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2-D HEADCANNONS BECAUSE I LOVE HIM!!! ₍₍⚞(˶˃ ꒳ ˂˶)⚟⁾⁾

Summary:

headcannons from my tumblr! some silly, some angsty. enjoy!

Chapter 1

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2-D is legally blind after the events of D-Day. The hyphema makes his blindness 100 time worse. So, he uses a white cane for support. This would mean that his eyes are still black even after phase 5! (i hate the permanent white eyes i'm sorry)

One of the major side effects of his TBI are seizures. 2-D experiences both minor and major seizures. Especially now that he's getting older. Thankfully, the rest of the gang knows how to care for him, except Russel. Seeing 2-D's eyes roll to the back of his head scares the shit out of him every time! The first time Russel saw poor Stu seizing he thought he was being possessed!

2-d is autistic!! he loves yapping about zombie movies, keyboards and insects to anyone who listens! 2-d never knew he was autistic until his mom told him over the phone in 2019. Before, murdoc had always bullied and taunted him for his sensory issues and awkwardness. Whenever 2-d became exited to talk about his intrests to new people, he'd either be not taken seriously and treated like a child or be yelled at to shut up because he was being annoying.(the second part has happened to me before, as an autistic myself ˊᴖˋ ) so 2-d had learned to mask his autism in front of new people, but he would slip up every once in a while. Because of murdoc, 2-d felt as if there was something wrong with him and that he was weird for being the way he is. He's been trying to embrace his autism sine then.

2-d experiences sensory overload from loud overlapping noises like the overlapping chatter of large groups of people at a concert or the blaring sounds of a vaccum. At home, 2-d has a pair of noise cancelers, which he always forgets to bring with him when leaving the house. So in public he usually has noodle help him get to a quiet space to calm down.

2-d LOVES insects and arachnids. he always goes in the backyard to hold insects and frogs. Once, he had found a spider egg(? idk shit about spiders someone pls correct me) near a tree. stu didn't want to hurt the egg, so he left it be. (let's pretend gorillaz never got evicted from new kong studios k?) after a bad day, 2-d went in the backyard to de-stress. He looks down to find a large brown tralantula sitting on his legs. "do people scream and run away from you too?" The spider responded in only a wave, which stu found absolutely adorable. Stuart suddenly remembered the spider egg he had found and concluded the tralantula was most likely female. stu felt like he related so much to the tralantula. They both have long legs, black eyes, brown hair(at some point for stu) and the average person was terrified of them. Stuart decided to keep the spider as a pet, a permanent pet, sine all his other 'pets' would be gone after a day. So, Stu decided to name the tralantula Stella and gave her a pink ribbon to wear. Stu found an empty fish tank in the basement that was later used for Stella's enclosure. They've become best friends. (spiders of all kinds are the absolute bane of my existence so if anyone is actually knowledgeable about spiders i'd really appreciate help on this headcannon thx!)

Back during TNN, When D-Day was rolling around 2-D told ace everything about d-day. as scared as he was of 2-d when he first met him, ace was horrified and saddened to hear that murdoc was the reason 2-d was blind in the first place! for the first time since they've met, ace took off his shades and got real serious and told 2-d " you know, d.. nineteen is young. Nineteen is very very young. I don't think you realize that. When you're nineteen, you're fresh out of high school, your life has barely begun at that point.. you've barely flown the nest, your life is ahead of you, y'know? And this man.. this grown 30 something year old man crashed in, literally, and ruined you for the rest of your days. Stuart, You didn't ask for that... You didn't deserve that." At that point, everything clicked. For 2-d, he had been conditioned for so long that murdoc had saved him, and that without him, he'd be a boring nobody. It was that moment that Stuart reaized how terrible d-day truly was and sobbed like a baby that night. it took him 20 years to realize how bad it was. Ever since that talk with ace, stu requested to be called by his real name by the others. Being called by his real name makes him feel more alive. Every august since then, stu falls into a depressive state. He carries this dead feeling. He stays in bed all day, dissociating, feeling like a zombie. stu lays awake thinking about how Murdoc had killed stuart and reanimated him into 2-d, a living corpse. He barely eats anything unless noodle or russel convince him to because stu doesn't want them to worry about him. As for murdoc, stu tries to avoid him as much as possible, but of course, he has no choice but to interact with him from time to time.

