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"What are you doing here?"

Fourth’s voice is prominent with bafflement and genuine surprise, as to see Gemini Norawit first thing on Christmas morning really isn’t a part of his wishlist for Christmas. Well not this year at least, or the past few years either, seeing that he actually used to ask Santa for Gemini to be his husband when he was fourteen. But that was ten years ago, the embarrassing things he did at that age resulted in him getting kicked out of his hometown by his own parents, and Gemini’s name has long been whited out from his Christmas wishlist ever since. So this really feels like something from a fever dream for him to see the Gemini Norawit in his house.

The man in question, the man behind the reason for the crease in between Fourth’s brows, on the other hand, only flashed him an innocent smile the moment he saw Fourth coming down from the stairs. While Fourth is having the shock of his life, Gemini on the contrary, is smiling as if the sight of Fourth enlightened his whole world.

Fourth’s dark brown eyes locked with Gemini’s honey-brown ones with confusion, he watched as Gemini promptly got up from the sofa he was sitting on, and walked up to him the next moment, to which Fourth instinctively took a few steps back the second Gemini stepped closer. Confusion continued to fill him in, bewildered to see someone from his hometown coming to see him here at Krung Thep. Not even his family had ever come, what more for that someone to be Gemini Norawit, the very reason he had to leave Sakon Nakhon in the first place ten years ago.

Because of his sister’s wedding (which he had to bail at the last minute) that took place a few weeks ago, he might have got to meet Gemini for the first time in ten years, but he doesn’t think their short meeting from back then was memorable enough for Gemini to see him as someone important, for him to go through such a length to come see him here. Well, obviously central Thailand and Isan are not close after all. So he wonders, what is Gemini doing here?

"Well, let’s just say there’s a new column in the newspaper," Gemini started. His reply only raised the confusion inside Fourth, far from clearing it up. Even with Fourth taking a few steps back to show his defensiveness, Gemini still kept on walking up to him boldly, managing to get him cornered against the bottom of the stairs in no time. Fourth’s back pressed up against the stair rail, he had to stop walking back immediately or else he would trip over the stairs soon.

"What?" Fourth muttered in response, confused. His brows furrowed heavily when he saw Gemini’s smile get wider, and his warm hand making contact with Fourth’s cheek.

"The Chronicles of Fourth Nattawat’s Stalker," Gemini continued, grinning as he brushed his knuckle over Fourth’s soft cheek. The light brush made the spot where their skin touched tingles with warm fuzziness, sending heat all over Fourth’s face, he felt his cheeks getting hot at the touch he least expected from the man in front of him.

He didn’t remember Gemini being this touchy before—Or to be fair, he never really got to know Gemini personally either actually. Other than being known as the most handsome boy in town, and the only son of Titicharoenrak; the richest family in Sakon Nakhon, Fourth realizes now that he never really knows who Gemini is as a person other than the seventeen-year-old boy he used to be extremely obsessed with back then. Fourth was young after all, and kids are always known to love pretty things, so Gemini just happened to be the victim of his obsession at the time. As much as Fourth would like to defend himself, saying that he was just a kid, he had to be honest what he did towards Gemini back then really was something. If he was Gemini, he doesn’t think he would forgive himself.

Fourth’s brows furrowed even further. Is Gemini making fun of him? He thought, confused as to why Gemini is saying that. New column? Fourth Nattawat’s stalker? He has a stalker? Who?

“Who?” Fourth decided to voice that out of his tangled mind, then he heard Gemini chuckled.

“I searched everywhere for you, Fourth,” Gemini replied, the charming grin still playing on his lips, it almost melted Fourth’s heart before he immediately caught himself from swooning. Focus Fourth! You’re not supposed to fall for this man again!—Is what he’s trying to tell himself, but as Gemini’s words finally sank in, he finally understood what Gemini was trying to say. The column he mentioned, the stalker is no other than him—Gemini is his stalker, and that’s why he’s here even when Fourth never told him where he lived when Gemini asked him previously then.

But why? Why is Gemini his stalker now? Fourth only brought him nothing but trouble through their teenage years, and it has been a full ten years since then. They only met momentarily after those years, and even that ended terribly with his mother fuming at the sight of him with the boy whom he ruined his life with. What made Gemini—the victim of his obsession, ‘obsess’ with him now in turn? The more Fourth tries to think of any logical reasoning, only the more confused he gets. He wonders if all this is just a part of a dream, perhaps he still hasn’t woken up from his bed yet. He spent the entire night before baking for Christmas after all.

“Do you mind if we have a morning coffee together?” Gemini asked, Fourth blinked dumbly. He even turned to look at his aunt, making sure if he wasn’t mishearing things, and when he saw the excitement in his aunt’s eyes, it’s obvious that none of this is a dream, Gemini is actually here in flesh to see him, and his aunt is more than excited to see the sight of Gemini with him at this moment. Aunt Amara has always been nosey about his love life after all.

Fourth doesn’t know what made him agree to the invitation, but the next thing he knew, he’s already seated in the passenger’s seat of Gemini’s black SUV, with the older man behind the steering wheel, driving them to the nearest cafe they can find in Banglamphu. It's Christmas morning, so a lot of cafes are closed, but thankfully they managed to find one open eventually. It’s when they’re comfortably seated, warm coffees placed down on the small coffee table in between them, Gemini’s words made Fourth almost spat out his coffee.

“What did you just say?” Fourth asked, wiping off the coffee that spilled down his chin with the back of his hand.

“I wish to marry you,” Gemini repeated his words, calmly, as if he didn’t just say the most batshit insane things ever. Fourth stared at Gemini in disbelief, his eyes burning holes into Gemini’s honey-brown ones to find any hints of joking, but much to his growing confusion, there’s really none. Gemini is dead serious about this, and Fourth has no clue why.

“But why?” Fourth asked, he’s extremely bewildered.

“When I see you again after years, I realize that I’ve actually been waiting to see you again all this time. The moment you were gone for the second time, I came to realize that I don’t want to have another ten years pass without you in my life again. I want to spend the rest of my life with you, Fourth,” Gemini answered, so honestly, it baffled Fourth greatly.

Fourth swallowed heavily, his mind is really turning muddled. Never in his wildest dreams could he imagine thinking of something like this happening. Sure, the fourteen-year-old him would be ecstatic to hear that the Gemini Norawit he’s head over heels for is proposing to him today. But the twenty-four-year-old him now knows well that marriage is more than just mere physical attraction. It’s a commitment for life, and he would be insane (insane than the fourteen-year-old him) to dive into something that he isn’t mentally prepared for.

It has been ten years, what happened then between them was just a story of a crazy teenager in love. They were so young. Thinking again, Fourth wasn’t sure even what he saw in Gemini for him to fall head over heels for him back then. Other than his handsome gorgeous face, he isn’t sure what he saw in Gemini, seeing that they were really not what you exactly call close. While Gemini was known as the most handsome rich boy in town, Fourth had always been known as the weird neighbour kid even long before his obsession over Gemini started. So when the chronicles started, his reputation only worsened (if he even had any in the first place).

They never really talked, their relationship wasn’t exactly close. It’s just a one-sided infatuation (a crazy one) from Fourth’s side, and poor Gemini was just on the receiving end of that. That’s why Gemini only found out about Fourth’s moving only when he had moved away, because that was all their relationship back then—They weren’t actually close to sharing things. All of the information Fourth had about Gemini back then was all through his stalking, and never from Gemini himself. He never knew Gemini personally.

Okay, maybe the way that Gemini still smiles at him despites everything he had done to him back in the days was part of the reason he got extremely obsessed with the latter. Through his years of ‘stalking’ also, Fourth noted that Gemini is a gentle guy, patient, and very prince-like through his elegant demeanor and charming aura. But again, it has been ten full years since then, and chances are, people can change over time. Even Fourth is not the same person as the fourteen-year-old kid he was.

They’re full-fledged adults now, and meeting the twenty-seven-year-old Gemini now, even with the face Fourth is familiar with, still feels like meeting a new guy regardless. He might still be a sucker for that handsome God-like face, but being a mature adult, he wouldn’t want to end up in marriage with someone he barely knows. It’s still hard for him to believe that Gemini actually reciprocates his feelings (well, his feelings then) after all these years. And of course, the main issue here would actually be—Fourth isn’t even sure if he still harbors the same romantic feelings for Gemini. The feelings he had for him then were of a child, immature and unripe, so he isn’t sure what he feels about Gemini now. Does he want to spend the rest of his life with Gemini? Does he want to marry him? Does he want him as his husband?

“I am—I’m not sure,” Fourth eventually replied after a long pause of silence. Fourth inhaled deeply before he sighed it out, feeling his chest getting heavy with worry.

“Yes, I liked you back then. A lot. A lot, that your life was a wreck because of me, and I was forced to move out of the neighbourhood.” A pause, Fourth licked his lips.

“But I have to be honest that I’m not sure about those feelings anymore after all these years. I was a kid, barely could tell right from wrong, so I can’t use something from the past to determine my future now. We weren’t exactly close then, our time was paused the moment I left, I don’t think I know who I’m seeing right now in front of me, for me to offer the rest of my life to. Marriage is something I have to put full consideration into, so I simply can’t imagine spending the rest of my life with someone I barely know,” Fourth explained further.

“So I’m really sorry. For all of the insane things I did to you back then, and now too, because I don’t think I can accept your proposal—”

“How about getting to know each other first with marriage in mind then?” Gemini cut off, to which left Fourth stumped once more.

Fourth’s breath hitched when he felt something warm on his cold hand. Looking down, he saw Gemini’s big hand on top of his much smaller one, grabbing it gently. The sight of the silver ring on Gemini’s index finger gleaming only anchored the weight of Gemini’s words further, showing his seriousness about this whole thing. Gemini is really serious about wanting to marry him.

“A month. Let me court you for a month, and let me know your answer after that,” Gemini said, hints of begging clear in his words, like a kicked puppy, it made Fourth feel bad to turn him down for the second time. Pressed his lips together, Fourth then placed his hand on top of Gemini’s.

“Hmm,” Fourth hummed, agreeing.

Insane, he can’t believe his craziness eventually rubbed on Gemini after ten years. Sure, he did ask Santa for Gemini to be his husband back then, but who would've thought that childish wish back then could be granted, even if it was only ten years later? Insane, this is really the most insane Christmas gift ever, he lowkey wished all of this was a dream. But of course the warmth of Gemini’s hand on top of his proved him otherwise. This is not a dream, far from it, and Gemini has just really proposed to him. He even asked him for a chance to court him, to which Fourth granted out of pity. This is really insane.

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“I’m not sure if that one will be a good choice. We need something more traditional.”

Fourth made sure to jot down everything his clients said on his tablet as the two skimmed through the catalogue the company Fourth is working for provided. The company he’s working for is an event planning company, mainly specializing in weddings, and working as their food coordinator for at least three years now, he’s already getting used to silently and swiftly taking notes of the clients’ wishes even when they’re simply talking to one another. It might sound like he’s eavesdropping, but again, this is what his work is about—To make sure he can come up with the best coordination for them, so he always gives his best in being attentive.

“Then you can pick this one, since you’re going for this kind of theme, I think southern Thai dishes will be best,” Fourth suggested, pointing at the dish he was talking about with the back end of his stylus.

He can see the way the two’s eyes lightened, definitely delighted to hear his suggestion. He has met hundreds of clients over the years he has been working in this field, and he figured out that it’s really common for them to not know how to express themselves well, or putting their wishes and thoughts into words verbally, so Fourth learnt to observe them instead, then make his own deduction from there. The strategy seems to work well, as because of that, he’s currently one of the best employees in the company now. It might sound like nothing much, but you would be surprised to find out that a lot of people have trouble paying attention to other people’s words that are simply not directed at them. So when Fourth figured this out, he managed to always come up with the best coordination for his clients, every time.

“We will go with that one then,” the client said, to which Fourth made sure to take note on his tablet again. The discussion kept on going for a while more, until they wrapped up completely.

Once the discussion ended, Fourth immediately excused himself to get back to his office, as he still had some work to finish before clocking out today. They’re in a cafe right now, which is at least half an hour away from his office in Phra Khanong. He refused to stay in the office too late seeing that his aunt doesn’t like the idea of him getting home late, even when it’s barely 9 in the evening, so he needs to get back to the office as soon as he can.

The discussion can be done at the company, of course—they have a room for that. But upon client’s request, the discussion can also be done outside the company as long as it’s still within the area that’s agreed upon between the client and the company. Most clients actually prefer to meet outside anyway since it will be easier on their part, they can choose any place that’s convenient for them, not necessarily having to go to the company for the meeting.

While the companies always make it easier for the clients, for their staff on the other hand—well, the company doesn’t provide its staff transportation, so Fourth has to have his own, it’s one of the requirements when he first started applying for the job. Even so, Fourth is still relieved that fortunately he can at least claim the expenses (like gas, tolls, and drinks etc.) from the company, even without the transportation provided from them. So as long as he makes sure he keeps all of the receipts, he can always claim them later.

Making sure his tablet is properly kept in his leather sling bag, he climbed on his bike, and put on his full face helmet. Fixing the side mirrors, he pulled out his leather gloves from the front compartment of his sling bag to put them on right afterwards. He always put on these protective gears, as other than the obvious purpose of protecting himself, it’s also because of his aunt who always expressed her worries about him riding around, back and forth for work. Saying how it’s really dangerous for him to ride, how it’s extremely unstable due to its two-wheel, and its lack of protection unlike cars. As much as Fourth understands her, this is really the best option for him.

Other than the fact that he can bypass traffic congestions easily due to its smaller size, the maintenance cost is much cheaper compared to owning a car by a landslide. Most importantly, Fourth has always preferred riding than driving anyway. He extremely enjoys the freedom of not being confined in a tight space of a car, and he has always loved the fresh breeze throughout his rides too. So to make his aunt less worried about him, he always makes sure that he’s fully dressed in gear every time he rides, just so his aunt would stop complaining in his ears. He loves her—really, but there’s just time that he wishes he can turn off his hearing so that Aunt Amara’s babbling would be filtered out. Once she starts complaining, it’s just really hard for her to stop. Fourth honestly thought his ears were going to bleed at some point.

He still remembered, back when he first applied for the company he’s currently working at right now, and was told that it’s a requirement for him to own his own transportation for work, his aunt wouldn’t stop babbling the moment he told her he’s planning to get a bike for the job. She wasn’t pleased with the idea—Not because of money, but because of safety, saying that it would be better for him to get a car than a bike. But of course Fourth turned the idea down. Other than he’s not really into cars, he believes having a bike would suit his work nature more, as he can move around easily. He knows being an adult, he doesn’t really need her approval to buy the bike if he wants to, but since he’s currently still living with her, he simply wants her approval out of respect he has for her. She has been taking care of him for the past ten years, so to hurt her feelings really is the last thing he wishes to do.

Fourth is not the best obedient kid, far from it, but he has always tried his best to respect those he considered dear to him. He had tried to move out a couple times before, wanting to be considerate for his aunt, seeing that he has been troubling her over the years growing up. But no matter what, his aunt kept turning down the idea, saying that unless he has a partner to live with, she wishes to have him keep living with her until then.

Aunt Amara loves having Fourth’s company around, already considering him as her own son, seeing that she doesn’t have one of her own (not like she will love Fourth any less if she had, Fourth believes), she’s single. And it seems like she doesn’t have any plans to marry, so she really enjoys Fourth’s company. When she herself said that, of course Fourth can’t say no to her heartwarming wish. When even his own family refused to have him in their life, Aunt Amara was the one who took him in, and has given him a lot of love over the years he grew up under her care. So if Aunt Amara loves to keep having his company, then he would be more than glad to give her that. It’s not like he will ever get married anyway. Just like Aunt Amara, he doesn’t think he will ever get married in this lifetime.

He has been single for ages, all thanks to his stupid younger self that made him traumatised from falling in love now. Sure it has been ten years, and Lord did he try to move on from it, but the shame that follows, it haunts him for years—it made Fourth scared of falling in love now, even when he’s at this age where it’s almost impossible for men to stay single. Most people his age get a girlfriend already, and definitely have marriage in mind when doing so. But for Fourth, he just refused to let that thought sit in his head, even a simple attraction would result in him shivering in cringe and disgust, remembering all the stupid things he did back then in the name of love. It was so embarrassing. Time flew so fast, before he knew it, it had been ten years since he was sent to Krung Thep by his family to live with Aunt Amara.

The ride back to his office was exactly half an hour. Even with the heavy traffic, seeing that it’s peak hour for people to get off from work, it still only took a few minutes more than the initial estimate for him to pull up at the front of his workplace, all thanks to his baby, the bike he loves.

The company he works at is fairly a small company, still expanding, located in a cheap building lot among other small companies and shops, so they don’t have dedicated parking space for staff, except the owner. The pay is still quite big from a small company, he can live comfortably with the paycheck, never missed getting his monthly wage either, so it’s not like Fourth would complain about the lack of parking spots. He simply gets used to it, in terms of comfortable pay that he doesn’t have to worry about. Because of this, the spot he parked his bike is always random depending on vacancy at the time. Sometimes close to the office, sometimes a little bit far by the end of the block, but seeing that it’s already after office hours, the parking spots are mostly empty, so he just picked the one that’s closest to the company.

Stepping on the pedal to shift the gear back to neutral, he turned off the engine. Taking off his helmet, that’s when he got the jump scare of his life, his heart almost left him to see a man standing right in front of his bike when he wasn’t there just a few seconds before.

“Shit!” Fourth gasped out loud, holding tight on his helmet against his chest. It’s getting dark, so it took a while for him to process the face of the man in front of him, bathed with dark orange twilight, and dimly lit surroundings. But the moment he did recognize the face, and he heard that more than familiar hearty chuckle, gentle voice that has been haunting his dream for years, his heart almost left him again for the second time in the span of less than a minute.

The chronicles of Fourth Nattawat’s stalker—that phrase rings at the front of his mind.

“Are you really stalking me now?” Fourth said in disbelief, his brows creasing to see Gemini Norawit standing right in front of him, at his workplace most importantly. Obviously, he never told Gemini where he works, so of course seeing him here would be the last thing he expected to see. Gemini shouldn’t be here, is this even really him? Is it his skinwalker perhaps?

Must’ve noticed how baffled he looks at the moment, Gemini chuckled again, before he stepped closer. His hand reaching for Fourth’s cheek before he could realize it, caressing his cheek with his knuckles as if it’s his way of greeting, seeing that’s what he has been doing every time they see each other now (which is only thrice now, but the fact that it keeps happening, really means something—He means of course, Gemini is courting him, duh).

“Trying to be the best one, am I doing a great job?” Gemini asked, grinning charmingly, as he still had his knuckles brushing against his cheek, which Fourth can feel the spot their skin touch heating up slowly at the contact, especially over that gaze Gemini is giving him right now.

Gemini has always had a gentle gaze, but these days, it’s just getting more than Fourth’s poor heart can take. Gemini’s gaze nowadays really looks like he’s seeing nothing but Fourth in his entire world, red heart shooting out of his eyes, and it made Fourth about to lose his composure right on the spot. Fourth has always been weak for that handsome face and gentle demeanor. It feels as if he’s back in his fourteen-year-old’s body again, getting punny at the sight of his crush, heart melting at the slightest gesture from him. Gemini is dangerous for his loser heart.

“Because I used to be your stalker? If you’re only going to tease me like this, then just leave,” Fourth said, mainly trying to calm himself down from giving in to Gemini’s gentleness. Brushing Gemini's hand off of him, he took off his gloves to shove them into his sling bag again.

He heard Gemini chuckled again.

This man really loves to chuckle, isn’t he? Is teasing him really that amusing? Fourth thought to himself, frowned slightly at the way that he might be seen as a joke.

As if Gemini could read his mind, the man then apologized.

“Sorry, I guess I got too ahead of myself with the teasing. Your hair now made you look like a hedgehog,” Gemini said, explaining the reason that made him chuckle, smiling as he pointed to his own head to show what he’s talking about.

Curious, Fourth then immediately looked down to his side mirror to check himself in the mirror. He noticed that indeed his hair is a spiky mess from taking off his helmet just now. His blond buzz-cut that he hasn’t redyed for quite a while now due to work keeping him occupied has started to show its dark roots too, so just like what Gemini pointed out, he really looks like a hedgehog with the dark roots and blond tips. And to have that realization that he’s not looking his best right now, and to have the very man he’s in a talking stage with pointed that out, it made his cheeks heat up again to be seen in such an embarrassing state. His eyes blinked rapidly for a moment, trying to not let himself be affected by Gemini’s words.

“I don’t mean it in a bad way by the way. I like it—it’s cute. It suits you,” Gemini said, smiling assuringly. Which only made Fourth’s face heats up even more, the tip of his ears buzzing hot, seeing that Gemini just shamelessly called him cute. Fourth’s heart is pounding against his rib cage once more, but because of shyness this time, still hasn’t gotten used to Gemini hitting on him, coming on so strongly, taking every chance he gets to flirt with him without miss. It feels like a love bullet shooting right through his heart one after another, it’s a combo.

“I don’t know that you ride,” Gemini said, eyes checking out the bike underneath Fourth. Luckily Gemini has changed the topic now, so he can feel his hot cheeks cooling down.

“I have been, for at least ten years now,” Fourth replied, looking down to his bike as well.

He caresses the gas tank, reminiscing the old time back when he’s still using his aunt’s scooter for school, and running errands for her as well. Of course his aunt didn’t let him use it at first, but after begging her multiple times, she finally let him use it, as long as he promised her that he would never misuse it for anything bad, and always tells her where he’s going back then. Which he of course lied to her sometimes, being young and rebellious he was, (he still is now,) but luckily nothing bad happened, so it’s definitely a secret that he will keep to his grave.

“Ten years? But I didn’t remember seeing you ride in our neighbourhood before,” Gemini said. He rounded the bike next, checking out the bike fully, or more specifically the owner of the bike who’s still sitting on the bike. Noticing the weight of his gaze, Fourth then turned around, looking at Gemini who was standing behind the rear of his bike. He raised a brow.

“I doubt you were watching me back then,” Fourth said. Gemini then chuckled.

“Well not really. I mean, everytime I see you back then at least. I don’t have any memory of you on a bike like this,” Gemini replied.

“Well you’re not entirely wrong, I did ride but only as passengers back then, I only started riding on my own once I moved here. Aunt Amara needs my help with errands in the neighborhood sometimes, so I convinced her to teach me how to ride. It also helped me get to school without troubling her back then too,” Fourth explained. He saw Gemini nodded. Fourth then got off his bike so that he could look at the man properly, he leaned against his bike instead.

“What about you? I don’t think I ever saw you with a bike in our neighbourhood back then either,” Fourth said, continuing the small talk. He should walk up to his office right now, but for some reason, at the sight of Gemini here, and they’re getting comfortable with the conversation, he doesn’t feel like getting back to work. He wants to talk to Gemini more.

“My parents wouldn’t let me. They said it was dangerous, so they offered me to take the car instead,” Gemini said. Fourth snorted, a mocking smile curled on the edge of his lips.

“Rich people problem,” Fourth scoffed humorously.

“So that means you never ride then?” Fourth asked, Gemini then nodded.

“It’s kinda funny for a man almost in his late twenties to not know how to ride, but driving always works fine for me, so I don’t see any reason for me to learn how to ride,” Gemini answered.

“You can be my passenger princess then,” Fourth replied, smirking at the intention of teasing Gemini seeing that it has always been him on the receiving end of Gemini’s teasing, he wanted to take a revenge in turn for a change.

But what he didn’t expect is for Gemini to step closer. The next thing he knew, the man’s broad shoulder was already pressed up so tightly against his as he leaned against the spot right next to him. Gemini is standing so close, his handsome face is hovering so near above his own due to their height difference. Gemini’s musky cologne immediately invaded his nostrils, filling him in with the nicest scent he had ever smelled—he forgot how to breathe normally for a split second without feeling like a total creep for smelling his scent up close like that. Gemini smells so good.

“I like that idea,” Gemini replied, smiling.

“But I think I prefer to have you as my passenger princess tonight,” he added. Fourth’s heart skipped a beat again.

“How about having dinner together? My treat,” Gemini said, changing topics so smoothly, Fourth was honestly amazed.

You smooth, handsome motherfucker.

But again, what else was the reason for Gemini to come to his workplace tonight then? Fourth was taken off guard by the smoothness, mostly lost staring at Gemini’s handsome face that he forgot that he’s still yet to give him a reply, to which he immediately tore his gaze away to collect his scattered thoughts together. He’s blinking excessively again, rubbing his hand over his buzz-cut, a new habit he picked up when he first got his head shaved a few months ago, doing this whenever he gets flustered or nervous on top of his already long-time habit of rapid excessive blinking burst that made it look like his eyes just got thrown with dirt. His eyes are fine, not his heart though.

And now, being bombed with Gemini’s shameless advances one after another really turned him into a flustered wreck. His poor heart is dying, it’s definitely in need of life support. The charm of Gemini Norawit is really dangerous for Fourth’s poor heart. It makes him want to collapse on his knees, and hand over his heart to Gemini right at this very moment. Getting to know each other first, his ass—Who is he kidding?

Don’t give in just yet, you still have to get to know him well, Fourth. Fourth tried to talk himself out from falling on his knees for this man standing next to him.

“I planned to do overtime today,” Fourth said, throwing a short glance at the building where his workplace should be, right on the second floor.

“How about I pay for your time then?” Gemini asked, once again catching Fourth off guard. This man, he really will do anything for Fourth to say yes, wouldn’t he? Though he wonders how far Gemini is willing to take this, will Gemini get tired soon if he plays hard to get enough?

“No, you can’t buy me with money, Gemini,” Fourth said sternly, sounding a little disappointed too, which of course didn’t go unnoticed by the man standing so close next to him.

“Sorry, I didn’t mean it that way. I just thought since I wished to take your time tonight, might as well compensate you for it,” Gemini said, he immediately apologized the moment he noticed his words were negatively received by the other guy.

The situation might seem like it's turning sour, but on the contrary, Fourth is actually taking note of everything. It has only been a few days, but Fourth can see that Gemini picks up his emotions very quickly whenever misunderstandings arise between them, no matter how trivial it is. Even back then too, when he confided to him about his family, Gemini always knew how to make him feel better, extremely good with his words. Fourth guesses that good quality of his deserves to be awarded full ten points, he made sure to mentally note that.

“I understand your intention now, but you don’t have to do that. I would love to have dinner with you, but I have already made a plan tonight, so maybe next time. Sorry,” Fourth replied, playing it off, trying to not show that he’s actually affected by his own words.

Only God knows how badly he wishes to have dinner with the handsome guy tonight. Fourth is always a sucker for handsome faces, Godly visuals like Gemini is hard to find, and to be looking at such a gorgeous face while having free dinner would definitely be a treat to both his eyes and stomach, seeing that he’s always surrounded with average looking guys on normal days, and it has been so long since he had nice meal. But as much as he wished he could have dinner with Gemini tonight, he also feels like it’s too early for that. He can’t let Gemini get what he wants easily, and he also wants to see how long Gemini is willing to put up with rejections from him.

Fourth knows it’s crazy of him to do this, most people would call him insane and narcissistic if they see what he’s doing. But in his defense, if he’s going to marry Gemini, then he has to make sure that Gemini won't give up easily on him. A marriage should last for a lifetime, what are a few days of rejections right?

“No, it’s okay. It’s totally my fault to come here without you knowing too,” Gemini said, smiling faintly. The older guy may try to hide his sadness with the sweet smile, but Fourth can see the dejection in those honey-brown eyes. It’s clear as day, since the guy always looks like a kicked puppy whenever he’s turned down. He reacted the same way when Fourth first turned down his proposal back then too.

“So see you tomorrow? Gemini asked, caressing Fourth’s cheek with his knuckles as his means of bidding goodbye. Fourth’s soft cheeks that were turning cold because of the night chilling air embracing him, immediately warmed up at the mere faint grazing. Gemini always caught him off guard with the skin contact, but it’s not like Fourth dislikes it. Far from it, he likes it. It makes his stomach feel warm, but he guesses he still needs some time to get used to it.

“We will see. My work is kind of piling these days, I need to get them done,” Fourth replied, partly lying since he does some work he needs to attend to, but it’s not exactly piling as what he tried to claim it to be. But it seems that Gemini is buying his lie, because he’s smiling again.

“Then I will keep coming. To make sure you will never forget about me,” Gemini said, grazing the pink cheek one last time before he finally retreated his hand away and got off from leaning against the seat of Fourth’s bike.

“Don’t push yourself too hard. See you tomorrow, Fourth,” Gemini said. Fourth simply nodded, watching as Gemini’s back turned against him, walking to where he assumed his black SUV must be parked. With the guy finally disappearing from his view soon afterwards, Fourth took that as a cue for him to leave too. He immediately brought his helmet with him as he walked to the staircase space that leads to his workplace on the second floor.

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Fourth honestly doesn’t put too much hope in seeing Gemini’s patience holding on for long in taking rejections from him. But after a few days of turning Gemini’s invitation down for dinner, and the older guy still insists on coming, it only proves further how crazy Gemini can go in order to pursue his love. Not only was he brave enough to propose to Fourth when they haven’t met for ten years, barely knew each other even, but now he’s even putting in his everything in order to make Fourth fall for him and say yes. Even after two weeks, the man still keeps coming as if it was his first time, with that bright smile and loving gaze plastered all over his handsome face no matter how many times Fourth turned him down.

Whenever Fourth told Gemini his usual excuse, he always thought that evening would be the last day for him to put up with his nonsense before disappearing on him completely, but dear Lord, does Fourth always was proven wrong every time. At some point, getting used to his rejection for him, Gemini came to expect his answer without saying, even came with his hands full with paper bags of food too, buying him a meal seeing that Fourth is busy with work. The man claimed he simply wants to take care of Fourth, but it is so obvious that Fourth is testing his patience. So obvious that even someone’s dead grandmother and their ancestors can see it. But instead of giving up (which Fourth can totally understand if he eventually did), Gemini doesn’t seem he will stop treating him in such a sweet way somewhere soon.

They only see each other’s face for less than fifteen minutes everyday, after office hours since that’s the only time Fourth can spare Gemini some of his time to talk, which all of us know can be longer if he eventually stopped testing Gemini’s patience, (because who in the world does overtime for two weeks straight? Especially for the kind of job Fourth is working for). The time is tight (well, pretentiously tight) for them, they barely can make any proper conversations every time Gemini comes to see him at his office. It also doesn’t help that Fourth purposefully ignored all of the texts from the older guy too, simply wanting to test Gemini’s patience with him further. 

He knows he’s acting like a complete asshole—a total menace, wanting to see the other guy break eventually out of anger for toying with his time and effort. He means, who wouldn’t? Even Fourth himself would be very pissed off to be treated the way he’s treating Gemini with now. But instead, contrary to what he believes will happen, expecting that Gemini will get tired of his endless rejections soon, the older man always managed to amaze him with his patience, every single time. Getting turned down everyday, being ignored virtually too on top of that, yet the older guy still keeps coming to see Fourth everyday, never missing a day for two weeks straight.

Because all these, not only it made Fourth give him a whole thirty points for managing to put up with his nonsense for two weeks straight, Fourth also concludes that Gemini is really one hell of a persistent guy. So he believes now that there’s really no use of turning Gemini down anymore, because the guy really looks like he’s the type to be extremely determined about something the moment he sets his focus on it. Once he has his goal set, no one can convince him otherwise, unless he’s the one himself who changed his mind. Which Fourth honestly can relate to well, because he’s exactly the same. Fourth is persistent too, what made you think he got kicked out of his own hometown from chasing his love life like crazy? He’s just as stubborn.

Other than that, Fourth also needs to put an end to this whole testing thing because he noticed that his coworkers have been talking about him, gossiping among them, wondering about the handsome guy their private coworker keeps meeting at the front of their building. It’s a small company after all. And since Fourth is always known to not be interested in dating whenever asked about it, of course this knowledge turns into a hot gossip among them, curious who’s the guy who managed to melt the infamous Ice Prince’s heart. But unbeknownst to them, the guy who managed to ‘melt’ Fourth’s heart turned out to be the same guy who’s the reason he stayed away from romance to begin with. Life really comes full circle.

Fourth guesses this is really the time to say yes to Gemini’s invitation for dinner eventually. And perhaps telling him to stop coming to his workplace for a while too, because he really doesn't like to be the attention of his coworkers’ hot gossip. He has been the attention of people’s talk ever since he could remember: The weird neighbour kid, the kid who lives with his aunt, the kid whose parents left him, the kid who has no one to attend to his school functions—He had gotten tired of these growing up, he wished to have a change now that he’s a working adult.

“I got you caesar salad today—”

“Let’s have dinner outside,” Fourth cuts him off, surprising the other guy who’s holding the paper bag up mid air. He saw the guy’s eyes widen after a beat, as if processing his words, before the boba-like eyes brightened fully.

“How about your work?” Gemini asked genuinely, but excitement was already clear in his voice, totally delighted to hear Fourth being the one who asked him out for dinner this time.

“You fully know well I lied about that,” Fourth said bluntly. He heard Gemini snort, before bursted into a fit of chuckle. The guy then put down his hand to the side, letting the paper bag hang on his side, seeing that Fourth doesn’t look he will take the paper bag any moment now.

“You’re really honest,” Gemini said, leftover chuckles emptied his curled lips, amused with the other guy’s honesty. He honestly thought Fourth would go on with his lie, lying that he’s finally finished with all of his work perhaps. But it looks like he’s dropping that act tonight.

Just as Fourth had thought, his lie is too obvious. It’s evident that he keeps turning him down because he wants to test Gemini. Like, who does overtime for more than two weeks straight? Gemini might be one of the higher executives in the company now, but he used to be a regular office worker just like Fourth back then, and even during their busiest periods, he would never do overtime for two consecutive weeks straight. He would totally be crazy to do so voluntarily.

He knows Fourth is testing his patience. But while Fourth wishes to see how long he can endure his rejections, Gemini on the other hand wishes to see how long Fourth can turn him down before accepting him eventually. Fourth may not see it now, but both of them are definitely made for each other. Stubborn in their own way, they're basically a match made in heaven.

“Might as well come clean now. My coworkers have been talking about us, I guess you need to stop coming here for a while until it quiets down,” Fourth replied. Gemini smiled.

“They talk about us?” Gemini simply repeated Fourth’s words, but the realization of what he just said made Fourth’s ears redden at the tip. His eyes blinked rapidly, as if he was broken. It doesn’t help that Gemini is smiling that charming grin of his, so it only made Fourth’s heart palpitate with panic.

This smooth heart criminal.

“Let’s go,” Fourth said, trying to change the topic. He stood up straight from leaning against his bike and immediately started walking even when he had no clue where Gemini parked his car. He simply wants to escape from making an embarrassment out of himself. Luckily, it seems that he’s walking the right direction because Gemini catches up to him quickly without stopping him.

“Do you crave anything particular?” Gemini asked, matching up his pace so that they’re walking side by side now. Fourth took a moment to think, before he shook his head.

“I’m fine with anything,” Fourth replied.

“Then I will take you to my favorite place, the dishes are amazing, I believe you’re going to love it,” Gemini said. Fourth nodded quietly.

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He should’ve expected. For someone as rich as Gemini of course he would take him to a fancy place like this. A candle light dinner for their first date together (which is out of whim because Fourth simply couldn’t take his coworkers’ nosiness into his personal business anymore, and the killing conscience from always turning down Gemini’s invitation that started to catch up to him). He knows it’s partly his fault for them to end up here since it was him who told Gemini that he’s fine with anything anyway, but the possibility that the older guy may not consider Fourth’s appearance when taking him here made Fourth feel extremely conscious about how he looks.

Blond buzz-cut with two strips of hair tattoo, piercings on both ears, a tongue piercing if one stares enough, diagonal slits on his brows, one on the arch of his brow while the other on the inner corner of his left brow. Bulky leather jacket, tight leather pants, and a pair of strapped combat boots strapped down his ankle. Silver chain necklace with padlock on his neck, silver and black rings adorning his fingers. Most people would say he looks like one of those goth or emo kid-wannabes, but he definitely feels the most like himself when he’s dressed up this way. It’s like one way to express himself, and it makes him feel good about it. But for the first time, he feels rather uncomfortable in his own skin. Normally, he could care less about what other people think regarding his not-so-conventional appearance. But right now, it feels as if all eyes are digging holes in him. He feels watched.

He knows there’s nothing wrong for him to be dressed up this way in a place like this. It’s still a restaurant at the end of the day, they could care less about what people wear as long as you paid for the food. But Fourth believes there’s still things that people would call time, place, and occasion. Fourth might dress like this on a daily basis, but when he has to handle events, he still has the sense to put on formal wear out of courtesy for their clients, and the event themes. So right now, with people around them dressed up in fancy suits and nice dresses, it made him feel out of place to be in his riding gear, seeing that even Gemini himself is in black satin dress shirt with a pair of ash gray slacks. It makes him uncomfortable in his own seat.

“Are you alright?” Gemini asked quietly, his voice barely above whisper.

“Should we go to another place?” He added, still with a hushed tone. Fourth can see the guilt and worry in those round eyes, must have noticed Fourth’s discomfort. While Fourth appreciates that Gemini seems to notice that, he actually feels bad for them to move to another place simply because of people who don’t know how to mind their own business.

“No, it’s okay,” Fourth said, already picking up the menu, he tried to brush off the heavy stares burning on his skin.

