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“There's nothing more to me… so please.. Just stop looking” That’s the last thing Jax had said to her before turning his back and walking off. Pomni had sworn she could still see his eye bags from the other side of his head. She stood there, staring, before giving him one last dejected look, and leaving the area herself.
The walk to the auditorium was long. Pomni had practically dragged her feet all the way there, and yet she still managed to make it there around the same time as everyone else. She had noticed that Jax wasn't far behind her but she just couldn't bring herself to look back at him, not yet at least. So she instead went to Ragatha, she had still wanted to talk to her anyway.
“Hey, I -- I feel like, uh–” She was stammering, skipping, like a broken record, still trying to process what she had just been through. Ragatha was lost for words too.
“I-I have something I –” she cut herself off as to hear what Pomni had to say, “oh, y-you can speak first.”
“No, you go”. she figured she might as well let her speak first so she can really think about what to say. They both looked away from each other at this, debating on what to say. “Hey umm– let’s just talk after the show.”
“Yeah that.. That sounds good.” They then began to walk to their seats, slowly, quietly, as if moving just a little faster or being a little louder would break the peace once again. They found their seats and sat down, still in that same guttural silence. The show had started, Caine was going on about the awards but Pomni couldn't focus on any of it, she was more worried about Jax after all. He had sat closet to the back of the auditorium and away from the rest of the circus members. It was only when she had finally decided to look back at him only to find that he wasn't there, he wasn't in his seat or any of the seats for that matter, it was as if he had disappeared.
She decided to go look for him at this getting up and reassuring Ragatha of where she was going.
“Hey uhh Ragatha.. I'm going to go to the bathroom for a second, ill be right back”
“Oh of course!.. wait. but we don't need to go to the bathroom though..” Ragatha tried to question her but she was already heading towards the back. Pomni had figured he would be at the bathrooms, it took her some time as it was a new map and all but she found her way there. Once she got there she first noticed just how quiet everything was, it had been quiet enough for her to hear the sound of one of the sinks running water through the heavy door.
She knocked on the door to the boys bathroom… no answer.
She tried asking if Jax was in there… no answer.
Tried to just get any form of answer from him… no answer.
The only thing she heard.. Was the heavy breathing of her f̴͉̀r̵i̶e̸n̴̎͜d̸̩̈.
“Jax if you don't say anything then I’m coming in, I need to talk to you…” no answer
Just more heavy breathing, sounding more distressed and painful with each word she spoke. The sound of something glitching could be heard through the door now.
“Jax… please…” No Answer
She finally opened the door, and the thing she saw behind it, was J̵̮̋a̸͆͜x̴̻̉… he was glitching, body just beginning to get corrupted, warped, abstracted, with prismatic eyes, swimming in a pool of black abyss. He looked scared, horrified even, of himself, of what was happening, o̵̒ͅf̶͓̃ ̵̗͝h̴͕̓ó̸̼ẅ̷̤ ̷̘̐h̷̯́ė̷̗ l̶̡̚ě̶͔t̸̥͛ ̵͙̆ḧ̸͕e̸ṟ̸̉ ̶͈̀ṣ̷̚e̸̤̊e̵̦͘ ̶̝̒h̷̞͗ì̴̤m̴̸̰͎̒̉ li̸͚̍k̶̙͌e̵̻̿ ̸̺̑t̵̬̏h̵̛̫i̵̮̚s̴̀͜.. Pomni went to try and calm him down, to help him, to save him. But he had pushed her away again.
Like last time.. Like always.
