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*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚Red and Black˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊
Dazai POV:
Dark, it was dark. Everything was ruined. Where am I? Where is everyone? I turned my head and saw Atsushi, he was on the ground, bleeding. I walked up to him, checked the pulse. Not there...
I had no idea what was happening. I saw Kunikida and Yosano, they weren't too far away. Kyouka and Kenji were laying together next to Ranpo. It's fine to assume they were dead. What the fuck was happening? Something flew above my head. I looked up, and froze. Chuuya was here. In the air. In his corrupted form.
"CHUUYA! " my scream sounds weird, was it really mine? Am I hallucinating? Am I really that late? I promised him I would be there. I tried to reach him, he was to hight. Chuuya looked at me, with his beautiful blue and brown eyes. I saw nothing else but disappointment. A second later he was falling. I sprinted to catch him. We both were on the ground. I wasn't able to think straight, he was all bloody, my ability cleared corrupted marks off his body.
"Shit Chuuya, I'm sorry, so fucking sorry. Don't move I will take you to the hospital" I knew the truth behind using corrupion, but I wasn't going to give up.
"You're late shitty Dazai, and you know it" His voice was empty, full of sadness. "Why am I dying, when you were the one who wanted to? You're late mackerel, you broke the promise, you who told me that would be there" He was shaking, or was it me? I don't know, I don't know anything, it was hard to stop the tears.
"I know Chuuya, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Please forgive me." My hands were wrapped around his. His head was on my thighs. He closed his eyes, I heard a shaky breath. I lowered my head.
"Fuck chuuya I'm sorry. chuuya please" He opened his eyes and looked in mine, his eyes were gentle, calm, warm. Teras rolled down my cheeks.
"Stupid Dazai it's fine" He smiled and closed his eyes. He let out another shaky breath, and stopped moving.
"Chuuya?
Chuuya.
Chuuya! No, NO PLEASE. THIS WASN'T SUPPOSED TO HAPPEND. I'M SORRY CHUUYA PLEASE!" I started shaking him, hoping he would wake up. He didn't. He was dead. Chuuya Nakahara was dead. My ex-partner, my friend, my reason to live was dead. It was my fault. I was late. He is dead because of me. He was right, I should be the dead one, he wanted to live, was happy with his life. I killed him, I took that life away from him.
We were laying like that for a good amount of time. Finally I stood up and looked around, everything was dead. I saw something metallic. A gun. I smiled, walked up and picked it up. This is it. It ends now, I am sorry Chuuya... Odasaku, I wasn't able to save you. But I will be able to see you two now. I pulled the trigger and everything went black. I opened my eyes with a gasp, right infornt of me was Atsushi, and behind him was Kunikida.
3rd POV:
Atsushi was worried, his mentor was asleep, and that wasn't anything unusual but then he started shaking. And talking. He came closer and he just stared for a while, but then Kunikida came, and was about to shout at him. Dazai started crying. It wasn't like normal sadness. The tears were just pouring out of his eyes. He was quiet. He wasn't even shaking just. Still, calm reflection except the tears. Then he smiled and a second later he woke up with a gasp.
"Dazai-san are you okay? Why are you crying?" Atsushi poked his arm, clearly nervous. Kunikida right behind him was confused with his partner's behaviour. Dazai's eyes snapped from Atsushi to Kunikida and then to Ranpo who was sitting and chatting with Yosano. His eyes went dark after seeing Kenji and Kyouka beside Tanizaki.
"Ah Atsushi-kun, Kunikida-kun good afternoon" His voice was quieter than usual, and kind of dead. He started wiping the tears off his cheeks.
"Dazai are you okay? You seem paler than usual, have you eaten anything today?" Kunikida didn't say anything about Dazai's nap. Seems he also knew something was wrong.
"Better than ever Kunikida-kun" Even though his voice was back to normal, and usual smile played on his lips, his eyes stayed dead, empty. Was it always like this? His smile has never touched his eyes, has it? Atsushi was lost in thoughts.
"You don't seem well at all. Yosano-sensei! Could you come here for a minute?" Kunikida didn't believe his partner. This wasn't dazai he knew. Something changed, the question is how? No not how, the real question is when?
"What do you need Kunikida?" Yosano came and crossed her arms on her chest.
"Something is wrong with Dazai-san" Atsushi spoke up after recovering from the shock.
"I'm fine, I already told you two." Dazais voice was firm, as if trying to convince his co-workers. It didn't fool anyone tho.
"You're clearly not" Dazai stood up, and was about to leave, but Kunikida caught him, at least he tried to. Dazai dodged and walked away. Atsushi looked worried about the whole situation. It was the first time he saw his mentor cry, and they know each other for a year or so. Kunikida was yelling at dazai to come back, but got ignored.
"Dazai come back" Yosano spoke up, and walked up to her friend. Dazai stopped. Slowly his head turned to meet Yosanos eyes. Yosano backed away, her eyes widened. In the background Ranpo jumped of the desk he was sitting on, after observing the whole situation carefully. He walked up, and put his hand on Dazais shoulder. Dazai slowly turned his head to meet Ranpos eyes, looking in his with determination.
"Dazai, that didn't happen. It was just a nightmare" His voice was quiet, as if he didn't want anyone except Dazai to hear it.
"But what if one time I will be late? What if-" Dazai was also whispering, but was rudely cut off by Ranpo.
"Dazai" Ranpo didn't wait for his friend to finish. "That. Did. Not. Happen. It was just a bad dream" He didn't think that a bad dream could affect Dazai like this. He was in the mafia for fuck's sake. It seemed like the mafia was not a place to accept weakness. He knew that because of Yosano but still. Seeing one of the people who wears a mask 24/7, breaking that facade because of a dream about someone from the mafia? That's something new... Unusual at least. Ranpo looked up and he was met with dull, brown almost black eyes. He let out a sigh. Dazai wasn't going to think about anything else today, was he? "Go home, I will talk to the president" The brunette flinched, he wasn't expecting Ranpo to say something like that.
"You sure?... "
"Yea, you won't do anything if you stay either way. So go home, get some sleep and calm down" Ranpo was not really sure about his decision. He knew Dazai's suicide attempts weren't a reason to joke. He had to call someone.
"Well then, bye everyone... Thanks Ranpo" The last part was said so silently, he barely heard it, but he did. Ranpo smiled and waved goodbye. He had a phone call to make. He walked back to his place, jumped on the desk and reached for his phone. He picked a number, after few signals he heard annoyed voice.
"What the fuck do you want, agency squirrel"
End of chapter one