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Sunday afternoon.
"Stop!"
"I lost the bet!"
"Stop! It hurts!"
"Its your fault, why do you exist, you ugly child!"
"Please stop! Help!"
"Be quiet!!!"
"STOOOOOOOOOP!"
midnight, after a long day, Darumi decided to rest, but her brain had other plans, she let out a blood curdling scream. Tears in her eyes, her hair messy, her body shaking, she scared, her past is still haunting her even at where she is.
"Better get out." Darumi went and putted her jacket on and went for a walk, she didn't wanted to close her eyes.
Mmmmm, maybe a walk will help out, better to use my legs intend of letting them slumber." Darumi looked at her feet, she didn't weared her long socks, only her shoes.
She was walking to the cafeteria to get some candy. She got some gummies and chocolate.
"Its punishment time! For mr gummy man the ultimate gummy!" Darumi acted like she was a headmaster announcing the culprit to his death.
Then she went to the pool to watch her face.
"*blup* *blup* *blup* *blup*" Darumi placed her face underwater and made bubbles.
Later she went to the library.
"Mmmmm wtf is this!?" Darumi was reading something but she doesn't know nothing.
After all that, tears still drooping from her eyes, she wasn't okay.
"Why?" Darumi was trembling, her arms wrapping herself, eyes closed scared.
"Get out of my head, Get out of my head, Get out of my head!!!" Darumi shouted terrified, her vision was visualizing, her father, her brothers, classmates, teachers every single person she knows wounding her.
She now was hearing their voices, "die, I hate you, its your fault, why are you here" those hate words from them.
Her breathing rapidly increasing, she started running, running from the darkness of the hall, she went the third floor and tried to go to the classroom.
She went inside to the classroom and unexpectedly found someone. She tried to cover her emotions and went back to her freak side.
"Eito?" Eito was in the classroom, Darumi questioned why he was here.
"Huh? Darumi?" Eito said surprised.
"Oh? What are you doing here? Are you planning to kill? Let me know when is my turn!" Darumi said changing to her usual self, trying to hide her sadness.
"I wish, After that attempt to kill sirei, Well let just say that I can go anywhere, but I still on the watchlist from you stupid group of freaks!" Eito said feeling nauseated.
"Kyohohoho! That's too bad, it would had being good if tried to kill me, I have alot of suggestions." Darumi commented excited.
"I would gladly hear it, but its still weird you want to die? That makes my process easy." Eito said.
"Hehe yeah, but I wonder where will I go after dying?" Darumi almost broke character, that sounded like something she would say, but that felt like she was asking it from her heart.
"I hope a place where there no monster, that way I can be at peace... but I don't think I will be there, I killed alot of people in my life." Eito commented looking outside.
Darumi was questioning, what it felt like to live like Eito, his senses toward everyone disgusted him, leading him to become this. While her whole life she felt like she was a monster for how much she was abused by everyone, the difference were cruel.
Darumi went to a chair, removed her shoes and standing on the chair while her body was curled together, feeling her barefeet cold from the surface of the chair, Questioned, comparing, thinking, thinking was not something she usually do, she wasn't thinking with her mind but with her heart.
What did Darumi wanted, what did she hoped to do here, what benefit would she give to everyone, those thoughts were running through her mind and soul.
"*sigh* is something bothering you?" Eito asked.
Darumi was thinking, what if? She proceed to walk toward Eito, not bothering to put her shoes on. Her feet feeling the cold floor while heading to Eito.
"Hey Eito, kill me." Darumi just said that while smilling.
"Huh?" Eito was both confused and surprised. "Darumi?" Eito called her name.
"You can just throw my buddy outside so I won't get revived, that way you will have a benefit of getting rid of me!" Darumi suggested. She really wanted to die, she thought Eito could do it, he hated humans, he hated everyone, he hated her.
Eito had the chance right there, he really wanted to, he could kill her and run away to plan his extermination. but why? Why was he hesitating? He hates humans! Why hesitate with Darumi!
Eito had some people he didn't mind to interact with, Takumi, Shouma and Darumi. Takumi was the one who he always wanted to bother him so much, his reaction when he provoked him, it was always funny how he gets angry. For Shouma it was how his pessimism has made him feel like someone understand their place. And for Darumi was a weird case for him, she always tries to suggest killing method for her and the others, but what made him feel comfortable with her was the time they were together and always stayed quiet, the most pleasant moments where no one was talking, not eye contant, 5 feet apart, for once he found a comforting person to be around but could he handle for longer?
That's where it leads to this question, why is he hesitating? He got the knife in his pocket, it was nightime, the perfect moment for the opportunity to start his plan! So why?
Eito looked at her, as disgusting as she looked but her eyes, her eyes looked desperated. The same eyes of desperation when he looked in the mirror everytime when he was a child. The eyes of someone asking for help, terrified, sad, a call for salvation. That's why he couldn't do it, was he feeling empathy for her? A monster!?
"Eito? Are thinking how to kill me?" Darumi said removing snapping Eito out of it. He tried to look at her, even if she looked like a monster.
"I... I won't do it." Eito refused.
"Huh?" Darumi was confused, painfully confused.
"I... I don't see any benefit from killing you." Eito said something he would never! Say.
"Bu- but... there's so much benefit from killing me! Like how you can dispose of me, not hearing my annoying remarks, not hearing my weird stuff about eroges! Not seeing my poorly body that even Gaku wouldn't even think about, or you won't ever have to... hangout with me..." Darumi explained why killing her would benefit for him but it looked like it didn't work.
"Darumi, I don't see any of this as a benefit, I don't want to kill you." Eito was confused. He was saying something ridiculous but at the moment it didn't seemed right.