“n̶̰̬͍͈͔̔̅͌̈́̿͑̕͝o̴̠͗̈́͂͆̈́͋̒͜… ̶̝͇̳̞͔̀Ņ̸̢̟̋͛̔̇̈́̀̕o̷̩̐͋͌̓̅̒̊̚.. ̵̨̼͖̟̜̞͔̓̀̚N̷͎̂O̶̡̊͑̆̓̽̈́͘͜ ̴̛̲̙̝̘͗̈́̔̎̈́Ş̷͇̃̂T̶̡̤̟͒̀͂̋͠͝O̶̢̢̢͓̹̺͉͛̏̄̃P̵̧͙͇̻͘,̸̮̻͚͕͔̏̅̌͐̒̃͝! ̸͍̟̻̬͌̽̔̆̏͑ͅW̴̧͓̝͇̓̏͐̋̇̋͐͜͝Ḩ̶͖̝̈́͗͗̏Y̵̞̼̠̊̂̓̽̍́̽̚ ̵̹͊̕͘A̴̢̬̮̞̍̋͆̈́͋̋̈́̚Ṛ̴̰̔̌͝͝E̴̲̩͐͒̓ ̴͍̖̄̿̑̑Y̶̤͖̬̮͙͇̿̆̿O̶͙̝̠͙̣̙̓̈U̸͉̜̘̲̳̬͎̇̒͜ ̵̰̺̎̒͌ͅH̴̼̜͔́͆̈́̂E̷͔͎͚̬̘͖̫̔̒͋̽R̷̦̱̞͎̳̹͇͐̏͛̋E̴̡̘̥̞͛̆̈́ ̷͓̉̾͊̒͂̌͛͝P̵̡̡͚̺̀̈́͝Ö̸̟͚͍͙́́̐͒M̷̛̤̫͇͉̮̊͛̆̍͒N̵̢͈̩̳̈́͑́̚I̸̢̛̲̙̭̠̊̀̏͝,̶̡̤̱̉̆̋̃͗̃ ̸̛̰̊́̎̉͛Y̶̭̻͌̆̊̋̈́̃́͘O̴͚͓͕̜̹̙̝͓͋̓͂̈́͐͘̚-̷̣͕̠̦̥͗̉̒̔̈́͘͜ ̵̛̺̣̹̞͈͕̫́͛̍Ỷ̶͙̣̟̲̙͓͎̩̂O̸̼̓̏́̀̑̊͛Ů̵̬̹͈͔̈̓ ̴̢̲̹͓͇͈̪̪̍͛̀̓̈̆Ṣ̴̤͎̘̺̗̲͌͊̔̓̋̿̈͘H̶̡̺͖́̈́̒̅̑̈́̿O̴̤̥̫͍͐̀U̷̪͖͓̤͑̈́͌L̷̢̛͕͙̝̈͒͗̂̍͝D̷͇̻̤͕̑̈́̓̌͌̓̐͝Ȩ̴͈̲̠͕͐̐̈͒͐Ñ̷͉̼̊́́̒̈́̈́̃T̷̢̼͕͖̯̲̽̇͌̚͜͝ ̶̖̰͚̣̻̖̜̀̽ͅS̸̛̛̖̪̮̭̺̱͖̣̀̀̀̈̕É̶̻̺͙̟͒̍̚E̸̠̤͇͊̀͐̚ ̴̗̦͙̣̅̾ͅT̸̥̯̝͐̃̾͋̊H̴̛͙̣͓̺̗͇̗̫͋͑̃Î̷̧͚͕͂͌̋́̒̕͝S̸̳͖̠̙̮̪̪͗̊̈̄,̶̹͇̣̘̼̌ ̵̗̻̳̹͈̻͊͘͝Ÿ̷̤̲̼̬͙́́̈́̄͛͊̓͘Ơ̴̥̤̖̙͍̹͌̽͝Ŭ̸͓̘̮̓̈̚ ̸̱̮̠̰̍͒̊͜S̸̩͖͕̻̜̻̥̩͛H̴̡̲͍̲̮͇̞̖̆̔Ơ̷̘̦̭͓̤͈̍͑U̷͕̗̝̦̥̩̰̳̇̆̔͋͝L̵̜̽͌́̍͋͌̏ͅD̵̮͔͕̮̙͠N̴͈̄̚'̸̭̭̰͓͙̭̔̒̚ͅT̵̜̘̥̰̃͛̿̐̽ ̷̫̮̙̰̭̙̫̥͑͊B̷͇̦̣̽̃͋͜͠E̸͚͒ ̶̦͙̘͕̪͗̓̇̇̽̏̿H̶̰̤͋̊͗̃̐͒͋͝Ḙ̸̠͑R̵͎̂͋́̃̕Ȩ̷̞͚̞̻̀̌͌́̽!”
His words glitched and skewed by the almost molten sludge taking over his body, his mind.
“I'M HERE BECAUSE OF YOU JAX, BECAUSE OF THIS, I- I MEAN LOOK AT YOURSELF!” Pomni kept trying to reach out, to reach him, but he kept pushing… And pushing.. And pushing her away…. the same as everyone, and everything else.
