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It was 1am, the sky was pitch black and the stars shined high up. Yet, something was still a miss
Min was curled up in the corner of the room. His face was hot, his stomach felt uneasy, and his breathing was heavy and mixed with sobs. He didn’t know what to do, everything hurt, it hurt so much. He just wanted it to stop, he wanted it all to stop
Suddenly he heard meowing near the door. He got up to open it and found out it was Kez. His eyes were still full of tears as he spoke
“Oh, I’m sorry baby, did I wake you? It’s fine you can go back to sleep.”
The young tabby kept meowing despite her father’s words. Min could tell that she could tell something was wrong with him. But, he didn’t want to worry her, why should he? It shouldn’t be her responsibility, I mean she’s just a cat after all.
“Hey hey, come on now. It’s okay just go back to sleep.”
Kez was still meowing, standing by the door despite clearing wanting to be near him. After a few more minutes of hearing her whine, Min picks her up
“Do you wanna be with Daddy? Is that it?” Kez just meowed some more. “Okay, only if it’ll make you stop meowing”
Min takes her over to the corner he was previously sitting at and he sits down with his daughter in his lap. He was still tearing up, he did tried wipe them but more just kept falling down.
“Please don’t worry about me baby, Daddy’s okay he’s just a little shaken up right now” Min said, his voice shaking and slightly cracking.
Ken looks at her dad with big black eyes as if she wanted him to tell him what was up, Min brings her closer to him.
“I’m fine, really it’s just… I feel so… scared all the time and life has just… been so hard lately. Like I can’t… ever do anything and there’s no… point in eating or sleeping… or drinking. Existing just… feels like a damn chore.” Min sodded, his voice rising a little as he said that last part
Kez just cuddles further into Min’s lap as he explains all this. Min takes a deep breath as he strokes her. His face suddenly felt less hot.
“I’m so sorry you have to see me like this baby. I know I shouldn’t be dumping all this onto you but, I really feel like I’m losing myself and I can’t even talk to Ryan or my parents about this, I-I don’t even know if I wanna still be here anymore but… I don’t know… I just don’t know… I… just… d-don’t…”
Kez places her head on Min’s chest, softly purring. Min notices this and gently wraps her arms around her, his breathing is finally starting to slow down and his eyes start to feel heavy as Kez continues to cuddle against him. He mumbles one last thing before drifting off to sleep with his little one in his arms.
“Remind me to cuddle with you more”