Darumi stood there, looking at her feet, black toenails reflecting nothing, just darkness. She wasn't sure what happened, as she heard Eito leaving the classroom, she decided to take her shoes on and leave as well.
"Fine..." Darumi said feeling defeated.
The next day, Eito was at the Cafeteria alone, looking at all the monster around him, AKA everyone.
"So... where's Darumi?" Takemaru questioned.
"I don't know, maybe she is in her room, I heard weird noises coming from inside?" Tsubasa answered.
"Yeah... what? about yesterday? I heard something at night, did she do something?" Gaku questioned.
"Now that you think about it, yes there was a weird noises during midnight." Tsubasa commented.
"Maybe Lady Darumi went to get some midnight snack?" Kyoshika questioned.
"That seems the most logical conclusion, but I'm sure she is fine." Moko commented.
"Shouldn't we check on her? Just to make sure." Nozomi sounded worried.
"Mmmmm" Eito seemed somewhat uneasy, after what happened yesterday. That's when someone came to the Cafeteria.
"Morning, did someone already died?" Darumi greeted everyone and asked.
"No!" Gaku answered
"Noooooo, when will the killing game starts!" Darumi said looking depressed.
"We won't be getting it sooner or never." Takemaru commented.
Eito kept looking at Darumi thinking about yesterday, was she really okay?
"Eito!" Takumi shouted at him, looks like he was calling his name.
"Oh, Takumi?" Takumi, the person Eito didn't wanted to speak.
"You been staring at Darumi, you know something?" Takumi was interogated Eito.
Eito gave a big sigh and was literally tormented by Takumis lecture, Hiruko seemed to laugh at the distance proud, looks like she teached the leader how to act like one.
Is now nightime, Eito was both disgusted and tired, he was gonna go to his room, but on his way, he heard a noise inside the same classroom from the 3rd floor where he and Darumi talked yesterday.
"Darumi?" Eito went inside the classroom to check and he didn't expect to see what's inside. All the chairs, blackboard, everything was broken and messy, he then caught what it looked like Darumi hitting her head on the desk, but what bothered him was that she was smilling.
"Darumi!" Eito was worried? Why? Why bother, she is killing herself, is not his problem, so why is he running toward her and holding her together.
"Darumi stop!!!" Eito screamed.
"Why... you gonna kill me? That would save me the trouble of doing it myself." Darumi said pained smilling. Her face was bloody, her skull might be broken.
"Aargh!!! I'm tired of this!" Eito snapped, he was confused and frustrated, why did he care so much for Darumis well being. He grabbed both her shoulders and drag her near him.
"WHY! Why are you trying to kill yourself Darumi!!! What drives you to think you not worth living!!!" Eito shouted his word to Darumi.
Darumi smile slowly disappeared, she looked confused and then went to a sad face, tears starting to drop, she looked down.
"I... I just... I'm a monster aren't I? Everyone always beat me up, so why even bother to be here, doesn't that include to you too?!" Darumi said trying so hard to smile while crying.
Eito finally understood, she believe she is a monster, those helpless eyes asking for help, those same eyes that he saw in the mirror for help. He couldn't believe it, but he really cared for Darumi, a monster...
"Darumi..." Eito knew he would regret it but he went to hug Darumi, he was gonna get sick but his mind wanted to help her.
"Huh?" Darumi was surprised. She was feeling a warm comforting embrace. "Eito!? Aren't you gonna get sick?"
"I know that! I still hate the feeling... but I... I care for you Darumi, its seems ridiculous but I do!" Eito shouted.
"Eito..." Darumi just buried her face to Eitos chest and let herself to cry. Eito could hear her cry underneath her buried face, he knew he was getting sick, he could handle it. After 10 munites of crying, Darumi released Eito.
"Hey... did you meant by that you cared about me?" Darumi asked curious, her face bloody and her mask wet from all the crying and blood.
"Grrrr I hate to admit it... but yes." Eito said defeated. He couldn't believed he cared for a disgusting human.
"Then doesn't that mean that you are recovering? You know from you symptoms?" Darumi pointed out.
Eito thought what Darumi said. That was a stupid assumption. But if there's a way, maybe just maybe there's a way to recover.
"Anyway, can you?" Eito said pointing at Darumis forehead.
"Oh I'll be alright, anyway." Darumi approached toward Eito, she grabbed his arm, pulled it, made him crouch, she leaned foward and kissed his cheek.
"Huh!?" Eito was confused, disgusted and blushing?
"Hehe, try to wash it off, it wouldn't come off." Darumi said teasing as she proceed to get out of the classroom.
".........."
*BAM*
Eito pushed the desk Darumi was using to the floor.
"AAAAAAAH!!! that felt weird and gross!!!" Eito was freaky out trying to wash of the feeling on his cheek.
".......... Is this love!? Ew! How can I tolerate it? Maybe Takumi knows how to remove it, he has a love affection toward Nozomi. Maybe Nozomi can explain to me how to reject it like how she should reject Takumi!!!" Eito Screamed.
He looked at the door just to see both Takumi and Nozomi, they are probably thinking that Eito did mess the classroom.
"What the hell, Eito!" Takumi shouted flustered.
"Aaaaa?" Nozomi was both confused, concerned and blushing.
"Did you make a mess here, because..." Takumi asked.
"Because you in love?" Nozomi asked.
"KILL YOURSELF!!!" Eito screamed that.
Darumi went to the infirmary and explained what happened to Yugamu.
"Huh? A crush with Eito? That's crazy, I like it." Yugamu was excited.
"Kyohohohohoho, it was crazy! I felt like I was on a tragic romantic eroge." Darumi said excited. Maybe she wouldn't end her life yet, maybe there's something worth in pursuing.