“w̸̧̲̱̟͂͆̋͋̚h̷̬̬͓̍y̸̹̩͔͓̣͂̓̆̃̌͋.̵̨̛̦̘̎̒.̴̩͚͈̬̈ ̷̗̃̎̔W̷̖̼̱͂͆H̸̛͙̉Ȳ̸̧̫̬̺͇͆.̴͇̣̟̤͒̌̑͊͌͊ ̸̦͋͋͆̍́̾W̴̠̫͎̖͋͗̉̿Ḩ̸̳̥̫͛́̇Y̶̼̰̫͒͐͛̈͒̕ ̵̢͚͂Ḑ̷̭̗͔̎̉ͅÖ̶̞̱̺́̔̇͒͂̚ ̶͓͍̭͑̐Y̵͔͋Ơ̴͚̗̼̯̎̅̿͛̍ͅǗ̸̩̐̑̇ ̷̨̙͈̇ͅͅC̸̥̽̄̃̀̇͝A̴͓͗͆̃͐̎̚Ȑ̴͎̪̫͉̂̋̽̅͋E̷͕̭̪͐̄̎͗!̷͚̯̺͔͊̊͛̅ ̷͕̂̃͋ͅW̸̞̹͓͛ͅH̷̭̣͕̘̬̓͒̕͝ͅY̴̙͝ ̸̫̳̱̥̺̀͗̔͊͑̑D̴̡͙̣̫͉̉̎̇͝ͅO̵͉̤͎͑̎͜͝ ̸̜̮͈̄Y̵̧͉̻̯̑͗̂O̸̅͜U̷͓͙͛̓̀̆̾̕ ̸̤͉̻̪̔̄̆K̷̨͕̥̬̀͐͋̕Ë̶̩̖́̅̌̎̾E̷̡̝̹̱̼̜͂P̶̢̻̮̝̝͈̑̄̈́͝ ̶̤̥͉̊͑̓̑͆P̴̺͈̘̕̕U̵̢̳͙͔̍̊͝Ș̷̊H̵̱̼͎͝I̵͚̬͕͖̠̞̒̋̄͠Ń̶̗͝G̶͍̋̉̓͝ ̷̧̩̙͚͆̽̅A̴̩͌́̍̓Ṋ̶̢̗̠͓̬̔̚D̴͙̈̈́̓͛̃͝ ̴͔͉̋̀̓̌̚P̶̠̣͑Û̸̳̪̦̟͓S̸͎͗̆͘H̸̢͒̀͋̌Ï̸̛̱̲̥̟͎Ǹ̸̪̰͇̇͒͌͘G̶̼̻͚̍̈́ ̷̞̻͂̆̔̏̾T̴̢̬̤̊̾O̸̢̰̓̈́͑̕͝ ̶͎͍̳̮͓͝T̴̥͈̙̪̤̒R̶̩̘̼̀̊̾̃̾͘Y̵͙̥̦̦̿͒͐͜͠͠ ̶̩̤̰̆̍͂ͅA̸̡̬̭͎͖͒̐̆͒͝ͅṈ̶̀͂̃͝Ḍ̴̢̅̋͊̾̕ ̶̹̓̓̑͊̈́G̷̢̻̗̬̪̖̈Ḙ̸͕̱̏T̸̨̺͔̲͊̌̅̓͘͝ ̶̪̫̃̀̇́T̶̡̩̍̽̈́͝O̷̞̞͇͚̓͑̚̚͠ ̶͔͓̣̝͆̊̑́͒͝Ḵ̴͍̿͛͠N̴̼̬̘̱̝͊͌̌͐̚͠O̷̼̪̿̌́̀͐W̸̙̘̠̓̓̄̐͊ ̶̢̺̃͋S̴̹̃O̶͓̟̊̎̓͛̕M̸͉̳̼̗͗T̴̪͉̦̗͆͆͆͗̕͠H̶̨͙̞͂̇͐̄̎͘I̶̢̡̨̗̻̩̊̆̈́̓̿̒N̶̯͈͔̫͛̒̌̎̊͠G̸̞̜̰͚̭̠̈́̑̄̈́̉....̶̨̞̒̋͑͌̌̕.̸̙̋ ̵̡̪̟̜̈́Ṱ̵̠̻̌̏̑̊͝Ǫ̶̬̺̹͒̍͆̓́̕ ̴̧̧̣͇͚͊̃̍͜Ţ̵̢͍̯̖̍͋̀͝Ŕ̶̦̫̫̤͉Y̴̘̰͛̀̒̆ ̴͎͂̇͠A̷̡̘̮͙̐͗̍͊͒͘N̵̳̫̥͉̹̿͊͜͠D̴̡̬̫̞̋ ̸̩̜̅͌͝Ŕ̷̼́͗͑̐̐Ȩ̵̳̹͛͒A̴̘̒̆C̷̤͔̱̓̎̆̐̈́͠H̶̱̋̽͑̒ ̸͇̦͇̤̫̘́͌̋̓͑S̶͇͉̜̍̏͆͌̐͜O̴̭̾̿̈̑͒M̴̺̙̦̻͎̍̀̑̓̾ͅE̶̜̖̜̝̼͊́̊́̈͝T̵͎̗͎̙̆̓̉͒̕̚H̶̢̨̞͕͔̩̾͑̾͐͝I̶̺̹̦̾͝N̷̫̖̄̀̀̈Ğ̶̺ ̷̮̟̞̈́͒̉̌̔T̴̢̘̯̹͐H̷̻̜̺͕̏̃Ȃ̴͓̝̩͉̏T̸̲̘̥̈́͜ ̵̞̩̗̦̲͒͜D̴̘̟̤̱̍Ô̸͔͎̖̮̭Ę̷̛̫̣̙̋͠S̷̮͆͑̾͠͝N̴̩͈̮̻͙̺͌͌́̈́Ţ̸̛̬̜̈̂̈́ ̵̬̰͔̂E̸̝͒̔̌̈̎͝X̷̡͖͈̅̃̋̑͒Ȉ̴͕̯̲̼͎̏̇͐́S̵͔̬͈̬̆́͑́̎̕Ṭ̷͎̈́̓!̶̥̋̍̏
He was getting louder, angrier, more panicked. As if one more step, one more word could finish his abstraction into madness right there.
