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The sun rises, another day is about to begin. The trainees waking up one by one just to start running against the time again. The eliminations just ended up with everyone's energy, after all, staying is a gift but seeing friends leaving would never be comfortable. That's why all the dorms seems so messy, a lot of trainees are now gone and the remaining ones couldn't help themselves but breaking some rules.
There's almos fifteen minutes since Haneum has opened his eyes, but didn't move. He can feel the weight of someone's head on his chest, Junil's still there sleeping. And he knows that they shouldn't be like this but he can't remember when he fell asleep also, so there's no one to blame. A sigh escapes his lips while he starts moving his hands against Junil's hair.
But there's something really casual about the way Haneum's fingers stroll on Junil's hair. As if they are meant to be there all the time, caressing, fixing or simply wrapping them around the tip of your index finger. The thing is, he needs to take care of what is his and Junil is definitely the prettiest thing he has.
They've been friends for years but suddenly something changed in their dynamics. If Haneum's honest with himself, he'd probably say that it was only him who actually changed. Junil's still the same cutie and sweet guy he meet before, he's still funny, loving and talkative when they're alone. Yeah, nothing changed but Haneum's feelings for him.
And he's not sure about how and when. Maybe it was that day when he decided to give up his career after feeling that there was no chance for him, but somehow Junil managed him to gave up giving up. Or maybe when they started to hangout together all the time and he started learning new things about Junil all the time. Maybe it was coexistence or just the time, time can always change thing.
He sighs again, his fingers still stroking his hair distractedly when he finally realises that Junil's already awake, his sleepy eyes waiting to Haneum to notice him wich is happening now. Haneum smiles and mourns a "good morning" hearing some weird noise that makes him laugh in response.
Now his friend has decided to sit on the bed lazily, mumbling confusing words while rubbing his eyes. He pounts and look at Haneum kinda like he was waiting for him to do something that never happens anyway. It's Haneum's turn to sit down and rest his forehead on Junil's back for a moment. "Good Morning.", Junil finally answered.
They stay in this position until noticing that Masato was standing on the other bed pretending not to be there. Haneum ruffles Junil's hair one last time and can do nothing but watching him leave. He shares a glaze with Masato who smiles as someone that knows more than should.
"Someone had a good night, I think.", he says full of a provocative tone. Haneum grabs his own pillow and throws it towards Masato who just continues laughing after it hits him. He wants to say that there's nothing to laugh about, but he just knows his cheeks are red and Masato is definitely using it against him if he dare to open his mouth.
So the only alternative is to give up and let Masato laugh alone, laying up and going to takea shower when he still have time... If he still have time. Whatever, he needs to be in the rehearsal room as soon as possible, so the new teams will be decided. Wich mean that he'll have to see Masato's face in less than a hour. For now, he's just ignoring everything while the water washes his shame.
New teams are done and the day went all well in Sugar High Team. They get along so well and Haneum is doing a great job helping everyone with vocal tips and they're all helping each other with the choreography that seems to be their biggest problem for now.
Whatever, Haneum just finished his dinner and decided that it's time to stop. He left Masato behind, he knows that he demands too much of himself and will probably be stuck in that room rehearsing for another two hours. And he's not sure about his other teammates, so he's alone now.
He's showering again in total silence, the water washes away all the tiredness of the day and takes it down the drain. It takes only fifteen minutes until his fingers wrinkle, so he decides to finish his calming session. Whatever, he takes another fifteen minutes just to get dressed because he's definitely tired.
And Junil's already waiting for him when he comes out of the bathroom and Haneum can't contain his sly smile, approaching slowly. Junil is still sitting on the bed when Haneum stands in front of him. Haneum feels his arms wrap around his waist and his face buried in his chest.
"I don't belong there", he says, his voice muffled by the fabric of Haneum's shirt. "They're all just... Better. I... I don't belong there, Haneum.". Junil could hear Haneum's heart breaking if he wanted, 'cause Haneum never felt so directionless as now.
"Hey...", he starts, without any confidence in his voice. He wants Junil to feel as special as he is, but he knows that in the situation they find themselves in, trapped in this stupid reality show, words aren't enough. He's trying anyways.
"Don't say that... You belong there. You belong everywhere. Junil...", sighs, a little lost. "You're an all star now. And.. you came so far with your dream, blood and sweat. So... You belong there. As much as everyone. Don't put the whole weight of the world on your shoulders, okay?"
