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Note: It’s been a little bit since I wrote something for Sailor Moon, so sorry if the story is a bit raw. Also, this is a rewrite of a ff.net fic that I wrote in early 2022, so yeah, been a while.
Dark Side of My Earth
Chapter One
I gaze at her and wonder how I could have ever gotten this lucky and not just once but time and time and time again. Usako has got me under her spell, but this time it’s a good thing and something that I’m happy about. I would be happy to exist as her protector until the end of our days together. I can’t believe how entirely beautiful she is. I get excited when I think of our baby, Chibi Usa, who will be born to us one day soon and who I will never stop being able to love.
I take a deep breath in and try to relax. I am Mamoru Chiba. I am a doctor who specializes in family care. I see people of all ages and I love spending time with children. It’s something that I had always wanted to do and I still study and try new methods and speak to Ami. It’s nice to have someone who loves speaking about medical technique as much as I do because I know that it bores Usa.
Usagi knows what the future holds for her. She is going to be Neo-Queen Serenity and rule over more than most people could imagine for her. As for now, I would be happy to just have her remain as my wife or support her in her other dreams. She’s questioned a dream in fashion either in making her own clothes and accessories or by modeling them. Again, I would be proud no matter what.
That’s how you know that you truly love somebody.
I look over at her, my beyond amazing wife, and she shifts uncomfortably in her sleep. I can’t help to imagine it’s some kind of lasting trauma and I would never know what that would be. We’ve been through so much. It’s one of the reasons even the slightest sight of pain rips me up when I face her. She’s eight months pregnant and this is supposed to be a happy event. Still, something inside of me feels strange as if there’s some evil force just laughing at us.
I look at her as the light falls softly on her golden hair. “I wish I knew how to make it better, Usako,” I tell her extremely gently. I want to move slow and gentle with her. I don’t want to force her into anything that makes her uncomfortable. “Just rest okay,” I tell her. I take slow breaths as I try to remind myself that she’s catching up with Makoto and Minako today. They always make her smile that every energetic Usako smile.
I trust them with her and she trusts them as well, but there’s something strange about the night tonight that is making sure that I’m not at ease. “Remember, you wanted to show them about the classes you were taking for fashion, show them your newest designs.”
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Being a designer really suited her. She wanted to create beautiful things for all people and not just for certain people. I admire that in her. She might want to learn about dramatic designer outfits from France, but she’s never wanted to tell people that they are not allowed to dream because of wealth or social standing.
“M-M-Mamo-kun?” Usa whispers grabbing a hold of her pillow and crying and I feel it like a punch to me gut. She’s crying because of something that I was involved in or something that I did. I take a slowly breath as she grabs a pillow and starts to sob into it. I pull her towards me but there is an incredibly sharp shock that starts in my chest and then spreads and pulsates at the same time. I blink, trying to center myself. I want to be there for her. I have the ability to heal and to hold myself against pain, she has never been the strongest in terms of protecting herself against her own emotions.
She reaches for me again and I feel something inside of me break and freeze light ice. I have only felt this type of pain when I was killed, when I had protected Usa from those who had been our foes. We haven’t had to fight for a while, months now, so why would it start with this type of ice cold pain running through my body.
I need to calm myself down. This is my wife. She is pregnant with our daughter. We are find. We are safe. I take another inhale and let my hand slip over her upper arm but she starts to panic from that and I pull my hand back to see a bruise forming on her arm. My eyes widen. I just touched her. Just my fingertips resting on her arm for a moment led to this kind of injury .
She gasps and then jumps up and steps away from me. Yeah. Nobody could have slept through a sudden bruise like that, but I didn’t think that I was doing anything and I would never ever hurt her, not unless someone else was controlling me and at this moment, that didn’t appear to be the case.
“Usako,” I attempt gently but I’m afraid to touch her again, I don’t know what happened but it shouldn’t have been this and she’s panicking, she’s scared and I really don’t want to do anything that hurts her.
“Get away from me,” Usagi tells me and I stop walking. I can’t approach her right now and I don’t know if I’ll ever get the right to get near to her again. She wraps her arms around herself and I can’t believe that I caused her pain. I see her sink down onto the ground and I’m stuck there watching her because if I caused a bruise just by touching her paired with these feelings of ice cold pain reminding me of scarier things, then I can’t do anything but offer help that isn’t physical.
I crouch down. “I promise, I won’t touch you Usa,” I tell her. “But I need to know if you see me rather than someone who isn’t here. It’s just us two here, but I won’t touch you. I just need to know how I can help.”
“I see you Mamo-kun,” She tells me and I soften a little but the concern is still there because I have no idea how it could have gone anywhere else. “You’re my husband. You’re Endymion. You’re the best man I’ve ever known. You would never hurt me.”
“Usa,” I say gently, “You know that I love you, right?” I tell her and she nods.
“I love you too,” She tells me and god it hurts so much to see the bruise on her arm and her just saying that to me. I don’t deserve that kind of emotion directed towards me right now. I hurt her and I have no idea what the cause is. There shouldn’t be a cause.
“I’m going to call Ami or you can call Ami and tell her what is going on. I’m not going to touch you until I know what’s going on, okay? I’m going to make sure that my friend gives me a scan today as well, but if it is something more magical, I think we might need to seek some more advice.” I tell her and she blinks at me.
“Like from Ami?” she asks with her adorable tone and I let my breath slip out.
“Yeah. Just like Ami.”
End of Chapter One
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