2-d suffers terrible ptsd from plastic beach.(no stockholm syndrome! i never liked how that was official) 2-d hates being locked in rooms, big or small. Back on plastic beach, he wouldn't only be locked in his underwater prison, he'd be locked in closets, recording booths and others of the sort for days at a time. one day in the spirit house, the doorknob broke off in 2-d's room, locking him inside. The other's weren't home by then, (and 2-d forgot he could call them on his tablet) so 2-d was left screaming, sobbing and banging on the door, having flashbacks to massive dick wailing and inching closer. Since then, the door was removed and replaced with beads. Throughout phase 4, 2-d would suffer panic attacks from hearing murdoc's cuban heels, or from someone raising their voice or moving too quickly as if they were about to hit him. He would have terrible nightmares about the whale, murdoc and cyborg noodle. The lost chord incident, the flashbacks and nightmares were worse than before, waking up screaming bloody murder, sobbing, or fainting whenever he heard murdoc walking by. stuart didn't want to be locked in the closet again. (Don't worry! he's in therapy! ദ്ദി(˵ •̀ ᴗ - ˵ ) ✧)

Notes:

BUT WAIT! THERES MORE! ill post the rest of my 2-d headcannons when i feel like it (づ• 𐃷 •)づ im only doing 2-d cuz im hyperfixated on him but i might do noodle as well so look forward to that maybe! thank you for listening to my autistic ramblings OKBAIBAI (๑'ᵕ'๑)⸝*

Chapter 2: more headcanons plus a super long headcanon :P

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-You know how Damon Albarn has a big ass ipad instead of a cell phone like a normal person? The same goes for 2d! He has an ipad he carries around EVERYWHERE he has a little bag for it and everything. The bigger screen helps him see much more than a phone can! The ipad itself is a really outdated model from 2016 and has taken a considerable amount of damage through the years, yet stu insists on keeping it and refuses to get a new one despite the thing heating up the milisecond it's turned on. As for his camera roll, it's full of selfies with him and noodle, shitty pictures of insects and stray animals he finds, and TONS of professional quality photos of his pet tralantula Stella.

-Stuart and Stella are like, the best of friends. He tells her literally everything, even his deepest darkest secrets. They have intellectual conversations about all of Stuart's favorite zombie movies and it just sounds like Stu is a schizoprenic maniac talking to himself, since Stella can't reply to his autistic ramblings. Stella the spider knows literally everything to know about this man. His whole ass life story. Stu's even shown her his zombie movie collection and binge watched every entry. Stella really likes The Brood !(˵•̀ᴗ•́˵)

-2d loves letting Stella crawl on him! Stella's a big spider too, so she takes up his whole face! She usually crawls on his face to sit on top of his head, or crawl in circles on his stomach cuz he's really fuckin ticklish. Of course, the rest of the gang find this shit absoloutely terrifying to witness and 2d insists that it doesn't hurt and it just tickles!(I FUCKING HATE SPIDERS~♡)

 

(and now for a really really long plastic beach headcanon!!! yayyy!!! :D

Of course, plastic beach wasn't fun for 2d. He had been on the island for 6 years at that point, and grieved real noodle like hell cuz he was convinced that she had died for real. Lots of things can happen to one's mental state when being held captive for half a decade. 2d had been mentally broken down by then, yet was so angry for noodle. He was angry that Murdoc would kill someone he considered a little sister, and replace her like she meant nothing. One day, 2d was allowed to come to the surface after being locked in the basement for months.

Cyborg noodle had left to recharge, and accidently left her gun loaded and unlocked in the kitchen. Murdoc was tipsy and knew the gun was there, but was confident it was locked. Muds and 2d were arguing about the fact that cyborg noodle was a replacement of real noodle, an argument they've had many times before. This time, Muds said some truly hurtful things about real noodle that he didn't truly mean, but blurted out in the heat of the moment. 2d didn't know the gun was unlocked until he shot Murdoc in the leg. 2d had snapped. He wanted to kill murdoc for noodle. To him, she didn't deserve to die the way she did, and so young too. Without hesitation, 2d started beating murdoc with a nearby chair. He was starving and physically weak, but beat the green fucker as hard as he could, and he did some pretty good damage. In a fit of rage, 2d grabbed a knife. He wanted to stab the fucker's eyes out for everything muds had done up to that point. Unfortunately, cyborg came in just in time before 2d could swing and shot 2d in the foot. You see, cyborg was programmed to attack 2d if he genuinely tried killing murdoc. Yes, the two have had physical altercations before, but 2d had never pushed it this far before.