“BECAUSE THAT'S NOT TRUE, I KNOW ITS NOT–” she couldn't finish her sentence.
“H̷͍͎̠̳̻̳͖̉͋̈́͘ͅO̴̡͔̫͔̹̹̻̞͙̅̽̈́͛̈́W̸̭͙̟̙̬̠͇̿̈́̇̑̚!̴̡̯̼̙̘̒͒͌̐̿͆ ̸͔͋̆͋̾̈́̕̕Ĥ̴̛͕͕̫̦̦̮̉̅͋͘͘͝O̶͖͎̻̳̳͔͒͂͆̿̄͛̚͠W̶̧̨̱̯̲̗͖̊̀͑͊̿̀̐̚͠͝ ̸̠͍̼̳̰͎̪̀̎͋̈́̾̑̈́̚͝D̶̡̦̭͒̓̓̿̏̚ͅO̸̖͇̐̅̐̀̅̋̕̕ͅ ̶̜͔̻͎̩̟͍̓̀̑̈̒̔͐Y̸̨̘̝͉͊̂̕͜͝ͅͅȎ̴̺Ṵ̴̲͔̘̆̍̈́̾̚̕̚ ̶͙̪͇̖̪̜̤́͑͗̈́̌K̶̨͖̣͖̙͋̓͌̃̈́͋͝N̸̥͎̟̝̮̦̘͖̩͇̂̚O̵̡͖̰͆̈́̊͘Ŵ̶̨̢͖̲̦̝̣̟̄̈́̾̄͘̚ ̸̰̠̞̤̪̜͆̾̍̊̅Į̵̳̖̗͕͙͇̣̳̀͜T̷̡͎͈̖̿͌͋̀́̈͘̕Ŝ̵̛̙̟̔ ̶̰͓͚̥̙̮͎̓͑͗̿̌͝N̴̡̠̭̦̘͖̦͚̰̓͋̋̅̈́̈̑͘͠Ó̷̧͓̰̲̱͍͖͚͉̃̄̐̍̉T̴͕͛̕ ̶̛͉͇̞̈́̇̿͌̈́͝͠T̴͚̹̭̭̗͈̜͛͑̾̓̂̍̅̈́͆̌R̷̨̻͙̗̙̭͗̍̅͐̉̅͊̄͘̚Ù̷͓͔͉̣͠E̵̢̪̘̮̭͈̊̾̍̍̀́̑̋͒!̵̡̭͈͎̟̗͔͊̍̀̊͛͜͝ ̵͔̿͝H̶̺͎̞̟̳͎̼̏̌̋̇́Ǒ̷̡̧̓͝Ẁ̴̡̗̙̬̭̣̂̓̍̈͛̂̑̐͠ ̶̢̢̨̛̼͉̻͎͚̹͕͐́̈́D̸̹̜̳̑́̑͊̽̅Ő̶̯͚̠̠̭̮͜͠ ̵̠͙̉̑͛͐̈Y̸̙̐͊ͅÕ̶̡̢͎̙̗̜̒͝U̷̧͉͚͙̞̱̟͎̐͘͝ ̵̮͇̆́̃̕K̸̦͔̭̅͐͊̆́̍̆͘͝N̶̡̟̣̰̪͎̝͓̗̫͗͒̐̀̿̈̐͐Ǒ̷̧̺̠̥͇̪̔̍̈́W̶͈̪̫̤̫̗̯͎͚͋̈̓̋͐̏̒̕͘͜ ̴̥͆̂̇̎͒͌͝͝Ỉ̸̡̢̫̥͈̰̯̳̼͖͂͆͆̊͌̋̉́̎ ̶̡̧̠̖̭̥̯̳̯͚̊̄̽͒͛͠Ḩ̷̥͕͈͓͊A̶̠̞͑̏V̶̡̬̲͙́͊̿N̴̠̳͎̠̦̘̳͔̮̽͑̅̄͜T̴̡̞̤̤̞͙͓͓̙̬̿̃͗̎͐͒̔͝͠ ̶͚̍̇̃̏̏̑̓̀̕J̸̼̣̗̦̻̞̜͖̔͗̈́͊̂̚̕͠U̵̡̙͓̼̥̮̱̫̓̐͛ͅͅŜ̸̢̜̱͍͚̬̳̱̈́͜ͅT̸̘̟̄̇͗̎́͛ ̷̻̙̫̫̘̋͒̍͘̕͝Ḅ̸̘͍̊̓̅͗̃Ė̷̻̦͔̠̚É̶͇͇͇͙͛́͆͐̂́̚̚͝Ń̸̡̼̥͗ͅ ̴̧̯̰̩̞̪͆̈̂̋́͠L̵̜̹͌̒̎͂̅̏̅̚̚͝Ỵ̵͆I̶͖̠͎͔̮̟̺̖̔N̵̦͕̱̹̓̃̓̈́G̴̡͔̞͉̺͗̾̀̐̏͂̅͘̕ ̵̼̮͕̤̽̅͊͜T̷͈̓̓Õ̵̢̰̯̙̲͙̪͌̈́͒͆͋̃̓̾̚ ̴̮̣͖̂̑̽͑̔͛͂̄̋̚Y̶̛͚̟̞̙̣͒̎́̽̿̏̃͌̚O̶̹̲̩̭̱̦̝̗̾̄̉͜U̵̫͇͖̱̣͇͌́̌̏͜ ̴̧̝̣̳̰̝̭̘̋͆̀̔̚Ţ̴͇̥̗̼̪͚̭̞͙̀̃͂͐͗H̶̝̭̾̓͊͊̏̚É̷̦̬͊̈́̎́͋̇̃͛͐͜ ̵̗͓͙̫̩̯̭̈́̔̔͗Ş̸̺̘̯̣̻͇͑̈̚͝͝ͅͅA̷̟̝̲͗́̓̈́̅̀́̂̿͠M̶͉̘͔̻̜͔̈́̑͌̽͆̿̔̈́͊͘E̷̡̻̣̩̓ ̵̪̀̒̑́̔̈́̓̊͘A̷̞̠͇̗̾̍̕S̶̳̝̔ ̸͍̭̮͔̊͗̏ͅĘ̷͉͕̯̲̫̤̼̦͈͑̅̐̋̃͆̾V̵̢̱̮̪̣̘͍̞̪̈́̿͒͜Ē̴͈̙̙͙̾̈́̀̽͝R̵̺͔͙̰̟̝̬͚͚̆̃̐̅̋ͅY̶̢͈̗̹͔̓͋̃ ̸̢̯͓̎̐̂͘͝Ò̷͓̟̭͈̤̼͗͝N̸͍͎̬̭̝͌Ē̶̢̖̘̥̱̤̗̱͔͑̌ ̴̺̼̪̰̍͊̃́̚͘͝E̸̡̡̧͚̠͕̲͚͉̍̊́̿͊̄̾͝L̷͈̝͔͈̪̇̌̀S̵̰̱̃͐̔̍̍̏̆ͅE̸̬̦̮̱̱̝͓̩̳̎̐̓͜͠ ̷̡̤̪̭͈̳̫̓̾͊̓́͘͠I̸̡̯̣̠̰͗́̐̐͑̑̇̏̏Ṋ̵͖̥̤̜̓̀̅̄̑͑͑͑ ̷̝̬̮̐̂̀ͅT̶̗̣̜̜̖̭͛͐͜Ḩ̸̝̫̘͕̪̫̭̀͌̏́͘͝I̸͉͎̙̮̱̮̼̋̆̐ͅS̸̛̻̱̘̙̙̼͔̯̈́́̃̈̆͝ͅ ̵̭̐̈́͝͝@̴͕͇̞̼͕̦̲͎̝͂͆̒̏̈#̵̢̪͇̠̲̙̥̇́͂̅͑̈́͌̚͜͜͠%̸͓̙̰̍͊̅͋̾͆̀͌͘$̴̗̮̦̻̅̽͛͆̈͝͝&̴̡̡̢̨̼̺̼̲́͑̈́̈́͜*̵̢̼̼̹͕̺̩̺͗ ̸̝͙̬͍̞̗̜̣̟̇͂̏Ċ̵̠̞̫̮I̶̢̟͎̣̥̭͍͐̒́Ŗ̴̮̫̳̼̰̭͍̲̿̆͘C̸̨͉̣̣̜̜̱̩͔̓̓͜Ű̶̺̗̠͓̘̺͎̇S̵̡̢̩͕̺̖̤͓̯̽̔͂̏̑̀̃͜ ̷̛͇̪̱͕͇͚̞͈̪̈́́̾̂͒͊̉P̵̼̹̽͛̔̊̋́̕̚ͅÒ̶̢̰͇̏̅̔͑̾͛̾͠ͅM̷̛͉̙̰͕͚̫̯̪͖̈̽̐̂͆̈͘N̸͕̖̝̰̐̒͒͘Ị̶̡̹̄̐!̶̧̹̗͂̋́͝”
Jax had cut her off, just like how he has been trying to cut off everyone else. The void of multicolored eyes growing as he spoke. It was getting harder to understand him, but Pomni tried to speak again anyway.