He's left without any answer and he's okay with that for now. He's still okay when Junil starts crying silently, his tears wetting Haneum's shirt are what make him realize. His fingers found their way though his hair, combing them lovingly, without rushing, only caring.
Time passes, they're still alone in the same position. Junil is definitely feeling better after crying, but still looks depressed when he slightly lifts his head to glaze Haneum who takes some advantage of the moment to kiss his forehead.
It's been like this since they've joined Boys 2 Planet, helping each other when the bad feelings seems so much realistic, taking care of each other dreams and fears. Oh, Haneum knows exactly when it changed and he can't help himself but being afraid of it.
Junil's eyes are still teary, his cheeks are still wet and he still looks sad while pouting as he always do. It's adorable. They're in a full silence while looking at each other as if their eyes could talk, maybe they could... Haneum feels his heart racing again, Junil is close enough to listen.
Haneum's large orbs continue to analyze Junil's face, which is now softer, less saddened, his hand gently ceasing to caress his soft hair. He focuses on caressing his cheek, silently, his thumb moving calmly in circles. Junil lets out a satisfied sigh, tilting his head slightly toward Haneum's hand.
The grip on his waist loosens as Junil feels relaxed, Haneum's upper body leans forward involuntarily because of the space that was created between them. Their faces seem close and they've been like that before, they've danced thid dance before and now is supposedly the moment when Junil retreat.
But he doesn't. He's still there looking ate Haneum with a glimpse of hope in his eyes. The bedroom was never large, but it never felt so small and hot. Is almost like they're meant to cross lines to solve the problem, and honestly, Haneum truly wants to cross that stupid line.
His hand makes its way to Junil's chin, slowly and gently, to ensure he is always aware of what is happening there. And Junil does not retreat once more, not even when his face is slightly raised upwards and Haneum approaches even closer. They can even feel each other breath.
"Jun-", Junil's index finger makes its way to Haneum's lips as he whispers a "shh.". So Haneum shuts his mouth and watches Junil finger go down, his glaze clearly loosing its way and stopping on his lips. He finally realizes he has all the permission he wants, so he goes for it, ending the suffocating space between them.
At first is weird because none of them thought that one day they'd really cross the invisible line created by themselves. The contact is insecure and soft as if they were afraid of doing so much and mess things up. Haneum is the first to pull away and open his eyes while Junil remains standing without knowing how to proceed.
But Haneum had a glimpse of what he wanted and now he wants and needs more so he goes after it once again. Without taking his hand off Junil's chin, he lowers himself until he's sitting by his side. He feels comfortable without the height difference and when he dares to ask permission to continue, Junil grabs his shirt and pulls him towards him.
Their lips meet once more, the contact is more precise, firmer, safer. Haneum can feel Junil's hands laying on his chest, he can also feel his tongue making its way through his lips, trying to invade that space. And that eventually happens when Haneum slightly open his mouth, the clash between their tongues made their bodies shiver.
Haneum's hands finally move too, the right one getting lost in Junil's hair, tugging lightly. He may have some obsession with his hair, cause he can't stop touching it anyway. The kiss goes on for too long and Haneum feels Junil leaning more and more towards him, forcing him to lean back.
His back finally touches the mattress and he can clearly feel Junil's body over his. Things keept changing and Haneum is losing all his ability of logical thinking, at this point he just forgot the cameras and everything, his left hand holding Junil's waist tightly.
Junil pulls away abruptly when he hears a noise at the door, his head hitting the frame of the top bunk. Haneum leans down to place his hand on his head and assure that everything is okay, but the confusion simply makes it look like Junil is sitting on his lap.
"Damn...", that's definitely Masato who decided to stop training earlier today. "Well, whatever...", and he starts laughing proudly with his hand resting on the doorknob. Junil finally manages to sit up in bed and Haneum turns to Masato almost awkwardly.
They're both blushing even tho Masato doesn't seem to care about whatever they were doing. Haneum watches Junil get up and run away, passing Masato who was holding his stomach after the fit of laughter.
Haneum should probably go check him and he's probably doing it later but now he knows they both need some time to assimilate what just happened. And of course, Masato and his curious and provoking smile will make sure that Haneum thinks a lot about it anyways.
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