As she was programmed to do in this situation, cyborg beat the ever loving shit out of 2d within an inch of his life. Murdoc tried commanding her to stop, but she didn't oblige. It was then murdoc realized how much of a design flaw this was and hurriedly flipped off the switch on the back of her neck. With an injured foot, murdoc dragged himself and 2d to the infirmary. After getting the chance to grasp the situation, cyborg was reset and commanded to treat their wounds and take 2d back to his room. (i like to think cyborg can be controlled by a remote and there's a reset button on it just in case she malfunctions) Muds knew he fucked up BAD. He thought 2d was for sure dead, and wasn't sure what to do with his body yet.

The day after, the events of rhinestone eyes music video take place and real noodle returns!!!

The one reason noodle and russel wanted to get to plastic beach was because they wanted to save 2d. They had listened to murdoc's pirate radio and were incredibly worried! So after winning a battle against cyborg noodle and beheading her, noodle went straight for murdoc. Terrified and fearing for his life, muds gave her the keys to 2d's room and told her where he was located. They both split after that. Murdoc to collect the remnants of cyborg and flee and noodle straight to the basement. When noodle got to his room, she was in a hurry to get them both out of there, since pirates were everywhere, so she never got a good look at 2d's condition. Noodle ran for both of their lives, jumped in russel's mouth, and as fast as he could, russel swam away from plastic beach.

4 days later, russel found a stranded island the group could stay on and hopefully encounter a rescue ship. That was when noodle and russel got a good look at 2d. Poor lad was a human skeleton with bruises everywhere, with his foot bandaged where he was shot. Russel and noodle were heartbroken. They were convinced murdoc did this and cried for 2d. Noodle cried hard. She had always looked up to 2d as a big brother and had witnessed murdoc beat him before, but never thought murdoc would kill him.(is someone cutting onions?(╹ -╹) or is it just me?) She and russ thought 2d was dead for sure.

But little did they know, he lived, bitch 2d miracoulously survived! (◝(ᵔᗜᵔ)◜YAAAY! ok back to angst) 2d was very confused and couldn't see anything. only thing he could do was ask the strange person for food and water, which made noodle want to start sobbing again. The following days were spent getting fish to cook and boiling sea water for 2d to drink.(dont worry they let the water cool) It was the only thing noodle and russel could do on a stranded island. They worked tooth and nail to try and nurse 2d back to health.

One night, a few months later, 2d says to Noodle "You know.. you sound a lot like my sister." and starts telling noodle all about noodle. Noodle had always kept her mask on around 2d because she didn't want him to see her bruised eye.(even though he's legally blind and can barely see shit) Noodle was surprised by how much about her that 2d memorized. From stupid shit she did as a kid to her musical ambitions. Everything, even her unfortunate 'death'. Noodle couldn't handle the emotional torment any longer and took of her mask. "Stuart.." This was the first time she had ever referred to him by his real name," It's me, Noodle. The real Noodle, not that stupid cyborg.. Don't you recognize me?" It took Stuart a moment, but he did recognize her! They both started sobbing like babies and hugged each other. Stuart had never thought he would see noodle again, but there she was! "I thought you were gone,,," He said in between sobs. Little did Stuart know, Russel had seen everything. "You know 2d," Said Noodle " Russel missed you too." Stuart cried even more happy tears seeing Russel again. He had been so worried about him after the El Manana incident. As happy as 2d was to see russel again, he was also dumbfounded cuz he was fucken huge! Nevertheless, happy tears and hugs all around! ( ˶ˆᗜˆ˵ )

BUT WAIT! THERE'S MORE!!

2 days later, Russel became worried about 2d. He was happy, but his wounds hadn't been healing well and needed some professional medical attention. So, russel made the difficult decision to swim out to sea and search for a rescue boat on his own. The group said their goodbyes and russel set off. He could trust noodle to care for 2d on her own. Days past. Then weeks, then a month. It was then that russel had been harpooned by North Korean sailors and taken back to the country.