“BECAUSE I– because I know, that all that time we spent together couldn't have been fake,” she was crying now, the tears pricking at her eyes making it harder to speak, harder to see him.
“H̶̘͈̭̾́̍͒͜͜͝O̶̢̡̻̣̳̙͎̭̩͙͋́̃̔̒̈́͝͠ͅW̵̢̛̛̛̳̱̝̗͍̳͈̼͇̑̒̂̀̈́̆͋̓͜͜͝!̵͎̻̗̠͆̀͑̿̉̑̌͘”
“Because if it was, would you really have told me all that stuff…” she paused, “would you have twirled me around and sang daisy bell with me at Zooble's door. Would you have let me hug you at all?”
“T̶̡̢̧͖̙̝̭̠̼̟̼̠̉̾̇͋͆̅̒̈́́̈́͛̚͜H̶̞̰̰̫́̐͗̆͛̏̀̃̽̐͗̆̎͐̽̔͘A̷̡͉͍̪̤͕̹̝͕̺̍̔́̍̽̎͛̆̋T̴̢̛̪͖̮̞̼̬͇̻͉͓̬̈͂̓̌͒̓́̉́̇̂̄̕͝ ̵̨̡̱̹͈̜̞̜̞̝̱͍̘̤͇̻͆̂Ḑ̵̳̞͈͔̘̩̦̝̘̝̗͗͊̽̄̉̇͗̄̇̚͝Ǒ̷͖̟͎͓͗̽É̴̜̞͓̻̖̤̟͈̽ͅS̸͇̟͖̙̽̌̌͝N̸̮͔̩̩͉̼͂̀̈́̇͆̋̇́ͅ'̷̗̦̲̭̤̩̕͜͜T̸̤̹̳̟͓̞̃̓͐̈͊̒̇̐̈́̿͛̄͝͠ ̸͓͖̬͈̼̫̳̩͙̹͇̫̩͔͈̤̄̓́͋̔M̶͎̆͋̃̀͋̔̐̈́͑́̀͝E̴̛̳̦̙̮̳͋͐͂̿͋̈́̍̽͌̆͘͜͠Å̶͔̼͔͔̻̣̗̺͖̖̗̰̖̳̟̩͛̋̌͐͗̀̌̕̚̕̚͜͝N̷̳͚̥͂̿̐͆̉ ̶̧̛̛̘͍͇̙͙̝̘̟̗̲͓̐̈́́̌̑̄͛̔̚͘͠͝ͅA̴̪̥̬̫̜͖͈͚̯̞̯̩̖̘̲̱͈͊̐̏̑̃̄͝N̵͈̬̼̘̫̙̯̠̼̲̹̱̯̬̹͔͙̏̋̆Y̸̧̨͇̥͔̺͙̣͉̼̞̺͖̎͊̎̔̓̀̀͊̈́̄̚̕T̸̡̰̾̏͋̈́͒͋̓̃͆̿̇̉̐͘̚Ḥ̵̢̢̲͋͑̀͠͠͠I̷͔̝̳̳̬̱̪̰͍̫̭̍̂̐͒̑͐͐̊-̷̢̘̘͉̀̾̒̑̋̈́̅̕-̶̛̛̻́̍͒́̅̍̄͘͠͝”
“YES IT DOES JAX, BECAUSE IF YOU DIDN'T CARE ABOUT ME THEN THIS WOULDN’T BE HAPPENING! YOU WOULD HAVE PLAYED PRANKS ON ME LIKE EVERYONE ELSE!”
