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It should've closed his eyes since an hour ago, their mornings always start early, even earlier than the first morning dew. It knows it so well better than anyone. They know it as well as they realize their world walks slowly, as slow as they need to drag their body to do anything human.
"My mind is in ruin, i wasn't supposed to exist, this body wasn't even mine", the sound in their head keep whispering to itself, waking It wide awake. They look at their phone now. A little music won't hurt, it thought. Their frail hands swiping up and down, all those music they used to listen to thorough the day surely won't help them to fall to slumber.
"You're tired, you should go to sleep" a whisper run to fill it's head. A glimpse of thing they never even feel start to fill It's narrow heart. Feeling the urge to comeback to a place you've never been was a thing, God knows It won't even bother to try to remember it. But they clearly saw a vision of it. Their soft index fingers starts to quickly make a new playlist on that music streaming application.
𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘪𝘳𝘦𝘥, 𝘨𝘰 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘭𝘦𝘦𝘱 - 𝘌𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘘𝘶𝘪𝘦𝘵
A faint soft music starts playing, It was never good at describing something, some voice, some place or even someone. They took a glance on it's music cover, foggy blue window showed on the screen. They might be unreliable to explain stuff, but they can feel it, It just know they wanna be there right now. A blink then that similar window as on their phone appeared, only in lighter color. Cornflower blue, i suppose. That thin dusty wall is gone and replaced with a stuff that only It can see through their phone.
Curiosity got the best out of them. It opens the foggy, blurry window softly. They couldn't held their smile any longer, an ear to ear smile drawn all over their face. A meadow under the dim night fogy sky stretched out of the place that seems like belong to nowhere. A glimpse of nostalgia filled their head, a promise that long forgotten along with a relationship that ended for no reason months ago i suppose. Well, it's not like It can pull them to this place as well though. A meadow, foggy meadow, slightly eerie sky. All their worries washed out, it's all tomorrow's problem to think isn't it?
Should It jump? Well, i don't think i need to ask you though. That soft, small but scarred feet is ready to cross the sill now.
But then it's a black out, turns out uneasy mind cannot be forgotten that easily.