i wanted to escape this state of dreaming
at that time, i really hope i could write my own lines in this life
suddenly i heard loud banging on the door,
at that time i knew this play was coming to an end,
yet another day with the same incomplete ending...
after a few seconds which seemed like eternity
i opened my eyes
my mom asked me to get ready for the auction event she had mentioned
she was hosting that show
my gaze was little hazy
i looked at my moon still standing at the window
the window which was tightly shut, now was opened
with the helpless smile my souless body was possessed by my so Called moon
THE MOON which was actually me, the perfect me.... the me i hoped i was ...with no error... no self pity ..the gentle me ...the sincere me
with that i got up scolded 007 which always disturbed my sleep every night
trying to create a truce between me and my moon
instead of swiftly getting up i slipped over a lego piece well so much of a goood morning ahhh its still gonna take alot of time till i possesss this moon of mine