“Y̵̥̘̤͇̼̘͇̆̔̀̈̌̇͛́̚Ē̷͉̣̦̜͇̞̝̣̻̊́̽̄̎̃͒̂̑̕͝Ṡ̵̬͎͇͌̾̇̆̔̔̄̈́̿̌͆̌ ̷͎̠͉̓̌̇̂́͒͐̐͝͠Í̶̬͚͇̻͚͇̪͒̂͒̏̓̀̌̂̒̚͜͝ ̶̧͖̦͚̱͔͙̝̺̬̹͆̎̅̋̌̽̾͜͝ͅͅŴ̷̢̛̘̪̮̱̺̼̻͕̩̯̟̯̮̈͋͌͂͒̈͝Ơ̷̛̯̯̫̟̙̖̏̇͋̾̃̈͊̄͗͛͋͂Ů̷̢̦̺͉͎͇͚͐̋̈́̇̃̄̆͌͗͛̃L̶̛̼̩̦͉̦͍̟̤̲͚̅-̵͚̬̝̅͑͆͆̉̍̀͝͝-̴̛̪̤͎̞̞͙̻̟̗̳͈̯̩̓̏͛́̈͑͛̐̌̍̓͠”
“IF YOU DIDN'T CARE THEN YOU WOULDN’T BE ON THE VERGE OF ABSTRACTING RIGHT NOW!” she was getting louder again, maybe being louder than him would actually get it through his head to stop all this.
“w̸͎̓͐̕h̴̨͓͉̎͘a̵̩͙̒-̵͉͝-̷̲̫̝̃̀͠ ̵̗̈́̂́Ȋ̸̡̾”
“I know you care, Jax, so please, why, WHY DO YOU KEEP TRYING TO PUSH ME AWAY!?---”
“Ḇ̵͎̋Ȩ̴͉̺͈̤̲̘̋̇̐̉̂Č̸̳̩̻̗̖͈̔͂̓͛͝Ả̵͖̭̰͙̖̎͊̔̅Ǔ̶̼̿̈́͆̿̋S̴͇͂͐̏̀̐̓E̶̻̮̋̓̇͛ ̸̣̔̒͋̓͠I̸̛̯̣̾̈̈́͐ ̷͖͖̣̝̥̬͖̊͌͜L̵̥͙̠̲̳̺̐͜͜Ö̵͔̝͕͍́͋͑͌̂V̵̨̱̫̦̪͕̻͗̒͜E̵̢̜͈̗̣̠̤̕ ̸̡̮̠̝͓̰̄͑̋͛͝Y̴̢̦̮̖̺̯͖̠̓Ŏ̷̩̯̞͕U̴̢̻͇̪͎̹͒̀̍͑̅̽̂ ̷̧͉̲̠̏͆̈́̈́͝Á̴̡͉̝͗͑̒͛N̵̰̩͓̫̳̞͗̚D̸̘̤̤̣̠̻͌̾̓̄̽̾͘ ̸̯̻̗̉̌̏Ḯ̸͖̃̎́͊̕ ̷̲̙͎͜͝D̴̹̈́̿̽̈́Ò̵̫N̴̥͍̈̇ͅT̶̩̠̦̜͓̩̒̎̊̀̓ ̶̥̻̞́̔͊̚͝W̸̡̨͈͖̓̌͂͛̇͗͛̎A̸̰͎͓͎̖̥͌͗̍̀̽͛͘N̸̛̛͙͋̒̄̿͆T̶̢͇̮̣͙̪̗̚ ̸̥͍͓̦̱̙̃͐̊T̸͎͔̼̤͇̗̱̿̓̇̀͘̚ͅÒ̴̥̈̄̆̏̾̀͘ ̵̖̘̗̜̗̟͌̇͐̿͛̓̾H̶̨̜̝͑͂͌̍̓U̴̧͖̻̹̤̳̬̱͐̈́̑̔̎̈́̄̕R̵͖̰̱̄̔̈́̈̇̿͘T̶̗̄̐́́̀̒͌͝ ̵̢̠̬̣͈̤͆̉͂͗͌̅͊Y̴̛̗̒͗̓̄͘͝͝O̶̦̽̉Ư̴̢̫̼̹̟͆̇̏̄͝ ̸̱̪̙̈́͋͑̄̈́͂͋̕A̸̫̺͕͛͗̀͘L̸͓͈̘̤͔̣͌̌͝R̴̨̯̗̭̻̖͚̹̈́İ̴̲̪͕̣̹̄G̴̠̝͎̜̘͓̼̽͜H̷͙̬̮̗̝̍̄̀̌̈̎̓T̷͚̖̼̼̠̯̬͔̃̈̈̓̕!̶̺̜͈̅͌͌̊̃̀̚̕͜-̴̛̼͓͉͕̀͘͜-̸̭̟̳̋͋̈͐͝
He stopped. His silence after was quiet enough to hear a pin drop, as tears began to well in his eyes.