This is totally not the first time for people to stare at him like this, he grew up always being the center of people’s attention. Even without his physical appearance, his personality and the way he brings himself has always stood out anyway, so he has gotten used to it by now. But since he’s with Gemini at the moment, he feels rather restless with the attention he receives because he’s worried whether the stares would make the older guy uncomfortable. But he guesses, since Gemini himself brought him here, knowing fully well the attention that’s always drawn on Fourth like a magnet, it definitely means that Gemini doesn’t care about what other people think about him in the slightest. His focus right now is only on Fourth alone. The concern he shows is over Fourth and for Fourth alone, worried about Fourth’s comfort rather than his own. Other than Aunt Amara, this is definitely the first time for someone else to not be ashamed of who he is.

“Are you sure?” Gemini asked, making sure that Fourth is alright. Fourth then smiled in turn.

“I am, phi,” Fourth replied, didn’t even notice the word he used to call the other guy. Gemini’s eyes widened, wanting to point it out, but the other guy was already busy with the menu.

“It’s your treat tonight, right?” Fourth asked, chuckling softly. Gemini was once again caught off guard, but with Fourth’s melodic chuckles this time. The thought of questioning the word Fourth addressed him then had immediately been replaced with another matter in a split second.

It has been more than two weeks since he first started pursuing Fourth romantically, but this is the first time for Fourth to smile and laugh genuinely like this in front of him. It wasn’t sarcastic nor mocking unlike those he had seen before, seeing that Fourth loves to smirk and scoff at him sometimes. Fourth was so cold with him before. He knows that the only reason Fourth agreed to let him pursue him was because he feels bad for him. They might’ve not known each other well, but from what he vaguely remembers in their younger days, and the last time he saw Fourth in their hometown recently, he knows that despite the rough physical appearance, Fourth actually has a soft heart. Fourth must’ve been trying to act cold with him before so that Gemini would give up on him eventually, but he guesses, his relentlessness is paying off at last, because he’s finally seeing tiny cracks on that icy cold layer of mask Fourth puts on all this time.

Now he’s seeing those shiny pretty dark brown eyes half-hidden behind the bunch-up of the fat underneath his eyes, along with the skin at the outer corner of his eyes crinkling resembling cat whiskers, and his pink gums showing from how wide he’s smiling, it totally reminded Gemini of the fourteen-year-old boy he knew ten years ago. Sans the braces and zits, it looks exactly the same. With Fourth’s true self slowly showing, it feels as if they’re taken back in time again, and he’s currently seeing Fourth from ten years ago.

He can’t believe how long it takes for him to realize his feelings. The reason why he was never angry with Fourth no matter what he did back then, even when all of the neighbours were pissed off on his behalf, not once Gemini ever shared a fraction of that hatred on the kid. All because he has always had a soft spot for the younger boy. Without him realizing, he actually enjoys the admiration Fourth has on him. Even when it was dangerous, and it got him bedridden at some point, he just can never find it in him to hate the boy. Unconsciously he had always been looking forward to what kind of crazy stunt the notorious weird neighbour kid would pull on him next. Secretly, he was always looking forward to seeing Fourth every day.

That is, until the boy completely vanished out of his sight one random day. He had no idea what happened, only a few days later he found out from other neighbours that the weird neighbor kid had been sent away to another province. When he found out, there was this sudden emptiness ringing inside his heart. At first he didn’t understand that feeling, wondering why he would feel that way for the weird neighbor kid who had always brought him nothing but trouble. But ten years later, and he finally got to see that same neighbour kid again, all grown up now, he finally understood the reason why his heart reacted that way back then.

He has been missing Fourth.

He wants Fourth like crazy.

He wishes to have the cute neighbor kid who loved to trouble him back when he was seventeen.

The sight of Fourth crossing in front of his car was like the tiniest droplet of water in the Sahara. His heart that has been silently missing for Fourth like the drought for years, feels like he has been doused with fresh cold water at the mere glimpse of the said boy. Drenched wet with cold realization, his heart that was hollow with the disappearance of a certain someone is full again, and he doesn’t want Fourth to escape from his sight once more. He needs him.

“Order up, don’t hold back,” Gemini replied, returning the smile. His heart melts at the sight of Fourth’s smile getting wider, the younger guy is chuckling again.

“If I do, there’ll be a hole in your pocket. And I will be so round with food, I can’t walk out of the restaurant,” Fourth said, chuckling at the image of himself being so full of food. Gemini chuckles at the image too, but he’s imagining Fourth as a small hedgehog, lying on his back with his belly bloated with nothing but food, dozing off with content in Gemini’s opened palms. It makes an adorable image, Gemini can actually feel cute aggression building inside him, he wishes to bite Fourth at the thought, but he immediately suppressed that thought away. Other than the fact that they’re in public right now, Fourth would definitely be scared shitless if he did that too.

Fourth might have slowly opened up to him now, but if he’s not careful enough, then it’s only a matter of time before Fourth curled up on him again and baring him his spiky quills in defense. That’s the last thing he wishes to happen when he has tried so hard to come this far. For Fourth to feel repulsed by him, he really doesn’t want that to happen. He needs to be careful.

“Let’s just eat what our stomach can handle then,” Gemini replied, chuckling. Fourth nodded. The two then eventually ordered their meal. When their food arrived roughly half an hour later, the two ate while chattering over their dinner. Seeing that Fourth had been avoiding Gemini on purpose all this time, this is finally the time for them to talk properly and get to know each other.

“Wait, so you have been living in Krung Thep all these years?” Fourth said, honestly surprised. He knows that Krung Thep isn’t that small for them to run into each other, but the fact that the older guy has always been this close to him all this time, and he just never realized it, made him feel some type of way. Perhaps partly disappointed that God didn’t arrange them to meet before Fourth returned to the hometown eventually, but mostly relieved since he isn’t exactly sure how he would react if he ever ran into Gemini here seeing that he was the reason he got sent here. He knows it’s his fault, but still. Even right now, he still feels rather mixed up about everything.

“I guess three years now? When I got promoted, they sent me here to take care of the branch,” Gemini said, feeding himself a cut of his tenderloin steak.

“So it was merely a coincidence for you to come back to our hometown then?” Fourth asked, then Gemini shook his head.

“Not entirely. Seeing you may be a total coincidence, I really didn’t expect to see you. My father needed my help with the headquarters, so he asked me to come home for a while. Then my mother also mentioned about a neighbour’s daughter getting married, I didn’t pay attention to the rest of the details back then though, so I didn’t realize it was Jirochtikul. But I’m glad I came home on the same day you were there, or else I would totally miss you,” Gemini replied.

“I can’t believe the universe has really been setting us up to meet again,” Fourth said in awe. Gemini then smirked.

“You think so?” Gemini asks, tilting his head slightly, his gentle eyes are hooded in the way that makes him look enticing, grinning that devious charming grin, Fourth feels his body heating up at the obvious attempt of flirting. He quickly stuffed another piece of broccoli into his mouth, shutting himself up. You stupid mouth!

Gemini chuckled, must be amused to see Fourth getting flustered over his words again.

“If you have anything to ask, I will try my best to answer them,” Gemini said, putting down his cutlery to pick up the water goblet instead, taking a sip.

Questions… Fourth definitely has a lot of them, but one thing that he’s curious most definitely is Gemini’s dating history. He mentioned that he didn’t get married back then, but he wondered if he’s seeing anyone after that. Seeing how handsome he is, Fourth refused to believe he could be single for long. But Fourth wonders what kind of type Gemini usually go for. And has Gemini always swung both ways before? He wonders when did Gemini realize that he roots for both teams, seeing that he remembers only seeing Gemini with girls back then. While Fourth, he has always been into pretty things ever since he can remember, but boys have always captivated his eyes more than anything. He eventually came to realize that it’s because he likes boys. And Gemini definitely is the main reason for that discovery back then.

Gemini was—is, the prettiest in town. Even up to this day, Fourth doesn’t think he had seen anyone prettier than Gemini, except for Gemini himself. Only he can beat his own visual, seeing that the visual of twenty-seven-year-old him is like a God sent, delicately crafted by God’s own hands. Compared to him from ten years ago, whose looks are mostly boyish rather than mature, the full-fledged adult Gemini right now, pushing thirty, really is extremely dangerous for Fourth’s fragile heart, making his knees buckle at the mere contort of his face muscle, and the raise of his perfectly threaded brows. One single grin, and Fourth is floored.

“You said you didn’t get married back then, I wonder what actually happened,” Fourth started off. Gemini took another sip of water before he put down the water goblet on the table.

“Well, someone jumped in front of my car,” Gemini teased, to which Fourth raised his brow in an apparent lack of amusement. Gemini chuckled at Fourth’s reaction, he must be not having it.

“I told you I kind of listened to what you told me before. Your admiration for me made me realize that I shouldn’t tie myself up with someone that I couldn’t imagine doing the same for,” Gemini answered honestly this time.

“Ever since, I keep looking, and looking. For someone that I’m willing to sacrifice myself for.”

“But no one had ever managed to make me feel that way,” Gemini added.

Fourth raised a brow again, but out of curiosity this time.

“No one?” Fourth repeated. Gemini nodded.

“No one. I kinda gave up searching for a while, then I met you again,” Gemini replied.

“When you slipped off my fingers for the second time, I felt that desperation for the first time. The urge to give everything up, forsake everything in order to get you return into my life again. I can’t express in words how relieved I am now to have you in front of me now after searching for you for quite a while. It may not be long, but the thought of never seeing you again made me restless for weeks,” Gemini said, smiling faintly. Fourth felt his stomach churn in restlessness, it finally dawned on him how much he meant to Gemini now. Gemini is really serious about him.

“I just… Why me? I only brought you nothing but troubles. I can see your honesty, you’re really serious about this, but I just can’t see any reasons for you to like me. There’s plenty of others, it honestly baffles me,” Fourth decided to say out his concern.

“Sometimes you can’t really put a logical answer to it. No matter how hard you try, it’s just what the heart wants. My heart doesn't want plenty of others, it only wants you,” Gemini replied, oh so earnestly, Fourth feels his face heating up. He’s really weak for Gemini, isn’t he?

“Enough with this heart talk. I actually have another question,” Fourth decided to change the topic. He saw the way Gemini grinned again, must’ve noticed how Fourth is getting shy over hearing his answer. Oh how bad Fourth wishes to wipe off that charming grin off his red lips with his own—Who said that?

“Fire away,” Gemini said, taking another sip of the cold water.

“I don’t remember seeing you with boys before, when did you know that you swing both ways?” Fourth asked bluntly. Gemini sets down his water goblet again.

“I honestly don’t know either. I’ve always been into girls, but when I met you again that day, it made me feel things that I’ve never felt before with any men. Growing up, I’ve always found you cute, despite what other people say, so I thought the reason I feel that way is because of that simple adoration. But when I touched you for the first time, I kept thinking of you—Sorry, was that too vulgar of me?” Gemini immediately excused himself, as he doesn’t want to come off as creepy. But unknown to him, Fourth is still as insane as ever when it comes to him, so of course hearing this only made Fourth want to launch himself off the planet Earth and explode in outer space. Because did he just hear himself right that the Gemini Norawit is lusting over him?

“No, it’s not,” Fourth replied, trying his best to play it down. Best believe, if it was someone else, Fourth’s skin would long crawl out of disgust already. But since it’s Gemini Norawit, the same guy he had his first wet dream about at fourteen, of course, his reaction is the total opposite of disgust. He’s still internally losing his shit to have Gemini speak up so honestly with him, but he’s definitely winning the lottery to have the hottest guy he has ever met expressing that he has the hots for him, just as he does. He means sure, Gemini wished to marry him, but to actually hear this kind of thing from him, really wasn’t on his bucket list to hear out of this date tonight.

But since Gemini is already opening this topic, it made Fourth more curious about his sex life. Since they’re currently seeing each other with marriage in mind, he thinks he deserves to know if Gemini is sexually active. It would be fine if he probed a little right?

“... Do you mind if I ask you about your private life?” Fourth asked, not sure how to organize his words. He saw the way Gemini raised his brow, must be not getting what he meant.

Fourth feel his cheeks heated up to come up with other words, trying to think of something that would sound less vulgar, but still managed to get his message across. Noticing that he seems to be struggling with his words, he saw the hesitation on Gemini’s lips too.

“You mean, my sex life?” Gemini tried to take a guess, lowering his voice at the word that Fourth refused to say since he finds it too explicit and indecent. Fourth appreciate the hushedness, but he still feels embarrassed about it nonetheless. With red cheeks, blinking excessively, he nodded quietly.

“I’m not sexually active, if that’s what you wish to know. I only do it with my partners, and since it has been so long since my last relationship, it has been a long time since I did it with anyone,” Gemini replied. Now, Fourth felt rather guilty hearing his answer. He’s not that sexually active either, but he did do one-night stands from time to time. It’s easier that way when he refuses to commit, and he’s not interested in having any friends with benefits either. Too much headache.

“So you have never done it with a guy, I suppose?” Fourth doesn’t know why, but that’s the first thing that came out of his mouth in response to Gemini’s words. It was after he heard himself that he immediately wished to retreat his words, but was cut off with Gemini’s light chuckles.

“So that was your concern?” Gemini asked, the edge of his lips curling into an amused grin, it made Fourth’s heart swoon again. But definitely wished to dig himself a hole just so that he can hide there forever. He’s so ashamed of himself.

Gemini then leaned over the table slightly, closing the distance between them in just mere seconds. Hovering so close, Fourth can count the individual lashes on Gemini’s honey-brown eyes, which only grew darker for every second, getting hooded with intentions.

“I have zero experience with men, so you can teach me all about it,” Gemini whispered, eyes staring right into Fourth unblinking, it feels as if Fourth is drowning into those round eyes, before Gemini smirked at him again once more and leaned back to his own space.

Holy shit. What the fuck was that.

Fourth didn’t even notice he was holding in his breath when Gemini invaded his personal space just then. As if the muscles on his eyelids had a spasm, he couldn’t stop blinking excessively before he knew it. He’s currently breathing heavily as well, trying to collect his composure again while his eyes are nervously looking around to make sure that no one saw what Gemini just did to him.

Gemini was simply leaning over the table, it was nothing much, but God, the attention they would draw over it, especially with the kind of topic they were talking about. Fourth was extremely worried if their not so appropriate conversation was heard. Fortunately, he came to notice that the tables near them are all currently vacant, so he’s once again breathing in relief to know that they are fine. The restaurant is almost empty, no wonder Gemini had the guts to do that to him.

“So do you have any more questions?” Gemini asked innocently, as if he hadn't said the craziest thing ever, smiling as he picked up his cutleries again.

“No,” Fourth replied, short, still trying to collect his brain that’s scattered all over the place. He had always been weak for Gemini, so when Gemini is getting too confident with his flirting like this, seducing him what more, it made Fourth malfunction so badly, he doesn’t know how to act.

It was a complete blur that night, Fourth was still too stunned to speak. Gemini sent him off to his office so that he can take his bike home. But even the ride that he used to enjoy every night became a blur to him that night, he even forgot to take off his helmet when he got home. His aunt almost had a heart attack, thinking that there was a burglar breaking inside their house with the helmet still over his head. Until she recognized that it was Fourth, she asked him why he hadn't removed his helmet yet. Fourth did remove the helmet after his aunt pointed it out, but after that, it’s another blur for him. He didn’t even remember how he made it into bed afterwards, but the next morning when he woke up, he immediately curled up on his bed in pure shame to see a wet spot on the front of his boxer.

“Gemini…” Fourth groaned into his hands clasped over his face. He’s turning twenty-five this year, so to wake up with a soiled boxer like a teenager, really was the last thing people his age would expect to happen. He isn’t a teen anymore, he shouldn’t be affected this much by mere teasing from his crush. Gemini didn’t even touch him last night (except for the occasional cheek brushing he loves doing with his knuckles), but his words alone are enough to make Fourth all putty like this, it honestly makes him feel ashamed of himself. Is he that desperate after all?

It has indeed been so long since he had done it with anyone. Work keeps him busy, he doesn’t have the energy to think about anything else. And now with Gemini into the frame, he’s only more occupied with him, until that very man triggered that build up inside him. His heart is still trying to figure whether he should accept Gemini into his life, but it seems like his little one down there has made a quicker decision. While his heart is still in dilemma, his nether region has already shown its desperation for that certain someone’s company. He has another date with Gemini tonight after work, but he isn’t sure if he has the courage to face him tonight seeing that the content from the dream last night is still very much playing vivid in his brain.

God, he really wishes he can disappear, at least until the dream dissolves from his brain.

“I don’t want to go to work,” Fourth murmured into his hands, whining like a teenager wishing to skip school. While teenagers can easily skip school without trouble, being an adult now has a lot of things for him to take into account. He can’t simply disappear just because he feels like it. Groaning in pure agony, Fourth eventually forced himself off the bed and dragged himself to the bathroom to get ready for work. And of course, cleaning up the mess he made as well.

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Pushing the door of the cafe open, Fourth’s eyes immediately landed on Gemini who’s sitting at the far back of the cafe. It’s the same cafe they went to when Gemini proposed to him back then. Since Fourth told Gemini to stop coming to his workplace, they made the decision to meet at the place straight instead. So here they are, meeting at a cafe for their next date, since Fourth had no idea where to meet up Gemini next.

Gemini seems glad to bring him to another place if Fourth doesn’t mind it, but Fourth feels kinda bad to let him be the one to choose the place for their date again for the second time in a row. The dinner last night was on him after all, so it’s only fair for Fourth to choose this time instead. Though, with his mind still full with last night’s ordeal, not only he can barely focus during work, he also didn’t put further thought into the date, he ended up choosing the cafe near his house instead. He just remembered that he still hasn’t tried their seasonal items for Christmas yet. He told Gemini about it, and luckily, Gemini simply agreed without questioning him at all.

When he reaches the table Gemini occupies, Fourth finds it extremely hard to lock eyes with the older guy. Shameful memories of last night flooding him in, he wished the ground would open up and swallow him right up this moment. Even with the embarrassment, Fourth still tries his best to calm himself down and settle himself on the seat right across Gemini, eyes shyly looking away because he simply can’t look him in the eye with the not-so-holy thoughts whirring in his mind like a broken cassette. He feels like a total pervert, to be thinking of obscene things about the guy he’s still getting to know, while having a date with that very same guy on top of that.

“Hey,” Gemini greeted, smiling. Fourth felt his heart just did a cartwheel, turning into a mess by just hearing the older man’s voice alone. He is really turning insane, isn’t he?

“Hey,” Fourth replied, suppressing the thought away. Fourth then grabbed the menu on the table for him to see what he should grab tonight. He’s thinking of trying every seasonal item they have in their menu, but he knows that wouldn’t be the best for the build he is trying to maintain.

“What do you want to drink, Gemini?” Fourth asked, putting down the menu for Gemini to look at the menu next. But Gemini didn’t pick it up, simply letting his hands rest atop the table.

“Anything would be fine. I want your recommendations,” Gemini said, smiling that gentle smile of his, genuine. Fourth felt his heart pang with heavy guilt for having that dirty dream about him last night. But again, who is he kidding, when it was Gemini himself who caused him to have that dirty dream to begin with? If it wasn’t for Gemini’s teasing, he doesn’t think he would wake up with a soiled boxer this morning. So all in all, it’s Gemini’s fault, no matter how innocent he is acting right now, he’s the culprit. This handsome motherfucker.

“You aren’t into sweet things right? Then maybe you can try their gingerbread latte. For pastries, perhaps you can pick the savory ones. They have Christmas puffs—a mix of cheese, ham, and mushrooms. I think you would like those,” Fourth suggested. He hasn’t tasted all these yet, but knowing Gemini’s taste, he would definitely prefer stuff like this.

“What about you?” Gemini asked.

“I guess I will pick their berry parfait. And their bundle cream puffs, there are new flavors that are only available this season, so I want to try them out. Oh, they have coffee mousse too,” Fourth said, muttering the last bit. Now he’s saying it out, he really feels like he wanna pick everything on the menu. His mouth is already watering at the sight of the delicious desserts, and since it has been quite a while since he had his treats, he really wishes to have all of them. Fourth has been trying hard to maintain the physique he has always been proud of, so he always tries his best to hold himself back from indulging too much sweets even when it’s his favorite thing to eat.

“Then let’s try everything on the menu,” Gemini said casually. Fourth wanted to object, but the older guy had already cut him off.

“You don’t have to force yourself to eat all of them, just a few bites of each would be fine, no?” Gemini added, raised a brow with an assuring smile on his lips.

“But it would be a waste,” Fourth muttered softly.

“I will finish them for you. We can also have them packed up to go. If you don’t want to bring it back, then I will take it home,” Gemini said assuringly. Fourth honestly thought he was being too much, but the way that Gemini managed to come up with lots of solutions for a problem that wasn’t that serious to begin with, made Fourth feel heard for once. Gemini is very attentive.

“I doubt someone who’s not a fan of sweet things can finish my leftovers,” Fourth replied.

“But well, today will be my cheat day, I guess,” Fourth added, chuckling.

At the end, with Gemini’s conviction, Fourth ended up ordering everything on the menu. When their order arrived, the table that was already so small to begin with got so full, they had to take another table to fit everything in. It’s the first time Fourth got himself a lot of stuff like this, so his excitement really is bigger than usual. He immediately took out his phone from his sling bag and took a lot of pictures of the delicious desserts from every angle. He could only dream of doing something like this before, but now he can finally do it because of Gemini. To others, it might not seem much, but for Gemini to put up with him, and go along, it definitely means a lot to Fourth.

“Does it taste good?” Gemini asked, watching as Fourth took a bite out of the creampuff. It has a candy cane cream filling, specially made for the season with its little Christmas decorations of white chocolate snowflakes and what nots.

Fourth nodded. Unconsciously, he held out the cream puff he had bit to Gemini, wanting to offer him to have a bite. But the moment he realized that it might be inappropriate to share something that he had bitten with someone he’s only newly getting to know, he immediately wanted to pull his hand away, but stopped with Gemini’s hand catching his wrist swiftly.

Fourth’s eyes widened slightly, locking with Gemini’s eyes that are gleaming with playful glints. His habit picks up again, blinking his eyes rapidly unconsciously before he could realize it. He watches as the edge of Gemini’s lips curled, showing clear intention of teasing, before he took a demure bite on the cream puff. 

It was the same spot Fourth had bitten, so the cream ended up tainting his lips slightly. What happened afterwards was subtle, quick, one could almost miss it with a blink of an eye, but even with the excessive blinking, Fourth watchful eyes managed to catch the way the older man’s red tongue sneaked out past his lips, licking the cream clean. Fourth’s head is already in the gutter since morning, so the sight is moving in slow-motion for him, burning his retinas over such a suggestive action, it made his brain melt, gears jamming out of malfunction error. He can’t think.

With the way Gemini is looking and smiling at him right now, Fourth starts to believe that Gemini indeed knows clearly what he’s doing, and the very effects it has on him. Is it because of their conversation last night, now Gemini is getting bolder with his advances?

That definitely must be it, and Fourth doesn’t think he can survive any longer if Gemini continues to act this way with him. As he had said, even though he’s still trying to figure out his feelings for Gemini, whether he should proceed with the marriage or not, his sexual desire is already bubbling like crazy. This morning’s ordeal is definitely proof of that, and with what Gemini just did, he doesn’t think he can be safe from waking up with another soiled boxer tomorrow. He’s really turning insane.

“It’s sweet,” Gemini commented, picking up a napkin to wipe off excess stains on his lips. He looks sophisticated doing that, but Fourth wished to point out that he should’ve done that earlier. Thanks to him, now Fourth can’t stop thinking about his tongue. Fucking thank you, Gemini.

“Too sweet?” Fourth replied, trying to slap away the dirty thoughts that are flying around his head like incessant fruit flies.

“A little. I guess I prefer your cake after all,” Gemini replied, taking a sip of his gingerbread latte to wash off his palate.

“I did remember you devour half of it with just spoonfuls,” Fourth said, chuckling heartily as he’s reminded of that memory again from a few months ago. It’s the first time for him to see someone devour the cake he baked like that. It seems that Gemini really enjoyed the cake back then, compared to his reaction now which is rather bland. He guesses, it's really true that Gemini isn’t a fan of sweet things in general, only Fourth’s cake suits his taste well.

“Are you open for cake orders?” Gemini asked.

“Why? Wanna order from me? My cakes are expensive,” Fourth joked.

“That’s fine with me, it’s rare to find sweets that I can eat with ease,” Gemini replied.

“I’m joking, Gemini. With my current skill, I don’t think I can open a business yet,” Fourth said, dropping the joke as soon as he realized that Gemini was taking what he said seriously. Fourth bakes a hobby. He's fairly good at it, proclaiming himself a skilled baker, but he doesn’t think he can handle a business yet, where he always has to ensure the quality of his baked goods. He’s still working full-time after all, he doesn’t think he has the energy to juggle a lot of things at once.

“Trust me, your cake is really good. I’m not a fan of sweet things, I can never eat more than two spoonfuls. But with yours, I ate half of your cake within seconds,” Gemini said, chuckling.

“Thanks, I’m proud to hear that. But I don’t think I will open any orders anytime soon. But if you really crave it, then I can bake them for you.”

“For free,” Fourth added.

“The one from before was already on you,” Gemini said, feeling bad for Fourth to bake another cake for him for free. He acknowledged the effort Fourth puts in baking the cake, so he wants to compensate the younger guy for his time and worth.

“It’s nothing, Gemini. You spent quite a fortune on dinner last night, a cake is nothing,” Fourth replies, assuring the older guy that he really doesn't have to pay him.

“Then… Are you free this weekend?” Gemini asked in turn. Fourth’s brows immediately raised, wondering what is the correlation between his off day and baking.

“I don’t think I have anything planned. Why?” Fourth responded.

“Since I’m already bothering you with your skill, then I’m thinking of paying for the ingredients at least. I know nothing about baking, like what I need to get, so I guess I still need your help with that. But I will definitely pay for everything,” Gemini explained.

Before he realized it, an adoring smile curled on Fourth’s lips. He keeps turning down Gemini’s offer to pay him for the cake, but the older guy keeps finding a new way to compensate him one way or another. It makes his heart coo with fondness, finding the older guy endearing for always wanting to make it up to him, incessantly. One thing they share in common is their stubbornness for sure. But rather than the negative connotation that quality always brings, Fourth is seeing it more in a good light. Getting to know Gemini further, he now knows that Gemini only wants to treat him in the best way he can, but still trying to work around Fourth’s wish.

“So another date?” Fourth asked, grinning.

He heard Gemini snorted, before returning his grin too.

“Yes, another date,” Gemini replied.

The talk continued for a while more as they finished all of the pastries and desserts they bought. Fourth thought he might explode from all of the desserts he ate, but it has been so long since he ate such good desserts, so he has no regrets regarding it.

Gemini is walking right next to him, both of them enjoying the chilly air the night offers. Fourth’s Kawasaki is parked not far away from Gemini’s Benz, only a few steps away from one another, parked on the opposite side of the road. Since it’s fairly late in the evening, the street is empty. So when they crossed the road, Fourth noticed that Gemini didn't seem to be in a hurry to leave. Gemini simply stands next to him, watching silently as he climbs his bike. It seems that Gemini is waiting for him to leave first, only then he will leave as well.

But just like Gemini, wishing to see Fourth more before they parted for the night, Fourth lowkey feels the same way. Especially with Gemini’s eyes attentively following him, watching as Fourth puts on his gloves. Fourth wishes that the night can be longer. Gemini mentioned that he would be occupied for the next few days, so he can’t meet Fourth until the weekend, so that just adds up another reason for his heart to feel heavy about parting with Gemini tonight. Seeing Gemini’s face every day without fail for the past few weeks feels like a habit now, a routine, no matter how brief that was. So the thought of not getting to see Gemini for a few days afterwards made him feel sour somehow. He can’t say for sure yet, but it seems that his heart has really started to open up to the thought of having Gemini in his life. Now, he starts to find the idea rather appealing.

“Anything on your mind?” Gemini’s voice broke the silence, must have noticed the way Fourth looked like he was in a deep thought.

Fourth shake his head.

“Nothing really. I think I’m getting used to seeing you everyday, so when you said you’ve matters to attend to for the next few days, it makes me think that it will be nice for us to live together, then we don’t have to part ways,” Fourth said, decided to be honest with what he had in mind. 

Gemini wishes to marry him, so it’s only fair for him to tell him what he thinks about him from time to time, so that it doesn’t seem like he’s only leading him on for nothing. Gemini asked him for a month. In a few days, it will be three weeks since Gemini proposed to him. One week left, and he has to give Gemini his final answer soon. So with the time running after them, he needs to be vocal about his own feelings, Fourth isn’t that cruel after all.

There is a pause of silence embracing them again.

“Can I hug you?” Gemini asked. Fourth blinked owlishly, confused for a moment. Then he sees the way Gemini’s face contorted slightly, as if he’s holding himself back from something. A soft crease in between his brows, and a shallow dent on his jaw. Fourth doesn’t know why Gemini is acting this way when he’s simply asking for a hug.

“Sure?” Fourth replied, baffled.

A puff of air drew out of Fourth’s lips the moment Gemini leaned in to pull him into a hug. Since Fourth is still sitting on his bike, the position is rather awkward, with half of Gemini’s much taller body bent over to hug Fourth fully into his embrace. Because of the height difference too, Fourth is totally looking up, head craned to the back with Gemini’s bigger frame swallowing him up.

The older guy is hugging him rather tightly, but not too tight, as if he’s still trying his best to be gentle with him, as if he’s holding himself back. Fourth still has no idea why Gemini wanted to hug him all of the sudden, but since he asked so politely, he doesn’t see any reason for him to reject it. So he simply returned the hug as well, wrapping his arms around Gemini’s waist.

They stay like that for a while, no words exchanged between them, only the silence of the chilly night surrounding them, accompanied by the soft noise of their own breathings and heartbeats. Now he’s getting comfortable in Gemini’s warm embrace, Fourth can’t remember when was the last time he hugged someone like this. Except for his aunt, no one had ever hugged him before. And that includes his own family as well.

Growing up, his parents are never the type to show their love through physical affection. But he still remembers the way his sister reacted when he asked for a hug back then. She called him ugly, refusing to hug him because she didn’t want to hug ugly people. He was of course hurt by her words at the time, but they were kids, so he understands her. He means, he wasn’t exactly innocent either. Chasing Gemini like a psycho just because the boy was the prettiest in town at the time, so he really wasn’t in the place to complain.

But it really feels nice to be in someone’s embrace like this. He just remembered it has been a long time since he hugged Aunt Amara either, so hugging Gemini right now made him realize that he’s really in need of this hug after all the things he had to go through recently, the issues with his family especially. He feels extremely comforted.

“You need to be more careful,” Gemini’s husky voice breaks the silence again. Confusion filling in Fourth again, perplexed to hear what Gemini is saying.

Then Gemini pulled out from the hug, leaning back so that they’re looking at each other face to face now. So close, they are barely a few centimeters apart, Fourth’s thigh pressed up against Gemini’s own, his hands still stuck on Gemini’s waist while Gemini’s rested on his neck.

“Your words, I mean. You’re going to make me hope too much,” Gemini continued.

“I don’t mean—”

“I know, you just want to be honest. But I’m really fighting with my conscience right now,” Gemini cut off, seeing that Fourth is feeling guilty about what he said. He didn’t mean to blame Fourth either, but his heart feels like it’s going to burst with exhilaration any moment now.

Fourth’s face filled with even more confusion.

“Conscience?” Fourth questioned.

“The Chronicles of Fourth Nattawat’s Stalker,” Gemini answered.

Fourth’s brows furrowed.

“There may be a new entry,” he added.

“I wish for us to not part tonight either, I wish I can kidnap you and bring you home with me,” Gemini elaborated, his face still tight, showing seriousness all over.

Fourth knows that would be creepy if it was coming from someone else, but since it came from Gemini, he couldn’t help but let out a soft snort.

“Would Mr.Gentleman have the guts to do that?” Fourth teased. Knowing Gemini now, he knows how nice and gentle Gemini is, so he would never do anything that would harm him.

Seeing Fourth smiling, Gemini’s soft frown is immediately replaced with a smile in no time.

“If you allow me, I might,” Gemini replied. Fourth bursted into a fit of laughter.

“What kind of kidnapper asked their victim for permission?” Fourth said, tapping Gemini’s waist lightly, clearly amused by Gemini’s humorous response.

Gemini then massaged his neck gently, those gentle eyes staring down at him with so much fondness, made Fourth’s heartbeat pick up now to be looked at like that oh so lovingly. Gemini is still holding his neck, fingers grazing gently on his nape, thumbs on the side of his jaws. The spots where Gemini is holding him starts to tingle ablaze. The night is freezing cold, even with the thick leather jacket on, Fourth somehow can feel his body temperature rise slightly.

He isn’t sure what happened, there was a short blur, but the next second he realized their lips were already locked together. Gemini’s lips feel extremely warm, his hot breath fanning Fourth’s lips as he moves them against his. Gemini’s kiss was gentle, but it was Fourth who started to go rougher, nibbling on the older man’s lips and swiping his tongue across the plushness. The bead of his tongue piercing glides across Gemini’s lips, earning himself a soft noise from the older guy. Before he realized it, they’re already kissing each other as if their lives depended on it. 

It feels as if the suppressed urge inside him has let loose, he finds himself kissing Gemini so desperately, fingers digging on the older guy’s waist, pulling him closer, tighter. Reciprocating his immense desire, he can feel Gemini’s grips on his nape get harder, forcing his head to crane up further so that he can kiss him deeper due to their current positions. The kiss gets messy in no time, both seem to already forget where they’re at the moment, completely lost in the kiss.

A messy kiss was totally not ideal for a first kiss, it’s far from romantic. But Fourth could care less when it feels this good. The way their lips bruising one another, tongues collide in the most desperate way, expressing hunger, sharing that bundle of warmth together through the crazy movements of their lips dancing together amidst this chilly night, it gets him extremely addicted to Gemini’s taste. Spiced gingerbread latte, with a hint of peppermint—Now he will definitely be reminded of Gemini’s lips whenever he tastes any of these in the future.

His brain is melting. He isn’t sure if he’s even breathing properly right now, head getting light from the lack of oxygen slowly emptying out his bloodstream, turning him dizzy. His head is spinning, almost seeing complete blackness, about to ascend to another world, before a loud thud brought him back.

His defensive mode activated instantly. He has always been the type to get startled easily, so the sudden rupture of complete silence forced him to pull out from the kiss in split seconds. Gemini tried to kiss him more, desperately chasing his lips even when Fourth had pulled his head away. It’s only when Fourth lets go of his waist, that Gemini finally gets the sign for him to stop. He heard the loud thud too. While Fourth was startled by the loud noise that he had to stop the kiss, on the other hand, it didn’t bother Gemini in the slightest. But since Fourth wished to stop, he respected the younger guy’s wish, so he let go of Fourth’s neck the moment he got the sign, and took a step back for the younger guy to have breathing space.

It’s when they looked around, Fourth realized that the loud thud came from his helmet dropped on the cold tar road. Next to his strapped combat boot, there lying pathetically his white helmet, staring back at him for attention to pick it up soon. The kiss was too good, he had definitely knocked down his helmet to the ground without realizing it. So embarrassing.

Fourth watched as Gemini bent down slightly to pick up the helmet for him, the older guy then held out the headgear for him to take, to which Fourth accepted shyly.

“Thanks,” Fourth muttered quietly.

Fourth’s cheeks that were already red from their kissing earlier feel a little bit hotter when he feels Gemini’s knuckles brushing over his cheekbone gently. Looking at Gemini now, with the older man’s face mirroring almost the same condition as his—slightly flushed, lips swollen red and shiny, long hair a little bit disheveled, tousled in different directions, it made Fourth’s heart swell with pride to be the reason behind that hot messy look of the older guy. He had really just made out with the hottest guy he had ever known and met. That’s insane.

“See you on the weekend,” Gemini said gently, smiling, still caressing Fourth’s cheek with his knuckles. Gemini’s skin feels so warm against his cheek, Fourth once again wishes for the night to not end here. But both of them are working adults, so it’s not like they have any other choice.

“Hmm. See you on the weekend, phi,” Fourth replied, nodding slightly. He catches the way the older guy’s smile gets a little bit wider, his pearly teeth peeking behind his stretched lips.

“I like that,” Gemini pointed out the honorific Fourth just called him with.

“Like?” Fourth questioned.

“The word you just called me,” Gemini answered.

“Phi?” Fourth repeated just to make sure. Gemini nodded.

“I’m fine with you calling me by my name too, but it feels nice to hear that from you,” Gemini said. Fourth snorted softly.

“It’s just honorific,” Fourth said.

“Which can also be an endearment,” Gemini replied, resulting in Fourth to blush.

“Gemini—”

“I know, you don’t mean it in that way. You can call me whatever you want, I’m fine with it,” Gemini beats him to it, chuckling. Fourth then nodded, feeling shy still. While he did call him phi just then because he feels comfortable with Gemini, he can’t say that he’s calling him that way as a means of endearment like what lovers do. Now he feels rather conscious to call Gemini with that word again. But he has to be honest that he kind of likes the rings of that word he just called Gemini with. Phi—Fourth’s phi.

“Have a safe ride home,” Gemini said, retreating his hand off Fourth’s cheek, the older guy took a few more steps back.

“You too, phi,” Fourth replied. He finally put on his helmet, and started the engine. Before riding off, he glanced at Gemini one last time, closing down the visor off his full face helmet with their eyes locked together. Pressing the throttle, he rode off eventually to call off the night. With that, they’re separated for a few days until the weekend comes around.