Noodle had become increasingly worried that russel got hurt or killed and not be able to come back. She couldn't stay and wait any longer as 2d's health was getting worse. In desperation to save her brother, noodle built a wrath with the plan that she and stuart could sail to civilization and get help. So, a raft was built and the pair set sail in the middle of the night. Unfortunately, the two encountered a terrible thunder storm. The raft toppled and flipped in the raging ocean, and it was becoming more and more difficult to stay together. Because of his weak frame, stuart fell into the ocean, leaving noodle to abandon the raft so save him. Noodle tried as hard as she could to save stuart, but could barely keep a hold of him because of the raging ocean. Suddenly, noodle noticed a large figure...

IT WAS MASSIVE DICK! THE WHALE!! HE DIDN'T DIE WHEN RUSSEL TOSSED HIM AT THE PIRATE JET!!! And worst of all, he was going straight in 2d's direction, slowly unhinging his jaw. Noodle tried desperately to swim and save 2d, but was pushed further and further back by the ocean. And eventually, she sat there in the water as she helplessly watched her brother get swallowed whole by the whale, and watched as the whale drifted further and further away.

THE END!! For now...

Notes:

I was a bit sad how plastic beach ended on a bit of a cliffhanger cuz of all the financial issues the band was going through at the time, so heres my interpretation of the end of phase 3!

I wasn't planning on this headcannon to be so long i swear! I was planning to add another headcannon about 2d struggling with bulimia in depth but uhh i'll have to do that next time! so watch out! ;3

GOTTA BLAST!!! ꉂ(˵˃ ᗜ ˂˵)

Chapter 3: the third part of the trilogy!!

Summary:

‼️TW ED MENTION‼️

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- 2-D has bipolar 2Disorder. (Hehe see what I did there wink wink) No one knew he had disorder until the hypomanic and depressive episode that was the entirety of phase 5. Said hypomanic episodes being the effect of how much painkillers this man pops like candy. With being free from murdoc and trying his best to cope with 20+ years worth of trauma, all these thoughts and feelings were poured into TNN. TNN was never about murdoc. It was about 2-D’s hypomania and cockiness, unhealthy dependency on recreational drugs, and his terrible trauma, slowly transitioning into major depression all written into song. Hypomanic episodes still occur once in a while beyond phase 5. Let’s just say this man is a HANDFUL during a hypomanic episode. Going off for literal hours with seemingly no end in sight. (For those unaware, bipolar 2 disorder is basically a less severe version of regular bipolar disorder)

‼️TW EATING DISORDERS‼️( i did lots of research for this headcannon. but if any info is wrong when it comes to bulimia, please correct me! ^^)

During the gang's stay at the spirit house, the spirits brought up very very deep dark thoughts and fears that the band wouldnt tell to even each other. Russel's fear of being possessed, Murdoc's fear of dealing with his emotions while sober, and Noodle's claustrophobia after the events of el manana. For 2d, his unhealthy relationship with food. After getting off plastic beach, one of 2ds biggest fears after whales was being hungry. Either by mistake or on purpose, murdoc rarely remembered to feed 2d, leaving to man starving for multiple months at a time. Because of such an experience, 2d ate tons of food, simply out of not wanting to reexperience the constant anxiety of wondering when his next meal will be. The pizza ghost in saturnz barz used 2d's past against him, showing 2d a younger version of himself, starving in his underwater prison. Because of such a reminder, without hesitation 2d eats a much as he can in the fridge. Which brought up a new problem. The ghost showed a vision of 2d in the mirror, over 600 pounds fatter. Then more hallucinations appeared of the band abandoning him because 2d was too fat to be the pretty boy frontman anymore. Replacing him with someone who's younger, skinnier, and much prettier singer. There were visions of the media's reaction to 2d letting himself go, laughing at him. Everyone 2d had ever known was laughing along with strangers. The amount of constant taunting caused 2d to vomit a lot. and in the blink of an eye, he woke up shivering in the fridge. Since then, 2d developed an awful habit of binging and purging. He wanted to eat to bring himself comfort, but was terrified of gaining too much weight. 2d got help for his bulimia in 2018, but still relapses every now and again when things get overwhelming. Russel keeps a secret storage of snacks for 2d whenever he needs them.<3 (i will def make a comic or smth of this in the future)

(this next one is based on another headcannon i saw by @0011001001000100 on tumblr!)