“Ȉ̶̡͚-̴͕̩̐̋-̷͎̔̈́ ̶̧̜̆Ĭ̷̻̈́͠ ̷̮͖̝́͝d̴̡͕̒͘i̸̗̱͑d̸̢̩͊̕ń̵͇̐̇'̴͉̬̂̀ṫ̴̻̌-̵̼͓̮̌͆ ̴̘̗̍̽̈İ̶̝̉̕ ̷͓̙̈w̴͇̋̃͊͜à̵͎̫̖s̶̘͍̏ṇ̵̛͝'̸̫̈́͋t̴͕͐̀̌-̴̞͔͔̃͌̓-̶̲̯͊̑ ̴̢̙̼̃̔r̸̖̈̔ë̶̱́a̵̘͂̓͛d̵̝̥͇͆̈y̶̭̥̏̓͝ ̷̧̬̅t̸̺͌̀͠ö̴̖̀͝-̷̧̢̄-̶̼̳̱͗͝-̶̖̐̚”
But he had already said it, told her it, confessed to it. And he could never go back, and yet, his abstracting was slowing, but yet his mind was racing even more than before, and then, what Pomni said next had stopped it entirely.
“Well you know what Jax? I fell in love with you too”
“W̸̦̒ȟ̶̩y̵̙̕-̷̲̔”...
“Heh.. Yeah.. it probably does sound pretty stupid huh. I fell for a purple bunny who’s been nothing but an @&%hole to me the entire time I've been here,” Pomni thought for a moment before continuing, "I fell for the person who laughs at me, mocked me, who threw me out of a moving truck, because you know what, I know that the man I fell in love with would never truly want to hurt me.” She had moved over and hugged Jax, and he didn't even notice until she stopped speaking, but he didn't push her away this time, he simply just stood there.
He wasn't abstracting any more. “How do i know you wont leave me like the rest of them though..” But he was still scared.
“Because I still have an exit to find, and once I find it I'm bringing you, and every one else here with me.” Pomni was sure of this, it was one of the few things she was sure of at all in this circus. To this, Jax had collapsed, catching Pomni, and hugging her, hugging her tighter than he had hugged anyone before.
“I'm sorry– I'm so @#&*$%! sorry Pomni.” He was fully crying now, tears rolling down his face and onto Pomni’s head.
The only thing on Pomni's mind now was to comfort him. “It’s ok Jax, I'm here. You can tell me anything you want to, so please, just calm down.” Jax was practically just holding Pomni to him at this point, but she didn't mind, and simply continued hugging him back. As if the end of their embrace would be the end of anything good they had going on. Pomni had stopped crying by this point but her newfound lover above her was still crying quite a bit.
“So, does this mean we’re together now?” Pomni was only half joking with this.
“Wha, I- I guess- wait but what about the rest of the group?” Jax had finally started to calm down and think properly after her remark.
“What about them?”
“Wouldn't they– you know- not really approve of this.. I mean I don't really want to mess up your relationship with them, I- I've already made you miserable enough haven't I?” Thinking about how he's treated the person who's being so nice to him right now nearly made him cry again.
“Yeah they would probably be pretty concerned at first but I'm sure that wouldn't mind, and if you're really unsure then they just don't have to know. I won't tell them if you want me to.” Pomni didn't mind if the others knew or not, she didn't really think it mattered much anyway. After this they just sat in silence for a while, still holding each other on the bathroom floor.
“We should probably head back now huh.” Jax had fully calmed down now and realized they had probably been there a while.
“Yeah probably.” At this they began to head back to the auditorium. They were holding each other's hand for most of the way back but they stopped once they were in view of everyone else, and this time they both sat back with the rest of the group.
Ragatha seemed to be relieved that Pomni had finally returned. “Oh hey, You're back!-- and you brought Jax with you?”
Jax had stayed silent and just sat next to Pomni while she spoke to Ragatha. “Oh yeah, sorry for taking so long, I got pretty lost on the way and Jax just happened to be up at the same time as me so I invited him to sit with us.” It wasn't entirely a lie.
“Oh well alright? We should probably quiet down now though, Caines’ going to start announcing who won the favorite character awards!” Ragatha had seemed pretty excited by this so Pomni went along with it.
“Will do!” and with that, the ceremony had continued on as if nothing had happened, the only thing different was that this time Pomni and Jax were closer now, both physically and emotionally.