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Kissing Fourth was definitely a big mistake.

Being a higher executive in public relations of the company, Gemini is scheduled to attend a lot of business functions for these few days. Usually, events wouldn’t be this packed back to back, but since Christmas’s spirit is still around, New Year too on top of that, a lot of companies are organizing celebration events, which he had to attend. He needs to meet a lot of people, talking to them about their business and what nots, but with memories of the last night he met Fourth, for the first time in his life, he finds it hard to focus while working. He keeps thinking about the kiss they had that night, and it drives him insane. He keeps having to excuse himself to the toilet just so that he can splash his burning face with cold water to stay focused.

Fourth is just so—hot.

He had his fair share of dating history, but no exes of his ever come close to what Fourth is. A lot of people know their taste, firm with what they wish to have in their partners, but Gemini was never one of them. The girls he dated before were all different—their looks, personality, fashion sense, one could never guess Gemini’s taste in women, because heaven, even he himself has no idea either. He just knew that he felt attracted to girls. But the moment he first saw Fourth for the first time in years back then, crossing right in front of his car, Gemini’s mind immediately screamed at him, ‘this, this is what he wants’. And he ended up jumping out of the car before he could realize it. Other than pure concern that he almost ran over someone, it’s also the first time for him to feel what people call love at first sight.

Blond buzz-cut with two slits of hair tattoo on one side, chain necklace adorned pretty neck, piercings all over the pinkish ears. Slits on the brows, red lips on snow white skin. Baggy grunge graphic tee, loose-fit cargo pants and a pair of combat boots. It’s when he caught up to him and looked at the face properly, that Gemini felt an immense relief to realize that the guy is Fourth. The little kid who loved to stalk him back then had changed a lot, but the eyes are still the same, which is why Gemini managed to recognize him within seconds.

The kind of fashion Fourth has is not something new, Gemini had seen it a lot before on others, but he always feels normal about it. Hence why it’s a surprise for himself when he feels really attracted to see Fourth dresses in such a way. It should be nothing new. Maybe it’s because of his confidence? The younger guy managed to pull off the look so well, Gemini gets obsessed with staring at him. And when he met Fourth again a few weeks later in Krung Thep, seeing him at his workplace for the first time, cladded in leather gear on a huge bike, it only worsened the new discovery he had about his taste. He really has something for the way Fourth looks.

Don’t get him wrong, he isn’t simply pursuing Fourth for his body and merely looks alone. He finds the younger guy adorable and extremely endearing. But right now, the main issue he has regarding the other guy definitely has something to do with Fourth’s sexiness. The kiss they had that night was mind-blowing. It was messy, but so amazing, the memory of that night imprinted on Gemini’s mind like a burnt LED. And the way he could still feel the lingering touch of Fourth’s tongue piercing brushing against his lips and tongue—that was definitely the most insane part of the kiss they had that night. The kiss keeps messing with his mind, he keeps wondering the kind of other places that tongue piercing can explore on his body. Hence why he needs to wash his face, in order to calm himself down from the insane thought playing inside his head.

Fourth is so fucking hot.

Whenever he climbs over his bike, and the tight leather pants would stretch over his behind, it drives Gemini insane whenever that image replays inside his head. It wasn’t on purpose for him to look at Fourth in that way, he was simply looking because he loves staring at Fourth. But the moment he caught that sinful sight, it’s hard for him to tear his gaze away. It’s perverted, Fourth might be disappointed if he knows what Gemini has in mind. But dear Lord—Gemini needs him.

Luckily, with his head mostly in the cloud for the few days he couldn’t see Fourth, the days flew by so quickly. The next thing he realized, it’s already the weekend, and he had promised Fourth to pick him up at his house so that they can go shopping for the ingredients together.

The moment he pulls over in front of Fourth’s house, he notices that the younger guy is already waiting for him outside. Since Fourth doesn't have to ride today, Gemini guesses that’s why the usual leather gear isn’t seen on him today. Instead, Fourth is dressed up in a more casual way, similar to back when Gemini saw him back in their hometown. Baggy grunge graphic tee and pair of loose-fit cargo pants, but instead of his usual combat boots, the younger guy puts on a pair of white sneakers this time. He’s wearing a cap today, a cross body bag on his well-built frame. Gemini can see that familiar chain necklace with a padlock still adorning that pretty neck today, he guesses Fourth never takes it off. It made him wonder if there’s any symbolic meaning behind it, which he keeps in mind to ask Fourth about it later.

“Hi,” Gemini said the moment Fourth opened the car door. Fourth settled in the car first, closing the door after him, before he replied to Gemini’s greeting.

“Hi phi,” Fourth said, pulling the seatbelt for him to put it on. As he buckled up, Gemini silently admired the tiny outline of a crescent moon tattoo on the side of Fourth’s right wrist. He had long noticed it, but it’s the first time he’s seeing it up close.

“I forgot to ask what flavor you want for the cake,” Fourth continued, catching Gemini’s eyes to be on his face again.

“I don't mind anything honestly, I believe everything you bake will taste just as amazing,” Gemini replied. He heard Fourth snorted softly.

“Save the flirting for another time, phi. I need a proper answer,” Fourth said. Gemini then took a moment for him to think of an answer, but couldn't come up with anything. Just as he had said, he really doesn't mind anything as long as it’s Fourth who bakes the cake.

“I really mean it, Fourth. I’m fine with anything,” Gemini said, chuckling lightly to see that Fourth doesn’t seem to buy his words, thinking that he was only flirting with him. But the moment he realized that Gemini is indeed serious with his answer, it’s Fourth’s turn this time to fall silent for a moment, thinking silently, before he speaks again.

“Then should I try baking something different for you today?” Fourth suggested, breaking that momentary silence. Gemini’s brows raised in piqued curiosity.

“Since the cream puff you tasted before was too sweet for you, I’m thinking of baking ones that you can eat with ease,” Fourth added. The elaboration brought a fond smile on Gemini’s face to know that Fourth remembers insignificant details about him. He’s trying his best to not put too much hope in case of disappointment, but it seems like Fourth is slowly returning his feelings for him. Of course, it made him internally cheer with triumph to see such progress.

“Sure, I would love to have that,” Gemini replied. Feeling giddy, he can’t help but smile like an idiot. It seems that his smile is affecting the other too, because he noticed Fourth’s red lips quirk into a tiny smile as well.

“So, which store do you usually go to buy the ingredients?” Gemini asked, ready to drive.

“The one in the Kaosan road, it’s just a few minutes drive from here,” Fourth replied.

“We will go to that one then,” Gemini said. Fourth nodded.

As Fourth mentioned, the said store is indeed close to his house, so it didn’t take long for them to get there. And since Fourth knows his way around in the store, it didn’t take long for them to get everything in the basket either. Swiftly picking up a few things from one aisle, a few others on another. They had a small talk here and there, but over all, everything was done fairly quickly. The moment Gemini paid for everything, and they loaded the stuff they bought in the boot, it took less than an hour for the shopping to be completed.

Since Fourth has an oven at his place, they planned to do the baking there. Well, that was the plan, until they tried to preheat the oven, and it turned out that the oven wasn't working.

“That’s weird, it was working just fine the last time I used it,” Fourth said, utterly confused to see that the oven isn’t working.

“When was the last time you used it?” Gemini asked, leaning against the kitchen counter next to Fourth who’s crouching on the floor.

“Christmas Eve,” Fourth replied, closing the door of the oven before standing up straight again.

“It has been quite some time then,” Gemini said, considering the possibility that the oven might have broken down because it wasn’t in use for a while. But again, it’s not like he knows how the oven works, it was merely a guess because Christmas Eve was weeks ago, it has been almost a month now since then.

“But it’s still fairly recent,” Fourth sounds a little annoyed—Not at Gemini, but at the oven, as he must be displeased that the machine is breaking down at the wrong time. Out of all days, why must it be the day Gemini is coming over?

“I’m sorry. The oven is already old anyway, so it’s only a matter of time before it breaks down. I just didn’t expect it would be today. Out of all time,” Fourth said, exhaling heavily in concealed frustration. He feels bad that the plan for today is ruined now all because of him. He should’ve checked the oven first before offering Gemini to come over. Having to drive all the way here, the older guy had spent his money on the ingredients too, so the guilt only feels heavier for him.

Then Fourth felt Gemini’s knuckles on his cheek, brushing it gently as a means to comfort him. When he looks at his face, Gemini doesn’t look the least angry nor displeased, the older guy is still smiling that gentle smile of his, it makes Fourth feel even more remorse seeing it.

“It’s okay, Fourth. It’s not your fault,” Gemini said. The older guy then patted his head this time, it surprised Fourth for a hot moment as it’s the first time for Gemini to do that. But loving the older guy’s gentle touch, he doesn’t mind it in the slightest, and lets himself enjoy the soft patting of Gemini’s big hand on his head, playing with the short locks of his buzz-cut.

Gemini can’t hold himself back from patting the younger guy. Dejected Fourth really is a sight for him, the younger guy looks extremely adorable. Like a grumpy hedgehog, with its spikey quills raised out of displease, sulking that things are not going as planned—It made Gemini want to pet the quills on his head in order to comfort him. His adorable little tiny hedgehog.

“How about using the oven at my place?” Gemini suggested.

Initially, he planned to offer Fourth to use the oven at his place, but since Fourth had offered the one at his first, he immediately discarded the idea. Other than he believes it will be easier for the younger guy to work around in the comfort of his own house, he also doesn’t want Fourth to misunderstand his intention. If he gets too eager inviting Fourth to his place when they’re still in this talking stage, chances are, Fourth would be appalled—thinking that he’s only asking him to bake the cake because he wants to take advantage of him. Which is totally not the case. Gemini genuinely wants to have Fourth’s cake again, but he knows things can easily be misunderstood. So he refrained from bringing up the idea. But now that it has turned this way, he might give it a try. Just a simple suggestion, since he still wishes to spend the rest of the day with Fourth.

He noticed the way Fourth’s brows knitted softly.

“I don’t have any hidden intentions, I swear. You don’t have to come over if you don’t want to, I totally understand. We can change our plan for today,” Gemini said, trying his best to assure the younger guy that he really didn't have any hidden intentions in inviting him over to his place.

“You’ve already bought the ingredients,” Fourth trailed. The younger guy looked like he was in a deep thought for a moment before he continued again.

“Sure, let’s get to your place,” Fourth said out his answer, much to Gemini’s relief. For Fourth to say yes, it makes him feel at ease to see Fourth trusts him. Though, he tried his best to hide his excitement from showing too much, worried that Fourth would change his mind if he did.

“Alright, let’s go,” Gemini said, smiling.

With that, Fourth took a moment to gather his baking tools. Meanwhile, Gemini loaded the bags of ingredients back into the boot of his SUV, getting ready to leave soon. Gemini’s place is actually not that far from Fourth’s (which Fourth just found out, he realized he never asked the older guy before where he lives). It’s roughly a 20-minute drive without traffic, so it doesn’t take long before they pull up in the parking basement of the condo Gemini lives in soon afterwards.

It’s not a hidden fact that Gemini is wealthy, so Fourth wasn’t fazed to see the luxury his living space screams the moment Gemini swung the door open for them to get inside. He lets Gemini lead him in, following after Gemini into the kitchen area. When the older guy put down the bags of ingredients on the kitchen counter top, he did the same too with his bag of baking tools.

“This is the oven,” Gemini said, tapping lightly on the door of the oven built inside the cabinet. He then pressed a button to turn it on, just to show the other guy that it’s working.

“I wonder why you even have it in the first place,” Fourth said, stepping to where Gemini stands to look at the oven closer. Inspecting it up-close, It’s evident that the oven is untouched, shiny and clean from any single trace of being used in the past.

Fourth is badly in need of a new oven, the not-so-sudden death of his long companion for years today is proof of that. If it wasn’t for the commitments and other priorities, he would have long bought a new one to replace it. So to see Gemini with a fully-functional oven at his place, with the fact that he had no idea how to use it, makes him note that rich people really have too much disposable money to spend on things they don’t need.

“It comes with the rest of the furniture when I bought the unit,” Gemini answered.

Of course he bought the condo fully-furnished too, Fourth thought.

“So I guess it will be all yours. Feel free to move around, if you need to use the bathroom, it’s just right there on the other side,” Gemini said, pointing at the door where Fourth assumed must be the said bathroom.

Fourth then watched as Gemini rolled his sleeves. Instead of the usual dress shirts he usually sees him with, the older guy is in a cream buttoned up cardigan today. White shirt underneath, and a pair of brown loose khakis. He always looks elegant, screaming young master no matter what he puts on, but today’s look definitely makes him look more blinding than usual. Compared to Fourth who’s into rough style, and looks like a rebel. (He is, but Fourth believes there are a lot of other guys who are much worse, so it’s safe to say that he’s still well-behaved compared to them). Their fashion sense really is a contrast of each other, but oddly, that is what makes them look perfect together. The difference is what completes them, like yin and yang.

“You can do other things while I bake, it’s fine,” Fourth said, noticing that Gemini seems ready to help around in the kitchen.

“It seems fun, I want to help. Or would you prefer to be alone? Then I can leave—”

“No, it’s alright.” Fourth cut off before Gemini could have finished his sentence.

“You don’t have to leave. If you want to help around, then I like it that way. It’s always fun to have company.” It brought a smile to Gemini’s face to hear the younger guy’s words, content to see that Fourth wants to spend time with him as much as he does. He means, that’s the main purpose for today's date, to spend time together while baking—well—while Fourth baking, since Gemini has zero clues when it comes to baking. Though he may be clueless, he totally loves the idea of watching Fourth in his element. He honestly can watch Fourth for hours, and he wouldn’t be bored in the slightest. That’s just how much of a goner he is already for the younger guy.

“Then, what can I do to help you?” Gemini asked.

“Can you preheat the oven for me? I will prepare the dough,” Fourth said. Gemini nodded. The older guy then went up to the oven again, got a little confused with all the knobs and buttons on the door, but after a moment, he guessed he eventually got a hang of it.

“What temperature should I turn this up to?” Gemini asked, experimentally tapping on the button to play around with the number shown on the tiny screen.

“200 degrees,” Fourth replied as he worked around the ingredients on the counter top, getting a measuring cup to pour the ingredients one after another into a saucepan. Making sure that he had pressed the button for the oven to start heating at the requested temperature, Gemini then got back to Fourth’s side to watch him attentively again.

He honestly looks like an eager pup, following around its owner, since whenever Fourth moved, he would follow too and make sure he’s never less than two steps away from the younger guy. With the heat turned on, Gemini watched as Fourth picked up a wooden spatula and stirred the content inside to a boil. Then he took the saucepan off the heat, poured a cup of flour next, he stirred the content again which seemed to be thicker with flour incorporated this time.

“Do you want to try it?” Fourth must have noticed his unflinching gaze, smiling as their eyes met. Once Gemini nodded, he saw Fourth put the saucepan on the stove again, before he took a few steps aside, gestured for him to take the wooden spoon from him. Which Gemini did, replacing Fourth’s place to continue stirring the dough inside the saucepan on medium heat.

“How long should I stir this?” Gemini asked.

“About two minutes,” Fourth replied. The younger guy then leaned against the counter, eyes on him. As Fourth’s gaze grows heavier on his skin, Gemini has to be honest that he feels rather conscious with how he looks right now. Another time, he may not feel this way. But since he’s doing something he has never done before, it made him wonder if it’s too obvious that he has no idea what he is doing. Is he making a fool of himself in front of Fourth right now?

“God is fair.” Gemini’s head immediately turned to look at the other guy to hear him speak. His brows cocked in curiosity, to which he was met with Fourth’s chuckles as a response.

“Nothing. I just thought that you not knowing how to bake is like a balance for the rest of the population. Wouldn’t it be unfair if you know how to bake on top of that face and personality?” Fourth said, grinning with light chuckles still emptied out his lips. Hearing the other guy’s words, it made Gemini have his share of chuckles too. Fourth is indirectly complimenting him, he isn’t sure if Fourth realizes that he’s basically flirting with him, but it made him want to play along.

“If that is your definition of God being fair, then I don’t think that’s true,” Gemini replied. He saw the way confusion showed up on Fourth’s pretty face, a soft crease in between his brows, and apparent look of curiosity. Upon that sight of obliviousness, Gemini grinned.

“Because you’re perfect in everything,” he finished his words. The moment his words sunk in Fourth’s assimilation, he noticed the way Fourth’s pink cheeks redden in what he assumed must be shyness, because the younger guy immediately threw his gaze away.

“You can turn off the heat.” Fourth is ignoring his words.

Gemini chuckled, totally endeared to see Fourth getting shy because of his flirting. He has done this a lot, but it seems that Fourth has still not gotten used to it yet from the way he’s acting now. And of course Gemini finds the sight so adorable, it makes him want to kiss those pink cheeks with millions of kisses. With the way Fourth dresses up and acts usually, one wouldn’t expect that he would actually be this shy. He always seems confident with the way he brings himself, everything he does, but the moment Gemini teased him in the slightest, flirting with him on top of that, he always managed to draw out interesting reactions like this. It’s just too adorable.

Turning off the heat as told, he watched as the shy guy who’s avoiding his gaze turned his back against him, standing at the kitchen island as he cracked a few eggs into a bowl, separating the yolk off the white part. Wanting to tease the shy guy more, he made sure to stand exactly next to him, closing the proximity between them just to mess with the younger guy whose face only reddened from how close they’re standing at the moment. He can see that cute habit of excessive blinking bursting before him. Trying to play it off by keeping himself occupied, but his bodily reaction really gives his thoughts away.

God, he really wishes to kiss him.

“Rather than teasing me, can you bring me the saucepan?” Fourth said, eyes still avoiding him. Honestly it only made Gemini want to tease him further, but didn't want to make the younger guy angry and put off by him soon, he listened and picked up the saucepan from the stove as told. 

When he put down the saucepan on the countertop, he saw Fourth bringing out an electric hand mixer from the same bag he brought with him, connecting it to one of the power sockets on the countertop. The younger guy then transferred the mixture from the saucepan into a large bowl. The next second, loud whirring of the mixer immediately resounded the kitchen space. Gemini watched as he poured in the egg yolk he had separated earlier into the mixture one by one. He continued to beat the mixture for a few minutes more, before he pulled out a piping bag next, and transferred the dough into it afterwards.

Now Fourth is piping the dough into a baking sheet lined with parchment paper. He’s doing it so effortlessly, piping dots one after another with ease, it makes Gemini wonder if it’s easy as it looks.

“You can try it if you want.”

Taking the piping bag from the younger guy, he tried his best to imitate what he had seen Fourth doing with the piping bag, but it was a mess. Below to Fourth’s row of perfectly piped dough, one can see an apparent contrast between those and Gemini’s wonky ones that look like a bird had just randomly pooped on the baking tray. He wasn’t sure how to control the pressure, so he ended up squeezing the piping bag harder than he should.

“You have heavy hands, I see,” he heard Fourth commented. Then the next second, he felt the younger guy’s hands on top of his that’s still holding the piping bag, Fourth’s body heat pressed up so tightly next to his own, it makes Gemini’s heartbeat thump against his chest, totally caught off guard from the unannounced physical contact.

He might love to tease Fourth, but there’s a stark difference between who initiated the move first, because he definitely loses his mind when it’s the younger guy who does it first. His heart wasn’t the least prepared. So he isn’t sure how to act right now, especially with what they did the last time they met that night. After trying his best to not think about the kiss for days, now he’s reminded of that again, all because of Fourth’s unexpected move. He’s losing his mind.

“Only a tiny bit of pressure. Once it’s piped, release the pressure completely before you pull the bag away.” Since they’re standing so close together, bodies pressing up, Fourth’s voice sounds so prominent in his hearing, he can hear the huskiness of his low note, and his faint breathing. It really doesn’t help that the body contact has already made him feel like he’s losing his mind to begin with. Now it’s only getting worse and worse.

“We don’t want peaks,” Fourth’s warm voice resounded more. His petite fingers gripping on top of Gemini’s longer own. Fourth’s hands are much smaller than his, snow white skin with pinkish undertone, it gives this contrasting image with Gemini’s below his that are slightly tanned. He has been told that he has a fair skin of his own, but compared to Fourth now, he has come to a new realization that Fourth is actually this pale. It makes him wonder if the rest of Fourth’s body is this snowy white as well, would it be slightly pinkish like his ears and cheeks too?

Catching himself thinking about obscene things, Gemini quickly shook his head to shoo all of the unholy thoughts away. Fourth is here to bake you pastries, not be your pastries, pervert!

“It will be a mess, so you need to swirl the tip on the side before you pull out.”

And that was his last straw.

“I—I need to go to the bathroom,” Gemini quickly excused himself. He simply can’t contain his thoughts anymore with Fourth’s body pressed up so close against him, saying things that can be taken with different meanings on top of that, he badly needs a break to calm himself down.

Taking care of his problem would be insane of him with the presence of Fourth still in the house, so Gemini simply splashed his red face with cold water, simultaneously trying to calm himself down by thinking of things that can help shift his attention away from having impure thoughts. He had given Fourth his words, promised him that he had no other intentions when inviting him over, but Lord, is his patience being tested with Fourth himself the one who’s being careless about his boundary. If Fourth continues doing this, he isn’t sure if he has enough strength to fight with his pent-up desire soon. He’s really trying his best to uphold his conscience.

Ever since the kiss they had that night, Gemini’s imaginations had been running loose. He had no experience with men, but because of Fourth, he had looked up a lot of things online, and as a result, he couldn’t help but keep imagining having Fourth in such ways. It’s insane.

He didn’t realize how long he was in the bathroom, too focused on calming himself down, it was after he walked out and got back into the kitchen, he realized that he had spent quite a while in there because the dough he piped then were already fully baked, sitting on a cooling rack on the counter top, staring at him. He noticed Fourth sitting at the kitchen island, a mug in his hands, seems to wait for him. Gemini then awkwardly walked up to him, taking the seat next to him.

“You spent quite some time there,” Fourth said, taking a sip of his drink, which Gemini realized is a cup of tea since Fourth made one for him too.

“Stomachache,” Gemini lied.

“So the puffs are ready?” Gemini asked, trying to change the topic.

“Almost,” Fourth answered. Luckily, Fourth didn't press the topic further.

“Since you’ve spent 30 minutes in the toilet.” Or so he thought.

He wasn’t sure if he saw it right, but he noticed the edge of Fourth’s lips curling slightly, as if he’s smirking. He isn’t sure whether that was a tease, or Fourth is just being sarcastic.

“The baking part is done, only the filling is left. I’m waiting for the puffs to cool,” Fourth added. 

Gemini watches as Fourth puts down the mug on the counter top, before he stands up from his seat. Rounding the kitchen island, the younger guy checked out the temperature of the puffs by lightly tapping on it. Doing that, Gemini soon noticed a big bowl sitting next to the cooling rack, filled with what seems to be white whipped cream which he guessed Fourth had definitely made when he was in the toilet praying his mind off to calm himself down just now. He feels bad that Fourth had to be left alone on his own for a while, but there’s really nothing he can do when the devil inside him almost lets loose, he has to flee.

“Do you need help?” Gemini asked, following after Fourth, he stood up from his seat and got to the younger guy’s side. Fourth is picking up a silicone spatula now, scooping the whipped cream from the large bowl into a clear piping bag that looks almost identical to the one he used for the dough earlier. Though the opening tip for this one looks smaller.

“Not quite,” Fourth replied, already piping the cream into the puffs. Gemini feels awkward, but he stands there still, watching Fourth filling up more of the puff shells with the piping bag.

“Do you want to try?” Fourth asked, offering the piping bag to the older guy, to which Gemini accepted without further thoughts. He tried to imitate what he saw and squeezed the piping bag. But just as what Fourth had said, he has heavy hands, so the puff immediately got overfilled. It leaked out down his hand. Wanting to clean up the mess, Gemini put down the piping bag on the surface, wanting to get himself a napkin to wipe his hand with, until he was surprised by Fourth slamming him against the kitchen counter.

It happened so quickly, in a split second, their lips were already molded together. Fourth kissing him so eagerly, catching his lips, trapping his body in between his own and against the kitchen counter. With Gemini’s behind meeting the edge of the counter top, his hands automatically propped on the counter top for immediate balance. He accidentally pressed on the piping bag with his hand, resulting in the mess only getting worse. His fingers get extremely sticky because of the whipped cream now, but that’s his least concern when Fourth is currently eating out his lips as if he had been starved for days. His voluptuous chest pressed up tightly against his own, body heat colliding, Gemini can feel both of their heartbeats.

Fourth’s lips feel so good against his, his first reaction is of course to return the kiss rather than pushing away. Undoubtedly, just as eager to have the guy he fancy kisses him. Even though he can feel that it’s pure lust from the way Fourth is nipping on his lips with his teeth, and sucking on his tongue harshly, messy, Gemini is not slightly put off by it. What more, it actually gets him even more turned on to feel this desired by the guy he’s chasing after.

Sure, his main goal is for Fourth to return his feelings and accept his proposal soon. But he had also been lusting for the younger guy for the past few days like crazy, it’s only natural for him to find himself giving in.

Soon he finds himself sucking on the piercing on Fourth’s tongue, getting obsessed with the way the silver bead would roll on his tongue as Fourth kisses him back, hard. Heavy breathings harshly emptied out of their lips the more they kiss, getting light-headed from the pleasure of the dizzying sweet kiss eating both their minds up. Gemini wishes he can kiss Fourth’s honeyed lips forever, but the wish remains when Fourth pulls away first, breaking off the kiss completely.

Badly needing the younger guy’s lips on his more, he tried to chase after those lips again, but Fourth continued to pull away, leaving Gemini to grunt in annoyance. As Gemini stares at Fourth’s slightly flushed face slowly inching away from him, he can’t help but notice a string of saliva connecting the tip of Fourth’s tongue with his own lips. Which Fourth curled his tongue slightly, resulting in the thin string of saliva to break off the next second.

The sight is a total treat to Gemini’s lustful eyes, sexual urge bubbling inside him like crazy to see the way Fourth’s tongue piercing would glisten prettily under the shine of kitchen’s ceiling light. Like a calling with his pink tongue still sticks out to show the remnant of Gemini’s trace on him, quivering so invitingly, it worsens the building grunt in his chest to see it.

Fourth is teasing him.

The tiny smirk on the edge of his swollen lips is proof of that. It made Gemini clench his jaw tightly in pent-up desire, tightening his clawing grip on the kitchen counter too—He badly wishes to eat up the guy in front of him.

“Wanna have a good time?” He felt Fourth’s hands on his waist, his fingers dug on his hips to feel him through the fabric. Every touch burns, he had to inhale sharply to calm himself down.

“I don’t bring you here to do this with you,” Gemini said. As much as he loves to see where this would go, he needs to make it clear to Fourth that he really didn’t look forward to this tonight.

“I know, you’ve made it clear.” Despite his words, Fourth’s hands felt heavier on his hips. The searing warmth of his hands burned through the fabric, forcing Gemini’s breath to grow even more shallow. Before knowing, the attempt of holding himself back resulted in him clenching his jaw tightly, sharp inhale in an attempt to compose himself. Every muscle in his body is tensing up real hard at this moment, trying his best to not pounce on the younger guy—At least not until he fully gets his permission to do so.

“But I agreed to come here with that intention in mind,” Fourth continued, smirking.

Another thread of reasoning just snapped, Gemini inhaled sharply again.

Fourth’s hands that were on his hips then dangerously moved closer to the center of his front. Still haven’t directly contacted his crotch, but one more move, he can definitely see the obvious tent that is painfully growing under Gemini’s loose khakis soon. Or Fourth had already noticed, since his smirk gets wider.

He knows what he’s doing.

“Did you have fun?”

One hand made its way on Gemini’s waistband.

“30 minutes is quite a while. Should’ve invited me to help you.”

A sharp snort out left him when Fourth unbuttoned his pants, he had to hold Fourth’s wrist to stop him from going further.

“Fourth… Do you really want to do this?” Gemini mustered up his sanity to ask that question. He just needs to make sure that Fourth wouldn’t regret this before letting himself go.

“Phi, my first wet dream was you,” Fourth replied. Gemini felt his body turning hot at the sudden confession of childhood past. There’s really no need for Fourth to tell him this, but knowing the reason why he’s doing this, it made Gemini feel hotter. The grunt in his chest grew louder.

“Then after our first date together, I had more wet dreams about you. Do you want to know what it is about?” Fourth asked, grinning that devilish grin. Blood is pumping in Gemini’s body, rushing out of pure exhilaration—He never knew Fourth can actually be this naughty and obscene.

The Fourth he knows for the past few weeks is nonchalant and sarcastic, but gentle and kind at the same time. Extremely adorable in his eyes, sometimes shy and explosive—So to see a new side of him, a sexy one at that tonight really is driving Gemini to the edge of insanity.

As Gemini is still stumped from Fourth’s lewd confessions, he failed to catch him from unzipping his pants this time. In mere seconds, with both button and zip coming undone, the brief boxer is only what saves Gemini’s hard-on from being fully exposed to the eyes of the other. Fourth is totally blatantly staring him down, shameless, smirking.

“You’re hard,” and that bold comment only made Gemini grow harder. Fuck.

Fourth’s fingers hooked underneath the waistband of his boxer this time, resulting in Gemini to suck in his breath involuntarily, feeling the cold touch of Fourth’s fingers on his abdomen, curling tightly to grip on the waistband teasingly. He’s playfully fiddling with the waistband.

“So to answer your question—Yes, I do want this, phi. Do you want it?” Fourth asked, his eyes moved upwards from staring down Gemini’s exposed bulge up to his eyes, looking him straight in the eye for an answer with naughty glints dancing in those pretty brown eyes.

Licking his dry lips, Gemini swallowed harshly.

“I have no experience with men,” Gemini replied. He knows he has said it before during their first date together, but he’s just making sure that Fourth acknowledges that fact tonight, or else he would only be met with thorough dissatisfaction.

A soft snort, followed by light chuckles.

“You’ve told me that before, phi,” Fourth said, chuckling again.

“And you also told me that I can teach you everything,” Fourth added, smirking, clearly turning Gemini’s words back on him.

“Tonight can be your first lesson.”

Gemini’s threads of reasoning have all been snapped.

“Then teach me,” Gemini replied, already throwing caution to the wind.

He saw Fourth smirk again.

“My lessons are freaky,” Fourth said, fingers teasingly scratching on Gemini’s abdomen, drawing more desperate reactions from the older guy. Gemini’s breath is laboring harder.

“You have to let me do everything I want with you. Follow my commands… Be a good obedient student…” Fourth continued, tugging on the waistband this time before he let it go, letting it snap back against the skin of Gemini’s lower abdomen. Then he caressed the skin, before hooking his finger underneath the waistband again, playing with it.

“Are you up for that?” Fourth asked, the smirk grew wider.

Gemini swallowed, breath shaky.

“I do,” he gave his final answer.

“Great,” the younger guy muttered.

The next thing he knows, Fourth is already pulling down his boxer and pulling out his cock from the killing constriction. There’s not a single hesitation, every move is deliberate, his petite fingers moving against the area below his navel, feeling his skin up and caressing his hips, boldly touching him in a sensual manner, bringing goosebumps all over Gemini’s body. The touch gets lower, moving downwards the sensitive area below Gemini’s navel, right above his groin, Gemini’s hips twitched involuntarily, stomach sucking in.

He feels extremely exposed. Half-hard cock hanging out in the open, cold and twitching. He can hear his own heartbeats ringing on his ribcage, partly nervous to have his private part in line with Fourth’s vision, but mostly out of excitement to be in such an intimate situation with the guy he likes. Fourth’s fingers dance all over his body, making contact with his bare skin. Every touch from him leaves blazing tingles on Gemini’s skin, it only resulted in that thumping in his chest getting even worse. Erratic heartbeats, length that is only growing harder and harder—He’s getting extremely turned on.

Gemini badly wishes for Fourth to bring his hands lower, but the younger guy simply caresses his lower abdomen for a while, as if he’s taking his sweet time, as if he’s giving Gemini some time to brace himself for something bigger—But Gemini is getting impatient.

Fortunately, as if he can hear Gemini’s silent desperation for him (maybe not so silent because Gemini is actually slightly trembling with desperation), Fourth eventually reaches out for the main attention hanging on his hips at last, wrapping his petite fingers around the flushed half-hard length, just as Gemini had been anguishedly wishing for. He had been wishing for it, but couldn’t help himself from hissing short, genuinely surprised by the heat of Fourth’s palm wrapped around his growing length. It took a few seconds to get used to the warmth, but as the younger’s hand pumps his shaft up and down slowly with gentle delectable strokes, it doesn’t take long before his cock flushes to its fullest.

The skillful slow strokes drew soft moans out of Gemini’s lips, hips bucking to have more of that sweet deliberate pump. His grip on the edge of the kitchen counter tightened, muscles tightly contracted at the pleasure of his shaft being pumped.

“Shit,” Gemini cursed, clenching his jaw as he threw his head back with Fourth playing with the tip of his flushed cock this time, thumbing the precum and smearing it along his length.

Then he felt Fourth’s soft lips on his throat, biting and sucking on his Adam’s apple as his hand moved against his length, jerking him off still while mouthing on the bump on his throat. He did this for a while, pierced tongue slithering along the muscles on his throat, fingers moving skillfully along his shaft, playing with the sensitive head and fondling with his sacks, getting Gemini harder and harder, and when he felt that familiar hotness pooling in his lower abdomen, nearing his orgasm, the younger guy immediately pulled both his lips and hand away, denying him at once.

“Fuck,” Gemini cursed, irked that his orgasm was denied. Noticing the annoyance on his face, he heard Fourth chuckled, before the guy pecked his lips short.

“Let’s slow down, phi. I barely do anything yet,” Fourth said, smirking. Gemini clenched his jaw tightly, getting extremely worked up by the younger guy’s teasing.

“Your body is really honest, phi. It’s really sensitive,” Fourth said, tracing the length of Gemini’s flushed length with his nail, it amuses him to see the fat cock twitched prettily under the tiniest touch from him. Followed by a soft groan from the owner, Fourth finds the sight very cute.

“It’s huge, but very sensitive,” Fourth said, chuckling as he teased the flushed cock underneath his fingers again, tracing the prominent vein on the underside, and the leaking tip, the cock can’t stop twitching with desperation for more touch.

“Have you done this, phi?” Fourth asked. Gemini’s brows that were already scrunched deeply out of frustration, scrunch even more with confusion this time, wondering what Fourth meant.

He watched as Fourth picked up the cream puff he had filled with cream then, and when Fourth brought it close to his hard-on, that’s when it finally clicked on him what Fourth was about to do. His body jumped a little when he felt the cold cream come in contact with the tip of his cock, a hiss leaving his lips as Fourth continued to rub the cream all over the sensitive head.

“So pretty,” Fourth commented. He pushed the cream puff harder on Gemini’s cock, resulting in the soft pastry to be impaled by the bulbous head. Gemini moaned at the softness cocooning his cock, hips trembling as Fourth pushed the cream puff deeper and deeper on his length. It’s so dirty, obscene, but Gemini finds himself rocking his hips for more, hands gripping on Fourth’s arms to stabilize himself from collapsing out of sweet pleasure electrifying his senses.

When Fourth pulled out the cream puff, it brought out another moan of him to feel the soft wall moving against his length. And when Fourth pushed the pastry down on his cock again, his grip on Fourth’s arms tightened, clawing on the biceps as the pleasure was making his knees turning weak. His breath is getting shallow, mind dizzy as Fourth starts to move the cream puff against his length repeatedly with constant rhythm. Soon, he finds himself following that rhythm, bucking his hips upwards as Fourth pushes the cream puff down towards his hips. The pace slowly gets quicker, faster, the next thing he knows, he’s fucking the cream puff as if his life depends on it.

It feels too good, so fucking good, and for Fourth’s lustful eyes to be on him, watching him doing perverted things like this (even if it was on Fourth, the culprit behind it who made this mess on him), it gets him so fucking hard, desperate for release. He can hear Fourth’s amused chuckles, he must be entertained to see how desperate Gemini is becoming because of him.

“Does it feel that good, phi?” He heard Fourth commented, pure amusement in his tone. Gemini refused to answer, only focusing on reaching his orgasm.

He’s so close. The velvety wall feels so good wrapped around his desperation, paired with the moist mushy mess of the whipped cream and mashed inside, he’s so fucking close. A few more bucks, and his muscles spasmed tightly, hips stuttering as he released inside the cream puff. A loud moan left his lips, fingers dug on Fourth’s triceps as his hips buck uncontrollably with pure pleasure of getting his release, sweet pleasure running all over his body with bliss as he rides through his orgasm, rolling his hips against the pastry in Fourth’s hand, spurting more load after load inside the mushy tightness.

His head is spinning, chest extremely heavy from the orgasm taking all of his breath away, he’s panting heavily to collect his thoughts again. He didn’t even notice he had forcefully pulled Fourth closer as a result from his orgasm, forehead resting on Fourth’s sturdy chest, he can hear Fourth’s heartbeat and the comforting vibration of his deep chuckles.

“Awe phi, you came so fast,” Fourth teased.

“But I don’t give you my permission to cum, do I?” Fourth continued. His deep voice sends chills down Gemini’s spine. One would be scared over the dominating tone, but for Gemini, it brought a small smile on his lips. Face still buried against Fourth’s chest, he’s snorting, an undeniably strong urge rising in him to turn the position around—to show who’s actually in control.