After a heated argument between 2d and murdoc, muds snuck into 2ds room to smash one of his keyboards. but not just any keyboard, the first keyboard David Pot ever made for 2d. Like the literal patient 0 of all of the custom keyboards 2d made with his dad. Choice words were said in the earlier argument, so muds wanted to hit it where it really hurts. So, he took that custom keyboard and smashed it till it was nothing of tiny bits. 2d heard the noise and quickly ran to his room. There was murdoc with that poor keybord smashed into unrecognition under his cuban heels. 2d ran and pushed him aside, holding the remains of one of his most sentimental items and sobbed. He was devastated. That keyboard meant the world to him, especially after his dad passed in 2005. 2d was too sad to yell at murdoc, all he did was cry. Upon the sight, murdoc couldn't help but feel a genuine sense of remorse. He actually felt terrible. He knew how much that first keyboard meant to stu. Muds couldn't count the amount of times his dad smashed his precious items. Muds genuinely wanted to say sorry. But even the blind could see there was no fixing this, so he left without a word. For 2d, however, the tears turned into unfathomable rage. 2d knew that he had to make sure murdoc would never go in his room and smash his things like this again. 2d couldn't afford the risk of his other precious keyboards kicking the bucket. So, he set booby traps in his room.

(i might have to draw this cuz the desc is kinda confusing)
The first booby trap was his door. 2d installed a face recognition device onto custom led text on the door. when murdoc is detected and tries to open the door, the door widens itself as a wall of metal needles rise from the floor, blocking the doorway. If murdoc moves far away from the door, the needle wall descends back into the floor and the door quickly closers and locks itself. So now, the door is locked and only 2d can unlock it with the same face detection feature. Booby trap number 2 is the window of 2ds room. the same led lights with secret facial recognition are installed onto the outside window seal. Again, if muds opens the window, the trap sets off. this time, thick metal bars of teeth comp down if something like an arm is detected going through the window. when removed, the window again closes and locks itself. is all this petty as fuck? a million times YES. do i like to ask myself questions and answer them? absolutely. but you can't blame sweet lil stu! his babies (keyboards) are at stake! besides this is a good trap for burgulars as well! even a worm wil turn yk?

( now onto more lighthearted things! )

2d love love LOVES sweets! hes a terrible sweet tooth. He'll eat anything sugary. literally ANYTHING. chocolates, (dark, milk, and white) fruit candies, fruit pastries, fruit tarts, egg pastries, ice cream, etc etc. As for his all time favs, they mostly consist of american candies introduced by Russel. 2d absolutely LOVES jollyranchers... the hard jollyranchers...he literally chews them like they're nothing. it disturbs everyone in the house, but 2d doesn't gaf. He's tried the jollyrancher gummies and actually enjoys them, but he prefers the hard candy. For his favorite cakes, literally every cake known to man. Tripple choco, carrot, vanilla etc. But his go-to favs are strawberry shortcake or funfetti. in indescribable ways, those two cakes are the best cakes to exist on this planet!!!

There are nights where either 2d or noodle will have terrible nightmares leaving them restless. so, one takes a sleeping bag to the other's room to comfort them. for 2d, he has nightmares that leave him waking up screaming. so, noodle takes him to her room w/ sleeping bag in tow to comfort him until he can fall asleep. While noodle has nightmares, they aren't as frequent cuz of sleep meds she takes. but she absolutely HATES thunder storms. the loud noise reminds her too much of the choppers destroying the windmill island. she never goes to 2d cuz shes scared shitless, but she does call for him and he always hears her and goes to her. he holds noodle, gets her water or snacks, and even sings to her until she falls asleep. this has been a thing for a very long time, ever since noodle was little. its become an unspoken thing they do and sometimes russel and at rarer times, murdoc are added into the equation. So the whole gang sleeps in one big group in the living room to comfort someone having a nightmare and its really sweet :) (NO NOODLE SHIPS ARE INVOLVED!! NO 2DOC EITHER!! 2russ is cool tho)

When it comes to crossing the street, 2d is very nonchalant about it to dickheaded levels. he's legally blind and uses a cane, so logically he should use his cane to feel for the bumpy red things on the sidewalk near the cross walks right??((i dunno if these are in england as an american those things are all over my city)) No, fuck that lmao. he just walks into the middle of the road, not even stopping to wait for cars to pass. just straight into oncoming traffic with no fucks to give. he makes it across the street unscathed every time.

