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Beomgyu woke with a pounding headache, though it hardly surprised him anymore. For the past two years, every morning had begun the same way.
As he rose from bed, a wave of dizziness swept over him, and if not for the nearby bookshelf to steady himself against, he might have crumpled to the floor unconscious.
He sighed deeply, grabbed his clothes, and went to the bathroom, where he performed his daily inspection in the mirror.
His bones jutted out, just as they always did. One could say that apart from them, and the thin layer of skin, there was nothing else.
Beomgyu smiled at his reflection and stepped onto the scale. The smile disappeared instantly.
45 kilograms. Since yesterday, he had gained 0.3. He hadn’t eaten that much, right ? Just a rice cake, a cucumber, and some cream cheese.
"Maybe I spread too much cheese" he told himself in thought. He looked in the mirror again. This time with disappointment. He saw one bone being less visible than yesterday.
"No food today"
He dressed quickly. All his clothes had long since become too big, though he hardly cared. After all, that was the point.
He went down to the kitchen. He didn’t even glance at the food. It disgusted him too much. Or maybe it was himself that he found so disgusting. He wasn’t sure which felt more true.
He poured himself a glass of water and drained it in one go. Taking another, he returned to his room.
He set the drink on the shelf and lay down on the floor to start doing sit-ups. His spine was already covered in bruises. Each repetition hurt more than the last. Ignoring the pain, he pushed through one hundred.
Beomgyu took his phone, and opened Tumblr. He got a lot of notifications about his last body check he posted. He clicked to the comment section.
'I wish I looked like you'
"Why, I look so fat on this photo" he said to himself
'You look pretty'
"Yeah, pretty disgusting"
Like that came the whole comment section
But one of them caught his attention
'Please eat something. You're destroying yourself '