He wants to dominate Fourth soon.

For now, he will let Fourth do whatever he wants first. Seeing Fourth acting like he really owns him made him want to enjoy the show a little bit more—It’s incredibly sexy. As much as it’s true that Fourth has successfully had him wrapped around his tiny finger, and he’s happy to let Fourth do whatever he wants with him, he would love to see Fourth trash around underneath him more. He might be gentle usually, respecting his lover’s boundary, but once he got them in his bed, he would always have them shove deep into his bed as he took them in every position he demanded. All of his exes know how rough he is in bed. 

Other than Gemini’s lack of attention to them that made them question the sincerity of his love for them, that’s another reason as to why they left him eventually. They find him too rough, it puts them off.

But he can see from the way Fourth is acting, the way he’s teasing him, Gemini is sure he has found the one. Undeniably the one who can take his roughness well—extremely well. They’re definitely made for each other. From their personality, down to their bed chemistry.

Fourth and him are made for each other.

“You’re a bad student, phi,” Fourth said, pulling away the cream puff from enveloping Gemini’s cock, he brought it up to Gemini’s lips instead, tapping it softly against them as a sign asking for Gemini to open his mouth.

“Eat up, it’s your punishment,” Fourth continued, grinning devilishly with anticipation. Gemini tried his best to hide his own grin to let Fourth enjoy himself a little bit more, he bit on the cream puff as commanded. He notices Fourth’s face lights up with excitement, must be thrilled to have him listening to him.

He continued to finish the cream puff in Fourth’s hand. Crumbs are falling down on the floor, he can taste himself on the cream puff for obvious reasons. Their eyes are locked together, suffocating sexual tension embracing them both as he eats up the dirty cream puff in Fourth’s hand, staring silently into Fourth’s watching eyes, which are gleaming with pride and amusement—Fourth is totally enjoying the view.

Once he had eaten everything to the last bite, the younger guy even made sure to shove his fingers inside Gemini’s mouth too, telling him to suck on the cream stain clean.

“Suck.” So Gemini did, lapping his tongue all over Fourth’s dirty fingers, making sure every bit of the cream was cleaned spotless.

“Is it sweet?” Fourth asked, pulling out his fingers out of Gemini’s mouth. A thick string of saliva connected the tip of his fingers and Gemini’s red tongue, which eventually broke off as he pulled his fingers away. 

Answering his question, Gemini nodded.

Then he watched as Fourth stuck the same fingers he had put inside Gemini’s mouth into his own mouth, pink tongue shamelessly sneaking out past his lips and licking up Gemini’s saliva and remains off his fingers. His tongue piercing kept peeking out as he moved that sinful tongue around, sucking on the digits, locking eyes completely with Gemini’s as he did this, smirking, no doubt it made Gemini hard again in no time to see it. Fourth fucking knows what he’s doing.

“Too bad, I can’t really taste the cream on my fingers because you really cleaned it off.”

Gemini’s eyes followed, moving downwards as Fourth got down on his knees before him the next second. Breath caught up in his throat once more, sharp as anticipation filling him again, having Fourth’s fingers wrapped around his cock, pumping him up slowly to live for the second time.

“Should I taste it here?” The glistening on Fourth’s tongue piercing made Gemini’s cock twitch in Fourth’s hand, extremely turned on to the idea of having the younger sucking him off soon.

“Fuck.” A breathless gasp left Gemini’s lips the moment he felt Fourth’s warm tongue made contact with the tip of his cock. At his reaction, he heard a small chuckle coming from the guy underneath him, Fourth must love his reaction.

Fourth continued to run his tongue skillfully against the tip again, flicking his tongue to tease the red tip continuously, tasting him as if Gemini’s cock is his most delicious treat. The more Fourth moved his tongue against him, licking a fat stripe on the underside of his length and pressing down his fat tongue on top of the bulging vein on his cock, the more it dumbed Gemini’s mind down. His hips buck uncontrollably to feel the tiny silver bead of Fourth’s tongue piercing gliding against the most sensitive part of his body, torturing him relentlessly with sexual pleasure. As if that wasn’t enough to drive him insane, he felt Fourth tongue shoved deep inside his slit soon after, rapidly tonguing the sensitive slit with the tip of his tongue, pushing him to the edge.

The younger is barely sucking Gemini off, only sucking on the tip as he moves his tongue along the shaft. He doesn’t even have to put him fully inside his mouth, but it’s already enough to make Gemini’s hips writhe like he’s burning on an open fire. It also doesn’t help that Fourth is locking eyes with him at the moment too, staring up at him with naughty glints in his pretty eyes, red lips wrapped around the bulbous head of his fat cock, one hand on Gemini’s hip while the other wrapped around the base of his fat cock, pumping him up as he sucks on the tip devotedly.

The sight is so pretty. Too fucking pretty. He had cummed then, but he’s definitely cumming again soon with how pretty Fourth looks with his cock inside his mouth, looking up to him while at that. Fourth is really skillful with his pierced tongue. It just feels so fucking good, Gemini can’t stop moving his hips. Fucking the tip inside that warm tightness, extremely greedy and desperate for more electrifying pleasure.

It’s when Fourth pressed his piercing flat against the small hole of the tip, his hand immediately fistfulled the blond buzz-cut underneath him, forcefully pulling him away at once.

“Fuck,” Gemini cursed sharply.

He almost cummed on the spot.

“That’s a good boy,” Fourth chuckled, hand getting on top of Gemini’s that’s still fistfulling his hair, he squeezed Gemini’s hand gently.

“But that’s a bit rude to pull me away, no?” Fourth continued, moving his head to get closer to Gemini’s crotch again, he stuck out his tongue to flick on the bulbous tip again, once. Gemini’s eyes rolled upwards momentarily at the mere contact, hips jerking as he’s already so fucking sensitive—He’s rock hard. A few more sucks, and he will definitely burst the next second.

“Cum, I wanna see you cum, phi,” Fourth said, grinning. It’s adorable the way Gemini can see his gums when he’s smiling so widely. Usually he would coo at the sight, but in this situation, it only makes him want to paint that naughty pretty face with his cum right on this dot.

“Touch yourself,” Fourth ordered, still staying underneath him, head craning to look up at Gemini as he waits for him to put on a show for him. Both hands on Gemini’s hips, caressing them with his thumbs as means of persuasion and encouragement.

Groaning, Gemini eventually wrapped his fingers around his flushed length.

The stroke starts off slow, experimentally running his hand up and down his cock to feel himself again. Once he gets his rhythm, the pace picks up, and the next second, he’s already jerking his cock like crazy. With Fourth’s pretty face staying underneath him, looking at him with anticipation in those gorgeous brown eyes and a naughty smirk, it made Gemini fistful the blond short locks in his hand again, forcefully pulling the pretty face closer to his swelling cock that was about to burst. The moment he did this, he can see Fourth’s wicked smile gets wider, dark chuckles emptied out his lips, must be thrilled to see Gemini being on edge, so fucking close to reach his climax soon.

He’s already so close, so it really doesn’t take long for him to feel that familiar hotness bubbling inside his lower region, searing him down. With his hips losing its rhythm, muscles going rigid for a split second, and face scrunched tightly, he can see Fourth knows he is about to finish as well from the way Fourth is parting his lips open and sticking out his pink tongue, waiting. He’s opening his mouth so wide, Gemini can see the base of his tongue and the back of his throat.

Tightening his grip on Fourth’s blond locks, he hissed sharply, feeling his chest tightened from air drawing out his lungs forcefully out of drawing pleasure. One second, and his hips turned into a stuttering mess, white spurts shot out of his swollen tip. Heavy snorts emptied out his chest, loud grunt leaving him as the pleasure overrides his skin, crashing down on him like a big wave. His jaw clenching tightly, hips bucking like crazy to shoot out loads after loads, landing white sticky rope mess on the pretty face underneath him to catch, painting it with white sputters.

Fourth looks so fucking gorgeous.

“Fuck.” Gemini gritted his teeth, panting heavily as he massaged his cock slowly, milking it to make sure the pretty face underneath caught every drop.

Fourth’s face is a mess. Cum tainting his face all over, white spurts everywhere, some on his quivering pink tongue, some on his flushed pink cheeks, some on the bridge of his button nose, and some even got on his closed eyelids as well, coating his long lashes. When Fourth slowly opened his eyes, his eyes were hazy and his pupils were wavering, face red all over, especially the already pink cheeks, looking up at him drunk as if he’s the one who just cummed, it made Gemini groan loudly at the sight.

Carding his fingers deeper in the younger guy’s blond locks, he pulled him up by the hair and smashed their lips together. His tongue desperately lapping up his own remains on Fourth’s naughty own, wanting to taste himself on Fourth. He can hear Fourth moaning sweetly against his lips, hands grabbing on the back of his neck, kissing him back stupid. Gemini’s fingers fistfulled Fourth’s blond locks tighter, gripping it hard as he pressed his lips on Fourth’s harder, shoving his tongue deeper, rougher, to taste himself in every crook of Fourth’s hot cavern, claiming every proof the younger guy is no one’s but his.

Feeling not enough as he had tasted every drop of his cum in Fourth’s hot cavern, he pulled out to lick off the mess on Fourth’s face next. Like a desperate puppy, his fat tongue smothers the pretty face, licking up every drop ravishingly, it resulted in the younger guy to giggle out of ticklish. The small giggles sound like an angel’s music to his hearing, but he can’t stop. He continues to lick up the mess, and once he’s done, he’s back to kissing Fourth on the lips again one more time before he finally pulls away completely to give both of them a break, especially himself who’s still in need of breathing post-orgasm.

Then he heard Fourth chuckle again, thumbs doing comforting circles on his nape.

“You’re like a puppy, phi,” Fourth said, chuckling.

Gemini hummed softly, caressing the pink cheeks in turn. They stay like that for a few more seconds, only comforting silent surrounding them which lasts only for a few seconds before it breaks completely.

“Should we move this to the bed?” Fourth asked, his voice low and seductive. His pretty dark brown eyes gleaming with playful mirth, the comforting circles he makes on Gemini’s nape grow sensual, burning Gemini’s skin up again in no time with desires.

Gemini doesn’t need to be told twice. That’s definitely his cue to have Fourth in his bed finally.

He has been wanting it like crazy, he has imagined it millions of times—In his wet dreams at night, in his daydreams at work. And now Fourth brings that up, he would be insane to turn it down. Grabbing Fourth’s hand on his neck, he pulled it along him as he led them to his bedroom soon after.

Their feet are moving hastily, excitement filling them both for every drunk step they take. The moment he swung the door open, he slammed Fourth into the bed, earning himself a soft gasp from the other guy.

Gemini immediately followed suit onto the bed, mounting the guy’s lap with zero hesitation, entrapping him completely down against his bed. Fourth has foolishly entered his den, he’s not going to let him go until he eats him up to his satisfaction tonight. He can see genuine surprise in those pretty eyes, like a deer sensing danger, it makes him smirk with pride and blithe.

Fourth’s turn is up, now it’s his turn to have fun with him.

He took off his cardigan, throwing it away. Pulling his white tee over his head, he discarded that too, resulting in him being butt naked in mere seconds. Leaning down, he reached for the hem of Fourth’s baggy grunge tee, wanting to take it off too, but was interrupted with Fourth’s hands holding his wrists down, stopping him to a full abrupt. Surprise is still seen on those pretty eyes, to which Gemini leaned down to kiss the lids with a gentle kiss, followed by a light chuckle.

“What’s wrong?” Gemini asked, voice eerily gentle.

“You told me you have no experience with men,” Fourth said, low and calculative, as if he just realized he was lied to.

Gemini grinned, tilting his head slightly.

“I did,” Gemini replied, innocent.

“But anal sex wouldn’t be any different, no?” Gemini added, lifting up Fourth’s shirt up. He saw Fourth’s eyes widened a little.

Gemini lifted the shirt higher, admiring the snowy white surface of Fourth’s well-sculpted body. Just as he had imagined, it’s slightly pinkish, and even his nipples are rosy maroon. Voluptuous chest, packed with muscles and soft fat, it’s even better than what his well-endowed exes have.

Down to the sculpted packs of his chiseled abdomen, he noticed a familiar glint shining on his navel. Not only his tongue, it seems that Fourth had his belly pierced too.

Letting the shirt pool over his chest, exposing his fat chest and rosy nipples to the cold air, Gemini reached for the piercing on the belly button, fiddling with the shiny beads in between his fingers, enjoying the way Fourth would suck in his stomach involuntarily out of sensitivity.

Like a dog being severely distracted with pretty things capturing his attention, he felt Fourth’s hand cupping his face, forcing him to look up to his face again instead of his pierced navel.

“Let me get this clear, you have done anal sex before?” Fourth asked, in need of clarification. Gemini nodded in Fourth’s hand, still cupping his face.

“With one of my exes,” Gemini answered.

Gemini might have done it with women, but to hear that the older guy actually knows how to do anal, makes the discomfort in Fourth’s pants grow. He would love to teach Gemini, but knowing now that Gemini actually doesn’t need it, he feels like he will totally be in heaven tonight.

“I’ve searched things online. It says that men have their G-spot in their ass, so it feels really good when it gets stimulated,” Gemini said. Fourth swallowed harshly, feeling Gemini’s hands on his hips, untying the string of his cargo pants.

“Is that true?” Gemini asked, getting off Fourth’s lap, he pulled down the younger’s pants along the boxer off him next, discarding them in mere seconds with the help of Fourth own, lifting his behind up to make it easier for the older guy. Fourth’s breath getting shallow again, excitement feeling him in to feel Gemini’s warm big hands on his bare skin this time, caressing his naked hips. His cock is already flushed up with need, standing proud against his uncovered belly.

“Does it feel good to have something up your ass?”

Precum starts to leak on his abdomen, wet as Gemini continues to feel up his skin, spewing lewd words one after another. Fourth might’ve had a lot of one night stands before, but none would compare with how much he’s turned on right now, he’s filled with rushes of sensual thrills.

He realizes now that doing it with feelings really is different from casual sex because Gemini’s words and mere touch alone are enough to get him this leaking wet. Every spot Gemini touches with his fingertips burns his skin, leaving it tingle with needs for more. He’s getting desperate.

“Have you ever cummed untouched?” Gemini’s shameless questions made Fourth leak even more, turning even more frustrated to have Gemini inside him soon, pampering that sweltering hotness deep inside him.

He watches as Gemini stretches his body across the bed to reach for the top drawer of his night stand, pulling out a bottle of lube and a pack of condoms, before he comes back to him, settling the item down next to him on the bed.

“I haven’t heard your voice once, Fourth,” Gemini said humorously, pointing out that Fourth hasn't answered his questions once. He’s too lost in his own thoughts, imagining things that the older guy could do to him tonight, he just realized that he has been awfully quiet.

“No, I haven’t,” Fourth replied, biting his lip when he felt Gemini’s hands on his thighs, spreading it apart as he pulled him closer towards him by the thighs. He saw Gemini uncapped the lube, dripping the clear substance down to his long fingers.

“Should we try it?” Gemini asked, smirking. Fourth’s breath hitched when he felt Gemini poured generous amounts of lube down his behind as well. Breath winding short, he feels Gemini’s lubed fingers pressed up against his entrance, rubbing teasingly against the rim that’s already a twitching mess, desperate for something to protrude his inside soon.

“Hmm,” Fourth hum as an answer, too horny to utter any other verbal response. His fingers find the bedsheet underneath him, gripping on it as he feels a digit sliding inside him, which he takes with ease, already slightly loose from playing with himself the night before.

“You’re quite loose. Did you have fun?” Gemini asked, a hint of jealousy could be heard in his deep tone, shoving the single digit a tad harsher deeper inside Fourth, the younger guy choked on his saliva out of surprise. It seems that Gemini is misunderstanding this.

“It—was by myself—” Fourth choked an answer, feeling that single digit moving ruthlessly inside him, fucking him rough.

“Great, because I was about to teach you a lesson if you let someone else have your body when you’re seeing me,” Gemini replied, smirking with relief to know that Fourth’s body is still purely his. He would definitely hunt for blood if it really turned out that Fourth met someone else while seeing him. He might still wait for Fourth’s answer, but Fourth should be his alone.

“I’m possessive,” Gemini continued, pouring more lube down his fingers, he slid another finger inside Fourth’s behind, stretching him open with two fingers this time. Now it’s two fingers inside, he can feel that it’s getting a little bit tight, so he scissors it more to stretch it open. He watches as Fourth writhe underneath him, back arching as he takes in two full digits inside him, moaning sweetly with bliss. His cock twitches occasionally, heavy with load, spitting out a lot of precum, it looks like he’s going to orgasm soon from being fingered alone.

“You’re so pretty, Fourth,” Gemini praised, sliding a third finger inside him. Fourth is too focused on being fingered open, he didn’t notice that Gemini has lowered his body on top of him. A soft gasp leaving his lips when he felt something soft pressed up against his nipple, followed by something wet, flicking on his erected bud.

“Fuck—” Fourth cursed, gripping on the bedsheet underneath him tighter, his back arched to have Gemini sucking on his nipple harder. Long fingers still moving inside him, stretching him open, rough and fast. It’s when Gemini’s finger brushed against his sweet spot, a sharp moan left his lips unheld, his head spinning from the sudden pleasure electrifying his body. His back arched once more, toes curling tightly when Gemini brushed the pad of his fingertips against that bump inside him again. It gets Fourth wet his abdomen more, leaking with precum.

The first time was unintentional, but it’s obvious that the second time is full of purpose. From the way Fourth reacted, Gemini must’ve realized that the firm bump he touched must be Fourth’s prostate because he’s experimentally circling his finger against the spot now, playing with it, resulting in Fourth’s hips to buck uncontrollably. The sensation is slow, Gemini’s fingertip circling and pressing on his sweet bump with a constant slow rhythm, killing him with burning pleasure, Fourth can cum with the excitement alone. He’s fistfulling the bedsheet so tight in his hands, his knuckles start to turn white from the pressure.

It also doesn’t help that Gemini is sucking on his nipple so harshly too, flattening and flicking his tongue against the sensitive bud on his chest, even lightly grazing his teeth on it, it drives Fourth so fucking insane, he really feels like he’s going to explode soon from those alone. He never knew he could be this sensitive. His one-night stands always have a hard time making him cum, but there’s just something the way Gemini touches him that makes him so putty.

Rough, but very gentle at the same time. Fast, but lingering as he leaves his touches. Maybe it’s because he has the hots for Gemini, and a not-so-tiny crush on him, so every touch feels like an electricity of pleasure for him. But God—he’s drowning with pleasure.

“Gemini—” Fourth whined, he’s in desperate need of cumming. He needs to cum, or else he will feel like he’s about to die. His chest is heavy, suffocating with pure anguish. He needs to cum.

“It’s phi. Call me phi, noo,” Gemini responded. A sob left Fourth’s throat, moaning again to feel Gemini’s hot breath fanning on his bud, lips moving feverishly on his nipple as he speaks. Hearing Gemini’s words is wrecking his mind apart, because there’s no way in hell he could call Gemini that now. Calling him in command, to beg like a desperate bitch, Fourth’s pride is still held.

Gemini then pulled his face away to look at Fourth’s red face this time, enjoying the sight of how gorgeous the younger looks with sweet desperation mixed with stubborn-shy refusal painting all over his pretty face. Beautiful dark brown eyes getting crystallic with tears threatening to fall down any moment, slitted brows scrunched deeply above those pretty eyes, and a pair of red lips parted open to emit a series of desperate whines, as if begging him to not force him to call him phi out of submission, but still shamelessly wished for him to touch him more until he cummed. The pretty face is flushed, red out of pleasure riding his body down, even the rest of his body flushed red and pinkish now.

Pretty face and gorgeous perfectly-sculpted body—Fourth really looks like a God.

“Do you want to cum, noo pretty?” Gemini asked, fingering the slicked hole continuously. He heard more moans coming from the pretty guy, moving his ass eagerly down onto his fingers. 

Gemini lets the guy move desperately against his fingers, enjoying the sightful show unfolding beneath him. Fourth looks like he’s enjoying himself too much, moving his body so desperately. Gemini’s watchful predatory eyes follow, noting the way Fourth’s big chest would bounce as he writhes on the bed so prettily, his back arching, really admiring every inch of Fourth’s well-sculpted body, loving the sexy curves of it. He’s completely falling in love with Fourth’s body. The way it’s full of muscles, but very slender at the same time. Soft all over and nice to the touch—Nothing is more gorgeous.

Seeing the fat on his chest keep jiggling invitingly, the urge to fondle them got stronger, Gemini ended up massaging the mound of fat in his hand. He really enjoys how soft it feels in his hand. It may be because the muscles aren’t pumped up, but Fourth’s chest surprisingly feels softer than he had imagined. A little firm, but overall feels nice to fondle with.

He’s playing with Fourth’s nipple again, but with his fingers this time. One hand being used by the younger guy bouncing eagerly on his fingers as if he’s pleasing himself on a sex toy, so Gemini uses another to knead the rosy bud with the pads of his fingertips instead, watching the pretty guy turn into an even worse writhing mess with two of his sensitive spots being played with. His flushed cock untouched, but looks like it’s going to burst soon. Fourth’s labored breath is proof of that.

“Gem—Gemini—” Fourth gasped.

Gemini leaned down to nip on the tip of Fourth’s ear, he sucks on the piercings adorning the red ear. He pulled out his fingers momentarily, but still kneaded on the erected rosy bud on the younger’s chest.

“If you want to cum, call me phi,” Gemini whispered. The warm breath sends goosebumps along Fourth’s ear canal, desperation creeping on his skin. His hands desperately searches for Gemini’s wrist below him, forcefully guiding his hand to penetrate his inside again. But Gemini simply refused, pulling his hand away while Fourth desperately tugged on his wrist to continue fingering him. To Fourth, Gemini really acts like a devil right now, the older guy even chuckled at his anguish.

“Only one sweet word, noo,” Gemini said, chuckling. Even amidst frustration, Fourth could feel his cheeks blaring up with pure embarrassment. It’s already a big deal for him to call Gemini phi casually in the first place, but to call him that intimately during sex out of pure submission really is another whole level.

“Gem—” Fourth cried, practically sobbing underneath his whines. He heard Gemini chuckle even more, the guy fondled with his chest again.

“We can stay like this forever, noo,” Gemin said, teasing.

Desperation winning him over, Fourth braced himself to utter that word Gemini has been wanting to hear.

“Phi…” Fourth croaks, forced.

Gemini pulled his face away to look him in the eye, smiling.

“It’s really that easy, right?” And the fingers immediately made its way inside him again the next second. Gemini’s fingers moved roughly inside him, pulling in and out, brushing hard against that bump inside him whenever he moved, it turned Fourth into a moaning mess in no time.

“Phi—Phi—” Fourth gasped, nails scratching on Gemini’s wrist out of whacked pleasure.

In a split second, Gemini saw Fourth’s body tightened up, his back arching, breath stuck in his throat as he reached his sweet orgasm. He can feel Fourth’s walls clenched tightly around his fingers, and the next beat, strings of white immediately spurt out of his flushed cock, one after another, painting his flushed abdomen with white specks, creating a very sinful sight.

Fourth is a panting mess, breathing shallowly as he rides down his orgasm, his flushed cock still twitching post-bliss, looking like he just had the best orgasm he ever had in his life. He moaned softly when Gemini pulled his fingers out of his ass. Gemini sucks the slicks off his digits clean, tasting Fourth on them. The taste was subtle, but tasted extremely sweet, he’s craving for more.

He wonders if the taste can be stronger if he puts his lips directly on Fourth’s behind. The mere thought was enough to get his tongue salivating.

“You came untouched,” Gemini said, notable amusement in his tone. Fourth’s mind is still hazy, falling silent as the post orgasm made him struggle to give out a reply.

Fourth feels Gemini’s knuckles on his cheeks, caressing them gently just like how he always does. Maybe it’s because he just hit his orgasm, so his face is burning hot, but Gemini’s fingers feel cold against his skin, he finds himself leaning in under the cold touch, wanting for more.

“Sleepy?” He heard Gemini ask, Fourth shook his head weakly in response. He’s a little spent, but he’s definitely not sleepy. He just needs a moment to collect his thoughts and energy again. He’s turning twenty-five, yet it’s the first time for him to cum so intensely like that, from only having his ass fingered too what’s more. It was so insane, he felt like his soul had just ascended.

Fourth feels Gemini pulled his hand away. Soon, he felt the same big hands moving on his body, feeling up his bare flushed skin. Gemini’s touch is gentle, as if he’s merely admiring his body, caressing his chest, his slender waist, and down to his hips and thick thighs. It feels like a gentle massage.

He finds himself relaxing underneath the older guy’s touch. Then he felt Gemini’s hands spreading his thighs again, caressing the soft patch of his inner thigh. A quiet noise left Fourth’s lips, feeling Gemini’s soft lips leaving kisses against his inner thigh. His kisses travel closer and closer to the dangerous spot on his behind, and the next thing he realizes Gemini is kissing his rim. A gasp left his lips, Fourth’s hand immediately finds Gemini’s dark locks, gripping it tightly out of shock.

“Phi—” Fourth gasped again, feeling something hot and wet pressed up against his rim, slithering along his tailbone and up to his perineum.

Then he felt Gemini’s hands on his hips, fingers digging into his hipbones as he pulled his ass closer onto his lips, slowly sliding his tongue inside this time, eating him out. Fourth turned into a moaning mess in no time, his grip on Gemini’s locks tightened, back arching as Gemini shoved his tongue deeper into his ass. There’s no mercy in the way Gemini ate him out—fucking rough, messy, his tongue moving insanely fast, curling and lapping inside him, dragging along the softness of his inner walls. Gemini’s tongue moves skillfully, torturing Fourth with pleasure without rest.

For every curl, it sends Fourth’s hips jerking, chest feeling heavy with pleasure suffocating him, thighs closing on Gemini’s head as a means for the older guy to slow down. But the more Fourth squashed him in between his thick thighs, Gemini’s clawing grip on Fourth’s hips only hardened, imprinting red dip claimmarks on Fourth’s snow white skin.

The more Fourth closes his thighs on him, only the harder he’s sucking on the sweet hole, messier, getting addicted to the saccharine taste of Fourth dripping on his thirsty taste bud. He even gnawed on the skin around the rim, leaving atrocious bite marks on the plushy ass cheeks, which resulted in Fourth to scream out of pain, nibbling on the pretty rose bud rim, drinking up every moan the younger guy let out as he ate him up like he had been starved for years, nose pressed deep into his perineum.

“Phi!” Fourth screamed, feeling Gemini’s teeth sank onto his skin again. He can feel a painful sharp sting on his delicate skin, but the pain is immediately made up by the sweet pleasure of his ass being eaten out again, Gemini’s tongue sliding in and out of his behind, lips kissing his bottom.

Gemini would spread his cheeks apart, spitting saliva on his hole before shoving his tongue inside again. This continued on for a while, an interchangeable sensation between pain and pleasure, dawning on him one after another relentlessly, and when he felt like he’s about to hit his orgasm again, he immediately yanked the older guy’s head away from his bottom.

When he managed to pull Gemini’s head away from his ass, and he’s coming face to face with Gemini’s face now, it feels as if his heart had just dropped down his stomach.

The older guy’s honey-brown eyes that are usually gentle and sweet are completely dark and hooded now. It feels like he’s seeing a total stranger even with the same face. But the more he stares into those eyes, he eventually can recognize the same Gemini he knows again. Albeit a little bit different, his heart relaxes to know that he’s safe in the older guy’s hands. Though, his heart dropped this time, noticing the specks of red on Gemini’s lips. The light is dimmed, but he’s sure the deep hue on Gemini’s lips shouldn’t be cum.

Is that his blood?

He watches as Gemini snaked his tongue to lick off the blood of his lips. Fourth winced when he felt Gemini’s finger pressed up against the bite marks he made on his ass cheeks, dragging his fingers as if he’s wiping something, and when he brought it up to his lips, that’s when he realized Gemini was wiping off the blood on his bite marks with his fingers, and he’s licking off the blood. Along that, he also notices the red scratches on Gemini’s wrist due to his own doing from Gemini fingering him earlier. It made him blush seeing it. He may be a freak sometimes, but he never did something this rough, drawing blood on one another, with any of his one night stands before.

“Your ass tastes better than your cream puffs,” Gemini said, licking his lips again. Fourth felt his cheeks heating up at Gemini’s obscene words, somehow shy to be dirty talked with. This crazy freak.

“Should we get to the main course, noo?” Gemini said, smiling that charming grin as if he had not just ravish and bite Fourth’s ass like a mad man. Fourth’s ass still stings from him biting him like feral, but the way Gemini is gripping his thighs again to feel up his skin made Fourth forget about what he did to him just then in mere seconds.

Fourth gasped when he felt Gemini turning him around, his hands immediately crumpled the bedsheet underneath him to stable himself up. He felt Gemini’s big hands on his hips, holding it as he guided his hips to prop up his behind, letting half of his body almost pressed up on the bed still, only his ass going up. He felt Gemini’s hand on his lower back, one of the spots where he’s most sensitive to be touched, the older guy is massaging the spot. He can’t help but hum with delight, enjoying the slow strokes.

“The more I know you, the more you surprise me,” he heard Gemini’s deep husky voice behind him. His fingers continue to feel up the patch of skin on his lower back, making slow circles, tracing his skin.

“Is there any spot that’s left unmarked? You must love decorating your pretty body a lot.” More gentle caressing strokes on his lower back.

“Does it hurt to have this tattoo on your lower back?”

Fourth eventually realized that Gemini was talking about his tramp stamp.

He had it four years ago out of one stupid drunken night he had with his useless friends. Officially turning twenty, the legal age where he can finally get his first drink at the bar instead of sneaking out his aunt’s liquor, his friends thought it would be a good idea to bring him to a tattoo parlor as their second stop that same night when he’s already out of his mind, drunk as a horse. When confronted, his friends turned the blame on him, saying that even though they did bring him there, the decision was all his, so technically it was Fourth who chose the tramp stamp himself.

But Fourth was too hammered to remember a thing from that night. He just remembered waking up with stinging pain on his lower back, and when he checked his back on the mirror, he was aghast to see a winged heart inked on his lower back, covered with adhesive film, a sign that the ink is still fresh on his skin. He also remembered kicking his friends’ ass afterwards that same morning, blaming them for not stopping him from making a stupid drunk decision the night before, but they keep convincing him that it looks good on him. Over time, Fourth actually comes to love the tattoo as well.

He eventually realized that maybe what his friends said was true. Perhaps, he had always been meaning to get that tattoo deep down after eyeing it for so long, but only got an excuse to do so when he was drunk as a skunk that night, blaming it all on the alcohol. Other than it’s a symbol of freedom for him, he has to be honest that he also loves how it looks good on him—It makes him look incredibly sexy. Too much info, but his one-night stands love to compliment the tattoo on him, caressing his lower back as they take him from behind. Fourth extremely love it when they do that.

“I don’t remember,” Fourth answered honestly.

“You don’t remember?” Gemini asked.

Fourth heard a soft click of a bottle being uncapped open resounded behind him. His lips turn dry, blood pumping his body with exhilaration when he feels cold lube dripping down his behind again.

“I got it when I was drunk,” Fourth replied, shuddering to feel Gemini’s fingers against his rim, warming up the cold lube coating his behind with the brushes of his long fingers.

“A tattoo while drunk, that’s dangerous,” Gemini commented, sliding his fingers inside Fourth to make sure the inside is perfectly coated with lube as well. Fourth moaned, bunching the bed sheet inside his fists more, shaking his hips as he enjoyed the fingers moving inside him.

“You’re really one daring little kid.”

Another moan, feeling Gemini shoved his fingers too deep inside him, thick fingers rubbing against that sweet bump inside him, making his head spin.

“Always has been a kid with troubles.”

Gemini pulled his fingers out of his ass.

“But that’s what I like about you.”

Fourth moaned softly when he felt something hot and thick pressed up against his bottom, pulsating so feverishly hot. He can feel a thin layer of what he believes must be a condom the older guy puts on, but the heat emitting off it is so immense he can feel him through it. He felt Gemini move his hips against him slowly, rocking his hips against him to just rub his fat shaft along his ass crack, teasing his hungry rim that is slowly turning into a twitching mess. Getting desperate, Fourth let his forehead buried into the bed, fingers fistfulling the black bedsheet underneath him, he unconsciously spreads his legs wider, arching his back, wanting to have Gemini’s fat cock sliding inside him soon.

“You’re such a naughty kid, noo.”

Fourth’s breath grew sharp, feeling the bulbous tip protruding his inside, stretching him up. He’s bracing himself to take more of the length, but was met with great annoyance when the older guy pulled out his fat cock mid way, forcing a loud whine out of him. Then it was followed by a loud sound of skin meeting skin, Fourth moaned painfully out loud, eyes scrunching shut tight to feel stinging pain on his ass cheek which Gemini just slapped. His grip tightened on the bedsheet, hips trembling with lingering pain.

“Do you think a bad kid deserves to feel good?” Gemini scoffed, chuckling darkly.

“Phi—Please—” Fourth begged, his inside was already burning. The deepest spot inside him is blazing hot with desperation, badly in need for something to comfort it.

Gemini snorted.

“Since you asked so nicely.”

Fourth’s eyes widened when he felt a harsh slam inside him. There was no gradual pace, Gemini just slammed into him, hips deep without warning. Fourth’s body immediately tremble with genuine surprise, feeling the pulsating cock stuffing him fully.

He’s so fucking full, he feels like he can’t breath. Gemini stayed like that inside him for a moment, as if giving him the room to get used to his girth, his hand on his lower back, massaging him gently.

After a while, once he feels that Fourth’s inner walls finally relaxed around his shaft protruding the inside, Gemini starts to move eventually. Pulling out slowly, he leaves only the tip inside before slammed back in—hard, earning himself a loud cry from the guy underneath him. 

“You’re so tight, noo,” Gemini groaned, clenching his jaw as he moved his hips again, fucking the tightness once more, but a little bit gentle this time. One hand on Fourth’s hip, the other on his lower back as he rolled his hips, making sure to hit that sweet spot for every thrust. He earned himself a sweet moan after moan from Fourth, his fat ass bouncing back against him for more.

Fourth is just so fucking gorgeous.

Even when Gemini can’t see his face due to their current position, he’s still entranced by how pretty the guy looks taking him in from behind. The tip of his ears and usually pale neck are red, and the rest of his body that should be snowy white is flushed pink, sexy muscle flexed on his back arched deeply with his ass propped high, tight pink rim stretched around the thick girth of Gemini’s fat cock. Bubble round ass bouncing against Gemini's hips, taking every inch of Gemini’s cock inside his ass hungrily.

“Feels good?” Gemini asked, seeing how eager Fourth bounced back against him, he rolled his hips harder, groaning at the crazy tightness Fourth’s ass offered.

“Hmm—Good—Feels so good—” Fourth replied mindlessly, eyes rolling momentarily with bliss, choking in between his own moans as he enjoyed his ass being pounded mercilessly by the older guy behind him. He bundled the bedsheet tighter in his fists, rolling his ass onto Gemini’s moving hips.

“Great, because I’m feeling good too—Fuck” Gemini moaned.

“—So fucking tight around my cock,” he groaned.

Gemini’s fingers on his hips dug deeper, imprinting crescent marks on his hipbones as his thrusts only got rougher and rougher, rearranging his insides. He can’t be bothered by the pain when he’s feeling this good being fucked stupid by the man he has been crushing on for years.

Fourth can feel his ass stinging again, already receiving enough abuse from being bitten and slapped roughly, but the shameless sound of skin meeting skin reverberating out loud as his ass slapping onto Gemini’s hips is proof that his ass wouldn’t be given mercy anytime soon.

Gemini is pounding into him like a mad man, but he’s just as desperate, bouncing his ass back as if his entire life depends on it. His mind is spinning, feeling dumb with big waves of pleasure sending all over his body. His prostate being given so much love, electrifying his insides, turning him shaky all over, he feels like he would cum too fast, but he can’t stop.

The older guy might be crazy rough, but he does it in the way that it just feels addicting for Fourth to take it hungrily like a bitch in heat. Hitting it so good deep inside him, pounding against that sweet bump inside him relentlessly every time he slammed his fat cock inside, making him see stars, but Fourth can’t stop. Nor does he want Gemini to stop either. Instead, he needs Gemini to go rougher, harder.

“Harder—” Fourth choked out, fistfulling the bundle of sheets underneath him tighter.

Upon his request, Gemini then moved around slightly, he changed his position to squat on top of Fourth this time, hands holding Fourth’s slender waist, he continues to fuck him by slamming down on top of his propped bottom with his own weight this time. With that new position, Fourth turned into a complete moaning mess, practically screaming as he took in the insane pounds in his ass like no tomorrow.

The pace that was already fast gets even faster, turning animalistic as Gemini slamming down on top of him relentlessly, rough, almost breaking his back.

“Fuck!” Fourth screamed. He’s so close, he’s already so fucking close. The pooling heat inside his belly is getting more intense than ever.

“Ah—Phi—Ah—” He’s a moaning mess. His chest is getting heavy, suffocating on the sheet as he’s being shoved deep down into the mattress with Gemini’s weight crashing on top of him, he feels like he’s going to faint one of these moments.

“You’re swallowing me up,” Gemini groaned, gritting his teeth.