Notes:

After a month of procrastination ive finally made the third part of the trilogy!! yipeee!!! this ones REALLY LONG ill definetly make more cuz i intended to add more to this chapter! I did tons of research on bulimia for this so hopefully it's accurate! anyways thx for reading!! :D

Chapter 4: HUMILITY!!!

Summary:

while this headcannon is a bit short, i've made art for it! yipeee!!!!!

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in the humility mv, 2d decides that he’s tired of his disability (blind) setting him back. One thing he's always wanted to do was roller skate. So, he makes the stubborn decision to roller skate without the assistance of his cane for the first time ever since he started using his cane after d-day.  he leaves his mobility cane at their hotel and goes off! (much to the concern of the others, but 2d insists he won’t need it today. They all just go along w/ it cuz they don’t feel like dealing w his dumbass) Murdoc would never let him do this anyway. But with him gone, 2d could do whatever he wanted without a little green bitch in his ear belittling him! throughout the mv, he trips and stumbles. He’ll fall down, and get back up like the stubborn old man he is. 2d was a bit scared since he can barely see a thing, but he lets loose and has fun flaunting is new found freedom! At the end of the mv, instead of Russel tripping him, 2d trips on a rock trying to wave at Russ.  in the end, 2d eats shit and starts having a brain damage induced seizure that Russel now has to take care of. Needless to say, Ace thought is was badass meanwhile Noodle was beyond pissed at her stupid stupid brother.

 

And now for a messy comic!! :D

Bonus art of blue haired middle aged twink being silly and whimsical

Notes:

thx for reading so far!! theres much more to come! i might do art for future headcannons as well!
BAIBAI!!!ヾ( ˃ᴗ˂ )◞ • *✰

Chapter 5: mental health strugglez </3 (TW SA AND SH)

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TW!!! SA MENTION!!!! MENTIONS OF SELF HARM!! SUICIDAL THOUGHTS AS WELL!!! PLS SKIP IF YOU'RE SENSITIVE TO THAT!

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A month or so after muds went to jail, 2d decided to cut his hair. Before, Murdoc would control how 2d’s hair looked. He'd always drag 2d to barber shops to have his hair cut, which 2d HATED. Muds cared how 2d was viewed by the public media. The pretty boy frontman needs a pretty boy frontman haircut! That’s why he’s had the same cut for 20 years. 2d grew to hate his iconic hairstyle cuz he was forced to wear it all the time. Not only that, but he DESPISES when strangers cut his hair. It's so tense and uncomfortable for him he just hates it. But now with Murdoc gone, he could do whatever he wanted! So one day, he takes a pair of scissors and goes to work, chopping off his bangs. He TOTALLY didn’t cut a bald spot cuz he’s blind as shit or anything… hehe. He fucked with the new style so he kept it :) The gang was in for a pleasant surprise that faithful morning. Ace and Russel loved it and loved the idea behind it! Noodle was a bit taken aback, since 2d always looked and dresses how Murdoc wanted him to, but eventually she accepted it. Murdoc however.... his reaction wasn't the prettiest, but 2d stood his ground >:3

