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The brightness of the coming dawn shines down on Gaotu making him flinch awake, eyes opening and not recognizing the room he was in, sent his body into stress. Being an omega pretending to be a beta for a decade already he had always made sure that he reached home safely. This was the first time ever he found himself on an unknown territory. His frantic eyes started to focus noticing the boxes in the storage room and recognizing his yesterday's hiding place.
Memories of the event that happened last night came flooding back and his gaze snapped back to the other side of the bed. Luck was on his side and the naked form of his first love was still sound asleep.
Gaotu moved without thinking, sinking back down on the mattress and looking at the resting face, taking in the soft features, his hand subconsciously moving to touch it. It was so odd to him. Wenlang always had something to say and to sit here in silence didn't sit well with him. He always admired Wenlang from a far, but being this close to him was simply overwhelming. He has been in love for such a long time that he does not know how live without that feeling. Even if the disappointment of last night lingered in the air around Gaotu.
He fought off the urge to touch Wenlang, he knows he has no right to do that after last night even if his heart wanted to do it more than anything.
With his body sore from yesterday's "activity" and still cramping from the heat he was experiencing he had no choice but to move, to run away and hope that Wenlang will not remember any of this, even if he couldn't possibly see a way out of this. How would Wenlan not know.
He slipped out from under the sheet and put on his underwear and pants first then a shirt and suit jacket which he didn't bother buttoning up in fear of the other waking up. It was a good fear, one that made sense especially because Wenlang hated omegas, hated what Gaotu couldn't escape from. His secret second identity.
He snuck out of the room carrying his shoes not even taking the time to look back at the sleeping form he just wanted to escape from here. His life was over when Wenlang wakes up and remembers.
After finding some solitude in the corners of the building he made himself presentable, buttoning up the white dress shirt and actually putting on the shoes he carried out before rushing out to find a driver who would drop him off home. That is all he wanted. Home so he could suffer in silence without anyone knowing.
The drive home was very short or it felt like because Gaotu just couldn't focus properly. He passed out in his own bed before he knew it feeling the pain crawling back up once more. Even if his body was in pain his inner omega was very pleased, purring even. For the first time ever his omega got what it was searching for. For the first ever his omega layed with an alpha, it was finally satisfied, finally happy, finally did it's job. The cramps were still there, but the desire to mate wasn't as strong as it was before. It was as if the heat was already done even if it hasn't been a full day.
Well in his defense this was a pheromone induced heat not his naturally scheduled one so it should pass faster than usual. Or so he thought and guessed. He never experienced any other kind of heat other than the naturally scheduled ones. Even if he worked with an S tier Alpha he never fell in the trap his pheromones set out. It could be because of the years that Gaotu spent taking suppressants, it was possible thy didn't work as well as they did before. Maybe his body was not absorbing it anymore, maybe he has gotten used to them and they lost it's power.
Gaotu woke up maybe an hour later feeling strong enough to shower and change his clothes which is exactly what his did. There suit he still wore was rather uncomfortable to sleep in. The tiredness was still clinging to his body so reaching the bathroom took some time. There was no pain now only the soreness which was caused by the alpha last night, but there was nothing he could do about only hope that the warm shower would ease it off.
Stepping out of the worn clothes turned to be harder than expected. The upper part was not a problem, but stepping out his pants and underwear proved to be an issue. When he escaped from Wenlang before he was running on adrenaline and now that he was home safe he could feel it. Soreness with tingling pain.
Once his underwear hit the tiled floor he felt it, the crusty, dried up slick on his thighs. He didn't have the time nor energy to notice it sooner. After Wenlang was done he didn't even bother to clean up. Gaotu felt his heart squeeze at that. He didn't care enough to do it. Tears welled up in his eyes and he forced himself to tear his gaze from the mess. Seeing this made him scared to even look back into a mirror. With his back still turned he stepped in.
The hot water burned his back where red scratch marks bloomed, his wrists were no better where future bruises started to form after being held down, the love bites on his neck and bitten lip. In burned all over, his skin sensitive after being abused to no end yesterday. But the worst of all was pain his backside. It made sense after all. Wenlang lost control because of Gaotu, and he didn't blame him. He blamed himself and his own nature.
His eyes watching the water draining, washing away the sweat and the dried up slick, and then starting to get stained in red. His breath hitched. It finally clicked, he understood now why he felt that painful tingling and why the first push was hurtful yesterday.
He leaned on cold tiles behind him feeling another wave of guilt and tears coming down on him. It was his fault for being born as an omega, it was his fault for falling in love with Wenlang and it was his fault for not walking away when he had the chance. He can't blame an Alpha because Gaotu could have stopped it. Should have. It was his scent that triggered Wenlang, his heat.
His hands began to wash the tired body, every pressure, every little scrub sent more pain up his spine. Worst of all he had to clean the area down there and he knew that it would be far from plesant.
He took soap in his hands and lather it up between his own palms and then gently started rubbing it on his thighs and working his way up. He stiffened again when his fingers finally touched the wounded entrance. He knew that it would hurt the first time, but he never expected it to be like this, this rough and brutal. Gaotu didn't dare to repeat the motion even if he knew that he will have to do it.
Tears drop from his eyes both from pain and fear of the possible pain that would come from a simple clean up. He didn't want to do it, but he knew how important it was so his bit down on his already split lip and closed his eyes. Gaotu knows what pain is, he has live with it ever since he presented as an omega this should be nothing compared to what he has experienced before.
After drowning his worries down the drain he stepped out of the shower and stood in front of a mirror assessing the damages. The marks on his back could be easily hidden with his suit as well as his wrists where a watch would be placed, but the red marks on his neck and open wound on his lip certainly not. Once more he will have to stay hope and take days off work, this time to heal and hide his shame.
He dressed himself up and left the steaming bathroom to grab his phone and message his replacement. He felt bad for calling out so late, but he had no choice, Wenlang would have noticed and the heat was still wearing off slowly. Again he laid down on his soft cushioned bed trying to sleep off the anxiety and guilt he felt. It was starting to suffocate him.
Unfortunately the events even hunted his dreams. He felt it all over again. The roughness, the strong hold that Wenlang used to hold him down, the painful sensation when he entered him without any kind of preparation. Gaotu was crying once more in his sleep and the wetness stained his cheek even outside the dream.
Being with Wenlang was something Gaotu always wanted, something he wanted to get, but the forced touch, the roughness and pain that followed were not something he ever wanted to endure again. Even if Wenlang hates omegas Gaotu thought that if it was him he would get treated differently, but it didn't happen. Wenlang's hate towards omegas ment that even he wouldn't be spared which hurts more than he could ever explain.
Gaotu never expected that Wenlang would return his feelings, but he chased hope which was not crumbling away. How is he supposed face Wenlang after this? How was he supposed to work with him after last night?
At this moment Gaotu wished he was never born, he would have taken it over being born as an omega.