“I’m close—” Fourth gasped, head spinning with the intense pleasure flooding his body like a crashing wave. His waist is giving up on him, thighs already getting sore from holding himself up in the same position for a while. Even his biceps are burning from flexing it too much.

“I’m so close too—Fuck—” Gemini groaned out loud, gritting his teeth.

The next second, Fourth felt Gemini slammed his hips the hardest against him. A gasp left his lips, feeling a hot burst explode inside him, so deep inside him, he can feel the heat pooling in him. Spurt after spurt, Gemini continued to fill him up with his seeds. Even with a condom on, he can feel the hotness of his liquid stuffing him in. It makes him moan pathetically at the bursting sensation of wet hotness filling him up.

“Fuck—That feels so fucking good—” Gemini groaned, rolling his hips against Fourth’s ass to milk himself, making sure that every drop is spent. Still rolling his hips, he feels Fourth clenched tightly around him. 

Followed by a loud high-pitched breathless moan, it’s obvious that Fourth is hitting his orgasm as well. His hips stuttering, the muscles on his ass spasming like he just got electrocuted, releases his loads all over the dark bed sheet, shooting out spurt after spurt as he moans out loud, enjoying the pleasure washing off his body, riding down his sweet orgasm. His hips shake for a while with post-bliss.

Once Fourth’s body relaxed underneath him, Gemini pulled out. Rolling the condom off him, he tied up the end before discarded off the bed. He leaned down to pepper kiss along Fourth’s sweaty back. Starting from his temple, then the red tip of his ear, then flushed pale neck. Down to the curve of his spine, his slender waist, then he leaves extra gentle kisses on the tramp stamp on Fourth lower’s back before he turned the guy around to lay on his back, and laid next to him on his side.

He watches as Fourth’s chest rises up and down heavily, eyes closed shut and face completely flushed out of deep suffocation, desperately panting for air. So he caressed Fourth’s red cheek with his knuckles, an effort in comforting him.

“Was I too rough?” Gemini asked, caressing the red cheek, going for the moles on his cheek and nose specifically. He really can never get enough of staring at Fourth, Fourth is just so pretty.

“A little,” Fourth answered, voice a little bit hoarse and breathy. Then he opened his eyes slowly before turning his head to look Gemini's way, capturing Gemini’s eyes with his gorgeous brown eyes that Gemini had long fallen in love with.

“But I love it,” Fourth added, shifting slightly on the bed to land a soft kiss on Gemini’s lips. It was mere lips pressing, chaste, but both of them found themselves closing their eyes at the soft contact, taking in their genuine feelings for one another through the gentle contact. The lips pressing lasted for a second or two before they pulled away.

“You were rough, but very gentle at the same time.”

“Also, it's funny the way you were panicking when I was helping you with the piping earlier,” Fourth said, bringing up the topic from before again, chuckling.

“Is that so? I didn’t know you can be so shy to call me phi in bed either,” Gemini replied, turning the tide instantly. Fourth’s cheeks are still flushed because of the physical activity they had, but he believes it gets a tad darker now because of shyness from the way Fourth blinked his eyes excessively for a split second.

Knowing that Fourth would never admit that he was actually shy, Gemini let out a chuckle. He continued to caress the pink cheeks once more.

“I need to hold myself back,” Gemini said, back to the original topic Fourth first brought up.

“And taking care of your problem in the toilet instead?” Fourth asked, back to giggling again.

“I didn’t,” Gemini said. He watched the way Fourth’s smile faltered a little.

“I didn’t dare to,” Gemini continued.

“I don’t want to make you feel disrespected,” Gemini said, caressing Fourth’s cheek. He saw the edge of Fourth’s curled lips slowly straightened into a thin line.

“So I was just trying my best to calm down, and once I feel like I have the courage to look at you again without those dirty thoughts messing with my mind, I finally come out to see you again.”

Gemini watches as Fourth slowly shifts on the bed, the guy gets closer to him, hands on his chest as he lightly pushes him to lie completely on his back. Fourth crawled on top of him, now the younger guy’s face is hovering so close on top of him, sharing a pool of their breaths together.

“What a fucking gentleman,” Fourth said, voice low but venomous. Then a small smirk shows up that face, Fourth holds Gemini’s face, brushing off the strands covering the handsome face.

“So fucking virtuous that I had to make the move first or else, I wouldn’t get to have your cock inside me.”

“Have you been thinking of me, phi?” Fourth asked, caressing Gemini’s face with the back of his fingertips. He feels Gemini’s warm hands creeping up on his waist, massaging the knots on his lower back from being pounded like crazy earlier.

“Everyday,” Gemini replied. Fourth then trailed his fingers on Gemini’s lips this time, caressing the plush softness beneath the pad of his thumb before he pushed it inside, met with Gemini’s hot tongue grazing up against his thumb.

“Of fucking me?” Fourth asked, raising his brows in teasing manner, chuckling.

“Not only that,” Gemini responded honestly, a little bit muffled with Fourth’s thumb still shoved deep inside his mouth.

“You aren’t even denying it, straight up agreeing,” Fourth pointed out, chuckling even more. He feels one of Gemini’s hands move behind him, caressing the curvature of his bottom, and down to his thigh, feeling up the outer skin of it. The strokes are slow, just enough to make Fourth melt under the gentle caress, sighing with content.

“You almost broke my back, phi. Taking me from behind, was that one of your fantasies?” Fourth asked, Gemini hummed softly around his thumb.

Fourth then lowered his bottom, careful and slow as he made sure to land his cock on top of Gemini’s own, pressing down their hips together, drawing out a deep moan from the older guy lying underneath him. He can feel Gemini’s cock pulsating against his, hot and firm. Fourth then moved his hips, thrusting upward once to rut his cock against Gemini’s fat thicker one with a slow killing rhythm. A sweet deep moan, so he did that again. And another. With that, he can feel Gemini’s fingers dug on his outer thigh, gripping it with obvious signs of controlling himself from being turned on.

“A sweet demeanor, gentle aura, tender words, one wouldn’t believe such a docile man would be so fucking rough in bed.”

“Just like a wolf in sheep’s clothing.” Fourth winced softly when he felt Gemini chomping on his thumb, gnawing on the skin like he’s getting a treat. It turned out his big puppy is actually a wolf—a big gentle wolf. Brushing away the pain, Fourth smirked as he continued to roll down his hips on top of Gemini.

“Tell me, what more did you fantasize about me?” Fourth asked. He watched as Gemini’s eyes closed shut momentarily from their cocks brushing together. When he opened his eyes again, daggers shot out those honey-brown eyes, staring back at him like a predator ready to pounce, gnawing on his thumb and clawing on his outer thigh deeper.

“Knowing how you’re in bed now, I bet all of them would be of you dominating me, hmm?” Fourth took a guess, he swears he can hear Gemini growling.

In a split second, a gasp left Fourth’s lips as Gemini turned their positions around, entrapping him against the bed with his much bigger frame. A hand pinning both of Fourth’s hands above his head, Gemini leaned his face closer on top of Fourth’s face, his long locks falling down on Fourth’s face, tickling him.

“You’re like a walking sin, Fourth,” Gemini said, voice straining as if he’s biting on his words. He caresses the corner of Fourth’s eye with his empty hand, loving the way the pupils of his pretty brown eyes dilated with momentary shock. Fourth’s eyes are just so gorgeous.

“Do you even know your very existence wrecked my mind apart?”

“Just the mere sight of you makes me wanna pounce—wanna claim you mine.”

“Parading around in those leather gears, climbing your bike, bending over so sinfully.”

“How badly I wish I could lock you up—to save your existence for my eyes and mine alone.”

“How unfortunate though… that you don’t belong to me,” Gemini’s voice was hushed as he muttered that last bit, as if he’s talking to himself rather than to Fourth.

Somehow hearing that, it makes Fourth’s heart throb with guilt.

He badly wishes to say that it’s not true. But it got himself thinking, what isn’t true about what Gemini said? Gemini is courting him—He wants him, he’s waiting for Fourth’s answer. Gemini had given him his heart on a silver platter since day one, and had been waiting for Fourth to take it ever since. He only has to say yes, but why does the word feel so heavy to leave his chest?

It feels so wrong, so wrong for him to accept Gemini’s held out heart for him. And he can’t even explain why. It feels as if he doesn’t deserve such pure love in the slightest.

What funny is, he finds it hard to accept the latter’s proposal, yet he finds himself currently mingling in bed with the same guy he’s having a hard time giving an answer to with ease. Of course Gemini wouldn’t turn him down, so it should be him who keeps the situation in control instead. Now they have tasted each other, wouldn’t he be a dickhead if he ended up turning Gemini down?

The only right answer at the moment is to tell Gemini that he agrees to marry him. But currently, he honestly can’t tell right from wrong anymore, as what he can only think of right now—is to flee.

“Are you alright?” Gemini’s gentle voice brought him out of the loud thoughts running inside his head, Fourth had just realized that he had been disassociating for a while.

“I think I’m tired,” Fourth replied, shaking his wrists in Gemini's hand as a sign to let him go.

Gemini didn’t fail to notice the change in Fourth’s mood, so he loosened his grip over holding down the younger’s wrists. He noticed that Fourth seemed down, but with how he was perfectly laughing and riling him just a few minutes prior, it made him wonder if what he said was the cause of that sudden change.

Did he speak too much?

“Fourth, if it’s what I said, I’m sorry—”

“No, it wasn’t you,” Fourth interrupted.

“Sorry, phi. Can we call it a night?” Fourth added.

Hearing Fourth’s words, Gemini feels heavy to let him go tonight. Especially since they just had sex together, having the younger guy slipping out of his fingers right after he felt like he almost had him in his grasp brings him this immense hollowness he thought he had gotten over. He thought Fourth wanting him tonight was a clear sign that everything is going well for them. Did he get the sign wrong? Are his efforts worthless after all, and Fourth was simply in tonight for his body alone?

“It’s quite late, you can stay over,” Gemini replied, trying to persuade the younger guy to stay the night. Fortunately, Fourth seemed to listen to his persuasion, because the younger guy nodded.

Sees Fourth scoots out underneath him, he immediately follows after him as he wants to help him get out of the bed. Coldness is emitting from the younger guy, but Gemini is thankful that Fourth doesn’t push him away, accepts his held out arms when he knelt down before him on the floor, offering to lift him up.

The rest of the night was spent in complete silence afterwards. Even after they had cleaned up in the shower together and settled into the same bed, lying under the fresh clean duvet together, they barely exchanged any words that night. Gemini notices the way Fourth seems to avoid his gaze, but as long as the younger guy doesn’t push him away, he wouldn’t want to mind it. He will just take it as Fourth wanting a space for the rest of the night which he will respect.

Fourth might seem like he's ignoring him, but having the chance to fall asleep to his face tonight, just as what he has always dreamed of having for the past few weeks, that’s honestly more than enough for him tonight. Having Fourth by his side tonight, he’s content.

Except, the naive happiness only lasted for a night as the next day he woke up, the space next to him was empty. Only the warmth that lingers on the empty spot beside him, and the scratches on his wrist and bite marks on his throat is proof that Fourth was here last night.

He tried contacting Fourth the whole day, but he eventually came to a realization that Fourth had blocked his number. Monday arrived, he came to Fourth’s workplace in hope of finding the younger, but he failed to see any glimpse of the black and white Kawasaki he knew Fourth would rarely leave his house without. When he asked one of Fourth’s coworkers regarding his whereabouts, he was told that Fourth is taking a break, but refused to answer his questions further due to privacy purposes. When he stopped by Fourth’s house afterwards in hope of seeing Fourth, other than he failed to catch a glimpse of the younger guy’s beloved bike once more, Aunt Amara also refused to tell him anything about that dear nephew of hers. Instead, she kindly requested him to give Fourth space.

With that, for the second time, Fourth has disappeared again from his life.

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Chapter Text

“It’s almost a week, Fourth. Are you really not going to tell me anything?”

Fourth exhaled, releasing a puff of smoke as he pulled away the cigarette from his lips. Gripping on the balcony’s rail, he leaned over to look down on the specks of people walking on the road five stories below. It’s dark, past seven in the evening, but it seems that the street is still lively.

“If you’re going to jump, at least use someone else's balcony, you dipshit.”

Taking another puff, he turned to look at the person who kept nagging his ears off. Beside him, there stood a guy that’s almost a copy of Fourth himself—numerous piercings on his ears and face, a grunge graphic tee, a tattoo of his Chinese name in calligraphy on the side of his neck, and one more tattoo but of a tiny sun on the side of his right wrist. Instead of rocking a buzz-cut like Fourth, the other guy has shaggy hair, messy and auburn in color. Funnily, the similarity doesn’t stop only over the aesthetic they share, they also view the world under the same lenses when the rest of the world couldn’t understand them.

Phuwin, his good friend of six years.

“You were workaholic, Tang and I can hardly drag you out to hang out with us on your days off. Now, all of a sudden, you’re taking an emergency leave from work. You seem fine, you told me aa is fine as well. Did you gamble your money somewhere and lost, now you gave up with life?” Phuwin snatched the cigarette off his hand. He put it between his lips instead, taking a big puff.

“That was Tang, not me,” Fourth replied, snatching the cigarette back from his friend. It’s his last one, he had asked Tang to buy more for him, but for now this is all he had to calm his mind down.

“Exactly. Tang has been living with me for the past few weeks, and now I have another pest living with me. I could care less about that shithead not paying me rent and bills, but he couldn’t stop moping around, I had to kick his ass to get him moving eventually.”

“Do I have to kick your ass as well?” His friend said, tone aggressive.

“Au, that’s so harsh of you, phi,” Fourth said, frowning softly. He flicked the ashes off the butt before taking another long puff again. His head is already tangled with the thought of a certain someone, now his friend wants to kick his ass. Which is a given he guesses, since he refuses to tell Phuwin what happened but still shamelessly asks for a favor to stay over his place. In a way, he guesses, he truly deserves a kick after all.

“Now you’re calling me phi. Have you hit your head somewhere? You haven’t called me that since years,” Phuwin replied, narrowing his eyes. He hardly sees him these days, but his friend of six years really is acting differently than what he remembers.

“And you would usually play along, saying that you would kick my ass first before I could. But now you’re sulking,” he continued, crossing his arms.

“What happened?” Phuwin asked, for how many times now ever since Fourth knocked on his door a few days ago, asking him a favor to let him stay at his place for the time being.

“Can I offer you my ass so I don’t have to answer that?” Fourth replied.

“Wow, you’ve really hit your head somewhere, don’t you?” Phuwin said, stumped.

“I mean kick my ass! Not fucking my ass!” Fourth defended himself the moment he realized his friend was taking his words wrong. Phuwin is looking at him as if he had grown another head.

“How would I know? You’re acting different these days after all, I would honestly believe it if you said you’ve changed that rule of yours over the time I can hardly see you,” Phuwin replied, his tone nonchalant as he leaned his side against the rail.

No sex between friends, no strings attached, never the same person twice—That’s the rule Fourth set for his own good to save himself from headaches. But it seems that the sudden crashing of a meteor from his past had made him look over that principle he had been holding tight as if it was his religion. Maybe it’s because he didn’t consider Gemini as a friend, maybe that’s why it flew over his head. But again, who is he kidding? Ever since Gemini showed up in his life again a few weeks ago, the world has turned upside down, so what’s the use of questioning his violation of that rule now?

From the very beginning, even way before he made that rule in the first place, Gemini has always been the root of his insanity. Gemini has always sent his mind into overdrive.

“Who knows, maybe I’ve changed,” Fourth sighed, muttering beneath his breath. But since there are only two of them there, standing together alone at the balcony at laboring night, his whispers didn’t miss from falling into the other guy’s hearing.

“So you did break the rule,” Phuwin pointed in an accusing manner, his voice a little loud as if he had just caught Fourth red-handed.

“Some dude actually managed to make you oversee your own rule?” The older guy pried further, to which Fourth ignored. He stuffed the cigarette back into the other guy’s lips.

“You can finish that. Good night,” Fourth said, leaving the balcony right afterwards.

“Ai Fourth!” Is the last thing he heard before he disappears into the spare room Phuwin has in his place.

He got into the room not because he’s planning to sleep, it’s too early. It’s because he wanted to get away from Phuwin who wouldn’t stop prying into his personal issue. But again, pushing the time aside, it’s not like he can fall asleep later either. He has been having a hard time sleeping these days all thanks to a certain someone that goes by the name of a zodiac.

Walking up to the bed, Fourth decided to lie down at least, hoping that maybe he can fall asleep if he actually closes his eyes long enough.

It’s not like Fourth wished to keep what happened from Phuwin forever. Being his good friend, Phuwin deserves to know everything. But Fourth still feels like he’s not ready to talk to him about it. Not to Phuwin, not to Tang, not even to Aunt Amara either. The three are the person who understands him the most. But this time, he feels like none of them would understand. He means, how can they, when even he himself has a hard time understanding his feelings and thoughts nowadays? It has been war inside his head for the past few days, fighting with all of the voices inside his head, it feels like he will turn crazy soon.

Creak.

Fourth’s eyes opened when he heard the door swing open. Looking to where the source of the sound was coming from, he noticed his other best friend, Tang, short for Satang, walking through the door, closing the door behind him quietly.

“Sorry, did I wake you up?” Satang apologized. Fourth watched as the guy pulled his shirt over his head, changed out of his working uniform. He must have just got back from work, a convenience store nearby.

Since Phuwin only has one spare room, he has no other choice but to share it with Satang. It’s either that, or per Phuwin’s humble words, Fourth is more than welcome to claim the dirty sofa as his. He doesn’t mind it actually, it’s more than enough seeing that he’s only being a bother. But it was Satang who offered him the room, so Fourth feels rather torn. He feels bad because Satang got here first, but after shoving each other around, in the end, they eventually came to an agreement to share the room instead.

“No, I was just closing my eyes,” Fourth replied, sitting up on the bed again.

With Satang here, he doesn’t feel like closing his eyes anymore. He noticed the way Satang looks like he has something to say, so he decided to show him that he’s all ears to listen.

Satang settled on the edge of the bed. He handed him a pack of cigarettes which Fourth just remembered he had called for him to buy it a few hours ago. So he accepted it, muttering a thank you, and placed the pack on the nightstand. He thought that was it, but the other guy still stared at him, so he decided to give the guy his attention once more, and asked him if there’s anything he wanted to tell him.

“A scenario,” the guy started. Fourth watched as the guy rubbed the back of his head—a curly two-block haircut in silver. Black studs on his lobes, and double helix on the upper cartilage. A bracelet tattoo on one wrist, and an outline of a star tattoo on the side of another. Rethinking again, it has really been a long time since he saw both Satang and Phuwin, he almost forgot that they share this tattoo together which they got out of spur one random night a few years ago. The blur of the outline really is proof that they have been around each other for quite a long time. The three of them really are a mirror of one another.

“What if—Just what if, okay. What if someone offered you a million baht for you to reveal a secret that’s not yours,” Satang continued. Fourth’s brows started to furrow.

“Did someone offer you a million baht to expose someone’s secret?” As he said, they’re a mirror of one another, so Fourth could see right through him in mere seconds. He wonders why Satang is trying to beat around his words though, he rarely does this. Unless, he’s feeling extremely cornered.

“I told you it’s just a scenario. Whatever—Nonetheless you get the point. If it was you, what would you do?” Satang said, still insisting that it wasn’t him that he’s talking about.

“That person must have a reason why he’s keeping that secret in the first place. A secret is a secret after all. Especially if that person is someone close to me, giving it away would just be extremely betrayful even if it's at the cost of such a hefty amount. Depends on my desperation for that money, I would be extremely tempted to sell out the secret—”

“Right?” Satang cuts off, too eager that makes it all suspicious about him. Fourth’s brows furrowed further.

“But if it’s a friend, I value friendship more than any material things, so I don’t think I would do it,” Fourth finished. Then he saw the way Satang’s smile faltered a little.

“Right…” The guy replied, quiet.

“Why are you asking me this anyway?” Fourth decided to ask. Satang then avoided his gaze.

“Something is just on my mind. But Fourth, are you really not telling us the reason why you are here?” Satang asked, immediately turning the spotlight around, he’s looking at Fourth again. But now, it’s Fourth who’s avoiding his gaze this time, the blond immediately lies on the bed again.

“Au phi, I feel—I feel so sleepy right now, can we continue our conversation later?” Fourth faked a yawn, rubbing his eyes and stretching his arms over his head. He closes his eyes, pretending to fall asleep.

“You never called me phi,” Satang replied. Fourth held back a curse, once again catching himself doing that fluke, seeing that even Phuwin had pointed that out earlier. He continues to stay still, wishes for the older guy to leave soon so that he can escape from another prying tonight.

“...You… You don’t happen to kill someone, do you?” Satang continued, the weight of fear in his voice heavy as if the chance of Fourth killing someone is real.

What the fuck is he on, popped on the front of Fourth’s mind. He badly wanted to open his eyes, jumped out the bed, and smacked the back of his friend’s head. But that would immediately blow his cover that he was pretending to be asleep as he still refuses to be cornered about his actual issue again tonight.

He knows that Satang hits joints sometimes, but this is the first time for him to hallucinate this bad. What made him think that Fourth actually killed someone? He might have anger issues sometimes, but he’s still sane enough to keep his hands to himself rather than foolishly taking someone’s life away. Also, it seems that Satang just got off work too, he doubted that he just smoked. As much as Fourth wishes to know what runs inside that junky head of his dear best friend, he wishes for peace more tonight. He had tolerated enough headaches today from Phuwin alone, he will just face the rest tomorrow.

Fortunately, seeing that he’s not moving, and didn’t make a noise for quite some time, Satang eventually gives up on getting an answer from him. The moment Fourth heard the sound of the door opening and closing, he opened one of his eyes slowly, taking a peek at the door to make sure Satang had completely left the room. Once he’s sure that he could see no glimpse of the guy in the room anymore, he opened both of his eyes completely, only to end up staring blankly at the ceiling instead. Contemplating life again.

A distant creak.

Phuwin’s place is extremely small, so everything can be heard from one room to another. It seems that Satang had just left the house because he heard a distant noise of the front door closing right after that distant creaking. Fourth has no idea what and where Satang would be up to tonight seeing that he had just gotten off work, but it’s also Friday night, so he can take a guess where he might be heading. 

Nonetheless, he’s glad that he could escape from both Phuwin’s and Satang’s prying again tonight, so he immediately let out a sigh of relief. Tonight will be another long sleepless night.

── ⟢ ・⸝⸝

Incessant ringing alarm. It took Fourth hours for him to fall asleep eventually, but because of Satang’s alarm at 5AM for his morning shift, his sleep only lasted short before he’s now wide awake again. His head is throbbing, spinning for a split second from being forcefully woken up out of his sleep. With the alarm still ringing, groaning, Fourth reached out his hand over the nightstand to turn off Satang’s alarm. He turned around to wake the guy up, just like what he has been doing for the past few days, but was confused to be met with a sight of emptiness instead next to him on the bed.

Cold, Satang didn’t get into the bed last night.

Getting out of the bed, Fourth walked out of his room, immediate relief to see his best friend hammered on the dirty couch, reeking of alcohol. He was genuinely worried for a split second to see his friend missing, but again, Satang has always been like this. It’s just he got used to seeing him for the past few days, he forgot that the other guy always gets wasted on Friday nights. One way or another, it’s like his way of celebrating himself for managing to survive another hell of a week.

This bad habit of his started even way back when they were still university students, three idiots that found themselves enrolling in Hospitality Management, in the old crook of a not-so-well known (is it even ever known?) and a far-from-prestigious institute in the outskirts of Krung Thep. All they had were one another, enduring everything together to make the three years they spent in that shit hole bearable, all because it’s the only path they were allowed to take, and had no idea what to do with their life otherwise. But still knew better that they would be a greater disappointment if they didn’t continue their bachelor’s at the time.

Life is still shitty for the three of them, but just like another chapter of life, they managed to close that one and proceeded with the next chapter, which is an achievement of its own. Fourth is rather grateful.

“Tang,” Fourth called out softly, just enough for only the guy on the couch to hear, keeping quiet for the other guy sleeping in the room a few feet away from them. As he mentioned before, Phuwin’s flat is small, so every sound bounced back in this tiny space.

He watched as the guy shifted on the couch, a sign that he’s awake, but refused to open his eyes.

“Your alarm rang. You have morning shift today, don’t you?” Fourth continued, keeping his voice low. He heard the older guy making a noise this time, like a soft whine. It made it look like Fourth is a parent trying to wake up his kid for school.

“Five more minutes,” the guy groaned, shifting on the couch to fix his position, eyes still closed shut.

“As you please, but don’t say that I didn’t wake you up later,” Fourth replied. Satang didn’t reply, it seems that he has fallen asleep again. Shaking his head, Fourth decided to get back into the room.

Lying on the bed once more, Fourth tries to fall asleep again. But no matter how hard he tries leaving his eyes closed, even tossing and turning to find a comfortable position that may help him fall asleep, he’s only met with growing frustration. Tonight marks one week of him having trouble sleeping, and he swears he can’t put up with it anymore. Acknowledging that he could never fall asleep again as long as the main issue within him isn’t settled, Fourth decided to get out of the bed and brought his wallet with him as he walked out of the room. He needs to get a breather.

Walking past Satang snoring in the living room, Fourth decided to wake his friend up one more time.

“Tang, it’s already five-thirty,” Fourth said, shaking the guy’s arm.

It’s currently half past five in the morning, he wished to get some fresh air on a chilly quiet night. Maybe not so quiet, but perhaps he can get a little relaxation from watching the sun rise too.

“Five more minutes,” the guy croaked. With that, Fourth left the house for a morning walk.

When he left the house, it’s fairly dark, but the deep greyish tint of the dark sky is proof that it will get bright soon in a few more minutes. It’s a bustling lower class neighbourhood, so at the crack of dawn, the area is noisy with the sounds of human pacing around, loud revving of old engines resounding too. He watched as a few teens ran out of a flat staircase, all cladded in a school uniform and a backpack. It’s the weekend, but he’s guessing that the kids have a field trip or something today. All of them look so cheerful despite the gloomy surroundings of their neighbourhood and run down dirty flats.

Fourth continued to stroll mindlessly, walking along the narrow pavement of the cramped neighbourhood. While he’s grateful that he still has his aunt whose house is comfortable for him to live in despite being thrown away by his immediate family, he feels bad for Phuwin who’s totally on his own. The guy had no other choice after graduation (and could only earn so much) but to claim a shabby place to call it home.

A few feet away, Fourth noticed a shabby stall set up on the side of the narrow road. He saw a line of people queuing, buying what seemed to be porridge and pathongko off the stall, so he decided to join the queue. When his turn was up, he ordered the same as the rest.

“50 baht.” Fourth handed a hundred baht note to an older woman who seemed to be in her early 60’s, operating the stall. He accepted a plastic bag filled with a bag of porridge and pathongko in return.

“You can keep the change,” Fourth said. But despite his offer, the older lady still handed him a fifty baht note as a change, turning him down, so Fourth awkwardly accepted the note and stuffed it into his pocket.

With the sun rising, it seems that the street starts to clear up with most people leaving the neighbourhood for work, so the stall is completely empty now. Fourth wants to watch the sunrise, so he grabbed himself a cup of free water from the stall and sat at the table right next to it.

The sight of the golden hue painting the surroundings is pretty, but it doesn’t lift off the burden in his mind and chest any less. If anything, it only makes him feel suffocated that now the pretty sight only reminded him of the very guy behind his dilemma to begin with further, knowing that the guy is the type to enjoy this kind of beautiful sight. So Fourth ended up sighing.

“The sky is clear, everything will be okay.” Fourth’s head turned to look at the old lady, realizing that she was talking to him. He watched as she cleaned up her equipment. She seemed to be preparing to close the stall for the day, so Fourth quickly downed the rest of his drink to return the cup to her.

“And even if it’s not, it will clear up soon just like how you believe even the heaviest rain will stop eventually,” the old lady added, smiling at him.

She reminded him of the elders in his neighbourhood back in Sakon Nakhon. While a handful of them can be quite hostile despite their old age (or maybe because of their old age), he remembers some of them can be really gentle and treat him with fondness as if he’s their own grandson. While her words are gentle, and Fourth can see her good intentions, he can’t help but feel this tiny irk rising in his chest.

“What if I don’t believe that the rain will stop and just accept that it will flood, and I will die out drowning?” He doesn’t mean to be rude, but her words evoked this rage inside him that he had been trying to keep at bay. Perhaps since he’s a mess these days, his patience is running thinner than usual.

Everyone keeps telling him that everything will be okay—That everything will be fine eventually, but he gets tired of waiting.

Tired of waiting for that indefinite so-called ‘someday’. An expectant word that gives him hope to hold onto devotedly that everything might work out someday. But how long is that someday?

How long does he need to wait for someday to come? How long does he need to foolishly hold onto that thread that someday will come eventually?

Waiting for someday that his family will finally take in him again, and stop pretending as if he doesn’t exist and just a mere figment of their nightmare. It has been ten years, ten full years since they sent him away, saying that they will take him in again once everything is cleared up. But those ten years almost turned eleven in a few more months, and he believes it will go by in a blink of an eye again, just like the past ten years had gone right before his eyes—All this time, waiting for that someday.

He’s tired of waiting.

He’s tired of hoping.

He’s tired of being foolish.

He’s so fucking tired.

“It’s human nature to survive even in the coldest and harshest nature,” she replied.

The old lady then sat down on the plastic seat right across from him at the red foldable table. She slid another plastic bag of porridge across the table, signaling that she wants him to take it.

“Leftovers, my grandkids got tired of eating them already,” the old lady said.

“If it’s flooding, then build a raft.” Fourth’s ears perked up, confusion filling him in to hear her words, but curiosity peeking in his interest to listen more.

“Then, an island,” she added.

“The building might be destroyed beneath you, but the sky is still intact above your head despite the heavy rain destroying everything that’s dear to you. The world hasn’t ended.”

“To keep on living, you must accept the loss. Home is a comforting word, one that sounds irreplaceable, but once you lost it due to flood, there’s no use crying over unsalvageable loss.”

“You simply have to build a new one—Find a new home.”

Fourth felt his heart twisting at the weight of her words sinking in him. To the ears of bypassers, it may seem like she’s talking randomly about flood and what nots, but to Fourth whose burdened mind is tangled with issues, he can feel her metaphorical words shining a ray of light upon his clouded thoughts.

Finding a new home.

“There’s no denying that it will be hard. Just like how hard it was to build your first home. But once you find your new place, you will be filled with comfort.”

“Even if there’s no guarantee how long that comfort will last, no guaranteeing that it will flood again and you have to build a new home again for God knows how many times.”

“But it’s better to feel comfortable with a roof above your head, rather than being homeless, isn’t it?” The old lady added. Fourth had to quietly nod, agreeing.

He heard the old lady chuckle.

“I’m already so old, now I’m talking about floods out of nowhere,” she said. Then she stands up from the seat. Fourth automatically followed unconsciously.

“You can sit here if you want, my grandkids are waiting for me at home,” the old lady said, gesturing her hand for him to sit down again. But Fourth doesn’t think he wants to stay here anymore.

“It’s alright, I have to get going anyway,” Fourth replied. The old lady then nodded.

“Thank you for the porridge,” Fourth said, taking the bag of porridge to put it along with the other bag and pathongko in the clear plastic bag he’s holding.

“Mention not, share them with your friends,” the old lady said, chuckling lightly. Fourth nodded.

“I hope your sky will be clear soon,” she added, smiling.

Hearing her further encouragement, as if she really sees through the mess playing inside his head, Fourth ended up blinking rapidly for a split second, stumped. Maybe it’s because of her old age, it made her see him like an open book. But it feels rather comforting that she seems to acknowledge his struggles. So he muttered a quiet “thank you,” and returned the smile, albeit a little bit weak.

Even though the sight of sunrise failed to make him feel better, he’s glad that he ran across her, because her words actually made him feel a lot better.

Yes, better—but sadly, his heart and mind are still a mess.

With her back straying away from him, disappearing behind a corner that leads to what seems another flat building nearby, Fourth takes that as a cue for him to get going as well. As he didn’t bring his phone with him, he’s not sure how long he has been outside, nor what time it is. He’s guessing now must be roughly seven from how bright the sky has gotten. Just like that old lady said, the sky is clear today.

He needs to return home soon, Aunt Amara is waiting for him.

── ⟢ ・⸝⸝

The walk home to Phuwin’s flat building didn’t feel long compared to the walk from the building. Maybe because he was walking mindlessly so it felt long, but he got to the flat fairly quickly. In less than fifteen minutes he believed, and he saw that familiar flat building in no time.

Phuwin’s unit is on the highest floor, the fifth floor. There’s no elevator, so he had no choice but to take the stairs to get to Phuwin’s place. Not like he minds. Since he works out regularly, the small activity feels like a breeze to him. Maybe a little time consuming since it would be much faster to have the convenience of an elevator, but of course he knows that such a cheap place doesn't offer such. And even if it does, from how rundown and barely maintained the area is, he doubts the elevator would work anyway.

But again, it’s not like he lives here, so there’s no need for him to care. Even so, he still feels bad for his friend who had to climb the stairs everyday for the past few years living here, and have to endure the dirty environment of the flat on top of that. Fourth feels bad, but it isn't like he can do anything about it. While he fairly lives better than his best friends, it’s not like he is in a high place where he can help them escape poverty. Having Aunt Amara by his side, even when she feels like she can’t help him a lot, he still believes that he wouldn’t get to live today if it wasn’t for her. So he’s extremely grateful for her existence.

Reaching the last flight of stairs, Fourth feels a sense of relief when he almost reaches Phuwin's floor. It may be because of the way the staircase is built here, but it feels like he can hear the echoes of his own footsteps louder than usual. But he wasn’t sure if he was hearing it right, since it’s not like he lives here long enough to feel the difference, maybe it has always been like this but he just realized it today.

He even turned around to see if he wasn’t alone, perhaps there’s a neighbour joining him in the staircase, that’s why the echoes are there. But whenever he turns around, he sees nothing. And the echoes stopped as well. Doesn’t want to put too much thought into it, thinking that he may be hallucinating because he fails to get a fair amount of sleep these days, Fourth decided to ignore the sounds.

Finishing the rest of the flight, he finally managed to see the corridor of Phuwin’s floor. Since he’s not in a rush, his pace is extremely laid back, taking his time to reach his friend's unit even if it’s only a few doors away from the staircase. He stuffed his hand into the front pocket of his shorts, searching for the spare key Phuwin gave him so he could move around his place with ease.

It’s when he inserted the spare key into the doorknob that he realized the reason why he has been hearing the reverberation of his own footsteps for quite a while. It turned out he wasn’t hearing things. Because the footsteps continued even when he had stopped walking.

“Fourth.” He turned his head to see a sight of the last person he wished to see.

Gemini.

His heart doesn't feel well. He’s still not ready to talk to Gemini, so he wishes to get inside faster and shuts the door behind him. But just as he got inside and wanted to close the door after him, he saw a hand holding the door frame, stopping him from closing it altogether from how hard he’s pushing from the other side. Fourth’s eyes widened in panic, genuinely shocked because he never knew that Gemini could be this persistence. What happened to the gentle guy he knows?

Instinctively, Fourth tried to push the door as he didn't want to let Gemini in. But no matter how hard he’s pushing on the door, Gemini is just as stubborn as he pushed back even harder, gripping on the edge of the door so tight, Fourth could see the way his knuckles turned white, veins popping on the back of his hand the more he’s trying to force himself inside, as if his life depended on it.

Fourth thought he has been giving his all in trying to force the door shut, to keep out the man on the other side of the door from entering. But the next thing he knew, he’s already flying away from the entrance, his body stumbling down the floor out of losing his balance from Gemini suddenly bulldozing into the door like a fucking bull charging onto its target. The plastic bag he was holding flew out of his hand, smashing onto the floor, and the bags of porridge bursted in result. Such a mess only fueled Fourth’s emotions further.

“What the hell is wrong with you?!” Fourth had no choice but to scream out of exasperation. He has to be honest that he’s shaking out of fear, but along that fear, he’s also angry.

He knows he’s in no place to be angry, he was the reason this happened in the first place. Gemini has all the rights to be angry at him, hunting him down for toying with him, wasting his time and emotions. Gemini is here to kill him for all he knows, and he admits that he deserves it.

Fourth was an asshole, he left Gemini without saying anything after having a night together. Running away instead of confronting the other guy like a mature adult he’s supposed to be. But he guesses, the anger he feels right now is more towards himself rather than at the older guy.

It was him who left Gemini that night, but somehow the sight of the older guy before his eyes right now feels oddly relieving—Like sunshine after a heavy rainstorm, and he hates himself for feeling this way.

Fourth’s feelings are a mess, it’s almost laughable.

“I should be the one who asks that,” Gemini replied, seething. Fourth can see pain showing in those gentle honey-brown eyes as Gemini stares down at him who’s still lying on the floor.

Unkempt appearance, disheveled hair, scrunched eyebrows, and a shallow dent on the side of his jaw. He looks like he’s in so much pain, his hands are trembling. Hands balling up into tight fists as if he’s trying his best to hold himself back, seems to be refraining himself from acting on his emotions further.

Even when Fourth had wronged him, Gemini is still holding himself back from hurting him. The sickening kindness felt extremely humiliating to him. Like a jab to his conscience, it made him feel more like an asshole, it made him want to laugh.

“Get out,” Fourth said.