Ever since phase 2, 2d has developed an unhealthy view towards sex, evolving into a sex addiction. Ever since Gorillaz first started, 2d was always expected to be the lady magnet. Muds drilled into his head that lead singers like him should get laid after every show with tons of girls per night. He was told to flaunt himself more for the sex appeal. And because phase 1 2d was young, brain damaged, and naive, he did his best to fulfill that expectation. In Hollywood early phase 2, 2d went through multiple incidents where he was unfortunately taken advantage of and raped by multiple older women. To quote Rise of the Ogre, "2D still seemed like a sixth form student at his parent's gathering, hanging back by the walls, but many a Mrs Robinson queued up to tickle the young boy's fancy. 'Oi! Fack Owrf! Ow! Get off... Oh yeah ok!'" After this and many other experiences, 2d felt ashamed of himself cuz he didn't always like this feeling. Being forced into having sex wasn't fun :( He'd feel embarrassed and conflicted about feeling this way because he wasn't sure if his experience was valid enough to even consider himself as a rape victim. Was it still rape if he ended up liking it? He was supposed to be the womanizer after all! But then he would think of Muds pressuring him to be more sexual and bury these bad feelings into even more sex. Resulting in his multiple illegitimate children. He didn't want to disappoint Murdoc. Excluding phase 3 for obvious reasons, 2d still struggles with his sex addiction. While he's not as sexually active as he once was, there are nights where he has nightmares of his assaults and turns to sex or masturbation to comfort himself. While it's a terrible terrible habit, wasn't ready to face the music and get help. It wasn't up until phase 5 that he got proper help for his sex addiction. Of course beyond phase 5, there are relapses sometimes. Since then, 2d has become an advocate for male sexual assault victims  :)

2d has lots of self harm scars as a result of plastic beach. Across his arms and legs there are cuts, all from a piece of glass he had found. Poor lad was going through it. He missed his freedom and his family. He had tried to send messages for help but was always shot down my muds and cyborg noodle. As the years went on trapped on the island of misery and despair, 2d started self harming. He felt as is everything that happened to him on plastic beach was his fault. He felt as if he deserved the pain from hurting himself. There were also instances of attempting to end his life. But Murdoc wasn't having any of that. He couldn't let his singer die on him! Any chance 2d had to end himself, cyborg was commanded to stop him. He basically wasn't allowed to die in a sense. This was one of the many reasons why he wrote The Fall during the plastic beach tour. The Fall was a coping mechanism. 2d was home sick and had no control in anything. He couldn't control what he ate, what he wore, what music he wanted to make, etc. The Fall was the only thing he could control in the midst of chaos. All on his iPad. He poured his soul into that album. So when all the negative reception for The fall came out, 2d had snapped. He was fucking angry. Heartbroken as well. When they got back to plastic beach and 2d was put back into his underwater prison, he went on a rampage. Throwing and punching things, yelling and screaming in pure despair. What did those reviewers know? They don't know what it's like to be treated as a circus animal 24/7 with no escape from it all. They don't know what it's like to be someone's ragdoll. They don't know any of what he'd went through while making that album! "It's not even studio recorded" SO?! why did it matter that it was made on a tablet? it was the only thing he had! Blood, sweat and tears were poured into that work! There was genuine passion behind it! Wasn't that all that mattered? Some reviewers even went as low to say they preferred PLASTIC BEACH, an album with no creative soul in 2d's eyes, was better than The Fall. That was a punch in the face, a kick in the gut, topped off with being spat on to put a cherry on top. An album made while 2d was beaten for messing up a chord, and was forced against his will to sing on it, made with his suffering was "better" than an album that had 2d's full creative control. Words couldn't explain how much the negative press hurt. At the end of 2d's rampage, Massive Dick the whale came to say hello. God he hated that fucking whale. 2d was left alone with the whale, shaking and sobbing on the floor, overwhelmed with negative emotions all around.

Ever since 2d got off of plastic beach, he's been terrified of whales a bajillion times more than he ever did before plastic beach. He avoids beaches like the plague in general. Once in phase 5, he made the stupid decision to go to an aquarium with the gang minus the green pickle man who shall not be named. 2d had heard once that the best way to get over your fears was to face them head on. He was sure he could handle this. What a terrible decision that was. The first part of the visit was going alright. Decent for the most part. Looking at the cute fishies was quite fun. Especially for Ace, who had never been to an aquarium before. Unfortunately, the group came across a giant display that showed a huge humpback whale. Upon the sight, 2d froze. The screeches and wails from the creature triggered terrible flashbacks. All of a sudden, everything in the room warped into the little room he was locked in on plastic beach. With the whale's eye showing in the only window in there, watching him. All this resulted in poor 2d fainting. It was all just too much to handle. The gang went home after that. 2d had nightmares for weeks.

Notes:

thanks for reading! i listened to the fall for the first time while writing this. NO WAY people hated this and plastic beach! what were they smoking in 2010?? the fall is genuinely awesome! enough glazing from me tho! more light hearted headcannons on the way!