But instead of listening to his words, like a disobedient dog defying its owner's commands, he saw Gemini taking a few steps closer towards his way who’s still sitting on the floor. Then the guy gets down, kneeling on the floor instead. Fourth flinched when he saw Gemini reaching out his hand, expecting him to land a hit on his face, but was surprised to have him caressing his cheek instead. Just like what he always does.

Fourth can feel the waver in his own emotions. Gemini’s kindness repulses him, but at the same time he badly has this urge to lean into that warm hand, to enjoy the abundance of warmth emitting out from it.

“I don’t want to see you right now,” Fourth mustered the courage to say that aloud. He really doesn’t want to see Gemini right now. His thoughts are still a mess.

“Am I that distrustful to you?” Gemini asked. Fourth’s brows furrowed.

“I thought I’ve laid myself bare enough. For you to feel comfortable with me, for you to open up to me. Is it not enough after all?” Gemini continued to ask.

“What can I do for you to trust me with your feelings?” He is practically begging.

Gemini is too kind for his own good. Just like back then too.

No matter what Fourth had done to him, be it stalking his peace, ruining his property, and getting him sick, Gemini never once blamed him. Even when he got hospitalized for days, he would still smile at Fourth when he saw him the next day. Over and over again. It’s also the main reason why it fueled Fourth’s delusions so badly at the time. Gemini is too kind. And while Fourth still has a sliver of his conscience, he doesn’t want to abuse that kindness anymore, and wishes to stay away from Gemini until he sorts his feelings out. Gemini deserves someone better than a mess he is.

“I miss celebrating Christmas with my family,” Fourth muttered.

He saw the way Gemini’s brows furrowed hearing his words. He’s far from ready in speaking about the mess running inside his head, but since Gemini is going through such trouble and length in finding him, Fourth decided that it’s time for him to end this once and for all. Gemini wants him to open up, then he will open up. Even if it will sound like he’s blabbering nonsense. Or perhaps, he is blabbering nonsense. His feelings and thoughts never mattered anyway.

“Did you remember how my mother reacted when she saw you with me in that elevator of your father’s company building back then?” Fourth asked. It took a moment, but Gemini nodded.

Of course Gemini remembered that day, it was the first time for him to see a mother could be so angry at her own son over such a small misunderstanding. She was accusing Fourth of bothering him again, when in fact, that wasn’t the case, Gemini didn’t feel so in the slightest. The younger’s presence never bothered him, what more, on that day particularly, he was delighted to see Fourth coming to see him.

“She thinks I’m mentally ill. Forcing myself on you again just like what I did ten years ago,” Fourth said.

“I’m not saying this to blame it on you, I know it’s my fault for liking you too much. But it’s also part of the truth that you were the reason I got kicked out of the family.”

“The main reason? They regret having me,” Fourth added, snorting sarcastically.

“I was ugly, loud, stubborn, stupid. I was a handful.”

“They had to endure having such an embarrassing child like me for years. I was always compared to other neighbor kids, and of course to my own sister as well. I was that weird neighbour kid no parents nor kids want to be around with.”

“So when my obsession for you started, it was a perfect excuse for them to send me away. And once they did, they never looked back—Not even once.”

“I was a fool for years, believing their words that they will take me in again. Every year, every Christmas, I keep hoping that they will eventually take me back. Always telling myself—If it’s not this year, then it will be next year for sure. They are my family, they brought me into this world, so how can they throw me away?”

“Before I knew it, ten years had passed. During those years, without me contacting them, not once did they ever try to reach out to me first. They didn’t even try to pretend to care. All of the calls, all of the texts, every single one of them were from me, and never from them.”

“Did you know that I was sent alone on a flight to get here?” Fourth said, Gemini noticed the way his eyes are getting crystalic, then a few droplets running down his cheeks.

Fourth sniffled, chuckling.

“Fourteen. Snotty. Clueless.”

“They told me that I have to live with my aunt for a while until things get better. Even when I didn’t understand what I did wrong for me to be sent away, I believed in them, and took that flight. Fortunately aa was there, so I wasn’t completely lost the moment I landed in such a foreign place.”

“They never visited me here. All I had was aa by my side to be the parent figure that I lost. Even on days that I prayed hard to Lord Buddha that they will miraculously come to see me, they failed to show up. My birthdays, big holidays, the last day of school, college graduation, my first job—they were never there.”

“I believe they have no idea what are the names of the schools I attended. The name of my friends. The name of my colleagues. They never care to ask.”

“Eventually, I slowly came to realize that they will never accept me again. It took me years. But as much as I want to acknowledge that, deep down, I was still foolishly hoping that they still don’t give up on me yet.”

“So when they called me a few months ago, contacting me first for the first time when they had never done that before, my first reaction was—This is it, this is the day I’ve been waiting for. They’re finally taking me in as a part of the family again.”

“But it turned out I was wrong.”

“They only wanted to use me. I guess because I mentioned about getting my first job as a food coordinator in one of my texts before, and used to send pictures of me baking sometimes, they decided that I could be of help for my older sister’s wedding.”

“The reason they called was not because they wanted to include me in her big day, but they were just trying to cut costs by getting me to do things for them for free. Instead of hiring a food coordinator and paying for a cake for the wedding, they planned to use me to do those instead.”

“I was so foolish. I got so excited for nothing.” More tears are rolling down those pink cheeks, Gemini badly wishes to wipe those tears for him, but he’s afraid that if he interrupts Fourth now, then the younger guy would change his mind and put up his defense again—curling up, and flexing his quills. Turning him down, and running away again, Gemini doesn’t want that.

“And even when I hot-headedly took the decision to ditch the wedding and fly back here, they only called me just to blame me for ruining my sister’s wedding. The wedding still happened even without me there, they were simply angry because they had to spend money hiring someone else to replace me.”

“It’s not like I wished her wedding would be cancelled completely because I left. For a moment, I just thought that if they asked me to come back, then I would definitely consider it. But they called not because they wanted me to come back, nor did they were planning to apologize either. They only called because they wanted to blame me, they never cared about my feelings.”

“So funny, isn’t it?” Fourth asked Gemini, forcing a chuckle as he stared straight into Gemini’s eyes as if he wanted the older guy to laugh along with him, to agree with him that his foolishness is a joke.

But Gemini kept quiet, simply shaking his head. What Fourth has gone through all these years isn’t the least humorous. He has been abused emotionally for years, it’s not something to be laughing about.

“When I told you back then that I gave up on hoping to be a part of the family ever again, I was actually  lying through my teeth.”

Fourth chuckled again, more hot tears cascading his cheeks.

“I’ve been trying to prove myself.”

“They sent me away because they were embarrassed of me. So I thought, maybe if I work on myself and show them that they too can be proud of me, then they will take me in again.”

“But a leopard can’t change its spots. Just like a leopard born with spots on them, I am too, born with flaws that I can’t change. It’s simply a part of me. Hiding them made me feel like I’m lying to myself. But I tried, I tried to prove myself that I am deserving to be a part of the family.”

“My sister is academically smart. So I tried to study hard, but I’m just not blessed with a smart brain. I keep flunking again and again. You're naturally a smart guy, I bet you have no idea how frustrating it is trying to understand things that just won’t make sense to you, do you?”

“I cried a lot back then, being mad at myself for not being able to understand what my teachers taught me at school. While other kids were spending school breaks going on vacations with their family, I was in my room, crying myself out trying to complete summer homeworks that I couldn’t understand.”

“To others it seems so easy, they never understand how things can be so hard for me. But I honestly want to know why either. Why—why do I always struggle so much?” Fourth questioned.

Then he chuckled weakly again.

“So I started blaming you.”

“If you weren’t so pretty, then I might not have fallen in love with you. If you weren’t so kind to me, then I might not have deluded myself into thinking that I might get the chance to be with you. If there was no news about you getting married, then I might not have been sent here.”

“Everyday, I tried to convince myself that it was your fault. You were the reason why my life turned out this way. But of course despite that, I fully know that was never the case. You were never the problem here.”

“It was me.” Fourth concluded.

It wasn’t your fault either, Gemini wishes to say. But he held himself back.

“If I wasn’t born in the first place, then all of this would never happen. My parents wouldn’t be stressed, wishing that they could erase my existence forever. Aa wouldn’t be burdened in taking care of me, and you wouldn’t be hurt because of me either,” Fourth said, smiling faintly.

“Even right now, it feels so wrong for me to accept your feelings for me. I’ve hurt you in the past, I’ve been blaming you for years. I’m so ashamed of myself, I feel like I don’t deserve you at all.”

“You deserve someone better than me. Someone who’s not stubborn, someone who would never wrong you, someone who can be with you without feeling guilty nor ashamed.”

“I can’t be with you, Gemini.”

“That’s my answer for your proposal, I’m sorry,” Fourth apologized.

It feels as if the world had just crashed down on him. Like there’s an interruption in the circuit of his brain, like something has snapped, there’s a loud tinnitus ringing inside his ears. So loud, that Fourth’s voice is drowned out of his hearing, he can’t hear him. The world looked like it’s moving slowly as well. He saw the way Fourth’s face contorted in confusion, a vignette slowly clouding his vision.

He isn’t sure what’s happening. Fourth looks like he’s shaken up, so he tries to reach out for Fourth’s face, wishing to wipe off the tears tainting his pretty face. But just as he was about to graze his knuckles on the surface of the pink cheeks he loved, his vision turned pitch black afterwards.

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Chapter Text

“It looks like he passed out due to stress. He’s severely dehydrated and malnourished as well. The IV drip should help him with the nutrients for now, he just needs to get more proper rest, and he would be fine to work again soon.” An unfamiliar voice.

“Thank you,” a familiar voice made him open his eyes eventually. Above him, he saw a white ceiling, the blinding lights shining on his eyes made his eyelids twitch. But as he’s getting used to the light entering his eyes, he can finally open his eyes fully, and manage to make out the person sitting by his bed.

“Mae,” Gemini croaked out, his voice hoarse.

“Nai, you’re finally awake,” his mother said, sighing in relief. Then she helped him sit up, and poured him a glass of water for him to drink.

“What happened?” Gemini asked, confusion still lingering in his mind as the last time he remembered, he was at Fourth’s place. Or to be specific—Fourth’s friend’s place.

He was searching for Fourth like crazy for the past few days. On top of working his office job at day, he had been spending his off working hours searching for traces of Fourth. It may be pure coincidence, but he was glad that he stopped by that random convenience store while he was in search of Fourth. Or else he doesn’t think he would come across Fourth’s friend working there at all.

The guy was stocking up the shelves when he first saw him that evening. At first, Gemini was simply trying to pick up something off the shelves, but the tattoo on the guy’s wrist caught his attention. He remembered Fourth has something similar on his right wrist as well. While Fourth has a crescent moon, that guy has a star instead. Like a matching tattoo, it made him wonder if it’s really the case.

But again, this guy might be a stranger all he knows, because not everything revolves around them. But when he noticed that the guy had earpods in, and seemed to be talking to someone, the conversation he heard afterwards was what tied it up for him.

“Uh uh, I will buy it for you.”

“But you haven’t paid me back for the pack I bought you recently.”

“Ai Fourth!”

“You own such a huge bike, but can’t even pay me back for your cigarettes.”

“I will tell aa that you’re misbehaving, you brat.”

“Uh, you better transfer me the money before I slash your tires.”

“Au, how am I evil for asking you to pay me what you owe? I can barely live off my minimum wage, aren’t you living well that you’re working for an event company?”

“Yes—Yes I know, I was just joking. I won’t slash your baby’s tires, okay?”

“Aren’t you too sensitive these days? Okay—sorry, I won’t say that again. Uh, I will bring you cheesecakes as well. But you really need to eat something healthier, Fourth.”

Then when the guy noticed that he had been standing there for quite a while, he immediately ended the call, and asked him if he wanted to ring the items up, so Gemini nodded. He didn’t even know what he was getting anymore, but he brought it to the counter for the silver haired guy to ring them up anyway. He wasn’t sure how to bring it up, but he badly wanted to ask the guy about Fourth, so he did.

When he mentioned Fourth’s full name, he could see the way surprise showed up on the guy’s face. But as Gemini wasn’t sure how to introduce himself, since he had no idea what he meant to Fourth, he ended up saying that he’s a friend. But since Gemini wasn’t that good at lying, it seems that the other guy could sense that something wasn’t right, that he wasn’t telling the truth, so the guy was really wary of him, he refused to tell him Fourth’s whereabouts.

He might not seem like it, but Gemini can be really stubborn when he has something he’s fixated on. Once he’s determined to have something, he will always make sure that he gets it. So now, with his current obsession with Fourth, he won’t back down until he can see Fourth again. So he ended up forcing the guy to no end to reveal Fourth's info, even offering him money and such, but the guy kept turning him down.

At the end, with Gemini refusing to leave the store until he gets what he wanted, the guy threatened to call the police on him, so that’s when Gemini gave up, and backed down for that moment. Since the guy is his only clue at the moment in finding Fourth, he decided to follow the guy. He knew that he must have lost his mind to be doing so. It was criminal to stalk people, but he had no choice.

When the guy got off work that evening, Gemini quietly followed after him and that’s when he found that flat building which he strongly believed Fourth would be inside. Since Fourth asked his friend to buy him a pack of cigarettes, he guessed Fourth must be staying at his friend’s place then, that’s why he couldn’t find him at his aunt’s. And turned out, Gemini was right.

He wasn’t sure when Fourth left the building because he fell asleep for a good hour. As he had been busy with work and looking around for Fourth, he had been lacking sleep. Not only sleep, he didn’t remember when was the last time he had a proper meal either ever since he found Fourth gone next to him on his bed. But much to his relief, even if he missed seeing Fourth leaving the building, he was lucky to wake up just in time to see Fourth walking up to the dirty flat building.

Baggy graphic tee, knee shorts, and a pair of sandals. He was holding a clear plastic bag, filled with what seemed to be bags of porridge and pathongko. He looked like he just got back from a morning walk.

Didn’t want to lose sight of the younger guy, Gemini immediately followed after him without thinking further, and it led to this situation where he’s waking up in a hospital bed now. He remembered listening to Fourth open up about his family, but the memory afterwards were hazy and blurry.

“I can’t be with you, Gemini.”

Right, Fourth rejected him.

With Fourth’s last words for him ringing in his ears like a broken cassette, Gemini could feel suffocation on his chest. It feels heavy, the area where his heart should be is twinging with pain as well. He soon realized that what he’s feeling right now is a heartbreak.

He had been dumped countless times in the past, but his current emotion feels so foreign to him because this is the first time for him to feel this way. Sure, he felt sad when his exes left him, but it was never this painful. It feels as if his heart just got shredded apart. So painful he didn’t know what to do, he ended up shedding tears before he realized it.

“Nai,” his mother said, surprised. She must be caught off guard to see her only son breaking down crying out of nowhere. But Gemini couldn’t stop. Like a switch being turned on, he’s turning into a crying mess.

With tears running down his cheeks like a broken dam, and his nose runny from snots building up, his mother then handed him a tissue before pulling him into a hug, comforting him. Gemini ended up crying into his mother’s embrace ever harder, he’s wailing like a child. It’s really embarrassing, but he can’t bring himself to care when his heart is hurting more than his pride.

Her warm gentle embrace and the way she patted his head, and rubbed his back, the one he inherited his gentleness from, made him feel extremely comforted. She had no idea what happened, but he’s grateful that she’s here for him. He has no idea why he’s crying this hard honestly.

Yes, Fourth’s rejection hurt him tremendously. While he doesn’t feel that attached with any of his exes, it is totally different with Fourth. He’s having such a painful heartbreak for the first time because he really loves Fourth a lot. More than he ever thought he was capable of emotionally.

But the heartbreak couldn’t be the only reason he’s crying so hard that he’s hiccuping and snotting like this. Maybe alongside that heartbreak, it’s also because he feels helpless when it comes to Fourth.

After seeing Fourth again, and finally understands why he is the way he is, the empathy he has for the younger guy made him feel Fourth’s pain as if it’s his own. That knowledge made his heart get mauled over twice, feeling a heartbreak on top of his immense sadness on the younger guy’s behalf.

Though, even if his heart hurts for the younger guy, it’s not like he can do anything about it. Not only had he forced himself in when Fourth clearly left him because he didn’t wish to pursue further connection with him, Fourth had also made it clear today that he can’t be with him. So it feels like a double rejection, one after another—Fourth really doesn’t want him.

“Is it painful, Nai?” His mother asked, rubbing his back. Gemini nodded, still a crying mess.

“It hurts, mae,” Gemini croaked out. His mother continued to ruffle his head, rubbing his back with comfort, it made him cry more to realize that Fourth might have no one to turn to like this. And this realization only made him feel even more helpless. He wants Fourth.

He wants to be next to Fourth and give him all of the love he deserves.

He wants to shower the younger with adoration, praises, attention, all of the things he was deprived off from his family and the world, just because he was born the way he is. He doesn’t deserve to live in such cruelness. He wants to give him the warmth he deserves. He wants to be the place where Fourth can feel safe from the brutality of the world hurting him. He wants to be his solace. He wants Fourth.

“I want Fourth,” Gemini voices out, his heart feels so heavy it feels like it’s going to burst with sorrow.

“Say again?” His mother asked, she must not hear him properly because of his loud sobbing. So Gemini sniffled and swallowed down his sobs before repeating himself again.

“I want Fourth,” Gemini repeated, clear this time.

“You want Fourth?” His mother repeated his words, ruffling his hair. Gemini nodded timidly against her shoulder, a soft whine resounded at the back of his throat, like a puppy missing its owner.

“Like a person?” She asked, pulling out so that she could look at him in the face. When their eyes met, Gemini then nodded again. His sobs have quieted down, but he’s still a mess. Stuffy nose, and puffy eyes. He’s even softly pouting too—Like a kicked puppy.

“Which Fourth?” She continued to ask. Brushing the messy strands off his forehead, wiping off the tears on his face with her thumbs.

“Fourth Nattawat,” Gemini replied. He can see genuine surprise on her face.

“Jirochtikul?” She asked, to be sure. Gemini nodded, sniffling once more.

“The kid that used to follow you around back then?” She asked further. Gemini nodded again.

“But it has been years, hasn't it?” She said, looking extremely worried.

“I don’t think I’ve ever seen him in our neighbourhood since ten years ago,” she added.

“Why are you looking for him suddenly?” She asked, completely perplexed but still wished to help her son.

“I love him,” Gemini answered.

There was confusion in her eyes, then it slowly turned into realization. Her eyes widened.

“So the one you told me you’re planning to marry is him?” She asked.

“You’ve been talking to him? How’s he doing?” She immediately asked, wondering about her son’s future partner. She had always been worried about Gemini’s love life, the young man kept getting turned down, she was worried that he would be single for life. When she offered to arrange him with someone, he said that he wanted to find his partner on his own, so she kept her hands off.

She still remembered when they were trying to set him up with someone when he was nearing to graduate high school. Because of the nature of their family, it’s rather normal to be arranged with someone at that age. It’s not like they were trying to marry him off right away, just planning to get him engaged for a few years and getting to know his fiancée for marriage. That was how she met her husband anyway.

She wasn’t sure how the news got around that her son was getting married at the time, but along that commotion, she also found out that the neighbour kid who loved to follow her son around got sent away because his family was worried that he was going to create a scene. While the news about the weird neighbour kid getting sent away spread around in the neighborhood like wildfire, along with the news of her son’s wedding that she never confirmed, she also faced a rejection from her son for the first time.

“Mae, I’m sorry but I can’t proceed with the engagement. May I find my future wife on my own?”

And she still remembered his words up to this day, because that’s the first and only time her beloved son had requested them for anything. Gemini has always been an obedient kid, a very sweet child, smart and witty, he always listens to both her and his father, so she never had to worry about him.

Sometimes she does wonder if they were being too controlling since Gemini always accepts and listens to whatever they lay out and suggests him to do. But when asked if he wishes to do something else, Gemini always shakes his head. “It’s tiring, but I don’t hate doing it. I want to,” was his answer.

Always so selfless, so when he expressed his wish to them for the first time, that he wants to find his future wife on his own, who are they to deny his wish? Even without the well-known fact that Gemini has been such a kid every parent could only ever envy to have—it’s his life. Their son has all the rights to live his life as he wishes. Their only purpose as parents is to respect, and give him their unwavering support. Because if it wasn’t them to provide a safety net for him to land on, then who would?

“He rejected me,” Gemini replied, his voice trembling with sobs threatening to surface again. The mother’s heart immediately winced at the sight of her son bursting into another crying mess, more hot tears running down his cheeks. He’s sobbing again.

Gemini is a strong child, it’s rare for her to see him cry, what more when he’s a sobbing mess like this. The last time she saw him cry this hard was probably many years ago when he was still a snotty kid. Coming home crying from grade school because his classmates had been making fun of his name.

“Why is my name Gemini? Everyone said that it’s weird. Can’t my name be Gem or Nai instead?”

“It’s not weird, it’s special. It’s not a common name because it’s special. You’re special, Nai.”

She wasn’t sure if what she said was enough to comfort him at the time, but it was the last time she saw him crying like that, so perhaps Gemini did finally feel the sincerity of her words. That she named him so because he’s really special to her and his father.

He’s a child that they have been working so hard for. After numerous miscarriages, and constant failure in doing IVF, she almost lost hope. But at last, it seems that God had listened to her prayer, and was blessed to finally conceive at her fourth attempt of doing IVF.

After such hardships, of course Gemini is special to her and her husband. And even if she didn’t have to go through such struggles, and they managed to conceive him at first try, she believes she would still love him the same. Gemini is here because they want him to be here. It’s just what they had gone through that made the boy’s existence a little bit more special. In a way, Gemini is like a special gift from God to them.

“Nai,” she expressed her sympathy, calling out the nickname she has for him fondly.

“But I still want him, mae,” Gemini continued. He’s crying again, so his mother continued to wipe off his tears for him, squeezing his hand, comforting him.

“I understand your feelings, but right now, your health is the most important, Nai. You fainted because you haven’t taken care of yourself well. Get better, then we can talk about Fourth again, okay?” His mother said. Gemini wishes to disagree, he has this strong urge to throw tantrums like a child, wanting to demand that he doesn’t want to do anything else unless he gets Fourth to see him again. But he knows that’s only his emotions speaking, and his rationale doesn’t want to make his mother worry further.

“Perhaps you want to see your friend? Maybe that will make you feel better,” she suggested. Gemini was about to shake his head, he didn't feel like seeing his friends.

Until her words afterwards stopped him in track.

“Your friend was the one who rushed you here. He was here, waiting for you with me. But he said that he wants to take fresh air outside for a bit. I think he will be back soon,” she continued.

Gemini can hear his own heartbeats ringing in his ears. Blood is gushing inside him, his heart is pumping with exhilaration of anticipation.

“That friend, what’s his name?” Gemini asked eagerly, he didn’t even notice that he was holding her hand, catching himself right before he almost squeezed it too hard out of uncontrolled excitement.

He sees confusion displaying on her face again, she must be puzzled as to why he seems so eager now when he was a crying mess just a minute ago.

“He said it once, but I didn’t quite catch it. Now that I’m thinking again, his name sounds like Fourth too. Force? Ford? Fort? But I don’t remember Jirochtikul’s son looked like that—”

“That was him, mae. That Fourth is the same Fourth,” Gemini cut off.

He can see disbelief flashing on her face.

“The young man with a blond buzz-cut and piercings?” She asked, Gemini nodded.

“Is the same person as the kid with braces and pimples?” She continued, Gemini nodded once more.

Then he can see she looks like she almost faint from shock, but she immediately stabilized herself.

“It’s your choice, I will respect it. He is pretty, so I will give it that,” she murmured beneath her breath, as if she was trying to convince herself that she is alright with Gemini’s decision, and how the blond guy she thought was Gemini’s friend turned out to be the guy that her son wished to marry.

“So Fourth rejected you? But you still want him? You fell sick, and he was the one who rushed you here?” His mother said, trying to clear up everything. Gemini nodded.

“It was my fault. He made it clear that he doesn’t want to see me anymore, but I was the one who went out my way to see him again. But my stubbornness only ended up inconveniencing him, and he had to clear up the mess that I did,” Gemini said, sighing.

“I guess it’s fair between us now.”

Gemini’s eyes widened, turning his head towards the door, there he saw Fourth standing in the doorway, leaning against the door frame, a cup of coffee in one hand.

“Fourth,” Gemini called out, his eyes gleaming with excitement, shiny as if he’s seeing a treat before his eyes. Like a dog, wishing to stand on his rear feet in excitement, wanting to catch what its owner has in his hand, throwing at him. But his mother held him back, making sure that he wouldn’t leave his bed yet.

“You knocked down the door to my friend's flat, I had to pay him back both the cost to buy a new one and the penalty for breaking a landlord’s property. Then I had to rush you to the hospital as well. Do you know that I had to carry you all the way here?” Fourth said, walking closer to Gemini sitting on the bed.

“Well, all the way might be a stretch, but I carried you five stories down on my own, and had to walk along the alley as well until I reached the main road to be able to catch a ride,” Fourth continued.

“I’m sorry—”

“Don’t. I deserve it,” Fourt cut off.

“I’m sorry that you have to see your son in such a state,” Fourth apologized to the mother instead. Then she shook her head, saying that he shouldn’t be sorry for what her son did.

“Gemini told me that you’re Jirochtikul’s son,” she decided to speak about it now he’s here.

With the mention of his family’s name, she can see the way shame fills in the boy’s eyes. Now it seems that he’s avoiding her gaze, awkwardly running his hand all over his buzz-cut. She must admit that she was surprised at first to see that Gemini has a friend with a rough appearance like this. Embarrassingly, she’s quite old-fashioned, so such appearance used to be connoted with negativity for her. But now that she’s looking at him more, she starts to feel that the haircut and piercings suit him well. It made him shine, she wasn’t sure if that’s the right way to call it. But he stands out, and she doesn’t mean it in a bad way.

And he seems to be a really nice guy too. Her son troubled him, but he still helped him and brought him here. The old memories she had about him feel like memories of a different person. While she remembers feeling angry that someone’s kid was following her son around back then, Gemini was the one to assure her that he’s fine, so she never really took the measure to take legal actions. It was all in the past now.

The crazy kid had grown up a lot, and matured with time. Thinking again, the kids were so young, fourteen and seventeen. And as she said, it has been a thing of the past anyway, so it’s not like she wished to pick on that matter. She’s just honestly surprised that the two got to meet each other again after years of being separated, that’s all. Maybe it was fate doing its work—The two were long destined to be together.

“I’m not saying it to pick on the past na,” she said, making sure that she said that with peace.

“You’ve grown up a lot, I didn’t recognize you at all,” she added, smiling fondly as if she’s looking at her own son, it made Fourth feel embarrassed, he feels awkward on his feet. It doesn’t help that he’s dressed up so sloppily too, far from ready to see the mother of the guy he is—was, seeing.

“But you’ve grown up so beautifully, my eyes feel refreshed looking at you,” the woman added, chuckling. Fourth feels his cheeks heating up, eyes bursting into excessive blinking mess.

Fourth looks like he just woke up, ungelled hair and a pair of sandals, but the woman is still sweet with her words, calling him beautiful even when he feels like he’s not in the state to be complimented in such a way. Now, he can see that Gemini takes up a lot of his personality from his mother for sure.

“Right, I’m so sorry on my son’s behalf. Gemini told me that you’ve rejected him, but he still went to bother you, and you had to carry him here. I’m so sorry, luk,” she added, putting her hand on her chest to express her guilt about what had happened.

“Well it was partly my fault as well,” Fourth replied, his voice quiet, feeling shameful to admit that in front of the mother of the man he had wronged.

“Things happened between us, but I guess I reaped what I sowed,” Fourth added, didn’t wish to elaborate further what happened between them. And it seems that the woman acknowledged that, simply nodded.

“I’m sorry to ask this from you, but can I talk privately with Gemini? Only for a moment,” Fourth requested. He watched as the woman turned to look at her son, as if looking for his reaction. And when he nodded, she took that as a sign for her to leave.

“I will wait on the seat outside, just let me know once you guys are done talking,” she said. The two then nodded simultaneously. With that, now it’s left only the two alone in the hospital room.

Fourth sat on the seat Gemini’s mother once occupied.

“Am I getting rejected again?” Gemini asked, chuckling in an attempt to play down his own feelings.

He then heard Fourth sigh.

“I didn’t know that you like me that much,” Fourth said.

“I didn’t know that you like me so much that you were willing to go around looking for me. Even aa had no idea where my friend lives, how the hell did you get there?” Fourth asked, both angry and amazed.

“Not only you managed to find me. You were a complete mess. I thought you were really going to kill me, you bulldozed that door like a fucking bull, dude.”

“You were asking me to trust you and stuff, but after I opened up, you passed out right in front of me. You were severely sleep-deprived, dehydrated, malnourished. Where the hell did you even get all that energy to bulldoze that door from?”

“I thought I was insane enough, but it turned out you’re more insane than me.”

“The Chronicles of Fourth Nattawat’s Stalker—You’re really serious about making it in that column, aren't you?” Fourth said sarcastically, sighing again.

“Does it work?” Gemini asked, smiling idiotically. Fourth let out a groan this time.

“I’m not very proud to say that it does,” Fourth replied, rubbing a hand over his face. Gemini’s heart leaped in a tiny burst of excitement because he didn’t expect to hear that from Fourth.

He had honestly thought that Fourth is just trying to make it clear once more that he’s turning him down. But to hear that it seems that he’s changing his mind, it feels as if the tiny pieces of his heart that were shattered are being glued together again. He knows he’s being foolish right now, but even with that sliver of hope, he wants to wish that Fourth would no longer run away from him anymore. That perhaps, Fourth is finally accepting his proposal for him. It’s foolish to think that, but he guesses he wants to be a fool.

“It was too late, but I finally realized something,” Fourth said. The guy then looked at him in the face again.

“That I really need to stop agonizing over the past, and appreciate what I have in the present. For the past few years, I keep on trying to salvage what was already broken from the very beginning.”

“Too focused on my pain, I was busy chasing after those who refused to look at me, I ended up hurting those who actually care about me.”

“When I saw you fainted before me, realizing that you had given your all in getting me back into your life again, I finally grasped that I had really been lied to all this time.”

“From the moment they sent me off to take that flight, they never once considered taking me in again after that. I was abandoned from that day onwards.”

“Your effort made me realize that if they want to, they really would give an effort. Just like how they were there for my older sister—for her birthday, her graduation, her wedding. If they really still considered me as a part of their family, and they really meant well for me when they sent me here, then they would come to visit me at least once. But they never did that.”

“So I realized now that I need to stop hoping. Stop hoping that they will take me in again, because that would never happen. I fully believe now Thailand would snow first before that day ever came.”

“Trying to prove myself? They never looked at me to care. I mean nothing to them.”

“So I’ve decided that from today onwards, I will focus on myself and people who genuinely care about me. I will enjoy what I have right now, and stop looking back into my past.”

“Because of this pity party I’ve always thrown around, wallowing in my sadness, I forgot to express my gratitude for what I have.”

“The truth is, my life isn’t that bad.”

“I have aa who loves me a lot, taking care of me as if I’m her own son. I may be stupid, but I managed to graduate college, and secured a job even if it was a small company. I have two stupid best friends who care about me, always ready to take me in even when they don’t have much to offer. And now, I also have you as well, who’s genuinely kind to me because that’s just the way you are,” Fourth said, smiling.

“Fourth…” Gemini said. He placed a hand on top of Fourth’s, squeezing it in an attempt of comforting.

“Sorry for always hurting you, phi. You were always nothing but kind to me, but I always ended up hurting you one way or another,” Fourth apologized, smiling again. But Gemini can see the pain behind that smile, because it doesn’t reach his eyes. Fourth is faking that smile.

“Rest well, I’ll be taking my leave now. I feel bad for your mother, I told her I only need a moment,” Fourth said, brushing Gemini's hand off his. Gemini felt his heart pang at the action.

He doesn’t want Fourth to leave.

“Fourth, do you really mean it?” Gemini gathered the courage to ask that question. Fourth had turned him down twice, he must be losing his brain cells for not getting that straight inside his head. But for one more time, he wished that Fourth’s answer would be different this time around.

There was a momentary silence, just Fourth staring at him quietly. There were no words coming from him, but after a few seconds more of both simply staring at one another, Gemini slowly can see a shift in Fourth's expression. His eyebrows knitted, then his lips trembled, now he’s tearing up.

“No…” Fourth sniffled, wiping off his tears with the back of his hands.

“Fuck, I was trying to keep it cool too,” Fourth cursed, more tears running down his cheeks.

“I’m fucking ashamed, Gemini.”

“When I was a kid, I was chasing you around like a lunatic. But now we’ve grown up, and you’re chasing after me just like what I had always wished you to do back when I was fourteen, I end up turning you down instead. I’ve rejected you twice.”

“My last rejection for you was barely a few hours ago, but after realizing how much you mean to me and the effort you put in me, I’m too ashamed to ask you if it’s okay for me to change my mind,” Fourth said, turning into a crying mess, his face flushed tomato red right now.

Gemini can’t help it, but he’s actually smiling right now. Smiling so wide, he feels his cheeks are hurting. The younger guy looks extremely adorable right now. In his baggy tee and pair of shorts, pinkish cute feet peeking out from the worn out sandals he put on which Gemini believes must be his friend’s. 

Fourth’s face is completely flushed because of the hot tears, cheeks pinkish more than ever, his face is scrunched so cutely too, tears painting it pretty. With his grown out buzz-cut unkempt, pointing out in a thousand different directions, he really looks like a crying hedgehog. Wailing oh so cutely.

He must have lost mind from being this happy to see the guy he likes cry, but knowing the reason behind it, he couldn’t be any happier. He’s too happy, he feels like he can bulldoze another door to vent out this sudden rush of excitement pumping inside him.

“Then that means yes right?” Gemini asked, grinning. He saw the way Fourth glared at him, must be irked to see how happy he looks right now when he’s a crying mess.

It’s funny how Gemini was a crying mess himself less than an hour ago, so little did Fourth know, the reason behind Gemini’s red puffy eyes was because both of them were being a crybaby today. They were the reason for each other’s tears.

“You will marry me, right?” Gemini asked further, grinning so stupidly, Fourth wished to wipe that grin off his handsome face. But as much as he feels ashamed, he’s also relieved that Gemini didn’t seem to mind that he’s changing his mind so quickly.

For a moment, he thought Gemini would be angry at him, perhaps thinking that he’s only toying with his feelings, but it turned out such a thing of course would never happen. The Gemini he knows is not the type to do that. The Gemini he knows is so kind, so kind that he always ends up being the one who’s hurting. Despite that, he still managed to put on a smile—And that is the Gemini he knows.

“I don’t know, will I?” Fourth decided to tease him, and just like lightning, he can see the way Gemini’s grin falters within seconds.

“I’m kidding, phi. I will marry you, okay? I don’t think I can find any other man to marry in this lifetime. You are the only one who can put up with me,” Fourth quickly controlled the damage. Then he saw the way Gemini is grinning from ear to ear again.

This golden retriever.

“Too bad I didn’t bring your ring with me,” Gemini said, a clear dejection in his voice.

“You bought me a ring?” Fourth responded, surprised. His eyes widened.

Gemini nodded.

“To propose to you again once the one month I asked you for is up. But because of what happened, I had completely forgotten about it. I was too busy looking for you around,” Gemini replied.

“Forget about that ring, you almost died out of exhaustion looking for me,” Fourth turned down the idea.

“But it will feel more memorable,” Gemini said. Fourth believes that the older guy is sulking because he swears he saw the way there are two puppy ears drooping on top of that messy mushroom head right now.

“And you knocking down my friend’s door, and passing out today that I had to carry you around wasn’t memorable enough to you?” Fourth said, raising his voice slightly. He’s in disbelief.

Then he looked at the bedside table, he noticed what seemed to be Gemini’s accessories from it got taken off when he got treated that morning. His Rolex, his silver rings, the nurse must have put them there. So Fourth picked one of the rings and asked Gemini to hold out his hand for him.

“Here, use it to propose to me,” Fourth said, putting the ring on Gemini’s open palm. The older guy looked surprised for a moment, but seemed to accept the younger’s idea.

Fourth watched as Gemini shifted on the bed, trying to get down, but he quickly urged him to sit tight, and threatened to break his knee cap if Gemini tried to get out of the bed again.

“You just woke up less than an hour ago, what are you doing trying to get down on the floor?” Fourth said, he’s really in disbelief how dense this man can be. But it seemed that Gemini was playing around with him. He was actually doing it on purpose to draw out interesting reactions from him, Gemini is laughing.

The more he gets to know this man, he feels like he will get headaches living with him. Gemini is very gentle, sweet, but he can also be this extra teasing sometimes. It hurts Fourth’s brain trying to keep up.

He’s stressed, but he’s happy. Because he knows Gemini just wanted to cheer him up.

“Will you marry me, Fourth Nattawat?” Gemini finally popped the question, holding out the ring in his palm, another palm stacking adjacent to it, resembling a ring box. Fourth had to snort at the creativity, before he looked Gemini in the eye, and nodded.

“Yes, yes I do. I will marry you, Gemini Norawit,” Fourth answered, giving him his left hand for the older guy to slide on the ring. Surprisingly, Gemini’s ring fits his ring finger well, as if it was meant for him.

“Should we book a hall soon? Should we get tickets for our honeymoon? Do you want it to be in Thailand, or do you want to travel overseas? Do you want—”

Fourth had to cup Gemini’s mouth to stop him from blabbering further. Seeing how eager Gemini is about everything made Fourth eventually realize that he had really said yes to marrying this man. He’s really marrying his crush of ten years. His hot, sweet, and gentle crush. One that most could only dream of having. Holy marbles—Fourth must have served the nation in his past lives.

“Before that, we need to tell your parents about this first. I still need to clear up everything with aa and my friends, they are dying to know what happened,” Fourth said. Gemini nodded, lips still sealed behind the clasp of Fourth’s hand over his mouth.

“After that, we can discuss details about the wedding,” Fourth continued.

“Hmf—” Gemini’s voice was muffled behind his hand, so Fourth removed his hand for the older guy to speak. But that action immediately brought him instant regret.

“Honeymoon too.” He should’ve shut Gemini’s mouth longer.

── ⟢ ・⸝⸝

Chapter Text

Fourth’s heart is pounding. His hands are getting clammy, blood is draining out of his body because he’s really nervous. He used to think that perhaps Praew, his older sister, was just overreacting back then, but he can totally understand her feelings now that he’s currently standing in her place. While it’s true that she did overreact for most of the part, he has to admit that the restlessness is real.

He’s feeling restless. Even when he knows that everything had been planned well, that they had double checked everything and made sure that everything was done and ready, he just can't help it. It’s already the day—the day of his wedding day with Gemini, but he still feels extremely restless. They only have to go through this day, then his worries for the past few weeks would be put to an end at last.

Maybe it’s because Gemini is currently not with him here right now, so the older man can’t help comfort him as usual. That’s why he’s feeling more nervous than ever.

Because of the small tradition of separating the couple right before the wedding, Fourth failed to see Gemini since morning. He’s dying to see Gemini, he misses his warmth. He badly needs the older guy to hug him and assure him that everything will be alright. But for now, all he can do is breathing in and out, and calm himself down from breaking down even further.

“Fortunately the makeup gave your face color, because I believe your face would be as white as a sheet from how paranoid you’re acting right now,” Phuwin pointed out, looking at the groom standing in front of the mirror, in the middle of checking himself out. Fourth had just finished getting dolled up for the wedding.

Pretty doll face with red glossy lips, tiny silver hoop earrings decorating the pinkish ears. A pristine white wedding suit with deep v-neck exposing the white chest, giving an alluring sight of a diamond dip outlining his voluptuous chest and the top bulge of his abdominal muscles peeking. To top off the majestic sight, the groom’s slender, pretty neck is also adorned with a white cloth choker.

The sight can be mistaken for an angel, but of course to the groom whose head is filled with paranoia, his nervousness is only soaring through the roof when looking at his reflection in the mirror.

“I’m not that paranoid,” Fourth replied defensively, wiping off the sweat on his palms by rubbing it on his white pants, gripping on the fabric tightly to stop his hands from shaking.

“You’re shaking, dude,” Satang pointed this time, agreeing with his friend. He threw himself on the couch across from the mirror, feeding himself pocky sticks.

“Fuck—I should’ve touched up my roots.” Fourth couldn’t be bothered about his friends’ remarks anymore when he noticed how weird his blond buzz-cut looks now with his dark roots growing out.

“You said Gemini like it that way,” Satang replied, trying to help calm his paranoid friend down.

While it is true that Gemini likes it that way, and that’s the reason why he left the roots untouched even when he had trimmed his hair recently, his paranoia right now made him worry if the growing dark roots will make him look messy. And that’s the last thing he wished to happen on their biggest day.

“I think you need to stop looking in the mirror. The next thing you know, you will question if your eye color has always been like that,” Phuwin said.

“Wait, does my eye color look weird?!” Fourth panickedly said, immediately inching his face closer to the mirror to inspect his own eyes.

“It was sarcasm, idiot,” Phuwin said, pulling his friend away by the shoulder to stop looking at his own eyes in the mirror, acting like a cat mom picking up its kitten by the neck. Then he turned him around so that his back would face the mirror, stopping him from checking himself out on the mirror too much.

“The ceremony will start soon, we need to get going,” the guy said. Fourth unconsciously gulped, wanting to lick his lips out of growing nervousness, but immediately held himself back from ruining his lip gloss.

“Okay…” Fourth replied timidly.

With that, he has his friends leaving him to join the other guests sitting in the banquet hall. Thankfully, he still has his aunt who will walk him down the aisle, so he’s not completely alone. It’s his wedding day, but it seems that Aunt Amara is beaming more than him. Well not in the sense of her outfit, but expression wise. Because the way she smiles, it can make one wonder if it’s her wedding today rather than his. But he guesses, Aunt Amara is just really happy to see her beloved nephew is finally settling down.

Being single since birth, and never introducing her to anyone over the years she had been raising him, he knows it’s only fair for her to be worried about him. Constantly wondering if he would end up in the same path as her, which is—single for life. Due to her miserable luck in love, she kept telling him she had been praying for him everyday so that his love life wouldn’t be as unfortunate as hers.

And luckily, it seems that her prayers worked, because Fourth finally met that golden somebody whom he believes can put up with him, who will take care of him throughout his life. And Fourth had never been so thankful for his aunt’s relentless prayers. He had honestly stopped wishing for romance ever since what happened ten years ago. True, it’s his fault in the first place, he admits that. But because of that, he also genuinely came to think that perhaps love isn’t meant for someone like him.

That’s what he has been thinking for years, until Gemini showed up into his life once more, and managed to prove him otherwise. In such a short time of knowing each other, despite the brevity (or perhaps thanks to their old mess of a history together), Gemini had managed to show him that, just like others, he is also deserving of love. So Fourth is really indebted to him, he really owes him his gratitude.

Gemini worked hard to show him how much he wanted him. So today, Fourth is going to reward him for those impressive efforts—by marrying him. At this moment of his life, he is going to unite his soul together with the man who had patiently taught him what genuine love is.

He’s so nervous, excited, he can hear his own heartbeats thumping in his chest. His heart is thumping so wildly, it feels as if it can jump out his mouth through his throat, he is that nervous.

Seems to notice that his anxiety is flaring again, he feels a warm hand enveloping his cold one.

“You’re almost there, Fourth,” Aunt Amara said, smiling. The squeeze on his hand managed to calm the thudding in his ribcage thankfully. His tight grip on the flower bouquet he’s holding, loosened, feeling the thumping of his heart had quieted down. Aunt Amara’s smiles never failed to give him a sense of comfort.

With that, the gigantic door before them swung open to reveal a white carpeted path leading to the altar, where the officiant and groomsmen from both sides stood. The volume of the music that will accompany his walk down the aisle started to play a few decibels louder.

At the sight of the hall filled up with guests mostly from Gemini’s side (since Fourth didn’t have a lot of people in mind to invite, he lets Gemini and his parents take most of the attendance quota), he feels his heartbeat consequently picking up again. But thankfully, upon seeing the comforting face of his soon-to-be husband, his heart immediately relaxed again, as now all he can see is no one, but him.

Within seconds, anything else is a blur to him, he can only see his soon-to-be husband in his eyes.

Gemini has always been a handsome guy, but God—he looks a billion times dashing today. Custom-tailored black suit with shiny patterned embroidery decorating the Mandarin collar leading down to the hem of his wedding suit. White ruched cravat tied around his neck, a brooch that seems to be a family heirloom pinned over the silk cravat to top it off, and a fitted black vest enhancing his slender waist.

For someone that doesn’t really do gym, Gemini’s build is really good, must be thanks to other activities he loves doing, even not explicitly weight-lighting. He has a pair of wide shoulders, which gives his silhouette this pretty inverted triangle-like form, on top of his already enviable towering height at six feet tall.

Perfectly styled hair, one side slicked back, and a clump of hair hanging over the other side, it framed his handsome face well. Instead of making Fourth’s heart thump out of nervousness, it’s now thumping out of excitement because it’s finally dawning on him that this fine piece of specimen is really going to officially belong to him today. Not only by heart, lawfully as well, so in every sense this guy is going to be marked as no one, but his. And they will have a whole crowd witnessing this covenant of theirs.

Now, Fourth can feel excitement and happiness rushing inside him. Every ounce of nervousness had left his system as he started to walk down the aisle, locking eyes with his soon-to-be husband. Even with Aunt Amara’s hand on his arm, his attention is still solely on Gemini. The way Gemini is returning his gaze, he’s sure that not only him is feeling this way, because Gemini looks as entranced as him too.

It’s not like this is the first time for them to see each other in their wedding suits. They have seen them on each other during outfit fitting back then. But he guesses, it still feels entirely different when they’re seeing them on their wedding day, and beat too as both of them don’t really put make-up on daily.

The make-up on Gemini’s face isn’t that thick compared to Fourth, where his make-up is much heavier with his peach-toned glittery eyeshadow and red glossy lips. But the one on Gemini really enhances his handsome features perfectly. The beautiful arch of his brows, the defined shape of his nose bridge, and most importantly—his plump lips that Fourth can never get tired of kissing. It looks extra kissable today, it messes up his mind to look at it. He normally can control himself well, but this time, the urge is rather strong to throw himself on his soon-to-be husband and eat out those lips until it’s swollen and bruised.

He tried to calm his urges down, internally meditating inside his mind even if it can’t really do much seeing that he’s only getting closer and closer to the source of his insanity. The next thing he knew, he’s already standing right in front of Gemini on the altar, only less than five feet apart. God… Gemini is so handsome.

“We’re gathered here in the presence of God, in this beautiful setting before this group of people to join them together in this holy matrimony. I am thrilled for the life that you are uniting together and for your marriage which begins right now,” the officiant started.

“You have discovered each other, made the conscious decision of commitment, and today you took the courage to hand each other’s soul for eternal keeping.”

“Before we proceed further, may we call on Norawit’s mother first, to give her speech on welcoming the new family member of the Titicharoenrak. Let’s give her a round of applause,” the officiant said, clapping his hands. The hall promptly boomed with thundering claps from the guests, welcoming the mother joining the altar along her son and her soon-to-be son-in-law. A staff member then handed her a microphone.

“Thank you, I will try to keep it as short as I can. Not only my son here who’s excited, trust me, I am just as excited to welcome a new member into our family,” the woman said into the microphone, smiling. Gemini ended up chuckling at his mother’s humorous words, amused by her apparent excitement in having Fourth as a part of their family soon. While Fourth, on the other hand feels rather shy, grinning sheepishly with his cheeks blushing hotly. He still can’t get used to Gemini’s parents' generous fondness for him.

“You see, Gemini is really special to us. His father and I, we worked so hard for years trying to have him to decorate our little world that used to have only the two of us. It might not be that lonely, seeing that I have my beloved husband by my side, but we really want to have something as proof of our love for each other. Married couples, I believe you guys understand that feeling.”

“That feeling where you want to have something that symbolizes your love for your partner. Something to raise together, something to cherish together, something to pour your love together into.”

“And thanks to God for answering our endless prayers, Gemini was born.”

“If we could, we wished to give Gemini a sibling too, but of course life can’t always go as what we wanted. But we’re grateful, and tried our best to raise him with our utmost unconditional love, and support. It may be thanks to the prayers around us too, but Gemini had really grown up into a sweet child.”

“As a mother, of course I always wish the best for him.”

“Ten years ago, when we tried to arrange him up with someone, for the first time, our sweet child who had always listened to everything we suggested to him, turned us down. Anger isn’t the least in our mind, but pride, to see that our son can actually be vocal about what he wants when he needs to.”

The mother then turned to look her son in the eye.

“Mae, I’m sorry but I can’t proceed with the engagement. May I find my future wife on my own?” The woman said, seeming to be repeating her son’s words to her ten years ago. She chuckled lightly.

She turned to look at the crowd briefly.

“A really sweet child, even if he has all the rights to choose what he wants in his life, he’s still considerate of our feelings. Word by word, I still remember his words up to this day.”

Then she turned to look at her son once more.

“So on this important day, I want to tell you that we are really proud of you, and we’re happy to see you have found that person today, Nai.”

“Just like how ecstatic I was to be blessed with your existence coloring our family of two many years ago, I’m just as happy today, if not more, to see you bring a new member into our family of three today.”

“Congratulations, Nai,” she said.

“Thank you, mae,” Gemini replied, smiling contently.

“And we will bring you a new family member soon too,” he added, resulting in the entire hall to be erupted with laughter from the crowd.

Fourth, who was completely caught off guard by Gemini’s words, could only feel the tip of his ears heating up at the fact that Gemini is basically saying to everyone that he’ll have a child with him. Even his friends are laughing their ass off in front of him. But thank God, he can’t get pregnant, or else it would really feel like Gemini has just shamelessly said he’s going to make love to him right in front of this whole crowd.

Amidst his flustered mess due to Gemini’s stupid words, he then noticed that Gemini’s mother is looking at him this time, so he immediately returned her gaze, smiling politely.

“Thank you for accepting our son’s heart. Welcome to the family, Fourth,” she said. 

“Thank you for accepting me into the family too, mae,” Fourth replied, smiling wider.

Finished with her speech, she then handed the staff the microphone back before stepping down the altar to get back to her seat at the front row, right next to her husband. With that, the ceremony proceeded to its next agenda, moving on to the declaration of intent first.

“Who gives this man to be married to this man?” The officiant asked.

“I do,” Aunt Amara replied, smiling even with her eyes turning a little bit glassy. She must be overwhelmed, Fourth finds himself caressing her hand on his arm, comforting her. Upon saying the phrase, it must’ve just hit her that the day her beloved nephew is being passed to someone else’s care is finally here. Fourth lowkey wishes that things will stay the same with Aunt Amara, but he knows that will be impossible from today, seeing that he’ll have a bigger responsibility to carry the moment he becomes someone’s husband.

With his aunt having said out her blessing, it’s time for her to leave the altar. Slipping her hand off Fourth’s arm, she then wrapped her arms around Fourth instead, to which Fourth immediately returned, bending slightly due to the contrasting difference in their height, wrapping his arm around her, another at the back of her head, supporting her neck. Fourth may seem short next to Gemini, but he’s still quite tall. So with her petite body in his arms, he can’t help feeling his heart swelling with melancholy that he’s really going to leave his aunt who had been taking care of him for the past ten years with this tiny body.

He knows it’s not like they’re parting forever. They still can meet from time to time, but God, does he still feel the sadness building up inside him. His eyes are already getting hot from tears threatening to fall. Especially hearing the way Aunt Amara is trying to hold back her tears, sniffling quietly in his arms. The hug lasted for a few seconds more, before she pulled away so that they could proceed with the ceremony.

As she pulled out, Fourth noticed that tears had escaped her eyes, wetting her cheeks. So he wiped off the tears with his thumbs, comforting her.

“Looking so beautiful like this, your make-up will be ruined, aa,” Fourth teased, smiling in an attempt to liven her mood, seeing that her lips are pouting from the sadness filling in her heart.

“Who told you I put make-up on? This is all natural,” the woman said, pinching the younger man’s arm as she chuckled in response through her tears. They have always bickered playfully like this.

“Take care of each other na,” Aunt Amara said, caressing his cheek and wiping off the tear that he didn’t even notice had fallen. Fourth then nodded, sniffling as he formed a smile.

With that, Aunt Amara left the altar as well, and made it to her seat at the other side of the front row, now watching him from the crowd instead. Sniffling once more, Fourth dabbed his tears lightly with the back of his knuckles, before he then stepped forward to Gemini’s side, standing shoulder-to-shoulder this time.

“From the moment you first met each other, to the moment when you knew your love was the real thing, to the moment when you decided to make it official—These are the moments that have led you to this moment where it is time to give your consent in marriage.” The officiant then looked at Gemini.

“Norawit, do you take this man standing by your side to be your wedded husband, to live together after God’s ordinance in the holiest state of matrimony?”

“Do you promise today to love, honor, comfort, and keep him, forsaking all others and keeping yourself only to him for as long as you both shall live?”

“If this is your purpose, please answer ‘I do’,” the officiant said.

Fourth then noticed Gemini’s gaze on him, followed by him saying “I do.”

“Nattawat, do you take this man standing by your side to be your wedded husband, to live together after God’s ordinance in the holiest state of matrimony?”

“Do you promise today to love, honor, comfort, and keep him, forsaking all others and keeping yourself only to him for as long as you both shall live?” The officiant repeated, saying out the declaration of intent to the other groom this time.

Both of them are facing the officiant, but the weight of Gemini’s gaze is still heavy on him, so he returned that gaze, saying “I do.” He sees the way Gemini’s smile grows wider, it naturally makes his own smile grow wider as well, somehow feeling shy that they’re smiling at each other like this in front of the officiant and their friends. Being so in-love with each other, it feels rather silly.

“You may face each other,” the officiant said. The two then promptly turned to their side to face each other straight face to face now. So close, Fourth can feel the heat of Gemini’s body wafting off him.

“Hold each other’s hand,” the officiant ordered further.

Fourth watched as Satang stepped out from the line to come towards him, helping him to hold his bouquet of flowers so that he could proceed with their vow. With both of his hands empty now, he held out his hands to hold Gemini’s bigger ones. Gemini’s touch is gentle as always, warm as he accepts his hands into his. His thumbs naturally find its way to create comforting circles on the back of Fourth’s hands.

“You have consented to the sacred bond of marriage, and now it is time to share vows—promises that will guide you in the years to come. As both of you speak your vows to one another, may I remind you of the weight of a promise or vow.”

“The moment you give your words, trust is born. And this trust is what builds a relationship. But as it can build, breaking this trust, can ultimately break the relationship as well. To give your words, is to act on your words. Keep your promises, keep the trust, and the relationship may prosper.”

“Norawit, you may share your vows with Nattawat,” the officiant said.

Fourth noticed the way Gemini’s gaze on him gets more intense, what he sure must be love because his pupils are dilating bigger, as if asking for Fourth’s full attention to hear every word that will come out of his mouth soon, which would be straight from his heart. He felt Gemini gently squeeze his hands as well.

“Nattawat, I, Norawit, take you, to be my wedded husband. I promise, and make this covenant before God and these witnesses, to be your loving and faithful husband,” the man started. Fourth’s attention is fully on him now, other noises are completely drowning out of his hearing.

“From this day forward, I promise to share my life with you. To love you, to cherish you, to laugh with you for as long as we both shall breathe. I promise to give you my unconditional love, to support you through times of trouble, rejoice with you in times of happiness, and to have faith in our journey from herein.”

“I promise to always make you feel loved. I promise to keep reminding you of my love for you so that you know that your existence is always needed. Nattawat, I need you to keep going.”

“You have become significant in my tiny world, I don’t think there could be a life without you now. You've become the gravity to my world, I need you to keep myself grounded. I promise, that I’ll never make you regret making this covenant with me today, and I promise, I will give you all the love I can give out of my whole being all my entire life long,” Gemini said, stressing every word he could to convey his sincerity.

Fourth can see that Gemini had really put his thoughts and emotions in his vow, he can really feel the sincerity and determination in every line of his words. It makes him feel extremely touched. Gemini can never fail to make him feel loved, his effort is always consistent. Of course, the future is uncertain, and things might change. Who knows, they might break their vows someday due to circumstances. But like what the officiant said—relationships bloom with trust. So he wants to trust in Gemini’s vows for him. He wants to believe that Gemini will mean every promise he has made for him today.

“Nattawat, you may share your vows with Norawit,” the officiant said.

“Norawit, I, Nattawat, promise to be your faithful and loving husband. From this day forward, I promise to always be there with and for you. To share my life with you, to build my dreams with you, and to support you through everything with my whole being. I promise that I will always love you, and treasure you.”

“I’ve hurt you so many times in the past, it’s so undeserving of me to have you. But you have proven to me that despite everything, you still wish to have me. You made me realize how worthy I am, and how love is also meant for someone like me. And I’m really grateful. So I promise you from now on, I will try to make everything right, I want to make up for our past. I promise that I will never run away from you anymore.”

“Thank you for putting up with me. Thank you for proving to me that love is indeed real. Thank you for showing me your efforts, if not for them, I don’t think we could be where we are today.”

“I too, want you to know that your existence is really needed in my life. Likewise, my life wouldn’t be the same without you now. So I promise, I promise that I will be with you for as long as we both shall live, and I’ll let you know everyday how much I love you,” Fourth said, finishing his vows. He sees the way Gemini’s eyes soften, the grips on his hands tightened slightly, his words must’ve moved him.

“You have made your vows which are promises for the married life that you are beginning right now, at this moment. We’ve witnessed, and bless your vows for the lifetime of your marriage. And so, we come to the symbol that will faithfully perform your vows for one another—the rings,” the officiant continued.

“May we please have the ring for Norawit to give to Nattawat?” He asked. Then the best man on Gemini’s side came forward to give the officiant the ring that Gemini will put on Fourth’s finger.

“To make your commitment tangible, this ring will be the physical representation of the promises you have made to one another today. It symbolizes the sanctity of your marriage, and it will also be a constant reminder of your love that you have cultivated together to reach this point today.”

“Norawit, this ring is a circle of strength with no beginning or end and with no point of weakness. May this ring be a constant reminder of the promises you have made today.” The officiant that handed the ring to Gemini, to which Gemini accepted.

“You may place it on Nattawat’s finger.”

Gemini smiled at him, Fourth let go of Gemini’s hands to let Gemini take his left hand instead, resting it atop his own palm. To which he later raised them upward to their chest so that he’s able to slide the ring on Fourth’s ring finger with ease. As he did this, Fourth finds himself grinning from ear to ear, exploding with happiness to see that they’re really reaching towards the end of the ceremony.

“Norawit, repeat after me,” the officiant said. Gemini curtly nodded.

“Nattawat, with all my love,” the officiant started.

“Nattawat, with all my love,” Gemini repeated, he locked eyes with Fourth, hand still holding Fourth’s own atop his, thumb caressing the back of his hand gently.

“I give you this ring as a symbol of our commitment,” the officiant continued, to which Gemini repeated.

“And our connection.” 

“As your husband, for the rest of my life,”

“I will live out the covenant that this ring symbolizes.” 

“In the name of God,”

“And before all the witnesses here today,” the officiant ended. Gemini repeated that too.

“May we please have the ring for Nattawat to give to Norawit?” The officiant asked, requesting for the ring Fourth have to put on Gemini this time.

Then Phuwin stepped forward this time, he handed the officiant Fourth’s ring for Gemini.

“Nattawat, this ring is a circle of strength with no beginning or end and with no point of weakness. May this ring be a constant reminder of the promises you have made today.” The officiant repeated the same thing he had said to Gemini to Fourth, and handed the ring to Fourth.

“You may place it on Norawit’s finger.”

Fourth watched as Gemini let go of his hand to offer him his left hand to hold on top of his this time. So Fourth took it, locking eyes with Gemini as he slid the ring on his ring finger, earning himself a grin from the other guy. The older guy looks really happy to have Fourth putting the finger on him.

“Nattawat, repeat after me,” the officiant said. Fourth’s attention immediately drew on the officiant once more, he nodded at his words.

“Norawit, with all my love,” the officiant started.

“Norawit, with all my love,” Fourth repeated, turned to look at Gemini again so that he could look him in the eye while saying this. He squeezes Gemini’s hand gently.

“I give you this ring as a symbol of our commitment,” the officiant continued, Fourth repeated.

“And our connection.” 

“As your husband, for the rest of my life,”

“I will live out the covenant that this ring symbolizes.” 

“In the name of God,”

“And before all the witnesses here today,” the officiant ended. Fourth repeated that too.

“Your ring exchange is complete, you have made your promises for your married life, you have given your consent in marriage. With the witness of your friends and family, and the blessing of love that connects us all, you are now joined together in this most sacred commitment of marriage.”

“May the two of you be blessed with a lifetime of health, wealth, love, success and happiness. May you continue to support one another in the wonderful way that you already do, may your love and connection grow exponentially over the years, and may your life together flourish as you walk the journey of it, hand in hand, eye-to-eye, and heart-to-heart.”

“By the power vested in me, and by the power of your own commitment and choice within, I now pronounce you husband and husband,” the officiant officiated at last.

“You may kiss,” he said, before stepping down the altar to give the newly married couple room.

This will not be their first kiss together. Obviously, they have done more than that. But it will definitely be their first kiss together as a pair of husbands. And in front of this whole crowd what’s more, a group of witnesses on the day they’re uniting their separate lives for the rest of their life.

Fourth can’t really call himself the shy type, he’s mostly bold and shameless rather than what you call shy, but there are times when he actually can be shy too, he’s human after all. Like when Gemini caught him off guard with his confidence and playfulness, or that time when Gemini’s mother complimented him by calling him pretty. And right now, it’s definitely one of those rare times, because he’s freezing on his spot, he can feel his cheeks and the tip of his ears heating up. The officiant has given them space, all of the people in the hall are anticipating them to kiss, but Fourth can’t find it in him to make the first move.

Might be because all eyes are on them. Might be because his and Gemini’s friends are here to watch him kiss his man. Might be because Gemini’s entire family are here to watch him kiss their beloved son. But he guesses, what makes him shy the most, is the way Gemini is looking at him right now.

The older man is smiling, but his eyes—it’s dripping with hunger. Something he remembers seeing in them when Gemini threw him onto his bed back then, ravishing him down like a hungry wolf, Fourth had really thought that he couldn’t walk when he woke up the next morning, even crumbling to the floor when he attempted to get out of the bed. But pushed himself off the floor nonetheless because he was extremely determined to run away from Gemini that day. Other than shyness, Fourth is also nervous, slightly worried if Gemini is going to let his desires win the moment they molded their lips together one of these moments.

It feels like forever, even if he’s sure only a few seconds had passed, but those seconds feel like forever before he sees Gemini’s face inching closer to his. Gemini must have been giving him the chance to make the first move, seeing how he had been standing still as well. But given that Fourth doesn’t seem like he’s going to move anytime soon, Gemini finally made the first move for both of them.

Soon, he feels one of Gemini’s hands make its way on a side of his face, holding it, while his other hand, still holding Fourth’s hand, intertwines their fingers together. Then Gemini’s face inches closer, and when he could feel a puff of warm fanning on his lips, he heard Gemini’s gentle voice.

“I love you, Fourth.” And Fourth could feel as if his heart is leaping out of his rib cage. This is definitely the first time for him to hear Gemini say he loves him explicitly like this. The emotions in his words, it feels as if Gemini just poured all of his feelings for him through his words, it overfilled Fourth’s heart so full, now he finds himself letting out tears at his words, overwhelmed. Fuck, he really loves this man so much.

“Hm, I love you too, phi,” Fourth replied, nodding as he squeezed their intertwined hands together. Then he felt Gemini’s lips pressed up against his. It was soft, gentle. Gemini kissed him so tenderly, way different than any other kiss they shared before. Treating Fourth as if he’s a doll made of porcelain, with so much care and deliberation, brushing their lips together lightly, gently. Before he moved his lips to take the bottom lip of Fourth’s own, massaging it. To which Fourth eventually returned, kissing him back.

As they kissed, he could feel Gemini’s thumb on his cheek moved, gently caressing his cheek as he continued to kiss him. Fourth’s heart can’t thump any louder, it feels as if it’s going to burst soon with this flood of overwhelming emotions that the older guy had evoked inside him. He has never been so loved, an emotion that he has been dying to have for all he could remember, he finds himself crying again, tears cascading his cheeks through their kiss that is yet to stop. Gemini caringly wipes off his tears for him.

Eventually, they pulled out. Thankfully Gemini managed to keep them moving again, because Fourth is honestly lost in his own emotions to be thinking about anything else. Kissing Gemini feels like the most righteous thing to do, he can honestly go on if it wasn’t Gemini who stopped. He was worried that Gemini couldn't control himself with the kiss, but he guessed it was him that needed to be kept in check. Might be not out of lust, but he guess he needs to have some time alone with Gemini so that he can arrange his thoughts and emotions once more. Because right now, he’s really a mess.

And as if he could notice that he really needed comfort, Gemini pulled him into an embrace. And as the warmth spread on him at the intimate contact, soon he could feel his thoughts getting clear again. He feels Gemini’s hands on his back, caressing his back to help him calm down further. And when he feels like his emotions are stable enough, he pushes Gemini gently by the arms to let him go.

When their eyes meet, he can see genuine worry in Gemini’s honey-brown eyes, as if asking him with his eyes if he’s alright. So Fourth nodded, smiling to assure him that he’s really alright now. So Gemini let him go, but holding his hand this time, and let them turn to face the crowd.

“It gives me the great pleasure to introduce to all of you for the very first time, Nattawat Titicharoenrak, the husband of Norawit Titicharoenrak. Let’s give them a round of applause,” the officiant said. The hall then thundered with clappings once more, congratulating the both of them on their biggest day.

Satang then came up to him again to return his bouquet of flowers. Fourth held in his hands, close to his chest, returning Gemini’s smile who’s looking at him attentively. With that, the two walked down the aisle together, hand-in-hand, now officially as a pair of husbands together by law, and lovers at heart.

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Chapter Text

“Phi—wait,” Fourth gasped against Gemini’s lips, whose owner can’t stop chasing his lips. No matter how hard he tried to push Gemini away, the older man kept chasing after his lips.

It’s almost midnight. They had just arrived home from their wedding after-party, feeling rather tipsy, given that they were constantly being poured glasses of champagne one after another from the guests, they had a hard time leaving despite only planning to stay no later than ten. It was already an extremely long day, (or weeks actually, since they have been preparing for this day for ages,) so they really wished to leave so that they can have a quiet time together.

So thanks to Phuwin, for ordering a Grab for them, they eventually managed to escape the crowd of their close acquaintances, sneaking out of their own after-party later that night.

While he’s glad that they managed to get home successfully, it seems like he’s facing another issue with his newly-wedded husband suddenly ignoring him ever since they left the party an hour ago. It’s not really a problem, he’s guessing Gemini must be tired, hence the silence. Though, it just makes him wonder if there might be another reason for that sudden quietness. But the way the older guy held his hand through-out the entire car ride, it felt as if it was his means of saying that he’s fine, albeit without words.

He wondered if Gemini is acting that way because he’s drunk, he knows a handful of people who get really quiet when they’re drunk as the alcohol might make them too tipsy to talk. But again, Gemini doesn’t look that drunk to him honestly. He might be stumbling on his feet a little when they got out of the Grab a few minutes ago, but he seems alright for the most part since he could walk perfectly fine after that, and even had no problem entering the door passcode to his apartment just now.

Fourth was too fixated on trying to guess the reason behind his husband’s impromptu silence, the next thing he knew, that silence was immediately broken by the sound of his own gasp, surprised to have his husband pulled him by the waist, hugging him close the moment the door shuts behind them. In seconds, he found himself in this situation of his husband kissing him. He had no problem returning the kiss, but the way Gemini’s hands danced on his body, it’s obvious where the older guy is taking this to, he had to tap out to tell the older guy that he needed a moment to prepare himself.

“I have to shower first, phi,” Fourth said, placing a hand over Gemini’s mouth to stop him completely from trying to kiss him. He watched as Gemini shook his head slightly, seeming to be wanting to say something, so Fourth pulled his hand away to let him speak.

“Can’t we just do it this way? You look so gorgeous,” Gemini said, shiny puppy eyes directed at Fourth, one couldn’t believe that he was talking about sex. Fourth thought the sudden silence from his husband might be because of the alcohol. But turns out, it was because Gemini was trying to hold himself back from jumping on him, his newly-wedded beautiful husband.

“It has been a long day, phi. I’ve been feeling quite sticky in this suit actually,” Fourth replied.

“It will only be a moment,” Fourth said, trying to talk Gemini out. He wouldn’t take long in the shower, just a quick rinse, but the way the older guy is frowning, it’s rather obvious that he’s still not pleased with the idea.

So before Gemini could protest more, he immediately put down Gemini’s hands off his waist so that he could move, making his way to Gemini’s bedroom, which would be theirs as of tonight. With his footsteps resounding, there is also an echo of another, Gemini following after him like a puppy following its owner.

Getting into the room, Fourth intended to unbutton his suit, but was stopped by Gemini hugging him from behind, hands placed over his own, stopping him from unbuttoning his suit right at once. Suppressing a sigh at his husband’s clinginess, he then turned around so that he could stand face to face with his eager husband this time.

“Phi—”

“Can I at least take the suit off you?” Gemini asked. He was saying it so shamelessly, it made the tip of Fourth’s ears feel hot, cheeks warming up in shyness at the boldness of his husband. He really needs to get used to this.

Gemini might say that he only wishes to undress him before letting him hit the shower, but best believe his gut is strong saying that the older has something up his sleeve with that request. Knowing how sly his husband can be now, there’s a high chance that he might not stop there as he claimed he would.

But seeing that the older guy isn’t going to leave him anyway until he gets what he wanted, Fourth decided to agree for now. He can just slip away from Gemini later. As much as he wants this as Gemini does, he still feels quite icky in his own skin, he badly needs to refresh himself first.

“You’ve said it, only taking it off,” Fourth repeated Gemini’s words, as a means to remind Gemini of his own words, like a parent reprimanding their little kid.

The moment he gave him his answer, he could see the way the older guy’s face lit up, must be pleased that Fourth is finally giving him the permission to do what he wants with him, even if not fully. In a matter of seconds, Gemini’s hands immediately found its way on the front of Fourth’s suit, reaching for the buttons.

“Once you’re done, I’m hitting the shower,” Fourth said, reminding him again. He continued to watch as Gemini’s long fingers worked on the buttons of his white suit. There were only less than three buttons, but it seems that the older guy is taking forever, acting as if he had just forgotten how buttons work.

It’s so obvious that Gemini is trying to drag the time, hoping that Fourth would change his mind the more he’s spending time with him, being this close to him. The older guy is so determined to have him right at this moment, Fourth actually finds it hilarious. He has this strong urge to laugh, but holding himself back because he’s quite curious to see what moves Gemini would pull on him next.

“The last time I remember, my suit only had two buttons. Does it multiply?” Fourth teased.

“Maybe it does,” Gemini replied, still fiddling on his buttons. After forever, knowing that he can’t drag it any longer, he finally managed to undo all of the buttons (which were only two). With the buttons coming undone, Fourth’s bare abdomen and chest are immediately exposed to the cold air, revealing the blinding sight of his pinkish snow white skin, gorgeous sculpted body to the lustful eyes watching before him. It feels as if Gemini is boring a hole in his skin, before the older guy shifted his gaze from his abdomen to his face this time instead, looking him in the eye now.

The moment their eyes met, he could feel his heartbeats picking up, the temperature of his body instantly rising, spiking at the sight of his husband’s honey-brow eyes hooded, dripping with lust as they stared at each other, eating him up with his bedroom gaze. The thick tension surrounding them almost convinced Fourth to change his mind for a split second there. But managed to quickly catch himself before he changed his mind too fast, as he doesn’t want to give in too easily.

Eyes still locked together, he felt Gemini’s fingers brushing on his skin, seemed to reach for the lining of his suit. But the touch of the older guy’s fingers were so warm, tingling hot, it made Fourth jump a little at the brief skin contact. It seems that Gemini noticed this, or perhaps because he was doing it on purpose, Fourth could see the way the edge of his lips curled up into a content smirk. Fourth refuses to admit it, but his tenacity is definitely shaken again at the sight of his husband smirking so charmingly like that, on top of his already lustful gaze eating him up. It’s—hot. And it gets him all hot and bothered too.

His heart is thumping against his chest, loud in his own hearing as he feels his husband’s warm fingertips grazing against his bare skin again. The lingering feather-like touch slowly gets bolder, from only ‘clumsily’ brushing against his skin for the few first grazes under the pretense of accidental touch, to making deliberate shameless contact against his skin now, touching him boldly.

From only the fingertips making skin contact, dancing lightly on the curves of his chiseled abdomen, the contact grew larger with the man gliding his palm across his stomach next, fully intentional as he caressed the bare skin of his waist. It was so sensual, the way Gemini knew exactly to put just enough pressure on him, caressing his skin, Fourth could feel his chest rumbling up a noise, wanting to let out a moan at the pleasurable touch, slowly melting underneath his husband’s palm that’s emitting with wamth.

Then the big palm glides upwards, feeling up the bare skin on his chest next. This time, the moan left him before he could catch himself, feeling acute dizziness at the brief contact of Gemini’s fingers grazing against the sensitive spot on his chest. The contact was short, but the tingling sensation it left on his body, made Fourth’s brows knitted out of desperation that soon filled him in, anguishedly craving to have that pleasurable sensation again.

Must have noticed that he’s in need to be touched on that spot again, his devil of a husband granted his silent wish by running his finger on his sensitive spot again, using the pad of his middle finger to rub against the rosy tip this time, he stroke the erected bud in a delectable slow circular motion, Fourth ended up emitting another soft moan. His face scrunched up further, brows furrowed deeply in growing desperation for more. His rosy erected buds had completely hardened at the stimulation now, and along that, he can feel his nether region growing as well.

“Phi,” Fourth uttered out that as an attempt to stop his husband, but much to his own dismay, his word came out like a pleading whine instead, betraying him with a tone of desperation that he failed to conceal. Hearing the desperation in his tone, of course it only made the other guy smirk wider.

“It’s hard. Your nipples are fully erected, noo,” Gemini said.

Fourth’s desperation grew exponentially at the way his husband is talking dirty with him right now, turning him on. Calling him by that sweet endearment too on top of that. Whenever Gemini calls him that, he knows that the man is really up to no good, yet he still would find himself melt out of submission whenever he heard that word rolling off the older’s tongue.

And that grin—that fucking charming devilish grin on his handsome face. Fourth really hates to see how sexy his husband looks right now, teasing him so confidently, it’s so hot of him, slowly cornering Fourth into submission. Fourth’s heart keeps thudding with a rush of excitement, watching his husband finally take the suit off him this time, undressing his top completely naked, and letting the article of clothing fall down onto the floor.

It’s cold, but the way his husband’s gaze is eating him up, scanning his naked top like a predator preying on its prey, he feels his skin flushed with sensual thrills. His husband’s hand made its way on his body again, but this time, he reached for the choker on his neck. A long finger sliding smoothly underneath the fabric, grazing lightly against his neck as he did that, he tugged underneath the clothing strip gently to the side, resulting in it to tighten around Fourth’s neck, forcing air out of him.

“This looks pretty on you,”

“But I wonder what happened to your chain necklace,” Gemini said. Fourth was drowning with lustful anticipation, he almost missed that Gemini was actually asking him a question.

“It was always on you,” he added.

The air around them is still heavy with sexual tension with the way the older guy is still playfully tugging on the white cloth choker on Fourth’s neck. But the way he said it, there’s also genuine curiosity visible in his question that’s waiting for an answer from Fourth.

“I threw it away,” Fourth replied, breathing shallowly with the choker tightening around his airway. He can feel his head getting lighter as oxygen leaves him, feeling light-headed at the lack of oxygen along with the sensual thrill of being choked. He never knew he’s into this, but the way his husband is doing it, he finds himself getting pliant at his domination.

Then he saw Gemini cocked his brow, curiosity apparent on his face.

“I don’t need it anymore,” Fourth said, answering the obvious question Gemini had in his mind from his facial expression alone, didn’t even have to say it aloud.

He thought the answer would be enough to satisfy Gemini’s curiosity but it seems that it only increased his curiosity further because Gemini actually loosened his grip on the piece of cloth strip right at this moment, as if giving him the space to elaborate on his answer. He had to be honest that he was partly annoyed to have Gemini let go of his choker. Ashamed to admit it, he was actually enjoying it. But realizing that Gemini had been distracted, and that’s what he had been wanting, he decided to take advantage of that.

“I just find no reason to keep it anymore,” he started. Gemini’s eyes fell attentively on him.

“To me, it was a symbol of determination.”

“Like a promise to myself that I will prove myself to my family someday that I’m indeed worthy to be a part of them.”

He might be saying this to distract Gemini from getting his hands on him again, but what he said is also a hundred percent the truth.

Abandoned by his family, living away from his aunt to pursue college a few years ago, he started to seek for something that can help give him strength. Aunt Amara could only support him from afar, and other people’s encouragement could only help him so much as they can never really understand what he feels, so he decided to look for something symbolic—something that he can physically see and hold on to as a constant affirmation for himself. The chain necklace with a lock was what caught his eyes back then.

A lock, a universal symbol of security—a symbol of strength, resilience. It might be tiny, others might not understand the effect it has on him, but the lock definitely is what helped him go through the harshest days, build his determination over the years, and shape him into what he is today. Sure, the lock had helped him a lot, there’s no denying that. But meeting Gemini, he also realized that the lock had been what chained him down to his past. He can’t fully move on if that constant reminder is still with him, so he decided to throw it away the night before their wedding, just as a means for him to start his life afresh.

“But after what happened, I realized now that along that illusion of strength, the lock is also what shackles me to my misery.”

“I don’t want my old past to hold me back anymore from seeing the abundant happiness the world offers. So I decided to discard that necklace last night, and focus on the present now,” Fourth said. He can see pity showing in those honey-brown eyes, which brought this light chuckles out of him as a response.

“There’s nothing to be sad about, phi. We just got married, so I’m the happiest man alive,” Fourth said, trying to liven up the atmosphere. Seeing that the older guy must be feeling sorry for him, he even patted the older guy’s shoulder to cheer him up, one would think the topic was about Gemini instead of him.

“I have a new symbol I can hold on to now,” Fourth added. Curiosity peered in Gemini’s eyes once more, so Fourth raised his left hand next to his face, showing the back of his hand. He then pointed the diamond ring on his ring finger with his other hand.

“This ring,” Fourth said, smiling his gummy smile. It seems that his smile had successfully infected the other guy with his cheerfulness because his husband’s face had finally lit up again, now mirroring his smile.

“I guess it will be my symbol of strength too,” Gemini finally speaks up, chuckling lightly.

With the tension no longer enveloping them, thinking that he had successfully distracted Gemini, Fourth took that chance for him to leave for his long-awaited shower.

But just as he was about to take the first step, he was then held back once more with Gemini pulling him by his waist, again. He really thought that he was being slick, but the way Gemini was smirking at him, made him realize that the older guy had definitely seen right through him, he knew that Fourth was trying to run away from him. Gemini’s warm hands feel heavier on Fourth’s waist, his heartbeat starts to pick up again for God knows how many times tonight, seeing that his husband really loves playing with his heart like this. Nervousness soon fills him up to be trapped underneath Gemini’s seduction once more. God, his husband really is too charming for his damned heart.

“I’m still not done with undressing you, noo,” Gemini said, chuckling darkly with that attractive voice of his, it made Fourth’s ears tingle hearing it.

Then Gemini’s finger finds its way underneath Fourth’s choker again, tugging on it, resulting in Fourth’s breath to get shallow again. His lips start to feel nervous with anticipation.

“You know what this fabric reminded me of?” Gemini asked. His gaze lingering on the piece of fabric he’s tugging with his middle finger before he looks up to look his husband in the eye. Fourth unconsciously swallowed at the intensity his husband is staring at him, dark eyes heavy with domineering lust, the edge of his lips curling up into a charming devilish smirk.

“Gift bow,” the man continued, answering his own question, followed by another melodious chuckle.

“I wish you knew how gorgeous you look today, noo.”

“You look like a luxurious gift presented to me tonight, specially hand-curated from God,”

There’s a short pause. Gemini’s tug on the choker around his neck tightened, it made Fourth inhaled a sharp breath in response.

“And I wish to unwrap it fully on my own,” Gemini finished his words, grinning wider. 

Fourth feels Gemini’s other hand on his hips, reaching for the buckle on the front, it seems that he must be planning to take his slack pants off of him too. Deciding to own up to his words, since he had agreed to letting Gemini undressing him, he let Gemini unbuckled the belt and discarded the pants off him, leaving him bare only in his boxer brief in mere seconds, pants pooling on his ankles.

With his pants off, he thought that it would finish there, assuming that the older guy must’ve meant undressing by up to that point only. But it turned out, Gemini actually meant what he said; he said he wished to undress him fully, as in fully butt-naked—because the next thing he knew, Gemini had already rolled down the boxer off his hips, revealing his half-hard cock to twitch in the cold air. It unfolds so quickly, Fourth could only gasp out of surprise, feeling Gemini’s large hands on his behind, groping him boldly.

“Phi!” Fourth gasped, partly in disbelief that his husband had really pulled down his boxer, and groped his buttcheeks what more. He really should’ve asked Gemini to elaborate more on his request then, because it really seems like he was only digging his own grave by agreeing to this in the first place.

“I don’t think I can wait na, noo,” Gemini said.

Fourth’s breath hitched when he felt his husband hands on his hips, caressing the bare skin, moving so dangerously close to his growing hard-on. He feels so extremely exposed, feeling his body betraying him as his cock grew harder the more his husband touched him bare.

Fancying his husband, of course he wants this, he wants it so badly. But for inexplicable reasons, he also has this strong urge to run away at the same time. He swears it feels like his heart is going to explode on him soon.

This is not their first time together. But maybe because this will be their first time together as established lovers, and officially as a pair of newly wedded husbands what more, it made Fourth feel really nervous. The sexual tension between them feels totally different tonight. It’s more intense than usual—more intimate, he feels like he could be suffocated by the heavy tension lingering around them alone.

If Gemini simply wants to dominate him back then during their first time together, it totally feels like the older guy wishes to conquer and swallow him up whole right now. The way he is staring at him with that lustful gaze, hands dancing on his skin to rile him up, it only made the thumping in Fourth’s chest worse.

Feeling like he really needs some time to calm his heart down and prepare himself before their night together, Fourth gathers whatever strength he had left in him to shy away from Gemini’s touch. He made his run to the bathroom, wanting to escape, but seeing there’s not a lot of space to run, Gemini was really quick to catch up after him.

Much to his luck, now he is cornered in the bathroom with Gemini blocking the door. As Gemini stepped closer, he instinctively took a few steps backward, wanting to keep a distance between them. But the more he stepped back, the closer he got to the wall, and only realizing he had met the dead end when his back hit the wall, a spray of warm water rained on top of him, knocking sense into him. He must’ve accidentally activated the water heater. In front of him, there he sees his husband slowly getting drenched underneath the running shower above them, wetting his black wedding suit completely. Fourth’s eyes widened.

“Shit, your suit—I’m sorry,” Fourth muttered, extremely guilty to have Gemini drenched with the water. He wanted to turn the shower off, but was distracted at the sight of Gemini unbuttoning his drenched suit, rolling back his broad shoulders as he took the heavy wet suit off him and threw it on the floor. A soft thud of wet fabric falling on the hard tile resounded beneath them. Gemini’s white dress shirt had become completely see-through, completely wet, sticking to his skin, making the sight of his honey-tanned skin peeking underneath the sheer wet fabric more provocative than the sight of him being straight shirtless.

Fourth was mesmerized by the erotic sight, he didn’t even realize that he’s frozen on the spot, and how the shower was still running hot above them. The intention to turn it off was immediately forgotten as his eyes locked on the older guy—like he was hypnotized, staring at the older guy loosening the cravat on his neck, before discarding it onto the floor as well. He then unbuttoned a few top buttons of his dress shirt, revealing his sturdy chest that Fourth always finds himself peeking at.

Gemini’s jaw dented with a shallow dip, must be clenching his jaw for a reason unknown to Fourth. His lustful honey-brown eyes then met Fourth’s, alluring him in further at the sight of his head being completely drenched as well, his once-styled gelled hair had matted on his forehead, in which he ran a hand to slick his hair back, revealing his forehead. The shower continued to run on him, making the sight even a million times racy to Fourth’s eyes.

Fuck.

“I’m sorry, noo. I can’t wait,” Gemini said, his voice deep and hushed underneath the loud sound of the shower running above them. Other than the loud sound of water running distracting Fourth, it’s also because his eyes are completely drawn to Gemini’s hands that are currently unbuckling his belt now. In mere seconds, the hands skillfully removed the belt, unbuttoning his pants.

A gasp left Fourth when Gemini stepped closer to press up his body against his own, his hands finding Fourth’s face to hold as he smashed his lips against his, fully famished. At the molding of their lips together, it feels as if his head is spinning. Gemini is kissing him with so much hunger, sharp teeth nibbling on his lower lip as he slid his hot tongue inside, seeking for Fourth’s own for him to suck on, particularly searching for that silver bead of a tongue piercing that he gets addicted to play and feel with his own tongue.

Fourth ended up moaning softly in his mouth, his own hand finding the back of Gemini’s head, fingers carding through his wet locks, gripping it tightly as he kissed him back, hard. His lips move desperately to kiss those sweet lips he had been thinking of kissing for hours now. Both of them are a mess, hot, wet, and dizzy, but neither could stop from eating each other’s lips as if they had been starved.

Fourth swears he almost fainted from both the heat and lack of air in him, but fortunately, Gemini latched off his lips just in time, leaving him to gasp and panted heavily for air while Gemini’s lips later traveled to the side of his face afterwards, kissing up his jaw and ear. Sucking on the piercings on his ear, he traced the dips on his ear with the tip of his tongue before trailed the wet kiss downward, down to his neck, and on his throat. Fourth moaned again, feeling Gemini’s tongue slither on his Adam’s apple, biting on it rather hard that he’s sure it would leave a mark later, the guy then moved his lips further and further downwards.

His lips leave kisses on Fourth’s chest next, biting on the supple skin, leaving bite marks all over the chest to claim such a gorgeous body as his, he made sure to give some love to the sensitive spots on Fourth’s chest as well. Fourth’s face immediately scrunched up, a moan left his lips to have Gemini’s tongue on his rosey bud, flicking it multiple times with the tip of his tongue before he sucked on it. As he did this, his dark eyes never left Fourth’s, staring at him so hungrily as he ate up the erected buds on his chest. Gemini is so skillful with his tongue, Fourth couldn’t stop leaking with precum, somewhere deep in his lower belly had started to swelter with hotness that needed to be given comfort soon.

Gemini continued to suck on his other nipple this time, eyes still locking on Fourth, head bobbing to the side back and forth as he smothered the cute erected bud with his fat tongue. The younger guy turned into an even louder moaning mess, drowning with sensual pleasure to have Gemini wrap his hand around his cock next, pumping him up at the same time he’s sucking on his nipple.

“Fuck—phi,” Fourth gasped, moaning. His back pressed up tightly against the wall, nails scraping on the hard tile as his body is hit with this sweet electrifying pleasure drowning him. His hips are a stuttering mess, bucking as he rolled his cock in Gemini’s fist, enjoying the just right pressure cocooning his desperation.

Gemini’s lips then moved even downwards, leaving kisses on the center of Fourth’s abdomen, and trailing down to his stomach, going straight for the navel. Taking in the silver bead of his husband’s belly piercing in between his teeth, he tugged on it, nibbling on the bead of silver like a puppy playing with its chewy toy. At the same time, his hand is still moving on the younger guy’s cock, pumping it up generously to relieve him of his pain, thumbing the wet spitting tip, making his hand covered with Fourth’s precum in return, but was immediately washed down by the shower running on top of them the next second.

Fourth’s hips bucked non-stop, drowning with pleasure, he’s really in need of a release. Moans leaving him when Gemini stuck his tongue inside his navel this time, fucking the hole rapidly with his tongue, before he kissed his lower belly one last time. Then Fourth was taken by surprise to have Gemini suddenly turning him around by the hips. A loud gasp left him, his forearms hitting against the wall to catch himself, having Gemini bent him against the cold wall. His back arched, butt jutted out at Gemini’s hands moving his body around like a ball-jointed doll, manhandling him to get into the position he wished.

Then he heard a soft thud on the floor, followed by a puff of hot breath against his fluttering behind. Fourth’s cock continued to leak with sweet precum again, twitching with excitement at the realization that Gemini must be kneeling behind him right now, the hot air puffing on his entrance must be from Gemini’s breath, his face hanging close behind his ass.

“Shit—” Fourth gasped aloud, brows furrowing deeply as he felt something small, but firm and moist making contact with his ass crack.

His body jolted out of surprise, knees shaking to have Gemini’s hot tongue moving along the curve of his behind, pressed up tightly against his entrance, teasingly poking on his tight rim, resulting in it turning into a twitching mess. Fourth soon finds himself clawing on the wall again, a moan emitted out of his red lips, hips jerking uncontrollably when the small piece of muscle slithered past his tight rim, tasting him.

Beneath the loud running sound of the water above him, he can hear prominent smacking sounds behind him, shameless loud suckings, hungry slurpings, as Gemini ate him out as if his ass is his last meal. Fourth’s knees feel like jelly as he struggles to hold himself up with his mind dumbed down from the way Gemini’s tongue moves inside him. Flicking and curling oh so skillfully, Fourth’s hips can’t stop bucking with pleasure. Not only the way Gemini moved his tongue in and out of him that made him lose the ability to think. It’s also the way Gemini’s big hands holding his hips too, fingers imprinting marks on his hips as he groped him roughly, spreading his cheeks farther apart to give him more access for him to shove his tongue deeper, it made Fourth’s cock spurt out more precum.

“Ah—phi,” Fourth moaned, unconsciously rolling his ass down, riding Gemini’s moving tongue inside him. His flushed cock can’t stop twitching out of stimulation, he reached for his cock, wanting to touch himself for relief, but was stopped with Gemini biting on his ass cheek, so feral-like, it feels as if he was legit trying to eat him up, Fourth had to scream.

“Do you want to cum, noo?” Gemini asked, his deep voice resounding behind him. Fourth wanted to say yes, but the word was caught on his throat, replaced with a moan to have something thin, long, protruding his inside this time. It was one, then followed by another digit, stretching him open with skillful scissoring motion. With the hot shower still running on them, the water kept trickling inside past his stretched behind, as if filling him up consequently. His nails scratching on the wall again, a whine leaving his chest.

“Phi—” Fourth choked out, sobbing at his own desperation.

Deep in his lower belly, he felt a spot tingling ablaze, terribly itchy, throbbing, as he’s badly in need of something to comfort that anguish core deep inside him. Three of Gemini’s long fingers are stuffing deep inside his ass now, moving, stretching him wide open. The fingers keep brushing against the sweet bump in him, it makes him feel good, he can’t stop moaning out of delectable pleasure. But he’s greedy for more—needy for something thicker, longer, hot and pulsating, he wants to be stuffed so full that he can’t breathe. He needs Gemini’s fat cock, and bare inside him.

“Need—” Fourth gasped, too desperate to be making full words.

His mind whitened for a split second, spinning as he felt Gemini’s long fingers pressed down on the bump inside him again, heavy. Then he heard a curious hum from underneath him, a response to his unintelligible words.

“What did you say, noo?” Gemini asked, rubbing his fingers against that spot again, purposefully focusing on that bump, no longer stretching his fingers around, wanting to see the younger guy turn into a sobbing mess with the sensual pleasure doing waves on him, crashing his mind down. And indeed, Fourth has turned into a crying mess now, sniffling.

“Need—you inside me, phi,” Fourth struggled to reply, choking on his moans.

“Need what of me inside you, noo?” The older guy replied.

He can’t see Gemini’s face from this position obviously, but he swears he can see that devilish smirk on that fucking handsome face from the visible amusement in his teasing voice alone. His husband is toying with him.

“Phi—” Fourth whined, shaking his ass slightly as a protest.

“My fingers are already inside you,” Gemini said, playing it dumb. Fourth felt frustration thumping in his chest, growing immensely annoyed that his husband is teasing him.

“Not those,” Fourth replied, whining again.

“Then what, noo?” Gemini asked, moving his fingers inside him again, playing with the bump inside him that made Fourth’s head spin with pleasure, cock constantly spitting out precum, desperate for a release.

“Phi—” Fourth cried this time, he wanted to turn around, but Gemini slammed him against the wall instead, preventing him from moving as he pressed him up onto the wall with his own body, standing right behind him this time, keeping his front glued to the wall.

The long fingers had been removed from his hungry hole, resulting in Fourth’s hunger to worsen from the sudden emptiness, badly in need of something to stuff him up again. It made him want to cry out of anguish. He should’ve been grateful.

Being pressed up so close to no space against the wall, Fourth’s throbbing cock had no choice but to be pressed up against the cold tile of the wall, the jarring difference between the temperature of his own hot body and the freezing cold tile made his desperation worse. Whines rose in him again, he wanted to cry, but halted the moment he felt something big and thick slotted in between his ass cheeks. Hot and firm, he immediately knew that it’s Gemini’s fat cock from the way it pulsated so hotly against his rim.

Fourth moaned sweetly, content to finally have what he had been desperately wanting pressed up against him. Even not inside yet, the friction of Gemini’s bare skin pressed up against his, the way he can feel Gemini’s bare cock against him without anything in between for the first time, and the bump of his big vein rubbing against his pink rim made him moan with pleasure nonetheless. A side of his face pressed up tightly against the cold tile, he felt Gemini’s hot breath in his ear canal, sucking on the tip of his ear.

“Tell me, what do you want, noo?” Gemini asked, rolling his hips to rub his hard fat cock against the soft surface of Fourth’s plush cheeks. He bites on the tip of Fourth’s red ear this time, eliciting another moan from the smaller guy that he cornered against the wall.

“Cock—Your cock, phi,” Fourth replied, whines suppressed at the back of his throat. He felt Gemini’s throbbing fat cock continue rubbing against him, so slow, he believes he’s going to die out of sexual frustration soon.

“My cock what, noo?” Gemini asked, speaking right into Fourth’s ear, the huskiness of his voice drawing goosebumps in Fourth’s ear canal.

“Inside—I want your cock inside me, phi,” Fourth answered, meekly giving in because he is just that desperate, he doesn’t care about anything but to have Gemini’s fat cock inside him anymore. At that answer he had definitely been wanting to hear from him, he can feel Gemini’s fat cock twitching against his rim, a sign that he must really love what’s hearing. Fourth moaned at the contact of his husband’s fat cock twitching in between his ass cheeks, nails clawing on the wall again.

“Your wish is my command,” he heard the older guy mutter in his ear again.

In a split second, Fourth’s lips parted open to let out a gasp, feeling something bulbous protruding past his tight rim. Gemini might have tried to stretch him up earlier, but the lack of lube really made it a little bit harder for his cock to slide through. But thanks to the water running above them, it managed to help somehow, even though not as smooth.

Fourth could feel his chest tighten, air drawing out of him at the feeling of his bottom splitting because of a thick cock trying to push its way through his rim. There was a slight burn, but the sensual pleasure riding his skin from his own desperation to have his husband’s fat cock stuffing him up, is enough to distract him from the pain. Ass twitching to take in more of Gemini’s length further inside him, his cock unconsciously rut against the walltile for more pleasure. His carnal desire is taking over all of his senses, all he can think right now is only seeking for more and more sweet sexual pleasure, doesn’t matter from where.

“Shit, you’re so fucking tight, noo,” Gemini groaned against his ear, made him moan at the dirty word of his husband. Gemini then slides in even deeper, and within seconds, he could feel Gemini’s fat cock being completely buried inside him now. The bulbous tip of his cock reached the deepest spot in him, stuffing him up so fucking full, he dumbly forgot how to breathe. Gemini’s cock feels so hot inside him, throbbing and twitching as it stays inside him for a moment to let him get used to the girth stretching his inside. Fourth is leaking with lots of precum, chest heavy with air being emptied out, head getting light as result.

Then he feels a hand on his stuffed stomach, fingers dancing around on his skin, tracing up the bulge on his belly. Gemini is feeling up the bulge of his own cock through the surface of Fourth’s lower abdomen.

“Fuck,”

“Your ass has really swallowed my cock, noo,” Gemini said into his ear, a low grunt in his voice, but due to how close he was, Fourth could hear that grunt clearly, and the physical rumble of Gemini’s chest pressed up against his back. Seeing that they had been staying like that static for a while, soon he felt Gemini moved inside him again. Pulling most of his cock out, leaving on the tip inside, he swiftly slammed back in, resulting in Fourth’s head to spin at the harsh pound against his prostate, moaning shamelessly aloud out of pleasure.

Then Gemini repeated that move, pulling his cock out, slamming back in, hard. His rhythm is constant, his pounds harsh with every slam inside Fourth’s ass, it turns the younger into a moaning mess. Eyes constantly rolling to the back with pleasure whenever his sweet spot is being mercilessly bumped and rubbed against. The harsh intrusions of Gemini’s fat cock inside Fourth made the younger’s body bounce wildly at his ferocious moves, rolling his hips fervent to continue fuck his husband senseless. Fourth is slowly losing his mind, nails finding their way to scratch on the tile again, loads of sexual stimulation sending him into overdrive. It also doesn’t help that Gemini is moaning right into his ear too, his breath warm, the huskiness of his deep moans caressing Fourth’s hearing so lewdly. It turns Fourth on so much, he feels like he can’t hold back anymore, he’s going to cum soon.

“Does my cock feel good inside you, noo?” Gemini asked, groaning as he slammed his hips against the younger’s behind, enjoying the sweet tightness of his husband wrapped around his cock. From the way Fourth keeps moaning, it’s obvious that he’s feeling really good from his cock moving inside him. But he wants to hear Fourth talking, he loves hearing his husband playing into his dirty talk.

He heard Fourth hum weakly in response, must be too stupefied to utter a coherent word. It made Gemini chuckle, finding the younger guy adorable, but he still wanted to hear Fourth’s voice aside from his pretty moans. So he stopped thrusting for a few seconds, immediately elicited a whine from his cute husband.

“I want to hear your answer, noo,” Gemini said, staying still with his cock still buried deep inside his husband. His hands dance along on the younger guy’s chest, playing with his nipples to tease him further.

“Do you love my cock inside you, noo?” Gemini asked, he heard Fourth whining again, ass desperately shaking to fuck himself on Gemini’s fat cock, but Gemini immediately held his hips, keeping him in place.

“Love—I love it,” Fourth replied, sniffling.

“Love what, noo?” Gemini teased, chuckling, thumbs doing circles on Fourth’s shaky hips.

“Fuck—Your cock! I love your cock inside me, phi,” Fourth said, exploding with frustration, reaching his limit at his husband who wouldn’t stop edging him with the teasing. He simply can’t take the teasing anymore, he only wants to be drowned with the sweet pleasure of his husband’s fat cock pounding inside him.

“I swear I’m going to cut off your dick,” Fourth cursed beneath his breath, which brought chuckle out of the man standing behind him, completely amused to see how angry his husband is because of his teasing.

Satisfied to hear what he wanted to hear from his cute husband. Gemini immediately moved to continue to please his husband again. In a matter of seconds, his husband that was just bubbling with anger, immediately turned into a moaning mess in no time. His bubbly ass shakes, bundles of soft fat jiggle as his ass bounced on Gemini’s strong hips, taking in the older’s powerful thrusts inside him. Sweet moans emptied out of his lips, head spinning and blackened every time his sweet spot was bumped harshly against.

“If you cut my dick off, I can’t fuck you this good anymore, noo,” Gemini said.

Staring down the back of his husband’s head, Gemini finds himself eyeing the white cloth choker that is still wrapped around the younger guy's slender neck. The contrasting color between the pristine white of the cloth choker and the pink hue of his flushed skin made the sight look so pretty in Gemini’s eyes, it gives him this strong urge to wrap his hand around that slender neck.

His hand soon finds Fourth’s throat, wrapping his fingers around the pretty neck, he pressed down on the wind pipe with the pressuring weight of his heavy fingers. As he did this, he continued to roll his hips relentlessly without break, thrusting sharply upwards to slam into the velvety tightness the hardest. He knows his husband really enjoys it, because the younger guy can’t stop spouting moans after another every time he does that sharp hip thrust on him. Fourth’s body is really honest.

When he notices that his husband is slowly losing himself, getting light-headed from the way his fingers are clawing clumsily against the wall, Gemini immediately releases the pressure on his husband’s windpipe, giving permission for fresh air to enter the younger’s lungs again. With that, at the rush of oxygen running in his bloodstream, refreshing his clouded mind, it gives Fourth this sweet rush of exhilaration crashing inside him.

The pleasure was too much for him. On top of his prostate already being pampered with so much love, and his throbbing cock rutting against the cold tile of the wall, now the sweet thrill of adrenaline pumping in his blood only filling him up with sensual exhilaration further. The next thing he knew he already cummed without warning. A high-pitched moan left his chest, practically screaming his voice out at the big wave of pleasure crashing him down from hitting his sweet orgasm, hips stuttering and jerking uncontrollably for a good second or two as he rode down the sweet sensation of his orgasm lingers his body, he continued to spurt white ropes against the marble wall.

“You’re getting tighter, noo,” he heard Gemini groaned in his ear, must be feeling the inner walls of his ass tightened around his cock at his orgasm sending his body disarray.

The lingering pleasure of hitting his climax made his knees extremely weak, he found himself almost collapsing onto the floor out of loss of strength in his legs. But Gemini was quick to catch him by the hips, and the next thing he realized, Gemini turned him around only to lift him up against the wall this time. A loud gasp left his parted lips, genuine surprise as he didn’t expect the older guy would lift him up like this, back slamming hard against the wall with his husband supporting his weight fully onto the wall.

Not only that left him stumped, it’s the way Gemini didn’t give him a break too, continued to roll his hips underneath him, thrusting his hips upwards as he keeps fucking him senseless, taking him from the front this time. In no time, Fourth turned into a moaning mess again, but out of overstimulation, nails clawing deep on Gemini’s shoulder blades, scratching on the smooth skin to tell the older guy to slow down. But of course his hungry wolf of a husband won’t listen, extremely determined to catch after his own release.

Fourth’s mind keeps blinking on him, head spinning as Gemini continues to hit that sweet bump inside him, sending waves of pleasure all over his body despite already reaching his orgasm just a few seconds ago.

Fourth is a crying mess, but he looks so adorable supported in Gemini’s arms—sexy body that was once snowy white is now flushed pink, his pretty face contorted with pleasure, brows furrowed as he accepts Gemini’s powerful thrusts inside him, melting in the older guy’s arms. His beautiful pair of legs tightened around Gemini’s slender waist, nails desperately scratching on his husband’s broad shoulders, drawing blood as he let out a series of pathetic moans and gasps, which sounded really cute and melodic to Gemini’s hearing. The pretty sight and beautiful noises only made Gemini even more work up, ended up fucking his husband even a lot harder, his pace extremely merciless.

“Hm—Phi—Ah,” Fourth gasped, constantly moaning, screaming, as nails continued to dig deeper into Gemini’s shoulder blades.

His husband’s burning lust for him had really managed to successfully turn into a complete mess, getting him feeling vertigo with every powerful thrusts hitting so deep inside him, bumping against his prostate relentlessly, he ended up cumming without warning again. 

Another high-pitched moan left his lips, followed by a whine as white ropes shot out of his flushed cock, painting his abdomen with white sputters which got washed soon with the water still running down on top of them. 

The sight of his husband reaching his climax before his eyes is so gorgeous, Gemini finds himself clenching his jaw to see the younger guy’s cute cock twitching with post-orgasm, looking so pretty with the pinkish tip dripping with thick cum. His pretty face was completely flushed red due to his orgasm pumping up his blood, eyes unfocused and hazy below his knitted brows, seeming as if his mind had just been stupefied, as if he just smoked a full blunt. Fourth’s swollen red lips parted open to take in heavy panting, soft whine resounding at the back of his throat out of exhaustion.

At the sight of his husband’s pretty lips parted open, Gemini couldn’t help but catch a quick glimpse of his silver tongue piercing peeking, glistening beautifully as it reflected the harsh light above. The beautiful sight made Gemini even fervent to reach his own climax, he picked up his pace even faster, harsher, as if he wasn’t fucking the younger guy rough and fast enough. With that, Fourth’s head threw back, hitting the wall as Gemini’s merciless thrusts rocked his entire body in his arms. Gemini is using him like a rag doll now, fingers digging on his hips as he pounded into him non-stop, so fast and harsh, the sounds of their skin slapping together overrides the loud sound of the water running above them, reverberating through-out the enclosed space of Gemini’s bathroom.

“Phi,” Fourth cried out, totally overstimulated out of his mind, he feels like he’s going to black out one of these moments.

Fortunately, after so long of being tortured with pleasure, it seems that Gemini is finally reaching his orgasm soon. It’s the way he’s losing his rhythm, hips slowing down from his previous crazy fast pace, feeling the immense hotness of his orgasm drawing in closer. As the heat grew in his lower stomach, getting more and more intense in his abdomen, he slammed his hips upward the hardest, locking himself in that position.

Fourth can see the way his husband’s eyes closed shut, his nose scrunched up tightly, a dent on his jaw forming from him gritting his teeth hard—which are clear signs that he’s going to reach his climax soon.

Hearing a loud harsh grunt erupting from his husband, the next second, he could feel an explosive hotness bursting inside him. His eyes widened, a pathetic moan drawing out his own lips, head spinning for a split second to feel his husband’s hot cum filling him up. So hot and wet, it made him shed tears at the warmth stuffing him up so deep inside him.

“Shit—You feel so fucking good, noo,” Gemini grunted, eyes opened again to look him in the eyes, visible hunger still showing in them as he rolled his hips to spurt out more hot cum deep inside his husband. 

Fourth is a screaming-crying mess, losing his mind. The sensation of Gemini’s hot seeds bubbling deep in his stomach, and the way Gemini kept rolling his fat cock inside his ass, made him feel so good, he ended up squirting this time. A loud cry left his lips, clear water sprayed out of his cock, wetting his abdomen. He feels his cheeks getting hot with tears rolled down, completely overstimulated.

Because of the water running above them, the sight could almost go unnoticed, but with Gemini’s watchful predatory eyes, he didn’t miss a second witnessing the lewd sight of his husband wetting himself out of pure pleasure. 

Fourth looks so ethereal right at this moment, face completely flushed red, looking so out of his mind, body getting pliant in his arms due to exhaustion, it made Gemini wish to have another round with his pretty husband. But noticing how close his husband might be to fainting, he decided to hold himself back for now, or else he might really pass out on him.

Gemini then kissed the tears on his husband’s pretty face, licking on the salty tears.

“I’m so sorry, noo,” Gemini apologized, kissing the moles on his husband’s face this time. He heard Fourth sniffled underneath his kisses, before he felt a weak punch on his shoulder.

“You’re insane,” Fourth uttered out, voice hoarse from all of the screaming and crying.

“If I can get pregnant, I would definitely long be knocked up by you,” Fourth said, sniffling as he glared at the older guy.

But rather than feeling scared at the dagger shooting out the younger’s eyes, Gemini finds himself chuckling at the sight, because he really finds Fourth closely resembles a tiny hedgehog in his arms right now. Body curled inward slightly due to his position in Gemini’s arm, still being lifted up against the wall. His white stomach exposed, and the way his fully drenched blond buzz-cut clumped into these tiny little sections, with the dark root peaking underneath, it really only made his hair look more like a hedgehog’s spiky quills now.

“But I would like that though,” Gemini replied. He catches the way the younger guy’s brows creased in visible confusion, looking at him as if he had just grown another head. Obviously a biological male can’t get pregnant, so it’s not like Fourth can get pregnant just because Gemini would like him to.

“Wouldn’t that be lovely? To have a mini us running around,” Gemini added, chuckling.

“What do you think of adopting?” Gemini asked, finally making it clear what he’s trying to say. With that, he saw the way Fourth’s eyes widened this time, and followed by that adorable habit of him turning into a bursting blinking mess whenever he’s feeling flustered.

“So when you said that during our ceremony then…” Fourth trailed, reminded of Gemini’s words to his mother that morning, telling her that they will bring them a new family member soon.

“Yes, I really mean it, noo,” Gemini replied, kissing Fourth on the cheek. The younger guy is still in a stumped mess, his eyes couldn’t stop blinking rapidly.

“Adoption, surrogacy, whichever you prefer.” Gemini let down one of his hands supporting Fourth’s bottom, holding him up with only one hand this time, he used another to caress the younger guy’s pink cheek with the back of his knuckles, admiring his husband’s deep brown eyes staring back at him.

Silence.

“Or you don’t want to have kids?” Gemini asked, a noticeable frown on his lips.

“I’m sorry, I should’ve asked that first—”

“No!” Fourth immediately cut him off, realizing that he had been too occupied with his own thoughts, he just realized he hadn't given the older guy a verbal reply.

“No… I’m okay.”

“I’m okay with kids. It’s just…” Fourth trailed on his words, seeming hesitant to say his thoughts aloud, afraid that it would hurt the older guy’s feelings. Gemini’s eyes are staring him up, clear anticipation in his eyes, waiting for him to continue his words further.

Fourth breathed in.

“I guess I’m a little taken aback that you’re actually thinking about this so early,” Fourth said, finally finishing his words.

Even if he was kind of hesitant, he decides to be honest since he knows how important it is to be clear about his stance regarding this matter. Technically it involves the harmony of their relationship as a pair of husbands, by adding a responsibility in between them, it will make it harder for him to get used to this marriage he had just gotten himself involved in. As much as he finds the idea of having a kid together lovely as well, he still feels that it’s honestly too early for that. He needs some time to get used to this new stage of life as a married man first before all.

“I do like the idea of having a child with you. But I guess I still need some time to get used to this marriage first.”

“Excluding our childhood past together from ten years ago, I have to be honest that I still find it surreal that I’m now married to a man that I only know for less than four months.”

“So while I’m still adapting myself to this new shared life of ours, can you give me time to prepare myself for this matter?” Fourth asked.

He braced himself to see dejection in his husband’s eyes, expecting that his request would make him sad. But instead, he’s met with Gemini’s honey-brown eyes glistening with fondness, smiling at him sweetly.

“Of course, noo,” the older guy responded, voice extremely gentle and warm.

Then the older guy leaned his face close, and kissed him softly on the lips, to which Fourth closed his eyes at the delicate touch of their lips brushing, kissing gently simply out of their love for one another. It lasted short, Gemini pulled out to kiss the corner of his eye next.

“Whenever you’re ready,” Gemini said, smiling fondly as he caressed the corner of Fourth’s eye. Fourth returned that smile, leaning in to steal a short peck on his husband’s plump lips once more. His heart swells with adoration he has for his husband. He still can’t believe how lucky he is to have this guy as his husband.

Again, excluding their past together, it may sound unbelievable that he had just gotten married to a guy he met less than four months ago. But this quality of Gemini, is definitely what made him agree to marry him despite only knowing each other for less than a month. Gemini is always so understanding, always trying to make him feel comforted, always making sure he feels at ease with him, it makes him want to shower the older guy with his love in return out of his indebted gratitude for him. He wishes he can offer the same understanding with Gemini someday. 

For now, he will try his best to be very vocal about his feelings and affections for him so that Gemini knows how hammered in love Fourth is with him. He really doesn’t think he can imagine a life without Gemini now.

He still feels guilty about what happened in the past; everything he had done to the older guy, be it back in their childhood, or even ten years later, Fourth still ended up wronging him. But without that shameful past, he also acknowledges that the present they share right now might never exist. So he’s grateful. At least, everything is already a matter of the past now. Starting this moment onwards, he will only focus on his present, and future. And that is, loving his husband—Gemini Norawit.

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THE END.